#their dumb energy is what i live for

[bypatia]

The bjp government introduced the ucc bill in Uttarakhand which has made it mandatory for live in couples to register with the government and a copy of the registration will be sent to respective families. It also added the father as a first class legal heir for inheritance of property, encroaching upon the the right of the mother, wife, daughter (the actual victims of patriarchy, who most likely did not have any social right to gain access to financial independence or inheritance from other family members) to accommodate the father, who more than likely than not already has financial freedom and ownership rights over land property. Moving on, they removed the Muslim personal law, which guaranteed the rights of the daughter in a fixed inheritance percentage. Not to mention the whole act is modelled after hindu personal laws and demanding other religions to bend according to it is inherently regressive no matter how progressive the law on paper looks to be. So should I just bang my head against the wall right now and be done with it or watch as the bjp government slowly sets fire to all our lives?

#guys is it play by play what the nazi party did or is it play by play what the iranian theocracy did or is it play by play what #every other fascist government did on the planet did? #hindutva #any Sanghi who sees this block me #I have no energy to fight you because you’re dumb as fuck #bjp is not protecting any rights #especially women’s #except for Adani’s or the Ambani’s #and you can lick their boots all you want #but you too will be grinded in the same mob-military industrial complex like the rest of us #you are not a special case #I don’t live in Uttarakhand don’t even try #fuck Modi #fuck bjp #in case I wasn’t clear #we told Sanghi women #you’re next on the chopping block #but sunta kon hai? #you will also find better essays than this online but I had to share my two cents

[feline-evil]

Never gonna be over how unutterably pathetic and in dire need of ANY kind of companionship or friendship that doesn't revolve around their band the entirety of dethklok are. I love these horrible idiots who are so devoid of any real connections outside of themselves that they will latch onto anyone unfortunate enough to get too close to any one of them! And GOD help anyone they latch onto!!

#jay talkin #metalocalypse #im thinking about the doubles episode where they just seem genuinely happy to have 'friends' #who arent like. industry people. these men are so starved of any kind of connection #and it takes them four seasons a rock opera and a movie to realise they can find that in each other lmao #also thinking about how quickly any of them bond and become really intense abt anyone in their life #aka: NATHAN TOWARDS ABIGAIL. oh dear poor abigail oh dear #but also toki to damn near anyone and this goes for the entire band tbh as well they all do this at least once #and yeah its mainly cuz 10min eps mean u gotta progress stuff fast #but also holy shit. charles these boys want friends so bad u gotta set em up on playdates or smth #maybe it'd get some of their dumb stupid idiot energy out and they'd be better behaved. well. no they wldnt but... u can dream #i do think theres smth to be said that yeah all of dethklok are cool theyre metal superstars they r good at what they do #theyre also fucking prophesised saviours too and theyre also incredibly dangerous idiots and terrible ppl #but never forget that they are also. so so SO pathetic and isolated and dysfunctional #these men have not lived in the real world in decades and are disconnected and unsocial and spoilt and u can see that this does impact #the way they interact w the world! they need like. anything other than the band in their lives hah. they do need to pal around #im glad they find that in each other eventually!! #i dont want 2 sound like im babying them or infantilising them these r grown asshole idiot men but like. listen these shitheards r lonelyyy #everyone in their lives is like. assigned to be there and is set as beneath them in a class and workbased system #they dont rlly have ppl who r just there cuz they like em. outside of fans. and fans arent rlly a real connection yknow #their only connections come via work networking sex and violence and worship baby!!!! its fucked up!

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭 #and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!! #''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/ #''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍 #I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ???? #what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly. #vent // #SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it) #(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl) #delete later #dandyshucks

[haemosexuality]

parents be like, i understand that signs of depression include things like having difficulty leaving the bed/house, general lack of energy, messed up sleep schedule, not eating etc. not my daughter tho she does all that because she wants to and bc shes lazy

#they genuinely think i like living like this. they think i stay in bed all day and dont sleep bc i think thats fun. they think i dont do #activities i promised id to bc im lazy or irresponsible. i dont know if they just like #Know all those things about depression in an intelectual level but cant realize that thats what that is when confronted with how it looks #like in reality #if theyre choosing not to see it bc its easier to deal w me in their heads if im just lazy #if theyre just... dumb and blind #or if they think the few months where i was taking antidepressants after my half baked sui attempt cured me forever #idk #but i dont have the courage or energy to break it to them (again) so ig we're just waiting until i get so bad i blows up (again)

