#their reunion makes me cry every time 🥺🥺🥺

[tsimvkas]

our life changing moment — mason mount

A/N: hi!! it’s the first time i post a imagine here :) english is not my first language so forgive me for any mistakes. i’d like to thank Sid, the first one to read this and encourage me to post 🥺 hope you all enjoy it! and please feel free to share your thoughts about it with me xx

lil note: i know mason’s number seven is probably bc of beck but i used cristiano just so the teasing would makes sense

word count: 5.7k | masterlist

content: pregnancy, fluff, mild angst, mention of sexual act

Your boyfriend stared at the pregnancy test, stroking your waist while the pair of you waited for the result. You were sitting on the bathroom sink and Mason was comfortable between your legs, your head resting at his shoulder.

You always watch these videos where the woman takes the test all by herself and then comes up with a surprise for the father. A box with baby clothes, a tiny shoe or even a cake with some written at the top. If the test shows that you are in fact pregnant, it would be nice telling Mase that way, but honestly? You were too scared to do it on your own.

“I’m probably ruining your chance to find this out in a cool way” you whispered, gulping.

“What do you mean babe? This is a nice way”

“I should surprise you with the tiniest sneaker in the world and a note. You shouldn’t be the one reading the result? It doesn’t feel right.

“You know Y/N, just because it isn't common in our society to see fathers participating that way it doesn’t mean that it’s wrong. If you’re pregnant then it’s our child. What doesn’t feel right to me is you thinking I should wait for you to tell me instead of us both discovering together. What about you? You take the test all by yourself and then proceeds to figure out nice ways to tell everyone? And who surprises you?”

“Why you always have to be this cute?” you looked up at him feeling your eyes watering.

He is definitely the sweetest boy you have ever met. You both started dating four years ago, being introduced by a friend in common, Sophia, his mate’s girlfriend and your best friend.

Soph presented you both at a club, a Chelsea reunion that she invited you to.

“That’s my bestie, Y/N” she said to Mason, and he grinned, staring at your eyes. “And this is the guy I told you about, bug”

You remember that you wished you could disappear, and the way he smiled at you suggestively just made everything worse.

“What exactly you told her about me, Soph?” he chuckled, finally greeting you with a quick hug, his hand shameless resting on your waist.

You weren't surprised when later that night, at the comfort of your house, you received a flirting text even though he never asked for your number.

Saying yes to a date with him was inevitable. You were so attracted to him. His beauty, the brown hair that was almost on his eyes, the big nose and red lips. The silly jokes, the way he was always smiling at you and the warmth of his hands at your lower back, guiding you.

A first date became two dates, and then he kissed you on the third one.

You never forgot how that kiss felt. The way he was holding you made everything burn and you’re not proud to say that you were totally turned on with just a kiss. Yes, you could’ve ridden him at that moment and he obviously noted.

Since then, you saw all of his sides. Cute Mason, cocky Mason, angry Mason. And you fell in love with every single one of them.

Falling in love with Mason was the funniest and cutest thing that ever happened to you. It was slowly, peaceful. He always made you feel like the most important person in the world, just like he was doing right now.

“Nooo babe, don’t cry” Mason tried not to laugh, knowing how crazy your hormones have been. For him, you didn’t even needed that test.

“Have you seen the result already?” you questioned, trying to keep yourself calm. You always wanted a baby, and that’s something you and Mount had agreed since the beginning of the relationship.

Of course you would love to see a mini version of your boyfriend waking up the pair of you, or a little girl for Mason to be protective about, but right now a pregnancy wasn’t something you were thinking about, which means it was totally unplanned.

“Look at me” Mason said with a soft tone, stroking your chin. You obeyed, staring at his perfect eyes. The way they’re sparkling you didn’t even need an answer. “We’ll be fine, sunshine”

You felt your heart skip a beat. All you could think about was that this couldn’t be happening right now. There’s so many things you wanted to do before being a mom.

A guilty feeling was spreading all over your body. At the same time that you didn’t wanted this to happen right now, it was your baby. You couldn’t think such things about it.

But… it will grow inside of you. And there will be nausea. A lot of pain and messed up hormones. Cries for no reason, weird food combinations. Your body will triple in size. And then, one day, it will have to get out of your belly somehow. And none of the options calms you down.

“Y/N? You need to breathe, babe. Uhum, take a deep breath with me” Mason tried to help you, his fingers tracing circles in your back.

You followed his instructions, and minutes after the initial shock you felt fear.

“I’m not sure I can do this” you whispered in his shoulder, not brave enough to look him in the eyes. When your crying intensified, Mason brought a hand to your head and scratched your scalp gently.

“I can’t tell you what you can or cannot face, love. It’s your body going to change, and it’s not up to me to dictate what you can handle with. What I can tell is that I’ll be there to help you. And that I do believe that you can do this, yeah. In my opinion, you can do anything”

“Can I- I’m sorry, can I have a moment? Alone?”

“Of course you can” his voice was lower and calm and your mind kept saying that you didn’t deserve him.

“I know I wasn’t supposed to react like that and we should be hugging and celebrating but instead you’re comforting me-“

“Y/N, stop using other people's experience as a parameter. We’re not them, ok? You’re allowed to feel the way you’re feeling. It’s a baby, inside of you. It’s a big thing. I’ll clean here and make dinner, just let me know when I can join you again”

You nodded, feeling guilty. It was obvious you weren’t doing this the right way. The father of your kid was right in front of you after discovering he’ll be a dad and all you say to him is that you wanna be alone for a little bit. Sounds selfish.

You walk to your shared bedroom and lay down comfortably under the mattress. You know you will love this baby and have a beautiful family but right now you just need to cry yourself out, mourning the old you. The one without responsibilities over a child.

Mason cleaned the sink and went down to make dinner. He wasn’t mad about your reaction, because he saw it happen at his family once. After Summer, Jaz wasn’t totally ready to be a mom of two, and although the world expects a woman to always feel happy about conceiving a baby, he understands that is not that simple.

He couldn’t lie though — he felt happy. To be a father was reason enough, but to be the father of your children? He couldn’t wait for it.

The pair of you have been in a healthy and strong relationship over the past four years, you saw the worst of him during his last season at Chelsea, moved in with him to Manchester and supported him through the whole transfer situation. He thought that there wasn’t any way he could fell even more for you, but this was proved wrong when he saw the positive test earlier.

Mason was always aware of his own privileges and that’s why he respected the way you felt about being pregnant. While your entire life is about to change, his could still be the same, only with a little addition.

But he is not that kind of man, and if your life is going to change then his life it’s going to change as well.

An hour later, you felt like you had already cried all the water in your body. Missing your man but without energy enough to scream for him, you texted Mase.

When he got upstairs, Mason entered the bedroom slowly. He put the bowl with strawberries on the desk before laying down beside you, his arms reaching your waist.

“Daughter, uh? You’re feeling better?” his voice was soft and he peppered kisses on your shoulder, smiling when you melted against him.

“Yeah” you nodded, “I just needed a second. I’m sorry boo”

“Don’t be. You know that- if you don’t feel ready, you don’t have to go with it. I would never force you into this. Even tho I’m going to do everything I’m capable of, it’s clear that your life will change more than mine for obvious reasons. If you don’t want this for now, I can’t accept that” His voice crackled, and you knew he was doing his best to assure you that it was your decision.

He wanted that baby so much, but there he was, giving up on it if it means that would hurt his girl. Turning in his arms, you stared at him, the big brown eyes filled with unshed tears.

“You’re going to be such a great father. Our baby will be proud to call you dad, Mase. Just the way I’m proud to call you mine”

Finally spilling his own tears, Mason hugged you tightly.

“Sorry” he smiled, embarrassed. The tip of his nose instantly went red, which made you smile too.

“There’s nothing to apologize for. I cried, now it’s your turn. I’m happy, ‘right? You don’t need to feel guilty about wanting this. I want this too” you whispered, and Mason felt free from the biggest weight on earth.

“Yeah? You do?” his eyes lit up, sparkling. You nodded, smiling when Mase hid his face in your neck.

“I want everything life can give me if I can have it with you babe” you scratched his scalp, feeling his arms shivering against the skin of your waist.

“Oh” Mase left out a shaky breath, kissing your collarbone. “I want this so much”

“Well, now we’ll have it. You should prepare yourself for choosing a name” you gently pulled his hair so he would look at you.

“If it’s a boy then can we name him Peter Parker?” he grinned, biting his lower lip. You couldn’t help but laugh, this being such a Mason thing to ask.

“Fine, I’ll choose the name by myself” you giggled, feeling happy and lightweight.

—

“I want to do something special,” Mason told his friend, Ben. “Like, if I wasn’t there, she would do something to tell me about the pregnancy, right? I was thinking about something like this, but she obviously already knows that she’s pregnant.

The pair of them were at a coffee, talking about you. Ben and a few close friends already knew about your pregnancy, that you discovered two weeks ago, and Mason was counting with help to make his plan a reality.

Ben took a sip of his coffee, raising an eyebrow.

“So you’re trying to make a pregnancy announcement… to the woman who is pregnant?” Chilwell frowned, teasing his friend.

“I want to surprise her somehow. But not any kind of surprise, I wanted to be like, pregnancy related” he tried to explain what he’s been thinking off since both of you discovered about the pregnancy.

“You can make a cake. She loves when you cook and put effort into it. And then you can also make a box, like she would’ve made to tell you. A little United shirt with your number, maybe?”

“That’s a good idea. Yeah, I’ll do it” he smiled, picturing you and the baby at Old Trafford. “But I also wanted something to show her that I’m committed, you know? That I’ll do my role as a father properly, that my life is going to change with hers. That I’m not letting her live motherhood alone while I still live manhood.”

“There’s something, actually…” Benjamin smiled.

Hours later, Mason came back home feeling giddy and excited about the future, sliding in bed and holding his world in his arms.

—

After a couple of weeks, when you completed two months, you were totally comfortable with being pregnant. You made your peace with the fact that things are going to be different, your body will change and your routine will never be the same.

From now on, you have a person counting on you for everything, and after the shock you felt joy and happiness about this new chapter of your life with Mason.

Despite the nausea that started really early, you love to be woken up by your boyfriend’s kisses at your not so visible bump but this Saturday was different, and his side of the bed was already empty when you woke up.

You know his game is tomorrow, and you were certainly going, so today he was supposed to have the day off after training yesterday.

You texted him, asking where he went, and got up to start the day. You did your skincare routine before doing your belly routine — something your best friend Lauren advised you about.

Mase showed up when you were moisturizing your belly, sticking his head into the bathroom.

“Oh no, I almost missed my favourite part” he pouted, getting closer to you and kissing your cheek. “Good morning boo, how you feeling today?”

“I’m good” you smiled when his hands replaced yours, massaging your belly. “Craving a chocolate cake with a lot of chocolate, actually”

“You’re always craving a chocolate cake, babe” he shrugged, smirking. “Good for you I brought one today”

“Really?” your eyes lit up.

“But if you want to eat it then you’ll have to do me a favour” he pouted again. “Rashy needs to distract his new girlfriend, that is not a proper girlfriend yet, and I don’t know how to do this”

“Is that girl we met last game? I could ask her to go shopping with me, see baby stuff. We changed numbers already so I don’t think will be weird”

“Could you do that? I wanna help him so he can feel more confidence in our friendship, you know?” he pouted once more and your heart melted at how cute he is.

“Of course I can”

“Thank you boo, I love you” he hugged you tightly, sniffing your perfume.

“I love you more”

“No you don’t, but I’ll let you think you do because they say it’s a bad thing arguing with beauty pregnant ladies”

“No one says that, Mase” you giggled, turning to stare at him. “Why did I woke up alone, uh?

“Groceries shopping” was his short answer before peppering kisses at your jaw.

When you ended your morning routine, Mase was waiting for you downstairs with your favourite breakfast, avocado toast and orange juice.

The pair of you ate together, talking about some of Mase’s new friends, how things were going so far at the new club and what he expected for the next game.

Then, while he washed the dishes, you texted Marcus’ new girlfriend. She is a sweet girl and knows that you don't have actual friends in Manchester yet, so she quickly accepted going to the mall with you.

When she popped up hours later to pick you, Mase helped you put on his jacket, your favourite one to wear, and kissed your temple.

“I‘ll see if Rashy needs help with his plan, text me when you girls decide to come back home?”

“Yes sir, I’ll let you know” you giggled, kissing him.

“Thank you” Mase murmured, sliding his credit card into your jeans pocket, making you roll your eyes.

—

Shopping with Anne was really, really nice. She talked about Marcus, you talked about Mase, the pair of you had dinner together and she helped you a lot with baby clothes and colour palette for the room.

After a huge pistachio ice cream, you yawned so loud that Anne chuckled.

“Ugh, sorry” you smiled, reaching for your phone to check what time is it. “We kinda have a bedtime routine, and I’m late”

“Mason is probably cursing me right now” she smiled back. “C’mon, I’ll drop you home”

Anne drove to your house whilst both of you screamed Taylor Swift’s lyrics. The feeling of finding a new friend it’s warm and nice, and you are really happy. It was a great day.

When she parked in front of your house, you frowned wondering why the lights were off. Mason saw your message half an hour ago, and you thought that maybe he forgot to let one of the lights on so you wouldn’t stumble.

Saying goodbye to Anne, you jumped out of her car and walked to your door. Everything was silent, and you walked in cautiously.

“Babe?” you entered your house, looking for the light switch. “Mase, are you home?”

A few steps later you finally found it, turning the living room light on.

“Surprise!” Mason shouted, almost making your heart stop. He was standing in the middle of the living room with balloons and a red cake, smiling the most beautiful smile you’ve ever seen.

“What’s going on? I forgot my birthday?” you waited for more people to come out, but it was just your boy with his oversized hoodie and a proud smile.

“No, silly. It’s a pregnancy surprise!” he said proudly. You frowned, but your smile couldn’t be held.

“But I don’t know I’m pregnant already?” you teased him, getting closer. Mason left the cake on the coffee table, waiting for you with open arms. When you were close enough, he hugged you, stroking your back.

“Well yes, but I wanted to do something nice for you” he smirked. There’s no way this man could be better to you.

“That’s cute Mase, thank you”

“Anything for my girls” he kissed your forehead, pulling away just to catch a black box at the table. “And here, a present”

Your heart skipped a beat. For some reason, you both seem to be sure it’s a girl. You would love to see the love of your life being a girl’s dad, even though the idea of a mini him lot you up as well.

“Babe! You didn’t had to!” you gave him a kiss before taking the box to the sofa with you. Mason followed you, sitting behind you and settling you between his legs.

“I know but I think it’s so cute” he kissed your neck and your body shivered.

When you opened the box, a note on the top said “to my favourite girl on earth. you’re going to be the best mom england has ever seen. i can’t wait to be with you both for the rest of my life”

Feeling your eyes watering already, you blamed your hormones and took the present out of the box. You couldn’t hold back the tears when you realized that you were staring at a mini United shirt, with “Baby Mount” written behind, above your man’s number.

“She’ll be our lucky charm” he whispered, tightening his touch on your waist whilst the pair of you stared at the shirt.

“This is adorable, Mase” you pouted, your heart aching in adoration.

“You really liked it?” he asked shyly and almost insecure. You turned around to face him, finding the vulnerability kind of adorable.

“Of course I did. She’ll be very proud to flaunt your last name, babe” you stroked his chin, kissing the tip of his nose.

“Yeah? And would you?” he raised his eyebrows, biting his lower lip. “Would you be very proud to boast about my last name?”

“I mean, it’s a beautiful name” you smiled softly, not even preparing yourself for what was coming next.

Mason laid his head on your shoulder, kissing your neck.

“Take it then” he whispered, smiling against your skin when he heard you gasping. “Marry me, babe”

“God, Mase” you started to cry all over again. “Are you sure?”

“Why wouldn’t I? You’re it for me. We already live together, we kinda do act like a married couple. And, we’re having a baby. I know we had that conversation once and that you think marriage is just signing papers and a couple can survive without ever being married-“

You interrupted him, cupping his face and handing out kisses everywhere your lips could reach.

“Yeah I used to think like that, but not about marrying you. We’re not going to just sign a paper, are we?” you smiled at him. “We’re going to promise our souls to each other. Of course I already promised mine to yours, but I guess a ceremony would be nice. I want your last name so bad”

“I want you to be my wife so bad” he murmured, bringing you to his lap. “I wish I could’ve prepared a better proposal… how do you wanna do this? Now, or with a bigger bump? Or when the baby is born?”

“It was perfect this way, yeah? And we can think about the details tomorrow” you kissed his forehead, adjusting yourself on top of him. “Can we go upstairs?”

“You’re feeling well?” he stared at your face, looking for any signals that something may be wrong.

“I’m feeling like you could show me how much you want to be my husband” you grinned mischievously, sinking your fingers into his hair.

“Oh, Mrs. Mount, you have no idea what you just asked for” he kissed you with pure love and devotion. “But first”

Reaching into his hoodie pocket, Mason picked up a tiny box and opened up between your bodies, showing you the most beautiful engagement ring to ever exist.

“Boo…” you gasped, in shock.

Your fiancé took the ring and asked for your hand, slipping it through your finger, kissing your hand before taking his to your bum, pulling you closer.

“Now I can give you what you want” he got up with you in his arms, not being able to keep his mouth out of you and kissing your shoulder.

You felt overwhelmed by the thought of making love with Mase while using the ring he brought to you when he wasn’t even sure you would say yes, both of you having a conversation about your unwillingness to marry a while ago.

“You’ll take care of me?” you pouted dramatically, already knowing he always does.

“Mmhmm, how you want it?” he asked gently, entering your shared bedroom.

“I think I’m feeling emotionally sensitive” you kept your pout, stroking his scalp.

“Slow then” he laid you in bed, kissing your lips whilst you tried to hold a smile.

Mason took care of you, indeed, and you’re sure you’ll never get used to the way he touches you, like you were everything he needs to stay breathing.

Whether on wild nights or the ones like tonight, calm and gentle, he would always be able to make you feel good.

—

Your wedding was the most perfect day you ever lived. It was Mason’s priority to keep it private and intimate, with your closest friends and family only.

The ceremony was at an isolated beach, surrounded by rocks that made it difficult to see what was happening there. It was pretty quick as well, and the pair of you said your vows with a beautiful and pinky sunset.

