#there’s also just been a distance bewteeen me and kpop as a whole recently which makes the appeal of reading fanfic diminish as well

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friday night and guess what im thinking

#shawna speaks and no one listens #firstly might have to just wait for king done to finish so I can binge im too impatient to wait #but mnet blurring out the members of btob and ikon who left was :( but on a happier note all the performances were really so good #like I enjoyed all of them a lot #my biased ranking would be btob first.... I know I’m a tbz blog but theirs was too good #watch me come out as a btob stan 🤭 jk but I did have a very brief btob stage back in the day #then yeah like tbz second then ikon then skz/atz then sf9 #the beginning part of the skz perf was really good tho omg #my favorite part of the tbz stage was Eric’s part they talked about it in the love they did today but the duh duh duh duh part #idk how else to explain it but that part was so sick and the camera captured it really well and oh also the piano bit ofc #that’s it for kingdom thoughts #secondly I wanna read more fanfic again but idk it’s hard to find pieces I enjoy now #and my growing disinterest in reading fanfic is making like the distance between me and fanfic feel larger than it is #that’s a really dramatic way to put it but I don’t feel comfortable wanting feedback on my works if I’m not giving feedback to others yknow #I think I’ve talked about this before but it’s honestly I growing struggle for me the more I write and grow in terms of interaction #the less reading I do #there’s also just been a distance bewteeen me and kpop as a whole recently which makes the appeal of reading fanfic diminish as well #but then the writing still appeals to me as a creative outlet so yeah it’s just a little conflict I guess #I had more thoughts but I’m blanking now.... #anywyas might actually go to sleep at a semi normal time tonight .... goodnight 😴