[vidavidee]

little guys from the past couple weeks.. i hit em with the deltarune beam

#doodley #tpn #okwarning there is a lot of tags below where i talk excessively about choosing characters in these dumb sketches #OK I NEED TO TALK ABOUT MY CHARACTER CHOICES QUICKLY #I mostly drew the kris/emma + ray/susie + norman/ralsei trio #HOWEEVERRR I THINk there is a lot of other options that also work!!! like.. simply going by colour #i could do ray/ralsei + emma/susie + norman/kris . Which does work imo.. but i think character wise it gets more complicated #because kris works for norman in the sense of acting as a vessel for someone else .. its just in a very literal sense for kris #but i think ray fits kris better because he also acted under the control/to help of others !!! like that was his life plan jsddsk #+ the way kris. stays generally apathetic aside from the moments when they detach themself from the player #like aaaughugh words. characters that are forced 2 repress all of themselves and act as a vessel for others except for the few moments #where they act out angrily because they've been made to constantly live under somebody else's control n dont have an outlet for emotions #<- more ray than kris but i think that the comparison works ehghehg.. #ray could also work as susie with her whole going against the other 2 of the trio and doing things in a more efficient but 'violent' way #plus her whole traumatized kid becomes harsh n rude in order to keep other people away thing #but she works for emma too methinks... more just on surface level stubbornness though #ralsei as norman is like. yea they dont match up in a good few aspects but they both have the same Boy made of wet cardboard energy 2 me #+ i think its silly to make his hair thing into horns :3 #in the end i drew the trio i drew cause it was what first came to mind & i guess it made sense from a silly art perspective to do #protag as protag.. even if emma is the least 'kris' visually its like yaeaea recognizable trio thing. ok done #the promised neverland

[obstinatecondolement]

Honestly though, southern hemisphere babes, I would give you your daylight back if it were up to me. Yours sincerely, a guy on two different prescription vitamin D supplements.

#stupid day star #what's it ever done for me? #besides the vitamin d and the increased visibility in the daytime without artificial light #and the free energy efficient means of drying clothes and the electricity generated by solar power #and being the correct distance from the dumb planet I live on to for the right temperatures that will allow water to remain liquid #without which life (and therefore I) cannot exist #but like #besides that? #nothing

[missshame]

I hate studying I just wanna create stuff and see the world I hate how little control I have over my life

#Let's make it clear I know I'm lucky to get higher education and I'm grateful for it + knowledge can be the greatest tool #It's just that medschool is killing me and there's just too much stuff to learn and I'm struggling so badly with it that at the end of the #day it feels like I'm not learning anything and I'm completely dumb and uneducated #I'm not even a good student but it takes all my energy and even when I'm not studying I rarely have the energy to do anything #The only thing I sorta do consistently is working out because it makes my brain shut up for a while and it helps the muscle pain I got from #All the stress and sitting at my desk/working long days at the hospital #Anyway I love complaining sorry #I just feel like I had /have a very creative artsy nature and I'm really suffering from the lack of it like not in a I don't have enough #time for my hobbies and to relax #Which is already bad enough btw I don't think it should be considered normal for anyone to be too exhausted to do anything outside of work #But I really feel it in a I'm not myself anymore it's hard to move forward and build confidence and a sense of self while having a life so #far away from what you love and feel like you need + denying yourself what you desire the most can't be good to your brain let's face it #Anyway long story short first thing I'm gonna do when I finally get my degree is by me some drums learn the guitar and paint on the walls #And in the meanwhile Idk do I keep living this way? If I do will I go completely insane? #Or do gift myself the right to give up on the idea of being a slightly less bad student and do I say fuck it and start living my life now ? #Idk! Idddkkk !!! #Oh my god

[doublesidedgemini]

my beloved 💖💗💖

the new pink monster ultra tastes like STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE please purchase it this better be a permanent flavor

#my face looks dumb I know but idc it’s a pink monster what else do you WANT #pink and monster ultra the disordered girlies are living #If i had talent or energy I would put little hearts over this photo but I am too lazy asf to do that #so just pretend this is a really cute aesthetic post #gem posts pics of herself

[thepictoblr]

why would u pay to go to a concert when u can just listen to music for free on ur electronics, this economy shit is easy yall are dumb as fuck

#this is entirely ironic and sarcastic #this is more abt ppl being dumb and clueless and painfully american abt a free vtuber concert in thailand #where the only fee was an entry fee for the convention it was hosted at #300 baht is about 10 usd give or take #3 day entry ticket too. shits a steal #anyway as americans are want to do why say 300 and went '300 dollars usd??? for this???' #and its like god youre fucking stupid #anyway rounding back to 'well its dumb anyway' man at what level is a live preformance not dumb #i think going outside to listen to someone you could just listen to for free is dumb #'oh but the energy! the vibes!' #right so u admit it theres value to going to a space with fellow fans to listen to someone live #'yeah but he was behind a 2d model' girl u eat up miku expos she isnt even a person #anyway

