#they arent. even. and i cant get them even. fUCK

[technicallyvivi]

NSFW WARNING!

wooyoung shower sex

its a cold day in the middle of december, you and wooyoung were on vacation and planned to go eat some korean barbecue with your friends mingi and jongho, who were waiting in their hotel room for you guys. you took your clothes out setting them on the bed so you could change into them later. “woo!” you called and his head popped out from the living room, he walked over and wrapped his hands around your waist. “yes princess, what do you need?” he asked getting a smile out of you. “do you want me to grab your clothes too?” he shook his head staring intently at your lips, “are you even listening?” he shook his head again kissing your neck softly, nibbling the skin under your ear. he moves his kisses up and smiles. “how about we take that shower together?” you roll your eyes but comply anyways and take his hand to lead him into the bathroom. its almost like no time had passed and you were both bare and pressed up against each other making out. wooyoung bit your bottom lip for entry but you pulled back, before he could protest you got into the shower and turned the water on, signaling him to join you. he hopped in and pushed you against the shower wall, you kissed him gently and pulled away. “make it quick.” he scoffed “i make the rules here angel. ill take however long i want.” his words make you feel small, vulnerable, and god do they make you wet. your pussy clenches around nothing as you start feeling more and more desperate, kissing isnt enough. “woo, p-please.” you beg holding onto his neck. he laughs “tell me what you want baby, use that pretty mouth of yours.” you close your thighs to rub them together hoping that itll relieve you to some extent. “in me.” you manage to say but hes already flipping you on your back and going in, raw. you grip onto nothing trying to steady yourself on the wall, its a miracle hes holding onto your hips tightly or you wouldve fallen. you whimper spreading your legs more and more until it almost hurts. “shh.. one second, let yourself adjust.” he says rubbing small circles on your hips and kissing down your back as he bottoms out. “ah..! f-fuck.” you exclaim when you feel him twitch inside you. “sorry pretty, tell me when youre ready.” you can tell hes trying to hold back. even though you cant see him you can imagine his eyebrows being furrowed as he tries to focus and not ram into you. “ready.” you say and with no hesitation he pulls out until just the tip is inside you, and pushes back in with forces making you bounce into the wall but he pushes your hips back onto him and starts building up a rhythm, your eyes tear up and its already getting too much even thought he just started. “i.. ah!! woo!” you moan trembling in his hands. “you’re taking me so good yeah? being such a good girl just for me to use you however i want.” you nod frantically letting him control you fully, his groans and grunts fill your head and everything feels foggy. “j-just for fuck! just for you!” you cry out holding onto the wall for support. he takes your hands and puts them behind your back, you already feel the knot in your stomach and he can tell, you clench tightly around him almost pushing him out, he hisses. “shit baby dont do that.” he holds you closer ramming into you faster and harder “mm so warm.” he grunts. and that’s when you hear it. the door opens and you panic trying to get up but wooyoung hold you down still fucking you rough. mingi’s voice can be heard pretty loudly “y/n?” he asks and you plead for woo to stop so you dont embarrass yourself. “arent you gonna answer him baby?” your legs tremble harder, partly from how hard but slow he’s still going and partly from the anxiety of mingi walking in on wooyoung having you bent over in the shower. your voice shakes but you manage to speak as clearly as it is possible when you’re getting fucked. “u-uh ngh.. yeah?” you answer speaking just as loudly as he did. wooyoung intertwined his fingers through your hair speeding up his pace but not going as hard. you whimper and whisper “woo..” you hear mingis footsteps and his voice is suddenly closer.

