#they both think so little of themselves

[ruporas]

cheers to the future of humanity (and the future of us)

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun. The illustration takes place during the ship/home arc, specifically chapter 21. At the center, Vash is grabbing Wolfwood by the collar and pulls him into a kiss in the middle of a celebration. The pair is colored in vibrant warm hues while their surroundings are colored in cooler colors like green and teals. Luida, Brad, Meryl, and Milly are shown amongst the crowd, occupied in the celebrations as Vash and Wolfwood share a moment by themselves at the center. END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #hospital yuri (explodeds) like any average vw enjoyer i will never get over that arc #specifically the scene where they heard the news of earth ships coming and did that little handshake they somehow conjured or #Had already. and then the entire ship had a party... meryl and milly started drinking immediately from joy and dragged vash and ww to get #wasted too and overall celebrate together. the chapter moves quickly just like how the hope was quickly withered out and died just hours #later when knives destroyed it. BUT IM JUST THINKING ABOUT IN THE MOMENT OF IT ALL bc in the same chapter #ww asks for a chance for tomorrow and then gets news of earth ships coming. in this same arc vash is thinking of all the things he needs to #resolve so his home doesn't get attacked so the people he love doesn't have to die and the humans he wants to protect gets to live. #i feel like deep down they both semi-recognize that it can't be this easy and regardless of earth ships coming- there's still a wait for #them to arrive and they have to hold out. and regardless ww still has a mission to follow through and vash knows knives would find out #but in that mood of celebration the entire ship brought in - they can at least let themselves relax for a moment and indulge #how they basically engaged with no violence for the few days they were on that ship coaxing them into domesticity... i feel like their #thoughts would wander to somewhere soft and all #allowing them to push aside the tiptoeing and tenseness and be sweet for a night #ruporas art

[junotter]

All the jokes about Ken and horses are good but I just wanna say it's such a good parallel to how actual young men get swept into misogyny and the patriarchy.

Like they're told to believe it means men get to be cool and manly and have this power but with that comes extremely rigid commands of what they can be as a man and a cycle of self hatred for never matching those gender roles perfectly. Patriarchy tells men that if they just do exactly what is expected of them, then they get all the "cool stuff" that comes with. That doesn't work though when there's only a small group that actually gets that power, but men will keep trying to fit into those roles in hopes that they can.

In the end there are no horses or the myth men are told, it's just endless cycles of self hatred and ingroup fighting.

#barbie #barbie movie #barbie spoilers #ig #ive got a lot more on how barbie looks at feminism and the patriarchy cause god they did it #not to say there isnt faults such as very little conversation about intersectionality #but i can also understand the impossible task of talking about EVERYTHING in one movie #not everyone will be happy and thats fine #anyway i think something barbie did really well is fight this battle of both wanting so deeply to love (romantically or not) men but also #not dismissing the fact its mens job to solve their problems themselves #that even if women need to be the front runners of breaking the patriarchy men cannot rely on them to solve their own problems completely #also just god im so glad this wasnt a girl boss slay movie #women deserve respect and love and life regardless of accomplishment #we should not have to be ceos and presidents and world problem solvers to gain equality #i can also understand if nonbinary people feel left out/disconnected from the movie #but as always gender abolition and acknowledging the gender binary (ie the one societially impossed) go hand and hand 👍 #just incase cause idfk terfs dni the barbie movie is not for you #barbie literally states constantly that her gender has nothing to do with (non existent) genitals so f off

[skeletoninthemelonland]

#it's me i'm the wind blowing #y'all things are a little more complicated when it comes to these two #(sits down and takes a sip from my dark blue coffee mug) #(thinks: i wish i had springtrap coffee mug) #so... #both of them have difficult pasts #both are parents trying their best on raising their children #THE THING IS #one can't let herself get too attached #while the other is still afraid all humans are the same #but at the same time. they just want to find peace and happiness #and they've found it at home #they found happiness living those very brief and mundane moments #like waking up every morning #having breakfast next to people that make you smile #making your way to school/work and seeing sunlight pass through the trees #and going home after a tough day and there are rain clouds approaching. you just know you're going to sleep well at night #this is how they heal. and in the mean time. let themselves open up to each other #I have a feeling this is gonna be a slow burn kinda thing #COUGHING REALLY HARD #ENDING THIS RIGHT HERE OKAY BYE #starbstalks #springdad au

[lunar-years]

i'm still very sad they didn't do anything at all in season 3 with the Nate & Roy dynamic they'd been building off in the background for the first two seasons, because the layers there were really fascinating.