Different than what your mother who traveled from Spain to participate thought, your 4-months-old bump wasn’t a problem. You were in fact a little bit worried since your baby was growing so slowly, but this made it possible for you to wear the dress of your dreams and still look good on it.

During the preparation month Mason was always telling you that you would’ve been perfect even if your bump was higher, but you knew it wouldn’t be the same to you. You wanted to live this as the old you, not the mother yet.

You also had plenty of conversations about it with your therapist, and she validated your feelings. “It doesn’t have to be two separated persons, even though I understand you, but maybe it could be easier for you if you think about it just like two different phases for the same person”. You’ve been trying, really.

You were nervous at the ceremony, but Sophia was there as your bridesmaid and made sure everything went really perfect. Mase’s best man was a hard choice for him, but at the end of the day his heart would always choose Declan. Kai wasn’t mad about it, even helping Dec when he needed it.

Your man’s vows were beautiful, and you cried the whole time. Yours were pretty good as well, but nothing like what you’ve heard from him. His words, his choked tone of voice and his stubborn tears even though he was smiling big made the moment absurdly magical.

The wedding party was also intimate, but Mason invited the rest of Chelsea’s and United’s players that weren’t close enough to make it to the ceremony, besides some of his friends from another’s club or league.

And it was pretty insane — you didn’t drink anything, for obvious reasons, but enjoyed the party a lot. The pair of you had your first dance to ‘daylight’, by Taylor Swift, and you couldn’t be happier once you had dedicated all of her love songs to him at some point of your relationship.

Mason was incredibly goofy after a few drinks, dancing to every song and climbing on his friends back. You couldn’t hold your laugh every time he looked at you and tried to wink, but closing both eyes instead without realizing.

After a lot of songs, drinks and pictures, you were really tired but accomplished.

“Wanna go home, wifey?” Mason whispered in your ear, worried about your tiredness.

“You’re done already?”

“Ben is too drunk to dance and Rashy is almost proposing after so many vodka shots” he laughed, holding your waist tightly.

“And you’re ok, boo?” you asked gently, cupping his face. His eyes lighted up looking at you and he nodded, peppering kisses to your face.

“You know I’d never get too drunk to take care of my babies” he murmured. “Let’s go home please? Our day was perfect but I’m so tired, I want to wear cute pyjamas and cuddle my wife all night”

You nodded, kissing his lips and saying goodbye to those still at the party before looking for Mason’s Rover at the parking lot.

Thanks to your bridesmaid, you were using a comfortable pair of Nike shoes since the party started, and given your husband’s level of alcohol you were the one driving the mini truck that he used to call his car.

Once you got home, Mase was almost sober again. He helped you out of the car and upstairs, unzipping your beautiful dress and putting you in a warm pyjama before changing his own clothes.

The pair of you went to the bathroom, brushing your teeth together. Putting you in bed, your husband went downstairs to make you both a cup of tea that you drank together.

Collecting the empty cups and taking them both to the kitchen, Mason came running back to you — and his comfortable bed. He snuggled in your arms, sighing in contentment.

You both already discussed your honeymoon, and you both decided to travel on his vacation, in a few months, since you’re only marrying now due to your pregnancy, forced to do it during the week. He didn’t said to where, and you spent half an hour trying to extract the information from him. Unsuccessfully.

After a few hours chatting about the day and how happy the pair of you were, Mase yawned loudly, leaning closer to your body.

“You need to rest, baby. We were kinda irresponsible…”

“I wouldn’t change a thing. I’m so happy your last name is finally Mount” he whimpered like a child. “Even tho I’ll be a zombie at training this week”

“Shut up” you laughed, scratching his scalp. “What about your international friends?”

“Uhm some of them paid a small fine for missing training” he chuckled.

You know they have money, a lot of money, but you were still impressed that so many of them could make it to your wedding despite the hard conditions.

“Oh my God” you bursted into laughs. “We were irresponsible. A lot”

“And it was worthy” he nuzzled your neck with his nose, and you could feel his body getting heavier as weariness took over him.

You felt your heart flip-flop and your cheeks went red, just like you were fifteen and flirting with your crush. “Yeah?”

“Yeah” he whispered, tucking his head into your neck. “I couldn’t wait any longer to be your husband”

“Impatient” you teased. Everything Mason has said that night had you feeling like you could explode.

“I know we have eternity together but c‘mon , I have anxiety issues” he grunted. “Can’t wait to make you the happiest wife to ever exist”

“You already do that, Mase” you continued to scratch his scalp, your eyes watering at his words.

You could feel his sleepy smile against the skin of your neck, and Mason yawned lazily.

Leaning closer against your body, your husband murmured how much he loves you before falling asleep.

You closed your eyes, smiling. This was everything you ever prayed for.

—

“You’re doing what?” you gasped. The pair of you were on the couch, you in his lap with one leg on each side of his body.

It wasn’t the most comfortable position, since you’re about seven months now, but you were showing their little kicks to Mason when he said he was staying at home for a bit after you gave birth.

“Ben had the idea months ago and I just loved it” Mason said calmly, scratching your belly. “And the baby will love it too, right bubba?”

“Of course he had the idea Mase, this means you’ll be off the pitch for weeks and since you’re better than him he won’t need to worry about you beating his ass at Old Trafford since you’re going to miss the game against Chelsea” you said in just one breath.

“Uhmmm I didn’t think about it but never mind, I’m doing it” he scoffed the hair out of your face. “Paternity leave existes for a reason. I need time to adapt to my new routine just like you. The couple first months are pretty hard and you’ll need me to do my part. I would say you’ll need help but I’m not just a help, I’m your husband. And the father.”

“Alright. Guess if my life is going to change then yours are too?”

“Exactly. If you need time to take care of our baby, recover and adjust your routine, so do I. In fact, you need me to take time to take care of our baby so you can recover. Yep, no discussing it.” he tickled your waist, stealing a kiss when you smiled bigger.

“Fine. But hear me: Ben is scared as fuck about facing you at your new home”

Mason giggled, your words always giving him more confidence about how he’s doing at Manny.

“Benji is as good as me, boo. You know that. He’s the vice captain for a reason” he defended his best mate. They would always do that, defend each other, and you think it’s really cute. Even though you know Mason is better, you love Ben. Is not like he is shitty or something.

“Yeah yeah, if you say so” you smiled, cupping his face. “Have you thought about where you want bubba to be born? Manchester? London?”

“I was thinking about it yeah and- I mean, you don’t have to want this but I was just you know, thinking and…” he smiled shyly. “It wouldn’t be nice if the baby was born in your city?”

“Masey” you whimpered, your heart skipping a beat. “You’re being serious?”

“Totally“ Mase kissed the tip of your nose, shrugging. “We already live here, you are surrounded by my culture, friends and family and I think it would be meaningful to you. It’s a beautiful place, with a nice weather and culture as well and since they’re being born here, the nationality will connect them with your country”

“Yeah? And you’ll let them cheer for Barça?” you teased him.

“No. Absolutely not. But they can like Messi.” he smirked, peppering soft kisses on your neck.

“I’ll tell this to the owner of the seven on your back” you giggled, cupping his face so he was looking at you again.

“I’m the owner now” Mason closed his eyes, relaxing with your touch before opening them and staring at your soul. “Wait- if it’s a boy we can call him Cristiano Ronaldo!”

“No. Absolutely not” you rolled your eyes, giggling when your man squeezed your body against his. “If it’s a girl we could call her Winter and she would match Summ”

“Yeah yeah, sure. I’ll love to spend some time making Autumn and Spring with you” Mason dipped his head, capturing your lips in a soft kiss, holding you even tighter when you both needed air. “I love you, boo. Both of you.”

Words he had said a thousand times before, but you would never get used to it. The new addition only giving your heart more reasons to stop completely.

“We love you more, Mase.” you smiled, gasping when your little baby kicked. “See? They agree.”

Mason smiled, massaging your belly and talking with the baby. The pair of you passed the next few hours like this, in your own bubble, and you couldn’t be happier.

You have your own family now. It’s yours, and it's beautiful.

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[skyfallscotland]

Seriously Amy? It’s not like we’re not all in love with Xaden and you had him write *that* love letter? I literally could not stop smiling!!!!

I need ch 9 AND 10….this reunion might just be one of the top remixaden scenes.

Speaking of which….what are your top 3 Remi/xaden scenarios?

I'm sorry haha, I thrive on making him a perfect(ly flawed) human being, ok?

I have to choose? 😭 Haha

The reunion/following conversation/day IS one of my top three, for sure. I feel like I'm already going to forget some of their F&F scenes? I'm going to cheat and do three from both (yes, that means multiple sneak peeks so buckle up). I think it kind of says a lot upon reflection that most of my favourite scenes/quotes are from times where they're intimate but openly communicating 🥺

In F&F definitely when Rem first manifests her signet and she's crying and overstimulated and he's laughing but comforting her all the same.

I flinch, closing my eyes against tears as he turns back toward me. “Remi,” he says gently. “Look at me.” I shake my head, keeping my eyes firmly shut as the tears spill over, running down my cheeks. He laughs softly and I shake as I feel his hands on my face, pulling me close. “Angel,” he says quietly, “why are you crying?” “I don’t know,” I whimper as he holds me to him, wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

Maybe the scene by the lake where she threatens him?

“And Xaden?” My voice is gentle and he freezes in place, only a foot away. He turns his head, barely glancing over his shoulder. I let my hand shoot forward, pressing the dagger I’ve palmed from my corset against his spine. “You don’t ever speak to, or handle me, so disrespectfully ever again.” I tell him warningly, holding his gaze. “There are so many things I could do to you that would still leave Sgaeyl intact.”

And when he tells her he loves her 🥺

“I love you, Remi.” He skates a gentle hand across my cheek and my heart begins to pound in my chest. “So much.” He cradles my face as his onyx eyes hold my gaze. “I love you in a way I never thought possible. You’re—you’re everything to me. I’d burn the world for you.” I swallow hard, blinking back tears. I’d known already that he loved me—I could tell from his actions and the way he always held me like I was something precious. I didn’t need the words, but… “I love you too, Xaden. You’re my stars,” I tip my head back so he can kiss me again, softer this time, “my centre of gravity.” I whisper. “I love you more than anything.” He presses his forehead to mine, clutching me tightly like if he blinks, I’ll disappear. “Promise me you won’t leave.” He begs quietly. “Promise me.” “I already told you,” I whisper softly, “for as long as you love me in return, you’ll never be alone again.” It breaks my heart that he’s still so convinced I’m going to hate him—that he believes there’s no possibility that I’ll stay.

In T&T definitely the reunion and the scene that follows, for which I'm keeping the best lines to myself for now, because I want you all to experience them in context, but... (Ch9-10)

“I don’t know.” I admit quietly and his expression shutters. “We need to talk about it—about so many things.” I tell him. “I can’t figure this out on my own.” It took me a while to realise that. “But what I do know is that I love you.” I tell him firmly. “Xaden,” I cup his jaw gently, “as long as you love me in return—” “I’ll never be alone again.” He whispers, finishing my sentence like it’s a common refrain, something he’s repeated to himself over and over, and I close my eyes for a second, willing myself not to cry.

This moment in (approximately) Ch14? I think? Where they have both fucked up.

“I thank Amari every day that you gave me a second chance, because no one else will ever meet my standards. I know exactly how strong you are, Remi Sorrengail.” I bury my face in his neck, trying to force back the tears that prick my eyes. “I’m sorry.” I choke out, trembling slightly against him. “I feel like I let you down.”   “No, angel.” He says quietly, cradling me close. “You didn’t let me down.” His arms tighten around me. 

And this whole scene where Remi almost dislocates her hip, that looks like it's going to sit around Ch17-ish

“Come here.” He slides away and in a second he’s hovering over me, pulling my leg out straight. His hands gently manoeuvre me this way and that, his thumbs kneading my thigh. “Stretch it out and then we can try again.”  I huff. “I’ve killed the mood already.” I mutter. “What’s the point?”  He stops, lacing his hands together over my thigh and then drops his chin down on top of them as he stares up at me amusedly. “Bold of you to assume you know how I feel.” He challenges.  “Are you still hard?”  “Are you in charge?”  We stare at each other for a moment before my lips twitch, just slightly, and then he’s grinning, dragging his teeth over the skin at the top of my thigh as I laugh softly. “Stop being a brat.” He chides, nipping gently as he pushes himself up, crawling over me. “Follow the rules.”

And yes, in case you were wondering that's just the tip of the iceberg and I plan to ruin you all xx 😇

#basgiath (remi's version) #remi's version asks #remi's version quotes

[eviesaurusrex]

Harry Styles x fem!reader

Faceclaim: Dakota Johnson

author’s note: my first social media au thingy I ever published, so please be gentle with me, thank youuuuuuu. short note: whoisharry is Harry’s top secret private account and please imagine some face masks on the picture of Dakota at a concert. I couldn’t find another one!

part 2 here

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yourinstagram sitting here, watching planes leaving their parking spots for take-off, and hoping my own plane will magically leave as well. Spoiler alert: it doesn’t look like it. #whyalwaysme

Liked by harrystyles, imsebastianstan, gemmastyles, chrishemsworth and 39,205 others | 7,852 comments

chrishemsworth I wish I could say it surprises me - but it doesn’t.

↳ yourinstagram Not. Funny.

↳ paulrudd Actually, it is quite funny.

↳ yourinstagram Shut up, Paul Rude.

gemmastyles Nooooo 🥺

↳ yourinstagram YEEEEEES 🥲😭

yourfan1 Planes really don’t like you

hsfan1 Is she on her way to the Denver show????

↳ hsfan2 I HOPE SO!

imsebastianstan I would drive you if this country wouldn’t be so damn huge 🫠

↳ yourinstagram I am cursed 🥲🥲🥲

hsfan3 Harry liked her post within seconds. Best boyfriend material.

harrystyles Should I check for another flight? x H.

↳ yourinstagram Loooooove 🥺 Don’t have to. Get some sleep instead! I’ll manage over here just fine. 🎶But I would walk 500 miles And I would walk 500 more Just to be the woman who walked 1000 miles To fall down at your door🎶

↳ harrystyles ❤️

↳ yourfan2 She is a queen

↳ harrystylesforever Not sure if I’m jealous of him dating her or of her dating him. They are THE COUPLE

yourinstagram Good morning, Denver.

[📍Denver, CO]

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mitchrowland and I thought we would have to endure his silent suffering even longer

↳ pillowpersonpp +1 a question, though: are you a wizard? Because how did you get here???

↳ yourinstagram It’s a secret 🤫 No, seriously, it was just a teeny-tiny bit of luck and a considerable portion of my credit card and some name-dropping *cough*

↳ mitchrowland That’s my man’s girl!

yourfan1 SHE IS IN DENVER

↳ hsfan1 FOR THE SHOOOOOOW

↳ hsfan2 a reunion long overdue 🥺❤️

↳ ynandharry my parents are back together!!!

jefezoff Get your magician butt over here, so I finally have his full attention.

↳ yourinstagram Aye aye, sir! 💃🏽

harrystyles Breakfast is waiting for you, darling x H.

↳ hsfan3 ‘m not crying, nope.

↳ yourinstagram Did somebody ever tell you how perfect you are, H?

↳ hsfan3 Okay, I’m crying.

whoisharry I have my girl back.

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annetwist Feed her well!

↳ gemmastyles but she has an interesting taste. Tend to it!

↳ whoisharry …??? Do I have to understand those cryptic orders?

↳ yourinstagram No, they’re just being weird 🙄

jefezoff And there I was foolishly thinking he would stay for the meeting. I am disappointed!

↳ yourinstagram I’ll bring him back in 20 minutes, mr boss, sir! 🤷🏽‍♀️

↳ jefezoff Hmpf. He better be here by then. (❤️)

mitchrowland My dreamboat ❤️

↳ pillowpersonpp Our dreamboat.

harrystyles Love On Tour. Denver. September, 2021.

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yourinstagram I am so proud of you, my love 🥺❤️

↳ harrystyles Thank you for being here with me, darling x H. ❤️

↳ yourinstagram Always ❤️

↳ hsfan1 Stop. It. Don’t make me cry even more 😭

taylorswift What an amazing performance!

gemmastyles Proud of you, little brother ❤️

hsfan2 He is every-freaking-thing

ynandharry Still can’t believe it, but I met YN at the Denver show, and she was THE SWEETEST AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH. She hugged meeeee. I’ll never shower again. Maybe.

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yourfan1 what did she saaaaaayyyyy

↳ ynandharry she asked if we (i was with a group of friends at the show) had fun and how we were doing, and she literally beamed the entire time! She looked so happy 🥺

↳ yourfan1 🥹❤️

yourfan2 gosh, she is prettier than ever before 😩

yourfan3 I’m so jealous?! I wanna meet her too 🥲

harrystylesforever Harry during his Denver show. His girlfriend (yourinstagram) was standing front and center, and made him smile and grin and laugh all the time. I never saw him this happy?! In your face, haters! Our man is his happiest self with this woman who sings along every single song ❤️

Liked by ynandharry, hsfan1, hsfan2, yourfan1, yourfan2 and 997 others | 244 comments

hsfan1 screaming crying lying on the floor

↳ hsfan2 +1

ynandharry They’re like my life goal

yourfan1 relationship goals

yourfan2 wedding when?

↳ hsfan3 imagine the wedding pictures 😭

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[markantonys]

towers of midnight chapters 45-end

elayne confirms that she indeed wasn’t able to get into TAR when gawyn wanted to wake her up to say goodbye. so what was the point of them not getting to say goodbye!!! “when she’d found out that birgitte had turned away gawyn...she’d been livid.” me too!!!

“elayne sat back, feeling the powerful warmth through the bond with rand that had appeared there. light, but that was a wonderful sensation. the moment she’d begun feeling it, the cloud cover around andor had broken.” ❤️❤️❤️

now melfane has taken it upon herself to sleep in the antechamber outside elayne’s bedroom every night “to keep a careful watch on her” which is close enough that she can hear any noise elayne makes and come barging in to check on her. good god can nobody allow elayne ANY privacy or freedom??? it’s infuriating! she is like 3 months pregnant and having an extremely healthy and normal pregnancy so far, relax!