“are you okay?” he asks “y-yeah.” you cant help but stutter, “ask him what he wants.” wooyoung demands and you know better than to disobey him. “what do uh! do you want?” you can sense that mingi knows he’s interrupting something, he knows you all too well, he also knows wooyoung too well, you’re starting to get frustrated, wooyoung isnt fast enough and you need to cum, your high is so close but its not enough. you whimper a little too loud so he covers your mouth “shut up baby, dont want him knowing whats happening do you?” you shake your head. but like you said, mingi knows something is wrong, so he just decides to leave. “um nothing, ill just wait till you get to jongho and i’s place” and just like that his footsteps start moving further and further away, and the door locks. wooyoung kisses the back of your neck, leaving his mark and going back to his animalistic pace. “good girl. you did so good.” he growls in your ear and you cant take it anymore, you scream his name as loud as you can not even giving him a warning just cumming all over his fat cock. “ah! ah! wooyoung!” your legs shake violently and you chant his name repeatedly. you swear you can feel yourself swallow some water since your mouth is open so wide in a silent moan. it only takes wooyoung a couple thrusts to grip your hips as hard as he can and cum deep inside you, you can see it dripping down your thighs. “fuck.” he groans letting you go, he cant hold on much longer, his strength and energy giving out. so you both fall to sit at the bottom of the tub. he pulls you closer washing the cum off your thighs as gently as he can. “youre the most beautiful girl you know that right? the best just for me.” he smiles holding you close and washing you off.

#ateez fanfic #ateez fluff #ateez hard thoughts #ateez imagines #ateez smut #ateez x reader #yunho smut #hongjoong smut #jongho smut #ateez #atz x reader #atz fanfic #atz smut #atz #atz imagines #atz wooyoung #atz hongjoong #ateez mingi #ateez fic #ateez scenarios #ateez seonghwa

[opens-up-4-nobody]

If accommodations no longer help you, I'm curious at what point they stopped being helpful.

#bc for me: once u get to the graduate level its like sink or swim bitch #u have to fucking read and nothing is gonna make it easier so fucking read or find a different job #i dont kno how u accomodate a grad student. like u have things that have to happen. u cant just let someone not do their job they got hired #to do. so like u just select for ppl who arent extremely disabled bc i just dont think u could do it otherwise #u would b too bad at ur job. every prof i say im dyslexic to is like: oh! r u registered with the disability office? #and im like no. wtf would they even do for me. im sure i could get lots of accommodation stuff but functionally i just have to suck it up #and work harder. but im also fucked up about having a learning disability so like maybe im just being difficult #idk. most ppl dont wanna do jobs that they weren't designed for and cause them so much pain. but like i said. im sorta fucked up #learning disability #dyslexia #dyscalculia #adhd #dyspraxia #dysgraphia #poll #polls #unrelated

[bl00dw1tch]

Watching someone play afop and im so. Oh my god. Oh my GOD. It's literally just a fucking showcase of all the Exact type of shit that has been happening to indigenous people and people of color have been dealing with for Centuries at the hands of white supremacy and imperialism. Like its literally just Showing all that Shit from the perspective of a Na'vi in universe. So it "demonizes" the RDA accordingly. And uet so many fucking reviewers are joshing on it and calling it Boring and Slow and Uninspired and that it makes human's 'cartoonishly evil' LIKE YOU PEOPLE HAVENT LOOKED AT A SINGLE FUCKING CURRENT EVENT IN YOUR LIVES. Oh my god im so mad at all these fucking reviewers now. The fucking AUDACITY to look at something this fucking Honest about the cruelty humans are capable of, while living during the fucking day and age with all this Knowledge we have at our fingertips -- the fucking audacity to look at this game and what the character goes through and not being able to muster up ANY other fucking emotion besides "ubisoft never was great at story anyway so idc lol" fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. Like actually. You can't even fucking ATTEMPT to connect to this story emotionally? Not even a fucking Smidge? Jesus fucking christ people need everything to be spoon fed to them these days. God forbid a piece of media actually ask you to meet it in the middle for once.

