#the writers I talk to are all popular af so their requests are always closed cus they get so many & im happy they get lots of love but đ„Čđ
Hey moots, do you know any good (racially inclusive) czennie fanfic writer who have requests open? My birthday is next week and I just,,, i have dreams đ„Č
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regarding recent absences
And other such updates!
If you want the tl;dr, here it is: my mental health isnât in the greatest place right now, and I figured I ought to explain why I must ask you for continued patience for the snail speed on this blog. Iâm not announcing official hiatus, but just know that I...might continue to be pretty scarce, but Iâm trying my best to be here and to be writing here. To hopefully get me more active here, I plan on dropping a few threads and cleaning out my dash re: people who follow me but arenât writing with me. Youâre more than welcome to keep following me if I unfollow you, and if you want to write with me and just havenât gotten the chance and would like me to re-follow you, pls just go ahead and shoot me an im. I will be making a separate post about both those things, itâs just that I canât deal with how fast my dash is moving at the moment.
If you care for the long version, under the cut so as to not bother everyone else!!! Be warned that itâs uh...itâs l o n g. TW for depression and anxiety and the general things my brain does to me lolol.Â
Wow I havenât used the post title function in a l o n g time. Anyway, hi, itâs me, Ro, your friendly neighborhood mun of a 20+ muse mumu. Donât let the kind-of-serious format scare you - nothing bad is happening. I just have a few things that I felt the need to address that have been happening either in my life or just in my screwed up brain :D Buckle in and get ready for the ride, I guess?
Starting with something yâall already know about - Iâve not been here a lot recently. I joke about that a lot, but really, if you catch the pattern, my activity here is: exclusively after 10 pm, 2 drafts at most a day, inbox straight up clogged from like a month ago. IMS basically desolate, because I havenât worked up the courage to pick them back up since I last forgot about them in the endless stream of things I had to do about a month ago! (that being said, uh, if you want to talk to me your best bet is probably through discord. Ro#6782 - pls, mutuals only, and tell me who you are!)Â Â
And - because I h a t e being that mun that reblogs memes and asks for for them and then never answers their askbox / puts out starter calls when she has 10000 drafts / puts out plotting calls when she has unanswered ims, (no problem at all when other people do this but somehow when itâs m e Iâm like âno youâre a terrible personâ???? hmmm), Iâve also been avoiding t h o s e. If youâre new and you followed me in the last month, Iâve been putting out n o t h i n g that indicates a willingness to interact with new/more people, while the opposite is true. Iâm always willing to interact - if I follow back, I want to write with you, only, well, aforementioned issue aside, I also have m o r e problems.
Namely, IRL and the fucked up thing called my brain.Â
As most of you know, I got a job ~end of may or early juuuune~ and....well itâs pretty damn time consuming. I canât have my phone during the course of my job - by the way, 4 hours - and so in those 4 hours (from 4 pm to 8 pm) I can basically get nothing done here. Then thereâs also the fact that the time my shift is placed mentally and physically drains me a lot. Because it starts at 4, most of my morning is spent thinking âgod I donât wanna go to workâ and because it ends at 8, most of my evening is spent trying very hard not to doze off. It also drains me a lot socially - I work at a call center, and all day Iâm basically calling people who donât want me to call them and are very irate even when they pick up, and uh, that already doesnât do well for my anxiety haha.Â
The other thing, of course - is my sort-of-seasonal depression. Winter tends to equate to anxiety for me, and summer tends to equate to depression. Again, I think Iâve joked about this a lot, but I apparently can only do drafts when I have 3 finals tomorrow and I havenât studied for any of them. When itâs break, I get into a really weird slump - when i wake up in the morning, I donât really want to wake up, and sometimes just stare at the wall for like, an hour. Nothing that I enjoyed during the other months, I seem to enjoy doing now. Thereâs too much time and too little time. Itâs like i spent the whole day doing absolutely nothing meaningful but I canât break myself out of the cycle so I keep doing that, rinse and repeat day after day, and sometimes my definition of spending time is just lying down in bed again and doing nothing for an hour randomly in the middle of the day. I feel guilty for wasting time as much as I am clueless as to how to fill it in a fulfilling way. âBut Ro, you could do drafts!â A Concerned Person May Say. âYou like writing!â Well, Kind Person, on some of these days, absolutely n o t h i n g Sparks Joy.Â
âBut Ro, I follow you on your other blog too!â The Concerned Person might continue.âYouâre kind of active there, arenât you?â And the answer, Kind Person who supported my career even if that blog is mostly obscure af fandoms - is yes. I am kind of active on my other blog, @storyblcd. This brings us to the third and final reason why Iâm.....moving at snailâs speed here, and that, my good friend - is anxiety. Well, mixed with a certain amount of mental exhaustion, of course. Note: this is n o t anyoneâs fault. Peopleâs interactions with me have not been negative - and they are not responsible for how my brain chooses to reaact to it.Â
Iâve not lost muse for the muses on this blog, per se - but Iâm getting burned out really fast writing them, for multiple reasons. First, muse imbalance. Now I know, I definitely k n o w - that sometimes people like one muse more than another, or have more interest in writing with one or the other, and I get that. Iâve said multiple multiple times that that is p e r f e c t l y fine. But honestly the reason Iâve lasted so long on a multimuse is because I can pick which muse I have muse for when, and I can respond accordingly / ask for interactions accordingly. But when I get so many people coming at me at once for the o n e muse when I have t w e n t y it sometimes gets a little? Discouraging? It makes me question whether or not only that one muse is popular for a reason. It also exhausts me re: the portrayal of that muse, because Iâm putting out so many replies for that muse in a lot of sort of similar plots/scenarios that I just get burnt right out. And then I get scared that if I keep going Iâll want to drop the muse, so Iâm staying away from those threads a little bit.
