#these r all the ones i can think of rn

[trobeds]

i know the hunger games isnt about romance i know it isnt a love story but. theres just something so beautiful in the way peeta is the personification of what it means to heal and he /is/ the dandelion and the bread and the hope that things can be better even if they wont be fixed. even if the nightmares dont stop he will still hold her. wake her up and tell her shes alive. shes safe. and when its over and done and theres no more saving or protecting or trying their absolute hardest to die if it means keeping the other alive, the horrors dont stop. but katniss will still find that comfort in peetas arms.

#and peeta Goes Through It too but hes there!!!!!!!! hes always there and hes kind and artistic and peaceful and good and everything that #the games could never destroy (the hijacking couldve but he found his way back. he still wonders whats real sometimes but he knows. he know #who he is. a painter a baker and a boy who loves. she reminds him of that love too) #anyways :( katniss longs for peetas arms and nobodys been this gentle with her since her father died and she stopped letting her mother #hold her. and peeta does #something about the way he holds her so so gently with so much love and care despite all the destruction and how peeta counteracts the fire #in katniss. the one that tells her she needs to protect and defend and prioritize keeping her family alive and keep her guard up. but hes #there to comfort her and hold her and protect her and those r all the things katniss doesnt get the privilege of thinking about because she #always thinking about who she needs to protect #its so personal to me. god i am Not okay rn #i have a rehearsal before school tmr and i am sooooo sleepy but. insane thoughts can never wait #everlark #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #peeniss #< the real ship name #the hunger games #thg #late night thoughts & all that jazz #🫀

[astrobei]

oh boy do i have some news for you

#quotes that make me want to slowly peel the skin off my body like a pomegranate #everyone talks abt mike’s need to be needed n wanted n loved #which is so true so valid so real #but like #can we circle back to will for a second . #bc it’s not just that he wants mike and can’t have him it’s like #for him this kind of love isn’t even in the picture #when he says ‘i’m not gonna fall in love’ knowing he already is #what he means is that love won’t ever be reciprocated #he can’t have what nancy and jonathan have #the kind of love he says is so gross !! #he thinks no one wants to hold his wrists and kiss his palms and smile at him !! #oh #head in hands my sweet baby boy #pls don’t tag this or make additions w ‘this but mike actually’ YES I KNOW MIKE ACTUALLT #ILL MAKE A BILLION MORE POSTS ABT MIKE #I PROMISE #BUT RN WE R TALKING ABT WILL ok that’s all #like #for him it’s mike or no one #and knowing he’ll never be able to have an easy teen romance like mike n el #or lucas and max #or jonathan and nancy or even dustin and suzie #:( #‘im not gonna fall in love’ meaning #‘i am in love but no one will fall in love with me’ #will byers #mike wheeler #byler #/astro posts

[milkbreadtoast]

DUNMESHI EP 3 WAS SOOOO BEAUTIFUL OMG THE ANIMATION WAS SO GOOD😭😭😭 LAIOS IS SO CUTE I LOVE HIM... hes so smart... one of the most likeable male anime protags ive seen in a while... 1 of the most likeable protags period tbh anyway hes good🥺

#i usually get attached to side/supporting charas more than the protags so it means a lot that 1 of my fav charas is laios rn #(and yeseo for twsb)... #their common point: hungry LHDSKHD /j #basically what this means is im going to enjoy dunmeshi a lot bc im not just tolerating the boring protag dcgddfgd #cant wait to meet other charas too KABRU WHENNNNN #most excited to meet kabru i like his design a lot #also its cool to see laios like thinking and reasoning a lot while fighting... #like a lot of shounen(which is what ive watched most of) protags r just act first think later which is fine i like those too #but i feel like its more rare to see one be a thinker™️. esp one that looks himbo coded like laios tbh #like yea hes really not a himbo as ppl said... Good #cant believe i thought laios was gonna be boring when i first saw his design yrs ago... boring generic white boy... #hes actually funny moe white boy. #HES SO ENDEARING... i can already tell he has a lot of good leadership skills/qualities too #his crazy eyed monster fanboying moments are sooo. cute... moe... #i also unfortunately find him v handsome. gh... dont look at me... #its the droopy eyes... why do all my favs have droopy eyes rn is that my type now... sigh #ALSO YEA THE ANIM THIS EP WAS SO BEAUTIFULLL I KEPT MARVELING AT THE VARIETY OF INTERESTING SHOTS #AND THE MOVEMENT AND DETAIL ANDD EVERYTHING #ALSO I HEARD HAYAMI SAORI AS FALIN OMG ITS PERECT 🥺🥺🥺 #dunmeshi liveblog