Starting with like, Roy being the only one to vocally and actively stand up for Nate in season one. At the time I think Nate was appreciative, but I think in hindsight, (rightly or wrongly) it quickly morphs into this mindset that Roy is sort of patronizing and has long viewed him as this weak thing in need of protecting. It feels (in Nate's mind), like Roy swept in to play the savior when it convinced him, but even that was based more around his hatred of Jamie than it was about liking Nate. And we see Nate later think himself proven correct in that thinking after he kisses Keeley and confesses and Roy...barely reacts. Roy, who is furious and angry about everything and everyone every day of his life, is suddenly like "Oh it's fine" when Nate has kissed his girlfriend. Nick Mohammed's commentary that Nate actively saw that as a micro-aggression was so fascinating and makes a lot of sense.

Then you have Roy, who did see season one Nate as someone to protect, but then was also driven to his best performance on the pitch during his final season by Nate's no-bullshit speech before the Everton game. That scene is so effective because it's such a jarring departure for the entire team from how they've previously viewed Nate, and it works for Roy especially because Roy respects people who don't give in to the intimidation he's constantly goading them with and instead tells it to him straight, no words minced (this is why Roy gets along so well with people like Rebecca, Keeley, and Ted, and why the breakthrough moment with Jamie is Jamie calling him out at the gala, etc.). I think there IS a part of Roy that doesn't respect Nate in season 1, which is why he later reacts how he does to Nate's kiss with Keeley, and it's a mindset he's vindicated by when Nate turns on Ted. But that also gets all mixed up with moments like the Everton, with the evidence of Nate being such a good strategist that Roy later finds himself deeply envious of after becoming a coach himself.

During the time they are both coaching together, there's a dynamic there where they both (I think) believe the other person doesn't take them seriously, and it's rooted in a little bit of truth (on both sides!!) that's then wildly exacerbated by their own insecurities. Like, Nate is intimated by the fact that Roy is this rich famous hotshot publicly beloved, so that it feels way out of Nate's league to even be interacting with him. At the same time, he also thinks Roy is a bit of an asshole who doesn't see him as a threat because he doesn't take him seriously, and is (fairly) offended by it. Meanwhile, Roy is intimated by Nate because Nate is so clearly so intelligent, which I think is something Roy is insecure about in general, given his own education being superseded early on by football. He sees Nate as being a more adequate coach than himself because of this. But he also thinks Nate is spineless and whatever respect he had for him (fairly) dissolves completely after Nate goes to the press about Ted.

So it's like, this messy mixture where they both have something the other desperately wants but they can't see at all why the other would possibly be envious of them due to their own insecurities. They are, imo, the two most insecure people on the show in completely different ways. They hate themselves far more than they hate each other, yet they displace the weight of that feeling onto each other; Roy by treating Nate with indifference and Nate by dismissing Roy in his head as an asshole hotshot whose had a great life handed to him and doesn't even appreciate it, whereas Nate has to fight tooth and nail to find success. And it all boils down to them not understanding one another while also having a lot in common under the surface.

Anyway, I think it would be super interesting to see how their friendship or even just their relationship as coworkers develops after season 3, as they both make active attempts at overcoming their insecurities and doing better by themselves and each other.

#ted lasso #roy kent #nate shelley #ted lasso meta #been thinking about this a lot this morning for some reason! #the juicy bit is. They are both RIGHT in thinking the other doesn't respect them. at least a little. #and part of the lack of respect IS because of Roy's ego and Nate thinking of himself as twice as smart as Roy with half the payoff for it #roy is full of himself nate is deeply bitter and it results in unfairly thinking of the other as lesser in some way #but there are also real and valid reasons they lack respect for the other too. rooted in their respective bad actions #ie. nate going to trent roy's microaggressions at nate #and acknowledging why the other might not like them for THOSE reasons gets a little too close to home #as to why they don't like /themselves #so it's easier to just be like roy doesn't like me because he's an asshole. nate doesn't like me because he'd spineless and weak. #idk if that makes sense of if i'm just rambling at this point but like. TRUST ME. #it's a fascinating dynamic. #Nate haters don’t interact this is coming from a place of love for two flawed imperfect characters <3

[nellasbookplanet]

Okay I've talked about the tragedy of Laudna now let's talk about the tragedy of Imogen.