[samwisefamgee]

The funny thing about constantly telling yourself that things could be worse is that sometimes. They are :)

#youd think the moldy trailer was gonna be rock bottom #but apparently its staying in a basement covered in the dust of a thousand thousand catshits #with the same people who traumatized me over 22 years until I moved into the moldy box in the first place :) #because im STILL dumb enough to believe their promises after decades of betrayal! or more accurately i dont get the choice lol #either way if i dont get outta here fast it is game the fuck over. been too much mental and physical pain for this shit to be worth it #fucked anyway given how much debt and permanent degenerative damage has been done but at least I can live whatever shit years I get left #in relative peace #I mean fuck I used all my fucking energy yesterday doing shit for them instead of taking care of my own stuff and WHY #all I got was get asked over and over to work even fucking harder like what the fuck did I expect #years pass and nothing changes for the better with these people what the fuck #and even if I DO manage to find somwhere to stay with folks who WONT lie to me for years to abuse my labor and psyche #I'll be broken in body and mind and spirit and ill need a job within the week to not fall behind #i still havent gotten on my feet and every attempt to rely on family. no matter who. #was just an excuse for them to use me for all I had for nothing in return #cant exactly find roommates with no money no credit no will to live and 20 problems on top of that that mean I cant pay rent yet #and without any family who wont try to kill me slowly or any friends who arent so fucked themselves they cant help its lookin like #im fucked once again gang #to think i was so fucking close to escaping all of this before the pandemic happened lol. even what I had then just isnt possible anymore #if I hear one more baseless 'things get better with time :)))' I WILL vomit until I choke to death like buddy that just isnt true sometimes #straight up some people are born to eat shit and die. babies get cancer. its been 24 consecutive years of eating it and I aint whistful fam #not anymore at least #keep sayin 'well it could be worse' when its about the worst its been and youre just asking fate to prove you right #only reason Im not completely homeless instead of technically homeless is that folks actually on the streets are much tougher sort than I #gonna jinx this whole fuckin rant but it really is a fuckin joke. i cant live like this but most folk Ive met on the street #would jump the moon just to live in the moldy trailer I got kicked out of let alone a filthy basement. #this COULD be a home I could work and live out of. fellas is it picky to prefer despair over living with people who traumatize you #does that answer change depending on circumstance and time or is there truly no justification in not making your life worth it #or am I really just the pathetic stoner burnout dropout that my folks see me as? I mean categorically yes. #is there any justification redemption or even just comfort to be found in that state considering the Weight that induced it #does it even matter if no other person knows what that Weight has been or for how long its built. if no one ever will know? whats the point

[unhinged-nymph]

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#i told myself I wasn’t going to do posts like this anymore but here we are #please ignore #i truly don’t understand what I’m supposed to be living for #I’m tired and sad and so so broke and I have no energy or motivation or inspiration to do ANYthing #I’m trying really hard to convince myself that this is all worth it but like?? #the math ain’t mathin #i don’t get to experience love or intimacy #I’m in a job that I’m so sick of but I don’t have the energy to try to find a new one #especially because I don’t even want to work to begin with #i can’t get myself to focus long enough to read or write #i literally come home from work and just stare at the ceiling #or I’m running myself ragged doing colorguard bullshit #i don’t want to do any of this anymore it’s so boring and overwhelming at the same time #and like the world is literally falling to shit around us? #and there’s nothing I can do about it #i just don’t know if I’ll ever find something that makes life worth living #gosh everything seems so pointless and hopeless #I’m not even sad really just so fucking disappointed in myself and this dumb little life #and now what? how am I supposed to fix this? what can I even do? #i have no money no support no back up plan nowhere to go nothing to do #I’m just stuck here with no way out because I’m so alone and mentally I’ll and honestly just so discouraged #i keep thinking that I’ve found my new rock bottom and then someone throws down a shovel and tells me to start digging #i have no idea where to go from here #i keep trying to just take it a day at a time but days just keep coming and going and things get worse not better #and I fall further and further behind #and I’m simply just not strong enough to do anything about anything #I’m OVER this

[anjukoneko]

I strongly believe being truly, actually loved for once in my fucking life would fix/heal a good portion of what's wrong with me, possibly even the majority. Tragic that it looks like that'll never happen lmao.

