#these aren’t my best work i know

[angelbesideme]

you’re nothing like the monsters i grew up hating

FIRST KILL (2022)

#first kill #firstkilledit #firstkillcentral #wlwsource #wlwgif #tvedit #dailynetflix #dailylgbtq #dailywlw #lgbtsource #calliope burns #juliette fairmont #calliope x juliette #imani lewis #sarah catherine hook #ngl this has my attention 👀 #these aren’t my best work i know #gifs #mine

[gaydexvocaloid]

wil zola project with locs is my everything

#wil #zola project #zola project wil #vocaloid #I KNOW HE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT TO ‘CANON’ WIL BUT.. #I LOVE HIM.. #i’ve never rlly seen wil as green coded ngl #he just suits orange 2 me.. #first time drawing him with locs and i love it #if i made any errors that aren’t cartoon-style related with drawing them tho pls tell me #id like to draw them best i can in a cartoon style !!? #idk where that question mark came from anyway #i love wil zola project #i used no sketch so this may be off so whoops #i drew it after spending hours working on a wall ( tearing wallpaper putting plaster up #etc #so my hands were fucked #but . the sudden wil inspiration had me in a choke hold

[badolmen]

Incredibly frustrated by how condescendingly jaded my uncle can be but I’m being so brave about it <- not blowing him up with my mind even though I want to

#ra speaks #personal #I love him. but my dude. bruh. #made a comment abt how I should try working/volunteering w the homeless #after I commented on his tirade abt homeless ppl ‘gaming the system’ by getting arrested in the winter #to have somewhere warm w food to stay like ‘why are we not talking about how fucked it is that the homeless will fucking die if they don’t? #like sir. buddy. you do remember that I grew up on food stamp right? I have gone to a food bank as a recipient before. #I’ve volunteered at shelters and soup kitchens before. I know addicts and homeless people in town. #this isn’t some naive wide eyed college socialist ‘those poor homeless people are saints’ schitck #this is a tired university food pantry anarchist ‘aren’t you fucking tired of being cruel to people who make the best o thr circumstances?’ #sorry you can no longer see the divine value of every human life and must endure the tragedy #of considering everyone not to your standard a lost cause. #some of us see the work to be done and will be doing it instead of wallowing in hate and pity. #shut up and get to work like the rest of us if you hate it so much. #it’s just like *strangled him* you see me twice a year dude I DO WORK AT A SOUP KITCHEN YOU IDIOT #I just don’t talk abt it because it’s just something I do sorry I thought making acts of charity your whole personality #was vain and frowned upon in christian society??? #this makes my plans to ditch academia and go into fulltime aid work feel all the more. idk vindicated??? #that’s not the right word but you get it. uncle t I love you but you know fuck all and have hardened your heart to the world. #god break that heart of stone you have and bless you with love for your fellow man. or whatever. #for context this convo happened like two years ago but I saw him last week and in light of recent personal revelations I’ve remembered it #core memory locked in ‘are you for fucking real uncle t?’ #vocational woes

[oasisofgalaxies]

The epic highs and lows of clinging onto the belief that Cucurucho wants the best for everyone

#they aren’t human they don’t know how to go abt it!!! so their ways seem malevolent!!!! #or neutral trickster-ish at best!! #firmly believe they are an AI program working within their constraints #clutches them like a squeaky toy. I believe in you. you little freak. ur my favorite. #nebula rambles #Qsmp #qsmp cucurucho #qsmp census bureau

[pearloftheforest]

More art! Just some sketches of the gang, I wanna do more but first, work :| ah well

#Carmen Sandiego #Ivy #Zack #The duke #Paper star #player #Julia argent #red drone #el topo and le chevre are next #I know these aren’t my best work but they were fun #sketches #art #Carmen sandiego fanart

[extrasfromthevoid]

Oracle Trance -- Caught in The Moirai's Threads

I haven’t talked a lot about Milo’s power of clairvoyance yet, which is as shame because it’s such an integral part of her character! So many of her choices and so much of her personality are informed by this power, for better or worse

So.

Milo has foreseen the return of The Shredder since she was a literal infant. And as a literal infant, Milo couldn’t exactly articulate what it was about her “dreams” that distressed her so much. She woke up crying a lot, which her birth parents hated greatly because to an outside perspective, it seemed like she cried for no reason.

Those visions got graphic. As in, “experience the brutal deaths of yourself, your loved ones, and the entire world” levels of graphic. Her visions are primarily visual and tactile (you know how sometimes if you get hurt in a dream, you not only feel it in the dream but you get this weird phantom feeling where you got hurt when you wake up ? It’s basically that). When Milo was young, the content of the visions were poorly defined. Anything but the MAIN subject of the vision would be hazy shapes and blobs of color. This changes as she grows older and grows more in tune with her power.

