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dramaloverrants · 1 year
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Fic Writer Interview
tagged by @killerandhealerqueen
name/nicknames:
Kitty, Lulu, Cat
fandoms:
恨君不似江楼月 | Killer and Healer
成化十四年 | The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty
民国奇探 | My Roommate is a Detective
二哈和他的白猫师尊 | 2ha | Dumb Husky and His White Cat Shizun
others that I’ve forgotten
two shots?:
Nope, it’s either a oneshot or multiple chapters. It’s either i can’t shut up, or I don’t have much to say after saying what I need to.
most popular multi-chapter fic:
“Do You Know?” A MRIAD fic. I only have 5 fics on AO3 so there’s not much competition. It’s the only chaptered fic, so far, that has multiple chapters up.
actual worst part of writing:
Revision. Lack of motivation. Losing motivation. Editing. Distraction. Little to no comments which leads to doubt. Then I go and read other ppl’s fics instead of continuing. Writing’s block too.
how you choose your titles:
Titles usually come to me easily because they are more than not, the idea of the fic in a few words, or in one word. If not, I use a temporary title until I find one that fits, or it ends up being the one that fits.
do you outline?:
Not really. I have an idea how the fic is going to go, like the main ideas, but I work out the details as I go.
ideas you probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice?:
I have a bunch of WIPs that would most likely stay as WIPs. Sorry, wips.
callouts @ me:
It’s nice to have ideas, but maybe write them down and a summary so you can go back to them, if you do go back to them? Also, too many ideas. Too little ideas. Not motivated enough. Not enough focus. Focus!!! FOCUS!!! They’re all gonna be forever WIPs at this point. And finish what you started, damn it!
best writing traits:
Details? Dialogue? I’ve been told that I’m good with details and that my writing often feels like watching a show. I’m also good at writing things when it comes to the senses.
spicy tangential opinion:
I don’t know if this counts, but in my master’s program, the professors would tell us “Do not poison the well.“ when some of us started to say how bad we think our writing is. While I do agree with this, I think it’s missing a part. It’s like how people say “blood is thicker than water” instead of saying the entire thing: “Blood of the convent is thicker than the blood of the womb.” I believe that poisoning the well is necessary. For some people, it’s a process that have to go through, like me.
The important thing is to find the antidote. It’s easy to poison the well and taint the water with negativity, but it’s harder to find the cure and purify it again.
So go, go and poison the well. Go and pick apart your writing and find out the bad parts. Be honest with yourself and pick out the parts that aren’t good. Once you’ve picked out all the bad parts, it’s time to find a way to fix it. Through editing and revisions, you will inevitably find the cure for the poison and make your writing better than before. Anyone can write, anyone can poison the well, but only a writer can revise and edit to improve it, only a writer can find the cure to fix the bad parts and turn the poisoned water into something everyone can enjoy. However! Be kind to yourself. Be kind to your work. Don’t poison it too much to the point that you cannot fix it, or you lose confident in fixing it. It’s best to poison it with one poison, find the cure and fix it, then go back and poison another part of it. If you put too much poison in it all at once, you might end up ruining it to the point of no return.
And remember, this works for me. This may work for some people and may not work for others. You might be in the former group. Or you might be in the latter group. If you don’t want to be the one to point out the issues, find someone that can help you point them out. Because even though we can see issues with our work, we are bias. We look at our own works with biased views. We are either for it or against it, either pick it apart because it’s ‘garbage’ or don’t because it’s ‘precious’. All stories, even best sellers, go through multiple revisions.
We all need to be objective to our writing if we want to improve. Having a 2nd or even 3rd person help is very beneficial to your work and to you as a writer. Another thing I want to mention is that, you should save every revision as a new copy. Label them as version 1, version 2, and so on. This way, you’ll see how you changed and fixed them. You’ll see your progress, the improvement, and how much you’ve changed and fixed. If you overwrite the previous version, you will not see that and it’ll be discouraging because it’ll feel like you didn’t do anything to improve it. Having multiple versions of your revision pieces will show you that yes, you did do something and what that ‘something’ is.
