#there's one I'm not completely sure abt but I'd be willing to try

[bloggingboutburgers]

hi! I have a relationship question I hope you don't mind me asking, you're pretty much my go-to blog for stuff abt qprs 😭 how do you and your partner navigate conflicting emotional needs? for example physical affection and date-like activities, things that one of you really values and would want in order to feel supported but that are too far out of the other's comfort zone. ofc communication is always key, but once you communicate both of your needs where do you go from there? how do you two find ways to balance both of your needs where each of you feels supported and that your needs are being met in a way that doesn't compromise the other's boundaries? I'm sure this is a thing in even romantic relationships too but in my experience this is a little harder to navigate in a qpr, and it's something I'm struggling with atm, so I'm grateful for any advice and experiences you would be willing to share! 🙏

Sorry you're having trouble in that sense TwT I'm sure it's an issue that happens in a lot of types of relationships indeed, but it doesn't make it any less difficult!

To be honest though... I guess I'm lucky, because my QPP and I don't have that many issues in that sense, I don't think? Our needs and wants typically align pretty well, and if one of them IS too much for another's boundaries, we typically have no issue communicating honestly and moving on from it fine. Maybe it helps us that both of us (especially them) have had to be extra-aware of our respective families' wants and needs more than our own growing up, and we're very aware of that, so we want to give each other room to vibe the way we both want to? (I'll say though, I kinda sucked at that on our early years. I'd sometimes throw stupid tantrums and be an ass about such insignificant things, but I want to hurt them and put pressure on them less than anything, so I guess I've quietly strived to become better at it year after year... Maybe time and self-reflection over time just helps sometimes?)

That said... Yeah, it's not happened often that we've found things we weren't compatible on that left us at a dead end. And in some rare cases where we don't really know yet how things are gonna go if it comes to this or that, we have a bit of a "we'll figure it out when we get there" approach, I feel?

No idea if that's gonna keep on fine like that or if it'll bite us in the ass in the future, but to be honest, the only way we'll find out is to go ahead and see. And so far so good. I guess that's the way I see it anyway? But... Yeah I'm definitely one of the lucky ones I feel TwT Even though I'm always afraid of doing things that hurt my partner without realizing and letting that sit for years... I try to take measures so I never do, and so, if anything IS going badly, I don't fail to notice it. Don't wanna make the same mistakes my parents did and stuff.

...Ofc that's just my view on that, my partner @civiart might have a totally different response to this so I'll let them correct/complete if they feel it's needed TwT But I hope I'm doing our case justice!

#anon #queer platonic relationship #queerplatonic #qpr #either way i'm sorry that wasn't much advice TwT #i wish you guys the best

[hiiroamagisbestfriend]

HELLO ANGST NEMO!!!! am i ur first req ??? ANYWAYS im here to request...hm....date hcs w chiaki adonis and nagisa i Swear im normal abt them ahahahah

Date Headcanons!

w/ Chiaki Morisawa & Adonis Otogari x GN!Reader

AAAA you ARE my first req!! let's get this bread

Warnings: None! Just lots and lots of fluff. Words: 1,477

Chiaki Morisawa

✩ Oh Chiaki, the ever lovable dork that he is, would NOT find it easy to ask you out at all.

✩ You're just so amazing after all! You're not only willing to listen to his nerdy hobby, but you seem to actively enjoy hearing him gush about it!

✩ Meanwhile, Chiaki is just. Not cool at all. His confidence drops to an all time low whenever he'd think about asking you out. You're probably just tolerating him and his nerdy hero obsession, aren't you?

✩ Thoughts like that would always give him cold feet. He'd think up of the perfect date plan, and how to ask you out, but when you're actually right in front of him he becomes a blubbering mess.

✩ I'm sure that eventually, the other RYUSEITAI members would get tired of seeing this scenario unfold for the millionth time, and would offer to help set the two of you up without him having to do a thing.

✩ Initially, he'd be nothing but grateful for the offer. His wonderful friends putting in a good word for him and being the ones to invite you would definitely be the easy way out.

✩ But that was exactly it. The easy way out. It wouldn't sit well with him if that were to happen. What kind of hero would he be if he couldn't even conquer his own nerves?

✩ And so he decided to finally saddle up and ask you out for real. He'd play it cool, just ask if you want to hang out with him in nice cafe that opened up nearby, and maybe do some shopping with him if you had the time. Good, good, it sounded casual enough but had the potential to develop into something more.

✩ He was rehearsing the lines to himself, when he suddenly saw you. And just like all other times, his mind went blank. But he's already decided he won't run away this time.

"O-oh! (Y/N)! What a coincidence! I didn't think I'd run into you here!" He realized how dumb he sounded after he registered that the two of you were in ES, why would it be surprising to see each other when you're literally coworkers? His palms were sweating so bad, and he's sure that his face is truly embodying the spirit of Ryusei Red but admitting defeat now would mean he really is a coward. "(Y/N)! I've been in love with you for a long time now! Please go out on a date with me!" Hm. That was weird, he was just supposed to see if you wanted to hang out. Was his mouth moving faster than his brain? "Sure! I'd love to go on a date with you, Chiaki." You replied, but it seemed to have completely gone unheard by the panicking Chiaki. He was just about ready to smash his face against a wall when he finally registered what you said. He quickly forced himself to regain composure. He can't mess up now. He channels all his hero confidence, trying his best to look like things were simply going how he planned. "Is that so? Alright! Let's meet up here around the same time tomorrow then!" And he dashed off before he could receive an answer, knowing his temporary bravado was running out.

✩ The date went surprisingly well, with the knowledge that you actually agreed on going out with him, Chiaki seemed to be way more at ease. He was all smiles seeing you enjoy the food and drinks from the cafe, and he offered to carry whatever it is you wanted to buy when you two went shopping.