#guess I'll just be fucked up and broken and insane until i die #I'm so emotionally drained and distraught rn sorry guys #it's probably because i started a new medication a couple of days ago tbh #I'm rather hurt at how my bestie has been treating me #actually im extremely hurt with how most of the important people in my life have been treating me #I'm tired of always being enthusiastic about their lives and asking questions and building them up #and doing them favors and going out of my way to help and doing sweet/thoughtful things to help ease their daily burdens #and not even being met with a FRACTION of that energy back. nor even any real appreciation #and yeah i dont do these things to get anything in return. i do them because i love these people and i want to show them that #but yall it HURTS being taken for granted in nearly every. fucking. relationship/friendship #and at a certain point it most definitely feels like I'm being used #but the sad thing is people are so self absorbed they probably dont even see it #it depresses me but i feel like my only purpose on earth is to lift up and inspire those around me #while simultaneously being doomed to never receive the love i crave and provide for others #why am i always loving others? why am i so full of love if no one will love me back? #why do i have to suffer this way? what kind of excruciating divine punishment is this? #am i truly so repulsive and undesirable? truly so uninteresting and boring? worthless? my only value is to serve others? #anju speaks #venting #dumb personal shit

[vamptastic]

I kinda vaguely think it may help with my wonky metabolic markers but I have no fucking clue how people sustain low carb diets on a budget. My mom has to follow a similar sort of diet because she has Hashimoto's disease and refined grains (and also some random stuff like green tea) will tank her white blood cell count, but she can still eat whole grains so once she saw a dietician we started to buy whole wheat pasta & brown rice and such for family dinners bc 100% carb-less dinner was untenable. And she still ends up eating stuff that she's not supposed to on accident when going out because we just don't live somewhere where you can buy a low-carb meal out (except a salad, even then she has to ask to have certain things removed). Ironically fast food chains tend to be the most reliable in having a gluten free substitute. On Passover we mostly end up eating fish and lunch is matza ball soup all week. Like how do you do this shit longterm without cracking because whole grains are fucking expensive and cooking without having an easy to prepare carb like rice or pasta is a nightmare.

#Part of this is area like if you live somewhere where a lot of people diet #Even if you're doing it for medical reasons n not ' wellness ' it's easier bc there's just more access to alternatives #And like everybody will crack if it's too difficult. So having somewhere you can go eat a burger with a gluten free bun can be important #Idk PCOS is so wonky with diets that I don't really care to follow anything specific #I mean i think they're dumb in general but they can make it easier to eat healthy without nutritional knowledge #Like if I want to cook I can look up Atkins recipes and just assume they're healthy #Easier for the average person than understanding what each ingredient does #But every diet being focused around weight loss bar those for specific medical conditions (like ibs for example) #Means that following them tends to be A. Not actually healthy and B. make you go insane from being hungry alla the time #I guess I just wish there was an easy way to find meals that will give you energy without making you feel like shit

[exposingaracistgirl]

maybe you'll get bored one day

#or maybe youll get more and more obsessed and make more alts and fabricate more lies and try to paint others to be the bad people bc you #have no accountability in your body #and maybe youll keep sending ask after bitter ask #racist microaggressive and just plain dumb things youre projecting #youll make more posts youll spread more lies #you will devolve further into your obsession #but that is okay #bc the girls u harass will have beautiful lives regardless of anything and everything u do or say #wishing u the best bc thats the last time ur getting any attention or energy #even if u continue ur harassment campaign and post more inflammatory things. even if u spread lies. #realizing that you thrive off this and this is how you stay relevant #so i will simply no longer give u relevance. talk to the wall. post to the wall. send all the asks u want. its done. #only bad bitches have haters... if u werent bothered by us u would not be sending asks and that is that #people will continue doing whatever the fuck they want regardless of you bc guess what your opinion means #nothing #get well soon (though i doubt it) #maybe one day youll feel comfortable in your own skin and you wont have to hide behind alts or idolize blogs or hate other girls #i sincerely hope you get to that point bc youre at a level of misery i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy #it takes being very unwell to behave this way anyway so maybe i shouldnt expect you to own up or stop like youre a sane person #youre really not

[ooliviakate]

Anyone else have a cat that would just absolutely not survive in the wild? Like, the sweetest baby in the whole world but can't find the treat he watched you throw across the bed?

#orange cat energy perhaps #idk but sometimes i wonder if my cat is BLIND 😭 #hes not but............ #anyway i love my sweet dumb baby #hes probably lived inside his whole life #no survival insticts #there was a MOUSE in our room last night #what was my cat doing? laying in bed