#there's also so much misinformation and fake news going around

[tetrakys]

Very old tea - Beemoov's writers

Every day I wake up and find new drama in the fandom. I have to admit it is entertaining but fake news and misinformation really annoy me so here we go. What's the new tea? It's actually very old tea, but it needs to be put into context.

A few hours ago, someone rummaging through the New Gen website, ended up on the credit page, where they found this

This page isn't reachable from the website, there are no links, you need to type the full url to get there because it's only a placeholder. You can clearly see that those are Eldarya TO credits, and an old Priya illustration is used as background. Literally yesterday Chino mentioned in her Instagram stories that there are lots of placeholders on the website.

Despite this, news is now circulating that the same team that worked on Eldarya is now working on New Gen. I don't think people have been saying this maliciously, it's possible that they got confused with the placeholder, which didn't have the big red disclaimer I added in the screenshot above. However now they are freaking out for no reason and bringing back so much old drama, which is also partially wrong. So here I am trying to clarify, hoping that people will see this (but alas, tumblr isn't as popular as facebook and twitter so maybe I'm just shouting into the wind).

MCL and Eldarya writing team

Part 1. High School Life and the Sally Anne drama

Firstly, at the very very beginning of MCL, Chino was on her own, she was working on both the art and the writing. However, soon later the company looked for a writer, Chino pushed for her friend Sally Anne to be hired even if she had no prior professional experience, and the company agreed. Eventually they also became roommates and even closer friends.

Now, the people who have been around for ages like me know that there was huge drama at some point. Sally Anne had some health issues and pretty much disappeared for months in the middle of Nath's arc. Lots of things were said at the time, some true some very untrue. Sally Anne made a facebook post mentioning how Chino and the company were bullying her. One of the accusations that people like to bring back all the time is that the character of Aleja, who was based on Sally Anne, was used to bully her because she was written as a bit silly. Maybe people forget that all Eldarya self-inserts are very flawed. Jamon can barely use grammar when he speaks, Kero is a coward, Ykhar an anxious nervous train wreak. I don't see anyone say that Chinomiko bullied herself by making Miiko such a raging bitch.

Anyway I believe that Sally Anne herself realised that this and other bullying accusations were unfair since she later retracted it. Some people say that she was forced by Beemoov to do so (I don't know where they would get this information, it's a pretty strong accusation). Others say that all this is common behaviour for people who suffer from addiction. I'm just going to add some additional context that most people may not be aware of since I hardly see it mentioned.

When Sally Anne left the company she started her own personal project with some friends. They put together a kickstarted campaign for a BL game and earned around 58,000€. After that however, the project never came to light because of, again, Sally Anne's personal issues. Here you can see a post from the team describing the situation, which is proof that her health condition was not connected to Beemoov work environment at all, since the same thing happened again while working on her own personal project with other friends of hers. Additionally here is the final post written soon afterward, where the team explained that they would not be able to make the game. They also said that they had used up most of the kickstarter money already even though the game had not been produced. They gave people only one month to claim their kickstarter pledge back. Considering to this day there's still people who wonder what happened to their Eldarya account, I strongly believe not many people managed to see that post and claim their money with only a one month timeframe.

Anyway, this serves as a context to show that in a very small company, when the writer disappears for whatever reason, either the project is cancelled or they have to hire someone else. Lots of people believe that Beemoov is a huge company when it's not. At the time of these events there were around 50 employees, and those people had to earn a living. Sally Anne was the only writer, this whole situation led to MCL not being released for at least half a year, which compromised everyone's salaries. Players were complaining like crazy but, despite hearing only one side of the story, they were very happy to jump on the "Sally Anne was being bullied" train once new writers were hired and they could play the game again.

So, let's talk about the "new" writers.

Part 2. Second half of High School Life and Eldarya TO

Once it was clear that Sally Anne would not be able to come back to work, Beemoov hired two new writers. Hikaru who would end up being Eldarya TO's writer, and Cassandre who took over MCL and finished High School season. (These info you can find in the games credits).

Hikaru was the CM at the time, because the company was looking for a writer for this new game Eldarya they gave her a chance. Chino and Hikaru got along well and I think it's visible in TO's writing. Remember Chino is the creator, she decides the story and the events, the writer writes them, and Chino reads and corrects the script. I think it's clear from TO's writing that they had a good synergy. Hikaru left around the end of TO for personal reasons, she moved to another city and changed career, it was her choice to kill off her self-insert (Ykhar) before leaving, so no there was no big conspiracy around the self-inserts. To this day she and Chino are still friends. But no, she's not coming back to write New Gen as people who saw the placeholder seem to believe.

Cassandre, as I said, took over MCL HSL in the middle of Nath's arc. I think it's visible that the season feels a bit different with a different writer, but I still like it, I think she did a good job as a writer. However, once high school was over, in a move that I will never understand, Beemoov's management decided to assign Eldarya to her, not as a writer but as a project manager, effectively taking over Chino's role. So Chino had to leave from around episodes 20-22 and never went back. She only provided the main storyline of the worlds merging, but at some point she resumed working on the events only.

So from around episode 20-22 to episode 29 Hikaru and Cassandre worked together, with Hikaru as the writer and Cassandre as the one deciding the plot/scenes and supervising the writing.

Part 3. Eldarya ANE + MCL University, Love and Alternate Life

Once Hikaru left, Alexis took over. So from episode 30 of TO and throughout ANE he and Cassandre have worked on Eldarya alone. This is the dream team we owe the state of Eldarya to. None of them knew the first 22 episodes of the games in depth and hence why we have all the plot holes and different characters' personalities. Additionally, at that point Cassandre started working on Uncoven so it is my personal opinion that Alexis was mostly on his own during ANE because clearly you can see that the person who wrote that had no idea what Eldarya was really about.

What happened in MCL at the same time? Once Cassandre moved to Eldarya, Beemoov found another writer for MCL, Cara, who wrote University Life. My personal opinion is that she was a good writer, I like University Life, but there's very little romance. Less than HSL for sure. But there are many funny scenes and a young adults feel that I really liked. She and Chino worked on UL together as writer/creator and it's still one of my favourite seasons, however the lack of flirting scenes is visible.

Then, when Love Life started, another writer joined the team, Antoine, Chino was still the creator and Cara remained as proofreader and also worked on Uncoven with Cassandre. My personal opinion is that there are lots of issues in Love Life because of how some themes of feminism, sexual harassment etc. are treated. Additionally the romance was even less than in UL, and some characters' personalities took a slightly strange turn. However I did like the main storyline and the ending that went full circle.

By the time Alternate Life started, both Cassandre and Cara had left the company, Antoine was still around to write additional LL episodes such as wedding and honeymoon, and the events. Eldarya's writing was over and so Alternate's writing has been the product of Alexis and Chino alone.

Part 4. What about today? MCL New Gen

New Gen is being written by Alexis and Chino, same team and dynamic as Alternate, the two of them alone. So if you see people around saying that Hikaru is back or whatever else, it's not true.

You may not like Alexis' writing after what was done to Eldarya, which I totally understand. If I hadn't played all Alternate Life I would feel the same and think that the guy isn't able to think deeper than a teaspoon. But luckily I really like what he and Chino can do together so I have a good feeling for New Gen.