Then again, this works for me. It might not work for you. So do what works for you, not what works for other people.
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ynisguy · 2 months
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✨Rules✨
- This is a y/n request blog mostly for non-she/her pronouns. I WILL make the exception for lesbian ships using a she/her y/n character but this blog was originally made to help with the gap in other pronouns I see a lot of in this genre.
-YES you CAN request neopronouns. This was mostly made cause I’m a dude who’s kinda frustrated with how much self insert media (this goes beyond fics to things like asmr n shit) primarily cater to she/her pronouns BUT I am also very happy to extend this to anyone of any pronouns who feel the same way (this, again, includes any she/hers who would like more lesbian content as well)
-I can write many things and many characters! I will NOT do something I don’t know anything about, however. I don’t feel comfortable doing the whole “reading the wiki just enough to do a request” thing ik a lot of ppl do so like yk the worst I can say is no lol
Here is the current Fandom List!
-You can be specific with y/ns personality but it’s not required. If you aren’t specific I’m just gonna write what I want lol. But you ARE REQUIRED to give me a specific prompt it’s doesn’t have to be mega detailed just give me something to go off of
-I can do either an actual fic (which probably won’t be mega long just something short n sweet for each prompt) OR a headcanon list thing. Just specify what you want! If you don’t I’ll default to whichever I think fits
-DO NOT send me asks of the same thing over and over again! If I don’t do ur fic there could be LITERALLY any reasons for it. Maybe I don’t know the fandom (tho I’ll try to notate that in an ask response), or maybe I just don’t wanna do it, or even I just haven’t gotten to it yet! If you spam me I will block you. I do have a life and my own writing outside of this this is just for fun and when I need to throw myself into something short and simple :]
-All fics will be posted on AO3, if you want it gift tagged to your AO3 account please provide me with the account name so I may do so otherwise I will default to your tumblr if you’re off anon o7
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t4t-lumpygrab · 3 years
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seeing new lemongrab fanfic that wasn’t written by me for once in the advtime tag: :D
Checking the author because we can’t have nice things and seeing it was written by known sourbear (Finn lemongrab adultxminor ship) shipper Cr@fty demonite: :( 
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Writing An Otome Isekai Thingy
Anyway, as the title states, I'm writing an otome isekai thingy! I didn't know where else to post this (besides r/otomeisakai), so here I am. I'm writing one for 3 reasons.
A- I’m very bored. :(
B- My brother rec me one of these things a few months ago; I've descended into the rabbit hole ever since.
C- Writer's block! I wanna write for my fanfics, but my brain said no. Maybe if I write OG content it can get my creative juices going and I can finally go back to working on updates.
Had a couple of ideas for a story and had my brother pick one by random.
The 'guy gets reincarnated as the yandere capture target' idea got picked.
My general idea is that a guy who’s an Otaku and reads/watches romance series as a guilty pleasure gets reincarnated into an otome. He actually played the otome he’s in bc his younger sister basically nagged him to bc she wanted someone to talk to about it.
He realizes though that he woke up as the baby version of Shamus Hendell, the yandere capture target of Yellow Rose of Amarea.
Yanderes don’t typically become yanderes through a loving family and a good life, so of course this character had a tragic anime backstory and goes through maybe hardships in his life before ending up in the academy where the game starts.
The MC realizes this and is freaking out, bc he doesn’t want to deal with the series of horrible events that the OG character went through.
I like series where the Protag kisses up others to survive bc even if they’re appealing to others, typically they are the ones who have others wrapped around their fingers. (And for some reason that’s assuming to me.)
So he kinda ends up doing that. He seeks out the other capture targets, and the heroine and villainess. Mostly to get them on his side. His thought process is, ‘if I can’t really protect myself, why not get ppl in higher places to do it for me?’
And it does work as he gets very chummy with the 2nd prince who’s the one that gets him out of the bad situation first. And bc he has the attention of the second prince, he’s able to meet some of them other characters.
There’s a few characters he won't meet until the academy arc, but most of the important characters he’ll meet around here.