✩ Looking at your smiling face as you show him some cute plushies, his expression relaxes, he really was worried over nothing all this time. If he had just plucked up the courage to do this earlier, then maybe you'd have had hundreds of dates by now.

✩ He was quickly brought out of his thoughts when he felt your hand grab him by the wrist, pointing at another shop that you wanted to check out. Oh, he really lucked out didn't he?

"I love you." Chiaki whispered under his breath, quickening his pace so that he could catch up with you. He could see the tips of your ears get flushed ever so slightly, but maybe it was just his imagination.

Adonis Otogari

✩ Unlike poor Chiaki, I don't think Adonis would have much difficulty in ask you out on a date. He's a pretty straightforward and honest guy, after all. The problem was his unit mates.

✩ When the other guys from UNDEAD caught wind of him intending to ask you out, they meddled quite a lot. Kaoru giving him a bunch of potential date spots, Rei coaching him on how to treat you like a partner rather than a friend, and Koga repeatedly telling him that playing his ocarina in the date would end up in disaster.

✩ He doesn't really get why he has to do all these things, but he trusts his senpais and Koga well enough. Maybe this is how things work around here? He wouldn't like to accidentally make you unhappy because he didn't know the customs.

✩ They would dress him up all fancy, and even had him learn a script written by Kaoru on what to say when he asks you out. Koga and Rei offered to play some music in the background, but Adonis thankfully vetoed that decision, saying that they've already done enough.

"It's pretty rare of you to call me out Adonis, what's up?" You asked with a smile, the smile that Adonis fell in love with. You were so nice to him after all, and you were always patient with him when to explaining things he didn't understand. Adonis swallowed, you were right in front of him in a secluded spot, just the two of you. He suddenly got nervous, for reasons he couldn't quite grasp. Was he afraid of messing up the plan the others thought up for him? Or was he worried that you might not answer the way he wanted? He cleared his throat, remembering the script that Kaoru drilled into him before this moment. "If you were a chicken. You'd be impeccable." He said, with an incredibly deadpan voice and the most expressionless face you could imagine. Adonis got worried a bit, hearing you snort out a laugh at what he said. Did he mess up? Was the plan his friends thought up for him going to be a waste because he couldn't pull it off? Before more of those thoughts came to roost, he decided to continue with the script. "Something seems to be wrong with my eyes." He starts, seeing your face go from joy to concern. Uh oh, he needs to finish the rest of the line before you think his eyes actually have something wrong with them. "I can't take them off of you." Your slight chuckles from earlier turned into full blown laughter, hearing this kind of stuff from Adonis of all people was just so cute! It didn't take much to realize he's probably just acting the way he is because he was told to. As entertaining as this was to watch, it was probably better to just do his job for him. "Hey Adonis, there's a nice teppanyaki place nearby, wanna come with me?" He only nods in response, and the two of you make haste towards your new destination.

✩ The other members of UNDEAD, who were hiding nearby and watching this entire thing play out, finally left their spot after seeing the two of you walk away. The three of them gave each other high-fives and pats on the back, not knowing just how useless their plan was.

✩ During the date, you would ask Adonis what was up with the way he was acting earlier, and he'd just. Expose the entire plan. He'd express how he didn't really feel that such a roundabout way of doing things was right, but he didn't want to go against what Koga and his senpais were telling him.

✩ As he recalled that entire story, he couldn't help but smile too seeing how entertained you were by it. Maybe this was a part of their plan too?

"Say Adonis, if you were to ask me out with your own plan, how would it go?" You asked in between giggles, still finding this entire ordeal just way too funny. He thought about it for a second, before looking you straight in the eye. "I love you. Please go on a date with me." He bowed his head slightly after saying that, not noticing how quickly you went from laughing to blushing.

AAAAA it's done!! I know they're more "Asking out HC's" BUT UGHHH THESE WERE THE ONLY THINGS THAT WAS COMING TO ME! IF YOU ASK ME TO WRITE THIS AGAIN SOME TIME LATER IM SURE I COULD DELIVER BETTER RESULTS!!

#.✨. #enstars x reader #chiaki morisawa x reader #adonis otogari x reader #chiaki morisawa #adonis otogari #enstars

[ultrvmonogamy]