#horse.txt #vent // #im mad lol. the farther i get into the story the more mad i get #oh oh the humans putting the Na'vi in cages is a bit extreme? a bit unrealistic?? #what the fuck has been going on US borders for the past two decades then. #oh oh the pollution of the land and the water to hurt resistance efforts and native populations is so cartoonishly evil!! #HUMANS WOULD NEEEEVER DO SOMETHING SO DIABOLICAL 😱😱😱 #get fucking real. i am so tired of people looking down on Avatar when it's one of the first pieces of mainstream media that ive Ever seen #cover these topics in a fictional lense with So candidly. and nobody wants to fucking take it seriously because it makes them Uncomfortable #to see humans be the fucking badguys #iTS NOT EVEN ABOUT /ALL/ HUMANS THE REAL VILLIAN IS THE FUCKING RDA! ITS CAPITALISM!!!!! #THATS THE FUCKING POINT!!! but noooo people are so fucking sensitive they cant see it as anything but 'misanthropic' #like all of the humans in the resistance arent RIGHT FUCKING THERE for one. and for two ACKNOWLEDGING HUMANITIES FLAWS ISNT MISANTHROPIC #humans have flaws!!! we are capable of great cruelty just as much as we are great kindness!!! #if simply acknowledging and exploring that fact in stories is 'misanthropic' and depresses you then thats on YOU. #grow some thicker skin or something dude idk lol

[theygender]

The more I think about it the more I really feel like the recently coined term mesosex might fit me and it's been shared by several intersex education/advocacy blogs I follow now so I know there's support for the term but I'm still like. Scared I would be Intruding™ on intersex issues if I started using it. Like I mean. I'm an afab & (afaik) perisex person with a reproductive disorder that's likely caused by a (non-intersex) hormone imbalance which I'm now essentially having to take feminizing HRT to fix, and as a result I'm now growing tits and undergoing female-pattern fat redistribution at the age of 25 after years of having little to no secondary sex characteristics. I've always identified with intersex issues but now that I'm essentially having to undergo HRT to make my body match my asab that connection to intersex issues feels even stronger. And like that's what the term is for. But my anxiety is still like "but what if you're intruding tho" lol 🙃

#rambling #for the curious the specific disorder is endometriosis and recent research has shown that endo is most likely linked to #estrogen dominance which is where either your body makes too much estrogen OR not enough other hormones (progesterone & testosterone) #and given that the only thing that has helped me at all has been going on full progestin-only treatments #and the fact that everything ive researched about estrogen dominance and low progesterone matches up with my symptoms #it definitely seems like low/no progesterone is the issue for me #(although the docs didnt test my levels beforehand and now i cant get them tested unless i want to go off treatments 🥲) #and like. this progestin treatment has changed my fucking life. legitimately #like it didnt just stop my (pretty severe) endo it also fixed like. all of my physical health issues. stuff i didnt even know was related #dont wanna get off topic talking about my other health issues but. going on progestin has easily been the best health thing to happen to me #but it also feels so fucking weird to be going through the same type of changes that like transfems go through on hrt essentially #as an afab perisex person. its not a bad weird but like its just a strange phenomenon and it would be nice to put words to it i guess? #like im a person who has lived the last 10+ years disabled by a reproductive disorder that prevented my body from developing 'normally' #and now im going through feminizing hrt at the age of 25 to fix my reproductive disorder #thats not exactly like. the normal perisex afab experience lol. but at the same time my specific reproductive disorder and hormone imbalance #dont classify me as intersex (no hyperandrogenism just some mix of too much estrogen/not enough progesterone or testosterone #typical anatomy (afaik) aside from the uterine abnormalities resulting from endometriosis) #and its just. such a weird position to be in. i share a lot of common ground with intersex issues but im not intersex myself #and the whole purpose of mesosex was to create a word for people who arent quite either. 'people who identify with but not as intersex' #and i think that describes me. but also like.... do i count?? 😭 #tmi #request to tag

[cowboy-robooty]

no guys you dont get it itager isnt sweet and tender in the domestic gay lovey dovey way theyre sweet and tender in the BRO way

