Do you have favorite episode of the mighty nein?
im actually not rly sure about specific episodes but i have favourite "arcs" not sm the official ones but like, sequences of episodes.. like from 27/28-33ish is peak nostalgia weirdsad comfort to me. like the stakes suddenly feel very real and everyone just kind of leans into eachother for comfort and i love it. i love the guests at that point too (nila and keg) and of course, cad introduction. and i love the weird clunky travel down to the coast and how the sea opens up before them and they just mess around on the beach and then meet marion. thats so super nice :'''' ). also the episodes ive just been watching 72ish-76 (maybe more but idk yet) at the moment, i love the arc for fjord and the focus on cads family folklore and quest and also i love reani and theres just some really great moments (the dragon, cads commune with fjord and talk about destiny, meeting the dusts and the realisation that the clays had actually been there years ago, also the ep im on they played beer pong lmao) also i like the medieval fairytale legend vibes of having a dragon breathe on a material to reforge a rly cool sword. i also rly like parts of the aeor arc, because of the cosmic horror it rly leans into, and lucien is so good. i like the angst and drama of it all, and also really like cold and arctic and mountain settings in stories a lot. also the annihilation vibes in it a little bit is fun (the big screaming creatures, the books) . im not there on my rewatch yet so i wonder how my opinion will change when i get there. im surprised how much i love the current "arc" (second one i mentioned) i guess i just forgot, but its been rly good
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Is there a part of your brain that longs to change careers and become a full time professional fatso?
you’d likely be executional at it.
the thing thats wild is: im already a full time fatso lol ik you mean starting an OF or something but realistically, a lot of my energy, time, and effort goes into being the best fatty i can be. and its a significant effort, especially considering how bad my mobility is, even simple daily tasks to take care of myself are a significant undertaking. but its not my job, my job is my job, and i do that as well. my brain does not long for labor. i dont dream of changing jobs, i dont dream of work at all. theres a viewpoint that something like OF is "easy" work, especially if you have a kink that you could be "paid" to do. this is silly imo, being self employed is incredibly difficult, for anyone, certainly including those that are in marginalized work like sex work. online sex work requires marketing, customer service, writing, filming, editing, acting, prop work, hair and makeup, filming space, legal attention re: DMCAs of unauthorized distribution, and im sure theres a lot ive not mentioned too. its a lottttt of work, and even if you succeed, your financial stability is then contingent on performing all of these different types of work, at a reasonably high standard, consistently, so consistently that most sex workers who take a break due to illness notice a deep dive in income. TLDR; im disabled, i dont dream of labor, i just dream of getting fatter owo
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god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)
But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure
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so like i want to talk more abt what suicidal means but the problem is "suicidal ideation presents in two general forms, active and passive. the thing most people think of as suicidal is the active version, where the person *actively* desires to be dead and/or is making a plan to get there. the passive form however gets almost no attention in media so many people experiencing it are unaware they are even depressed, much less passively suicidal. some examples: not wanting to experience death but feeling like you wouldn't mind if you didn't wake up tomorrow or just stopped existing; feeling deeply exhausted with just the entire concept of being alive; even feeling like you want to run away, change your name, and start a whole new life; none of these look like suicidal ideation to most people because they don't involve actively doing anything to get from point a to point b, especially the more abstract ones like the start a new life thing - but remember that in order to truly start a whole new life, you have to destroy your current one. it's not suicidal as in wanting to actually DIE die, it's just. wanting something close enough to scratch the itch. but just because you haven't booked the ticket doesn't mean you don't still revisit the 'vacation activities at point b' tab occasionally to daydream, yknow?" is i think very informative and specific, but its also quite long and run on-y so people are v likely to tap out like a third of the way through it, whereas "suicidal doesnt necessarily mean wanting to die" is way shorter and therefore catchier, but is also the kind of nonspecific phrasing that gets you a thousand angry anons about how you said all suicidal people are just pretending they actually want to die or some dumb shit. so it's a fun line to toe
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i feel a feeling that is genuinely intolerable and go "okay what do i do with this"
therapist brain says "feel ur feelings, its unhealthy to suppress all the time." rational brain says, "hi if we sit with this emotion then we are going to either be bleeding or dead in approximately ten minutes. so whats another option." therapist brain goes "wellll i guess in that case maybe u can distract urself idk, that can be a coping strategy sometimes." rational brain glances at emotion, shakes its head and shoots back "yeahhhh no can do there bud. this one's a real whopper and distractions ain't gonna cut it this time."
both sections of the brain shrug at each other and then The Disorder brain raises its hand smugly and simpers out "hiiii remember me? yeah this is the reason i exist teehee :) give me five minutes and I'll have an amnesia wall erected and another part of the brain shoved into the forefront and then we'll be right as rain! and this emotion can go rot in the locked cabinet of horrors until another part accidentally stumbles upon it again in the future or until the lock breaks. :)"
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