“is everything all right? i thought i heard a cry of pain.” “that was an exclamation of joy, melfane. a greeting for the wonderful morning that has come to us.” jdkfjg my beloved

elayne’s starting to feel the babies kick! and melfane hears their heartbeats! 🥺🥺

birgitte arrives with two cloaked figures. “everyone knew that elayne didn’t like to see visitors in the small sitting room. if birgitte was bringing people here...‘mat?’ elayne guessed.” mat is elayne’s first guess for a visitor whom birgitte wouldn’t think she would object to receiving unexpectedly in her private rooms! 🥺🥺 also i love that elayne easily believes mat would dramatically cloak himself with hood up just to go talk to her jdkfjg

speaking of mat: we were so robbed of a) mat-gawyn interactions and b) mat taking part in elayne and perrin’s upcoming negotiations. when mat arrived in caemlyn i thought he and elayne would take part in each other’s plotlines for more than a couple scenes!

the visitors turn out to be galad and morgase!!!!!! 3/5 of my trakand family reunion!!!!!! if only gawyn hadn’t left and juuuuust missed them i’m so sad!!! and why didn’t they bring lini with them to see elayne!!!

elayne asks “where have you been?” and galad replies “i have been seeking truth” djkfjg why is he like this

upon hearing morgase was being held by whitecloaks, elayne mutters “bloody whitecloaks” and then when galad looks offended and takes off his cloak, revealing his whitecloak uniform, elayne says “oh, that’s right. i almost forgot that. intentionally.” get his ass elayne!!!

“conversing with galad was often like this: an exchange, more formal than familiar. once, it had frustrated her, but this time she found that - against her better wishes - she’d actually been missing him. so she listened with fondness.” awww

galad leaves elayne and morgase to speak privately. elayne tells morgase she’s gonna be a grandma!!! and that rand is the babydaddy, “though it’s not widely known, and i’d rather it stay that way.” indeed, it is so not widely known that not even rand himself knows! time to take inventory again:

people who currently know elayne is pregnant with rand’s babies: elayne, mat, aviendha, min, nynaeve, egwene, thom, birgitte, gawyn, morgase. judging by the caemlyn rumors of the dragon reborn knocking people up, safe to say that many people in the city suspect it. judging by perrin, faile, and berelain’s conviction that rand and elayne will marry, safe to say they’ll suspect it too.

people who currently do not know elayne is pregnant with rand’s babies: rand

“he’s a good man, and i love him. what you have heard is exaggeration or bitter rumor.” “but he’s...elayne, a man who can channel, the dragon reborn!” “and still a man. just a man, for all that is demanded of him.” ❤️❤️❤️ then morgase says “i shall withhold judgment. though in a way i still feel that i should have thrown that boy in the palace dungeons the moment we found him skulking in the gardens.” jdkfjg

“morgase smiled. ‘you make me proud. you will be a wonderful queen.’ elayne had to force herself to stop beaming. her mother had never been free with compliments.” ❤️❤️

“the easiest way to deal with [the manetheren situation] would be to find [perrin] and execute him, but of course she wasn’t going to do that. even if reports had her fuming enough to almost wish that she could.” jkdjfg elayne!

“‘oh, and lini is safe. i don’t know if you’ve worried over her or not.’ ‘to be honest, i didn’t,’ elayne said, grimacing, feeling a spike of shame.” this is doing elayne dirty because i’m 99% sure i remember her having at least one thought about lini’s disappearance before where she thought that she’d probably died protecting morgase or something. so it wasn’t like elayne thought lini was MIA and had cause to worry, she just thought she was dead. also, lini is like 100 years old so it also wouldn’t be unreasonable for elayne to think she’d died of old age during the 2ish years elayne was gone from caemlyn lmao

“it seems that the collapse of dragonmount itself couldn’t harm lini.” goddamn right!!

back to avi! “rand caused so many problems. still, she loved him.” dhfjkgh aviendha summing up the WOT experience. “she loved him for his ignorance, in a way. it allowed him to learn. and she loved him for the foolish way he tried to protect those who did not want to be protected. most of all, she loved him for his desire to be strong.” unfortunate that sanderson makes most of the rand qualities that avi most loves the ones that have been proven to be problematic lmao (since post-epiphany he stopped trying to protect the maidens who don’t want to be protected and rethought his desire to be strong - here avi frames it as admiring his need to be the strongest warrior and be The Best, which is what rand’s come to see was the wrong way to go about things). but hey, at least avi DOES provide personality traits that she loves about rand, which is more than min’s ever done!

“the more she thought of it, the more she realized that she couldn’t go back to her old life. she had to be with rand. if he survived the last battle - and she intended to fight hard to make certain he did - he would still be a wetlander king. and then there was elayne. aviendha and she were going to be sister-wives, but elayne would never leave andor. would she expect rand to stay with her? would that mean aviendha would need to as well?” i feel my post-canon avirandlayne throuple raising their six (6) babies in caemlyn coming!!!!! also, hollering over the fact that min has absolutely NO place in aviendha’s visions of the future jkdjfgh she doesn’t mention her at all here! by god do we love to see it!!!! sometimes it feels like min is basically rand’s traveling source of sex while he and elayne and avi are busy saving the world and can’t spend time together, and elayne and avi are the ones he’ll settle down with and have a future with after the world’s been saved. rand/min may get all the screentime during the books, but avirandlayne throuple is endgame ❤️

aviendha questions whether going to rhuidean still has a purpose now that all aiel know its secrets, and has some interesting thoughts about the importance, and unimportance, of traditions. “it was strength to accept change when it could not be avoided.” “traditions should not be maintained just because they were traditions. strength was not strength if it had no purpose or direction.” a nice complement to all egwene’s musing about change and updating traditions a few chapters ago!

we get a chapter set at the black tower showing us what it’s like there. kinda interesting, but coming waaaay too late - our prior black tower chapters were mostly focused on the aes sedai bonded to asha’man, whereas this chapter is the first one where we really see asha’man with each other and get a sense of the camaraderie (and enmity) between them. and, of course, no black tower chapter could truly be fun unless rand is there! why has he never gone! in a series full of plotlines that had fantastic setup and then totally dropped the ball and wasted their potential, the black tower has to be one of the worst (i would say second only to the seanchan sul’dam channeling secret not being used to destabilize the empire).

most people at the black tower resent rand for abandoning them. absolutely fair! i once saw someone call rand the deadbeat dad of the black tower and i think about that all the time jkfjgh

perrin and faile go to meet with elayne. perrin asks if galad wants to come and he says “no, my meal with elayne was sufficient for us to catch up” lmao he saw his sister for the first time in ages and had one meal with her and went “that’s enough, i’m good now”

faile half expects to find rand in the caemlyn throne room. i fucking wish!!! “rand had set [the lion throne] aside and protected it, like a flower he intended to present to a future love.” i can’t decide if this is romantic or condescending. which is fairly par for the course with rand djfkg

faile tells us that elayne “was showing her pregnancy at the belly and through the chest” hey faile how do you remember elayne’s normal boob size well enough from your brief acquaintance in the stone of tear to know that they’ve been affected by pregnancy? faile also reports that elayne has “stunning beauty” and “a musical voice.” add faile to the list of women for whom elayne has caused gay thoughts.

as i predicted, faile wonders whether rand could be elayne’s babydaddy. everybody but rand knows!!!

elayne’s like “maybe i should just execute you” as a power move, tho ofc we readers know she would never actually do it. “i don’t think rand would think very highly of that move.” “i’m not beholden to him.” do you think elayne effectively utilized girl power by not caring what her boyfriend would think if she executed his best friend? hell yeah i do! jdkfjg (but again, we readers know she isn’t serious anyway)

some interesting negotiations here! tho i kinda feel like the overall vibe is trying to make elayne seem like a tyrant trying to quash a noble and righteous fight for independence. and morgase keeps intervening to tell her not to go too far and then proposes the solution of giving the two rivers to the dragon reborn, even though the whole issue about morgase returning was that she might overshadow elayne or seem to be the real power behind the throne! elayne should be the one thinking up the solutions!

and morgase is basically like “elayne you shouldn’t try to argue with perrin because he’s ta’veren so it’s useless going against what he wants” which is so annoying. i’ve seen Certain Readers take a stance of like “elayne sucks for trying to get perrin to submit to her when he’s ~more important~ than she is” he may be ta’veren but he’s a terrible leader and elayne has far more leadership experience and ability than he does! he absolutely is not ~more important~ than she is! the whole “should the girls be ta’veren or not” debate is like, on the one hand, i can see how it would be more empowering for the girls to gain all their authority and win all their victories purely on their own merits instead of due to ta’veren, but on the other, it results in a very frustrating real-life vibe of “woman who has worked at something for her entire life gets overridden by a man who just showed up” (same deal with perrin mansplaining TAR to egwene)

as for the actual issue of the two rivers, where do i stand on it? i don’t know. i don’t want the two rivers to be officially absorbed into andor, but i also don’t want them to get a permanent lordship, and since those are the only 2 choices, i guess i’d rather the former since elayne is demonstrably a much better and more experienced leader than perrin lmao tho i am fairly satisfied with the final compromise of the two rivers retaining autonomy with the excuse of being the dragon reborn’s seat in andor, stewardship of which he’s given to his dear friend. i still think the two rivers should just not have a lord and continue to be anarchist farmers but i've long since been forced to acknowledge that that’s not on the table.

and now faile brings saldaea, berelain mayene, and alliandre ghealdan into an alliance with elayne and andor (and cairhien) which is very good news in terms of creating a bulwark against the seanchan to one side and rand’s potential empire to the other!

elayne wants to arrange-marry one of her kids to one of perrin and faile’s but perrin refuses, and faile compromises by saying they could encourage the kids to go for each other without forcing it. i love the idea of rand’s and perrin’s kids marrying each other! wholesome! we’ve got elayne ruling andor and cairhien, her boyfriend ruling several other countries, her girlfriend as an aiel community leader, her boyfriend’s bff and his wife ruling the two rivers and saldaea, one sister-in-law ruling mayene, another sister-in-law as amyrlin seat, her bff and her husband ruling malkier......the whole continent’s leadership is just one big family and i love that for them.

and, actually, mat being the prince consort of seanchan COULD HAVE worked for The Geopolitical Family if only he were going to attempt to use his position for the good of randland rather than just becoming tuon’s yes-man

post-canon scenario where mat and his kid go to caemlyn to broker a marriage alliance with one of elayne’s kids and then mat ends up falling in love with elayne and rand (or reigniting his love for them which he’s tried to forget for all these years) and his kid’s like “what the hell dad we were supposed to be here for MY marriage” jfkg but the kid is aware that tuon is a terrible wife and mother and person so they play matchmaker for mat with rand and elayne (aided by the twins and aviendha) and then mat divorces tuon and he and his kid move to caemlyn permanently, the end!

anyway, elayne tells them that rand’s planning to break the seals and says “we’ll need to stop him, of course. foolish plan.” i swear that earlier in this very book she and nynaeve were BOTH telling egwene “oh that plan actually might work, i trust rand”???

went back to check: in the girls’ TAR meeting in chapter 14, elayne’s only response is “well, there are only three seals left, and they’re crumbling.” implying she doesn’t think it’s a terrible idea for rand to break them, since they’re already breaking anyway. nynaeve is more vocal in saying that if the seals are going to break, better for it to happen at a time when rand is there to battle the dark one, and then is kinda like “eh, MAYBE you’re right.......” when egwene argues. egwene notes that for both of them it’s “a more lukewarm reception” than she’d expected. so i AM gonna call retconning/ooc-ness on elayne suddenly saying that “of course” they need to stop rand from breaking the seals.

tuon pov and we see elaida (now a damane) showing the seanchan how to Travel and i am BROKEN i hate this!!!!!! (and once again, complete lack of acknowledgment from tuon that she herself can channel even as she’s watching channeling occur and you’d think her thoughts would naturally go in this direction even if she tried not to let them)

we have tuon saying that rand will serve the crystal throne, that ALL marath’damane must be leashed, and that she’s going to send soldiers via gateway into the white tower to destroy it once and for all and enslave everyone there. and then we immediately switch over to perrin pov where they’re talking about tuon: “‘i’d like to meet her,’ perrin said. ‘she’s something interesting,’ thom replied. ‘interesting,’ mat said. ‘yeah.’ he looked wistful.” LIKE????? genuinely, what the hell am i supposed to make of this??? what does the narrative want me to feel here about tuon and mat’s feelings for her??? tuon’s pov feels pretty unambiguously Villain Making Evil Plots, so then by having mat pine over her IMMEDIATELY AFTER the reader’s heard her plans to enslave all his friends - the only possible interpretations are that either mat is a brainwashed idiot or that he’s a heartless asshole and a traitor (and to some extent the same applies to thom and kiiiinda perrin, tho at least perrin has the excuse of not actually knowing much about tuon as a person beyond what lovesick lies mat might have told him). i don’t think the narrative can possibly be trying to achieve anything other than one of those two things, or if it is, it’s failing miserably lmao

it’s so funny to me that people complain that sanderson “ruined” tuon. like nah fam she was always exactly like this, the only difference is that now she has a much bigger power base she can use to commit atrocities than she did in rj’s books.

anyway, back to the boys. if we ignore the tuon portion of the conversation, it IS so wonderful to see perrin, mat, and thom sitting together and sharing all their stories and their future plans and just communicating and telling each other things ❤️ “[perrin] hadn’t realized how much he’d missed sitting with friends to spend the evening chatting.” this is the first time in so long that perrin’s been around a friend that isn’t his wife or his subordinate! except elyas and hopper i guess.

the return of mat’s letter from verin, tho he still hasn’t opened it. i should note that in a previous chapter galad was mentioned as having a red-sealed letter that he was frowning about - verin issued him his invite to the cauthor wedding she’s setting up. in all seriousness, i’m dyyyying to know what these letters are all about! the mesaana mystery was a letdown, so this one better not be! (update from the end of the book: i wish i’d never found out what the letter was about lmao but we’ll get to that at the end of the post)

mat asks if perrin has heard from verin and says he hopes she’s all right 🥺

but then mat proceeds to be a total dick, saying “blown up anyone interesting lately?” to grady and then, when grady says that faile wants perrin to come home because it’s getting late, saying “see, this is why i left my wife in another kingdom.” fuck off mat!! my pre-COT mat, who hates war and is sensitive to its traumas and who genuinely enjoys the company of women whether as friends or as romantic partners, would never. his wife comment fuels my theory that the narrative was trying to break mat down to squeeze him into the “i hate my wife she never lets me have fun” type of Toxically Heteronormative Husband Mold (an attitude which he started showing very strongly in COT and even WH, so sanderson isn’t entirely to blame. and he did have that attitude in earlier books too, but it felt less.......maliciously misogynistic before WH, somehow.)

perrin gets in some good roasts of mat: “you’ve changed for the better, my friend.” “from you, i’ll try to accept that as a compliment. it will be difficult.” and then “how are you going to protect yourself?” “with my wits.” “planning to find some of those, then? about time.” sanderson!perrin is so sassy i love it jkfjg (tho rj!perrin did have his moments, most iconically, “mat, you’re scared that rand will blow up everything but his own bed while he’s sleeping? then why don’t you snuggle up to him in his bed”)

and mat tells perrin that moiraine is alive and shares his plan to rescue her! communication! we love to see it!

and now we get to aviendha’s rhuidean visions of the future, and let me tell you, i barely had it in me to recap the chapters before that bc i read them all in one chunk and by the time i finished aviendha’s chapters i was absolutely broken. i was planning to finish off the whole book today (sunday at the time of writing this), but once i got to the end of this part i had to put it down and do something else because i felt too devastated and hopeless to go on!

so, we learn that in the future, the seanchan will hunt the aiel to the point that they become starving scavengers on the brink of extinction, and also that the seanchan will gain total control of every country in the wetlands. my growing worst fear has been that if randland doesn’t destabilize the empire now and boot them out of the continent, then it will never happen and seanchan will take over the known world in the next age, and lo and behold, that’s exactly what will happen!!!

or at least, that’s POSSIBLY what will happen. aviendha feels convinced that “what she had experienced was not simply one of many possibilities [unlike the visions in the rings]. what she had seen would occur.” but i refuse to believe this!!! because a) it would make the entire series feel pointless and hopeless and b) there was a mention in one of the visions that the dragon knelt to the seanchan empress, and i KNOW that won’t happen okay!! i know it won’t!! i know it!!!!!

in addition, there seems to be a theme that the reason the war happened was because the aiel encouraged the wetlander rulers to break the peace treaty with the seanchan and attack them, and then the seanchan wiped out all rebellion and completely took over all the lands instead of coexisting with them. so i’m thinking that this future can be prevented if everybody agrees to let the seanchan keep the lands they’ve taken and live peacefully with them instead of trying to drive them back across the ocean................which i absolutely hate!!!!! you set up this horrible evil empire who invades our characters’ homeland, and you expect me to just be okay with them getting to keep what they stole at the end of the story???? sadly realistic, yes, but narratively unsatisfying! i want to see the imperialist villains be soundly defeated when i read stories! and the “well life is actually better in the lands the seanchan have taken over” narrative is such a retcon because if you think back to falme in TGH, the atmosphere was one of terror, everybody was so scared and downtrodden even if they weren’t getting enslaved and were being permitted to continue their lives relatively uninterrupted. if you read that book and immediately found out “this is going to be the new normal and the seanchan will never get kicked out again,” it would be horrifying and so depressing. i almost feel like rj realized he’d made the seanchan empire too OP as an antagonist and that it would be impossible for the westlands to defeat them fully, especially with the last battle also coming, and then in the second half of the series tried to make them seem not so bad so that he could get away with not kicking them to the curb altogether (but, of course, there’s the fact that they had a HUGE weakness in the sul’dam secret and rj deliberately chose not to make use of that, so idk). actually, now that i say that, i think both theories are true: rj realized that the seanchan empire was Too Big To Fail until the last battle had been dealt with, hence he dropped the sul’dam secret for the time being, intending to punt the ultimate defeat of the seanchan off to outriggers when there would be more space for it since the last battle is over and the shadow is defeated. and since he didn’t leave notes about outriggers or how the seanchan would be ultimately defeated, sanderson had no choice but to follow his main series notes wherein the seanchan are left alone.

