#there goes my gpa

[gillianthecat]

I got an A in Chemistry after all!!!!🥳🎉🎊

Also in both my dance classes, even though I stopped attending altogether after spring break. 😂 Those teachers are so nice, and don't give a fuck about grades lol. Which is very nice for my gpa.

The only thing I failed is is swimming. But it's just one credit so shouldn't damage my gpa much.

#gillianthecat goes back to school #the boring minutia of my gpa

[avianii]

so class schedules came out for me...and HOLY FUCKING SHIT IM GOING TO DIE THIS YEAR ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY. AP PHYSICS C, CALC AND LANG WITH THE LAST BLOCK AS COMP SCI ENGINEERING????????? AND I GOT THE HARD LANG TEACHER??!?!?!?!?! meanwhile my easy AP (APUSH) just sitting there on the other rotation day like ♪(´▽｀).

I HATE YOU. DIE.

And i can't change it either because of class availability :D

(the eternally screaming gif below kinda hurts my eyes so just warning you guys lol)

#there goes anii oversharing on tumblr again #there is literally no other way for my schedule to work #except for the absolute monstrosity it is rn #us education #anii's random thoughts #I love school #good mental health and sleep schedules? #thats the real mission impossible now lmao #but dropping APs is just not a thing if you like good GPAs #yay grade inflation (because a 4.0 is bad now) #at least i got the nice calc teacher and not the demon possessed corpse of an italian guy that was my math teacher last year #loved him but he has issues

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[metalcatholic]

I hate you all I had a dream that my one of my courses had a reading quiz on Gancharov (1973). I didn’t realize it was a dream until I saw that it was Sunday.

#gancharov #gancharov 1973 #I got like a 65% and woke up like well shit there goes my gpa

[femmeidiot]

Great news I have begun the the day long studying and quiz and test process

#We shall see how it goes I am currently really testing my gpa with my lack of preparedness for this midterm

[thotsfortherapy]

I love academia I love homework I love doing readings I love writing scientific papers I love literature reviews I love research <- lying btw

#cy says stuff #my semester starts on monsay #but im bussing back to my uni and the person beside me whipped out their ipad and started doing work #like bestie we still have a few days caj you please chill #it is stressing me out LMAO #it's okay. i will ignore it. #hey my gpa wasn't bad this semester! and i got an A+ for the first time in my uni career #just goes to show i was built to argue not to write scientific essays... alas #god i am not your strongest soldier but i will persevere 🙏 #i am going to try to see more ppl too. maybe a one on one hangout every few weeks too #cause i miss doing that kind of stuff and going back home really reminded me of how much i just like talking to ppl! #so hopefully more coffee dates in my future!

[ikyw-t]

I do relate to olivia rodrigo in some ways for example I did have nightmares each week (every day for months) after that phone call in may (march). I fantasize (once every other blue moon) about a time where you're a little fucking sorry. except I do not hold my undying love (there is not even an iota of love, if there ever was) like a grudge and also I will never ever forgive bc you were indeed filled with vitriol. and unfortunately I also cannot let it go. it was six months (three years) of torture. I did NOT love you truly and I cannot laugh at the stupidity. I may have made some real big mistakes but you do indeed make the worst one look fine. like..............

#sorry i know this is cringe and something i should just journal about #ive just had a very shitty day and also kinda week #ive just been tired and lethargic for no clear reason for the past five days and it's very frustrating #bc i have homework due tomorrow that ive barely made any progress on #and i kinda rly need an A in this class to maintain my gpa. so if one bad week means i tank this assignment and get a B in this class #oh dread. unspeakable unsurmountable dread #also i went on a walk in the park w my mom which i haven't done in a bit and i just was unable to stop thinking #about my high school demon of a boyfriend who lives nearby. altho he literally never goes outside i sometimes get rly freaked out #and panicky that i might see him and have to deal with him again. like he did call (AND TEXT?!?🤢) me last march #and i was having nightmares for months after and feeling so paranoid that he might randomly show up at my house one day #bc that's the kind of shit he used to do regularly when we were dating to keep me from breaking up w him #and like ughhhhhhhhhh it just makes me so upset bc he literally would have the audacity. #it's just upsetting. i am soooo nonviolent as a person but when i think of him i suddenly feel not very nonviolent #again my apologies i know this should be journaled about instead. sorry u had to see all this #feel free not to read these tags like this is just for me. apologies. #while im here some other songs that make me think of him include would've could've should've. atw10 but only the terrible parts #uhh better by myself by hey violet is incredibly on the nose #also it's actually just a rly great song. also get out of my life by little hurt. okay im done now. #gonna go find something funny and cute to watch. maybe little witch academia. #sorry if u read all this 😵‍💫

[sweetlilbird]

I HAVE TO TAKE LINEAR ALGEBRA TOO?????!

#amber rambles #university stuff #bro there goes my good GPA 😭 #ill probably take that after calculus 1 just to get my math classes out of the way... #advise for those who hate math: being a comp sci major does not exempt you from this shit 😭😭😭

[ncteez]

guess who failed her fucking final exam ???

#i’ve never failed a college exam 😭 #there goes my 3.9 GPA #anyway it’s over now and there’s nothing else i can do #i did my best #[hon talks]

[asingingpenguin]

When will my professors grade my assignments so I will know if I passed or not?