How are u? I miss u bestie

hey bestie. rn i'm feeling a bit deflated tbh. i'm sure i'll be fine soon enough, but wow it just seems like there's always something bad happening for me here like one of my blogs is disappearing or an acct is being termed or a former mutual is no longer following me or a current mutual is no longer interacting w me or i'm finding out ppl r talking abt me behind my back n spinning half truths into hideous vileness or i'm visiting a mutual's blog n am immediately nauseated seeing content reblogged from the most duplicitous blogger i know of n who's made claims abt me that r the actual polar opposite of the interactions that occurred while literally echoing words i've personally said here abt striving to be authentic n genuine or i'm seeing a former mutual's response to a question abt following ppl back that talks abt how they don't rly do it anymore bc everyone turned out to be terrible ppl n knowing that i'm probably one of the ppl they think that abt but for bullshit reasons or like i'm having warm n wholesome thoughts towards someone for a split second before remembering that oh yeah wait they think i'm evil now n r no longer one of my few real friends if they ever were or i'm being told to kill myself or i'm finding myself afraid to reply to a question by someone who's been canceled for alleged disgusting things but i don't know if any of that stuff was true bc i sure as hell now know firsthand that ppl r well-capable of attributing motives that do not exist n yet here i am now paralyzed n not responding bc i don't if my once thriving but now v precarious existence here would survive the association of even answering a totally benign question n so also thereby better understand other ppl's resistance to interacting w or implicitly endorsing my content simply for the just-in-case-ness of it all or like a sick, sick individual who last showed up in my world a few yrs ago attempting to catfish me by leveraging the death of someone i cared abt showed up again yesterday either again attempting to catfish me or sending some likely unsuspecting minion to do her bidding (unclear which) n like holy hell, u know? well the main reason i started this blog n started talking here was literally to vent n to be raw n authentic n just own all my weirdness n my conflict n my vulnerability n my perversion n my trauma n my hope n my fear n my stupidity n my experience n my insight n then when ppl completely unexpectedly to me began to follow n interact, my purpose for it expanded to connect w ppl on a real level w the parts of me that i'd let starve or had starved willfully whether out of ignorance or naivety or learned shame or simply fear of being know n to thereby find resonance n all the while to attempt for all that i'm worth to integrate it in a positive way n hopefully thereby facilitate others doing the same n maybe just maybe if i'm super extra lucky n the moths happen to flap their wings in just the right manners at the witching hour while the moon's in the right phase to be able to offer smth of worth to the world in a greater magnitude than i've been able to thus far n well i'm not going to stop trying to integrate n to connect n to be willing to stand up n own my shit until the day my heart stops beating n even w what is now at times such a stentorian din of noise that in moments i cannot even begin to tell what key it's all in or whether there's even a rhythm let alone where the downbeat went i am going to keep trying to improvise a harmony [some of which intrinsically necessitates my silence], it's still the place where i seem most to find meaningful resonance w others who r similarly motivated n similarly struggling but yeah it gets to be a little much sometimes..

but how're u bestie? n why do u miss me? do we not talk? did we ever? do i just suck so bad at replying that an anon seemed a better way to get a response?

in any case, i hope ur well, n i probably miss u too 🩵

p.s. sry i couldn't spare much punctuation what w inflation n the supply chaine n all the crimes against humanity etc.

#mail #anon #abt #oc

[gravesaint]

hi! when i read your post i got so excited bc the whole reason I went back to school (first time in 4 years, since high school!) is to become an archivist and work in a queer archive and help bridge those gaps and educate young ppl abt our history. do you mind answering a few questions of mine about how you got your job? what kind of program were you in, what did u major in, how did you end up working in a queer archive, what’s your job like? I could DM also!

Hello! Thanks for the ask!

So in undergrad I actually majored in art history because I knew I wanted to do some kind of museum/memory institution work, but wasn't really sure what (I went back and forth between curation, conservation, education, etc.). I also got a minor in museum studies!

I then went directly into gradschool because I got lucky with scholarships, and last spring I completed my master's in museum sciences. That program had three different tracks (administrative, education, and collections care), and I went down the collections care track since that aligned most with my desire to do archival work. I also interned in a few different areas at a local museum, and my work with their digitization department is what really cemented the fact that I liked working with collections.

Once I finished my master's, I was actually just on the job hunt when I decided to volunteer at my local equality center as a way to get out of the house and stay active in the community. I started by cleaning out their closets sdhfdjfhd

The volunteer coordinator saw in my email signature that I had a master's in archival and collections care and asked if I'd be willing to look at their history project room (literally a room full of 50+ years of materials that no one had ever organized). They had tried to put together an archival plan for it about 20 years ago, but the project just never took off.

I started by just going through everything and coming up with a preliminary plan for how to start managing the space, and I volunteered once a week for a few months just working on that. Over time my plans got more and more complex and I started treating the position like an actual job because I'm bad at setting boundaries lol. By this time I had actually landed a paying job working at a museum gift shop (not a lot of museum opportunities where I live currently, so I had to take what I could get and it pays the bills).

I spoke often with one of the center's main patrons (an older gay man who has done a lot of philanthropy in my city), and we eventually worked out an agreement for turning what I had already been doing into a paid position. I had already been doing work way beyond the scope of a volunteer (I did a lot of work on our online catalogue while at home or at my other job), and because I kept a record of all the work I had done and projects I had started, it was easier to pitch the idea of a full-time position to the organization's president.

So overall, I came into the position in a kinda unconventional way tbh. But luckily everyone at the center actually values the history and the work I've put in, so they saw the value of hiring me on officially. There are definitely easier ways of getting into archival work, but that's how it happened for me sjdfjdfh

As for what the job is actually like, I detail that in this ask!

My closing advice:

Have better workplace boundaries than me.

Look for ways to apply your skills in unconventional places (I never thought I would be making a career somewhere outside of a museum).

It can be daunting, but try to get as much experience under your belt while still in school as you can (via internships and volunteering), because it helps grow your confidence and it'll be easier for you to promote yourself and your work in the future. Unfortunately most internships probably aren't going to be paid, which is bullshit, but they really do help once you're out of school.

Develop a cocktail of autism, adhd, and ocd that makes you really good at building organizational and archival systems from the ground up (not actually required because chances are you'll find a pre-functioning archive that already has basic protocols in place).

#sorry this is kinda long winded and probably not as interesting as you might have hoped sjdhfdh #and ACTUALLY my partner just got accepted into a phd program so we might be moving at some point soonish #but ive gotten a lot of good references by doing this work #so hopefully trying to find archival work will be a little easier where ever we end up going down the line #asks

[spitdrunken]

Deathly and morbidly curious about the Jack Horner noncon,,,, please elaborate

uhehehehheheHEHE FINALLY. thank you for being the willing victim of my whims, anon. blows u a kiss.

notes: noncon, size difference (Bad), jack horner is HORRIBLE and COMPLETELY unapologetic abt it. just like in canon <3

Jack Horner has hordes of people working for him, and legions more that want to. (Well, duh. The pay is great, but that's only because very few last longer than a paycheck or two, and fewer remain to collect their dues after 'resigning'.) This means that it's awfully easy to get away with abusing a few here and there, then dumping them by the wayside once he gets bored. There are plenty willing to take their place, after all.

