#the way this scene made me SOB

[wehadabondingmoment]

Ok so I finished beau by @buggachat and Adrinette dancing made me think about how at home they must have felt, dancing in their partner's arms asdjkds

#the hero parts of the outfit have no lineart because they're not actually heroes #but this scene killed me #the way they looked at each other #aaaaa #so the hero outfit thingy us more in their imagination #because that last part just once again made me think about how they finally finally found their home #“happy heroes day” sobbing #the symbolism #it's heroes day and they've found each other and god #ladynoir #beau #bakery enemies au #buggachat fanart #because you deserve it #miraculous #love square #adrinette #ladybug #chat noir

[mayxo-hxh]

Im about to get controversial.

Out of chrollo, illumi and hisoka, hisoka is canonically the least likely to flirt to get anything he wants, if at all.

A lot of people think he's a natural flirt but I fear I couldn't have disagreed more. He only "flirted" a single time and that was solely to piss off machi, knowing she'd never agree. Hot take? He would've never asked if he knew she'd agree.

Also, bro's the biggest humanphobe in the anime. He keeps his distance from everyone. The only human physical contact he ever made was through fighting people. (If you're a person thats interested in seeing more evidence, I have an entire long thread about it on twitter that I do plan on posting here soon)

so u cannot give me 1 reason for hisoka to flirt with someone at a random bar but chrollo and illumi? i can think of a few.

chrollo, he already canonically flirts to get what he wants. straight up goes on dates gets a suit and shit. he has no reputation among the general public that hes concerned of that isnt the spider. Illumi? He's a manipulator. I HIGHLY doubt he never flirted to get something in his life from people who are too easy to win over. He's someone that wouldn't care what people think of him. He's also anonymous. People have no idea who tf he is anyways. If it affected the zoldyck reputation? Thats a different story.

Hisoka? he would fucking NEVER. Him specifically? HE HAS A REPUTATION. And whats that reputation? That hes an absolute disgusting freak that no one should dare to approach. He kills people. He fights live and makes sure the audience is always disgusted and weirded out by his actions and performances. You look at him and you should immediately look away and pray he hasn't seen you.

So riddle me this. If his entire shtick is making sure everyones afraid of him and avoids him, then why the hell would he get himself a reputation that makes him approachable????

Why would he get himself a reputation that makes you, as a person who only ever heard of him picking people up, want to approach him.

On top of that, I just.. don't see him picking random people up..??? random weaklings that dont even know nen????? he literally treats them like trash that inconveniences his time. You're saying he'd EVER give them the privilege of sleeping with him???

And then you'd say, oh so he'd sleep with strong people! HERES THE THING. Why would he sleep with them..... when he can fight them. Him getting off from fighting comes NOWHERE to actual sex. What people don't understand is that he gets off to killing people and seeing them crumble in front of him when they realize theyre going to die. Torturing people to death. What's... that got to do with like. yknow. actual sex bro 😭😭😭😭😭😭

this turned into a huge rant probably but do you know how genuinely depressing it is seeing a unique character like hisoka that gains lust through FIGHTING and KILLING reduced to. sex addict in fics. Like. be so fucking serious right now. He called himself a FIGHT ADDICT in the manga. Can I see more of him actually spending his time killing and fighting people instead of whatever the hell bros doing with a random npc.

Anyways this is also why I hc him as asexual/demisexual NEXTTTT

#When a fic is so good but they make a hisoka a sex god instead of a murderer. like dear god. Ya Allah. Mercy on me. #can i please get more fics where he absolutely fucking murders people in deranged ways like god (Togashi) intended instead of.... #(checks notes) .....sex??? #sorry to me this is 1 fanon characterization that i just gag from i cannot physically stomach that shit anymore. #also the way he never touched a single human and is not a touchy person yet the musical made disgustingly touchy with everyone including go #i saw red when i saw that one scene. #thats not fucking hisoka morow thats hekosa pedoro #if togashi wanted him to sleep around he would've so simply and easily made him mention that. Like even leorio said he jacks off. #yet togashi didnt. because HE DOESNT. #HISOKA GET BEHIND ME #anyways asexual hisoka morow canon goodnight everyone #also trans hisoka can we get a little more content of that i know its completely unrelated but pls im starving #i would put the “ill do it myself meme” WHICH I DO I HAVE A DEMI HISOILLU FIC but im so slow at writing fics sobs and throws up #hisoillu #hisoka x illumi #illumi #illumi zoldyck #hisoka #hisoka morow #chrollo #chrollo lucilfer #hxh #hunter x hunter #my post #my analysis

