#these men own my soul

[dilfbuck]

#911 #911edit #911 fox #911 abc #evan buckley #eddie diaz #chimney han #bobby nash #athena grant #userknight #usercam #.gfx #this is so stupid lmao i just wanted to make a shitpost for my own sanity #to make up for the last gifset i made that sucked my soul out #no caption we die like men on my low effort post

[m0mmys-brat]

aching, yearning, dreaming of a good slow fuck, one where mommy talks thru everything, helps the stress melt away. Where mommy makes me cum as many times as she can make me until I’m in tears. The she just shushes me whispering to me how good I’m doing, it’s okay, I’m such a good girl for her. 😭

Want mommy to make it all go away, the stress and emotions. Finger me till my brain is mush and I can’t for a sentence, just whines, moans and “mommy” coming from my mouth.

“Shhhh baby I know, mommy’s got you, you’re doing so good for me.”

Then finally mommy pulls be strap out, slow thrusts as I cry from overstimulation and emotions.

“Now don’t you look so pretty crying on my cock”

Kissing my face with each thrust as she keeps telling me it’s okay & how good I am for her.

#I’m fucking k*lling myself with my own imagination. Would sell my soul for this right now #men dont interact #lesbian #m0mmys-brat #mommy k!nk #lesbian smut #lesbian nsft #wlw nsft #mommy smut #wlw smut #subby mood

[daguerreotyping]

Daguerreotype of a handsome youth with haunting eyes, circa 1850

#the wet plate process makes blues come out lighter so it is possible that this man's eyes were not quite this intensely pale irl #but what an incredibly striking effect! his name is unrecorded but here he is 170 years on staring into your soul #19th century #19th century fashion #19th century photography #daguerreotype #historical fashion #fashion history #men's fashion #1800s #1850s #this is probably my favorite piece from my own collection #absolutely nail-biting auction #my collection

[mintharasthrone]

mothers of sons never fail at lacking in empathy for women and girls 🙄

#and their own daughters of course #i saw that video of the mom being like yeah i love my daughter but my son he is my EVERYTHING i always wanted a son #he is my heart and soul and my joy! KYS #those daughter abusing women can rot and you can imagine how much they would hate a gay or gnc daughter #all men includes your trash son too

[pocket-ozwynn]

I wish that media wouldn’t treat a man being saved by a woman as a joke or something to be ashamed by. I’m having childhood flashbacks of all the times I wanted to have media that allowed for men to be saved, men to be sensitive, etc. A younger me could’ve benefited immensely from that kind of healthy representation that anyone is worth saving & showing emotions.

#if y'all could recommend any good shows or movies that show this trope in a good positive light please let me know #I need that for my SOUL #of course joke's on Media cuz I'm writing my OWN female characters saving their men and the guys finding that ATTRACTIVE

[cthulhusstepmom]

Ghost is a walking dichotomy, Soap has discovered. He's watched him strip the layers of a man's skin away to get information from him, seen him snap someone's neck in as little time as it takes to take a breath. But he's also so capable of heartbreaking kindness. His genuine concern for the fish, the way he saves the best part of his plate for Soap; offering it to him with reverence. The way he's cleaning Johnny's wound so tenderly. It's in these moments of gentleness where Johnny almost forgets what they do, what they've seen, who they are.

So when Ghost's voice snaps into that serious tone it's almost like a slap in his dizzy, goofily smiling, face.

"Wha?"

"Where is it? I'll get rid of it for you." Under the sharp tone is still that lethal gentleness, and even under that is a shaking fear.

"Oh, oh Ghost." He shifts, uncomfortable in his skin and wanting to be anywhere but here. "Ye... Ye cannae get rid of it."

His Lieutenant draws back a little, a mix of apprehension and offense in his eyes.

"It hurt you, nothing else matters."

Soap can feel his heart splitting as his throat starts to burn. Ghost stares up at him with fiery eyes, hands still holding his wrist so so softly.

"Where is the snake Soap? I promise you it'll never hurt you again. Whoever brought it in is going to have hell to pay too." He earnestly promises and Soap feels a single hot tear slip out of his eye.

"Ghost..." He chokes out. "Simon... It's mine."

The small room goes silent. Nothing even dares to move but for the violent flinch the sentence rips out of Ghost.

He doesn't dare say anything, doesn't dare to move or even breathe. He looks down at Ghost and Ghost meets his stare with turmoil roiling in his gaze.