For instance, there’s the commoner character who got into the school through scholarships or bc he has high/rare magic skills or whatever. He’s also one of the capture targets. The MC doesn’t want to find him bc he wants his guy on his side, but bc he knows this guy is actually batshit crazy. He wants to find him earlier to stop him from blah blah that the guy does in all his endings. But he cannot find him until then bc this dude is a commoner and the MC is still technically a part of high society. So it was basically impossible to find him.
This is going to be a big anxiety of the MC once he’s in a more comfortable position. Knowing that this guy in the future will try to do smth very drastic and dangerous, is still out there.
The MC will try to appeal to important characters by acting weak and soft, like, a crybaby a guess? He wants to seem like a little rabbit to others. And to his utter surprise, it fucking works. (He’s taking advantage of his softboi looks, as the character was designed to look feminine and non-threatening so fans during the hype wouldn’t be able to tell the character was going to be a yandere. And therefore making the fact like, a plot twist in the game as Shamus comes off as a quite n’ shy guy at first.)
He forms a bromance with the 2nd prince. After some stuff happens he befriends the villainess who ends up crushing on him. The villainess big bro who’s a siscon is chill w/ him since his sister likes him. But is very much in the mindset that if the MC hurts his sis in any way, he’s never gonna see the light of day. The heroine falls for him very quickly which is actually off-putting for him. (The joke is that she’s airheaded & kinda dumb. She just has a very cheerful personality by default. The reasoning is that that’s how marketing portrayed her and since she’s supposed to be a blank slate that’s just what her personality turned into.) The heroine 100% has her bangs covering her eyes.
The MC leaves a powerful impression on the short cute boy (who’s actually a meanie) and later in the academy arc has this weird anime admiration for him. You know what I’m talking about. The commoner, while harboring a hatred for the aristocrats and nobles, respects the MC to an extent later turning into a crush. (That of which will absolutely give the MC whiplash.)
Two characters who are mobs in the game become the MC’s normal friends when he feels like the personality of the main characters are too much. Maybe he has more mob friends idk yet, but two of the ones he adored as characters the most both end up having crushes on him. One girl, one boy.
5 ppl will like-like him. Perfectly balanced as all things should be.
He definitely takes advantage of this lmao. (In like, a protection squad way, not harem.)
Maybe I’ll even have two of the girls lose interest bc they realize they like each other,,,, Have a lilly aside romance,,,, You know bc,,,gurls pretty,,,,
My need for sapphic content aside, ultimately my goal is to have fun while writing this and confuse the heck hacky out of my readers on who the true love interest will be. >:)
I guess I’ll mostly be writing this with a wattpad audience in mind??? (But it’s mostly just for fun so who knows.)
Since AO3 is more oriented to fanfics, my Quotev is the physical manifestation of a dead goldfish in a bowl, and I don’t think this is smth the ppl on FictionPress would like to read about… So yeah, my Wattpad audience it is. I have no choice.
I’m still on the 1st ch as I keep revising my outline. I at least want a solid outline of the first arc before I post anything. Imma try and attempt constant updates but to do so I need to know wtf I’m doing. So all this jazz is subject to change.
And just to let you know how the tone of the story will be (for most of it, the 1st arc is definitely going to be more serious), the title for chapter 1 is ‘Sorry Truck-kun, You’ve Been Replaced’ since he died by choking on an apple instead of being hit by a truck.