[sleepyjim]

#twenty one pilots #tøp #doubt many ppl will actually Know All Of These but :3 #many more noises i cherish deeply but these r all i can think of rn thatll fit in the poll #anyways #text #poll #michael (x/xe/void/death/nox)

[matoitech]

it’s obviously important for ppl to criticize misogyny particularly transmisogyny in trans male communities since thats a trans community issue but if ur also tme and the only thing u ever exclusively talk about trans men for is talking abt us as bigoted misogynists (usually there’s a ‘binary’ slapped in front of it) i genuinely think you need to put the phone down go outside and remember that whatever insane misogynist guys online are saying is not a necessarily a reflection of like things adult men outside of a weird fringe group of freak transmisogynist dudes on tumblr who think the boys should get our own word JUST like the GIRLS or its NOT FAIR!! or whatever (and one coined by a fucking terf at that..) are saying, or justification for behaving weirdly about an entire diverse community of trans people.

again i do not say this to like dissuade ppl from discussing legitimate problems but like a couple points- 'binary' trans men r capable of talking about it ourselves, and we do, and we’re not the ones whose posts get shared about it. and second: if you’re only bringing us up to talk abt how shitty particularly TRANS men are you might have a problem you need to deal with? this is not a shocking statement. like at some point someone has to point it out to you and sit there and take the shit and patiently explain to you it’s that the problem comes when its literally the ONLY thing you bring us up for and act like we're not capable of talking abt this ourselves, and that its a problem how comfortable ppl r for letting ppl speak over/for us if the only similarity they share w trans men is.. an agab and not being cis (yikes!). or if theyre transmasc and male aligned in some capacity but dont have any interest in engaging with or considering themselves a part of like trans men, THEYRE the ones who need to talk abt it, bcuz the (usually 'binary') Trans Men wont (not saying those ppl cant or shouldnt but they may be treated differently for doing so)

first ppl liked using transmeds existing to throw up justification for treating us like a bigoted monolith you (uniquely) Just Dont Feel Safe Around and its normal to make assumptions abt us being transphobic especially if we don't identify by labels deemed 'safe' and Inherently More Radical, and now its pretending we all collectively cant recognize our privilege thru our intense blinding hatred of women and its up to you to save us from ourselves and beat some common sense into the inherently bigoted stupid about gender patriarchy dicksucker boys. like i dont know im tired of it when trans men being accused of only existing bcuz we want to be patriarchy bootlickers i guess is always what radfems have thrown at us, so its not like this negative perception of trans men filtered thru a supposedly progressive lense is new. a lot of adult trans men dont talk abt like particular hot shit thats discussed a lot on here rn (the 'trans misandry' shit for example) bcuz its was not a problem in the spaces we're in and we knew it was stupid as fuck right away and barely worth talking about to say 'yeah you know that thing we all know is stupid and bullshit? its stupid and bullshit'. bcuz we're not fifteen years old or weird misogynists. we have brains, don't hate women, and we dont all know and hang around the same people.