It’s been a while, but her moment in the Feywild truth exercise where she says "I think I’m tainted. I don’t know if I want to save gods that don’t love me" has really stuck in my mind. The thing is, I don’t think she’s specifically talking about the gods here, but rather summing up and projecting her entire experience as a ruidusborn. She isn’t thinking "Why aren’t I the gods' special little princess? Why haven’t they come to save me specifically?? You better love me or I'll let you die" (which we have seen does seem to be a common attitude in the Vanguard) This is her fear of being against her own will tainted by something evil. Her fear that, despite knowing how wrong it is, part of her longs for the power and belonging that comes with giving in to Predathos. It’s knowing that this thing is the antithesis of the gods, and that no matter what she does and how much she opposes it, it is still part of her. And because of that, the world doesn’t love her. Her mother left, her father can barely look at her, her own body will betray her with feelings and powers she doesn't understand, her community ostracized her, her allies view her with suspicion, the gods will not lend a hand in their own rescue when she asks despite Imogen putting herself and her loved ones in danger for their sake.

And Imogen is tired. Tired of being the bigger person, tired of resisting. Logically she knows the gods don’t hate her specifically but it ads up, and as the lure of Predathos does promise love and belonging part of her wants to give in because why should she risk so much to save a world that has never once tried to save her.

And that’s where she, as well as Laudna, get so interesting. They have deeply sympathetic reasons for their doubts and flaws, as well as for why they value each other so much higher than the entirety of Exandria (tl;dr because they have only ever gotten genuine understanding and unconditional love from each other). But that doesn’t mean it isn't flaws. It doesn’t mean Imogen, if she hadn’t met Laudna and the Hells first and realized the harm the Vanguard is causing and that their promises are ultimately lies, couldn’t have been drawn in by the Vanguard's ideas. It doesn’t mean they aren't wrong in blaming gods for bad things in their own lives, or in demanding special treatment. But it’s deeply understandable, which is the very reason they and people like them're such excellent targets for the Vanguard to convert. And once in the Vanguard, it doesn’t matter how tragic and sympathetic you are, you are still doing evil.

#critical role #cr3 #imogen temult #meanwhile Laudna's negative attitude towards the gods is a bit more complicated #in that she really does blame them for not saving her #she's repressing all of her negative emotions about her fate and situation but those feelings are still THERE #and lately they’ve been heightened due to the stressful situation of trying to save the gods #and laudna doesn’t want to save anyone she just want to chill and enjoy what little life she has #and so when the negative emotions do come out she projects them at the gods bc she needs SOMEONE to blame #and since she’s never interacted with a god they’re easy to blame bc in a way they aren’t entirely real to her #something that isn’t entirely real but very powerful can’t be a victim but it can be an easy scapegoat #bells hells travel past the divine gate and physically interact with the gods challange #it would be so juicy to see imogen and laudna be forced to face and process this projection of guilt against the gods they both share #i think it would help them realize that sometime randomly bad things will just Happen and it’s no ones fault #and in seeing that stop looking for someone to blame (both themselves and the gods) and start to heal #nella talks cr

[dollypopup]

y'all can all cancel me (again) for this, but if there's even a SHRED of 'who should I pick?' from Penelope in season 3, I am tuning out SO fast because like. . .sorry not sorry, there IS no choice. Debling is some crusty OC suitor she barely even knows and Colin is a man who she has been so supposedly in love with to the point where she'd ruin her entire family's reputation to have a potential love story with him. Penelope and Colin have background, years of knowing each other, intimacy that few people in the Ton can boast of having (letters, conversations about purpose, fights and arguments and makeups) and her and Debling have. . .a dance or two at a ball because he's a rebound for Penelope's broken heart. he means nothing. he has no nuance, he has no weight to the story, he is such an afterthought to me. either I wanna see Penelope going 'you know what? I don't even LIKE this dude. he's. . .fine, but I don't care about him even a shred as much as I care about Colin' or the INSTANT Colin's like 'you know what? we should get married' if it's not an immediate 'say less, you're already my husband, try returning me without the receipt, Debling whomst?' then I don't want it!