Soap doesn't know what he expected, screaming or sobbing or angry silence but the frantic confusion he can see in the other man is as far as can be from what he'd thought he'd get.

They sit there like that for a few long moments, each absorbed in his own thoughts, before Ghost slowly rises from his kneel. If Johnny were in better spirits he would tease him for the quiet cracks his knees make. And with that violent tenderness he slowly curls an arm around Johnny and leans him down into the bed, pressing behind him and holding him close just like they'd done on any number of frigid nights out in the blind. And they just sit there holding each other in silence as they slowly drift into a dreamless sleep.

#in this canon this is the first time theyve done something that can't be explained away by extenuating circumstances #but you don't really save the best parts of your meal religiously for your subordinate who youre friends with #Ghost is devoted to Soap #full stop #and Soap is dedicated to Ghost 100% #i hear you “Cthulhu why are the emotionally constipated military men just cuddling instead of resolving their issues unhealthily?” #to which i say: #Ghost just had his world tilted on its axis #a constant in his life is that snakes are bad and the people who keep them are bad people who do bad things #like his father #but here's John “he owns my soul” MacTavish bleeding profusely and still not letting Ghost kill the snake also being unquestionably good #even though he understands intellectually that Soap has done bad things #hes watched the little punk blow up shit for the sake of it and literally clip a car battery to a man's ears #that doesn't matter because Johnny is Good with a capital G and he is the exact opposite of Ghost's father #so he really doesnt have it in him to be angry and he just needs to hold close to the constancy and try to reconcile his new information #And Soap is just so so ready to be immediately rejected and never see Simon again #he doesn't want to sacrifice what he maybe has with Ghost to protect his rescues #because they need him and they didnt ask to be what they are or where they are #so hes just so so relieved that Ghost hasnt ordered him out and killed all of his babies #because he's seen Ghost shoot a dog in yhe head on a mission for barking and Ghost loves dogs #he doesnt want to see what Ghost would do to an animal he doesn't like #I HOPE THIS IS BETTER THAN THE CLIFFHANGERS #GUYS THERES SO MUCH CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT COMING #AHOFFBIDKSHAIAKBZJA #cod mw2 #fish person gaz #ghost x soap #ghostsoap #reptile person soap

[wnterslder]

hi besties, am on a work trip that's soon to wrap up ——— a reminder that you are very cherished here, and the love and effort spent crafting your muse ( canon, oc, rewritten — everything ! ) translates !! + we love to see you excited about writing them ALWAYS !

#we : me and all the old men in my head #but seriously there are truly great people here :') #some i can't see characters or faceclaims without thinking of their muses #BUT !!! i want to get a few things written up first #and i'll jump back into dms yes yes ?? #<3 thank u truly for your patience ghksfjdhg #and my ... uh !!! little posts about a silly game #bucky still owns my soul

[famewolf]

cishet men really do just be saying things to me because they think i am also cis

i am often appalled at the things they decide are ok to say/think out loud to other men because they think it's a 'safe space' to say it

#[static] #you are in fact NOT in a safe space to play devil's advocate and you are now my mortal enemy #and i will also tell you to your face that you're wrong lmao #them: but have you ever thought about [insert innate human right] being something we should not let people have a choice on? #me: no ... and also I am now oathbound to destroy your soul #no but really im often like 'that's fucked up you should really think about what you just said' #even as a guy who is openly queer and talks about my husband ... cis het men will just ..... say the most awful take as if i agree w/ them #my jaw drops to the floor every time like .... they just SAY shit without even thinking about it for a moment #how hard is it to care about other human beings and let people have their own autonomy ??? #youd think it was difficult lmao #this isnt even about lgbtq+ stuff ... like the things they say about women or other races/cultures im just like .... stunned and horrified #in the last 24 hours ive had to verbally suplex three different cis men

[mintygreencake]

Fuck it, showing my Dnd OCs because my campaign is coming up again and I adore these two

#dnd #dnd oc #dnd character #dnd charcter art #dnd paladin #dnd warlock #dnd wood elf #dnd half elf #dating a warlock while veing a paladin and a preacher is wild 💀 #getting killed by your lover after being brainwashed by their mother and then realizing while your dying is crazy 💀 #then coming back but your stuck in your own mind while the demon you sold your soul to takes control of your body is hella wild 😭 #the lore of these two is just out of pocket #love my lil gay men tho #doomed yaoi

[katyspersonal]

3 for Aldrich, Aldia, Willem & Laurence

9 for Maria

11 for Micolash & Aldrich

24 for Laurence

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

3) What first drew you to this character?