anyway dont take this post as a stand in for serious discussion and calling out misogyny (again especially transmisogyny) w other men, those posts do need to exist, i am not trying to say this stuff shouldnt be talked about. what i'm specifically pointing out is a frustrating pattern in the perception of and discussion of trans men that ppl probably dont realize theyre participating in. i do think it is very important to talk abt community issues and criticisms but if its literally the one thing you bring up trans men for i think being aware of that behavior has no NEGATIVES here. also do have to bring up i specified other tme ppl early on bcuz this isnt smth ive experienced or seen from transfems and their position as like the affected party of transmisogyny is automatically like .. if they have issues w trans men it is pretty inherently coming from a different place than like, a cis womans, or a tme nonbinary person, or a transmasc person with issues with trans men, or a cis mans, etc. tme ppl who are on a very different ground here, whose behavior is straight up different anyway

#this isnt @ anyone this is like . a common thing rn #its a seperate post but i think ppls just total unawareness that trans men have made any contributions to like #academic discussion abt transphobia along with trans women (sometimes literally discussing our experiences together!) is kind of bizarr #u know online discourser misogyny boys r not reflective of the actual adult intersectional (cant remember if thats the right word its 2 am #lol) discussion of our experiences that MUST be done in order to have like any solid understanding of how to fix this shit #you cant just ignore the experiences of trans men and think ur understanding of gender is good lol #there r many ppl who r invested in talking abt it in a way thats like normal and mature #and it DEPENDS on trans womens experiences and pov too to make a more fully realized understanding of trans ppls lived experiences #and how we can fix cisnormativity and sexism and shit without pretending like disappearing gender is gonna do anything #except be boring as fuck and not realistic. what if we all lived in someone elses fantasy utopia that is not a utopia for a lot of transppl #and believing online discourse misogyny boys when they tell you no one else cares abt trans men but THEM >:( is like. dumb as fuck #there have been ppl discussing their experiences in an actually nuanced and Gives A Shit way for decades. academically. go find it

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated

[kuiinncedes]

hehe

#me def not being good director w regard to one specific weird little subset of our club #but then also being reminded that #no one ever fucking responds to me in those discord channels ;-; #i wanna ask smth but like i asked it a while ago and they just . ignore the message ;-; #but still no i did like .... do rly bad there bc i just kinda let it be #and now we're coming up on show #and we're not Unprepared #but we're not ...... incredibly prepared lol just regarding this one thing but we have some time #but #i just want to stop like mentally beating myself up over it lol #and like i need to let myself ask stupid shit rn #but i've also been thinking abt it like the entireeeee afternoon and havent done shit so #😀😀😀😀 #jeanne talks #SENTTTTTT the message #i also keep telling myself like fuck u for not doing very well w it like all of last semester/this one so far lmfao but #u can try to do more now ;-; even if they hate u and r judging u for it 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 #which there is absolutely no evidence of except in my imagination c: <3 #bro (me) shut the fuck up ;-; #can i get OUTTA MY HEADDDDDDD BRO #doesnt help that they haven't responded LOLLL altho it has only been a couple hours . but #also lowkey . i should probably just give up on work at thihs point based on my productivity the entire evening #and go to sleep early #but i probably wont lmfao #also bc my cat is just like on my back rn and i dont want her to move #i'm laying on my stomach on the couch and she's on my back lol #c: #i feel like having my roommate .. be here would help lmfao #so im not just 100% in my head alone all the time #but ya know cant wish for the impossible <3

[doyeons]

i think maybe there’s a bit of misery swirling around in me

#bella.txt #like.. idk no one i talk to here besides classmates who r younger than me and i don’t spend time w/ them outside of class #and like in my head i’m like ‘i wanna go home’ but then j go home and my loved ones r all spread out #i either see my parents + hazel but im isolated from everyone else #or i go where i can see my friends and do more but i have to be in my sister’s space which is suffocating 😭 #um not to mention my childhood dog is dead and i feel her absence all over again when i think abt going home #i hate to be overly dramatic but i rly miss her i can’t believe such a big piece of my life is gone forever #like we got her ashes back while i was home and i was just holding the box like. wtf do u mean my babygirl is in here. #i just UGHHHH i feel weird and impermanent rn. i don’t have a place i belong