The way he fucks you depends on both his mood, and the circumstances leading up to it. If you've fucked up an important job, or simply gotten in his way while he was already in a bad mood, it's anger that fuels him. He'll have your skull in a death grip to keep your body from jostling around while he's forcing his cock inside you- And he laughs at you once the entry gets a bit easier. See? Was that now so hard, huh? (Whether it's arousal that's slicking up your hole, or something else, that's an entirely different story. He's called 'Big' Jack Horner for a reason.)

The most likely reason he'll use one of his employees as a toy however, is mere boredom. A need for a distraction. Jack Horner is not a good guy. He knows this. Everyone knows this. If he can feel even more powerful for a little while, and even feel pleasure while doing so, that's a win-win in his eyes. This is how a random employee might have the displeasure of finding themselves bend over his desk, with not even a pay raise or anything promised in return.

He finds it funny if you struggle, until he doesn't. He'll roll his eyes, and clamp one of his hands around your body to keep you entirely still, while saying something like: Look. I'm trying to fuck you here? Not sure if you were able to tell. But, ah... I'd stay still from now on, if I were you. Or I might decide to do something else.

Long story short: Jack Horner is absolutely horrible, and I feel he would absolutely, definitely noncon. For funsies! He's evil, after all. I briefly considered the idea of a Reader who had some kinda twisted crush on him, and him playing along and then raping you... But I don't think Jack could get invested enough in something to actually follow through with that HAHA He has better things to do than that.

#cha.jack #cw.noncon #cw.humiliation #jack horner x reader

[ilikebigants]

Could u elaborate more on ur hc about the Witcher schools and the abuse from the mentors?? Do u think some schools are more tolerant/turn a blind eye to that sort of thing, and some are more strict abt it? Bcuz some of the schools just seem more..uptight, while others are kind of falling apart at the seams

Alright, I wanna start by saying that this hc is about the general world of The Witcher. Not a specific book or adaptation. My entire point is that these types of institutions have a history of abuse. And again, this is about the heights of the witcher schools, NOT what they are now.

Personally, I think that the stricter the "discipline" the school had, the more leniency for this behaviour would endure in different facets. Why? Because it would breed an environment where the students had no one to talk to about this other than fellow victims. Also, the less care was given to the deceased, the more likely that someone would take advantage of the half dead kids in their pocession.

Personally, I think the wolves were a bit stricter in some areas but extremely lax in others. Like, they'd be stricter when the kids were new meat, but would turn a blind eye if something happened, say, in the room where the mutations happened. And it wouldn't be that they don't care at all, its that what some bastard does to a dead body after that point is the least of their problems. In a similar vain, what happens after the point of a successful mutation is also treated with a bit more leniency because "the boy can fight back if he don't want it," completely ignoring the authority older witchers would have over the younger ones.

Plus, there's the whole thing with "No fighting fellow Witchers" that they don't have as a rule, but more of an etiquette thing, so that too would probably contribute to how willing a victim would be to advocating for themselves.

Do I think that most of them were bastards? No. Do I think that most of them learned to keep silent due to fear of pushback from their only family? Definitely. Like, I don't believe Vesemir ever did do anything like that, but I do think that to some capacity, he was aware. Maybe not to who specifically it was happening to, but he would hear a rumour or two he didn't dare look into.

The only school that I'd say would be relatively clean of that stuff DUE to discipline is the Griffin's. They have this whole thing about chivalry going on, that maybe not everyone subscribed to as a principle, but they didn't dare try much because they knew how easily the whole keep could turn on them.

Viper school is an easy choice for most leniency given to this stuff. They made you kill your puppy if you wanted your medallion if I remember correctly, so what I'm saying is that they'd have a live and let live approach to this sort of abuse. Tough it out. Though I'm not sure if it'd be societally acceptable to kill your fellow Witcher over that, our only real glimpse into the schools being Letho, and he's certainly not a beacon of normalcy, even among his school, so I don't know.

The bears are a tough school to say, mostly due to the lack of knowledge we have on how they did things, but I'll say they'd be close to the Wolves in most regards. But honestly? No idea.

The cats would be an interesting conversation to be had because you can look at it from a lot of different perspectives. You could say they're less structured, so more likely to not care about breaking moral rules, but I raise you that theyd be opposites from the Wolf school: before the mutations, its not acceptable, but they'd be more likely to face no consequences. The chances given to them to do so are slim to none, too, after the Caravan. After the mutations, though? It doesn't matter if it's Stygga or not. You're dead. Unlike the wolves, they'd have no respect/obedience for the older Witchers. Maybe some would, but the vast majority wouldn't. The more free-form style of the Cats is more likely to produce characters that refuse authority and would rather kill at the smallest provocation. So really, if you were a Cat that wanted to do that shit, tough chance you won't have to fight to the death with another witcher once they're old enough to try. I'm pretty sure that most things considered, its not that they are disciplined or have some hard set rules, it's that it's SO lenient that there's nothing stopping your victim from murdering you the second they get mutated.

[frecklystars]

Hey, you absolutely do not have to respond to this if you don't wanna, I just wanted to tell you about an option that might help with your PTSD. I have severe C-PTSD that debilitates me and has caused me to be severely suicidal for most of my life. Therapy and meds helped a little but were ultimately useless, until on a last ditch effort, I decided to try psilocybin therapy. I cultivated them myself and took a small amount every month, and I went from insanely suicidal to actually having a will to live and happiness again. I still have a lot of issues, but taking a gram of mushrooms once a month has genuinely saved my life. I don't usually recommend it bc nobody reacts the same way, but I just thought I'd tell you so that you could research it. I learned how to grow them via r/unclebens. Like I said, you don't have to acknowledge this, I just figured I'd pass it along. I hope that either way, things get better for you.