#I thought I would write about VPNs but guess what new old drama just resurfaced #my candy love #eldarya #mcl new gen #peggy's corner

[theswiftheartsystem]

(New!) The Swift Heart System Introduction💙

cw: syscourse, and general discourse.

Basic Information:

Collective Name: Refer to us as Swift Heart if not sure!

Collective Pronouns: They/Them, or Ask!

Collective Gender: Pangender, GenderFluid, and genders along that spectrum are all okay with us 👍

We are white, afab and American, keep in mind our perspective is based around our personal experience, and what we have learned about.

Alter Count at the moment: Around 400, but we are aware it’s more, we don’t really care much about alter count all things considered lol.

Host: As of now, none! Even when we have one it isn’t very long!

Origin: Traumagenic

Disorders that we have: DID (what this blog is mainly about), BPD, Autism, C-PTSD, GAD, and possibly OCD (although we would lie to discuss it with a therapist/psychiatrist beforehand for personal comfort!)

Extra: We are Pro-Endo!!!! Although we cannot stop you from interacting if you are anti-endo, We kindly request you please just block us and move on if you have a problem with that.

About Us:

Why are we pro-endo?: When we were first discovering our system we were desperate to be “real enough” and accepted. Although the first system we discussed plurality with was pro-endo, they left the internet shortly after we opened up, and this lead us to being around sysmeds. To prove ourselves we purposely forced ourselves to remember trauma which put us in a worse position mentally. It took a long time, but through working to accept ourselves, we realized how bigoted we were being, which lead us to question a lot of things, such as our beliefs on endogenic plurality. Although we have gone a long way, some of our alters do not agree with us because it got so drilled into our mind that “endogenic systems are somehow just traumagenic and don’t remember” (which is a incredibly misinformed and harmful.)

What do we plan to talk about on this blog?: Really whatever we feel like! We may talk about Syscourse, plural positivity, advice from personal experience, our trauma, special interests and hyperfixations, ect. If we want to talk about it we probably will. (Although we always try to put the proper trigger and content warnings, and if we miss one by accident please tell us so we can add it as soon as possible!)

How to contact us/ask us a question: DMs are normally open unless a situation is happening! Along with that, feel free to use the ask me anything button, comment section on posts, or reblogs!

Mistakes on post: If we make a mistake, please inform us! We are always open to editing post (and do quite a bit), and we aren’t perfect, and especially if we say something bigoted, please correct us we are always open to learning about these topics, and acknowledge that we are privileged in certain ways. We would rather delete a long post we worked hard on if it is harmful then keep it up and go “wellll- it doesn’t affect me personally”

What are we “Pro” on:

We are obviously pro-endo!

We are pro self help. Although we think therapy is beneficial in many ways, not everyone can get a good therapist, wether that’s for financial reasons, none near you, or ableism, racism, sexism, ect in the medical/mental health field. Also it can benefit everyone to learn new coping mechanisms! (Please see a doctor if you are ill! You can only help yourself so much! We do not condone refusing to see doctors when you need to!!!

We are pro self diagnosing! (Just please do proper research before so, and even if it turns out you where wrong, you aren’t faking unless you actively attempt to fake.)

We are pro neopronouns and xenogenders!

People with villainized disabilities and/or mental disorders!

What are we “anti” on:

The trans-Id community. We don’t talk about this on this blog due to a lot of these people in this community being children, although we think what they are doing is dangerous and harmful, We would rather not direct harassment towards children. That being said, please do not harass anyone. (Also wanting to add, we are not anti-BIID, BIID is a completely separate thing.)

Pro-shipping. A big excuse for pro-shippers on why it’s okay is “it’s just fiction” but the thing is, the media we consume affects us and how we view the world. That’s why propaganda is so powerful. Yes, it’s just fiction, but it normalizes these things.

Bigotry.

”Narcissistic/Borderline/ect abuse” People with personality disorders can be abusive like anyone else can, but the idea of “[PD] abuse” is just to villainies those with Personality Disorders. This stops making sense when you change the disorder. (Example: “Post-Traumatic abuse” this sounds over the top, but we have legitimately seen someone say this.)

Ending:

Thanks for reading! Have a nice day, and remember you are doing great.

#pro endo #did #did osdd #did system #endo friendly #dissociative identity disorder #traumagenic system #actually plural #endo safe #system #system introduction #cw syscourse #syscourse #cw discourse

[myobsessionsspace]

Fatigue

Kinda Random Thoughts a couple of days after the 'last BTS Live'

Ngl feeling a bit of mental and emotional fatigue.

I think it’s safe to say it’s going around.

The sad thing about social media is no matter how much you try and curate your own bubble with things that make you happy and positive people, it’s hard to maintain. Social media is a representation of everyday offline people. Regular people behind the usernames with their own opinions, experiences, likes and dislikes (celebrities are regular people too, just famous for something or talented and known for it).

Though it’s good for growth and maturity to not just surround yourself with the same opinions and thoughts as yourself, it’s also tiring when you feel the need just be understood. When you can never enjoy things in peace because others need more information, more context, need to pick apart, need to make their side seen, their conclusions/interpretations the decisive one.

Over the years we’ve had SEVERAL Jikook lives, OT7 lives or lives with some of the members as well as Jikook. I, like most of us, LOVE Jikook lives. When watched in its entirety we not only see their ‘moments’ but we see them as regular people, we then can discern the fake from true when we see fake subs, edits etc. What makes Jikook even more interesting and captivating, to me, is when I can see the similarities as well as the exceptions in their interactions with each other and their other members. I found Jikook AFTER I found BTS…

and not only do I love their lives with primarily the two of them, I also love their solo lives, their lives with other members and OT7 lives. All the members are interesting in their own ways and their lives shed light on them and the other members, Jikook included. Watching their lives (though still them putting their best face forward and always aware that they’re being watched by millions) is so much more rewarding than just watching edits, summaries etc from the likes of TikTok, YouTube and other platforms. It’s fun AFTER watching their lives to then see what army have done to have fun with them, such as funny edits, fake FUN subs etc.

**please please please, weverse is free, whenever you have the time, watch the lives there with the subtitles there, though not always the best, it’s better than those who may not translate for altruistic reasons**

It gets me down sometimes the constant need it seems, within fandom culture, to microanalyse every piece of content we get. We have the need to seek out hidden messages, hidden looks, put context behind what is and isn’t said. Give explanation where it isn’t needed and draw conclusions from what isn’t said.

Most of the time it’s cute, fun and ‘harmless’

But sometimes 😪

MANIPULATION, MISINFORMATION & MISTRANSLATION

Without agenda, edits, cuts, slow mo and with context & rightful subtitles - Original Weverse Source

It’s always been this way and sadly seems like it always will be. I like context, I like information, when possible I like to get it from the original source. It’s nice when busy and unable to read whole interviews or watch whole lives, to see little snippets and clips that float around online. But it’s so draining when those little clips and snippets are then used to paint different pictures and narratives depending on the sharer’s biases/intention. When it’s aimed at making members into villains, defaming their characters etc.

It’s rarely the case that the purpose for lives (when there is one) ends up being appreciated solely for that. Just the members wanting to connect with their fans.

mukbangs, karaokes, Legos, q&a’s, tmi’s, messages of thanks, birthday lives, just because lives. All the times they go on live that can be appreciated for just that end up being used as material for hate

Everytime it should be healing to interact with those we are fans of, after the initial wave of euphoria is over, undoubtedly what follows is soo much negative noise, new narratives, more hate etc.