#im a crazy bitch okay i will be like yes theyre lovey to eachother yes thats true #yes i only get gay and shit for itager bc theyre true love and then see something sappy and gay of them and go THAT AINT RIGHT #im a freak okay im such an asshole about itager bc i think theyre lovey to eachother in a very specific way and all other ways are cringe #me when the only itager i consume is the official goddamn hetalia manga #and them doujins made by corolla that mf was the only person ever who understood them (even if they were misguided and believed in gerita) #i like to think in my heart of hearts corolla knew the truth it was just the wrong time. #like how i know bill and ted wouldve loved touhou koishi song its just they were born in the wrong era #but yeah like germany and italy are gay in that BRO way like. its hard to describe but its not gay its more like.... friendship adjacent #like when you deeply care about your bro and act gay with them in that way they arent about that silently looks at the moonlight shit #they look at the moonlight and italy goes 'germany is right now a good time to tell you i fucked your car again' and germany goes 'What.' #ITS A BETTER AND MORE AWEZOME FORM OF LOVE IN MY HUMBLEST OF OPINIONS.... I PERSONALLY PREFER IT #its domestic in the way of having your average daily life of dicking around with your bros and throwing grenades in cars n shit #instead of domestic settling down and being all serious and sappy all the time #its lovey dovey in the way of being like AHAHA IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN!!! yeah bro... i really like you too *hug* im glad youre in my life #i just think thats so much more swag because settling down just does not sit right for me #i think settling down sucks tf you mean theres no more adventures and always sunny shit? #i think fruk can get into that settling down domestic shit but im a firm believer itager cant #because their entire dynamic hinges upon italy coming in and making germanys boring ass lonely life fun by ruining it everyday #its not itager if they arent grabbing eachothers balls and acting like bros #ive said this to wiener but its the itager itapan juxisposition #itapan (japans onesided crush ofc) is great because they act gay but are just bros #and itager is great because they act like bros but are gay #idk its hard to explain the nuances of it all but just trust me when i say canon content and corollas sfw doujins are the only true itager #content #robooty asshole moment sorry guys somethings wrong with me #robooty kun

[the-knife-consumer]

One thing I really like is the idea that springbonnie hates William just as much as William has (probably) grown to hate it.

#i say probably because book william is off his fucking rocker. obviously the game one is too but the book one is actually so #uncomfortable to read. dont like him. but anyway say probably because book creep enjoyed being a rotting corpse in a rabbit suit #but game william. lol get tortured stupid. #my ver of the animatronics have?? weird pseudo free will??? like they know they are not real animals and that theyre only #here to entertain kids. but they ARENT aware that there are multiples of them #or at least they shouldnt be. see glamfred endo existential crisis. #and when on stage they arent really 'awake' just going on script and not thinking at all. #and even though they can think whatever they want they cant do anything against programming. or they shouldnt be able to at least #that is for the older ones. glamrocks have full complexity of human brains pretty much. #but anyway. something something your prison hates you just as much as you hate it. you are trapped with it and its equally trapped with you #it cant do much because youre taking up too much space inside of it. but it knows your there. and every chance it gets #it will do anything in its power to hurt you and get its body back. idk william parasite on his creation moment #it is not human like you. it doesnt process things like you. hate will not fade into acceptance it will always want you OUT

[dysaniadisorder]