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm very excited for more content of your lights out au, I'm so eager to see just how good you can get at writing/creating angst!

oh babey. thats where i Shine.

#i have gotten many a fic comment where people curse me out and/or say that they cried #sometimes i get someone saying i made them sob #its a compliment every time and i strive for it! #i dont fuck around with my fics i Do Not Hold Back and that is a Warning #this is the only aspect of my creations that im confident in #and hopefully soon you'll all See! you will see. #just a little taste its nothing too intense really. #id label it more hurt/comfort than straight up angst #but yeah if people arent crying im doing it wrong #i rarely do it wrong. #JESTING JESTING im not That good. now im just exaggerating for a Humorous Touch #rambles from the bog #i might. miiiiiight. might might might maybe mayhaps might #write a certain scene from lights out that everyone already knows will happen #so... might as well dust off my hurt / no comfort skills #could be fun. i want to hurt people again #in a good safe 'you Chose to read this' way #theres a certain feeling that comes with being someone who enjoys writing angst #the happiness i get from people telling me my writing hurt them. Yes <3 #so so validating. so fulfilling. #just read through some old fic comments on my better works and mmmmm talk about an ego boost....

[roitaminnah]

hey have u guys read the fic bandit queens of the mont satiné shopping mall. (shaking through tears) i think u should. join me in my insanity <3

#butterfly soup #ppkm #pretend this is framed and colored really well it did not turn out exactly as i envisioned. also technically #i wanted to start the line earlier but . i didn't leave enough room on the paper! oops! so #you'll just have to read the fic! to find out what it was <3 #I've read it so many times because uh. it makes me so insane (positive). this scene and . so many others #written in such a way that highlights what i love about the ppkm dynamic so much. i'm illiterate i can't describe it perfect but #I'd. i wanted to do more of the scene where they were actually on the carousel but i thought about drawing horse and was like. nope. #but it is so good. the. ouhhhhhhhh. ohhhhhhhhhhhh. #funny story i am terrible at reading (adhd) and when i get excited I skip lines on accident #and the first time around I missed the line where they get off the carousel so I imagined them having this intense conversation while #still on the carousel spinning around. made myself so dizzy. sob emoji #anyways this??? the confession???? illegal activity??!! queer activity????!!! gamestop?????!!!???? *explodes* #i duno what else to say I'm exploding . maybe i'll draw more who knows who knows . peepeeketchup man . chomping at the bars of my enclosure #wow not purple! (they drew the whole thing in purple originally and then decided it was not *the vibe* so he added 400 multiply layers) #roi draws

[dreamingalto]

If I had a nickel for every time I sobbed at a scene set in a ferris wheel that includes a character voiced by Hina Kino I would have two nickels...

WHICH ISNT ALOT BUT IT HURTS THAT ITS HAPPENED TWICE!!!

#buddy daddies #buddy daddies spoilers #project sekai #by the way go watch Buddy Daddies and be emotionally wrecked with me #also these scenes are like opposite directions of each other but they STILL BOTH MADE ME SOB #memes to cope