Second, Iâm at a point in my portrayal of certain muses where I feel like thereâs a certain expectation for how itâs going to be. My personal feelings aside, I think every mun expects their own portrayal to be different and unique and exciting - and itâs not different for me, only now I feel like the expectation and the pressure of coming up with something good and meaningful outweighs the feeling of exploration as Iâm âdiscoveringâ the muse. Like most writers - I still crave validation, though more and more lately, Iâm at a place in my writing where I f e e l like me from 2 months ago could have probably done a better job. While itâs not necessarily true, and these pressures are coming from m e and not any outside source, I f e e l like I have to consistently Make Good Writing, and simultaneously feel like some days I sit down and I try to do drafts and all I write is garbage. It just - doesnât feel the same? So - more and more, Iâm staring at the empty drafts page and then closing it - because if I donât w r i t e I donât have to admit I peaked two months ago. Â
Both of these reasons have made me rather a bit avoidant of my muses here / this blog. Now, Iâve been struggling with anxiety for long enough that I know that a lot of this is - well, p r o b a b l y just my brain lying to me. See even as Iâm writing this post now, my anxiety is saying âhaha guess what n o one cares youâve been goneâ and my rational Anxiety-is-a-stupid-asshole voice is saying ânahhhhhh your brain is probably just lying to you.â But! In the battle, anxiety is kind of pummeling me now. I will r i s e again and win the war, most likely - but for now itâs anxiety: 1 and ro: 0.
AND finally - if you made it all the way down here, youâre a c h a m p. The solution! Well, as much of a solution as Iâm hoping to get anyway - weâll have to see if it implements well. Iâm going to unfollow a few blogs so I can get my dash cleaner/more organized/less fast-moving and b r e a t h e. Iâm going to drop a couple of threads, I might make a couple more muses request only/exclusive only for the like 2 people that have threads with them, I might drop a couple muses (though I donât think this will really happen, Idk tho). There will be separate posts on those things coming soon, this is just to notify yâall. Thank you for all of your patience, thank you for all the wonderful people whoâve allowed me to write with you, I love all of you!!!!
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Average (Zach Dempsey)
From: 13 Reasons Why
Warnings: Nothing bad but self shame?
Summary: Zach likes you a lot, but you just a regular child, kinda chubby and not as interesting as others so youâre pretty dense then he tells you in the cutest way possible
A/N: Lol I am so sorry, this is my first time in forever to upload, idk I just have been busy with traveling then now school, and i try but sometimes writerâs block is just so?? But this goes out for Anon who requested a !Chubby Reader x Zach Dempsey a long time ago, sorry you had to wait so long. BUT IT IS HERE NOW AND MORE TO COME SOON. Btw sorry I posted this on my personal account so yeah, Iâm still the original writer
It was an average day in an average town, with the same old people. Life hasnât been the same since Hannah Baker died and as much as it hurts, You and Clay learned to move on. Clay is your twin and youâre both as equally close to Hannah.
Okay, maybe you were way closer, but that was because youâre a girl, and she liked your brother.
The tapes have been released, everything pretty much was the same. Except for some freaking reason, you started to like Zachary Shan-Yung Dempsey. Out of all people, it had to be him. Yes he was part of the 13 reasons why. But, your heart was always with Zach. It started since you both were grade school.
You were always one of the average kids. You werenât as skinny as other girls, You didnât fit in with any friend group, You were not a jock, nor were you a cheerleader. You didnât fit in with the nerds, You werenât an introvert. You just needed to find the people that were accepting no matter who you were. You and Zach lived in the same âfactionâ or neighborhood. In fact, you actually lived right next to each other.