i hate how normalized military is in the us im gonna rip my hair out

#i just. was talking w friends today #one of them was talking abt how he was almost convinced by the recruitment lady to join the navy and i was like. dude #and i was talking about how messed up it is that they send in people like that and catch kids like him #and my friends were like. you cant really blame her for doing her job. its her JOB like yes. it is her job. its fucking Bad #my best friend got all angry cuz his dad was in the navy. babe idc if he didnt actually fight he shouldnt have done it ♡ #''people get drafted'' you have to dodge the draft. #''thats illegal'' yes. this is a requirement for if you are drafted. you Have to just not. #no one said action would be comfortable nor convenient. in fact it is going to be almost none of either #you are gonna have to face that the military murders human beings and your dad is not any better #and people who its ''just their job'' to do it chose that job. and they know #''you cant get mad at the worker woman; you have to get mad at the institution'' no im mad at the individual woman too #just because its your job to manipulate kids and kill Arab people doesnt mean its okay #''not everyone in the military is actively fighting'' no! they arent. but they are helping those that are. #they are not complicit but actively helping. you have to do anything and everything you can to just Not Fucking do that #ANYONE in the military has failed being a decent human 101. being in any part of the military means you are okay with centuries of genocide #and encourage even more. its not 'just your job' you are OK and more for relentless murder and i wish you harm #anyways. sometimes repeating & internalizing the things ur parents say means watch our for road traps and the beatles are good. #sometimes it is US propaganda and just because it is in your own house and coming from a loved one doesnt mean you cant not fall for it #edit not to mention him saying this the day after aaron bushnell died. dude #unethical jobs exist. it is everyones job to bring them down #''its just her job'' was Bushnells sacrifice not fucking enough for you??? and the millions of dead Palestinians????? christ

[cheeseknives]

I got last months electricity bill and it was like 800€ something, whhhaat the fuck

#this is going to be me just complaining lmao feel free to ignore #I practically live alone when moms not here ???? #but also like #if you have whole ass family #let's say partner and three kids or something #and you want them to have same kind of upbringing as you so you get a house with a lawn n all that in rural area #how the fuck are you supposed to do that ??? #I'm not even against the idea of raising kids myself but in this economy..? #hurr durr future bad #but also men who want housekeeper of a wife but also complain about gold diggers like dawg #you have to have stay at home money to have stay at home wife lol #even if both of you work you cant expect your wifey to do all the work at home #the municipality is going to look at our bill and the amount of residents in our house and think we are growing weed or something... #but yeah this is why you dont remove fireplace from old ass house old heaters are expensive to keep on #like idk if I should just turn them off in rooms we dont use ? #bc on the otherhand what if something like mold starts growing there since its still winter #ughh #turning this house into igloo I dont want to think about funny numbers on the screen #remember to unplug things if you arent using them #I probably should check that no one is living in our attic or something #I have desire to bother someone about this

[surpriserose]

Video essayists need to get meaner i cant fucking take it how do you release an almost 3 hour video on the transphobia in south park and then comment ummmm its okay if you still like it though and "learned important lessons" from south park??????????? Fucking south park????????????

#Listen i get it you attract more flies with honey rather than vinegar south park fans arent gonna change their minds if you call them racist #Transphobic pieces of shit to their face but like who cares if you piss them off theyre racist transphobic pieces of shit and again you mad #A 3 hour long video for WHAT then if youre gonna try and have it both ways and say this is extremely harmful but umm if you like it its fin #On one hand yes being a trans woman anywhere is a precarious enough position let alone when you actually start discussing transmisogyny and #I get not wanting to invite any more harrassment but again.....you made a 3 hour long video about this can you commit to this #Or not? Especially when youre white and youre showing clips not only containing transmisogyny but racism as well because the whole show is #Fucking coated in bigotry of every kind and you cant even be like hey maybe......dont watch this show???? #And yeah of course media you like is gonna have bad shit to some degree but we can all draw a line at SOUTH PARK RIGHT??? Fucking SOUTH PAR #Anyways good morning everypony

[arsenicflame]

if they wouldnt make out over the bloody corspe of someone they just killed whats even the point

