#they are so special to me

[neverevan]

BUCKTOMMY + hands

#they are so special to me #not many canon ships get to me like this but hooo boy #evan buckley #tommy kinard #bucktommy #911 #911 abc #911 7x03 #911 7x04 #911 7x05 #my stuff #my gif #911edit #bucktommyedit

[sleepy-light]

They sleep

#tadc #buttonblossom #pomni x ragatha #tadc pomni #tadc ragatha #ragapom #jesterdoll #sleepy.png #bawling my fucking eyes out #they are so special to me #now this is the softest thing I’ve drawn ever #also this was a request from insta

[starryaike]

I gotta make more doodles of these two together they'd get along so well

#i love my silly animatronic and my walking angst child #my art #undertale #chara #chara dreemurr #fnaf security breach #fnaf sb #fnaf #moon fnaf #moondrop #they are so special to me

[paperclipping4losers]

troy and abed are deeply in love and they're making out w tongue and they're best friends for life and they're in a qpr and they are each other's everything and they are going to grow old together watching bad movies and rereading calvin & hobbes together while they fall asleep

#community #community nbc #troy barnes #abed nadir #trobed #my little guys #i love them both so much #they are so special to me #they are so

[shesmycaller]

They are literally me.

#coquette #girl interrupted syndrome #manic pixie dream girl #nymph3t #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #girlblogging #girlblogger #lana is god #lana del rey #femcel #buffalo 66 #cassie ainsworth #girl interrupted daisy #pearl #thirteen #jennifer’s body #jennifer check #they are so special to me #they are literally me

[tabithatwo]

are we ready to talk about shauna's barely hidden but somehow very ignored psychosis and how it, like a ton of her other qualities, is brushed aside by both those around her and the audience? like, i think its clear that a central focus of the show is the way lottie is the only one who got stuck in a facility (and natalie in and out of rehab being the next closest to reckoning with her shit) when the rest of them are very clearly not okay. as a certified Crazy Girl, i've been weary of how they'll handle lottie's story line (blurring psychosis and the supernatural is a very delicate and tricky thing and thus far i've been sort of just waiting to see where it goes). our data on and understanding of mental health is incredibly limited for a lot of reasons (but that's a rant for another time) but there is a large mainstream misconception of when hallucinations and delusions can happen. psychosis isn't just something that happens in schizophrenia and its very complex, so if you want to learn more there's plenty of info out there i'm not going to get into it here, but it happens in a lot of other cases. psychosis is, most simply put, a loss of contact with external reality. ptsd can cause psychosis, especially auditory and visual hallucinations.

so shauna is shown to have these experiences and i didn't realize that they were being so heavily overlooked by a large amount of people until the reaction to the scene where she beats lottie nearly to death. shauna is introduced in s1 as having hallucinations of jackie 25 years later. she is shown to disassociate. in 207, she both holds the baby's body and believes the delusion that they ate the baby. the episode shows her fighting the delusion until she can't anymore. meanwhile, adult shauna tells lottie she keeps callie at arms length out of "fear that she would die...i guess? or maybe that she was never even...real to begin with." then she adds "i think something is broken, lottie." implied: she's broken. something is wrong with her. this is the is the most honest about her mental state we've ever seen shauna be.

why? because lottie has always been and likely will always be perceived as crazier. lottie is the one they pin it on, lottie is the cult leader both then and now, lottie is the scapegoat, lottie is the one who got sent to switzerland. i think there's something to be said for the effect lottie has on people (again, a whole other post) but honestly, that alone is enough. shauna is feeling vulnerable for a lot of reasons and she can tell lottie that she thinks she's crazy, that she's never quite sure her daughter exists, that she's constantly afraid she'll die to the degree that she doesn't let herself interact with her in a real, tangible way, because it's always safer to tell the crazy girl you're crazy, too.