small details from the vision: rhuarc’s son said that rhuarc found the previous seanchan empress (tuon) “a woman of honor” LMAO that’s a joke, but the good news is that by 17 years after the last battle, tuon’s rule has been over for “many years” so i’m thinking she doesn’t live too long post canon, at least in this version of the timeline. and rhuarc’s son says that an understanding was nearly reached with tuon, which again makes me predict that this future will be avoided by coming to an agreement and all holding hands with tuon, who is extremely dishonorable and unreasonable and evil.

also, aviendha and rand’s daughter asks rhuarc’s son about rand, and it seems she never met him. which means either rand will die, which i know from spoilers isn’t true, or rand will become a deadbeat dad to his own kids in addition to the black tower, which i now worry might become true. or it could also be that rand did die in this Worst Future but won’t in the Better But Still Depressing Future. i hope that’s the case, because rand “my biggest dream is to live on a little farm with my baby daughter” al’thor becoming a deadbeat dad would almost be as depressing as the seanchan taking over everything!

finally, there’s hostility between aviendha’s and elayne’s granddaughters, and even in the generation before that avi’s kids are living exclusively among aiel and don’t seem to have any connection to elayne’s kids. so maybe avirandlayne throuple raising their six (6) babies together in caemlyn can also help avert the Worst Future!

i will say it’s kinda funny that aviendha’s so hopeless about thinking her blood descendants will doom the aiel and maybe there’s nothing she can do about it - girl the obvious solution here is just don’t have kids with rand jfgkj it would be one thing if she was already pregnant, but she isn’t. so just don’t let rand fuck you again and you’ll be good! i mean, i wouldn’t normally advocate for making family planning decisions based solely on prophetic visions of questionable inevitability, but in this case!

me in a greek tragedy: surely if i just leave my baby on this mountaintop then he’ll die and won’t be able to someday marry me and kill his dad

“if i can’t [change that future], she thought, will that stop me from trying? the answer was simple. no. she could not live without doing something to avert that fate...aiel took responsibility. aiel fought. aiel stood for honor. if she was the only one who knew the terrors of their future, then it was her duty - as a wise one - to act. she would save her people.” ❤️❤️❤️ also, wow, POLAR opposite of min constantly going “wow i foresaw so many deaths and atrocities, but i’m not even going to try to do anything about it because it’s unchangeable”

okay, several days have passed (in real life) and i am now calm enough to keep reading. elayne prepares to meet with cairhienin nobles and wears a dress whose neckline is “high enough to be modest, but low enough to remind all that elayne was a woman” and here we have what i do believe is the very first example of elayne actually consciously attempting to weaponize her attractiveness, despite mat’s and aviendha’s hornily annoyed claims that she does it all the time (actually, this is the second. the first was in TDR when egwene and nynaeve’s whole plan to get mat to agree to help them was just to have elayne smile at him. and it almost worked!)

elayne pulls some clever maneuvers to gain herself the sun throne AND deal with elenia & co at the same time! my beloved! “better to choose your enemies than remain in ignorance.” yeah!!

of course, birgitte’s only response to this clever maneuvering is to be all “bUT NoW yOu’LL bE iN DaNGeR” she is an active hindrance to Elayne Accomplishing Hot Girl Shit at this point (or would be if elayne ever listened to her fussing, which she thankfully does not) she’s a fucking queen of two countries birgitte how do you think it’s even remotely possible for her to avoid making enemies???

“i worry that [callandor] may be used against you.” “i suspect that it will. everything else in this world has been used against me.” rand is literally this tweet:

rand claims that he’s been unable to Travel to the black tower, which “implies great trouble” (so i think he did FOR ONCE try to Travel there and was blocked from doing so). he sends naeff to go check on the situation there. “problems...so many problems that need fixing. and only one of me.” my brother in the light for books 10-11 you sat around doing nothing but have sex with min for WEEKS! you could’ve dealt with this problem then! even when logain showed up during that timeframe and was like “hey things are getting bad there you should go check it out” you were like “i can’t read suddenly i don’t know” and continued to sit around waiting for bashere to come back with word about the seanchan alliance and having sex with min!

“tell them that i was wrong. tell them that we’re not weapons. we’re men.” ❤️❤️ i really hope we get to see more rand & asha’man bonding in the show (which has already done more to show Warders As Community than the books ever did and is also much better at and more committed to fleshing out interpersonal connections in general)

“are you ever going to give up that affectation, cadsuane sedai? calling me boy? i no longer mind, though it does feel odd. i was four hundred years old on the day i died during the age of legends. i suspect that would make you my junior by several decades at the least. i show you respect. perhaps it would be appropriate for you to return it. if you wish, you may call me rand sedai. i am, so far as i know, the only male aes sedai still alive who was properly raised but who never turned to the shadow.” GET HER ASS

“when rand spoke like that, it troubled min more than she wanted to admit.” rand’s whole goddamn arc has been about learning to accept that he is lews therin and lews therin is him, and min just has completely no understanding whatsoever of any of that. but as we know, she’s the only one who truly knows and understands him and reminds him of who he is! i do love the implication that rand didn’t share any of his dragonmount epiphany with min or let her in on the majority of his thoughts and feelings on this topic <3

small min/rand thing that annoys me: rand is CONSTANTLY taking min by the arm to walk places and helping her stand from chairs and stuff. she’s an adult! she is capable of standing and walking on her own! they are that nauseating couple that insists on holding hands to show everybody that they’re a couple even when they are only walking a distance of 5 feet.

rand says that he turned out better than lews therin because he was raised better and that if rand had been the same now as he was in the AOL then the dark one would’ve broken him successfully. and show haters complained about the show doing lews therin dirty by calling him arrogant, when that’s book canon!

“it’s because of tam, because of the people around me. you, perrin, nynaeve, mat, aviendha, elayne, moiraine.” if i just replace “tam” with “my dad,” take min out of the list, bump perrin down lower on it, and add egwene, this would be a perfect sentence. honestly the fucking RUDENESS to not include egwene!!!! what the fuck rand/sanderson!!!! i know you guys haven’t been as close lately but a) you saw egwene super recently and seemed quite affectionate towards her (saying you expected nothing less from her than being one of the greatest amyrlins of all time) even though you two disagree about the seals and b) to list all but ONE of the other emond’s fielders! it’s so rude!

also, i always said this earlier in the series but it frustrates me immensely that rand gets so cut off from the majority of his loved ones and we don’t get to see them taking turns being there for him. he lists out so many loved ones who’ve helped him be a good person, but there’s so little textual evidence to support it because most of them haven’t seen him in like 6 books and were not around during the lowest points of his downward spiral. the show seems very committed to The Power Of Friendship so i hope that this will be rectified there! i want to see ALL rand’s friends and loved ones being there to support him in his moments of need! my #1 way to do this is making dumai’s wells a full cast event. i’ll riot if that’s not a Series Linchpin Moment that all the major characters show up for (and it could jumpstart and make more concrete the egwene vs. rand conflict over aes sedai by having her witness him making aes sedai kneel to him and being upset and then arguing with him about it)

but let’s take a moment to celebrate rand acknowledging that elayne and avi exist and are important to him!!!! and mat too!!!

“so. cadsuane called rand by name, instead of naming him ‘boy.’ it seemed a victory, and it made min smile.” that’s rich, min, seeing as at every turn you’ve enabled cadsuane’s belittling of rand and agreed with her that he’s foolish and needs minding.

min: “he likely meant that you should get me away. knowing him, he’s more worried about me than himself. blasted fool.” i mean, rand is the most magically powerful person in the world and can singlehandedly decimate an entire HUGE trolloc army while you have zero (0) combat skills and have been an active hindrance to him in every combat situation you’ve ever followed him into, sooooooooooooooo

“[the maidens] stepped up beside rand. as usual, they assumed that commands to stay back didn’t include them.” I’M. JSKDJFG. MIN. ARE YOU. FUCKINGJHFKJH. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME WITH THIS. remember that time when rand’s hand got blown off because YOU assumed that commands to stay back didn’t include you? remember that time when- no actually i don’t have time to go through a whole montage of “times min assumed commands to stay back didn’t include her” because it would fill up a whole WOT-length book. suffice it to say that my jaw literally dropped reading this line and i almost screamed aloud lmao the lack of self-awareness is absolutely UNREAL!!!!!! and of course we’ve got to point out that the maidens are actually CAPABLE of offering rand protection (and of protecting themselves) unlike min, so there is little to no issue with THEM walking headfirst into potential danger.

once again, min yells at people for trying to make rand take responsibility for problems that he caused (tho granted the borderland rulers aren’t really fair to blame him for ALL the chaos in the world, and slapping him so hard that his mouth gets bloody is a BIT dramatic. but still.)

“he’s changed, cadsuane told herself. you’re just going to have to accept that. not that he didn’t need her anymore.” name ONE time when rand has needed you. okay fine far madding when he was in jail. name TWO times when rand has needed you. you can’t! it just makes me completely insane that half the series was spent building up to cadsuane being crucial to rand and teaching him something important and then that literally never happened. cadsuane was involved in rand learning to laugh and cry again only in the most indirect and tangential way possible, and even that was only because she was so unhelpful and untrustworthy and bad at being his advisor that rand flew into enough of a rage to almost kill his own father when he found out cadsuane had sent him. the narrative tells me over and over how important cadsuane is but you could take her out of the entire story and very little would change (same with min, while we’re on the subject).

me when a coworker asks what my weekend plans are: tomorrow, i meet with the monarchs of the world. after that, i am going to go to shayol ghul and break the remaining seals on the dark one’s prison. good day.

“well, the boy certainly had picked up an understanding of the dramatic.” jdfkjg cadsuane can have one (1) right for this

okay so the last battle is starting in 2 days??? goddamn!!!!! perrin i’m sorry i made fun of you in the last post for thinking the last battle was starting Right Now.

the whole series: is building towards the last battle me in the last 100 pages of the penultimate book finding out that the last battle is about to start: surprised pikachu

to be fair, for a long ass time in the middle of the series it felt like we were just going to meander around and never actually get to the last battle jkfgj

“could you send for someone on my behalf? there is a man in your army named hurin. i would like to apologize to him.” 🥺🥺🥺 rand’s relationship with hurin is more emotionally impactful than his relationship with min change my mind

elayne to birgitte: “you don’t like anything, lately. i swear, you’re becoming more irritable by the day.” and “there’s no way to do this and remain safe, not unless i want to hide in my palace and send my troops in. that would only lead to rebellion in cairhien and potential collapse in andor. i’m queen now, birgitte. you’re not going to be able to keep me from danger, no more than you could keep a lone soldier safe on the battlefield.” THANK YOU!!!!

"‘why do you keep looking in that direction?’ ‘rand,’ elayne said, feeling that warmth again, pulsing from the knot of emotions in her mind. ‘he’s getting ready for something. he feels troubled. and peaceful at the same time.’” ❤️❤️

i was about to say that it’s annoying how in this book we got so much of elayne and avi thinking about rand and none of rand thinking about either of them, but then i remembered we haven’t gotten any actual rand pov the whole time and we’ve only ever seen him in the pov of min, who never acknowledges that he has 2 other partners unless they are physically standing right in front of her and forcing her to, so.

“egwene was right; breaking the seals would be foolish. but rand would see reason.” again, this is a straight up contrast to elayne’s initial reaction to the seal-breaking plan, and to my memory (it took me so long to read this book that i very well could be forgetting a scene lmao) she did not have any moment in between where she sat down and thought about it some more and decided she did agree with egwene after all. but of course, since breaking the seals is the correct thing to do, we’ve got to have the men (rand, perrin) and the Good, Men-Supporting Women (min, nynaeve) approve of it and the Bad, Men-Opposing Women (egwene, elayne, faile) disapprove 🙄 (*i* have no issue with elayne disagreeing with rand’s plan, or with anyone else disagreeing, but you KNOW this is how Certain Segments of the fandom see this whole thing)

“[the sun palace] was a grand building, despite the broken wing where the attempt on rand’s life had taken place.” elayne knows about something that happened to rand while they were apart!!!!!! praise the light!!!!

it is absolutely wild how a whole COUNTRY passes from rand’s hands to elayne’s and yet the two of them never once meet up to talk about any of this. i’ll choose to interpret it as they’re so similar and in sync that they don’t need to talk to each other to come up with a successful plan 😌 but like come on. “had rand thought that it would be as easy as that to give her the throne?” yeah, it sure would be nice and helpful for elayne to know what rand thinks about the plan to get her on the throne!

birgitte stops elayne from sitting on the throne (physically taking a seat on it, that is) and elayne rolls her eyes and thinks she’s overreacting, and then birgitte finds a poisoned needle hiding in the cushions, so once again the narrative rewards birgitte’s overprotectiveness and makes elayne out to be unobservant and naive and reckless 🙄

“not very comfortable. i would have expected a monarch’s throne to be more cushioned, what with your delicate backside and all.” i feel like birgitte’s banter/jabs at elayne have become much more mean-spirited than they used to be, but maybe going the whole last book without the characters and their dynamic just made me forget what they were like? but i don’t really remember birgitte being all that anti-noble in rj’s books, but she most definitely has been this book. half the things out of her mouth could’ve come from mat, and you would think that after all this time shadowing elayne she would have a PRETTY GOOD understanding that being a queen isn’t all fun and games!

elayne keeps having internal Moral Objections about daes dae’mar and cairhienin plotting, and they jar me for a second every time because i’ve been living in my sun queen raised on daes dae’mar elayne damodred au fic all week jfkgj

and so elayne officially has cairhien! that was super fast. love and light to sanderson for managing to finish up in 3 books what would’ve taken rj like 10 more, but i would’ve loved to see rj’s multi-book take on elayne playing daes dae’mar.

“the scarf [mat] had chosen this time was red. in memory of tylin and the others who had fallen to the gholam. for a short time, he had been tempted to choose pink. a very short time.” 🤮🤮 i’m sure i said this during my ACOS and WH posting, but it is truly unbelievable how rj managed to set up mat being trapped by tylin as a bona fide horror story with his trauma and misery so real and palpable and heartbreaking, and then undercut it at the end with “oh but he actually loves the sex haha” like what happened there? did you not read what YOU wrote? (i bring this up now bc sanderson is most definitely just continuing the trend that rj started with mat thinking of tylin so fondly afterwards when at the time he was extremely traumatized and hated every second of being around her)

“a few papers he had been able to wiggle out of her royal majesty, spy reports he had wanted to look over” ummmm how exactly did you wiggle these papers out of elayne, mat?? 👀👀👀👀

“so tuon really had crowned herself, or whatever it was the seanchan did to name a new leader. that made him smile.” mat going “omg i’m so happy my evil wife is now the empress of the empire who invaded my homeland and wants to enslave my friends and against whom i was leading military campaigns just a short time ago” read the fucking ROOM man good god

“light, but they did not know what they were in for! they probably thought they did. but she would surprise them, sure as the sky was blue. or, well, it had been gray lately.” i was about to go “hey um how exactly is tuon, the most seanchan seanchan to ever seanchan, going to surprise the seanchan with her manner of ruling” but then the "sure as the sky is blue! except, it’s actually gray” makes me hope that the narrative is somewhat attempting to tell me that mat IS clowning here lmao

“he found some pages with news about rand, too, most of it unspecific or untrustworthy. blasted colors. rand was sitting around and talking with some people in a tent. perhaps he was in arad doman, but he could not be both there and fighting in the borderlands, now could he?” mat is so anxious to know where his boyfriend is! “he turned over the reports on rand quickly. he hated having to banish those flaming colors over and over again. at least rand was wearing clothes this time.” interesting how mat says he hates HAVING to BANISH the colors, not that he hates having the colors in the first place 👀 @essie007’s interpretation of queer mat being punished for queerness by tylin and tuon traumatizing him and forcing him into the mold of a proper heterosexual husband and him thus being cut off from rand and suppressing his early-series affection and feelings for him is so real actually. i will note that mat spends quite a bit more time thinking about the rand-related spy reports than the tuon-related ones 👀

“is it true that you know the queen?” “elayne’s a nice enough girl. pretty thing, that’s for certain.” i am going to ignore the condescending tone of that reply and instead celebrate that mat has openly admitted aloud that he thinks elayne is nice and pretty!!!

“i received a letter from joline today...she didn’t ask for anything. she merely wanted to send word that they had arrived safely in tar valon.” “you must have read it wrong.” “joline sedai respects you, master cauthon. she often spoke highly of you, and the way that you rescued not only her, but the other two. she asked after you in the letter.” wow. the post-WH mat that joline knew does NOT deserve that from her! yet another example of a female character coming to repent of her Mean behavior towards mat while he is not required to do the same (all he says is that he ALMOST feels bad for the blue mouth prank and that you wouldn’t have known she felt that way about him because she was always so Mean to him and that she’s aes sedai and thus “treats everyone like they’re mud to be scraped off her boots” and then hastily pulls a classic WOT non-channeling man “oh but YOU’RE not like that” when setalle gets offended)

setalle asks mat why he hates aes sedai and he makes it all about “women be bossing men around” (with a smattering of “ugh nobles”) rather than the fact that he’s scared of the Power and of being used and leashed, which USED to be the reason he hated aes sedai, pre-COT.