#this is literally every couple i like im incredibly predictable #nyxtalks #angela #ofmd s2 spoilers #in tags (for the blacklists) #heres the propaganda: #fucked up that we got an edizzy scene w bloody hands #but it wasnt them covered in the blood of a raid getting blood everywhere as they grab desperately at each other #to me they wouldnt even wait for the battle to be over if there was a close call they would be going at it with the canons still going off #something something canons as a metaphor i guess #incredibly fucked up anne + mary didnt even get to kiss. they would absolutely do this its foreplay for them #(also just the stabbing of each other) u cant convinve me they wouldnt bang literally in the middle of that fire #also fucked up red/blue never got to meet in text and I KNOW thats part of the narrative. its a love story told though letters and #meeting defeats the point but god those girls were gonna be completely insane when they met i mean. stabbing ceaser for fun is canon #they are gonna go off fighting on their own side and be SO in love about it while they murder #serangela canonically make out post battle several times. also mid battle. they would do this so hard. gorgeous. #marvel put them back together challenge. marvel let their comics be more bloody challenge. #the only ones this wouldnt be is loki/sigyn i mean. idk theyre soft in a way the other girls arent #they would get bloody but their vibe is more: tenderly wiping the blood off your lovers cheek; yknow?

[silenthillbunni]

i truly from the bottom of my heart despise fireworks and everyone who uses them

#my dog is so scared :(((((( im so worried #and that makes me think abt all the dogs who are even more scared #so many ppl have to LOSE their dogs bc they dogs are so scared they DIE #cats and horses get traumatized and killed too #ugh no i just hate hate hate fireworks so much #it shouldnt be legal #like im 100% against it butwe could at least compromise #if they had a firework show somewhere maybe in the city center #and ppl had to go there or watch live #and they could only do it around midnight #but it should be illegal to sell and buy it for everyone else #fireworks are 99% bad for everything and only 1% pretty and they arent worth it #god my dog's scared but i still hope he'll be fine #my heart goes out to everyone who has to suffer thru LOSING their dogs/cats/horses thats so fkn awful #i cant express enough w words how much i FUCKING HATE FIREWORKS #i hate everyone who uses them!!!!!! everyone who supports them!!!!!!! fuck them all to hell

[freebooter4ever]

i send my friend suggestions of tourist places to see in his new country (his contract was extended, lucky him!) or messages about friend of friends i have living there that he could maybe meet for fellow americans to talk to, and his response is always that he doesnt have time. and not in that exaggerated way that people do to seem busy. but in that bone tired way i recognize from him here in LA, that i recognize in myself.

#jrnlsht #i watch the lives of my friends who have Made It on social media and its like looking through glass into another world i cant relate to #theyre so happy and confident and successful and its beautiful #you know whats a funny thing about LA #so many people on the on*line da*ting apps put *successful* on their list of requirements in the people they want to date #like theres a bar of entry and if you haven't reached a certain goal post like... blue check marks on your social media or a level of wealt #then they arent even going to want to get to know you #and its so antithetical to how i was raised i cant even comprehend #and yet i see it happening to my own relationships #in pittsburgh i had friends from literally ALL walks of life from people who made even less money than me to comfortable to fairly wealthy #here my friends are almost entirely of one professional class #and i have been observing how my hyper wealthy friends self select in who they interact with to maintain this wealthy bubble around them #i dont think it's entirely intentional but its also not not intentional if you know what i mean #anyway its one of the reasons i fucking loved the talk on saturday oh my god those two were a breath of fresh air i needed so much #these smart genius dudes built their own life and instead of constantly looking up for more and more personal gain #they paused and looked at the people still desperately trying to rise #and were like if i have gotten this far why cant i help you do it too and then they DID IT they actually started helping #i think that is the true meaning of success

[eliias-bouchard]

SIGH.