The way it works is that Milo can perceive the unwoven threads of time and chance. Each thread represents a possible outcome and is made up of hundreds of thousands of variables. The aesthetic for time that I'm going for is--obviously--that of woven fabric.

The past is the pattern that's already been woven.

The present is what is currently being added to the overall fabric.

The future is the threads that have yet to be added and incorporated.

For her part, Milo can only see the unwoven threads.

Since there's so many loose threads and possibilities, it's easy for Milo to get "snagged" in them and have to view these futures continuously until she untangles her consciousness from these endless possible futures. This is what a waking vision (or an oracle trance) ultimately is. While in this state, if people ask Milo questions pertaining to the future, the threads with the answers to those questions become magnetized to her (like static, really), and only serves to entangle her further and make it harder and more difficult for Milo to separate her consciousness from her power. In fact, it would be insanely easy for Milo to get permanently stuck in this state because the threads of possibility she gets entangled in are unbreakable, so the only way out is to untangle herself (and anyone who's ever worked with thread or yarn knows how easily a Gordian Knot can form when you least want it).

What's more, being in a waking vision/oracle trance is not unlike having sleep paralysis. She's still somewhat conscious, her visions projecting themselves to her on her surroundings, but her thoughts outside her visions are sluggish--unable to fully divorce the visions from reality as she would normally--and her body is fully paralyzed.

(Eternity trapped in a waking vision is an unfortunate fate that many oracles have fallen prey to as in most cases, the people around them would value access to their power over them as people.)

The best way to deal with waking visions is for Milo to be left alone with minimal stimulation, so she can untangle herself in peace. The process can still take a while depending on how tangled she is, but it usually takes at least two days.

Milo gets her visions when she sleeps, though they don't happen every time she sleeps. She generally can sense when a vision is coming, especially if it's going to be very intense (those ones are proceeded with what Milo has dubbed "prelude migraines"). She doesn't have much control over what her visions show her, but the things that she thinks of most can influence them. And since Milo thinks a lot about The Shredder's return and keeping her family safe, these things feature frequently.

Being exposed to abrupt stimulus during these visions is what triggers a waking vision/oracle trance.

(Her brothers learned that the hard way when they were young. After experiencing one of Milo's waking visions for the first time, they collectively became pretty protective of her when they know she's having visions now that they are aware of just how vulnerable she is during this time)

ALSO

I've finally decided on what Milo's true origins (i.e. pre-Draxum origins) are! I've mostly been defaulting to my crossover origins, but I figured one out that is no crossover required!

(I'm still keeping Milo's universe DC adjacent because I have some very specific funny references I want to include)

So. Where did Milo come from? Why does she have such a frankly OP/meta power from birth?

Well...what race of people do we know of from the TMNT universe that collectively have mystical time powers and mysterious origins?

Time Masters, babyyy~~

#void's art #rottmnt oc: milo hamato #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #holy multiple light sources batman #i...honestly didnt even know how to BEGIN to shade and highlight this piece so i kind of gave up and did my best #the fact that I put Milo in a blue totk!zelda-style dress is VERY intentional :) #blue is the color that time masters' power takes and time masters have powers related to the past #milo on the other hand is an outlier w her golden yellow future powers #I’ve ended up assigning the time masters a greco-zonai aesthetic style bc every time I think of Milo’s powers I think oracle of delphi #and the fates (and maybe the norns). and i just...instinctively put milo in a totk!zelda dress so theres also that #even tho the time masters aren’t JUST a bunch of crusty European dudes (they are a bunch of arrogant past-obsessed jerks tho) #anyway. milo’s dress #it’s meant to be a nod towards her heritage as a time master so whenever she’s in her oracle mind space she’ll be wearing that #milo doesn’t know what time masters are let alone that she IS one bc she was a literal toddler when she was abandoned in nyc by her father #her father had been trying to get rid of his ‘’defective’’ offspring for a while but she kept coming back #another reason I conflated the time masters w Greek myth is bc Milo’s father tried to do w her what all greek kings did w unwanted kids: #abandon them in the wilderness to die from exposure so they didnt have to do DIRECT infanticide #yeah...milo's birth father is a real piece of work #also the transparent blue crown thing w the yellow eye-dots is supposed to be a time master head piece #i somehow conflated the helmet renet wore in 12!tmnt w a jack kirby galactus helmet lmao #(i actually like this design tho so i dont think i'll change it. maybe i'll design a few alternates but i'll stick w this one :3) #for a regular time master like milo's sperm donor it would be plain blue...but she's got the 'yellow impurity' so it shows through #my time masters are all about the orderly preservation and curation of the past. they have no patience or reverence for the chaotic future #hence why milo was deemed 'defective' and cast out #tag rambles