like. . .it's just so frustrating to see all the 'I hope Debling sweeps her off her feet and she rejects Colin's proposal and she makes him work for it and and and-' nonsense from the fandom and it's always tagged and no matter how many times I block it, it just keeps popping up. I go into the Polin tag for POLIN. I don't give a SHIT about a male love interest other than Colin. Not one. Not a shred. Not an iota.

and also. . .Debling has the 'benefit' of not having depth, or character traits, or HISTORY, so peeps can project onto him however they want, but I'm calling it now, there is NOTHING he could do or be that would make me like him more than Colin. Colin will always hit different, and I will always love him more. and if Pen's not on that same page? lol bye

you want me to believe Penelope and Colin are soulmates and it's romance for her to hem and haw about how difficult a decision it is for her to marry a stranger who knows barely anything about her. . .

when Marina was out here dropping banger lines like 'You were the only man with which I could see myself being happy' and 'I do not care about any of these men, where is Colin?'? like hello??? and she wasn't even fully in love with him!!!! but we'll demonize her until the cows come home in our fandom and make her the villain in Polin's love story for DARING to get in between Polin, yet Debling, a white man, is a darling dear perfect prince for getting in between Polin? existing in our fandom solely so Penelope can be like 'lol, Colin ain't shit, let me entertain any and everyone else'?

if that's the direction it goes then, ten toes down and on my mama, she doesn't deserve Colin and she can move because I'm on my way to court him my damn self

and that's that on that

#you know what? lol it's been a bit since i've posted a controversial opinion #tagging it #polin #sorry not sorry i ship polin. . .so i wanna see. . .polin. . .and i'm getting damn sick and tired #of all the bullshit pen/oc pen/other dude theories and stories in the polin tag #and i don't want polin to lose screentime over a frankly bleh male oc #you can't change my mind #if i don't see at least marina's 'you've seen him with the little bridgertons!' level of squee and 'i only want to talk to colin' #levels of devotion then i don't fucking WANT IT!!!!! #yeah definitely try out the marriage market #realize that NO ONE has a good time on the marriage market #try to get over him w/ whomstever #but then be like 'i don't even LIKE this dude where's colin i miss him' about it!!!!! #because otherwise i am not here #i am asleep #and i am courting colin in your place pen #i'm coming for your man #anti debling #if debling has 100 haters i am one of them if he has 10 haters i'm one of them if he has 1 hater i am the hater if he has 0 haters i'm dead #it's incredibly obvious that 'pebling' is half rooted in a revenge storyline fueled by anger at Colin and his complexity #and half a projection of wanting Penelope to have 'choices' because she is a representation and manifestation of the fans themselves #and so people think an OC that can be 'perfect' for them- whoops I mean Pen (because he doesn't have any real depth or interest) #he's a cardboard cutout we can throw whatever you want onto #so we can make him 'perfect' instead of the much more meaningful storyline of pen and colin both being messy and loving each other more #and part of it is bitterness over Polin not being insta-love #which. . .if it was i wouldn't like them as much as i do #anyways y'all ain't slick #and it's fucking WEIRD to be in a fandom that's like 'i ship this couple but i hope she gets with ANYONE else' #maybe you. . .don't ship the couple?? #like. . .to the point of wanting her necklace to be from debling. . .and her wearing it everywhere??? WHAT??

[hoffmanstits-enjoyer]

There's just something so fucking great about the concept of characters like Zeke Banks and Peter Strahm having this complicated relationship to serial killers while having such a strong urge for justice and finding the truth???

Specifically, I love to think about how in the middle of their games of cat and mouse, or at those moments they inevitably share as they sharpen their knowledge on each other and get close enough to bump, when their intentions get a lot more nuanced as they insist on combing through them later again and again... that connection and obsession shoves everything else to second place. Seeing one another tunnels their vision, and their actions will follow rules made on the spot.

But then the world keeps on turning around them when they leave the crime scene with blood on their shirts and a gun that may or may not have been pointed but never used, piles of mangled bodies from 'collaborative traps' and distorted audios calling the remains of another horror story a chance for 'redemption' never stop being found; survivors slam doors in their faces when they come for statements and sob their hearts out at their closed off support meetings— suddenly, it's their place to show remorse, perform the respect and compassion that's lacking in their lovers... and how it impacts them to carry that burden they, against their own better judgement and all good reasoning, carry because they only give this much of a tangible fuck when they're put face to face with that damage.

