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#there’s this tiktok trend going around where you stitch the original and talk about something your mom said to you that’s never left you
harmonizewithechoes · 3 years
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#there’s this tiktok trend going around where you stitch the original and talk about something your mom said to you that’s never left you#and I don’t make videos and anyway even if I did she follows me on there so I wouldn’t do this one#but mine is ‘who are you trying to impress?’#there’s no specific context because she said it multiple times#every time I spent more than 10 minutes trying to figure out what to wear#or when I asked to use my birthday money to get some makeup to try#she would ask ‘who are you trying to impress?’#and it would make me feel so stupid#and I still hear those words in my head any time I attempt to put any real effort into my appearance#any time I try to practice makeup I hear those words and end up wiping it off because I suddenly feel like a clown#any time I go to try something on in a dressing room#or when I put on a dress#or do anything other than wear a T-shirt and jeans and a sweatshirt#I cover myself up because then I don’t feel ridiculous for ‘trying to impress’ anyone#because I’m really not very pretty in the first place and makeup and clothes don’t help#no one would be impressed anyway so it’s stupid to try#having those words in my head have taken a huge toll on my self confidence over the years and I genuinely don’t know how to change that#oh and there’s another thing that comes to mind every time I see one of those videos#it’s not a specific phrase but when I was little I used to journal a lot#and my mom on a few occasions told me that she read what was in there and made fun of me for what i wrote#I was only like 6 or 7 so it wasn’t anything super important#but I can’t journal anymore because I get really embarrassed by what I write#I love owning journals and I have several pretty ones that I can’t bring myself to write in#because if someone were to read it I’d feel really stupid#I love my mom and we have a great relationship now#but things she said will stick with me forever#just.... be careful what you say to kids
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