[katierosefun]

the line about logan roy not being able to fit a whole woman in his head being said from his own daughter is so. something about daughters and their fathers something about daughters who are their father’s child something about daughters who are daddy’s little favorite daddy’s little girl but the second they start having opinions and the second they start talking back, the father holds their daughter out with open hostility and suspicion, something about how only years later will the father occasionally go, do you remember? do you remember when we used to have good days, when you used to come to me with all your wonders and your worries, do you remember when we were stuck together like glue, what happened to that and the daughter just has to give her father a rueful smile as though she hasn’t been wondering why her father built up that wall in the first place as though she hadn’t been wondering since when did her father only ever said good morning to her brothers as though she hadn’t been wondering since when did her father only ever ask her brothers to accompany him to work and something about shiv roy saying my father couldn’t fit a whole woman in his head and something about shiv roy still crying the most when she learned that her father was dead something about how shiv roy called her father the world and yet something about how shiv roy still asks her father’s closest male confidants if he was really that bad, was my father still an okay guy when they all know the truth, they all know he wasn’t a good person, but shiv roy still remembers playing outside her father’s office just to get him to come out and shiv roy still remembers her father telling her to remember, slant of light and ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh fathers and their daughters daughters and their fathers or whatever

#caroline watches tv #succession #can't believe this show is ending next week. maybe i'll be free #truly i think whatever tf is going on between shiv and logan's relationship #is the only other father-child relationship in tv that has made me want to eat cement in the same way #that joo won and han ki hwan's relationship in beyond evil makes me want to eat cement #except at least with shiv and logan. you SAW the tenderness between them sometimes #logan has a nickname for shiv. logan is the one to tell shiv to come into the company #logan is the one to tell shiv 'my daughter. my only daughter' in a way that makes me cry #logan is the one to tell shiv she is marrying a man beneath her in one breath but then he holds her hand #and says 'he's a good man.' #logan is the one to show up at shiv's wedding but he doesn't care to show up to connor's #something about mothers who tell their daughters 'you may hate your dad but you are going to cry the hardest when he dies' #something about shiv's mother being so annoyed with shiv at all hours #something about mothers who hate their daughters because they know that their daughters are 'stealing' their husbands away #which is such. a sickening sickening concept but the fact that this is genuinely how some women feel #anyways. ughughghghghh whatever. whatever. #something about how shiv is the one who i think has been hurt the most from her father #(i still haven't forgotten about that one scene in season one. that still haunts me jfc) #but at the same time. she's the one who's sobbing on the floor #and she's the one who literally schedules her grief #she's the one who just keeps going 'my dad is DEAD he is DEAD' #just like. every time i see shiv roy contemplating her father's death i hear kill bill alarm sirens in my head #just. FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFFFFFFFFF!!!

[alienaiver]

Shinsou is nervous. There's no denying it. You've had three great dates, a lot of banter before that and he's still quietly shaking from kissing you on your doorstep a few nights earlier. But now you've turned radio silent. No texts. No calls. No pictures or silly captions posted on any site you use.

Did you ghost him? Would you do that? You're part of a bigger friend group, you've been friends before you decided to take a step further, but what else could this be?

He caves three miserable days later and calls Tsuyu, because he knows she won't make fun of him but will tell him to his face if she thinks he's a creep.

"Nohr is sick," Tsuyu says quietly. "I've been at her place every day to make sure she's eating and drinking and to feed her cat."

"What can I do?" He asks, trying to swallow the lump in his throat. He's been wallowing in self-doubt while you're suffering! That's not Boyfriend material! That's not even friend material!

"You can cook, right?" Tsuyu asks and explains what he already knows. The foods you prefer when the pain hits. Where you hide your spare key. What to look out for when caring for your cat.

By the time he arrives at your apartment, he feels like he's back in high school, his biggest exam right in front of him. If he fails today, he can kiss this relationship goodbye, right? He'd always tried to be caring and understanding when you were friends, but now that he wants to be more to you, he has to show that he can be more to you.

You're asleep when he comes in and when he leaves. He's not sure if you even understood that it was him moving around you instead of Tsuyu, but the weight of your body, as he held you upright while you ate, has told him something, a secret he had already known but forgotten:

It's not the big things that make a relationship, it's all the little things instead. It doesn't mean he stops planning date number four, but it means he's more than ready to be back at your apartment tomorrow, to clean out your cat's litter box and shake up your pillows.