Before I say anything else, I want to say that I am so, so, so sorry that you have to deal with c-ptsd as well. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to talk to me, a complete stranger, to offer some kindness and empathy; I appreciate you sending this to me and being so open. I sometimes feel like my own c-ptsd is very "stupid" because I have a long, LONG list of triggers that aren't "normal" like colors, clothes, phrases... I guess that's why they're triggers, they're not supposed to "make sense" but still. Exactly like you said, it debilitates your life. I'm so sorry that you've had to deal with this too. It's terrifying to live with. I've had both ptsd and c-ptsd in my life and... like, they're both incredibly challenging, I'm not downplaying ptsd at all in comparison to c-ptsd -- that being said -- holy fuck c-ptsd is a whole new ballgame. When I went thru the worst of my ptsd years ago I was like "wow nothing could be harder than this" and now the c-ptsd is happening and I'm like "oh I was wrong, this is so much worse actually" at least for me in my personal experiences

Mentally I am holding your hand and I see you and I hear you and I am so proud of you for continuing to live when it has been so fucking hard. I am so glad you're here. Thank you for being here and for continuing to fight when it's so damn hard. Look at you go. You're crushing it. I see you striving.

This is something (well, not the exercise specifically, but uhhhh, the shrooms I guess) that was recommended to me by a support group for my ptsd years and years and years ago; I brought it up with a few doctors but I was strongly advised not to try it bc they said it would make my anxiety/depression far worse. I'm not sure if the answer would change now since I'm older and I'd be asking different doctors lol... this is actually my first time hearing about therapy for it, however. I think that's very interesting. I've always been very nervous around drugs and have never considered smoking anything bc my anxiety around it is so bad, but sometimes the flashbacks are so awful and the nightmares have been HORRIFIC and nonstop for 14 months now, i'm willing to sell my soul to the devil just to get rid of them at this point 😭 i had one of my worst breakdowns ever last night and all i did was accidentally stumble upon (1) single photo of a trigger, and it set me off for hours, getting physically sick and unable to do literally anything except Be Sick On The Floor. but I will definitely think it through more and ask some professionals abt this specific kind of therapy; when I was younger I used to have some slight heart problems so I'd probably have to ask what's the best approach for me first... I'll try to do some further internet research on it too

Only once a month huh... Whether or not if it's something I'd even be able to try, I'm SO glad it helps you, man. I'm so glad you could have some peace and relief that you didn't have before. Thank you for your well wishes, I extend the same to you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

#anonymous #asks #drugs cw #drugs mention #drugs #ask to tag #ptsd

[spritehouse]

Do u take angst hc’s and fic ideas? Like really really dark angst. non-con, torture, kidnapping, Stockholm etc (not romanticized)

I have some pretty angsty ones but I really don’t want to make u uncomfortable and I figured it would be good to ask and get a sense of where ur boundaries are

have a nice day and make sure to drink water<3-🦇

hey, thank you sm for asking!

i have a tendency to ramble a little bit, so here's my short answer:

yes, i do! send them all, i'd love to hear anything you have and give my input! brain dump in my ask box!

and my long answer is:

yes, i'm fine with most topics: if that were to change, i'd try my best to reestablish new boundaries as clearly as possible.

for hc/fic ideas and concepts, send away! say whatever you want! i'll happily give you more than my two cents and then get completely derailed while responding

for fic or writing requests, again, ask away! however, despite my best efforts, i am human and a high school student so i may not be able to fulfill requests very quickly; if there's ever something i can't get to at the moment, or i personally feel i'm taking too long to write something, i'll try to at least acknowledge your request and let you know what's up with it. patience is a wonderful gift for a writer

and finally, there's my writing abilities. my only hard limit is xreader fics, but i do have strengths and weaknesses to writing angst topics. i love writing more emotional/psychological hurt, but i'm always looking to get out of my comfort zone every once in a while. i'd also like to put a special emphasis on my ability to write rape/non-con; im still figuring out sex (conventual)/sex scenes and if i like writing them, so requests for scenes abt that might take a bit, but im willing to give anything a shot

#lex answers #🦇 anon

[sword-brainrot]

Oh, um! May I request a matchup? I know these can be draining to do so feel free to skip me if you want!!

So, um hi! Im a 19 yo translation student! Everyone uses she/her when talking to me, but you can use whatever you like, I dont mind pronouns! Im really shy and kinda anxious when talking to people, but I'm completely see-through ;; cant tell a lie to save my life haha Im super curious abt practically anything and I love to learn new things! When I have to get work done, I make sure it looks shiny and perfect! (even tough I procastinate on it until there's almost no time left,,,,) I prefer indoors because loud sounds make me somewhat panicky??;;;; and in my free time I play games, learn useless stuff and sleep... y'know, the usual ^^;

As for what I'd like in a parter.... I want someone who cares about me ;; I know it may be a bit too much but I guess I can dream right? :') As for myself,,,, idk id be a completely mess ;; Im good at listening I think! but when it comes to affection Im at a loss and I just get embarrassed,,,, I blush at everything and when Im put in a spot I try to laugh it off ;;

Um, also... Im sure you already noticed but I have some self issues so you may want to take this into consideration???? maybe???? Im sorry I had to bring this up;;; i tought it could help you get a better picture of myself haha???? uuu;; (um also i apologize for this huge wall of text, i know its all over the place.... dont know how to organize it;;;;)

Oh, and I don't care about sword types nor I have a preference! I love all the slashy boys equally ♡

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I really appreciate it 💖💖

Oh I would never skip your request! If I ever get drained, I would take a small break. I wanna do your requests dear! Feel free to request as much as you want, I have a blast whenever I can write and make someone smile because of it. Don't worry about bothering me or anything, seeing requests always makes me smile and excited to write 💖🌺

I Match You With...