“people like elayne made up rules to suit them. people like mat found ways to get around the stupid rules.” mat doing elayne so dirty here 🙄 as IF she did not JUMP at the chance to commit crimes the second she was let loose on an unsupervised cross-continental roadtrip! as soon as they ran low on money elayne’s first INSTINCT was “i am going to commit theft!” and nynaeve had to reel her in! pre-queen elayne’s entire MO was be bi do crimes!

pevara confirms that indeed, making gateways in or to the black tower has become impossible. people at the tower are also acting possessed and evil. something real weird’s going on there but there is only one book left in the series and i do not have it in me to care about a new plotline for minor characters unfolding at this late stage of the game, so whatever.

perrin thinks “light, let it be so” about moiraine being alive, awww! momraine!

perrin considers sending word to rand about moiraine (yes please do!) but then decides not to (dammit!) because it would be cruel to give rand hope before perrin knew for certain that moiraine was alive and out of the tower (fair enough) and also because it would be “an invitation for rand to meddle in mat’s mission” (there is nothing i want more than for rand to meddle in mat’s mission! i miss cauthor!)

confirmation that faile hates mat jdfkgj i would’ve liked to see the two of them actually interact (she intentionally misses mat’s sendoff here lmao)

and so we get to the Moiraine Rescue Heist!!!! i thought this was gonna be the main plot of the book and then it didn’t even begin until the last 50 pages lmao but nevertheless, it was wonderful! i loved it! no notes!

no, SOME notes, of course. “well, if [the eelfinn] dared stand between him and moiraine, then they would see what he could do with their gift [the ashandarei]. burn him, but they would.” 🥺

on the one hand, mat knowing that he has magical luck powers and taking advantage of them is a plan in and of itself. on the other, the fact that elayne gets criticized for recklessness after coming up with a very organized and well-thought-out plan for raiding the black ajah house while mat gets praised for going into the tower of ghenjei and literally going “i’m going to spin around and pick a corridor to follow at random” !!!!!

upon seeing moiraine: “mat felt a surge of emotions. worry, frustration, concern, awe. she was the one who had started this all. he had hated her at times. he also owed her his life. she was the first one who had meddled, yanking him this way and that. yet - looking back - he figured that she had been the most honest about it of anyone who had used him. unapologetic, unyielding. and selfless. she had dedicated everything to protecting three foolish boys, all ignorant of what the world would demand of them. she had determined to take them to safety. maybe train them a little, whether they wanted it or not. because they needed it. light, her motives seemed clear to him now. that did not make him any less angry with her, but it did make him grateful. burn her, but this was a confusing set of emotions! those bloody foxes - how dare they keep her like this!” 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️ i had to quote this whole long thing in full because it is so much!!!! momraine!!!!!!

and mat gives up his eye to save moiraine!!! this scene is so intense!!!! to all of you who fret about me knowing too many spoilers jkfgj it doesn’t make the reading experience less good, because i knew mat would rescue moiraine and i knew he would lose his eye doing it but i didn’t know exactly HOW those things would happen and it was so exciting to finally read the scene in full!!

sometimes i like thinking about what chapter titles would be episode titles in the show - “the light of the world” 100% would be (the only other one i can remember off the top of my head thinking “oh yeah this’ll definitely be an episode title” is “people of the dragon” from i think TDR, but i know there have been others along the way. if you guys have chapter title episode title predictions drop them in the replies!)

me when noal dies: oh no! anyway

lmao sorry noal, you did go out like a hero but you simply were introduced far too late in the series for me to become at all invested in you. i would be fairly surprised if noal makes the show, so i was thinking maybe birgitte could be the third person - it would make sense since she’s knowledgeable about the tower (or at least more than anyone else is) and if she sacrificed herself here it would have the similar vibe of “hero of legend goes out like a legend” and her death would have WAY more impact on the audience (and mat) than Random Old Guy Who’s Just Kinda Been There In The Background’s would. and then they could have a reaction shot of elayne elsewhere in the world feeling birgitte’s death, it would be gutwrenching!

“noal would die with honor. once, mat would have thought that kind of thinking foolish - what good was honor if you were dead? but he had too many memories of soldiers, had spent too much time with men who fought and bled for that honor, to discredit such notions now.” mat showing positive character development? in MY post-WH book? it’s more likely than you think!

“light, but [moiraine’s] voice took mat back. to other times. ages ago.” i want to go back to those times too 😭😭 and then she calls him “dear matrim” 🥺 momraine!!

“mat listened, memories blossoming in his mind. thom’s voice carried him to days long ago. days in his own memories, days of the memories of others. days when he had died, days when he had lived, days when he had fought and when he had won.” this is so similar to rand’s montage of lives and loves on dragonmount 🥺🥺

and then mat realizes he can cut through the tower with his ashandarei, which does make noal’s sacrifice feel kinda pointless lmao if mat had realized this a few pages earlier they all would’ve made it out just fine!

we catch up briefly with gawene my beloveds (i have decided to give them a ship name myself since nobody else likes them together). they’re at merrilor, where perrin arrived earlier, and elayne arrives now and rand soon afterwards! the gang’s ALMOST all together! mat and aviendha, get your asses over there stat!

gawyn sees morgase!!!! yes!!!!! “gawyn was on his knees there, before someone. an older woman with red-gold hair, standing beside a smiling elayne, who still sat her horse...egwene stood back, for now. once she stepped forward, elayne would have to kiss her ring and the entire procession would bow; that would spoil gawyn’s moment.” 😭😭❤️❤️ so happy i get my full trakand family reunion! (even if only a glimpse of it) and now egwene and rand are both here so morgase can meet her new children-in-law!

“suddenly [the clouds] split, the dark thunderheads pulling back. the sky became an open field of blue, a deep, pure expanse. elayne’s eyes opened wide, and she turned on her horse, looking at perrin’s section of camp. he’s come, then, egwene thought.” RANDLAYNE REUNION IS SO CLOSE I CAN TASTE IT AAAAAAHHH

“colors swirled. rand eating a meal with min. mat dispelled the image.” mat sees min/rand content and says no thank you! king shit. also, laughing that he now has a fresh reminder of their relationship, while knowing elayne is having rand’s babies, and still does not go “hmm wonder what’s going on there” or have any sort of thought about it. i’m a big fan of @butterflydm​’s interpretation that mat can tell even from swirly color visions that min and rand’s relationship is just sex and not emotionally meaningful like rand and elayne’s is.

thom says, regarding rand’s cleansing of saidin, “mat keeps saying we should be having a festival or something to celebrate” proud boyfriend!!! 🥺🥺 while most other people are like “X doubt” that rand really cleansed saidin, mat not only believes but is advocating for festivals to celebrate!!

mat tells moiraine “rand’s been busy” and reports that he killed rahvin, proud boyfriend listing his boyfriend’s accomplishments to their mom!

“well, it was good to have her back. mat was surprised at how strongly he felt that. who would have thought it? affection for an aes sedai, from him?” mat you have MULTIPLE close friends who are aes sedai, you know (i’m not sure post-WH mat DOES know that though)

moiraine says that “WE” need to seek out rand, yes moiraine instigate my cauthor reunion please!!!

“bloody colors. as if having one eye were not bad enough, he had those flaming visions bunching up his sight every time he so much as thought of ran- burn those visions! moiraine raised an eyebrow as he shook his head, then blushed. he probably looked like he was having a fit.”🚨🚨🚨THINKING ABOUT RAND MADE MAT BLUSH!!!!🚨🚨🚨 the “mat is physically incapable of not thinking about rand in a way perrin has never ever been” saga continues, and not only that but he BLUSHES!!! he is so flustered!! in this one book we have mat blushing because of elayne AND because of rand, delicious, finally some good fucking food!!!

moiraine and thom get together and i’m not even mad because a) i like both characters individually, so i’m like “this might as well happen.” if i must have a badly-written romance at least it’s between 2 characters i like rather than 1 i like + 1 who is an absolute dumpster fire trash person and does not deserve them (am i talking about tuon or min? yes.) and b) mat’s reactions are SENDING ME JDKFGKJH “what? what did you say?’” “i just - burn me! how did i miss this? i was with the two of you most of the time you were together! when did you become affectionate?” “well, you two have gone bloody insane, i see.” mat is speaking for all of us! i feel like this is definitely sanderson going “yeah, i know, rj did NOTHING to set up this romance, but it’s in his notes, so i have to make it happen” djfkgjh

“you should not spurn the warder bond so easily, mat. the blessings it provides will be of great use to men in these days.” STOP POURING SALT IN THE MAT-SHOULD-HAVE-BEEN-ELAYNE’S-WARDER WOUND like honestly was that rj’s original plan and then he scrapped it or something? because it is INSANE how often MAT SPECIFICALLY has been told that he would make a good warder and even been asked by multiple aes sedai to become their warder and even been mistaken for elayne’s warder.

mat says he won’t be bonded to a woman and thom points out that tuon “would be capable of channeling, should she decide to learn” it was a waste to make tuon a learner rather than someone who WILL end up channeling whether they like it or not, because now she can and will go through her whole life just choosing to ignore the fact that she can channel. although now that i say that i guess if she had the spark she would’ve been found out and made damane long ago, so that’s why she had to be only a learner, so scratch that. but the overall point, that tuon being able to ignore her channeling capabilities so easily is stupid and a waste, still stands.

“mat froze. bloody ashes. thom was right. but channeling would make her marath’damane. she would not do such a thing. he did not have to worry. did he?” not mat going “oh thank god my wife’s culture enslaves channelers, that means she’ll choose to never channel!” like jesus christ mat i don’t think that the fact that tuon can channel is the most troubling thing out of all the thoughts you just had.

“what would tuon think of a husband missing an eye?” this is the LEAST of the things you’ll have to worry about as tuon’s husband. “a husband who might not be able to defend himself?” oooh is mat subconsciously recognizing that tuon only values him for his battle skills and not for him as a person? he worries that if losing an eye makes him unable to fight, his value to her will decrease. yeah i think he’s probably given up on trying to make her love him at this point and instead is going for trying to make himself as useful to her as possible so that she won’t enslave him and/or make his life miserable.

shaidar haran kills(?) graendal? no, this can’t be how a bad bitch goes down! i said that in the last book too lmao we’ll see if this death(?) sticks or not.

olver opens verin’s letter to mat and FUCK FUCK FUCK NOOOOOOOOO i wish it really HAD been organizing a cauthor wedding, but instead it’s telling him to destroy the waygate in caemlyn bc shadowspawn will invade andor through there but he didn’t read the letter in time and now it’s too late and the invasion is already starting!!!! i’m devastated!!!! caemlyn is my HOME this can’t happen!!!!!

also, in olver pov we learn that he is obsessed with becoming a warrior (upon feeling grief for his parents: “he kept his lip stiff and did not let anyone know. warriors did not cry.”) and is also obsessed with hunting down the aiel who killed his parents and getting vengeance and is also obsessed with serving girls. yeah aviendha (or was it elayne?) was right to say that olver hanging out exclusively with soldiers was not good for him lmao can somebody please give this NINE-YEAR-OLD CHILD some age-appropriate interests and let him know that it’s okay for boys (and men) to cry?

finally a small snippet of rand pov! he’s dreaming but says that in the waking world “his body slept beside min in their new camp, surrounded by borderlanders, set up on the field of merrilor.” ARE YOU KIDDING ME rand is now in the same location as elayne, his other girlfriend whom he hasn’t seen in months, and STILL sharing min’s tent instead of hers??? why is he not jumping at the chance to finally get to snuggle with elayne after so many months apart!!! i just bet that it was because min wouldn’t let it happen lmao. after all, why would she allow her boyfriend to spend the night with his sidepiece when she, his ~Real Partner~, is right there? but for real, it is INSANE to expect me to believe that rand and elayne did not seek each other out IMMEDIATELY upon sensing that they were both in the same location, their reunion had better happen in chapter fucking ONE of AMOL if not the PROLOGUE i swear to god!!!!

“[lan] could still feel nynaeve, so wonderful, caring, and passionate in the back of his mind. he should have been pained to know that now she would suffer when he died, instead of another. however, that closeness to her - a final closeness, brought him strength.” “he sent a final, powerful sensation of love to nynaeve as he kicked mandarb into a gallop.” ❤️❤️

final thoughts: this book had some standout scenes (matlayne reunion, all the character reunions in general, gawyn vs. the assassins and egwene vs. mesaana, moiraine rescue heist) but overall was pretty meh for me. and especially underwhelming when compared to the incredible incredible final third of the previous book, but i WAS expecting a comedown from TGS since this book focuses on mat and perrin and that one on rand and egwene, who have FAR superior plotlines imo. and obviously any book that’s 40% perrin plotline will always be very low in my rankings djkfjg i would put this one.................maybe 3rd from the bottom after COT and KOD (those two not necessarily in that order)? but do not quote me on that, once i finish the whole series i gotta go back and ponder it a lot and decide my Official Rankings.

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[gucciwins]

can we see bel’s reaction to the new tour dates? Or whiny/upset Bel and Harry taking care of bel because she’s overworked or too jet lagged 🥺🥺

because this was all I could think about I decided to write about it. so here's a quick little 3k blurb where bel feels overwhelmed and harry tries his best.

(from my series: love on tour)

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Usually, after wrapping a film, you like taking a week to spend at home and relax, and Viola encouraged you to do that. She’d only reach out if anything urgent came up, but for once, you did not listen, not when you were eager to reunite with Harry. The reunion was sweet. You flew in on time to see him perform his second to last show in New York, meaning you had a few days to enjoy together, or so you thought. 

Harry saw his band every day, but they were also his friends, so it was no surprise they were all holed up in Harry’s hotel room, chattering in every part of the room. You mingled with Sarah and Pauli as they told you about their favorite shows. The best signs they’ve seen and how excited they were to explore a new city in a few days. They had all appreciated staying in one city for longer than a night. Before you knew it, you made your way through everyone and back to Harry. 

Harry happily made room for you to sit. You clung to his arm as you snuggled close, trying to focus on what he and Mitch discussed before you arrived. After a moment, you gave up and settled for enjoying the comfort of being by Harry’s side. 

“H,” you whisper, but he’s too lost in the conversation he’s having with Mitch to listen to you. Harry places a kiss on top of your head, settling you for a second, but it’s not what you need. 

You decide to try again, “H, baby,” you tug on his sleeve, and Harry grins, kissing your cheek. 

“Give me a minute, lovie.” 

You sigh and let him be because, of course, he wants to chat with his friend. No one wants to take care of a whiny girlfriend, so you allow yourself to settle down against his side and let yourself get lost in thought. You think about how many outfits you packed for New York and if it’s better to make a pit stop at your small New York loft for more clothes or to go shopping for new items. There’s a tattoo shop two blocks from your place. Maybe you could pop in and get inked like you’ve been saying for the last three years. The problem seems to be that you’re never sure what you actually want to get. Maybe Harry could help you decide. He’d even hold your hand during the appointment. You knew he’d even go far enough to help you keep it clean and make sure it’s healing nicely. All your thoughts lead back to Harry, and after months away from each other, you thought he’d be thrilled to spend time with you, but it’s as if you’re not even here. He ignores you, and now you’re left wondering why did you come? 

Did he even want you here? 

Was he upset you didn’t come earlier? Is he upset that you won’t be able to join the other city residencies he has scheduled? 

You’re shocked when you feel a drop of water land on your hand where you keep pulling the string of the bracelet you found in a shop in Budapest, watching as it begins to unbraid. You’re crying, and you know it’s a sign that you’re lost deep in your head, but Harry’s busy. He doesn’t need to know. You excuse yourself quietly. Neither of the men turns to look at you, no one sees you make your exit, and for once, you’re thankful. 

It’s not until you’re in the bathroom that you let yourself take a deep breath.

You splash water over your face, focusing on taking slow deep breaths, having felt how heavy your chest was getting. A panic attack is not what you needed right now. 

Deciding you needed a comfortable place to settle, you climbed into the large tub, leaned your head against the cool tile, and closed your eyes, allowing your body to relax for a second, and the next thing you know, you heard a knock against the door. 

“Bel,” Another knock. “Hey, baby, answer me.” 

You lift your head slowly, trying to shake away the sleep, and notice you’re still in the tub. You’re not sure how long you stayed here. 

“Bel, let me in. I really got to go.” Harry calls out. His voice was impatient. 

You scramble up because now you’re unsure how long you spent here while Harry and the rest of your company was outside. 

Harry laughs when he sees you pouting as the door swings open, “you look like you were taking a nap, Bel.” 

You don’t bother answering. 

“Everyone left. We’re going downstairs for a bit if you want to join us,” he offers after coming out of the restroom. 

“To do what?” 

“Just to drink, Bel.” He says casually. 

You don’t mind if he drinks. Of course, you don’t. You have your reasons, but right now, all you want is to cuddle Harry to relax in his arms as he tells you how much he loves you and how you won’t go that long without seeing each other again, but it seems he has other plans. 

Maybe you should have listened to Viola to relax before coming to New York because now you’re feeling overwhelmed. You’re feeling all your emotions pile up, and as much as you push them down, they claw their way to the top. 

“Think I’ll stay here.” 

“Okay, baby. I’ll be back later.”

You begin to change into an oversized t-shirt that Sarai bought you during their visit to Zion and climb into bed. As you bring the covers up around you, Harry grabs his key and blows you a kiss as he leaves you alone. With a single lamp on, you stare at the white ceiling and let yourself cry. The tears leak out of you quickly as if they were waiting to be released. The heaviness in your chest doesn’t lighten up. If anything, it tightens, and you feel your throat close. You want to scream, but you feel the walls caving in. 

You’re tired. 

That’s all it is. You’re not upset with Harry. He doesn’t have to pay attention to you every second, but it’s moments like these when you want to call your parents to hold your hand and listen to you spill your guts, so you don’t feel alone. That’s why after you managed to calm your breathing, you reached a hand out from under the covers to reach for your phone. You went to your favorites list, clicked on a familiar name, and prayed that she’d answer. 

It rang and rang until it reached voicemail. You tried a second time, but still nothing. 

With a sigh, you gave up and turned your phone off, setting it on the nightstand. You closed your eyes and began to count backwards, hoping sleep would come easy. Next thing you knew, morning had come, and you felt worse. Harry was not in bed next to you, but it’s clear by the covers that he returned to sleep. You sigh, turning over, bringing the blankets over your face hoping the day would end even though it had only just begun. You’re in no mood to go out or see anyone. Hell, you don’t even want to talk to anyone. You hope Harry spends the day out. 

To your luck, he doesn’t. You hear the door click and then the clock. His steps lead him to the edge of the bed. You don’t move an inch, hoping you could pass it off as if you were sleeping. 

“Morning, know you’re awake,” he sing-songs, “brought you a smoothie.”

No answer.

“Bel, come on.” 

No. You’ll be staying here, where it’s safe to be lost in your head. 

Harry sighs, “Mum said you rang her.” You stay silent. “At three am her time.” You don’t move, but you hear him move from the edge of the bed closer to you. “You got to talk to me.” 

“I’m tired.” 

“Doesn’t explain the call, Bel.” 

You’re not trying to be difficult, but you don’t want to have this conversation. Not now, not when you feel like you’re on the brink of breaking. You want to be alone and drown in your emotions until you get yourself back to normal.