He loves you. What else would he do?

dira i am CRYING SMILING SOBBING WIMPERING THIS CHEERED ME UP IMMENSELY THE SECOND (THE! SECOND!) I RECEIVED IT AND WAS ABLE TO READ IT OH MY HOSHHHH........... i am OUT of words and just 😭🧡 MY HEART IS SQUEEZING ILYSM... GO GHE ENDS OF GHE EARTH....!!!!!

#not shinsou worrying abt being boyfriend material oh my goH he is sO ADORABLE #i hve a similar ish scene planned for amethyst haze and i just! we are CONNECTED i love the way u think and write it brings me suCH JOY! #fuck generally ur shinsou is like peak canon shinsou in my mind you GET him! and you get me which makes me wanna CRY AND SOB 🥺🥹🥹🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 #COMFORT TAG #!!!! TO THE ENDS OF EARTH FR FR FR i wish i had more words i swear ive been thinking abt this NON STOP #made my friend whos babysitting (lmao) read it too bcos i was so excited !!!! #keepsakes 🗃️ #nohr.talks #nohr.rec #!!!! 😭🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 #happy tag

[kyouka-supremacy]

Thoughts on odazai? I wondered if your reasons for disliking dazai apply to this ship since it doesn't seem to function the same way other popular dazai ships do

Mmmmhh okay first off, I'm afraid my dislike for Dazai transcends all ships (╥﹏╥)

But I do think odazai is very enjoyable for its own uniqueness!! Oda is the only person Dazai respects, literally, and that's bound to make their relationship distinctive and unique. I feel like respect should come with every healthy relationship, so you see the appeal here? Odazai is the only ship that shows a side of Dazai that finally feels authentic– it shows a side of Dazai that is willing to care. For the rest of the franchise Dazai's character is pretty much up to interpretation, there's the mystery element of never being able to tell what's going through his mind, but Oda's existence alone is enough to show us a true face of Dazai for once– which is nice, because Oda showed us a side of Dazai that is capable of love. Which wasn't exactly predictable given Dazai's nihilism, cruelty and apparent disregard of human life; and yet even him is capable of love. And he truly is! Even if you don't like them romantically, Dazai's love (platonic, if you prefer) for Oda is undeniably there, and it's nice, it's miraculous to get to witness it. In a way, Anon, maybe you're right! I don't like Dazai, and still odazai has the power of making Dazai feel sympathetic: because it shows you a man who cares about another person, and who would do anything for them; and then that person is taken away from him. You just can't not feel sympathy for that, it's inherently human to relate to and be touched by another man's suffering, and a thousand times more so when such suffering is moved by love. Odazai is the only ship that makes me want to ship it because I think it would make Dazai happy, and makes me feel happy for him.

Odazai is a sweet, tragic, comforting ship. People have definitely put it more eloquently and in detail than me, but it's just the completely lack of judgement on both sides which is SUCH an appealing aspect. They can be their true authentic selves with each other, and it must have been so staggering and exhilarating and overwhelming for Dazai specifically who probably didn't even know who he himself was– how much human he could be. There's the mutual respect, the genuine admiration. There's the feeling of being accepted and understood like they aren't by anyone else– they both share this morally grey view of the world, and they are the only ones who aren't judgemental of the other's lack of morals; they get each other. In a world that results meaningless to them, they can be each other's reason to live. Then there's the making each other better?? Seriously, what other ship makes Dazai even slightly better. Oda canonically changed Dazai's whole existence prompting him to do good for the rest of his life with six words. And again, the fact alone that Oda is the only person to ever make Dazai capable of love– that's as good as it can get! Dazai is the best he can be as soon as he allows himself to be vulnerable and emotional and soft and honest, and Oda prompted him to do exactly that. And I know that's very arguable, but we literally do not know if Dazai ever truly loved anyone after joining the good guys, or if he's just doing good things because Oda asked him to instead of having an innate will to do good for a genuine love of human beings– maybe he's really doing all of that solely because he loved a man and he will never love anyone else; we really have no way to know, and it's up to interpretation. My take, while we're at it (because I'm drunk on tiredness and I can't stop talking), is that Dazai, even if coming from a place of having no fondness for humans and exclusively doing good because he was asked to rather than for a true conviction, got so accustomed to doing good, he actually... Became good (Aristotle and moral virtue being something you can get better at by practicing it). In that case, Oda would be someone who literally taught Dazai to love, and that's beautiful in its own way.

