what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?
it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".
i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.
the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.
it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.
tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.
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oh the weather outside is frightful
but your smile is too delightful
when the flakes rest on your nose
so we’re trudgin while it snows
Seeeww cozyy
Fwuffed falling flakes and ungainly muffled thwumps as Obi-wan crumches along
And the soundtrack is cheesy, my friends — so delightfully cheesy
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💚💜💙 I'm so grateful that Louis keeps adding to his colourful short shorts collection.
Atlanta 15 July 2023 / Raleigh 21 July 2023 / Sao Paulo 2 April 2024
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so i have a question to nd people, do some of you also got this urge to "behave correctly" all the time, like you created this whole personality to please adults but then had your moments were you just got a lil bit excited, perhaps looked kinda crazy, talking too much, moving too much, laughing too much and doing things you don't normally do but actually you do but in your mind, like you look "normal" on the outside but your mind was always super messy full of ideas and stuff happening but tried your best at hiding and now everything's kinda falling(?? so now you have identity crisis or something???
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PEDRO PASCAL is seen leaving a private gym session where he is asked how many shots of espresso did he drink prior to working out, he replies: TWELVE!
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Boston's a Bitch and he owns that Shit! Pt. 1
There's a reason why Neo worked out his ass off to play Boston and it's because he would have just as many "outfit" changes as Ray if I put every time he was shirtless in a scene.
NEO TRAI as BOSTON ( ONLY FRIENDS EP. 1-6 )
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