As I said before I try to curate my timelines, who I follow, things I like & comment on etc but sometimes the need to correct misinformation, the need to defend the lies and negativity means I still end up seeing so much of the bad.

REAL (Weverse Original Source)

FAKE!

I know this is a cycle and I have choices and am not being forced to be anywhere.

It’s just one of those days where I want to word vomit on my blog.

I just want to enjoy BTS and Jikook peacefully and positively. Why can’t everyone want to do the same for their faves?? Why is it always so angry and combative and about winners and losers, horrible name calling and malicious lies, insults, nasty images etc. Why campaigns to cause mental anguish to members and their family? To sabotage and try to get members separated or even imprisoned. Why mass report playlists and accounts? Why when more often than not, it changes nothing.

If you don’t like something why spend so much energy on it? The members will still interact with each other, those that have ships & biases remain and Jikook will still be Jikook 💅

I know social media is a representation of the real world and that there are nasty people in the real world, so of course it makes sense that there are nasty people online, it’s just tiring and sucks the fun out.

They won’t stop me enjoying BTS’ music & content, them as individuals and a group nor will they stop me enjoying whatever Jikook chose to share with us,

but everyone once in a while it does mean I get social media fatigue, fandom fatigue and the need for me to do posts like this.

💜

Please use this post to share on the good things you like about the fandom, the group and BTS & Jikook online spaces. Let’s bring the positivity back for ourselves 💪

I hope anyone feeling like me can find what they need to keep on going in the fandom or make the move to take a break 💜

#turned from a small random thoughts into a full post #Jikook #Kookmin #Minkook #tired #BTS anti’s fatigue #Jikook anti’s fatigue #social media fatigue #random musings #random thoughts

[life-in-the-monster-haus]

hey did u see G3 Clawdeen was confirmed gay

Was it confirmed by Mattel? Because if not: Leaked material on Reddit from an unknown, anonymous &/or unreliable source is not the same as confirmation.

BTW Don’t mistake my skepticism as homophobia. I myself am Bisexual & I WANT canon gay representation in Monster High! I love the direction they’re going with Frankie & Cleo in the Nickelodeon show and I want more of THAT.

But I’ve been burned before believing hearsay, made up BS from former & possibly disgruntled employees, just straight up fabricated nonsense because I’ve noticed A LOT during G3 people make fake leaks on purpose for the lols & everyone is just cool with it(???) like it’s a joke & not intentionally misleading folks.

With so much misinformation flying around I will not budge on this topic until we get information from a source we can name that’s reliable & canonical.

Basically!? Call me when Clawdeen starts crushing on someone who isn’t a boy.

Update: I have been informed that in the new Trivia game that everyone but me is playing that Clawdeen’s crush is Deuce.

She also has an obvious crush on Deuce in the live action movie & they had a song together. Their relationship will probably develop in the sequel that’s coming out this fall.

So like… I’m sorry Lesbians it doesn’t look like a win for y’all but do not despair! We still have Twyla & Venus to look forward too!

It IS a win for all the people who were tired of seeing our one black girl never get a love interest in G1!

#monster high #clawdeen wolf #mattel #mh

[bugsbenefit]

no spoilers here yet but just as warning in case you don't want to see any talk about the set production you can blacklist my s5 spoiler tag, i'll tag everything so no worries :) (also applies to any actual future spoilers ofc)

i just care about show production processes and i like having things in one place for organization purposes. so here's a summary of the things that came out over the past few days that are confirmed to be real because i saw some confusion and misinformation about it

1) replica elements of the Hawkins downtown area are being constructed (the tall greyish building is Melvalds so this is basically confirmed to be the ST production and a real leak) link to the source

my bet is they'll either use it for an UD version of downtown or for something that requires massive alterations to the set they can't do to the real location without digital effects. like damage to the buildings, extensive special effects like fire or explosions, and so on

2) they're building military set pieces as well source and source

very curios where those will end up going since they clearly don't belong in the downtown set area and are all on movable platforms. there'll be a military base Somewhere for sure tho

and neither of that is actually really new information, we already saw a military presence in Hawkins by the end of s4 and them rebuilding downtown was something i expected but seeing the process is still cool

also adding here so people don't get their hopes up or base too much of their s5 expectation on it; there's a picture of cut out missing posters going around that seems to be a fake leak. sucks since it's the only photo that would allow for any actual plot speculation but alas

this one

which is from behind the scenes of the ST Day event, so they're not up to date or from the current production of s5, which the og poster clarifies in the comments (link to the post here)

#stranger things #s5 spoilers #s5 speculation

[dojae-huh]

so lucas got his first solo!!!!!!

u knw what twtr i is exploding.... Haha.... Some are being neutrals while some acting like the scandal is happened with them.... Like they have seen it through their eyes!!! I mean as a new one to this fandome I only can read the news.... Yes there was a scandal, a bad one actually.... But I don't knw how much of it is true.... So if u hate him ignore him nd don't listen to his songs.... Nd u like him just support him rather picking up a fight with those hate him..... That's all i can say.... But am really curious abt smthng...

I mean, even if u r doing a great job the company won't always invested in u much...most of the cases are like that....nd when u got into a scandal, there goes ur career into a bhooom....like u knw these entertainment companies won't just support someone....even if they are introducing a new face they work hard to make them famous coz they can't risk the amount they spent on that person..they want profit....but here in lucas case, what made them so confident abt get him into the field again... I mean he had such a big scanadal nd got really hate, ofcrs i knw he still has a good fanbase but u knw, it won't be an easy task... There is risk... There is a chance of it won't make it big... But still SM daringly made him a solo artist really makes me curious.... Does he have some connections or what.... Or is he really innocent that company wants to give him a chance..... Nd I don't think that pink company is that much generous.... Coz they even made shotaro nd sengchan into another group just becoz they are already famous, so puting them into another group would make more benifit to reach out to the fans.... That compnay only think abt profit rather than their artists feeling, so what in the world they got the confident lucas would bring back lot profit through this solo?! Normal idols not getting things while scandalous one got it..... I'm totally confused huh nim.....im soryy if my words made u offended, if I'm wrong correct me nd share ur thoughts on this.... Thankuu ☺

Lucas was accused of things of various degree of villainy. Most fans never cared to look into the things more deeply, read the disproof by fans who investigated the case, just jumped on the hate train. And now those people think they continue to stand on the side of "good people" who condemn cheaters, sexual harrassers, rapists, etc. And, of course, there are just plain antis.

Taeyong was cleared from accusations of being a bully and others in 2020. It is now known he had one of the worst childhoods among 127 neos, was even sent for a month to his granparents, away from school he didn't want to go to. And even today fans spread misinformation about him being a "nasty person".

Many Lucas' fans stayed and demonstrated they were waiting for him through trending of tags, comments on IG, etc. SM could see the continued interest and rely on that core fanbase. Lucas is going on a fanmeet tour around Asia, which demonstrates SM being sure it will be sold. The upside of working for the global market is that being cancelled in one country (here: China) doesn't nesessary mean that other countries will follow suit. When SK starts to hate a celebrety, that celebrety "dissapears" to Japan or China for a couple of years (works there non-stop), and makes a comeback back home, once people forget.