🌸 Ishikirimaru 🌸

♡  Ishikirimaru is a very calm and friendly guy, he would understand very well how scary social interaction can be for some people. He would never push you too far and make sure he knows your limits. He would offer you to have tea with him or help him clean just so you both can bond together and let you know what he does want to be around you. He doesn't mind if you don't talk much because you are shy! Ishikirimaru doesn't talk too much in general but doesn't mind starting the conversation and having a short discussion about things that may interest you or your thoughts on things.

♡  Don't worry about ever making him angry or annoyed, it is very hard to do that. He is very easy going and cares a lot about other people. The only way he would ever get actually angry at you is if you say something insensitive about how people's lives in war don't matter or something along those lines. He was a sword kept in a temple that often got prayed to for healing the warriors who came back from battle with deadly wounds. That is the only thing that would actually get under his skin. He cares a lot about the people around him and even the people he doesn't know, he prays for all of their well beings. Even yours. He cares about you a lot as well and will tell you often that you matter to everyone. He is aware that you would never say something to upset him on purpose. As long as the two of you talk it out and apologize to each other, he will forget it even happened. He wouldn't let one slip of the tongue to ruin the relationship.

♡  He tries hard to make sure he never upsets anyone and thinks over his words carefully, but even he makes mistakes and words don't come out how they planned. He will make the most effort to apologize and make sure his words didn't hurt you badly. If they did, he would spend hours on end talking it out and making sure you know that he would never mean anything that would hurt you. He cares about you a lot and your smile is his favorite.

♡  Ishikirimaru might be a little pushy when you talk badly about yourself. He loves everything about you and it hurts him when you think you are lesser than everyone. He will often try to stop you before you go too far with talking down upon yourself and give you plenty of compliments, even if they embarrass you. He wants you to know that you are deserving of love and that you are much better than you give yourself credit for. You have your own talents and people cherish you for being you. They want you in their life because you are you.

♡  "Aruji, I haven't been human long but I understand that being human is a complicated task. The mind can be a cruel one and the deadliest thing to our souls. My words may not mean much but please trust me when I say that you like you for you. You will see things you do not like about yourself because you are stuck with yourself constantly so you will pick up things that others will not. We are all hard on ourselves. Life is even worse on us. So take a deep breath and let yourself receive a little kindness. You deserve it. You give out so much to everyone so you need to know that it is okay to love things about yourself and be proud of who you are. You will make mistakes and not everyone will be your friend but that is okay, because you are human and you have your own life. Surround yourself with people that will love and appreciate you for who you are now. I love and appreciate you for who you are, aruji. So.. Don't be so hard on yourself, alright? It hurts my fragile heart when I see you beat yourself up for small mistakes. It's okay to stumble at times, just get up again... okay? I'll lend you my hand as well."

♡  As you can tell, Ishikirimaru is a very good listener. His whole life as a sword was to listen to those of the pained and give guidance. Even if he couldn't exactly do that in his sword form, he can do that now! He will listen to everything you have to say. Don't be shy to ramble to him. He will give you a happy smile as he listens. Tell him about the things that make you happy, what make you angry, what makes you laugh, and what makes you sad. Ishikirimaru will be right by your side, offering tea and a shoulder if you need it. You aren't alone and he will make sure you know that you don't have to face these thoughts alone.

♡  Just as how you are see through and can't lie, Ishikirimaru has a similar issue. He has a very hard time ever lying and chooses to never lie. The only time he will lie is if it is to protect others. He will often put himself in the painful position in missions so others don't have to face the hardship. He tries to not do it often because he knows that people care about him and he doesn't have to face things alone, but he would rather not see anyone sad if he can help it!

♡  He finds your embarrassed face the cutest thing in the world. Don't be scared to tell him to stop if the compliments become too much for you to handle! He will laugh it off and apologize for going too far with his comments. As stated above, he doesn't lie. So just know that every compliment he gives you is a very sincere comment that he means with his whole heart. Ishikirimaru doesn't need much affection, as long as you show that you simply care about him, he is happy. He would like to hold your hand from time to time but otherwise, he wouldn't force you to do anything you don't wish to do. Go at your own pace in the relationship, he won't rush you!

♡  Ishikirimaru will tell you anything you wish to learn! He might not have a library of knowledge of the past due to being stuck in a shrine for most of his life but he had also studied and learned about the history he came from. If you take an interest in his prayers and religion, he would gladly tell you all the tales he is aware of and teach you the cleansing sermon he often does to give positive spiritual energy. It is something that brings him peace of mind and makes him happy to talk about, so if you are willing to learn about what makes him who he is today and what makes him happy, he would be overjoyed to share all his knowledge to you.

♡  He understands very well the appeal of getting work done to the best of your ability and making it look the best you can. He wouldn't label himself a perfectionist but he does want to do the best he can. Often with cleaning. You will often see him stuck in a room all day because he wants to make sure it is spotless before he comes out and continues work else where. Though... by the time he is done... It is dinner time. Perhaps the two of you could work together and get work done to the point you are both happy with it.

♡  Ishikirimaru is also someone who happens to stay inside for the most part. The only time he goes outside would be to enjoy tea in the sun or if he has to work the field/horse keeping. Ishikirimaru is a very soft spoken and gentle man so you don't have to worry about him every raising his voice and scaring you. If there is ever a loud noise, whether it is other swords or a storm outside, he will gently hold your hand and try to calm you down. He will assure you that it's okay to not like loud noises but he will make sure that nothing hurts you. He will even try to lead you away to somewhere that may be a little more quiet. Giving you a distraction to get your mind off the noise. He wants nothing more than you to feel comfortable and safe.