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike. #i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

[arolesbianism]

Beginners guide to my Jackie and Olivia universe thoughts except the handwriting might be kinda unreadable so idk figure it out

#keese draws #oxygen not included #olivia broussard #jackie stern #also to be clear everything I have for the rabbit and raccoon universes is completely pulled out of my ass lol #I just wanted to play around with the idea of every universe in oni having the same results despite wild differences #in canon they’re both probably near identical outside of what critters olivia works with #but I find it fun imagining those moments in the logs as the moments that come closest to converging #three olivias who are all wildly different but despite it all still end up in a lab feeding their favorite critters in near perfect sync #three separate jackies with varying amounts of respect for olivia each deciding to rid of olivia’s critters #three separate pairs each holding near identical conversations through text that even then could have varried wildly in tone if heard #two women who have a strained relationship two women who don’t realize how bad things are between them and two women who are on the offense #anyways rabbit universe is my favorite of the other two to think abt because god it’s so fun imagining jackie slowly realize that olivia #may have slowly but surely become like super dangerous to both herself and others and that it was initially to support her but now it’s #gotten Way out of hand and jackie doesn’t know how to try to bring it up because she has things that she deems more important to do #and anytime she does try to push her away from the work she’s been doing to focus on other things she at best does it in secret #the problem with people who consider themselves righteous is that they can become incredibly dangerous if they aren’t #now jackie sort of considers herself righteous but I don’t think that’s her primary motivation in scientific advancement #she is far more motivated by the thrill of progress and as such operates less on is what I’m doing right and more how do I most effectively #get this done and as such she’s incredibly strict and shitty to people and is more than willing to cut corners that she rly shouldn’t #the thrill of progress also appeals to olivia deeply but she generally sees herself as a moral person #which even in canon leads to olivia coming off as kind of hypocritical as anything that doesn’t make her actively uncomfortable doesn’t rly #seem to register to her as a problem #her morals are kind of dictated by her personal comforts and as such an olivia who is comfortable with doing questionable experiments is an #olivia who doesn’t see them as questionable at all #now I do imagine rabbit universe olivia is generally nicer to employees than jackie is #but mostly in the sense that she gives them proper breaks and lets them do fun activities and such #she is still mostly invested in optimization she just knows that rested employees are productive employees unlike jackie #like if someone has a breakdown over the work they’re forced to do she’ll send them home early but she will expect them to get back to it #so she’s not actually like. that good to the ppl working under her. she’s just not as bad as jackie

[cloverwoodss]

I started to attempt crafting. But- I suck at painting. I end up doing a flat dark grey modge podge coat then leave it because every time I try it looks soooooo weird 😅

But seeing it black and white with drawn lines (I used a ballpoint pen to ‘carve’ shapes & plan) makes me want to experiment coloring

#not the best but I’m having fun #I stuck at the painting part tho #but I know I’ll get better #even tho that ballpoint pen look has got me wanting to experiment with coloring styles 👀 #and my hands aren’t shaky anymore since I told my psych I was tired of Wellbutrin causing it #so now I can do smaller work without fixing up lmaoooo #crafting #my crafts #i also love watching crafters #my art

[filmcel]

Hey man, some advice from someone on their way into their mid twenties: don’t continue into higher education if you don’t want to. I know it’s easier said than done, but I mean it wholeheartedly. School is draining, and if just the thought of it is causing you stress, than actually going will be worse. It’s hard when it feels as though there’s all of this pressure to not disappoint yourself parents or anyone else that expects this of you, but you are what matters most. You should be your top priority. You should do the things that are in your own best interest. I tried to go to college multiple times after graduating (and struggling to do so immensely despite the fact that I’m smart and school came easy to me. I was just incredibly burnt out on life by that point) and it never ended up working out. College isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay. You’re not less than or a failure for not doing what society tells you you have to do to be successful. You can find meaningful work that doesn’t break your body and soul without college. You can maintain or create new friendships without college. Put yourself first, and you’re doing great 💜