“I’m tired,” you repeat, but your voice fails you this time, and you know Harry could hear the crack. You feel him reach forward as he reaches for the blanket, pulling it away from your face. You blink your eyes open, and crouched right in front of you is Harry; concern fills his emerald eyes as he sees your tears spill over. A loud cry leaves your chest as you turn your head into the pillow, embarrassed that you couldn’t keep your emotions in control.

“Hey, hey, Bel, talk to me.” Harry quickly climbs onto the bed, pulling you into his lap covers, not caring that you’re now tangled in the blankets. All he wants to do is make you feel better.

You keep repeating the same two words over and over as you let Harry rock you back and forth. That’s all your mind can focus on. You're tired and just want to rest. Want to stay here safe and forget the rest of the world. Harry keeps you close as he whispers that he’s got you and you’re okay. His kind words send you to sleep. You’re safe and relaxed; this is all you wanted and needed. 

Harry sighs in relief as he feels you slump against him, having gone back to sleep. He couldn’t handle you crying, not when it sounded like you were breaking inside. He reaches for his phone at the edge of the bed, careful not to jolt you, wanting you to sleep as he makes a call. 

He scrolls for a second until he gets to Viola. 

She’d know, right? He knew Naomi or Sarai might help, but he tried them after talking to his mum, and they hadn’t heard a word, so he figured she was the next best thing. 

“Harry! What a surprise,” Viola greets cheerfully. 

He mutters a hello wanting to get over the pleasantries, and he’s thankful Viola took note of that.

“What can I do for you?”

He hesitates. What if he was wrong? What if she was just having a bad night? Bad morning? 

“Bel—she’s,” he sighs. How does he say it? “She’s been emotional. She keeps saying she’s tired, and God, there have been so many tears.” 

Harry can feel Viola’s sigh of disappointment. “I told her to go home, to relax.” 

“What do you mean? What happened?” 

“When Bel is working, she gives everything. Every last bit of her goes into every character to every person she meets on each set. She works herself to the bone wanting to give nothing but her best to each project, and I’m proud of her. She’s an incredible actress, but she promised me she was fine and that she’d tell you. That you’d take care of her when she arrived in New York.”

“But she didn’t,” he whispers mostly to himself. 

“Bel is good at keeping her feelings locked up, but they will always fight to come out. You got to be gentle with her, Harry. She’s really fragile right now. I’m sure she’s still dealing with jetlag, lack of sleep, and wanting to spend time with you. Show her she doesn’t need to spread herself thin to do that.”

“Okay.”

“After her last film, she slept fifteen hours. Emerson or Naomi is usually with her checking in on her, but she promised she’d get you to take care of her. The best way for her to pass this is to sleep.” Viola tells him, and Harry feels awful. You tried to tell him and get his attention multiple times, but he wanted to spend time with all his favorite people now that you were back with him but brushed you off when you needed him most.

God, he’s partial to blame, but so is Bel.

Harry holds you as you sleep, letting himself relax and think of ways to get you to sit still and sleep. He knows what you’re feeling, overworked, exhausted, and emotionally drained. It’s a big reason he sleeps after his shows, wanting to feel rested and energized for the next night. 

Now, he’s going to watch over you. He has many questions, but his biggest concern is taking care of you because you’re the love of his life. He wants to be here supporting you through it all. 

A few hours pass when you begin to stir, and he knows you’re waking up. He gently coaxes you awake, wanting to see your pretty eyes. He feels he’s been deprived of them too long. 

“Hiya angel, sleep okay?” 

You don’t answer, only tuck your head into his neck, breathing him in. You’re still tired and know that won’t go away immediately. Not with how little you’ve been sleeping. 

“Come on, want to hear my angel talk.” 

“Still sleepy,” you whisper, hoping he could catch that. 

“That’s alright,” he rubs his hand down your back, causing you to sigh and snuggle closer to him. He’s usually the little spoon, so you’ll enjoy this while you can. “Spoke with Viola. She told me you were told to relax but didn’t listen.”��

You know he’s chastising you, but it’s getting harder to think when you know Harry is upset at you.

“Silly girl, when’s the last time you slept more than eight hours?” The hands against your back freeze, and you tense up, knowing he won’t like your answer. 

You try to think it must have been before Dune a few months ago. “Don’t know.” 

Harry sighs, holding you tighter against his chest, wishing he could remove all the heaviness you’re feeling. “You need to rest. Why didn’t you rest?” 

You. 

You are why; is what you want to tell him. 

He is why you didn’t rest. You wanted to come home, wanted to feel cocooned in his love. You wanted to be with him because you’ve missed him, and you would rather be jetlag and tired with him than in your empty home in London. 

Instead of replying, you start to cry again. It’s all you can manage right now. 

“No tears thought we said no more.” He whispers, his lips against your warm forehead as he tries his best to settle you. “Bel, come on.” 

“D-don’t want you to be upset with me,” you manage to say between breaths. 

Harry brings you closer to his chest if it’s even possible at this point. He buries his face against your head, taking a moment to breathe you in, to keep his emotions at bay so he can focus on you. “Not upset, worried. I’m worried because you always talk to me, and I just want to know why you didn’t this time?”

He’s right; you told him how important it was for you to always have good communication, yet you kept it to yourself. You didn’t want to change the environment, the happy energy when you felt like you’d pass out if you had to make conversations for longer than five minutes. 

“Happy. You were so happy, and I was tired and overwhelmed.” You press a kiss over where you know his swallow lays right over his heart. “I didn’t want to be selfish.”

“Bel,” Harry breathes out. You try to burrow yourself further in his hold, but he pulls back from you. He holds on to your biceps, and you know it’s time to look at him. 

You take a deep breath, then raise your gaze to meet his. Those eyes you love so much are filled with concern, and you know you must look exhausted. That’s all you feel right now.

He offers you a soft smile. “You are not selfish. You hear me.” Harry leans in, pressing a kiss to your tear-streaked cheek. “You’re kind and put my needs above yours even though you knew you needed to rest. I’m sorry for not checking in. I knew how busy you were and still let you come here and join me for a show. I’m sorry, your feelings matter. They matter to me.”

You let yourself process all Harry told you. It’s everything you needed to hear. There’s so much you want to say, but your brain still feels scattered, so you lean forward and press your lips against his letting yourself sink against him as your lips familiarize with his.

“Baby,” Harry mutters against your lips, “we’ve got lots to discuss,” you don’t hide your groan as you pull away from him. “But,” he giggles, “got to let me finish.”

“H,” you plead. 

“Aish, impatient, mi sol.” Harry sets you down on the bed, and you swallow the urge to make grabby hands at him because you miss his touch already. “Let’s get some food in you, then you’ll sleep to your heart’s content.” 

“Going to leave me alone?” You frown at the thought. 

“Endless cuddles from you, I could never.” He leans over you, pressing a soft kiss to your nose, “I’m going to take care of you. I promise.” 

And well, that’s all you need. 

After eating half a sandwich and soup that Harry ordered for you, although you had initially requested pizza, Harry said it was too greasy and would gladly get you some after you slept. You laid back in bed together. You cuddled deep into Harry’s side as he put on a show. You didn’t even catch the open credits off as you let sleep take over, knowing that you were safe and being looked after. 

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You rolled over as you slowly woke up, happy that Harry kept the curtains closed for you. Harry was gone, but his spot was warm, so you knew he had to be nearby. You were about to throw the covers off you when Harry walked in with a cup of coffee.

“Mi sol, you’re up,” he greets you cheerfully. 

“Mhm,” you sit up, raising your hands over your head, allowing your body to stretch. 

“Hungry?” He asks. 

“Thirsty.” 

He places his coffee on the side table and hurries out from where he just came from. He brings chilled water, coming to sit at your side. You go to accept the water from him, but he shakes his head and raises the water bottle to your lips. You take two large sips before letting Harry take it away, giggling as he wipes away a bead of water that dropped down the side of your mouth. 

“Thank you, H.” 

Harry grins, offering you a quick peck. “Feeling better.” 

“Much,” and it’s true. Your head no longer feels foggy, and your body feels lighter. “Glad I got a good few hours of rest.” 

Harry stares at you, glances towards the dark curtains, and laughs. “Baby, you slept the whole day away.” 

Your eyes widen in surprise, “what time is it then?” 

“Only seven am.” 

“Wow,” you mutter. “I need to go on a walk.” Your body is going to feel so stiff after all the lying down for hours. 

He chuckles, brushing your hair out of your face. “You look well rested.” 

“I feel lit.” 

“Mum always says feeling too many emotions leaves you exhausted,” Harry tells you, assuring you it was normal to sleep that long, especially with all you allowed yourself to carry after finishing filming. 

“Is Anne alright? I didn’t mean to startle her with the call,” you grimace, remembering how hopeless you felt to now feeling relaxed and loved. 

“She’s okay. Though she is waiting for a call. Misses you, she says.” 

There are so many people you have to get back to, but selfishly you want to enjoy one more day of it just being you and Harry. 

“Okay, but can we stay hidden another day?” You pout, looking at Harry, knowing there’s no way he’ll say no to you. 

“Course, lovie.” His lips meet your temple, and he holds it there for a few seconds, taking a moment to breathe you in, letting go of all the tension he had. “Think a bath sounds wonderful.” 

“With bubbles?” 

Harry laughs, throwing his head back, his gorgeous dimple on display for you. “It’d be a crime if we didn’t have any.” 

He holds your hand as he leads the way to the bathroom. You know that going through struggles in a relationship is normal. Still, after seeing how much Harry helped you and how understanding he was, he only made you more secure about your relationship. 

You were sure you’d love him for a lifetime and more.

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[riacte]

rria . ria dont convert the timestamp of receiving this ask to est but i finished false episodes and i get it i understand the devotion and the homies and the protectiveness hoyljjy fuck save me 🦅🐕save me. beware of dog reapers watch out rendogss about false false false you won💥💥💥😺💥💥💥💥💥💥

RIGHT. THEY ARE SO SWEET IT MAKES ME WANT TO EXPLODE.

When I was watching the first part I was like ohhh she sounds SO soggy when he’s not talking to her. I don’t think I’ve ever seen her this soggy. And then it was slowly building and oh we’re really in it now.

BUT THE REUNION SCENE IS SO!!!!!! They’re so happy for each other 😭😭😭 False saying he deserves the win even though it’s her who won 😭😭 Ren coming in like YOU WON!! YOU WON!! :DDDDD

And I was already screaming and dying. But you can really tell how fond they are of each other. And False being more excited for the cool hat than the Demise prize and he literally promised to give it to her tomorrow when things had calmed down— and she won!! All the dots are connected.

And the end. MAN. “Watch out, Rendog is about” in all caps. Her putting his name and head on her build. And the giggle before the cut. And I’m left sitting here like OKAY THAT JUST HAPPENED. WOW.

I feel slightly insane because it’s like …??? It’s so obvious how core and special their friendship is to both of their contents on HC. Take a quick scroll through their thumbnails and they pop up every now and then. All the collabs. AND STANDING NEXT TO EACH OTHER IN GROUP RECORDINGS (this always happens). We even have major standout events like Blue9 and BRR and S6 neighbours. And now Demise because DUDE. THAT WAS CRAZY.

And still Tumblr (and both of their Twitch chats) seems to be the only site in which people majorly care about their bond? Does that make sense. Tumblrinas screaming and crying and filling up the main tags. Actually Twitch chat is the mvp here because I feel like every single stream of theirs has a mention of the other and chat is like :DDD we love you and the other person :DD. They’re invisible on blue bird site and THANK GOD and STAY AWAY. Orange app is a bit better bc at least the Mc Championship guys recognise them but you know when there was a post back in HC Reddit then asking for “underrated” duos and we had to post FalseRen because other people weren’t. Are they underrated? Do other people think they’re popular. Like Ren isn’t usually paired with False in fanon but I think most people have the awareness to include bits about their friendship? But still? I would’ve expected more… why aren’t they more popular like some other duos even after the five million obvious / dramatic / cute / wholesome stuff 😭 Ren’s favouritism gets worse every time I check in 😭

(I know. It’s because fandoms tend to like same gender pairs. But it does notttt explain why everyone happily pairs up Stress+Iskall and Joe+Cleo and it’s all recognised and these two are like …? oh yeah they’re friends. Right. They’re friends.)

Anyways this got long. That vid makes me soooo happy and it’s sooo good. I know Ren is probably going to make his next ep thumbnail his really cute hut but if False is also on there or it’s titled after something like “WE DID IT FALSE” I would further explode into millions of pieces. 🥺

#ask box #answered #falseren

[gjrain20-starwars]

Hello!!! I was wondering if I could request a lil hunter x reader from the bad batch? Maybe something cute and soft where the readers love language is touch and throughout the day, every time they pass by / are close to hunter, they make some sort of physical contact with him (quick cheek/forehead/lip kisses, short and sweet hugs, a quick little hand squeeze in passing, etc.) and it’s all soft and cute 🥺🥺 thank you in advance and of course no worries if you’re not up for it!! 💛

Hi!! I am so sorry that I didn’t answer until now, probably almost a year later! I promise I didn’t forget about your request! I hope this is the right amount of soft and fluffy for you!

Home To You

Hunter x GN!reader

Word Count: TBA

No warnings, just fluff! Please enjoy

You just got home from work and Hunter commed you to let you know he was coming home today. You began to get ready. You decided to change into a fancy, red and black shirt and some comfortable grey shorts. You always wore his armor colors on his first day home.

Just as you finished getting changed, you hear the front door open. Hunter is home sooner than expected. You rush over to give him a big hug. You know he has to go and fight. You know he’ll always come home to you. The tears come anyway. You had a rough day so Hunter coming home was the highlight of your day. You hear him chuckle as he buries his face in your hair.

“I missed you mesh’la. I’m home now.” He says as he runs your back with one arm and kisses your temple.

“I missed you too handsome.” You say through tears.

Hunter gently pulls away slightly, just enough to look at your face while still holding you. He begins to brush your hair away and wipe your tears. He understands that crying is normal when you’re overwhelmed. Even though it was something he was taught to suppress, but he never shamed you for it since you were taught differently.

“Rough day?” He asked, wiping away a tear

“Yeah, but you made it better.” You replied, reaching to hold the hand that was reaching for you.

“That’s good.” He took your hand and kissed it.

“What’s for dinner?” He asked, now holding both of your hands.

“Our traditional reunion dinner of course, just gotta wait for the delivery driver. I forgot to get it on the way home.”

“That’s ok. I’m gonna go wash up.”

Hunter gave you another hug and kiss before heading to the shower in the guest bathroom.

As much as you didn’t mind the smell, it was more for his senses and helped him relax. Plus, he missed the soap you got him. It was just a generic brand, but he liked the shampoo, conditioner, and body soap as separate soaps instead of the military issued 3-in-1 soap. He thought the separate soaps got him cleaner and that made him feel better.

Hunter came out in a pair of civilian clothes you bought for him. He figured out how to wash his blacks without shrinking them. He came up behind you as you were setting the table, wrapped his arms around you, and kissed you on your cheek. You missed this feeling. You stopped what you were doing to face him and lean into his shoulder as you held him. Hunter started the back rubs again as he leaned into you.

The moment lasted until he heard your stomach rumble. You didn’t hear it but he did.

“Ready to eat?”

“No.”

“Come on, there’ll be more cuddles after dinner.”

He gave your hand three squeezes, a little way to say “I love you.” You sat down to eat, but you craved him more. It had been too long since he left. You got up and moved your plate to sit on his left. Hunter just laughed and put his arm around you while he ate with the other.

“Can’t get enough of me can ya?”

“Nope.”

Hunter kissed you and ruffled your hair before going back to his dinner.

As promised, you two went to your couch after dinner so Hunter could hold you some more. With his free arm, he turned on the holodrama you two were watching. Hunter was not normally the one for rom coms or holodramas; however, you told him he reminded you of the main character’s boyfriend. He decided to take notes of some quotes to use to make you smile and show you he was paying attention.

You had watched half of the season before you started to feel sleepy. You ended up laying on him and were falling asleep thanks to some head rubs. Hunter loved hearing you had as he scratched your scalp and played with your hair. If you were more awake, you would have done the same for him. He noticed you drifting off to sleep and turned off the TV.

“Let’s finish the season.” You yawned.

“Tomorrow, love. I’m about to fall asleep myself.” He replied before yawning himself.

You resigned and leaned into his chest as he carried you down the hall. Tomorrow would be a new day with more memories to make.

#the bad batch #the bad batch tv show #requests for rain #clone force 99 #bad batch #tbb hunter x reader #bad batch hunter x reader #Hunter #tbb

[atombonniebaby]

Fic writing rant

I need to build up the narrative, space out the BIG scenes and enjoy the process (but I wanna share my ideas now 😒)

I've shipped characters as a way to outline some key plot points...as a stepping stone...a one time deal...but I don't have the heart to break em up 🥲

Okay, but I suck at organising and I'm judging me.

Some of my favourite moments happen way later and... Ughhh

Am I writing one fic...three... Or a series of one shots 🤔

Oh, Nate was never supposed to be present for more than a few memories, but I loved writing him and started my first playthrough with a male SS

My original starting point is now much later. I wanted to write new stuff and avoid the main story/companion arc...guess who is currently writing the main story because I love Mac's Scottish self-appointed adopted pops.

I've wrote some scenes that include original jokes and Mac being a sasshole that have me weeping...but I gotta trust the process and not just share them (but omg Mac vs Danse and a Mac and Hancock scene 🙌🏻)

Oh, gotta change the title...because it won't be happening like that anymore 😅

Writing in my own way vs learning how I'm 'supposed' to do it.

Like...I don't want to make him suffer more...but damn have I got some heavy scenes lined up for Mac. (I'm sowwy 🥺)

Things I'm excited to share

Names I've given the characters without names

Backstories based on the tiny companion swap dialogue and other observations (like why Mac and Deacon have shade, why Mac dislikes the Brotherhood, Why Valentine dislikes Mac)

Oh yeah, SS2 ended up lining up so amazingly with ideas I was already playing with, that the main plot will eventually lend itself to intense moments.

Look, I cry every time I watch Anastasia... Because I love a reunion, and my fic is gonna have few, some you'd exoect, but maybe not in the way you'd expect it.