♡  Depending on the game, he may want to play with you! He tends to like card games even though he is very easy to read and often loses. He tends to laugh about it after when he realizes that he was accidentally showing his hand every time he set down his cards to get a sip of tea. If it's video games, he would prefer to just watch you play and talk to you while you enjoy the game. He isn't the biggest fan but still enjoys to watch! Ishikirimaru is a pretty good teacher! So if you wish to study with him, he would be flattered that you wished to study with him out of everyone. He is very understanding that some material is hard to memorize out of no where. He would just softly correct you and tell you to work on it a little more. He rewards you with sweets every time you do really well on any test he gives you to test how much you remember.

♡  Ishikirimaru would be the most understanding and gentle partner. He wants nothing more than you being comfortable and happy. He would work hard on you slowly forgiving yourself when you make a mistake and love yourself a little more. He would never give up on you and be there if you ever needed.

#Matchups #Touken Ranbu #Touken Danshi #Tourabu #Touken Ranbu Headcanons #Touken Ranbu Imagines #Touken Ranbu x Reader #TKRB #TKRB Headcanons #TKRB Imagines #TKRB x Reader #Ishikirimaru #Ishikirimaru x Reader

[gaytortellini]

Hey so my parents are eveanglical conservative Republicans. Their opinion on the LGBTQ+ community is basically "I'm against it but I'll stay out of any controversy abt it bc I'm a coward" I'm bisexual & I REALLY want to be completely out but I'm terrified of my family's reaction. I get into enough fights with my dad over other issues, I'd hate to add to the list but I also hate being closeted in my own home. Any advice other than waiting till I move out bc that would be years? Thanks so much!

i was actually in a very similar situation before i came out. my parents are roman catholic and conservative (especially my dad) and my dad and i also would get into fights constantly about a ton of different topics, lgbtq+ stuff included. however, about a year before i decided to come out, my cousin came out as gay, so i was able to judge by my parents’ reactions if it would be safe for me to come out. ultimately, coming out was very difficult but i knew that i wasn’t in danger of being neglected or kicked out because i saw how accepting my parents were of my cousin (it was definitely still hard though, it’s one thing to be accepting of your nephew and an entirely different thing to be accepting of your daughter).

my advice to you would be to really make sure that you would still be in a safe environment if you came out. unfortunately, not all people have the luxury of coming out and still being safe in their own home like i did. if you don’t think you would still be safe in your own home, then my suggestion would be to come out when you’ve moved out and are financially independent. but if you are really serious about wanting to just get it out there, have a plan of somewhere safe you can stay if you needed to get out of the house. maybe have some money saved up and an adult/friend you trust who would be willing to take you in. lgbtq+ teens have a very high rate of homelessness in the us (up to 1.6 million per year) and i would hate to see you fall into that category. in the mean time, try branching out and finding a community that you feel accepted in. you’re off to a great start. tumblr, despite its flaws, can be a great place to meet other lgbtq+ teens, especially other teens in a similar situation as you. i don’t know what i would’ve done without my cousin to help me sort out the way i was feeling and in general just being a friend who understood the fear and confusion that i was experiencing. if you ever need someone to be that for you, my inbox is always open.

i would also suggest the trevor project (http://www.thetrevorproject.org). it’s an amazing resource for lgbtq+ youth in case you ever find yourself in a bad situation and need help. and the song “Spectrum” by Boyinaband can be very comforting as well. good luck!!!

#anon #answered #lgbtq #bisexual #coming out #the trevor project #help #advice #lgbt advice #coming out advice

[psychos0matic]

I haven't been on this tumblr in a super long time, hell maybe even a year? Who knows. But I have life updates and things that I dont want to jinx by telling all my fam and friends yet so I had to come here to type it all out and send it into the void lmao

So

I graduated college - lit! But, now student loans are coming up. My first payment for my loan through salliemae is due december 21st. I have multiple loans through the dept of education/mohela that equal about the same amt as my Sallie mae one. It will also be due around the same time as my salliemae. I tried to get the salliemae refinanced and couldnt. I'm assuming I wont be able to for the mohela either. So I'm bracing for abt $500 a month in student loans.

I just bought my first car, that's $300 a month.

Plus living expenses, I wouldnt have anything left over or would be in the red if I stay at my current job and try to pay the loans. So, I've been job hunting for my first big girl job.

I've gotten many bites from shady/scam companies, but one (seemingly) legit insurance company has reached out to me for an interview. I have no experience, but they are "willing to train the right candidate" and were persistent in trying to reach me for an interview.

My interview is at 10:30am tomorrow, and I'm hoping everything they had in their listing was correct and not exaggerated to get applicants. I hope the salary is correct, because if so I would be able to pay for my loans, and my car, and still be okay. I'd be able to actually save up. So, I hope maybe the universe is aligning for me in this aspect.

Also, I recently reconnected with an old friend/former fling that I havent seen or heard from in 3 years due to an abusive relationship. He finally got out of it, completely done and made sure to also move a good distance away from our town quietly so she wouldnt find him (she had a habit of showing up to his house, it literally happened 3 years ago when hed tried to break up with her and I was over in his bed bc lol he thought she got the memo but nope) so. Anyway.

We discovered a funny little coincidence. He ended his engagement with her in july after finding out she'd been cheating on him with multiple people. I got broken up with in july by a guy that I thought would be the one, lmaoo. The universe freed us up at the same time from our dead end relationships, and this boy is honestly the only person I've felt a true spark and chemistry with. In the past, when friends saw us together during our short lived fling, I often got told how happy we seemed and how natural it looked.