I suspect Lucas is Chris Lee's personal project. He uploaded a photo together with him a year or so ago, and appeared in the documentary. Either Chris was empathic, knowing Lucas personally and how the things actually were behind the scenes, or he wants to try to return a banished idol back and make a case for the future. Idols are cancelled all the time, and recently it has become a big problem. Just look how many idols were kicked out from their groups, and big ones. This issue will become even worse in the future, with deep fakes and AI voice generators.

LSM also gave chances to some of his artists after they caused problems.

SM signed Kim Woojin, who was ousted from Stray Kids. He managed to clear his name with the help of lawyers, proved the accusations were false, but it was too late.

Lucas wasn't a super big star, not like BigBang members, for example, or BTS. He has star quality, a potential to be very big, however, SM has new groups and current ones that bringmoney. It's not like he is last resort, worthy of risking everything. As such, SM returning him means whatever mess ha was involved with, it wasn't criminal. Not something that can comeback like a boomerang again if media really tries to dig something up (and not antis proliferate rumours).

Shotaro and Sungchan's opinon was taken into consideration. The transfer was agreed on with them. Yes, Riize gets a lot of problems with scandals, but the degree of it wasn't possible to predict in the past. The two boys fit Riize better than NCT Wish, and they don't need to work from scratch again and build thegroup's popularity slowly. Just look at choreos. Shotaro would be bored. Meanwhile Sungchan is too tall for teens like Ryo or Sakuya. He is pushed as the next SM visual, while Wish' concept is cute boys.

#ask me again #lucas is cas uri cas

[mrsgojosatoru]

The funny thing you are missing is Amber Heard is the abuser, she has repeatedly been violent and instigated fights. You can hear in the audio. There’s plenty of evidence. Even before she was with Depp of her violent streak. She also has some mental health issues that have been brought up. She needs to be taking medication for. It’s actually quite disrespectful for her to claim she’s a victim when she’s the one who’s been abusing and being physically violent with people. It’s all just very sad. She even mocked JD saying no one would believe him if he ever tried to come forward. She is only giving a bad rep and making it harder for those who actually go through these kinds of things. She’s been caught in a lie many many times. It’s very obvious that its premeditated.

And JFK is going to come back any day now and put Trump back in his rightful spot in the presidency.

I'm really sorry school has failed you so much that you fell for an online smear campaign without looking at any of the other evidence. You should work on your media literacy skills.

Amber did what is called reactive violence, this is not uncommon in abuse. Amber did not have the power to abuse her older, heterosexual, wealthy, famous husband. An expert witness just testified the other day about this. How much of the trial have you watched? Or are you just regurgitating an a smear campaign from Adam Waldman in my inbox?

Anyways her partner claimed that report was filled due to homophobia.

Amber was diagnosed with BPD and the defunct histrionic personality by a doctor wined and dined by Depp who talked to her for 12 hours. Other doctors have diagnosed her with PTSD and Battered Wife Syndrome. But I should stress even if Amber does have BPD to use that against her as a sign she is an abuser is gross and ableist.

That audio of her "mocking" D*pp is a clip taken out of context and passed around the internet as part of a smear campaign orchestrated by Adam Waldman. (Who btw has ties to Russians oligarchs who likely spread disinformation about the 2016 election.) The clip cuts off before she goes “Because you’re big, you’re bigger and you’re stronger. And so, when I say that I thought that you could kill me, that doesn’t mean you counter with you also lost your own finger. I’m not trying to attack you here. I’m just trying to point out the fact of why I said call 911. Because you had your hands on me after you threw a phone at my face. And it’s got crazy in the past, and I truly thought I need to stop this madness before I get hurt.” 

You're really going to tell me the pictures, witness testimony, videos of johnny breaking stuff, expert testimony on IPV, the fact that johnny just got caught in a lie about his finger yesterday, the misogynistic text messages, and the fact that a judge ruled in the UK that amber was abused all is just what? A lie?

For that to be true, Amber would have had to been plotting this and faking this since she started dating D*pp. Diary entries, emails, text messages, fake photos, getting people who aren't even her friends anymore to keep lying for her. For what? 7 million dollars? When she was entitled to over 30 million? Like what's the pay off? SO she could have people attacking her every single day, calling her a gold digger and a liar and amber turd, and a psychopath. Like what was the fucking benefit to do all that?

For Johnny to have abused her a man with a history of violence would just have to have used his power to abuse his much younger wife.

Amy Dunne isn't real, Harvey Weinstein is.

Anyways get better soon bestie, and brush up on your media literacy skills. Maybe stop getting all your news from tiktok memes. We've got an election coming up in 2 years and at this rate it'll be so easy for Trump to pull another misinformation campaign on ya'll. I mean that's who's pushing all these anti-amber heard stories on social media anyways.

#i stand with amber heard #seriously get fucking help

[nation-of-bros]

Just wanted to say I hope you get some mental health help. You need to be severely delusional to believe all the fake news and bullshit you are putting out into the world. Karma is going to get you back for all the toxicity and poison you are spilling out all over the internet. People who think from a place of hate like you are bound to get what they deserve. What an idiot to fall for all that Russian propaganda. Absolutely wild. Research shows people that are less intelligent are more likely to fall for conspiracy theories...and you fell for all of them, hook, line and sinker. I really hope you get what you deserve: the same hatred and suffering you are wishing on others as their homeland is invaded, they are bombed in their homes, and it's all a joke to you. I'm a teacher--I use your blog as an example of someone who falls for misinformation and doesn't check their sources. How does it feel, knowing you are an example of being stupid enough to fall for fake news? My students were disgusted people like you exist and so am I.

I remember, you wrote to me many months ago your silly story that you were a teacher representing me as a negative example to your students (October 2022). Seems like the booster has already affected your memory. :D

And in all that time you still consumed my blog instead of just ignoring me? Should I feel flattered that I've drawn you into my orbit? :D

If you tell me the same story again in the future, I will delete your message immediately. In any case, I don't see any insight gained in your nonsense. You're just a drone that would work perfectly in any totalitarian system.

Instead of breeding more drones, you should finally start reading my texts without that firewall in your head to understand their true meaning.

Your morals are flawed

I don't give a damn about your naive karma talk. I am not a Hindu.

And it is also not credible for someone like you, who most likely discriminated against other people, excluded them from public life because of a refused vaccination, and even destroyed their livelihoods by losing their job due to a lack of vaccination subscription, to talk to me about karma! First of all, realize what you have caused with your behavior.

For example, an Italian here once told me the psychological hell he had to go through just because he "didn't believe in science" and refused the vaccination. He was persecuted like a witch by hysterics. In the end, he accepted the shots because of the pressure and has been suffering from myocarditis ever since, just like his boyfriend, just like millions of others around the world. He may now die 10 or 20 years prematurely. Who knows. So how can people like you reconcile this with their conscience?!

I'm honest, I despise people like you, because you are hypocrites, you think you are the good guys, but in reality you are the devil's henchmen with your moral babble, since you have understood absolutely nothing. Your fate will be to endure the shit you defend so much. This is true karma. If one day you did become aware of what you and billions of other people have done, you would most likely lie in a corner crying because the feelings released by the awareness, the truth, overwhelmed you. But I don't trust you to have that much empathy.