Anyway, You and Zach went the same grade school. But even younger, Zach was still indeed, a jock. One day, You felt confident and wore a dress. You wore a nice sleeveless dress, it showed emphasis on my arms that had a little bit of flab.
âEw, Chubs is wearing a dressâ a boy from class started.
Zach threw him a glare and he immediately shut up.
You blushed at Zachâs actions, surprised that he of all people, was the one who stood up for you. You could feel the little girls glaring at you from behind, but you didnât let that stop you from being happy
During break time of the same day, You went to go use the bathroom and as you passed by these girls they whispered loudly to each other âWhat an ugly dressâ
âIt makes her look mega fatâ
âshe looks uglyâ
Those words brought you down and you started to cry. Zach comes closer and comforts me, telling me that he told the girls to back off and everything would be okay. And thatâs when you thought you liked Zach
Sure a lot has changed. But heâs always had that big heart with him and I donât think anything could ever change that. But ever since everything, we all slowly learned to be there for one another.
You head to school and greet everyone you pass by in the hallway. You werenât popular you were just generally polite. You pass by Zach and his friends, and you notice Justin, elbowing Zach and Monty teasing him about something.
What the heck was that about? You shrugged and continued on. The bell rings and you walk to class, and for some reason, the only place left is next to Zach. As you walk to your seat, You see everyone grinning, even our teacher, Mr. Patterson.
âHey Zachâ You whisper sitting down. He seems tense and somewhat nervous. âH-heyâ he stutters. You shrug and you begin writing notes that were already on the board.
You could feel people staring at me as you wrote but you chose to ignore it. Little did you know, The whole class just kept staring at you. Maybe that whole period, at least one person was looking at you.
What is going on? You started to feel self-conscious. You wore your jacket, trying to blend in a bit more, yet you were still being stared at. People would point at you then laugh amongst themselves and then you remembered grade school. You shake your head embarrassed and walk out the classroom
You walked to the cafeteria with your friends, not really paying attention to anything, just reviewing your notes with your friends. And for some reason, Zachâs friends are sitting just really close to yours. You shrug not really caring, I mean? The whole school is weird af today. âY/n, What are you studying for?â Tony asks, sitting in front of me. âHistoryâ You reply not taking yours eyes off the reviewer. Clay sits next to you with a smirk. âHey y/n/n!â
âAh thus comes helmetâ You tease hugging your brother. âStoooopâ he whines slightly annoyed. Skye walks over to us and drops her plate beside Tony. âWhatâs up with everyone today?â she grumbles. âI donât know? Everyone has a weird vibeâ You sigh massaging my temples.
Zach walks in the cafeteria looking for his friends, and once he sees them near us, he visibly tenses up and just walks out. âYO DEMPSEY WHAT GIVES?â Monty shouts after him. Justin runs out of the cafeteria looking for Zach. ây/n, I think I know what it isâ Tony teases.
âWhat?â You ask intrigued putting your reviewer down
âA certain boy named Zach likes youâ he shrugs
âWha? Noâ
âUh yesâ
âTony, I appreciate you playing âdetectiveâ but thereâs no way Zach will like meâ
âUhm, he doesâ
âNo. He likes smart skinny girls. Iâm neither of those thingsâ
Tony looks at you frowning at your words âYouâre worth so much more than your weight y/n/nâ
âWhy do girls feel so pressured to be someone theyâre not?â Clay asks picking at his food. Skye kicks him under the table âJensen! You did not just ask thatâ Clay shrugs in reply âI just donât get itâ
âNot everyone is as sweet as you Clay. People actually are quite rude. And this is just high school. You have to reach a certain standard in society to be seen as âprettyâ for some reason our society has standards for everythingâ You explain. Clay gives you a pitying smile but you just shake your head âNo, itâs not bad, being a girl, you get used to itâ You smile
âJENSENâ Your brother looks behind him to see Monty. You donât bother looking because people usually refer to you using your first name. âNah I mean female Jensenâ Monty snickers. Clay shrugs tapping you. And you look up utterly confused. âWhatâs up Monty?â You ask raising your eyebrow. He laughs then turns away. âWhat the?â You shake your head and begin eating. âJocks are the literal examples of weird assholesâ Skye mumbles.
âY/n, I think Zach really likes youâ Clay begins as you to walk out of school. âNah Clay, heâs just really niceâ You sigh. You begin walking to walk to the parking lot and see Courtney talking to Tony. âHey Court, whatâs up?â You asked kinda annoyed that she was there. âOh, I was just waiting for you, here! Bye Jensen twins, bye Tony, I have to goâ She hands you a rose and with that, she walks away leaving you confused. You looked down at the note reading the sloppy handwriting
Roses are red
violets are blue
My stomachâs queasy
Whenever I talk to you
You blush at the note and keep it, holding the rose. âWhatâs this about?â You ask Tony while getting in the passenger seat of his car. âI donât know, she never said anythingâ he shrugs.