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phaltu · 2 years
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zan, i wanted to ask you something - and i hope you don't mind the lengthy ask, but i'm gonna split this into two (or three). i wanted to ask you this because you are one of my favorite writers in danmei, and i wanted to get your two cents on this. so. if there's one thing that i've noticed in danmei fandom, it's that there seems to be two groups of ppl - i'll call them A & B. A are those who don't necessarily create, who are more there to rlly digest and meta the texts. if they do create 1/
- then they're most likely to be canon compliant, e.g. following mxtx's rules of no switching, no separating. B is what i would call the transformative one, who aren't rlly canon compliant and who break those "rules", so they switch up dynamics or separate the main cp. personally i'm not inclined to switch or separate, but even so, if it's not done because bottoming is seen as "weak", which is another thing altogether, then i think it's all good? and my ask is - 2/
- i've seen ppl in group A diss ppl in group B, calling them stupid for shipping character a of main cp with side character b (regardless of whether or not they want that ship to be canon, which is not usually the case), and even outright saying that ao3 sucks (which is okay, warranted, giving that ao3 lacks in the blocking/reporting feature), but generally i'm just a little.. surprised because i come from fandoms where practices in group B were the norm, ppl would go ham with canon 3/
- and altho both groups are not mutually exclusive, you can have someone who is very canon compliant in their own fics but reads more transformative works, i just. i guess i'm confused (and paranoid) because i don't know what should be, or is the right "approach" re: fandom. on the one hand, i like canon compliant, and do write canon compliant, but on the other, i would also like the wiggle room to create freely. i don't want to be cancelled by group A for having OOC characterization 4/
or get called out for "writing OCs with the characters' faces just pasted onto them". and i know, i get the irony, why am i, a fully grown-adult (ha!) so concerned abt what other ppl on the internet think abt me and my whims? a few years back i was worried i wasn't wild enough with my fics, because i was very canon-compliant, and a few years later i'm worried i'm not canon enough. just - may i ask what is your approach to fandom, in general and in danmei? i know i said only 2-3 asks but ;_; end/
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Honestly I think it's all about who you follow! I follow a wide variety of folks and funnily enough, people I mutual'd from one danmei are rigid with canon and people I mutualed from others are WAY more open to being like group B. Both have their pros and cons-- the former, I have to end up seeing ships and concepts and pairings I loathe untagged, and with the latter, I can't run blockchain on their insane friends that rant like they and the author because then I'll accidentally block people I actually like talking with.
anyways my approach in fandom has really...always been to just do my own thing. compared to how I was when I participated in Voltron, I don't really get involved in discussions about characterizations and meta and critical analysis or what not. First, because I like to put that energy towards writing personally, and while others get joy out of it, I don't particularly personally, and second, I pretty much have only 2, 3 friends I talk about the danmei I consume with when it comes to actual headcanons because we're on the same page when it comes to how we interpret texts, so it's fun.
I love making things for fandom and I like consuming things and I love fandom community that way. I love the what-ifs and the horny ideas and what not. But critical analysis and head canons and meta in general is just not my shtick. anything i have to say about the character, i say it through fic which brings me to my last part in this rambling answer which is that as long as the fic feels right to me, it's going to go up.
I've written some OOC stuff myself but as long as you have the confidence in what you're writing, people are going to be really forgiving. Sometimes when I doubt myself, I think about all the people tweeting wildly incorrect meta with their whole chest talking about how you need reading comprehension if you don't see it their way, and channel the same inner confidence, as misguided as theirs may be.
if someone was to rip me for my characterizations I'd feel hurt for sure but I don't pre-emptively think about it when I'm posting something. If I do, it's kind of a "well if it sucks it sucks I guess" which is part in due to me just getting slapped so much irl that fandom is low on the list of things to spend time having a crisis about
also if you're following anyone that says ao3 sucks just unfollow them. mute them. get rid of them. if they're mutuals mute them. so many mutuals have to cycle through the mute bin for my own sanity and in some cases, our friendship
ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSS long rant over just post that fic!! do it!!!
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avenger-hawk · 3 years
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I was thinking about something, on the subject of fanfic writing.
Long post ahead. Feel free to skip but I gotta rant.
Fanfiction is less direct than fanart, that strikes immediately. Fanfiction requires an effort to read, even if it’s a pleasure once you read it. If you like it ofc.
I am a fanfic author. I wrote Naruto fics like you guys know, and I wrote fics for a small fandom that ships 2 italian singers who dueted once.
I observed fandom dynamics in this small one because I could see how it was born and how it proceeded and ate itself, because in most fandom there is some event that divides people and leads to the end. For Naruto it was the ending as before there were ship wars and many dramas but they weren’t as tragic as the ending, its pairings and the new shit. In this small fandom I wrote analyses that were incredibly appreciated, even more than my Naruto ones, and ofc I wrote headcanons and mostly fanfictions. Darkish and darkfics actually, and in the beginning there was no moral issues because people in Italy understand that fiction is not reality.