Ukraine is just another symbol of your falsehood

If Ukraine were really so "bombed," hundreds of thousands wouldn't come to Germany, apply for social assistance and return to their homeland two weeks later, while the German state regularly transfers the money to their accounts. This is not Russian "propaganda", but a fact that has also been discussed politically in the mainstream here, but which the established parties do not want to change because they are just as coward as you. The truth is, the war there is limited to a few areas. Many Ukrainians, especially in cities like Kiev, still have time to play online games or spread their state propaganda on social media, pretending to be the heroes of humanity.

Meanwhile, there are also Ukrainian men who couldn't buy their way out and are drafted into the war, but don't want to fight for an utterly corrupt state and either live underground or try to escape to the West, which isn't easy because males aged 18 are not allowed to leave Ukraine. Again, I'm wondering how you're going to justify this morally, especially when living comfortably in a country that has long since abolished conscription. When will you finally start to grow out of your good-human illusion and recognize the situation for what it is?

It makes me so upset that you ignore everything that doesn't fit into your smooth world view. There has been a civil war in Ukraine since 2014. Get to grips with the background! Zelenskyy is not a great man. I see no difference if the Ukrainian state, like the Russian state, forces men to go to war. I wonder if you would be willing to die on the Eastern Front for your supposed freedom instead of demonizing people like me who criticize all this hypocrisy and want a peaceful solution and not more weapons shipments.

In addition, Ukraine is not the world; in Africa alone, thousands of children starve to death every day. Or the terrible earthquakes recently in Libya and Morocco, where more people died suddenly than civilians in the entire Ukraine war. Then there is still the Yemen war, for another example, which is a thousand times worse than the little death in Ukraine. Are you interested? NO! Because the mainstream doesn't tell you that, because it doesn't fit into their worldview, because the weapons with which Saudi Arabia is waging this cruel war in Yemen come from the EU and USA. So instead of lecturing me about karma, deal with your own ugly state that you indirectly support, which is constantly causing shit all over the world! Your naivety and indirect approval is ultimately your own true bad karma.

You are part of the fascist system

The mainstream and politics have conditioned you perfectly with 24/7 propaganda in order to transplant exactly the opinion into your mind that is politically desired at the moment: flu viruses as a deadly epidemic, unquestioned glorification of Ukraine, no doubt about the need to save the climate. At least in the EU, these are permanent topics of the day, around which EVERYTHING revolves, as if we had no real problems: When a guest on a talk show has a completely different opinion instead of just handle a few things slightly different than the other talk show guests , he is immediately put down as an enemy by the others. But most of the time only politicians, virologists, climate researchers or never serving self-proclaimed war experts from the university who represent an opinion that conforms to the system are invited. In this way, they all build together an illusion, a matrix that makes you feel that there can only be one defensible moral opinion and all others are just the views of crazy weirdos, conspiracy theorists.

This gleichschaltung, extreme synchronization at all levels of society, is typical of totalitarian systems. But the facade they have put up with an apparent offer of political parties and elections, these fake basic rights that they take away from you when fear prevails, is just a mirage.

When, as an unvaccinated person, I was not allowed into public spaces for a long time, with the exception of supermarkets, while vaccinated citizens enjoyed a completely normal life again, even though it had long been obvious that the vaccinations did not provide any protection at all, I experienced this madness first hand: They lived normally, while I was only mercifully allowed to enter supermarkets so that I wouldn't starve. At least they showed me that much mercy, although quite a few vaccinated people wanted unvaccinated people to stay like dogs at the door here too. In this way, not only were families destroyed forever, but the entire society was irreparably divided. This is not my doing, my karma, this is your fault. I'm just an observer of this madness, snaking my way through the thicket unscathed and taking photos of your antics to immediately present them on my animal channel.

Finally open your eyes and recognize the contradictions! Recognize your own reprehensibility. Repent and ask for forgiveness.

I don't have to do it because I don't violate the free will of others.

#politics #corona #climate #essay #reply

[batboyblog]

Sorry I know this is probably 100x worse for you as a jew but oh my god I find it so unbelievably maddening seeing people uncritically reblog shit on here about how it’s all ‘fake news’ to make the ‘freedom fighters’ look bad and say Jews are controlling the media and just totally ignore the MOUNTAINS of physical videos and photo evidence from Hammas terrorism like.. you can’t say there’s ‘no evidence’ when you refuse to fucking look at the evidence that’s there?? Also talking about how Israel is genociding and committing war crimes when Hammas is doing the SAME THING in their charter they EXPLICITLY say that they want the extermination of every Jew and people are STILL like ‘nooo they didn’t mean that :/ don’t be racist and assume things!’ Like it’s RIGHT THERE. LOOK!! Also talking about how Israel is committing war crimes lmfao.. like 1. Israel is warning them to move. Gave them TWO DAYS to move. That’s more warning then Hammas gave Israel when they sneak attacked them. 2. Talking about committing war crimes, kidnapping people and holding them hostage is also a fucking war crime! But I don’t see anyone holding THAT against Hammas. It feels very much like ‘Rules for thee and none for me’. Sorry for the rant again I know this is probably 1000x harder for you I’m not even Jewish but just seeing the explosion of antisemitism on my dash has been insane. I’ve blocked so many people on here for rebloging some truly horrendous shit about how all Israelis and ‘zionists’ should die. Which we all know they’re just using Israeli and Zionist as stand in words for jew. So sick to my stomach by it all, and I hope you’re in a place where you’re safe and loved.

Sadly in the age of social media, people and the younger they are the worse it is, are falling for misinformation on TikTok, X, on here, etc and traditional media has not covered itself in glory, particularly with the failure around the hospital which will never ever go away

as you mentioned with the whole Jews... I mean "Zionists" control the world/media conspiracy its a catch-22 if the media "isn't covering" something its because they're controlled by the Jews and that TikTok video thats really of Syrians from 10 years ago, is the real truth of whats going on! and if the media reports new facts as they come out (again the Hospital bombing thing) its because they bowed to the Zionist cover up, not that say Hamas are big liars...

it is hard with so much disinformation and people who clearly don't want to know whats going on and who want to turn the emotive language up to 100 so you spend all your energy and time playing wack a mole about it, idk what to do about it short term, other than to say if they're not willing to take it seriously enough to know what they're talking about don't waste your energy on it.

[andyacolyte]

Recap

Recap.

There has been so much going on and so much misinformation and lies going around.

I think it is time to recap with some verifiable facts.

I have known London Andrews and talked to her online for over 8 years.

The London Andrews Project was set up in 2019 with her permission, help and support. To help, support and promote her work online across social media platforms she no longer had time to deal with. Go back over the my past posts, there is a consistency in them, supporting and promoting her work etc.

Everything that was ever shared by me, until July of 2023, was shared with London’s direct permission.

Many times there were things she asked me *not* to share and I did as she wished.

In 2021, privately, she did something inexplicable !

She pretended to be another woman in an open, swinging relationship with London and her husband. She provided evidence for this. Photographic evidence for this.

I fell, hook, line and sinker, for this wonderfully beguiling sexual fantasy world….who wouldn’t?

This fake account of a fake relationship sucked me right in. And yes, *she* (the fake account) offered to bring London over to Britain on holiday : wouldn’t you have said ,“YES !”, to this ?