Obviously there will be more screenshots, art and heck, I wanna do my favorite moments as comic spreads 👀

Nate and Mac's dynamic

Mac and Sturges

The Scottish stuff

Duncan

Mayor MacCready

#fallout 4 #fallout maccready #fo4 #fallout fic #maccready #fallout #fo4 maccready #robert joseph maccready #rj maccready #fallout companions #robert maccready

[frickingnerd]

For the Ask Game give me... Fire Emblem 3 Houses and Hopes (since they have the same setting)

answers for the ask game under the cut!

3 male characters I love:

only three? this is really hard for this game 🥺 one of them has to be dimitri, who's just my absolute favorite fire emblem guy out there. i think the other two would have to be claude and ferdinand. i love all three of them so much, they have such compelling stories and their s-supports are absolutely adorable! plus, they all got great va's! honorable mentions to sylvain and seteth (or just every male student 👉🏻👈🏻)

3 female characters I love:

my favorite fire emblem girl is dorothea! i absolutely adore her and i'm so glad she's one of the bi options! she also says one of my favorite lines in the entire game. spoiler: if you kill ferdie but have dorothea recruited, she'll remind you of the times when he was on your side and just... got that part always makes me cry! plus, she's voiced by allegra clark who i adore! that woman is so talented and funny, she's genuinely perfect for the role as dorothea!

my second favorite girl is petra who's just really cute. her little language mistakes are adorable and she's such a genuinely kind person. i absolutely love her!

third place is hard, but i think i have to go with flayn! she's just such a sweet heart and such a funny character! plus i love her va as well (her va & seteth's va act like actual siblings in all their interviews togethers and it's both adorable & very funny).

3 romantic ships I love:

byleth and dimitri, for sure! this is absolutely a self insert situation, i'm not even going to hide it. i love dimitri and his relationship with byleth is very sweet, but i'm def cheating a bit by picking them.

second place has to be dorothea and ferdinand! i love both of them so much individually but they somehow get even better when they're together??? i love their A support in three hopes, where they are just yelling at each other and everyone assumes they are a couple. they are definitely in love and nobody can convince me otherwise. plus, again, their va's have such a funny dynamic with each other and they are great individually, but even better together.

i can't actually decide on a third pairing because i like all those ships equally, but some that come to my mind are lysithea x cyril (very cute & wholesome), edelgard x claude (very interesting dynamic; likely frenemies to lovers) and like... pretty much all the blue lions with each other. seriously, these people should all date each other. i can't even pick a fav blue lions ship!

3 platonic dynamics I love:

my favorite platonic pairing is seteth and flayn! they are really funny but they also deeply care for each other. but seriously, the seteth & flayn related memes are some of the funniest ones in the FE3H fandom!

claude, dimitri and edelgard are another platonic dynamic i love! there is just so much conflict, but especially three hopes shows that they can work together well (and they should smh 😔). if they just had some group therapy, they could be great friends!

and my third pick is claude and flayn! flayn is such a sweet and innocent character, but claude being this chaotic schemer would absolutely be a bad influence, but in the funniest way possible. he's like an older brother that teaches her curse words and seteth would hate him for that!

3 favorite moments in canon:

this is a bit hard, but i think my favorite scenes from three houses are the reunion with dimitri and the reunion with edelgard. the reunion with dimitri was very bittersweet, but mostly beautiful, while the reunion with edelgard was much more heartbreaking. her "when next we meet, one of us will breathe their last" absolutely kills me everytime. my third favorite moment in canon comes from three hopes, when dimitri spares edelgard at the end of his route and edelgard realizes that dimitri is the boy she used to know as a child. like, if only they had realized it sooner... :')

3 favorite headcanons:

headcanon number one is that claude is an older brother figure to flayn (& also to cyril, but i'll be focusing more on flayn–). like, he's absolutely a bad influence to her and he keeps telling her to do what she wants and stop listening to seteth so much, but flayn is always super worried about disobeying seteth. but over time, claude does get her to do more things she wouldn't have done otherwise, like taking her to the market and buying her sweets, teaching her slang & curses or even getting her to skip classes on occasion.

slightly related but i headcanon that seteth & rhea do not understand teenage slang. like those two are old and cringe and i mean this in the nicest way possible! they are constantly asking the other teachers what those students meant when calling them "dilf" or "mommy" and if that meant that they view them as a mother figure. meanwhile the other teachers (mostly manuela, shamir & catherine) are trying so hard to let them think that those are just compliments, while also trying to figure out which student said that, so they can give them detention... seteth and rhea also keep using slang the wrong way and nobody dares to tell them.

and my third headcanon? uhmm... poly blue lions! they are all dating each other. i don't make the rules here.

3 least favorite things about it:

this one isn't too bad, but the first part of each route (white clouds) gets a bit boring after multiple playthroughs. it would've been nice if they switched up the missions a bit, to fit the individual classes more.

another thing i dislike is that you can't train & have supports with dimitri for quite a while after the time skip. like, i get that he's busy with being depressed right now, but gameplay wise it gets really annoying when everyone surpasses him, because he can't be trained.

and another thing that isn't too bad but still a bit of a waste is the fact that there isn't a golden route. i feel like this could've worked very well, if they had jusr established that every time a new playthrough starts, byleth rewinds time with the divine pulse and she keeps all the memories of former events, so she can create a future where everyone lives. but this one is more of a nitpick than actual criticism.

#ask game #ask frickingnerd #darkest and deepest desires #fire emblem #three houses #three hopes

[therhythmafterthesummer]

Hello my dearest rhythm, I am back with my (still messy) thoughts on FPS part 2 🥹

First of all, i had to reread it cuz the first time that i saw it was after a day (or days) of hectic training when i just wanted to shut off my brain but i saw that u updated and my whole world sTOPPED, i swear i held my breath and thought i was hallucinating the new part 😭 i’ve been waiting for it for so long and it’s definitely worth it 🥹😭

I might babble a lot about it so if anyone hasn’t read it, pls don’t read this cuz it will have spoilers 😭

I WAS NOT PREPARED TO EXPERIENCE THE CONFLICT IN HIS HEAD WHEN THE REVEAL HAPPENED 😭😭😭😭😭 literally, i was holding my breath,, i wanted to cry too 🥹 MY BABIES, why should the world make them meet like that 😭 they just wanted to love and be loved huhu i hate u (i love u so much pls i know it hurt u too). Knowing everything that was going on in his head, gosh, I’m so crushed. I want to hold him and tell him it’s okay because he didn’t know it was her 😭 akshjsdjjdskbsjsjx

“The fact that you wouldn’t take his life puzzled him. How could you not want him dead? After all that had transpired, why wouldn’t you?” ——BECAUSE I LOVE YOU GOD DAMMIT 😭🤕🥹 

“and if you’d been fine with it, he wanted to ask you to move in with him.” —nO WAIT STOP PLS,😭 i’m beyond wrecked and i haven’t even gone thru half of the story yet.

The flashback to their first date 🥺🥺🥺 i wanna scream. Knowing how both of their lives were filled with chaos, them being able to find peace and comfort with each other is just sooooo wholesome. WHICH HURTS EVEN MORE WHEN I REALIZE ITS JUST A FLASHBACK——brb gonna go sob in a corner. “If I tried to kiss you… would you let me?”——😭😭😭😭😭i love love love how they get so spontaneous and relaxed with each other. I love how you wrote about it between the lines of their stressfully calculated and rigid line of work 🥹

3 freakin’ months of no contact 😭 i wonder what happened to MC then. Although you did write a bit about her forfeiting her mission and also, technically, her spot in the Guild, I wonder what she was thinking after everything. Three months is a (kind of) long time, and I guess like Chris, she would’ve been wondering all of her what-if’s. Did she ever think about contacting him too? Did she ever considered his side of the story? idk i’m just hurting with them at this point.

—i’m gonna skip the reunion but just know that i screamed and held my breath and punched the wall and banged my head on the desk and— yeah

The honesty and vulnerability between them is just so pure. The way they both pined for normalcy with each other is just *chef’s kiss* 🤍 i love them so much, it hurts how much shit they went thru even before they met 🥺 i’m not gonna spoil much about the rest of the story but i just want you to know that i loooove how you wrote them. Their stories feel so real to me and their emotions were very well conveyed. I love how the story went and, to be honest, i don’t think i mind the ending being open as much as I initially thought. (tho i wouldn’t complain if ur brain lizard decides otherwise— 👀)

Aaaahck my babies 🤍🖤 thank you for publishing this new part!! I hope you have a really nice day :> hugs!!

~🍓

plssss this is so detailed kjfhsdjfshfdkijsjikd

that whole first scene recounting the reveal from his POV hurt me more than you can imagine. every time i sat down to write this story i felt like my heart was being squeezed (which was exactly what i was looking for sdjfhskdfh). Chris really just wanted to have that bit of peace he had with his girlfriend and it was ripped away from him ))):

as for what happened on the MC's side during those three months... i'm sure she almost called him several times, but, just like Chris, i don't think she was ready to face him. she had hurt him and tried to kill him (before she knew it was him, ofc), so she probably had to process all that, plus the fact that she couldn't finish her mission at all (which i'm sure was a whole different problem in itself). essentially, both her heart and her pride was hurt, and, honestly, if she hadn't heard those people talking about picking up her failed mission, i feel like she wouldn't have reached out at all (or at least not that "soon").

everything that happened at Chris' flat after they met again was very therapeutic to write for some reason??? idk, i feel like i was able to let a lot of feelings out writing this story in general, so i'm glad some of those feelings were conveyed well.

i really wanted to leave the ending a bit open so the reader could interpret what could happen next. they could run away together, one of them could retire, Chris could try to get the Kims to pardon her, or (for those that want a bit more angst) maybe you can even imagine she is deceiving him still, trying to fulfil her goal and that's why she came back... the possibilities are endless atp haha. all i know for sure is that i wanted to end this story with them together, so i did!

thank you for reading this, and for your thorough feedback. i'm glad you liked it💜💜💜

#🍓 anon #ask #fps ask

[witch-and-her-witcher]

number 20 for the domestic OTP with children prompts 🥺

#20 - child: "Look, I made this for you. I also made one for mum/dad/parent."

"Has a Water Hag crawled from the swamps into my garden?"

"Mum!" Ciri responded incredulously, placing both fists on her hips where she stood under the arched entrance of the vast swatch of herbs, vegetables and ornamental flowers alike that made up her mother's garden.

Yennefer pushed the wide brim of her straw hat back, looking up from her kneeling position with a smile. "Oh! It is my vagabond daughter, returned. Excuse me, the smell was alarming at first."

Ciri glided forward on her witcher's footsteps and gathered the sorceress into her arms as soon as she stood up. "Well, now you will smell just as alarming!"

They embraced for several moments, Ciri not missing how her mother searched her body gingerly for injury under the guise. When they separated, they both wore large, pleased grins. Reunions only grew sweeter every time Ciri returned from the Path to visit her parents' seaside cottage.

"I'm glad to see you're still in one piece, Witcher," Yennefer said playfully, hooking their arms at the crook. "Shall we get you into a bath?"

"Yes, but first!" Ciri used her free hand to dig around in the leather bag she kept strapped to her hip. "Look, I made this for you. I also made one for the old man."

In her outstretched hand, Ciri held two bracelets made of woven horse hair with silver clasps. In the center of each bracelet's length, a milky green stone. As Yennefer took in the jewelry, she noticed a matching bracelet on her daughter's wrist. The power from the stones was dull, but Yennefer could sense it swirling under each cloudy surface.

"I know you're much better at enchanting stones, but I picked this spell up from a druidess I met along the path," Ciri spoke with slight anxiety and eyes brimming with hopeful expectation, "Put yours on and I'll show you."

"Well, alright." Yennefer held out her wrist and allowed her daughter to clasp the bracelet.

The stone was cool against Yennefer's skin initially, but as Ciri closed her eyes and set a fingertip to her own matching stone, Yennefer felt the magic take hold. The milky tone of the stone cleared and a bright pink hue shone through the green stone accompanied by a light warmth.

Yennefer felt her breath catch. "Oh, Cirilla -"

"Whenever one of us thinks of the other and touches the stone, it will let the other one know!"

Pride and love swelled within her mother and Yennefer had to pull Ciri into another hug. Ciri buried her face into the crook of Yennefer's neck, despite the bend it required in her tall frame.

"You like it?"

Yennefer blinked back the mist in her eyes. "Yes, Ciri, it's quite lovely and thoughtful." As they separated, she thumbed at Ciri's cheek to remove the smudged coal from the happy tears that she shed. "You're going to make your father cry like a baby, you know?"

Ciri threw her head back in laughter. "Geralt has grown soft in his old age, hasn't he?"

"Yen, have you let a drowner up from the coast?" The deep voice called from the edge of the woods as the white haired Witcher returned from his foraging just then.

Ciri stuck her tongue out. "No, a Water Hag."

It was going to be satisfying to watch Geralt tear up even more over the gift after that comment.

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Original post: (feel free to request more prompts!)

#anon you wanted teeth rotting fluff right? #domestic otp prompts #yenralt #yennefer & ciri #ciri #witcher

[lutavero]

Some other GOW: Ragnarök thoughts

I'm just... so conflicted? Sksksk no but truly

Like in 2018 too I loved the Freya quests so much! Her relationship with Kratos&Atreus, just her in general 💖 and I loved her quests in Ragnarök too! Like I'm so happy we got so much time to learn about her but after a while I just wanted my boy back to go adventures together once more 🙈

Like obv I know they didn't wanna make GOW 2018 2.0 and so it meant they have to change some things gameplay wise and I loved I got to play as Atreus! His gameplay style is just so goooood! Loved every sequence with him. But then I came here for my Dad of son simulator and now I feel both happy with what I got and kinda cheated.

Also, clown me should've known Sindri was gonna suffer after right at the start of the game we got so much time with him. 😭 So many scenes, getting so fleshed out. His relationship with Atreus???? 🥺🥺🥺💖💕💖💕💖 they were so adorable, this whole sibling/uncle-kid energy ... I loved this pair so much.

Also I saw others mentioning how Atres as companion got dumbed down and I do agree? Like why couldn't we get the first 2 or so knowledge stuff read by him or read one part of it and wait for Kratos to finish it or just truly participate in it? Or at least make him make a comment abt how Kratos finally did learn to read the runes? I do know it was done bc of the gameplay stuff, bc Atreus just wasn't with us when we ran into many of these but still it is just such a jarring change. Also, i think in 2018 most of the time they talked abt these interest/knowledge stuff when you discovered them and now Mimir just repeated the same 'what did you learn brother ' text and just why?

Also, getting back to companions getting a little dumbed down, why did Atreus and Freya by default, get clothes as only cosmetics? Why couldn't it still give me those little bonuses it did in 2018? I actually could've used those 'chance at finding more healing/rage stone' bonuses during the game many times 😅.

Anyway, I'm also incredible happy we got the possibly happiest ending?? Like I was so scared and sure someone from the main 3 would die and then we all survived?? 🥺💕💕💕💕 That final phase Odin boss fight was so epic, with that teamwork sequence and all. 💖💕💖💕🥺🥺

But then I did cry my eyes out during that goodbye tour sequence Atreus did. The moment Atreus started talking to Mimir and called him his other father I knew and the tears started 😭😭💕💖💖 and then the hug with Freya 😭😭😭😭💕💕💖💕💖💕💕 and then the Angrboda and Fenrir scene was so adorable. But then I felt a little miffed we didn't quite got a hug with Kratos there.

And then the Jötnar shrine scene... 😭💕😭💕😭💖😭💖😭💔💔💔💔😭😭 I am yet to watch that sequence without tearing up. Opening the shrines and then the goodbye... 🥺🥺😭🥺😭🥺😭🥺💕💔💕💖😝💖 i mean ofc I expected a separation bc with the very first gow:r summary talked about Kratos&Atreus dealing with letting go but it still made me bawl 😭😭🥺🥺

Gosh I just hope in the next game we will get a reunion or sth.

Anyway I loved this game so much expect the berserkers those can get fucked, I hate them ajdkdkalajkala

Time for the post-story stuff and platinum and then fighting the urge to start it again just randomly or waiting for the new game+ to be added bc this game is like 80% finished and I spent 44 hours on it 😅🙈

#god of war #god of war ragnarok spoilers #gow spoilers #gow ragnarok #personal lutavero #sorry if it all reads incoherent I did stay up like 1-2am to finish the main story #also many post game stuff is still yet to be discovered but now that my boy is gone I'm a little less excited #like I did the vanaheim and muspelheim farming with him lmao I am committed 😅

[ateezmakemeweep]

first of all… congrats to you for not imploding and actually finishing !! i had to wait literally an entire extra 14 hours KNOWING the series finale was released but not being able to read it bc i had shit to do coincidentally the same day you dropped it bc the universe just doesn’t want to see me thrive jdjdjdkd i was literally r a n t i n g to my bestie all day about this godforsaken storyline and the timeskip and all the ways i think it’d end oh my lord i was STRESSING

ik i shouldn’t feel too bad bc he really was a dick to her and suffered the consequences of his own actions, but at least she had all her friends and a good support system while he really didn’t have much of anyone anymore :// im glad that he went and got his shit together if he thought it meant getting the slightest chance of forgiveness and earning her trust back rather than let himself go completely downhill past the point of no return

anyways im so happy about the fact that even tho he saw her a couple times during the 2 years, he really did leave that girl alone bc he finally understood if he truly loves her, he needed to stay away so they can both heal 🥺 like even when they met again, he actually respected her boundaries and space but bitch you made my heart hurt every time just the smell of one another could trigger their senses like that’s some forbidden soulmates type shit and i’m a sucker for it :((

ngl i was hoping the power outage would lead into emotional reunion sex with aftercare for once— but the ambiguous ending with them taking it very slow thing ft. wooyoung’s consistently scheduled threats was a necessary evil that i can respect 😫 it just leaves me more room to imagine while i eventually get over bty being done 🥲🥲

p.s: if there was one thing that made me literally gasp out loud, it was woosang getting engaged !!! im so invested in their relationship you don’t understand i heart them <<3333

p.p.s: if you ever get the sudden inspo to write a bty one shot in the future, a concept: bathroom quickie at woosang’s wedding reception bc it would be the perfect amount of chaos 👀

JVKCKKC i’m crying thank u💛💛 i emphasize the smells so much bc it rlly is crazy, i smelt my ex bf’s cologne in a restaurant once and it LITERALLY triggered my fight or flight, it’s actually insane jvkckkc but yeah, perhaps back to u one shots one day when the thought of it doesn’t make me wanna scream <3

#💌

[icehot13]

Okaaaaaay. So late to the party this time around but better late than never, right? Anyway I am here to talk about the last two chapters.