I didn't get much into Oda's side of the relationship; I feel like I don't know Oda a lot, I only watched the Dark Era episodes of the anime once ten months ago and even Beast doesn't feel like giving away much of his personality. But I do like to think he would love Dazai; if else, I feel like Dazai too is a special person to Oda like no one else is.

Also like, there's the fact that they're quite literally canon. Like I don't know what to tell you it's literally there. Not that many men out there Osamu Dazai would literally abandon everything he's ever known, completely turn his life upside down, start doing good without even believing in good, for. Characters who aren't canonically gay but who's actions don't make any sense until you interpret them as gay and stuff. It barely even count as queerbating tbh like it's just right there.

#Writing this was illuminating. Still don't like Dazai tho 😔 #osamu dazai #I feel... Some of this *may* apply to Daz/atsu too but I have mixed feelings about it #sakunosuke oda #odazai #If they use the same criteria to write the name on Dazai's tomb they did for Oda it's literally going to say “o.dazai” #bsd #bungou stray dogs #mine #people asks me stuff #Thank you for this ask! As you can see I love giving my opinion on matters lmao #Besides yesterday I finally got around to finish watching the Beast movie and man I was not prepared for– #Dazai's voice cracking at the bar Lupin scene that scene was so good #Tbh for most of the time in the bsd fandom I thought fyo/dazai was my favorite Dazai ship but tbh... #I think I might have been mistaken to assume that #I mean I never thought about fyo/dazai as intensely as I do for odazai #And granted I don't think about Dazai a lot either way but still /////// #I MAY have rewatched some odazai bits from s2 ep4 and I MAY have gotten a little bit too emotional over these two #I mean. Dazai's desperation seriously??? Why is he suddenly so human??? I can't make this post any longer but I'm sobbing #I'm thinking about that time - I made a post about it that's going to be published at some point but whatever - #that time I was showing Oda's death scene to my cousin for whatever reason #And Dazai entered and he throws his coat away #And my cousin goes “what was that why did he throw his coat away” #And I answered without beating an eye “because that coat represents his position at the pm and everything he's ever known #and he's willing to throw all of that away and leave everything behind without even thinking about it if it's for Odasaku” #I'm not sure where that came from so promptly but I still think about it a lot #The fact that Odasaku spent the last moments of his life advising his friend on how to live because he cared about him– #and his last wish was literally for him to be happy and live a peaceful life. Okay that was not very heterosexual of you #Bones didn't have Dazai cry in that scene because they're cowards

[jemmo]

i don’t know how else to describe eternal yesterday, and the profound affect watching it has had on me, other than it’s the most quietly heart-breaking show I’ve possibly ever seen. It presents its subject matter so simply and plainly in a way that makes it feel huge, overwhelmingly huge, painfully huge. It’s premise is not for supernatural drama, it isn’t played up, not laughed at or exaggerated or used to give things more unnecessary emotional weight, it simply gives physicality to the real experience of letting someone go, to having to let someone go, to having to let go, and the indescribable pain of it that you can’t truly know until you’ve experienced it. It’s a glimpse into this short period of time, less than a week, that is so private to them, and is so concentrated with emotion, that truly does feel like time stopped, holding on, the fear of the moment passing, so instead the pain of it is just dragged out. You think of course they should do this, fight for every last second they can have together, but then you come to realise this life after death, this impossible extension, its a curse just as much as it is a miracle. We always wish we could know when we are going to lose someone so we can take that chance to say goodbye, but is that easier or harder? how do we wrestle with the pain of holding on but the pain of letting go? its a situation we cannot win, its simply a situation that has to happen, and we have to let time tick on. 