As for Aldrich, I vaguely recall finding out that he checks the traits I like the most? He was one of the characters I've learned about through fandom and not on my own, and I think this ancient meme about summarises it:

Also:

@val-of-the-north SHUDDUP you're basically so horny for Laurence/Logarius/Snatchers that you can't even picture them in your mind in any way but being naked!!!!!!! *casts the stone back at u*

With Laurence, like with Mico, it was the very first glance at the character in Youtube compilation with boss themes and concept art image. I did not know the lore yet, but the design and the music made me imagine Laurence as sort of aged, sagely librarian. I could not imagine back then that his boss fight would be him being a "helpless abhorrent little mewmew" as kids call it! Heck, I thought he'd have dialogue despite the monster form x) In a way, my first impression was not wrong, with the cut content of him actually talking even in a beast form, and implication of him being a son of Cainhurst cut content librarian NPC! I have intuition for cut content before having information, hahaha!

I have nothing to say about Willem. It might be a memory gap thing, but I swear at some point I feel I was turned off and then booted back up with liking this character already installed in my system x) As for Aldia.... ugh for fuck's sake... yeah, it was this legend:

I was absolutely floored by this stupid vid even without knowing any context, but I also instantly liked this character. I didn't even know his name yet, but the voice acting and long yapping about philosophy already pulled me in XD (Also unironically, this video is precisely how I give relationship advice fhfhdds)

9) Does this character remind you of anyone you know? Does that affect how you see them?

Yeah, I know this person. I know them very well. I know them more than anyone else. Someone who was misguided (by their destructive influence mentor figure, by their own foolishness and past history, or combination of both, who can tell anymore?) into committing awful things, then despaired over their sins and attempted redemption but also failed in some way? This person is me. At some point I've found myself in front of horrible truth about my past life and personality, and knew I was guilty and sullied forever. That it was over for me as a human being, but that didn't matter, and I could only keep people safe by locking myself away and trying to serve something better.

......annnnd it took a few years of more informed people to (metaphorically) shake me and slap my face into lucidity, explaining to me that I've fallen for the "BPD demonization" that was going far beyond than my individual failure as a friend, and we are always accused of abuse and causing irreversible harm when the worst we do is being emotionally overbearing. I kept losing trust to those friends, telling them that they were enablers who tried to gaslight me into thinking I was not 'that much of a monster', until it was other people with BPD who 'shook me and slapped my face into lucidity'. xd Nonetheless, even though now I know the truth about how society treats BPDs, I remember the feeling of being so monstrous and harmful that I was not even allowed to "touch" people with my dirty hands, how my reality used to be. So, I could write Maria going through this effortlessly, especially considering what she did was more plain and tangible!

In fact... thank you for asking me about this, because I kept wondering why I had such frequent dreams about being Maria, and why the Maria in my dreams acts like abused child that took back control against Gehrman despite my portrayal of the guy being so different. And now the puzzle is solved! That part of me still lives inside, it seems.

11) How did you “fall in love” with this character?

Already answered this for Micolash here: ( x )! As for Aldrich, it was through properly analysing the bigger picture and context of his actions. I've figured that his madness was, in fact, being informed on what was far too ahead of everyone else around him! He, like the rest of the cast, is trapped in the rotting, doomed world in which the only choices are 1) "die with dignity" or 2) commit something unthinkable from moral standpoint for a chance to escape. And will morality of the rotting world will matter in the new world anyways? Won't it all be left behind and be forgiven?

The guy also tried to take everyone else he could with him, like sort of a fucked up Noah's Arc! I can tell that they reused the concept with Rykard, at least, I am glad they know what works xD I'd say that the sadism he experienced upon eating people was either result of insanity (he understood a thing no one should understand), or still didn't exclude the bigger purpose (egotistically revelling in how holy he is helping everyone and doing what no one else dared, which would be like my Laurence). In any case, I have the strongest respect to the courage it takes to transcend the bonds of morality and compassion in order to to greater good. Being burdened with the knowledge of how the world really works, and choosing to push through instead of still being bound... This is why I also like Fauxsefka; learning how this world works, she chose to turn people into Kin so they can't ever become beasts. I am weak for this trope, you don't understand.

24) Do you ever dream about this character? If so, describe a dream you once had about them.