[barredandromeda]

me when i miss talking to a man ive never spoken to

#stolen glances. wow #sorry i dont even like boys but a boy likes Me soo #plus i needed a new guy to fixate on the old one was Lame !! #erics rubbingnoff on me #but shes so real for obsessing over him cause whys he actually really good at sneaking glances at us #like u couldnt tell unless u were Actively Looking and half the time we can barely tell cause his hair covers his eyes #anywayyy hitting him up on tuesday to b all casual asking ab ela and hes nice so he should resp and then bam we fall in love or. something #sorry the fact thats hes an unironic gym bro scares me lowkey and his friends r Interesting fs buuuuut its ok i. think ?! #post #seashel #kindividual posting #im gonna go see if hes online rn and stalk his following on ista

[hollowfairybabybat]

wanna hav cute girly sleepovers but like 2 types like wanna watch cartoons n dress up n play with my calico critters n color n stuff but also like middle school sleepovers how i would wif childhood bestie minus or wif some stuff lol but ughhh the longinggggg

#yes i can do both ig but how all the ppl i wanna do this with r all so far away bc rn for me an hour and a half if lc is that far even lol #but also lc friend who used 2 live here also is carless rn i think so it is what it isb #i love my friends here i just theyre probably not quite about it.....well one may b a lil since she never got to do sleepovers as a kid #she didnt get to sleepover until i was 17 which ig she would hav been 18 then but i took her to my senior yr prom n she slept over then #batbaby rambles

[deityofhearts]

ya know it’s honestly funny and weirdly comforting when my friends call me a fake gremlin or green tea bitch because like despite that they still love me and like having me around

#deity dialogue #idk like I’m the past I’ve struggled a lot with like ‘performative positivity’ where I wouldn’t ever let myself be anything other than peppy #24/7 even when it was exhausting and I wasn’t happy #and then irl I deal a lot with being treated like an idiot and infantalized and so I’ve in an attempt to make myself feel better #started to lean into it like sure make whatever assumptions you want about me I’ll find a way to benefit from you treating me like this #I’ll pretend to be an uwu sweet angel if that pleases you or whatever. #but like it’s also nice because like around my friends and loved ones I can have actual emotions other than happiness 24/7 #that being said I still talk like an elementary school teacher I cannot change this I’m sorry #that’s not fake I just talk Like That I know I use and excessive amount of exclamation points and question marks this won’t change lmao #I also like to think I’m somewhat peppy and social? sure my social skills suck ass and I’m terrified of everyone ever #but I also love to talk to people and hear from people I’m just kinda at a point where I struggle to even reach out first to most people any #more. it feels like if I try to maintain contact or reach out first that I’m overstepping and should be killed in sight lmao #so again sorry if y’all don’t hear from me much or at all it’s not anything y’all did I just struggle a lot and idk how to not T-T #I have to hope that someday it’ll get easier #rn the main thing helping is the reassurance and patience from ny beloved friends <3 I love my friends sm #the tags r all over the place sorry I’m half asleep

[collegeoflore]

they r literally the worst.

#this convo makes me so crazy for them but i am like. so so brain fogged rn i cannot tag ramble abt it properly lol #bc the whole ‘it’s hard not to with you’ thing is 100% genuine i think #i do feel like at this point they do Like each other. he actively Wants to spend time with them now bc they’re fun! they make this fun! #he can pretend none of the usual guilt and disgust is there bc they’re in on the game too and they’re both just playing #and he’s found this little game is so much more fun when they both know the rules #he just has to not think about what it means and not let it go any further #maybe they don’t Need to fall for it exactly as long as they keep playing along but he most certainly Cannot fall for them #(it’s already too late. it was too late before it ever began.) #i will also say like i think there are at least a Few more days in between the goblin party and this. bc technically this is my next long #rest after the party lol #the whole timeline of act 1/2 esp is way elongated in my mind bc otherwise all these astarion convos happen Way too close together r #wait this is the second one after the party i think. whatever. still too close #漫言 #oc. xarrai #z plays bg3 #r. hold me like a knife

[carbonateds-oda]

LIFE IN RUINS MY BELOVED ??

