#then I tried to work on my original piece and got super fristrated bc none of the other characters would reveal themselves to me

[anxietylord]

Today has felt like it existed out of space and time

#i got up at like one bc i couldnt sleep last night #I showered and then forgot to eat #I did like two hours worth of actual work for my actual career that seems like it was three days ago alsread #I wrote two drabbels I liked and then several hours passed where I straight up do not recall anything that happened #then I tried to work on my original piece and got super fristrated bc none of the other characters would reveal themselves to me #then I went to check out another old piece to see if I could cannibalize it #but i remembered that the main character was based off my ex spouse and that made me feel SUUUUUPER gross #so I tried to work on the long fic for approximately two seconds before feeling like it was coming out all wrong #then I wrote a way too long response to zombie where I infodumped about how I think fear toxin works #then I blinked and it was suddenly midnight #and I feel like it was just midnight from yesterday #and every day I have to think about what to eat for dinner and it's slowly driving me to madness #every day is the same and I'm starting to phase out of reality