#JUDGEMENTKAT POSTS #HMM #JKAT POSTS #SURE. #I WANT TO TALK TO OUR MUTUALS BUT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO TALK ABOUT #THE LYNX IS GETTING CATHOLIC ABOUT APLATONICISM SO I CANT TALK TO IT #TALKING TO MUTUALS ALSO MEANS SETTING UP AN ENTIRE FUCKING DISCORD SERVER SO I CAN HAVE PK AND PROXY #AND HONESTLY I THINK IT'D BE AWKWARD! MOST OF OUR MUTUALS PROBABLY EITHER DONT KNOW WE'RE A SYSTEM OR #ARENT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH TALKING TO A HEADMATE #AND WE HAVE SOME SYSTEM MUTUALS BUT WE'VE NEVER SPOKEN TO THEM AND THERES. THE ISSUES(TM). #AT THE SAME TIME IF THE SIREN IS GETTING CATHOLIC ABOUT APLATONICISM I (EUGH) DONT WANT TO MAKE HOLYS ISSUES WORSE #THEN AGAIN ITS REALLY NOT MY FAULT IF ENDLESS WANTS TO GET CATHOLIC ABOUT THINGS MIST DIDNT EVEN DO #AND ITS ALMOST 1AM. IM GOING TO BE OUT OF FRONT SOON BECAUSE CIRCE WILL WANT TO GO TO BED AND DO HIS THING. #SO WHAT DOES IT FUCKING MATTER ANYWAY.

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D

me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening

#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in #like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying #i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty #it #like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night #am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired #or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once??? #idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop #id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem #because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines #so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping #but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real #and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE #i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters #actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists #and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the #7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant #fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get #knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am #and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be #doing them at all #like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding #schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters #delete later

[liquidstar]

Considering Julius is a history nerd, how do you suppose he would react to Subaru telling him about earth history?

the thing is theyre BOTH history nerds so if they just stopped their weird bickering for 2 seconds they could actually have the most fun and interesting conversation ever. just like loredumping to each other. i genuinely think julius would be so fascinated to learn about entire new countries and cultures and mythologies and everything. hed probably be surprised by just HOW MUCH earth has going on given there are so many more countries, and a much more complex history due to not being in the middle ages lol. like the industrial revolution is going to blow his fucking mind. we've already seen the ppl of legunica struggle somewhat to understand certain things, bc they really DO have a medieval perception of the world. so subaru might have to explain around certain things. like. "you're telling me they put a man on the moon? the fucking moon in the fucking sky?" <lost his knightly composure

#i can speak from experience on that last part bc i have a great aunt (shes 102) who like #grew up in a very very very very very isolated village and didnt get to go to school #so she doesnt understand that like... the world isnt flat and the sun and moon arent the size of quarters in the sky #and like i know youre thinking ''thats impossible how can someone think that'' well like. #she was never taught anything beyond what she perceives. that all. #and even when you try to explain these things to her now she cant quite comprehend them #like you can tell her that the sun is fucking huge and millions of miles away but she'll just be like no its right there. and its small. #to be clear shes not like a flat earth conspiracy theorist thats like a completely different thing #she was never taught it was round to begin with...

[nudibutch]

okay real talk. for those into any form of pain play and/or impact play? how do you distinguish between like. wanting it because you Want it vs. wanting it because you feel like either 1. you genuinely deserve it (punishment or the best youll get) or 2. its the best you have to offer your partner?

#i was just really thinking about this last night and.... #there are some levels of pain that i really do genuinely enjoy and i know arent associated with what im asking #a good example is scratching or biting #but there are occasionally more intense things i fantasize about like being restrained and hit with an implement and at first im like #yeah thats hot #but then im not really sure if im wanting it in the same This Is Pleasurable way or if im wanting it in the #This Is The Best You Can Really Get or #in my case being stone like #it occurred to me that pain is 1. a cleaner/more distinct signal to me. nervous system wise #cause of dysphoria and whatever fucking else is going on with my body a lot of pleasure just gets lost in translation #but pain is like ok point of contact direct to brain #and also like. i would express more. outwardly. obviously. with pain #and i dont know if me wanting that is my brain trying to say #well if you cant really give your partner an expression of pleasure #your dick is fake you cant feel that very well and otherwise touches are very hard to translate to arousal #then the better you Can give them is. your pain #and idk if im overthinking it or what or if like #my brain is saying oh well if you cant feel it tender even though you want to you Want to feel it tender #guess youll have to feel it rough instead #which im not sure i.... like #anyway. if you made it this far. thanks for reading HAJDKGKH #my inbox is open if u have comments suggestions insight etc. #slug.personal