But shit happened anyway, because of twitter and details that it’s pointless to mention. This made most people act like hypocrites, and I called out these things, I wrote unpopular opinions especially on one of the parts of the ship and I was targeted as enemy lol. I argued back, you know how it works. I blocked people, I kept on doing my things. But with people blocked and unpopular opinions expressed, I was no longer popular. It didn’t matter that one of my fics was a Psycho Pass crossover, with inspiration also from dystopian literature classics, set in a retrofuturistic Italy where a sort of consumeristic fascism enabled mind control, and despite that technology being available, its slow bureaucracy still exists and influences the system, where I chose all the characters for all the roles in the most careful way, and where I made aesthetics and a soundtrack....it didn’t matter that this fic was very popular when I first posted it on tumblr then Ao3. It started to be ignored. Just like my other fics.
I kept on writing because I do it for myself, my girl whom I met in that fandom, and the occasional 2 readers, but whenever I post smth on my other tumblr I see how I am totally shunned, while a mediocre author who writes the same plot over and over, is adored. This other author periodically writes reviews to others’ fics, where she apparently praises but actually talks low and criticizes everything, but she’s popular because she writes a lot, like, AUs of all kinds with no regard for ICness, and her reviews happen always when she posts something new, so other authors feel compelled to review hers. She’ll become a politician I swear lol
Sure it’s not because person 1 is a better author, it’s because she’s got better manners. Even person 2 has because she’s fake and ppl don’t see her insults in the beginning. So it’s about manners, and this is what I wanted to express because it’s happening in this fandom as well.
Because I don’t like to see things that piss me off and I don’t like to discuss or worse, to be fake, I blocked so many people I don’t even remember, and among them there were big blogs as well. I wrote unpopular opinion, about Naruto the character and his dynamic with Sasuke, but mostly about Itachi, and this made me unpopular because how dare I not call him a cinnamon roll right? I am also sincere when I receive asks, which means being blunt at times, if smth pisses me off in my blog. And I’m too sincere when I say I don’t read others’ fanfictions because I was disappointed too many times lol.
In short, I don’t keep contacts. And in a fandom, having this or that blog ‘recommend’ you is crucial, like in real life, apparently.
Not blaming anyone here. I made my own choices, I have a hard life already, I sure don’t care about being fake nice when I have opinions. I would like to read some good fics but I don’t have the patience to look for good ones cause I know I won’t like most of them and I can’t pretend. And I learned the hard way that if you tell (some) ppl that you would like some respect they’re gonna feel attacked because (some) ppl feel entitled to tell the author whatever, but they don’t tolerate if said author talks back.
So, I am happy to see that readers always like my Itasasu fics, despite my unpopular opinions, I’m really happy. But I don’t always feel like writing IS as you guys know. Right now I’m working on 2 fics at the same time, a dark N*rusasu that is the sequel of another dark NS, and I don’t expect this to be popular because it’s a dark NS and Nar is not a ball of sunshine, actually I received a lot of hate for OFAF already, or for In The Dark, I’m actually surprised whenever I receive a positive comment lol. I’m also writing Broken Things, which is Shisui x Sasuke, which is a super rare pairing, and while I know that rarepairs are less popular, I remember how much more enthusiastic ppl were about my other Shisasu fic, Victims of Peace.
This is kinda making me doubt the value of Broken Things, even though, rationally, I know that it’s a completely different thing, as the plot is less important and it’s more slice of life-ish, and even though I’m enjoying writing it very much, maybe because I had this unpleasant experience with the other fandom, I kinda associate the two things.
Anyway. I wanted to let this out. If I’m not a popular author it’s not like I’ll stop writing. In fact I’m also writing fics for the other fandom cause instead of interrupting them I intend to finish them, because I value my writing more than popularity and more than being nice at all costs lol. You guys do you, I’ll do the same lol. Hawk out
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shorkbrian · 3 years
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ASKS
Hello again, asks are compiled under the cut. Please block the tag #shorkbrian answers a lot of asks# If you’d prefer not to see these types of posts from me. If I haven’t answered your ask, it’s because I’m saving it for a thirst, drabble, or fic.