there’s so many moments i want to bring attention to in this series but i’ll hold back and just talk on the 4 that feel the most special to me. first, a personal one, because in so many ways oumi reminds me of myself, and never has that been more true than the line “honestly, i feel comfortable when i’m alone. and i hate myself for being comfortable”. i cant think of another character that has embodied this anxiety i have in myself so much, and so simply, this ridiculous contradiction of being so at peace in your own company and despising that peace sometimes, wishing it wasn’t so peaceful, so maybe you wouldn’t be alone, maybe you’d do something, go out there, find people and things to do, and yet all that time maybe you’d be thinking “i’d like it so much better now if i was at home by myself”. its kind of ridiculous, and maybe people like us do need a koichi to be the company in our lonely peace, but yeah... i just have never felt so seen by a show before.

secondly, that final conversation oumi has with his father, because this whole time the situation feels so insular. even though other people know, and other people love koichi, and koichi loves other people, this is about oumi and koichi, and no one can truly understand the immensity of what those two are feeling in that moment. its like i said, you cant understand it unless you’re in it, unless you’ve experienced it. and yet, at the end, this minorly present, distant father comes in and says “what you’re going through, i went through that too”. and its the kind of conversation that doesn’t happen because they’ve both experienced this supernatural phenomenon of a love one existing after death, it happens because they’ve both lost people they’ve loved, and that something thats universal, and the people watching don’t need to have experienced anything supernatural to empathise with that. its when the audience truly realise that this story might be insular to them, but the story has also been told infinite times by countless people, and such the emotion of it is both theirs and everyones.

third, i think my heart actually crumbled to pieces when koichi said someone could have 2 number 1s. its his phrase, he loves mitchan the most, mitchan is his number 1. and its only given more weight when oumi says it back, and even more so when we hear his ending lines, about always wanting to be number 1 to someone, and that someone being his number 1 too, and how much of a miracle that is. for that same person, knowing he has to leave that person he loves the most, to say you can have 2 number 1s, saying to oumi its ok, you can move on, in the future you can have people that are precious to you, thats so fucking beautiful, and is an act of such love i cant even put it into words. you can feel so guilty sometimes for moving on from a loved one, for even feeling like you’re replacing them, so that gesture, that permission, that almost request, to not lose happiness and love because you’re losing them, to let yourself be happy again, because thats the biggest gift you could give to those you lose, thats just beautiful. 

and finally, the moments in episode 6 where koichi is starting to disappear, and when people start to walk into rooms and not see him, i don’t think i’ve ever seen such a good metaphor for what its like to have a same-sex partner and for them to never truly be seen as your partner. because when that nurse walked in and was just talking to oumi, like koichi wasn’t there and yet he was, and oumi got so mad because thats the most important person in his life how dare you not see him, how dare you ignore him. i think it was him saying ignore that connected it for me, because thats what its like when you walk in with a same sex partner and you’re not recognised or seen as a couple. I thought to myself if this nurse walked in and oumi was sat with a girl, how he’d instantly be asked if its his girlfriend, but no he’s sat with a boy so you dont even bother asking, either because you dont think to or dont want to. we get flashes of it throughout the show with people not knowing about their relationship or the relationship between the teachers, how the gay is hidden. and with koichi gone but not gone, he’s like a ghost in oumi’s world, and i feel like that’s what it can feel like sometimes, walking around with someone you feel like no one else can see when theyre all you can see. theyre there but no one draws attention to them, no one wants to acknowledge them or it, the relationship, the ghost in the room, to the point you want to scream they do exist, how dare you think they dont. and when oumi gets angry on koichi’s behalf, thats what happens, thats what it can sometimes feel like experiencing homophobia. its horrid and angering and you want to scream because how dare they do that to the most important person in the world but theyre at peace with it. koichi has accepted his fate much like someone learns to accept hate and harrasment, they become at peace with it. and you can get angry all you like but that doesn’t change anything, that doesnt stop it from happening, thats what it feels like. you get that when you lose someone, you get angry when other people have moved on when you cant, you wont, you dont want to, you think why dont people care anymore, how can they be so unfair and unkind and unfeeling, which is why its shocking that themes of loss can mirror these queer experiences, where a partner can feel invisible to everyone even when their heart is beating. thats why i think this blending of actual loss and actual invisibility with queerness being hidden and unseen is just heart-breaking genius.