Too good to believe, yes. But, wouldn’t you want to believe it ?

But the evidence that she sent to me was also one the reasons why we worked that this couple in a relationship with London and her husband was really London herself.

The account, the couple, the story was fake : And London Andrews was behind !

She had been playing a nasty, manipulative and hurtful game with us.

Obviously we fell out over this, because we were hurt by this. And I say *we*, because my wife was involved and effected by this.

This came to an end at the start of 2022. Look back at my posts ?

Did it make a difference to what I posted or how I posted it ? Did it change how I behaved, no.

But London would not leave it alone. She attacked me, accused me (without evidence) and lied about me. She and her friends started a trolling campaign.

Again, other than prove her accusations wrong, I left her alone. I continued to support and promote her, and publicly ignoring these private events. I just carried on as usual.

Later and unrelated to this, from October 2022 up to July of 2023, London was creating very little new work and posting less and less of any of her work. London’s modelling career was fading away.

Now, if she wishes to cease modelling and retire, that’s up to her, just be honest about it.

She had not updated her Patreon or OnlyFans sites for months.

So, in July I asked her in private was she retiring ?

I must have hit a raw nerve or a guilty conscience or both.

She publicly attacked me, misrepresented, abused and lied about me.

Suddenly I became a ‘stalker’.

She also actively encouraged another trolling campaign.

London made all kinds of accusations.

This time I reacted. I explained why I believed she was being so abusive and pointing out the inconsistencies in what she was saying.

I posted evidence, first listing how little work London had created since October 2022 (this was in July of 2023). I was attacked even more. Next I posted evidence to explain London’s massive over reaction. Evidence of what London had been up to back in 2021, with the manipulation and deception of the ‘swingers’ account. Along with proof that London had been behind the whole painful and manipulative thing.

And this was confirmed by others during the online arguments following my posts!!!

Suddenly I went from being a ‘stalker’ to being a ‘threat’.

Following this London’s attacks went into overdrive with accusation, lies and threats – basically blackmail – descending into Ad Hominem. Throughout this, she lied and I showed that had she lied and contradicted herself : with the evidence that she has lied etc. This has not made me popular.

Following this London has threatened never to post again if I do not remove my London Andrews Project FaceBook site.

This (obviously) incensed a lot of people who know nothing about what has happened.

Remember, I am now being blamed for London ending her modelling career.

She had hardly posted any modelling work since October 2022. Her work and career were ‘withering on the vine’.

I have been consistent throughout this, unlike others.

I have provided evidence throughout this, unlike others.

I am removing the London Andrews Project from Facebook, this is technically harder than you think.

I have done what I said I would do throughout this. I have kept my word throughout this. Others have not.

Andy A

#LondonAndrews #londonandrews #beauty #sexy #beautiful

#londonandrews #londonandrewsmodel #beauty #sexy #model #curvymodel

[abyssal-system]

It's late and we can't sleep so I thought I might as well use this blog for its actual intended purpose for once (a diary), so this post might be a little all over the place. im sort of stream-of-consciousness'ing this.

block the tag "#personal" if you dont want to see (potentially sad) personal ramblings / posts from us. be safe, curate your dash, i understand.

things have been very quiet system-wise lately. i think we have a new(?) alter but I'm not sure How new or why they split. I'm not even really sure if its not my imagination tricking me into mistaking an already established headmate as a new split...

i've been thinking about them for a little bit. They seem to go by Hadal (though thats also just a catch-all name for the system when we dont know whos fronting) and i have a sneaking suspicion that they've posted on this blog before.

I havent been dissociating as much lately which is good but ive also not been switching at all which is... not a bad thing really, i guess, but it certainly doesnt help ease my fears of Being A Faker.

i know that systems have quiet periods, and i know that me being frontstuck and also unwilling to change that (fear of loss of control is a pain) so thats probably the reason why, but its still unnerving being the only one around.

ive also been thinking about the logistics of getting a diagnosis... I have a lot of fears about the medical system and abuse within it, particularly being stuck in a mental health facility against my will with no way out. its prevented me from coming out as a system to my parents (who... I feel like theyd understand. not Understand, but im not in any danger if they know. i just worry itll change our relationship in some way, like they wont think im Me anymore) and its prevented me from seeking treatment and understanding of my disorder.

the online system community is also rife with toxicity and misinformation and i do not whatsoever feel safe interacting with people who seem to snap at others without warning, so I dont have many system friends out of fear of reliving past friend group drama

I imagine that the feeling of total isolation I feel is common among other systems, but it doesn't really help to know that. my near-debilitating anxiety controls every part of my life and prevents me from seeking help when i otherwise would have.

it also doesnt really help that the one time i tried to find a dissociation specialist, the only one i could find that said they were queer friendly was 4 hours away in another state.

... i might look again. I might just tell my parents so they can help me look for a therapist.

I worry about that though. I worry that since my plurality doesnt really impact my life all that much (i dont switch very often, I dont have amnesia barriers, and i dont lose control of my body fully when i switch out) that either means Im Faking or Its Not Bad Enough To Worry My Parents Over. Its Not Bad Enough To Drive Across The State To See A Therapist For It when i have a perfectly decent one less than 30 minutes away

... i dont know. it feels like i have all the pieces to get the ball rolling on ... Something? but im not really sure if its worth it. we barely have enough money to keep the pantry full for a week, let alone to switch therapists and drive for hours just so i can Maybe get coping mechanisms or something.

.... I dont really know how to end this. i hope this wasnt too negative for this blog, i know i try to focus on positivity and lighthearted subjects.

please be kind in the notes. there is a (very scared) person behind the screen and I am trying to be better about opening up about my worries. kind advice is always welcome though! if it doesnt help me it could potentially help somebody else.

#this is very personal #apologies #personal #diary #long post #hadal.txt

[emergingmediaculture]

Graphic created by Kiersten W. on Canva

Readings: Understanding Digital Literacies: A Practical Introduction by Rodney H. Jones and Christoph A. Hafner

"Does Media Literacy Help Identification of Fake News? Information Literacy Helps, but Other Literacies Don’t" by Jones-Jang et al

"Determinants of Internet skills, uses and outcomes. A systematic review of the second- and third-level digital divide" by Scheerder et al

"A digital media literacy intervention increases discernment between mainstream and false news in the United States and India" by Guess et al

Media literacy has become more important than ever, especially in the past few years with the rise and spread of misinformation far beyond what I believe we have ever seen. In the past few years, we have seen facts take the backburner while misinformation, specifically surrounding things like the COVID-19 pandemic, spread like wildfire. In previous readings as well as recent ones, there seems to be the agreement that lies spread faster and further than the truth. I think that is something we can not only agree on but have seen ourselves. The information overload that is mentioned in the book Understanding Digital Literacies: A Practical Introduction by Rodney H. Jones and Christoph A. Hafner only make this harder when we have so much information to take in and understand. This is why the stress on media literacy is essential.

I would like to believe that I have a good sense of media literacy at the moment, but I also realize a lot of that comes from my chosen career field. It comes from my schooling in Mass Communications, it comes from my interest and experience in journalism, and it comes from experience with different forms of media. I have had the tools and opportunity to advance my knowledge in media, which has been a major contribution to how I understand and take in information that surrounds me on the web. I know, however, that is not the case for everyone.