Laurence appears in my dreams only in two contexts: 1) Micolaurence or 2) dreams about finding secret files in Bloodborne that reveal his canonical appearance before beasthood! I can tell the latter comes from my everlasting unsatisfaction with my design for him, because I love it but it doesn't feel "fitting" and I can't identify why!

The former, I think, fandom rubbing onto me x) In two of these dreams, I was Laurence. In other two, I was Micolash. In one of Laurence dreams it was mutual, in the second one I was in love unrequited. In one of Micolash dreams, it was mutual, and in another it was not.. Basically, my dreams allows me to experience this ship from every possible angle. o_o Waiting for more I guess fhhdfsfd

______________

Thank you for asking! And.. without exaggeration, you've just done quite a psychological work on me by just asking the right thing. I need to think about that, hahaha

#bloodborne #dark souls 3 #aldrich devourer of gods #laurence the first vicar #soulsborne #ask replies #personal #memories #dreams #honestly I remember Maria in my dreams hiding in the closet like an abused bullied child.. that big strong woman reduced to this #and I finally know why it was this way #I'd rather not sully Gehrman with something as dirty as my stepdad of course he deserves so much more and he is his own man #I just don't like the approach of turning characters with their own stories and personality into vessels for my trauma #it feels like frenzied flame: you got infected by it and you have unending need to spread it. to scorch the world in your pain. #I don't think this approach would help my healing but instead make me feel worse by nourishing the trauma #I am keeping it sealed away from the world forever now </3 #see this is why it hurts me so much when gehrman haters accuse me of being insensitive to people that want to project their negative- #-experiences with men and misogyny onto him even if that means twisting the actual story and character. I do have a reason to do it myself #I just choose not to because I personally dislike the idea of making fandomry about myself more and about source material less #I don't want to bring the pain and horrors inside me into something that doesn't have them. some things can stay clean! #the passive aggression between canon worshippers and fanon enforcers is something that cannot be avoided in the fandoms #and I disapprove of the lie about 100% peace and mutual respect between the 'camps'. we will never FULLY like each other #each thinks their approach is more productive for the community. and that's fine!

[caspianofcamelot]

Got some reason top gun has been on my mind all week. So enjoy my class doodles of rooster 🐔

#maverickmen #rooster top gun #miles teller #top gun rooster #top gun maverick #top gun fanart #fanart #male art #portrait #portrait art #sketch #sketching #omfg rooster is so pretty #mile teller owns my soul #sereshaw #pretty boy #pretty men #men #artists on tumblr #my art blog #art school

[britneyshakespeare]

you know i am unfortunately so much like all of the men in my family

#my mostly-male family with some talkative and sociable women #you know what it's fine! i like the men in my family #theyre not warm or approachable. if you catch them when they werent expecting you theyll freeze #even the kindest of them! #it's called ~social anxiety~ or maybe it's called being irish catholic you know what do your own research #tales from diana #i went with my mother into my uncles' place of business bc she had a gift for my uncle t and his wife #she spent 10 minutes gabbing w my cousin who also works there #when i tell you that of my dad's four brothers this one is the kindest. a VERY kind and gentle soul #he didn't have 10 words to say and neither did i. thank you uncle for being relatable

[my-soupy-brain]

I'm gonna leave this here.

#why men are trash #old soul my ass #hot take: it's hot when people date people their own age #change my mind

[ink-asunder]

[Id: a screenshot of a tumblr post with tags. One of the tags has a quote with double quotation marks around it. End id.]

?? Whuh? ???

Can we. Can we use quotation marks in tags now??

EDIT: IT'S REAL!!!!

#these were proper quote btw; this is one of my posts on my side blog. #usually quotes splice the tags?? so the phrase in quotes separates into its own tag #for example!! #when i made a post abt maka soul eater i used the tag #chaoter 1 literally said “kill all men” and yet the rest of the series is like this #and then that post did really poorly because it removed the kill all men tag and put it first when that is!! not what i said!! #anyway im posting this now and if it has spliced the kill all men tag we know what happened

[lesbianlenas]

i just saw a post written by a bi woman that was like i am such a dyke for [being attracted to men]. i cannot take it anymore i think this is my last straw fr i am going to delete my blog and smash my modem so i can live internet free in peace bc i legit cannot do this anymore. like i CANNOT.