I don’t ignore asks, but sometimes getting around to them overwhelms me lol. pls accept my apologies lol k here we go
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I am very glad, I legit was so scared that it was too long and that it’d be disappointing bc the smut wasn’t super IN YOUR FACE yknow? But man am I glad to hear that.
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I’m looking directly @ you
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Someone noticed omg!!!  A lot of times I just put whatever song I played on repeat while writing that fit, but I have a *yandere* playlist that I listen to and it gets me going. Ty for noticing!!!
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I’ve considered opening them permanently but I just... idek. I’d have to start deleting or ignoring the requests I don’t vibe with and Idk how to handle that lol. But thanks for the well wishes, hope your next few months treat you well friend!
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Watermelon sugar why
Srsly you’re sweet but just wait until I start to really get going with all my nasty kinks okay, then you’ll be rethinking this strategy hunty lol!
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I literally stalk @.vermiliren and @.kazooli and @.seita lol. Maybe when I get my blog more cleaned up, I’ll create a list of creators that I enjoy, along with fic recs. For now, here’s a link to my AO3 bookmarks which I read one like almost every single night bc I’m a horny gremlin.
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I am the shark king. Sharks are my thing bro u don’t even know. I love them so much, they're dumb and big and beautiful and yeah I wish I was a mermaid who got to swim with them. Also I changed it bc I’m trying to make my blog more *professional* and all that so I can start being taken seriously askjakjdf
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Compliments suck, if I'm being down and out honest. This does not bother me at all, I’m just unsure how to respond. I think I would prefer no comments, but I’m trying really really hard to just say “thank you!” and move on before I get uncomfortable. Having to fight with someone about how I perceive my self worth is exhausting, and especially so for the poor person that was just trying to say something nice and be nice to me. 
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They do make me quite uncomfortable my dear lad/lassie/lasso. Say what you wish in the tags tho ! I don’t really reply to those, so there’s no pressure on me to have to say something back. I do however, see all the tags ppl use and some of them make me laugh so hard cause they’re so spot on, and it makes my day. like “Mark me down as scared AND horny” and “Bakugou better be able to bench 165 cause imma throw my fatass in his mf lap” and it kills me.
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I SCEREAMED AKDHGSYDGASJSD this is the only format I'll be taking asks in now, no compliments just a yes/no answer to if my works help u cum god bless
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you used the /gen!!!!! IDK what these are called but the /S and /gen and /J save my life!!!!
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Frick you’ve figured me out, I do try to put like a nail-in-the-coffin sentence at the end. A lot of times it never works right, but I cannot for the life of my figure out how to end a single post ever. If anyone knows hmu pls ty
(Also ps I checked out ur blog cause yans are my jam and it is very much Not garbage!!)
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That’s very kind of you, but pls don’t stay up past midnight it’s bad for ur Brian you’ll make bad decisions bro trust me all of my stuff is written after midnight
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You will lafff..... but I will tell anyways..... I was prescribed a “life coach” after I got out of the hospital, which was really just a poorly disguised softcore “make sure u don’t yeet urself” type of thing. He had me write down things I liked about myself, and when I returned the sheet of paper still blank, he wrote stuff down for me. Like five sentences of “My hair and skin are unique and special” “I like animals and enjoy being kind to them” “I am worthy of respect” etc etc. and I had to look in a mirror twice a day and say those sentences to help “boost my self worth”. It sucked so bad dude, and I like got upset about it every time it came up, until finally my therapist was like “... this aint doin this sad bitch no good” and my parents got designated for yeet watch instead.
I know, logically, that (the majority of) people are not purposefully taking time out of their day to make me feel bad. They're trying to be encouraging and loving, and I appreciate it so much. But like... what do I say? If I say thanks, it’s almost like acknowledging what they're saying as true, and I can’t live with myself thinking I’m more than I am. I’m sorry you’ve had experiences that make compliments difficult for you also, I understand bro and I hope that your future holds healing and peace for you. 
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Hopefully I won’t vent as much anymore lol, I’ll try to do that on my sideblog where I reblog really trigger-y memes akjdafhkjf. But thank you for your kind words bro, they’re appreciated and put in a nice lil jar.