#Penguin goes to college #I'm sure I did but I hate not knowing #I just want to KNOW I'm done #At least in theory I am done #Cause I don't think I'll be done at my internship until June #I also just wanna know my gpa ;v;

[proteuus]

theres this saying in my culture-- "I just have to do well on the final"

#i dont understand the new keynesian philips curve and its ruining my life #i have officially decided to downgrade my econ major to the minor which is sad but true #in business we make a distinction between capacity and capability; #i certainly have the capability to be good at high level econ but not with this level of capacity #if I got a B I'd be thrilled bc tbh I'll probably get a C. i've never gotten a C in anything before #but there's a first for everything I suppose #itll drag down my gpa but so it goes. by dropping the major I can stop taking so many credits and get better grades later #as always we must be solution and future oriented and ignore sunk costs. #tbh I'm glad that I'll have the space to focus more on my spanish and business majors i think thatll be cool to dive deeper into those

[gillianthecat]

It's over! This chemistry final is done! And, by extension, this whole damn class!!!

I put down an answer for every question, some I was confident in, others less so, but every answer was at least plausible.

So it's theoretically possible for me too have gotten 100% on this, but unfortunately even so I don't think I can get an A in the class overall. But I feel pretty confident that I got enough to keep my grade at a B, which is where it currently is.

I'm a little frustrated with myself about that (If I'd just turned in those two labs on time to get graded! If I'd just shown up for that quiz I'd missed! If I'd just turned in more of the HW!) but mostly I'm thrilled I finished the semester at all.

I started taking this chemistry class in Fall 2020. Four attempts and almost three years later, I finally made it through.

The content itself was challenging but doable, and all the professors were excellent, it's just that for the last three times halfway or three-quarters of the way through my brain balked and I could not force myself to keep doing the work.

But this time I did!

#gillianthecat goes back to school #living with adhd #the boring minutia of my gpa #chemistry #tw flashing

[temmievillages]

one week until uni starts. crying and throwing up rn

#i do this every semester and each time im okay in the end #but each time my gpa goes up i feel the pressure to maintain it #idk if i can physically handle 4 topics rn as well but i dont wanna have to take on an extra semester 😢 #emetophobia m/

[calhaspam]

LITERALLY STRAIGHT HIGH GRADES ALL MY COLLEGE TERMS AND I COULDNT EVEN GET A WOW THATS COOL OR A YOURE REALLY SMART KID OR A IM SO PROUD OF YOU JUST ANY COMPLIMENT ANY PRAISE LIKE ONCE JUST ONCE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! YOURE ALWAYS LIKE NO THAT SUCKS OR NO YOURE A FAILURE OR NO YOURE GOING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE NOOOOOOOOOOO ITS AAAAAALL ABOUT ME BEING A LOSERRRRRRRR NOOOOOO ITS AAAAAAAAALLLLLL ABOUT ME SCREWING THINGS UP ALL I DID WAS TAKE A BREAK FROM COLLEGE!!!!!!!! SHUT UUUUUUUUP!!!!!!!!!

#calhanxtalks #vent #3.7!?!?!?!?! 3.7!?!?!? STRAIGHT 3s!!!!!!!!!!!! THE HIGHEST GPA IS 4!!!!!!!!!!!! #BRO I AM LITERALLY TRYING MY BEST WHILE MENTALLY ILL AND NEURODIVERGENT!!!! #FUUUUUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU #FUCK YOUR EXPECTATIONS I DONT CARE I DONT CARE #YOU GUYS ARE ALWAYS LIKE 'ITS OKAY TO FAIL ❤' BUT YALL ARE LOOKING DOWN ON MEEEEEEEEEEE #ITS JUST A BREEEEEAAAAAK #this is why im always stealing validation from other parents 😭 sorry about that #i gotta give up on these bitches all that matters is ME and how IM PROUD of MY achievements #still tho its so annyoning everytime they bring up college the topic goes to me being a fuck up #like um ok❓🤨 you have gambling addictions❗❗🤣🤣🤣 #the only one who hasnt explicitly shown disdain for my choices is my father #which is ironic because hes the main reason my head is so Fucked #but ya know what ok i forgive that motherfucker at LEAST hes trying to be nice nowadays #wheres the energy for the rest of you bitches❗❓🙄 #my grandad just gave me a look of disapproval which yknow what ill take that thats fine #whatever whatever #hate being in their house get me outta here. #this is why i dont visit GRANMA.

[rainysaturdayafternoon]

oh crap

#the comprehension check I took is for a grade #I got a 70 on it #there goes my A #bye bye 3.6 gpa #it doesn’t matter yet but it’s making me sad nonetheless #oh and I’m going to probably fail social studies #otherwise known as history

[dykes4timrand]

i am full of rage war and hate on the planet earth

#FUCK GRADED GROUP DISCUSSIONS #I SPEAK AND CONTRIBUTE AND GIVE IDEAS AND ONE DUDE DOESNT AND MY GRADE GOES DOWN #GRADE ME BASED ON MY CONTRIBUTION #GRADE THEM BASED ON THEIR CONTRIBUTIONS #bro this quarter was going to bring up my gpa so much :((((((