#michelle speaks #like not only do you say A LESBIAN SLUR when u are not even a lesbian #u say it IN RELATION FOR YOUR ATTRACTION TO MEN????????? #oh haha it’s just a joke like to U!!!! i’m glad U r comfortable making a joke at the expense of lesbians #while referring to ur own opposite sex attraction through a lesbian slur. DIE!!!!!!!!!! #like how much am i supposed to take as a lesbian? fr? how much do i have to go thru? #ppl r too comfortable saying things online. they r too comfortable saying slurs. if u r calling urself a dyke in the same breath #as talking abt being attracted to men calling that attraction dykey. get offline & do some soul searching. DISGUSTING!!!!! #genuinely i am actually so angry. like that just made me sooooo mad. at my breaking point fr.

[terrainofheartfelt]

FOR THE BIG MUSIC ASK GAME LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOO 🎸🎸🎸🎸🎸🎸🎸

Artists: Joni Mitchell, Taylor Swift, Queen, Frank Turner

Albums: Pretty. Odd, evermore, Nebraska, Blonde on Blonde

this ask feels like a homework essay question but like, in a subject I'm passionate about. so it's okay. daunting, but.

Joni:

Do I know them already?: yes | no

Favourite Song: A Case of You, it has to be!!!!

(okay but also there's a recording of her playing Chelsea Morning live at Carnegie Hall and it is ~magical~)

Least Favourite Song: I mean there isn't a song by her that I dislike, but maybe one I know that I listen to the least....Big Yellow Taxi. because it makes me sad. she warned us about paving paradise and we didn't listen!!!!!!

Favourite Album: Blue 💙💙💙💙💙

Least Favourite Album: idk a lot of her discography (Blue the album of my heart) but uhhhhh the orchestral funky Both Sides Now (I just like her better when it's just her and her dulcimer <3)

Song that got me into them: oh geez my mother's always loved her. so maybe...my mom singing Both Sides Now in the car?

Seen Live?: i WISH (gimme a time machine and I will just take it to the '70s to see bands & artists play in their prime)

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10

Taylor:

Do I know them already?: yes | no 

Favourite Song: legally I am required to say "ivy"

Least Favourite Song: Dancing with Our Hands Tied (because it was popular when I worked retail so I heard it wayyyyyyyyy too much and now I can't stand it. is it a good song? idk. because I have too much retail trauma to determine that.)

Favourite Album: right now, it's Reputation

Least Favourite Album: Speak Now, probably? It missed me, and I haven't sought it out on streaming bc Girl's pre-1989 singing voice just...doesn't do it for me.

Song that got me into them: pfffft probably "Our Song" in the year of our lord 2006. I remember logging onto the Yahoo music website in Internet Explorer to look up her music videos, because that's the only way I could listen to her music (without buying the cds, my allowance was designated to higher musical priorities back then.) but I didn't really consider myself a Fan until the Bad Blood music video.

Seen Live?: nope. I don't really want to either. I like her best in studio. or, ideal scenario, hearing her live in Long Pond Studio, but that seems a bit of a long shot

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 her songwriting is a ten her vocals are a 5

Queen:

Do I know them already?: yes | no 

Favourite Song: Somebody to Love!

Least Favourite Song: thee ummm. the bicycle one. ah damn, now it's in my head.

Favourite Album: okay so the thing about many of these bands that I grew up listening to is that I have like, a very limited concept of which albums are which, because I just absorbed them riding in the car with my dad or my mom. I'll say A Night at the Opera bc it's a great title :)

Least Favourite Album: uhhhhh anything they released after Freddie?

Song that got me into them: probably The Muppets music video of Bohemian Rhapsody?

Seen Live?: no, alas, but I have seen P!ATD cover Bohemian Rhapsody live

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 

Frank Turner:

Do I know them already?: yes | no 

Favourite Song: not a fair question. uhm mmmmmm...The Way I Tend to Be, Broken Piano, Isabel, Poetry of the Deed, To Take You Home, Josephine....I could go on

Least Favourite Song: motherfucker truly has soooo many songs and I know a lot of them but there are many I've haven't heard. maybe Common Ground. or Little Changes.

Favourite Album: England Keep My Bones

Least Favourite Album: Be More Kind

Song that got me into them: my big brother put Nashville Tennessee on a mix cd he made for my birthday when I was...13? and I've only become more and more obsessed.