this show is heavy, and has honestly brought out in me one of the most condensed visceral reactions to media ive ever had. i feel sad, i feel drained, i feel broken. ive cried so much, and my sadness is physical, my heart hurts, it feels heavy. and yet... i do feel at peace. i feel at peace with this sadness because its something you have to learn to do in life. these experiences are inevitable and ive always tried to avoid these heavier shows, things i know will hurt and make me sad and feel things, where there isn’t a core of happiness, a good ending to keep you together. but sometimes it has to be embraced to see the beauty in it, because as koichi said, despite what happens, despite the tragedy and sadness and loss, at the core of the story if two people meeting and falling in love, and how that simple, human connection, that we all have, is a miracle, so treasure it. 

#jemmo sad hours #im literally writing this through tears #i just needed to rant otherwise the sadness would eat me up and id become a ball of depression for a week #this show is just stunning #and such incredible performances by the leads #that scene in the last ep of them holding each other and koichi sobbing #honestly ive never seen anything so intimate and touching and heartbreaking that was just phenomenal #im so grateful for this show and its message and the love and care everyone involved put into it #these plots can so often be overdone or cliche or sad just for sadness sake #but this felt simple and pure and raw in a way that trusted the story and characters and performers to covey the emotional weight with #understated sincerity and i adore that #nothing extra nothing unnecessary just how it feels to be in love and lose that person #they know they dont have to overplay that #they know if its acted and put together and produced well that it will say everything it needs to #im in love #and ill never rewatch this show again bc i cant take the heartbreak but ill treasure it forever #eternal yesterday #made by jemmo

[summerof336bc]

GOT TO SEE THE CHOSEN IN THE THEATER. IM OFFICIALLY INSANE

[id: a post banner that reads "i'm not christian (just mentally ill)". the background is Leonardo Di Vinci's "The Last Supper". end id]

#entries #IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD. im sooo excited for the full release of s3 #i cried probably a grand total of 6 times. it was AMAZING!! #i loved the sermon on the mount montage..... #uhm. i really like judas!! hes funny #THE CONVO MATTHEW HAD WITH HIS PARENTS . SOBS. #when he talks about how hes always felt different. yeah....... #also andrews apology to mary made me cry.... #simon-peter & eden are so cute (CANNOT WAIT UNTIL SIMONS NAME CHANGE) #zee & matthews partnership will be! interesting im very excited for when they split up #THOMAS & RAMAH. ARE EVERYTHING TO ME. THEYRE ADORABLE OH MY GD!!! #what else....oh! gaius & atticus. rotating them in my mind. #atticus is...interesting. the way he lied to quintus! & hes being nice! whats up with that! #gaius' convo with matthew was so....let them hug already please #OH. little james & jesus' convo about him getting healed. i SOBBED. that was. #so deeply personal to me & i really REALLY liked that scene. it was. ough #lastly it was a bit fruity. why were judas & phillip on top of each other hmm nathaniel?? #john why did you say YOU'D marry thomas hmmmm???? #anyways. the chosen good. #chosen posting

[taraxacum-vulpes]

Since you're starting orv I want you to know that absolutely no one in the story is okay everyone is mentally ill in some way. Godspeed my liege 👍

i think being forced to kill people and value your life above others kinda does that to you gnna be real with you chief.

#if i were in orv i would've died in the first scenario #0 survival instincts if survival is at the cost of others EVEN IF bugs were involved #i sigh wistfully #i do feel sad that gilyoung is already so comfortable with the prospect of killing people and on one hand i don't want him to be exposed to #that but on the other hand he's. proving himself capable and there's nothing i can really do about that fact #...partially also because i have no influence on the story. #however i do appreciate the writing and characterisation and the way that they frame everything in perspective #and still have moments where they feel human despite being a little (lot) fucked up #i sigh. heart emoting death games in media #pieces of media that remind me of that one post referencing how the setting and characterisation made three girls running down the street #such an emotionally charged scene #i shake you #i begin sobbing #orv livebloggery