So first off, chapter seven. Wade going through it, down bad and not at all in a good way. Wanting to avoid Spidey. And Peter showing up at his apartment their friendship warms my heart, he knew exactly what kind of mood Wade was in, purely based on what he bought from the store. He showed up to just be there for him. 👉👈🥺 The whole spideypool relationship in this fic is amazing, I adore it so much!

This. This!

“Okay,” he says, “I’m here. This time. Next time.”

Ummmm, I feel the need to repeat myself, the voices were really pulling no punches. Every thought about Marc, was like twisting the dagger or fuckin pouring salt into a open wound type of painful. It stings and it aches and I just wanna cry. Every single 'Marc's dead' hurt.

I was torn between the tiny relief of Wade having Spidey as such a good friend and the inner torment and turmoil of his voices. That is truly the magnificence of your writing. I just feel so many things at once. So many emotions!

The whole reunion with Steven is drenched in bittersweetness. Wade getting to see him again and be with him again is wonderful but there's the lurking and lingering dread of not knowing what happened with Marc after he left.

It's all a tangled mess with everything that has happened,

This

His hands slide to Wade’s chest, and he likes to just, just touch like that, not Marc’s tight-fingered clinging. Fuck, fuck, Wade misses Marc. “Love,” Steven’s voice is softer now, concerned. “Are you alright? I feel like all of this has been… a lot.”

Wade sighs out a slow breath, and it’s okay, with Steven, to be quiet, to need a moment; he watches Wade without needing anything, as Wade pets through Steven’s curls and tries to find a way to pull himself together where the sharp edges don’t hurt.

I am almost speechless with how that twists my heart, in the worst and best ways.

And This!

It doesn’t take long, for Wade’s least-favorite god to reappear.

100000% right there with you Wade. Also Steve standing up to Khonshu made my whole year.

Now…..chapter eight.

Not even two seconds into it and I am being attacked. Steven is sad. Wade is sad. We are all sad. Still going through it as usual. Steven crying himself to sleep? Wade taking on risky jobs? Excuse me while I go scream.

The slightest sliver of relief in the form of the bit of routine and domesticity Steven and Wade have together. The simple thought of Steven enjoying his favorite cookies from his favorite vegan bakery while Wade is working through the menu (also the documentaries they watch together.)

It's the small things that resonate the deepest.

Annnnddd then I am thrown back to the wolves as Layla visits. Wade is spiraling and Steven is trying his best. Reading this fic feels like at any moment I could insert the : honey you got a big storm coming gif and it would be completely accurate.

I felt like I couldn't breathe the whole scene with Wade sobbing in the bathroom and Steven coming to be with him and trying to help.

“She’s not here, love,” Steven says

he moves to sit beside Wade, and he takes Wade’s hand in his; the feeling of his thumbs stroking over the back of Wade’s hand just makes Wade sob harder.

It's truly the way that Wade is love for Steven and Baby for Marc that gives me so much joy. Despite all this pain.

“No one’s mad at you, baby.” Marc, that’s Marc, how is that Marc? Marc’s dead, Marc’s dead –

The way that Marc coming back for Wade had me screaming, shaking, sobbing….Them just sitting together and Marc understanding and knowing what Wade needed in that moment. It was perfect.

And just the ending in general?

How didn’t Wade see it before? Marc never actually wanted proof Wade knew he wasn’t Steven, that’s not all it was. He wanted Wade to want him. Flowers that said I miss Steven broke his heart because they were saying, in a language the Victorians used for things too soft to say aloud and never meant for this, I wish he was here instead of you. The florist Wade single-handedly keeps in business will never have to order pink camelias again, because Wade never wants to be saying that.

Love is a moon in Wade’s coffee cup because Wade doesn’t have to miss either Steven or Marc; the moon leaves, but it always comes back. Wade is the night sky – dark every night, so the moon knows it’s time to come home.

I absolutely, wholeheartedly adore that fic, start to finish. Everything about it. Literally all of these tasks were written like mini essays to express my love, re-read the chapters and finding what I wanted to gush to you about the most. Which honestly is every single sentence, every paragraph but I managed to control myself.

I am so excited for the sequel! I will say it again, ily and your writing sm! You are genuinely one of my favorite writers, I am just so happy I discovered you and I get to read your fics.

And I will stop being such a fangirl. For now. This got long, sorry.

On a final note, I hope you are doing good and having a good day/night!

bestieeeee when i tell you this made my whole night!!!!!!

firstly spideypool is!! i love them!! i love that we've all kindly overlooked the whoops that is peter apparently UP AND MOVING TO LONDON for wade also, a fact i noticed the other day, oops. best friends for life, peter, the real mvp over here.

we are all!! collectively!! so sad!!!! (which is great cos it gets us in the perfect mindset for the ~sequel~)

also fun fact the bakery is a real london bakery because of course i google these things while stuck on a chapter. the candy shop was a real shop, the vegan chinese restaurant's menu is, i am a busy procrastinator . (also if you like their adorable routine domestic life well GUESS WHAT THE SEQUEL HAS, i'm so excited)

ily thank you so so so much for these asks i sooooo look forward to them and then i get amped up all over again for the next chapter, no lie this is my FAVORITE part of this fic <33333 you are the B E S T and i hope you like the sequel cos oh man are we in for it, turns out jake is SAD, jake is SO SO SAD (i of no restraint have posted it because IM JUST SO EXCITED AAAAH JAKE)

[mlmxreader]

Hiya!!! Hope you're doing well! JASPER WITH HIS LITTLE COLLAR AND TAG!!! BAT DOG 🦇🐕 😭😭😭😭! Adorable. Adorable!! Tattoo do be poppin' and them cowboy boots ..... okay, okay, I see you. They also look stellar by the way.

Haven't had a chance to look at our boy Delaney but that snippet 👀👀👀 oof.... things indeed escalated quickly.... how very interesting 😏😏😏. BUT YOU WITH THESE CHARACTERS AND THEIR SLUTTLY LITTLE BUTTON POPS AND SHIRTS JUST HAPPENING TO COME OFF?!?!? SIR... sir.... please ... PLEASEEEE have mercy on thine souls 🫠🫠🫠

Alright, now that I've gotten that out, let's get into it.

Just The Sunshine | Bob Saginowski x gn!reader

Ohhohoho.... honey, it ain't the sun that's got 'em all hot an' bothered like that. Don't know how much help that umbrella is gonna be there, Bobby boy 😂. Awe, but they cute, they cute as hell: looking at him like it's their first date.... fuckin' gush.

The Flirting Game | Eames x gn!reader

“Darling-”

“Just fucking leave it, alright?!” You snapped, pushing him away from you before storming off to the bedroom. 

🥺🥺🥺

Cobbs, FUCK OFF!! But they confessed! They both confessed and now the two of THEM can go on a date. Let's go!!

Our Little Game | Bane x gn!reader

“I’m watching something,” you told him with a shake of your head. “I’ve been dying to watch it for over a year, so please, fuck off, my love.”

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Very lovingly, and don't forget that you are the light of my life, but kindly get the fuck out.

“Oh no, I’ve been caught,” you laughed, sarcasm would only make things worse. “What ever shall I do? Surrender to the big, bad man who broke the Bat’s back?”

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 This little shit!!! OMG this was literally everything I hoped for and more. Absolutely living for the sassy reader and Bane pairing, let me tell you!

My Robin Redbreast | Bane x gn!reader

MANS JUST WANTED TO GET THEM THEIR FAVORITE DRINK AND FOR IT TO BE A SURPRISE!!!!

"And yet, all Heaven is still in a rage. And will be, until Gotham and its people are free of corruption and greed. There are thousands of robin redbreasts just like you, my beloved.”

🥹🥹🥹🥹 I'm not crying, YOU are.... that's bloody beautiful. Both of them working tirelessly so that those who have been pushed to the margins, stepped over, forgotten, may once again have a voice and the remember their own power. And that little requirement of their's.... HIS Robin.... I'm gone 😢😢. They’re like, Imma put that ring on him.

Lucky Sergeant | Alfie Solomons x m!reader

You sighed, breath shaky as you thought about it. “If we’re both gonna die… fuck it. We die together.”

Alfie grinned as he nodded. “That’s my boy. There’s the scrappy cunt I knew back home.”

“Just do not let me die here,” you told him. “Let me die in your arms. And only your arms.”

🥹🥹🥹🥹 Oh fuckin' hell. Either would do anything to ensure the other got out of this and I'm not crying you bloody are... holy fuck 😭😭😭.

The worst part was that you knew he would have done the same, too. 

Oh, the weight of this and especially that they're together now, you know these two bastards are gonna make sure the other makes it out, even if it means sacrificing themself to do it.

Missus Solomons mention!!! My beloved ♥️! And their little reunion 😍😍😍 we got caught last time. Babes.... mans is the cunt in charge now so you lot kiss away!!!!

Broken Soldiers | Alfie Solomons x m!reader

“I ain’t gettin’ any fuckin’ rest unless you come with me,” he told you plainly. “Fuck sleep. If you’re stayin’ up, so am I.”

“Not tonight, Sir,” you chuckled. “Too tired for it.”

Okay. I love these two (I know I literally say that about every pairing but holy shit, I love these two). The level of care and understanding between them. He doesn't need to ask where Alfie was, doesn't need the man the utter the words, intuitively, he knows. Just from his mannerisms, the way he carries himself, and he doesn't need to ask Alfie why he's injured because he already knows that. That type of understanding and familiarity coming from a life time of being at each other's side, of always being there for the other, regardless of who was in the lead or not.... I just... I really love them.

Poor man and Alfie trying to everything in his power to help him, his plea, "you can talk to me about it, you know." And reader knowing that he can, Alfie also understanding that if he needs to, he'll talk to him but until then, he'll continue to be his biggest support and provide him with whatever he needs 🖤🖤. They'll always protect the other, there's no question about it.... fuck... that's beautiful.

Thank you, thank you for writing these! I loved them as always and shit did I really need them. Thank you again and til next time, my friend! Stay safe, as well as you can be and we'll speak soon!!!

Much love 🖤🖤🖤

🐍anon

Good evening!!! I’ve been okay, except this heatwave is killing me lmfao I’m fucking dying, it’s too hot, I can’t lie 😭Jasper’s little Batman getup…. he does REALLY suit it tbf - it’s like, his Thing now. he’s a Batman dog!! that’s his thing!!! and thank you!! so far, the healing process hasn’t been too bad - it’s been a lot easier bc my artist said I can air it out and that (as long as I keep it clean, 3-4 washes a day), then I can keep the clingfilm off bc w the heatwave, obviously i’m gonna sweat, so the risk of infection would’ve been that bit higher. so at least i don’t have to do the cling film djkffhgjkhg so so far it’s been alright! thankfully lmao touch wood! the cowboy boots are MEANT to be for work only for when I’m doing stuff on the garden/private land, bc they’re built for that purpose, buuuuuuuut they’re too comfy 😭so I wear em constantly dfkhkgfh it’s just a shame they don’t match my hat bc it’s black but thank you!!

oooh you’re in for a treat next time you check ao3 👀so far, Once We Were Close has 5 chapters (chapter 6 is otw!) 👀👀 and stands at 6073 words atm 👀 it’s a slow burner 👀👀👀 I GOTTA ADD THE SLUTTY BUTTON POPS AND THE SLIGHT BIT OF STRIPPING, IT MAKES FOR GREAT ENTERTAINMENT DJKFHGHFKJGFGHJFHK like MCD, it’s a niche of mine 

ALRIGHT, LET’S GO!!!

Just The Sunshine

Bob assuming it’s the heat……. suuuure it is, buddy. sure. of course. it’s definitely not bc you’re shirtless and all sweaty. nope. what an idiot (affectionate), he’s so oblivious to the fact that his s/o’s gettin all worked up over him, just thinking it’s the heat and nothing else - bless. that umbrella definitely ain’t gonna help, BUT MAYBE IF BOB WASN’T A SLUT AND PUT A SHIRT ON- they love him so much, like, every day they fall in love w him a little more and all over again at the same time; just completely head over heels for each other in every sense. Bob wouldn’t even mind if his s/o was honest, like, he’d be flattered ofc and he’d get all blushy and giggly about it, but he’d enjoy it bc he knows he would do EXACTLY THE SAME and has done before.

The Flirting Game

Eames is going through literal turmoil over it, but he still can’t help but to be RIGHT THERE at the reader’s side, even if they might not want him to be there to begin with; he loves them!!! he really does, bc he KNOWS them!! and the reader loves Eames for the exact same reason: to be known, is to be loved.

Our Little Game

they’re so fucking cheeky and the worst part is they KNOW they can get away w it bc Bane lets them every single fucking time. big guy has a massive soft spot for one (1) person and it’s fucking obvious. they’re fucking terrible to him fdkjhgkhfkgh an absolute nightmare, they’re gonna put him in an early grave (not that he’ll complain) if they don’t go careful  but I’m glad it’s what you had hoped for!!!! reader’s snark will DEFINITELY get them in trouble w everyone else (except Harley and Constantine bc they’ll bounce off of each other and have a back and forth thing) and Bane would ABSOLUTELY have to step in bc reader’s big mouth needs to be muzzled 💀

My Robin Redbreast

HE GENUINELY DID, ALL HE WANTED WAS TO SURPRISE THEM!!! HE’S BEING ROMANTIC!!!  communism. that is all fhkhkfhfk communism mixed w William Blake. perfect combo when put w Bane fkghjgh reader is definitely, like, MORE of the Robin Hood type than Bane is; they’re definitely the one who would rob the rich to give to the poor and never even HESITATE to put someone in need above themselves. they’re definitely the type to be more similar to the old fairytale, and Bane knows that, but he doesn’t want to use that AGAINST them, he wants to work it into what he’s already got planned bc he loves them! he wants to make sure that they’re getting what they want, too, even if they have selfless wants! HIS robin redbreast, who HE rescued from the cage…. ofc they’re do what Beyonce said to do!! 

Lucky Sergeant

the deplorable conditions of the trench, they’re enough to break anyone - but the ONLY reason why neither Alfie or Sgt. have broken is bc of the other. wanting to be together, to die together, to either see the end of the war or to see the end of their lives TOGETHER, is the only thing that has stopped them from breaking - bc they’re in a shit position! they’ve seen the horrors - shell shocked children in army uniforms, starvation, disease, having to rob the dead. they’ve seen what happens in the trenches, but they STILL keep fighting to be together bc they NEED to be together - they NEED to see the end of either themselves or the war, together. they’re both in a really shit position tbh, like, they both know that they’re dead men walking bc that’s just the nature of the first world war and the soldiers on the frontlines - they are dead men walking. so their choices are either die together, or live together knowing what the fuck they have been through. and living, unfortunately, isn’t up to them - just popping their head over the trench slightly could get them shot with a sniper’s bullet through the skull. just walking through the trenches could get them both torn to pieces by a grenade, or a shell. their choices are shit, and their position is shit.  MISSUS SOLOMONS <3 <3 everyone’s beloved!! she’s worried sick about her boys, worried if they’ll actually make it home or not, and with all the horror stories she’s hearing, she’s slowly getting less and less hopeful, especially bc Alfie stopped writing (too busy trying to keep everyone alive).  Alfie’s in charge! who the fuck is, realistically, gonna challenge him lmfao 

Broken Soldiers

there’s a lot of stuff that’s unsaid - Alfie and the reader have been through a fucking LOT together, and even Alfie didn’t make it out 100% the same as he did going in. but the reader knows him probably better than anyone else, he knows what Alfie’s thinking, what he’s feeling, just be quickly looking at him. he knows when he’s upset, happy, anxious. it’s in the eyes, the eyes never lie. but he’s more than willing to step up and to look after Alfie, bc Alfie does it for him in return. it’s symbiotic, almost - he helps Alfie, Alfie helps him, and they can’t be without the other bc no one gets the other the way they do. they’ve been through a LOT together, they know each other as well as themselves, and really, no one could ever have that level of emotional and mental intimacy that they do - they’ve been to war together both literally and figuratively.  more than anyone, Alfie understands what it’s like to have blood on his hands; he knows what it’s like to kill and to live with the guilt of not being able to save people. he knows what it’s like to feel ashamed, shunned, guilty and embarrassed for living through the wars when others couldn’t. he knows. but he also wouldn’t force the reader to speak if he didn’t want to - he knows shellshock is a complicated thing, and he’s trying his best to find his footing in terms of helping his bf get through it. he’s trying, genuinely. Alfie loves that guy, and there’s no doubt about it, but they’re so protective of each other that… maybe it’ll turn out to be a bit of an issue sooner or later. 

ANYWAYS!!!

you’re so very welcome!!! I’m done w requests now, so if you do have any more, feel absolutely free to send them - I’ll be around at some point or another to get them done lmao I’m so glad you enjoyed them <3 genuinely <3 and I’m glad they were there when you needed them and hope that they helped!! you’re very welcome, again!! we’ll speak soon, but for now, take care and keep yourself safe and healthy!! 

#asks #🐍anon

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🥺, 🤡, and 🎢 !!

🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?

I answered this in a previous ask, but I also always cry over reunions. The way characters react after a long separation (especially one that wasn't of their own choice) is extremely emotional, and it gets me every time. Someone always ends up in tears (spoiler: it's me).

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

Anything that makes c!Ranboo a pathetic wet rag. Throwing the wrapping paper and missing the trash bag horribly in Hearth. c!Tubbo pretending to stick him up in Gone Away. c!Tubbo (again) making him splutter and cough at the funeral just by calling him a nickname. c!Beeduo and c!Bench moments always end up chaotic and humorous in some way, and I love punctuating through the angst with those precious moments.

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

Oh god, I can't decide. Maybe A Warden's Secrets? I feel like Sam's journey throughout the fic is a roller-coaster from start to finish, especially with the fic's ending. However, Gone Away is also A Time, and with how unhinged Pandora is, I can't knock it out of the running, either. They're all wild, just in their own ways.

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#Ask game #friend tag #friend: cyrus #Thanks for the ask!