Seen Live?: HELL YES. in college my brother and my x-tian sorority big (we're both atheists now lmao) and me roadtripped 3 hours to Dallas to see him on his tour for Tape Deck Heart. One of the best live shows I've seen. He just...comes ALIVE onstage. and we met him at stage door and I took a picture with him <3 I think (hope) I still have it somewhere. I was a music major and wanted to tell him how much his music meant to me but I think I was too starstruck to say anything other than "hiiiii" and "thank you!" also thee zaniest opening act I have ever seen I'll never forget it

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 

Pretty. Odd. it isn't my favorite album of theirs, but it is a masterpiece.

Opinion on cover design: LOVE. I really enjoy the old-timey circus van vibe, evocative of Magical Mystery Tour, which seems a heavy inspiration.

Favourite song: That Green Gentleman

Least favourite song: narrowwww question because I have a pretty equal fondness for all the songs. maybe, The Piano Knows Something I Don't

Underrated track: When the Day Met the Night & Folkin' Around

Overrated track: Nine in the Afternoon (even though I adore it but it gets much more hype than any other track)

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 

evermore undoubtedly her magnum opus. the best music she's ever written

Opinion on cover design: simple, effective, lovely, sets the mood and the tone of the album. and she has such a habit of...overdoing visuals? her last half dozen music videos or so have been like, baroque in how over the top their visual design. like, willow the video does not match how the song or the rest of the album feels. idk. the simplicity here works for me, but I think sometimes she can't let something Be.

Favourite song: I already said ivy above so....no body no crime

Least favourite song: cowboy like me (it's otherwise a great song, but i so dislike the opening stanza 'dancing is a dangerous game' mam. you can do better than that. you've a whole album of evidence.)

Underrated track: closure (a Banger)

Overrated track: champagne problems (not that it's not a good song but the way it's gotten so much love as the best song on the album when happiness is like literally right there) (happiness.mp3 & peace.mp3 supremacy)

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11

Nebraska

Opinion on cover design: as someone who's driven through nebraska, it's very accurate. it looks how nebraska feels. like, you're only there when you're on your way to someplace else. if liminal space was a US state it'd be Nebraska

Favourite song: oh fuck Reason to Believe

Least favourite song: Highway Patrolman

Underrated track: I mean the whole thing is underrated tbh.

Overrated track: see above. <3

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 

Blonde on Blonde

Opinion on cover design: those pursed lips....so Serious. I love a scarf moment. that look really is my aesthetic

Favourite song: RAINY DAY WOMEN but I also have a soft spot for OH. MAMA. can this really be the end? to be Stuck? inside? a Mobile? with the MEMPHIS BLUES again??? and Leopard Skin Pill Box Hat <3

Least favourite song: Visions of johanna. he can go ON about a bitch. I love him tho

Underrated track: I Want You, & You Go Your Way I Go Mine

Overrated track: is it possible to overrated a track on this album???

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 

#I do love tswift but i am also v picky about how I like her. *shrugs* #my brother's gf is a swiftie (remind me to share a pic of her gift to me <3) and she asked me at xmas #so did you try to get tickets? and I was like lol nope and I think I hurt her feelings #but. listen. the thing about taylor is: i like her songs better when they're sung by other people. #which is also how I feel about Bob #kesha's cover of Don't think twice it's alright changed my life #as did sara bareilles cover of Clean #but she said early on 'i'm gonna sing my songs that I write' and I do respect that game #my big has a tattoo of the lyrics to 'i am disappeared' #'we are electric pulses in the pathways of the sleeping souls of the country' #you know I do wonder....how my dad might think.....of all of us...talking about how fucking queer bruce's music is #because. it IS. the more I think about it the more obvious it is. but like. growing up it wasn't? #but is that just because I didn't know how to look for it bc I didn't know what I was looking for? #in the aughts when gay and queer had such narrow definitions #but bruce does have a different take on masculinity that is inherent to his writing and performance #and whether or not my father is cognizant of that #I think it's shaped him. and his own masculinity. and that of my brother. the heterosexualest punk I know. #maybe that's why when someone's like 'not all men' I go. 'you're right. my father and brother would NEVER' #it all comes back to bruce #and bob #and clarence #and miami steve #asks #clarasamelia #okay but. blonde on blonde is soooooooooo dan-coded #just like a woman is about serena :) #pretty odd is full of bops tho don't get me wrong #i just have a more sentimental fondness for too young to live too rare to die #but hanif abdurraqib had said 'pretty odd is the only p!atd album' #which. i disagree but...