thank you 😭

#saying more in tags bc i’m shy #currently bc i’m so young i’m just going to stay with what i’m doing #i was able to figure out my shit for today and i start next week #i’m an easy quitter so if i fucking despise it u best believe i’m leaving #but maybe it ends up being amazing. i rlly don’t know . #just doing this now to please my family. #i still work and i have friends. my future goals aren’t limited to school and i have to remind myself of that. #getting a life outside of school has helped me become a better person i think. #and i hope if i remember that i do have a life outside of school i’ll survive going to class if i know it’s not the end of the world if i’m #not the absolute best. #for now i’m too young to say no to my parents #all things considered i should just say no #but living w them is hell dealing w this #i think my best option is to dip my toes in and see how it goes. #i don’t even have to push myself too hard. and they won’t either bc they know anything is better than nothing #but i do not regret at all the time i spent out of school #i was able to work so much and as annoying as work can b i’m very grateful i got to do that #bc not only has that helped me make my closest friends but also …MONEY. #soon i’ll get a car. and soon i can start planning my own future #captain’s log #One step at a time ☝️🙏 #incoming transmission #i appreciate u anon . #but this year i’m going to try and b easy on myself #we’ll see how that goes #also it’s low stakes bc it’s just community college #maybe if i can take stuff that interests me i can figure myself out more #bc while ik ever job doesn’t NEED college degree. idk what i want to work in. #there’s things i’d love to do. but i have zero knowledge of anything

[possibilistfanfiction]

What's your favorite thing about your dog?

literally everything but i think the best thing about charli is her completely honest joy. like when she’s excited about something, or happy, or even peaceful, she has this big smile & her body wiggles & it’s just the best. she means it! her delight!

she’s SO incredibly smart & sensitive & so being able to watch her learn, have a deep bond with her, & give her safe, wonderful & enriching experiences has changed my life & shapes it still. re-parenting myself through a border collie is kind of funny but it’s been amazing to kind of learn about self-patience & compassion thru working w char. if ppl are dog nerds, rly committing to R+ training (& understanding why) has been amazing for both of us. i love to watch her work through problems & understand my cues & marking; i love to make her really healthy, enjoyable, & varied food; i love to come up with a bunch of fun enrichment. i love when she’ll sleep at my feet.

& bc she’s smart & sensitive, i don’t take her love for me or trust in me lightly. it’s a serious honor in my life to be in right relationship & partnership w her silly little self, & i think often abt how i earn it all the time: by being patient, & gentle, & encouraging, & fun. dogs, & especially border collies, are so generous but they’re also discerning. every time charli feels scared or just not confident now, she just comes to me instead of reacting — for treats, for safety, because she wants to. we’ve worked on hard stuff like that & recall since she was tiny & to see her progress as i look back is so fulfilling (for both of us). i’ve had her almost 3 years & our bond really is one of the things i’m most proud of

idk. big star by lorde. she’s my girl. she’s just the best dog

#she is PSYCHO don’t forget however #my best GIRL my big girl lil char #also her gold eyes. her bat ears #Also ppl will compliment us on her behavior & in my head i’m like it’s nowhere near where i want it to be #but then like�� she works so hard & she does So well she’s the happiest dog i know #so she has taught me grace too! unreasonably high standards aren’t fair. it’s ok to be a little unhinged sometimes! #charli

[imissjensi]

shannon you mean to tell me that with an indefinite lifespan elves choose to work retail? when everyone has the same amount of money? what the fuck? sophie go reinstate the human assistance program immediately so these bitches can take a decades long vacay in Paris or something free them from the capitalist hellscape that simultaneously has infinite money.

#kotlc #kotlc fandom #keeper of the lost cities #let elves have fun 2022 #LET ELVES VACATION 2022 #because they don’t really go on vacations either #the kids get breaks from school but like #nowhere in their workd is inaccessible for them they just hop on a beam of light and poof #nothing they do is really new for them #let elves go to disney world #open the sanctuary to the public for a week or something and let elves visit #bc if i were an elf i’d be bored out of my mind #della no i do not understand working forever with an indefinite lifespan #you know what i make my immortal sims do when i play the sims? i make them master every skill and every job and every aspiration #elves should do that too they have the opportunity to 100% life why aren’t they taking it #bronte you are thousands of years old how do you not have the best telekinesis on the council you’ve had literal millenia to practice bro

[theshadowrealmitself]

I’ve been thinking about an au where Romulans aren’t, like, the evil villain species (cause I hate the idea of villainizing an entire species), but Romulans and Vulcans still hate each other and what kind of differences the two species would have

(Especially in their interactions with humans because I adore alien/human interactions, whether it’s platonic, romantic, familial, etc)

And I’m gonna need to hear y’all’s opinions cause I think I’m getting very ooc with it because, to me, Vulcans have a nosey nelly problem, they act like they don’t but they are incredibly up into Humans’ businesses, so I feel like, in contrast to that, Romulans would be incredibly smug about not caring about Humans, just ignoring them when they act extremely “illogical” or whatever, just like “look at us, we don’t care at all, we’re unbothered”