I think about when I was in high school and my first few years of university where my concept of media literacy was seeing something online and if it looked and sounded convincing enough, I may share it. As a kid and young adult, I did not see anything wrong with that, but I now realize the danger that can cause. At that age, I luckily was not sharing anything as serious as the misinformation going around now. Nowadays, though, I hardly find myself sharing anything informational that I see online without a quick Google search to go through multiple news articles and verify that what I have seen is not only correct but also that I have the full story before I share it.

I feel a certain level of responsibility as someone with that added knowledge and first-hand experience in media, to make sure the things I share are backed by facts.

This brings me to my point, is media literacy something that should be taught in middle and high school? The web, specifically, has become a place where individuals across the world can connect with one another and where online cultures and languages have been formed. With technology advancing to places we could have never imagined where most of our lives take place on the web, media literacy is becoming more of a need than just an option. It is too dangerous of a thing to leave in the hands of individuals to learn themselves because there are just too many ways in which this could be used wrongly.

[susanatorres]

Is there a war on science? what is the cure?

In my personal, unprofessional opinion, there is not a war on science. However, there definitely is a cold-war on science if you understand my analogy. I feel as though the misinformation spread about science is oversaturated in the media. When a “study” appears that speaks on, for example, that vaccines lead to autism, that makes a good headline that newspapers can profit off of. All of this fake news is undoubtedly dangerous socially and politically. Not only does this affect the public's physical health, it also affects the integrity of politics. Obviously working class people are undertaken by fake news, but politicians who have a much larger effect on their communities are also undertaken by fake news. This is when it becomes dangerous. I would like to explain the effects of the cold-war on science and what the potential cure might be. 

Firstly, I mainly believe this is an American issue, as is so many political issues in the world (maybe this is because US politics is so widely covered that it overshadows other countries politics, but i also do believe the democracy in the US is crumbling before our eyes) I also believe this is mainly due to the trust in media/word of mouth versus the trust in hard science. The United States has the perfect concoction of political instability and social unrest for such outlandish fake news to be spread. The reason I believe this is a cold war is because there appears to be no “front" besides the comments of tiktok videos or reddit as an example. but , to put it simply, there is some form of a “war on science”. Maybe the truth of what science has to offer is just too complex and scary for some people to understand, after all, what we do not know will always scare us.

Secondly, what is the cure? Professionals (Mr. Bertand) and I believe that the key to erasing this fake news lies in the education of people in the United States. For example, a senator (whose name I forget) recently created a bill that would ban the teaching of critical race theory in highschools in Mississippi. By erasing an entire history/culture from the United States proves that right wing politicians have absolutely no care for human life, they simply care about the money going into their wallets and what they can do to keep this money flowing. So yes, I am saying that the right wing conspiracies around the vaccine and climate change are single handedly destroying politics and democracy in the United States (among other factors). As to how we can fight this war, providing much needed education to communities who are begging for the chance to learn is of uttermost importance for the prosperity of politics and the future of the US. As to how this can be done, simply remove funding from unnecessary vessels and move them towards funding education in poor neighborhoods that need it more than ever.

Finally, while democracy in the US may be slipping through our fingers, that does not mean it cannot be saved. That is why it is so important that people continue voting, petitioning, striking, and lobbying for change. Maybe one day this cold war on science will be over, but not without a tremendous amount of effort and education.

[colby-k]

Being Diagnosed With Bipolar Depression

I have recently been writing about my anxiety in my posts. It has plagued my life for years in many different ways. Now I want to switch gears and tell you more about my depression, specifically my bipolar depression.

I have been struggling with depression for a long time. I first started noticing it a few years after my anxiety started to blossom. It was before middle school. I had this feeling and, at the time, I didn't know what to call it. I was feeling sad in a way, but also not interested in life. At recess, I didn't want anyone to talk to me. I would often sit alone on the swings or grass. It seemed like the only thing to do.

I learned to try to ignore it. I didn't tell anyone because I didn't have anyone to tell, and I thought that everyone would think I'm faking it. I worried that they would see me as someone who wants attention. Shortly after this realization, I was able to find a word to match how I feel: worthless. Yet, I was also confused because it felt like nobody wanted to be around me, but I pushed them away.

The longer I kept this up, the more I was suspicious of myself. I was afraid that I was possibly falling into an asymmetrical rhythm with my social skills and experiences. I didn't want to fall into the pattern of being socially awkward and not being able to attain and retain friends. So, I decided to try to make more friends and socialize more.

This became good for my mental health. I was less depressed after a while of getting to know my new friends. But, then, the bullying started. This is when I remember my first interactions with bipolar disorder. I didn't notice it at the time, but the bullying triggered my mood inconsistencies. I went from being content and at ease one moment, to depressed and feeling like garbage the next.

I wasn't educated much on mental health, and what I did know was stereotypical and mostly false. I grew up being fed misinformation and being taught that having a mental illness makes you useless.

I was afraid to talk about it. I didn't know who I could talk to. My father didn't understand mental illness or even feelings. He basically thought it was a joke. It was the same for the rest of that family as well. However, my mother's side was more understanding of my problems. I still felt like I couldn't tell her or anyone else in the family. My friends were out of the question because I couldn't trust them completely. It was confusing.

After I started therapy and worked on identifying my feelings, I started to understand what was causing my emotions to become so intense. Although my self-perceptions began to evolve, I still didn't understand how to untangle my ups and downs. I wanted to discuss this with my therapist, but I couldn't put it into words. I wanted to get it off my chest, but I couldn't.

I continued to live with it for some time. As I got older and went through high school, it slowly became more intense and problematic. In ninth grade, I specifically remember being at my lowest of lows.

At 15 years old, girls can be mean. There was a group of girls who had spread many rumors about me, one being that I was pregnant. They said I had sex with my stepbrother and got pregnant. However, what they wouldn't understand is it was actually sexual abuse. But, we won't talk about that.

This is just one example of how much my life was ruined. It wasn't the sole cause, but it made me go into a deep depression. I felt invalidated, worthless, and numb. It was awful to the point of self-harm, but we won't talk about that either.

It felt like I was surrounded by black opiates, all of them, just for me. To feel like nothing was almost an addiction. Keeping myself growing and moving forward felt impossible. It was as if all I could do was dissociate and use pain as a grounding tool.

This strong episode lasted for almost a year. But there were a few times when I felt content and happier than I'd been in months. I wasn't the happiest, but I felt lighter. This didn't last long, though.

This was the time that I started to hear voices, too. At first, I thought that it was just that little voice inside my head that everyone has. But, the thoughts soon became more violent. I kept this a secret from everyone because I didn't want them to think that I was a psychopath. They slowly became worse and worse until they just kept repeating themselves. Sometimes, it has been phrases or shorter sentences like "Just do it, you know you want to" in regards to self-harm.

Once I started college, the voices were primarily male and rusty-sounding. Before I started therapy at college (about halfway through my second semester), a new, female voice joined in and was even viler.

Even though it took a while to get my mental health controlled, after I did, life became somewhat easier for me. I was very grateful. I still had my highs and lows, and most of the time they were dramatic changes. The voices were just as mean and manipulative. As I progressed through the rest of high school, I learned to live with these emotions. Unfortunately, letting them just exist wasn't healthy. Just coping isn't healthy. You have to actively heal.