As you begin to back up to leave the school, Marcus stops you. âDUDE?â Tony yells scared that he almost hit someone. ây/n/n, for youâ he winks handing you a white rose and walking away.
Rose is now white
Which resembles what you bring, light
I love your smile
Seeing It, is worth while
Clay silently chuckles teasing you your whole ride home. You get to the house and thereâs a pink rose stuck to the front door.
My love for you is pink
It makes no sense
But somehow always works
You take the rose, then keep the note then you change into your joggers and crop top. ây/n!â Clay calls from downstairs. You run down and he hands you a blue rose
Ha, now the rose is blue
Violets can be red
âHey Zachâ
Is the best thing youâve ever said
You look at the note confused. So this was all Zach? Zach walks in the room holding a variety color of roses.
âRoses are red
but they can be blue too
 I really like you
 Can I call you my boo?â
Zach recites nervously. âZach, I like you tooâ you whisper slightly self-conscious that he can see your tummy. âAnd for the record, youâre precious inside and outâ he says snaking his arms around your waist and instantly making you feel more confident.
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Hey! I'm Sami and although I'm not new to the Ham fandom, I only just started this fic blog- I'm needing inspiration though, so if you wouldn't mind dropping any requests you have into my ask box (or even letting your followers know to do the same), that would be awesomeee because I'm itching to start writing for our awesome community!! I've followed your blog for a while now and I have to say, you're honestly one of my inspirations to start a writing blog of my own, so thank you for that
Congratulations on starting a fic blog, my friend! (Iâve followed from my main blog, villagecrazypeggy, just so you know, and Iâm excited to see what you write!) Iâm so happy to hear that I inspired someone, Iâm serious, I almost cried when I saw that. Anyway. If I have a request, Iâll make sure to drop it in!Â
GUYS SEND YOUR REQUESTS TO THIS AWESOME PERSON.Â
If you donât end up getting any however, I have a few requests here that Iâve dropped that youâre welcome to use and @hamimagines has some free prompts too. You can also search otp prompts or writing prompts through tumblr or google or somewhere else entirely.
I know you didnât ask for advice, but I wanted to give you some anyway because Iâve noticed a lot of writers starting out make these mistakes (under the cut because it got kind of long),
Donât expect asks, requests, followers, and notes to start rolling in with your first fic. I know, youâre like, âdude, I already knew that.â, but I want to stress it a lot because I didnât even receive my first ask until I posted at least five fics. Some writers get a lot really quick and some writers have posted a bunch of fics and havenât received any, you could be anywhere in that range.
Make sure your ask box is open. Whoops, I was a few fics in before I realized my ask box was closed.
Donât be afraid to make friends with other writers or ask them to read your work! No writer in this community will be mad at you if you ask them to read your work, I promise. You can always just tag them but sometimes that doesnât work, so most are open to you popping them a message/ask.Â
Most people arenât going to send in a request before they know what your writing is like. So if you can, try and write something before you get a request, otherwise you probably wonât get requests. If you do get one, great! But itâs likely that you wonât, so use some of the options above and see what you can do!
Make it clear what you write. x readers? Character x character? Headcannons? NSFW? RPF? (you can put it in your bio, or mine is at the top of my masterlist/in my post about requests)
Make a masterlist early. When people come to your blog, theyâre going to want to see what youâve written, so make it easy for them to find it. Update it as you go along (some writerâs update it, like, on a weekly basis, do what you wanna do) and fanangle as needed.
Tag your work. Tag the heck out of everything you write. Iâm serious, you can look at the tags on my last fic if youâre confused about how much to tag. Tag, tag, tag. That way, itâs easier for readers to find your work.
Donât answer hate messages. I know it seems cowardice. I get it. But just imagine. This evil person sends you hate and then they wait for you to answer, refreshing and refreshing and refreshing, and pictures of your cat are popping up, or lovely pictures of you, fun stuff you reblogged, maybe a new fic. Just imagine how angry that would make a hater.
Most important of all, make sure youâre writing and posting because you want to. It shouldnât be about the popularity of your blog, or pleasing the people in the community. You should sincerely do it because sometimes youâre sitting in class, bored af, and your brain goes âI wanna write Iwannawrite Iwannawriteiwannawriteiwannawrite OH THIS IS A GOOD IDEA writeitwriteitwriteit.â. You donât have to want to write all the time, of course, but writing shouldnât be a chore every time you sit down to do it.
youch this was long! Anyway, I hope you have fun and I would love to be tagged in your first fic! Please message me or send in an ask if you ever need help or have questions or just want to talk.
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