#good that’s probably ooc #the specific interaction I’m thinking about #is how they’d interact to those skating outfits #you know the really cool ones that sorta look derby inspired but also decorative #with the chokers and chain garter belts #I love when women wear those they look so cool!! #but also with the shorts that ride up when they get sweaty and the crop tops get me flustered #looking respectfully I swear #so I was thinking about how aliens would react to that #a cute human with shorts and a crop top and all those heart chains and garter belt #who is sweaty and red faced from working out #and I don’t know if Vulcans would get flustered but my immediate thought was like ‘oh they’d have something to say #about the ‘illogical’ outfit’ #although that’s kinda reductive for the whole species #but on average how do you think they’d react? #I also feel like Romulans would be competitive with them and all do their best NOT to look at the human #‘look how little we care’ #this is all just a setup for a joke about a human preferring to walk by Romulans #just because when you feel sweaty and gross you prefer walking by people who aren’t looking at you at all #I love women so much #love when women rock cool outfits #would love to see men skating in shorts and crop tops and chain garter belt things as well 👀 #and nb people #👀👀👀 #unfortunately I know I don’t really pull that look off 😭 #Star Trek #humans #Vulcans #Romulans #edit: didn’t like how I spelled Nelly

[crabussy]

I love my headmates so much. that’s the post I’m just feeling sappy today

#they’ve helped me through so much… #bee offering hugs whenever everything is too much #claire being strict about me eating well #moon switching in when I’m too worked up to handle something #the jokes we’ve shared… the conversations we’ve had #all those games of othello Ive lost…. #thanks guys. it’s not easy being a system but having you guys here makes it worth it I think #yeah it’s stressful and exhausting and scary a lot of the time but some of my best friends are in my HEAD which is very cool to be honest #and to the headmates I don’t know that well/aren’t close with: you guys too. I care you even if we don’t talk much #robin shut up challenge #Im always nervous to post about my experience as a system alter but. this one is worth it #osdd #did

[6ebe]

trying to get a job with disabilities is so hard bc everywhere wants to say they’re ‘disability friendly employers’ but that means they’ll give you ‘reasonable accommodations’ once you’re already through the door. It’s not considered in hiring practises. like not even interviewing people with disabilities bc they don’t have an internship is such a hilarious manifestation of ableism bc like. the reason I didn’t do an internship was bc of my disability ..

#not to mention that job i got rejected from bc of a glorified personality test #like as if my ‘workplace preferences’ (and it was like whixh statement best applies to you) and self perception aren’t impacted by disabilit #like I’m not saying I should get jobs out of pity but it’s like #I’m not competing at the same level as my peers and I know I’m a relatively ‘high functioning ’ disabled person #but I hate that label bc it’s so misleading #like I need so much to be able to function and even my functioning is at so much more personal expense than for my abled peers #it’s just so exhausting and demotivating #especially with the perpetual self doubt abt whether I’ll be able to hold a Job down longterm in the first place #and like I’m estranged I don’t have backup money I need to work to live .. #and I’m in the process of getting diagnosed with another chronic health condition it’s just so..

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I have no idea if I am upset or not bc I simply am not that in tune with my emotions rn but like man. It’s gonna be weird

#like I won’t feel like if I want some quiet time then I have to hide out in my room #and I won’t have to hear republican news all day everyday #but also. that is my mother. and like there’s nothing I do with her because we have nothing in common #but also I would still talk to her. she was on my nerves more often than not but that’s just because she and I aren’t fit to live together #we were meant to live apart and then we can get along #but I don’t know that she’ll ever speak to me again after today. i don’t need her to live with me #in fact I’d prefer she didn’t. but that doesn’t mean I want her out of my life #now my dad wants me to take a weekend off to go to Maine with him. and it’s like. i have work. but also Idk that I feel like doing that #when I was depressed in middle school and hated everyone my mother was the one who I talked to. and she wasn’t particularly helpful #and never thought to get me help and she was miserable herself so we were just collectively miserable I definitely said my fair share of #hurtful things. because I know my misery stemmed from my parents and I told her I wanted to leave and I didnt think I ever wanted to be back #and I know she still remembers bc she’s commented on it within the last several months. she never forgets. just stews on things #apparently she’s still stewing on things from when I was 4 #her leaving today was incredibly immature and she said some very hurtful things #and like I do this it’s best she moves out! and I hope in time she can realize the way she did it was wrong #i just wouldn’t be surprised if she became a stranger to me #I don’t know if I’ll see her on Christmas or my birthday or any other day #soup talks