I didn't learn this until I was in college, though. I was taking a general psychology class, and we were learning about basic mental disorders. Bipolar depression was touched on, and it caught my attention. It seemed like it was describing how I was feeling. I thought there is no way I could have bipolar depression. But, I'm not a psychologist, so I cannot diagnose myself. Later in the semester, I thought that it was time to see a psychiatrist.

I sat down at my desk one day to research psychiatrists that I could contact. Through a Google search, I came upon an eye-catching psychiatric clinic. I read its introduction on Google, read some reviews, and decided to call them. After I made my appointment, all I had to do was wait.

I was nervous on the day of my appointment. I was truly hoping everything would turn out okay, and I wasn't as crazy as I thought I was.

As I connected with my psychiatrist over video chat, I was surprised to find myself somewhat physically relaxed. Looking back, I think it was because of finally meeting with one. She introduced herself as the psychiatrist's nurse practitioner. I was interested in this. I wondered what type of case it took to see the psychiatrist. But, I tried to push that aside so I could focus on the meeting.

Once we got started, the first thing she asked was why I was there. From there, we discussed my background and how I feel about it now. She asked me how my traumas affect me and if I feel like I dramatically go from a high to a low often. The more questions she asked, the more I realized that I actually might be crazy.

An hour after the start, I finished answering questions. She said, "Okay, well here's what I think based on what you've told me here today." She then proceeded to tell me that I have an anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, and bipolar depression with psychotic features. I wasn't ready for the last one.

I never considered myself to be anywhere near bipolar, but I've learned that that was because I was suppressing it. My nurse practitioner then prescribed me a few different medications to try. She told me to contact her after a week of taking them to touch base on how they were working for me.

They ended up working wonderfully. I decided to stay on the dosage I was originally given, and I've been doing so much better these last two and a half years since the diagnosis.

However, it was still difficult to take in this diagnosis. It wasn't because of the stereotypes of being bipolar. It wasn't because I had to take more medication or anything like that. I thought that I wasn't going to be diagnosed with a disorder more than just anxiety and depression. I thought they were my peak, even though I was still hearing voices.

Today, my mental health is controlled by medication from my psychiatrist and by going to therapy. I have a rough past, and there's more that I haven't shared. But, being diagnosed with mental disorders, especially bipolar depression, gives me a guide to continue the process of healing. It provides me a starting point for learning how to be proactive.

Having a mix of mental disorders can exhaust me, especially when I fall into an episode that I can't control. But, with the help of medication, patience, and therapy, I have become okay with my mental imbalances and will wear them with pride.

#blog post #lifestyle blog #bipolor #mental health #mental #mental illness #mental disorder #mentally fucked #mentally unstable #depressing life #deppresion #kinda depressing #depressing shit #diagnosis #medicine #therapy #actually psychotic #psychiatry #psychology

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Special Advantages From Checking Out Newspapers In The Digital Age

The advantages of reading newspapers might not be apparent, especially since the majority of people view them as to be a dated form of media. In this modern world where disruptive technology consumes so much of our time and energy , going back to a print newspaper might just be what some people need to break away from the destructive and addictive nature of digital technology. Some of the advantages that newspapers offer might surprise you. So what are the benefits to reading newspapers? Here are some unique benefits of reading newspapers today in the digital age: Advantages to Reading Newspapers It makes you stand out as an informed and well-informed citizen who keeps informed about current affairs and current events happening around the world. Click here: https://neatkariga.nra.lv/komentari/bens-latkovskis/369647-janis-bordans-uz-velesanam-pielaiko-jaunus-kreklus-vina-intuicija-saka-mode-nak-bruna-krasa for furthermore information. Gives you time to think about your day-to-day life. It also provides concepts, ideas, and insights that can help you make decisions. Provides you with an entertaining and thought-provoking break free from distractions, intrusive and addictive technology. This helps you to analyze and gain a a broader perspective to the globe and how it operates. Keeps you updated on new developments that could become potential business opportunities. One of the main reasons that for business executives to read newspapers is to know who's doing what to take a proactive approach to making choices and discovering ways to earn money. Helps you build and expand your knowledge of subjects which matter to you. Allows you to share your thoughts and ideas by writing letters to editors. It makes it simple to archive important articles by simply cutting them out and saving them to specific folders. Helps you recall important information like names of people, places , and other things. Provides information about exciting events, products as well as other reliable sources of information as well as entertainment, education, and education. Beware of flashy ads that are displayed when you read news online. Do not waste time looking around the web for news and access all the most important stories edited by experienced editors. Connects us to the people around us. It helps you relax in ways that digital devices can't. It's better for your eyesight and vision when compared to reading on a small LCD. Negatives from Digital News Media With the convenience of accessibility and instant updates, come the negative side effects from Digital News Media. If you are a concerned viewer one must be able to discern out the pros and cons of digital news media of this age such as those. Created Content/Hoax A sudden burst of fake news reaches more of the world's population through online platforms like Facebook, Twitter, and WhatsApp. Disinformation and misinformation concerns is high despite efforts of top journalism websites to improve public trust. In Brazil 85 percent of Brazilians agree with a statement that they are concerned about the authenticity of and fake online. The same concern is prevalent for the UK (70 percent) and in the US (67 percent) followed by Germany (38 percent) as well as the Netherlands (31%). Unfortunately, there are fewer protections to stop the propagation of fake news via social media platforms such as WhatsApp. Negative Content Accessing the internet is comfortable for all. It's easy for unscrupulous individuals to spread negative information about an individual or group. The spreading of false rumors have led to a number of violent crimes in nations like India. Several countries have set up "tip lines" that appeal users to alert authorities to harmful or illegal content. The dissemination of negative or hateful information is often facilitated by groups that are set up with the intention of discussing sensitive issues. Paid For Registration for Daily Updates Many popular news media allow access to readers only after a paid subscription. Paid subscriptions for daily news is practiced majorly to contribute to revenue. While it's an essential part of news outlets these days there are many readers who don't agree in paying for a subscription given that there are plenty alternatives news websites to access the latest news. What is the future for Digital News Media? It's hard to predict what's to come since the amount of information providers increases each day. Technology is enabling people to have better career opportunities in Freelance journalism and social media, concerns concerning the misuse of information rise parallel. As for fabricated reports, it's recommended to cross-check the source to dig the truth.

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What's happening in america right now gives me so much hope, im very happy people just spontaneously fight and become more alert and there's huge spread of info in order to help protesters. However, it's sad and true that it's always about the usa. It's this perception that america somehow always matters more. Why should america be the most important country in the wolrd... There's been happening literally so much all around the globe, revolts, social crisis, fascist/alt right leaders' brutal oppression, all these years, and the world was like, ugh we sorry, let's show some seconds on tv and that's it. Little attention was given to Chile 6 months ago. Orban literally established a dictatorship in Hungary and I only found out on tumblr (LOL). Duterte in Philippines is planning to arrest without warrants anyone who is simply suspected to disagree with his fascist government.... Like...

The whole world should be rioting rn but...everyone is just rushing to post black squares...

#don't just sit back and watch everything from your tv #there's also so much misinformation and fake news going around #STAY INFORMED AND ACTIVE #politics #george floyd #blm #black lives matter #black lives movement #acab #anti-fascism #usa #europe #asia #africa #australia #south america