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Ah dw! This doesn’t sound like a jab. I think all of us r so sad n depressed and feel unworthy of love, so the fantasy of a Yan coming and forcing it on us and not leaving even when we lash out is just..... so attractive my heads gonna explode
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me, thinking about kiri at any given moment like:
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I have the next Hybrid! Kiri fic like lined up, but I’m so demotivated be I was SO CLOSE to finishing, and then wiped my computer like an IDITO
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Waso, I’m taking horseback riding lessons bc my mom went:
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and my grandpa told me that one of his horses was named Awaso and I immediately thot of u fun fact. But you’re so very kind, and I enjoy seeing you in my inbox. I’m never tired of u homie. You are loved and important, and it’s not an illusion. Even random strangers on the internet can feel soft towards you bro, and dats me, I’m the random stranger that likes u.
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So I took Russian for a year, my dear friend, because I wanted to see if the language myth of “Russian is the hardest, Korean is the easiest” was true. I would say yes. So instead of like translating this and typing out a coherent response, I’ve resorted to google translate I’m so sorry but Виктор мог плюнуть мне в глаз, и я бы поблагодарил его. Also, the way Vitya is written in cryllic makes my heart swell it looks so cozy idek what I mean by that but it does? I treasure you man, hope to see you around in the new year and maybe??? we be good friends
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Can any year be good when Kirishima Eijirou doesn’t exist?
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I just imagine anyone who comes across my stuff, sitting at their computer shocked and slightly horrified, maybe turned on like
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Daddy Aizawa makes me
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Wait!! I have something to aid your troubles!!
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ur welcome now u can be horny whenever you’d like 
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pls every time we talk about Kirishima I have to act surprised like 
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LISTEN BBYGORL I have had therapist Suga in the works since *checks notes* November. I am excited for it yeahhhhhh but sadly, I don’t think I will be continuing piano teacher Suga. The story is petered out in my mind, idk where it would go. Therapist sugarbird tho? We have some thots about this. Coming soon to theaters near you
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charmspoint · 3 years
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12?
12. How do you deal with self-doubts?
I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW THAT TOO ANON. Self doubts are tough. I feel everywhere I go there are writers better than me, more skilled than me, writers that can tell the same story i want to tell but better, writers that more people like. It doesn't help that I've been trying to apply to a jjk zine for months now and got rejected from every single one hbhjbhj nothing will put more of a bullet in your self confidence than flat out rejection.
Honestly I think most of the time I try to ignore it and just keep trucking. It's encouraging when I think of the level of skill I had like, last year compared to this year. I've made clear improvement and I think these last few months alone I've made so much breakthroughs writing wise. From readers stand point it's hard to see but just a few months ago the biggest word count that i was able to reach was 4k and this year with curse au and especially gang au I've broken that ceiling to bits like, so far curse au chapters were like 4k 7k 10k 8k THATS SO MUCH FOR ME. Dance with the Devil was supposed to be a one shot, its almost 30K now!!! Me and my beta are gonna separate it into chapters just cuz it would feel brutal to make ppl sit through so much at once. I've gotten so much better at planning my fics, at figuring out what i want to say and how, at dialog, even fighting scenes which is my worst field. And there are people who like my work, that's what's most comforting honestly. Whenever I'm in a slump or I've hit writers block or I feel discouraged I go to my ao3 and browse through my comments and think about all the people who like my fics, who are excited for them, who like my weird lil writing style and think my ideas are cool. So even if im in a slump and I can't see worth in my own work it's obvious there is some, people obviously see something there that is worth digging for.