and lottie knows. shauna knows that. lottie clocked her psychosis almost immediately, when she was in the meat shed for all hours. the other girls were shocked by the makeup, and their shock was so fucking strange to me when i watched it, but now on reflecting i'm realizing maybe its the lottie effect. like, have i done the shit shauna has? abso-fucking-lutely not lol. but does my mind work in a way where i immediately would assume shauna was doing something along the lines of the shit she was doing out there, because to me its like...what else would it be? yeah. like sees like, in a way. lottie knows what this looks like at baseline, even if its coming out way different in shauna. even if in shauna it looks like aggression and violence a lot of the time. lottie gets it.

jeff doesn't get it, he thinks strawberry lube is too wild. taissa gets it to a degree, and we see shauna be the second most open with her, but tai suppresses and hides it a degree that she wouldn't dare step foot in a therapist's office (this is yet another thing that makes me crazy but is a whole other post lol). shauna's main goal in this life she's created is pretending to be normal. and she's like, impressively bad at it. but people let her, because what else are they going to do? addressing the clear issues is taboo, because we categorize people so heavily. she masks better than lottie, but it's fucking wafer thin. you see this when she interacts with people who aren't her family or the other yjs. the way she speaks to the taylors? to adam? shauna is only sometimes masking passably when she's in her set world, where she has a routine, and is surrounded by people she only has to half-convince of her sanity.

if shauna is honest about the level of psychosis she experiences, she knows she'll end up like lottie. and i think there's an argument to be made that the people around her (which at this point in her life is pretty much just jeff because she's done another common thing and insulated herself from other people, re: the way she behaves being clockably off to others who won't overlook certain things or can't relate) understand that too. it can't be addressed, because then in their minds there must be action of some kind if it is. (taissa yelling you're acting crazy, shauna is one of the most purely terrified moments we see of her in relation to shauna, because she knows she's admitting something. jeff yelling something to the same effect after the carjacking, same thing.)

the person we see try to get shauna to open up about it is callie. her teenage daughter, who bares the brunt of her difficulty maintaining reality, (who knows that shauna has never accepted her fully as her child, and seems to actually sense that there is a deeper reason for that), asks her to open up. she tells her after the club scene that she knows something is wrong. she even mentions jackie directly. she spends all of s2 trying to relate to shauna, to get her to be open with her about everything. there's no way shauna's trauma and psychosis and general issues have gone unnoticed by callie. daughters always know. they see it in their mothers before they even have a concept of the world. so we're watching a 16 year old try to get her mom to open up, because she doesn't understand fully why that's so dangerous to shauna. to callie, it may even be a secret she thinks other people are in on that she's being left out of. i think maybe she's realizing that it isn't personal and that shauna is guarded like this in general, and we're watching that happen.

callie is learning to care for and relate to her mother and she doesn't see why shauna won't let her in, because to her it's an innate truth that she'll be by her side no matter what (if only she'd let her be). she has unconditional love for her mother and that is the scariest thing in the world to shauna, because the last person who had unconditional love for shauna died because shauna didn't know what to do with it. a baby she never got a chance to meet in reality could've replaced the love that jackie gave her, and shauna was maybe starting to look forward to that, but that ended before it began. so twice shauna has killed that figure in her life. the one who loves her wholly and for who she is, which is terrifying to shauna in it's own right (she tried to take that away from jackie in their last moments, maybe you never really knew me, because that would be easier. shauna can't handle someone really knowing her because she can't handle really knowing herself because, again, that means addressing things that go unaddressed). and she doesn't plan on killing that figure again.

(if callie's even real, because the baby wasn't real when she met him and jackie wasn't real every time she's talked to her in the last twenty-five years, so who the fuck is to say callie is real?)