I'm trying to not get any hopes up as he has literally spent the last 9 years in an increasingly abusive relationship, and hes just trying to start a new chapter and move on and get settled in his career. I'm trying to get myself straightened out as well. But hes taking me out Friday after work since he had to cancel on me tonight due to an emergency work trip, and I cant help but feel as excited as a kid on Christmas morning. Theres a nagging feeling inside me that everything's about to change for the better. Maybe NOW is going to be the time for us to work.

I'm trying so hard to not get in over my head with hope, but I'm sure it's obvious by now it's a losing battle lol.

I'm just really hoping that something opens up with a job that will allow me to pay my loans, and eventually be able to move out as well. I hope that maybe I'll get to soon have a good relationship. I hope things start to get better, because it's been a really hard year.

I dont know if I posted about it here when it happened, but one of my brothers committed suicide on November 4th last year. 4 days before his 30th birthday, weeks after his only son's 6th birthday. It's been hard for all of us. We just celebrated my nephews 7th birthday, his first without his dad. There was a suicide prevention march taking place at the park we had the party at, if that's not a sign he's around in someway, then I dont know what is. D

Summary: it's been a long and hard year and I am just really hoping things are about to change and start getting better

[frecklystars]

What is your favourite thing about Heatwave? 🧡

OHH HEATWAVE 🥺🥺🥺 GOSHHH I LOVE HIM SOOO MUCH.

WELL... I never planned on watching Rescue Bots at all, because hey Starscream isn't a part of it, what's the point for me watching it tbh? I cannot get invested in a series unless if I'm able to get any F/Os out of it, and it'd be hard for me to get into any Transformers iteration unless if there's a Starscream...

...until I had a few mutuals tell me "hey, Steve Blum (TFP Starscream's VA) voices Heatwave, did you know that?" and I was like "um 😳😳 well I guess I can try one or two episodes..." and once he growled I was HOOKED

So it's safe to say uhh his voice, HIS VOICE is my favorite thing about him, but I feel like that'd be unfair to just compliment his voice. I wanna also compliment my favorite thing about his character, as a whole, which has to be his amazing leadership. He is very protective and isn't afraid to be like "hey, this is bullshit and I'm calling you out on it, I don't care if you have authority over me. We are NOT risking anyone getting hurt, no matter how big or small they are."

I also used to think "uhh, maybe Heatwave wouldn't like me, because i've always written my S/I to have Starscream as her main love interest?" and I was debating for a while that maybe I'd have to scrap my original plans; I normally write my self insert to already know about Cybertron, already know abt robots and how they function, because she's been in the TFP universe before. That was her first universe she fell into, and any universe afterward, she could jump/fall into and be like "oh! don't worry, I know your secret! it's safe with me!" and shoot her little cupid's arrow into anyone's spark. But then I thought, "maybe I can't do that, here. I think Heatwave would be really upset and not want to associate with me at all if he knew that I was very close with (and probably sparkbonded at this point) a decepticon like Starscream :(”

But as I kept watching the show, I noticed that even if Heatwave didn't particularly like or trust someone, once Optimus said "oh, I know them, and they are a good person, please be respectful" Heatwave does a COMPLETE 180 TURN and goes "hey, if Optimus likes you, that's good enough for me" so that made me love him EVEN MORE because he is willing to set aside his personal feelings and open his spark to trusting others. He's a very stubborn, hot-headed character, but he is also just so compassionate? and caring?? and I feel like if Optimus said "btw this is my Conjunx Keri. you may know her other Conjunx, Bumblebee. please do not be alarmed if you see her flirting with anyone dangerous, that is normal and honestly sometimes a useful distraction/battle tactic - you can definitely trust her" and the rescue squad is like "wait what was that last part??" "...you can trust her-" "NO UM. THAT OTHER LAST PART"

So if Optimus said "no you can completely trust this human" Heatwave is like "OH. Well. That's good enough for me. Even if I have no fucking clue why you'd wanna associate yourself with a bunch of Decepticons, do you not have any respect for yourself or something? You don't prioritize your own safety? That necklace Starscream gave you, you sure it's not a secret tracker? No chip in there to hear our secrets? You su- uh sorry - not my business, okay. Hi. I'm Heatwave."

And then we fall in love <3

OH ALSO before I close this out: i wanna say there was a specific part in one of the episodes where a human child was in danger, and he had to still pretend to be a robot "beep boop I have no emotion" and she was very scared while they were both trapped in a cave that was falling in on them (I think. I don't remember the details, it's been six months since I've seen the show) and he kept asking "do you need anything?" in his best emotionless-beep-boop-robot voice that he could muster. and he kept saying it's going to be okay. help is on the way. and he shielded her with his whole body and when she passed out he risked his own safety/secret by shouting "GUYS WE NEED HELP YOU NEED TO COME RIGHT NOW SHE'S LOSING OXYGEN"

...and I thought that was heartwarming that he will seriously put EVERYTHING on the line for humans. even his partner, who at first, he fucking hated. he hated living on earth, he hated the idea of serving humans that all treated him and his team like mindless machines, he couldn't stand it. he constantly asked optimus for different missions. he just wanted to go home, but there was no home anymore. he woke up one day and found out his planet was uninhabitable by a millions-years-long ongoing war. and he just had to accept it. he was willing to give up his life for these humans even when they were like "this is just a machine, who cares" he still went above and beyond and put in his whole 100000% for people. he is selfless and kind and amazing and I know that he'd be an amazing romantic partner too ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

#sorry this got so long i miss him #and i saw a gif of him the other day and got so emotional over it #I MISS HIM I LOVE HIM #ok im normal #THANK U FOR SENDING ME THE QUESTION ILUSM!!!!!! #I love any excuse to talk abt loving my f/os!!! #this meant so much to me anon thank you!!!!!!!!! #asks #anonymous #keepsake #💕♫♪ I’d walk through fire for you ♡ Just let me adore you! ☆🚒🔥