#totk #im doing the fire temple rn and I swear I hear it #i fucking love that trailer sm it’s so good #i love all the little callbacks to older music in this one #like house music #it’s such a delight to recognize #and the themed temples r back i missed that sm #sorry I’ve been mostly posting abt totk it’s all I can think abt rn lol

[caruliaa]

i hate tht so much of my life has been me begging others to care about me the way theyre supposed to . i hate that instead of wishing i didnt have to i wish that for once theyd say yes

#aggh. tfw when u start talking more w ur parents esp ur mother who have deeply traumatised you in the past #and who you dint know if u can rly forgive even if they did ever apologixd #they r at least currently being rly nice and somewhat supportive #and you really need that rn after the most important person to u ended ur friendship with them #but then u think abt spending more time with them and do spend more time with them and enjoy it #and then u think aby how one day u r gonna give them they im queer accept it or bye #and you know they arent going to based on past reactions so it is def bye #but you realise ur starting to reach a point again where losing them from yr life is gonna be rly painful #and you dont know what to do bc its not that u cant stay in the closet for tht long #bc u can happily but u dont wanna like. come out and face tht regection later when it hurts more bc u got more attached #got just. fewlings r so stupid why do i like. care about anyone. all its ever gotten me is pain and hurt #its only ever made things worse caring sm i just wish i could turn it off #flappy rambles

[snoopyisbisexual]

NGL my only friend at college is a rly bad friend and also has some unbearable flaws that I can't even address w her. but she is funny sometimes + I have nobody else

#she is a poli sci major who's obviously been told her whole life that she's smarter than everyone else around her #but she's a poli sci major + has literally defended public christmas only lights with ''ppl of other religions celebrate christmas'' #she is literally a very ignorant white person but bc she's a hair less ignorant than everyone else where she's from #she thinks she's exempt despite saying mad classist + weird ass shit unprompted #she also never asks me about anything + only talks about herself + assumes random shit about me + treats me like I'm a baby #bc im not hooking up w ppl all the time. like just bc I'm not as out there as her doesn't mean I'm clueless #it genuinely doesn't feel like she's at all interested in me + just wants someone to talk to without engagement #and I'm kind of tired of it tbqh #me + the femme r on hiatus which is kind of hard bc she's one of like the few ppl in my life rn who i feel like actually enjoys + #understands who i am + is invested in me personally but im not abt to be like. can we resume the relationship you're not prepared for so i #can feel wanted by someone like that's literally insane #also super selfish #but im hanging out w heaven tomorrow+ forgot to take my meds so it's probably fine #but also whenever my meds lapse i get kind of pissed off about this friend so idk #part of my problem is that im not talkative that much bc im autistic so im either super verbal or just thinkin' #but tbh I'd rather have silence than to feel like my voice is only 5% of the conversation does that make sense #but maybe im being unreasonable idk #also she actively prevents me from hanging out w her other friends + im kind of tired of being ostracized on behalf of ppl #who otherwise like me ?? like im acquaintances w her friends but she like. will not hang out w me + them #like i feel like thats wild behavior esp bc she knows i want to ? like i want to party but she's always like #''oh i just thought you wouldn't lke it'' which likr. why tf did you decide for me ?? #she always does this + never asks me like. ''lh i thought it would be weird to bring you'' but you brought your roommate who literally met #thrm last month + I've known them since last year + we literally had classes together ????? #smth fishy af going on