I dunno self doubt is a bitch and it works different for everyone. Most of mine stems from comparing myself to others so i try to redirect that to comparing myself to an earlier version of myself. Prior to 2020 I hadn't written anything consistently since 2014, the most I've written since then was 2018 with 3 pieces. For comparisons sake in 2021 I wrote 17, a few of which are multichaptered and it's not even over yet. From 2014 to 2020 thats six whole years of relative inactivity, years i could have spent polishing my skills and learning new tricks, years that have left me feeling unbearably rusty and inferior to other content creators my own age. It's tough. But hey, I'm here now, I'm doing my best and I'm making fast progress. I know that the progress I'm making is gonna slow down soon enough because that's how things work and it will be harder to point out things I've improved on so clearly. But my biggest weapon is still just gritting my teeth and pushing through, stubborn as I am. I don't think I'll ever be fully satisfied with my own writing, such isn't the nature of writers, but I'll do my best to remain positive and keep my eyes on the next step I want to take, next thing I want to improve on, next story I want to tell just a little bit better. I'm gonna doubt myself stupid along the way but I damn well know I aint gonna get any better unless I keep writing so that's what I'll do.
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bisummers · 6 years
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stolen from @jenny-calendar hi :)
# following: ive been in this hellscape 9 years now and i’d accumulated over 600 blogs, but recently i went into a mini purge and unfollowed a bunch of inactive blogs. My goal is to go down to 350 in the next few months.
# of followers: something like 1600! And that’s without p*rnbots, who i block on the spot. very humbled.
average hours of sleep: i always try to get a good 8-7 hours. I paid my dues in college and never again.
lucky number: not lucky really, but i have an affinity for 4.
instruments: i cannot play anything :(
what are you wearing: a company polo short (i.e. my “i woke up feeling rotten and i don’t want to think about what to wear outfit”) and undies cause i am home and what are pants
dream job: is it stupid to say no job? Idk man...
dream trip: ufff i want to go everywhere!! I guess my top bucket list items right now are thailand, japan, cuba,and spain(again)
significant other: im kinda paranoid about ppl being mean or seeing me a certain way because i am dating a he so i dont really talk about my rl? but most of you must have figured out the elusive rick(not his real name) holds the loml status irl, we’ve been together 4 years and counting! he’s not comfy with pictures and stuff so you might never see them here unless we get married o.o
birthday: 8/21
height: 5′5
gender/pronouns: she/her
other blogs: i only have 1 other active blog, which is bajoestalupa for all things ~aesthetic~ i dont want to add into my fandom blog. I also have an inactive travel journal from my year in europe and a bunch of saved urls.
nicknames: here everyone calls me dali, irl rick calls me dormiloncin (sleepyhead) and silly banin.
star sign: leo
time: 8:18 pm!
favorite band: mcr forever and ever baby
favorite tumblr artist: tumblr artist are truly incredible and this list could be huge but im gonna be lazy and embarrassing and admit my muse is @lesbidar who is incredibly talented, driven, and organized and i aspire to be like that someday.
song stuck in your head: sword of damocles from the rocky horror soundtrack :/
last movie you watched: the princess diaries i think
last show you watched: broadchurch series one!!! It was so good does anyone else watch that show?? I wanna make edits but they’ll only get 4 notes and ill be sad.
why did you make your blog: summer 2008 as an inspiration board for my rp writing........ oh how the turn tables.......
what do you post: lots of reblogs + original content (see below)
fandom contributions: my edits, aesthetics, my art, and my own brand of frantic enthusiasm
last thing you googled: i went to hollywood studios this weekend so i googled the best food in the park
ao3: N/A
do you ever get asks: not many, but i love all of the few who talk to me
how did you get the idea for your url: initially i had the url of tattooeyes, which was just some rando shit i came up with in 2008. But after i saw btvs i became so in love with it, started following buffy blogs, and started making original content for the first time in tumblr. i basically became a buffy blog and i wanted to reflect that so i settled for bisummers because... its true? Buffy Summers is canonically bisexual and I love her so... I have a few other that are great and i always think about switching but i hate the fact that all the stuff I’ve made is out there without proper links so probably not gonna change it.
favorite food: cheese
last book you read: i forgot the name but it was a academic buffy book, it has some interesting things to say about the show i hadn’t heard before, but nothing to write home about tbqh.
top 3 fictional universes: despite all of jk rowling’s attempt to make us hate her and all the valid issues brought up by fans in the past i still truly love the harry potter universe. I also love the buffyverse universe and this is random but has anyone seen the fifth element? Aesthetically that movie is so dope to me i like he concept design of that universe a lot.
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