[dengswei]

you know what i love about the deanpharm scenes in between us? they’re from dean’s point of view

#lex waffles #rewatching UWMA has made it more obvious #like the swimming scene was dean seeing pharm rather than the other way around #the same with the shop scene 😭 #AND THE ADDITIONAL SCENE WHERE WE SEE DEAN'S REACTION TO TEAM BEING ON THE PHONE TO PHARM #SCREAMING CRYING SOBBING #THEY'RE EVERYTHING TO ME #drama ramblings #idk how much more of dp we're gonna get but i'm gonna enjoy every second of it #it just gives us such a wonderful new perspective of scenes i adored in uwma

[lyctorism]

Allison (+ the other Umbrellas) caring for Viktor after incapacitating him as the White Violin in 1x10

#tua #the umbrella academy #umbrella academy #tuaedit #allison hargreeves #viktor hargreeves #also known as part 1 of scenes that made me sob #the way they all still RUN to him and collapse next to him on the ground even after he almost killed them!!! #the way klaus literally FALLS onto the ground on his hands... baby #i'm screaming crying throwing up #they're so fucking close no one touch me #the way allison strokes his hands sends me off the edge!!! #she always loved him so much which kills me so much more after s2 and s3 #she's so fucking gentle......... that's (familial) love bitch!!! #where's emmy's emmy!! #everyone's acting choices have ALWAYS been so chef's kiss since the beginning #percyedits #percy talks

[hayaku14]

Shinichi learning how to dance cause Kaito loves dancing and he's tired of watching Kaito glance over him from time to time from the dance floor like he wants Shinichi there with him (he does).

#shit i wanna be there with him #kudou shinichi #kuroba kaito #detective conan #dcmk #dc #i was watching footloose LOL & that scene where willard was reluctantly learning how to dance and ends up being amazing at it & enjoying it #made me think about shinichi (who doesnt feel strongly about dancing one way or the other) asking kaito to teach him to dance #like yeah shinichi can do basic ballroom dance steps and he and kaito slow dances a LOT #(any excuse to be within each others' vicinity is welcome okay) #BUT he sees kaito glancing his way when he's shaking his hips and having fun on the dance floor and shinichi's like #i dont want to stop trying to catch him #i wanna be where he is. #;-; #like it's not even about changing how he does things or who he is or whatever #he just feels like he wants to be part of what makes kaito happy #even if he does end up sucking at it #OKAY BRB SOBBING #dc prattles #all i think of are cheesy mushy kaishin stuff and idc i LOVE IT

[jasonntodd]

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#i’ve been thinking #which #yes ik very rare for me #LFMAKMCKE #but i’m thinking of just making a post about the list of wips w date stamps and whatnot for the off chance i come back to the modding scene #because there are great mods being released while i’m on my hiatus but there may be a chance that my wips clash w these releases #not sure but the potential is always there! #and if/when i return i’d like to release these wips and i don’t want to be accused to stealing and theft ever fucking again #because it made me so fucking depressed and also enraged me #to the point that i nearly considered quitting and deleted ALL my mods #i was so sad and everything too it made me sob and cry 😭😭 j was in a MOOD yall #so that way i can refer and/or turn to the post about the wips and the dates i started in each wips as proof #but food for thought #i’m really considering it #i really do think it’s a good idea that way jt can be shown as proof and hopefully alleviate the stress of modding #for both me and whoever my mods may clash w #bc i have some great ideas that i had been working on! and it made me sad to stop them 🥺🥺 #personal

[pendragonsgallery]

I need like…two days of sleep after that episode…holy shit

#the last of us #episode 8 #Bella Ramsey was fantastic #but like #I can still hear her screams #my heart was going like 2000bpm #bella ramsey #pedro pascal #any scene with David made me feel physically ill #the sob that came out when Joel called her babygirl #my mental state was already shit so let’s see if this makes it better or worse 😀👍 #“tell them Ellie is the little girl who broke your fucking finger #the way I SCREAMED