#this started purely as a shauna shipman psychosis discussion and ended with shauna callie mother daughter dynamics but i'm only human #they are so special to me #as the crazy daughter of a crazy mother that i had to let go of. watching them is a wild experience #shauna shipman #jackie taylor #jackie x shauna #taissa turner #shauna x jackie #jackieshauna #callie sadecki #tai x shauna #lottie matthews #lottie x shauna #yellowjackets #cw psychosis

[artbean]

@eddiemonth day 26: corroded coffin

i wanna be somebody, be somebody soon, or: corroded coffin crashing on their first tour

#eddie munson #gareth emerson #jeff stranger things #unnamed freak stranger things #corroded coffin #eddie munson fanart #stranger things fanart #st4 #stranger things 4 #cceu #they are so special to me #eddiemonth

[serene-sabo]

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem (2023)

#tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt mutant mayhem #mutant mayhem #mm leonardo #mm raphael #mm donatello #mm michelangelo #sergifs #serstuff #tmntedit #THEY ARE SO SPECIAL TO ME

[sunnydiet]

i have something to say

that’s all

#i made myself cry a bit ngl #they are so special to me #homies help homies always #gruesome twosome #like cmon #iasip #it’s always sunny in philadelphia #charlie kelly #frank reynolds #adventure time #finn and jake

[candicepatton]

BLAIR WALDORF & SERENA VAN DER WOODSEN IN GOSSIP GIRL | S01E04 "Bad News Blair"

#blairena #blair waldorf #serena van der woodsen #gossip girl #gossipgirledit #ggedit #addys-beth #usergiu #usermorgan #userelsbeth #userlix #useryusi #tuserheidi #* #they are so special to me

[cogicrafter]

Me? Doodling awkward Sam and Celia on the back of my English assignment? More likely than you think

#samama khalid #celia ripley #the magnus protocol #tmagp #they are so special to me

[riceballoon]

arcane incantation

#aitsf #ai the somnium files #kaname date #mizuki okiura #mizuki date #they are so special to me #my art

[bumblebybelladonna]

they.

#rwby #yang xiao long #blake belladonna #ruby rose #weiss schnee #team rwby #rwby yang #rwby blake #rwby weiss #rwby ruby #rwby v8 #I'M BACK GUYS #blake x yang #ruby x weiss #rwby volume 8 #they are so special to me #i miss they #rwby yang xiao long #rwby blake belladonna #rwby ruby rose #rwby weiss schnee #rwby screenshots #rwby 8

[mi-mo-my]

punkflower hcs (featuring ftm miles)

when miles told hobie the truth about him being trans he was so nervous that he wrote it on a spare index card that he was supposed to use for a spanish assignment. hobie didnt really understand why miles was so nervous but still treated him with the utmost respect when they talked about it.

hobie has no idea what miles and rio are saying to each other but whenever they pose a question towards him in spanish at dinner he just smiles and nods and goes "yeah, mhm." it gets him into a lot of trouble, so much so that he learns what "do you want more?" translates to in spanish so he can refuse seconds.

hobie loves snowboarding, miles loves football (soccer).

miles loves asking about hobie's modeling experience, he promised hobie one day that he would make hobie a statement piece if he ever got the materials to do so. even if he was far from being a designer.

hobie is secretly working on making a cut for miles so he always makes sure to thoroughly look through miles' room to make sure he has all his interests to make patches. (he also looked at miles' vest size and wrote it down, which lowkey seems kinda creepy but its for the best of intentions)

#punkflower #hobie x miles #miles x hobie #hobie brown x miles morales #flowerpunk #they are so special to me #gay #miles morales is trans truthers unite

[jeongyunho99]

Hohong holding hands and singing "boyfriend" by Justin Bieber :(

Bonus :

#jeong yunho #kim hongjoong #ateez #ateezedit #atzsource #ateezlovenet #kpopccc #ateezgif #ateez yunho #ateez hongjoong #ateez gifs #yunho #hongjoong #hohong #yunjoong #otp #CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING #they are so special to me #so precious #mywork

[virgin-mojitos]

this is my meal i call this girl dinner GIRL DINNER GIRL DINNER GWWORL DINERRR!!!

#muscle mommy abby #abby tlou #abby and ellie #abby anderson #abby the last of us #ellie the last of us #ellie williams #ellie williams x reader #abby anderson x reader #they are so special to me #yummyinmytummy