It's just breathtaking, to wonder how ignorance is bliss and they cover themselves in it for the sake of something they want so badly. The guilt that comes when the blanket slips right off, yanked back by their lovers. Maybe even by themselves, punishment for their own broken vows. Weakness.

#parallels between saw gays go brrrrrrr #i just think that it's so good that u see this exact dynamic in fics with different intonation #a little more self hatred in one a little less commitment to justice for the other but both so similar #especially the 'you want me? well you got me' coming from mark and william #how tempting it is to give in to the interest shown or to curiosity #the need to be the Good One between them two exhausting them but they do it either bc its nature or bc its what they expect of themselves #their moral compasses cracking and pointing at confusing directions as they see the 'why' but are disgusted at the 'how' #how being exposed time and time again makes it not so urgent not so physically sickening but still so warped so twisted #uGHHHH i love it #love all of it #never being in the same terms but staying still by the threads they wrapped around themselves #peter strahm #ezekiel banks #mark hoffman #william schenk #coffinshipping #spiralshipping #hoffstrahm #sawposting #saw franchise #the horror gays are fucking killing me #serial killers and their pet detective/agent <3

[willel]

"I'm too busy to discuss this with you right now and I'm totally not repressing my feelings."

#stranger things #willel #will byers #el hopper #lucas sinclair #mike wheeler #my content #I was going to add text but El and Mike's conversation didn't flow quite the same #basically I just now noticed that both Will and El blow of Lucas and Mike when they were trying to apologize or explain themselves #I feel like Lucas's apology came across a little more genuine #his face at the end breaks my heart #Will is SO obviously trying to play it off but #I think Lucas can see that he's hurting so he's like #'Damn... we really hurt him.' #'What should I do?' #I LOVE LUCAS SO MUCH #OENELNWETW #Seriously he is one of the best friends a kid could ask for #He makes mistakes but you can rest assured he'll do anything to make things right #I don't think Will is really upset at Lucas which is the root of why he didn't want/accept Lucas's apology #but still it's clear Lucas wanted to fix whatever was going on and he got walled out #i need lucas and Will scenes next season pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee #anyway #back to the willel parallels #I just find it interesting that when offered apologies #they blew them off #Will did it easily because Lucas could read the room and didn't want to push Will on the subject #El tried to blow Mike off multiple times because she didn't want to talk about it but he wouldn't let her leave #so she kinda unloaded on him a bit #though I'm sure if given the opportunity

[reindeerswillsavethisworld]

you know, there's a lot of art (both as an actual art and fanfiction) in phandom that elaborates and deepens the relationship between danny and ghosts, and not much about ghosts and everybody else. there's some things about vlad and danielle and jazz and surprisingly mr. lancer (?), and that's usually it. and honestly, good for you all, the things i saw were really fascinating, genuinely.

but like. i would DIE to see more about the relationship between sam and dora. the parallels alone are??? ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES, I'M TELLING YOU.

i want them to be friends. i want them to be kindred spirits. i want sam to treat dora's kingdom as a safe heaven, a calm harbor where she can simply be, with no expectations and daunting responsibilities. i want dora to teach sam how to differentiate fabrics by feel alone, how to dance with her eyes closed and all the different messages flowers can tell. i want her to tell sam about that time sir albert made a fool of himself trying to oppose a new economic reform, talk about all the economic, legal and political reforms she's been making in all it's excruciating detail and then to teach her the perfect curtsy.

i want sam to show dora how to tend to a garden. to show her the joy of watching a new life grow and knowing that you did this, that you hands can be gentle and loving, that you were not born to hurt. i want them to recite poetry to each other, to argue and debate and discuss, to find a meaning where the words before were empty, to offer an angle never thought before. i want sam to teach dora how to skate, be it skates, rollerblades or a scateboard, and dora being absolutely terrible at it and yet still doing it everytime they meet because it makes them laugh.

i just think they'd be really good friends, if given a chance.

#two girls shoved into ill-fitting boxes by people close to them what will they do outside of them #i am so not normal about them being friends and confidants and confronting their hurt inner self by helping each other heal #their true selves were smothered almost all of their lives. they were told how to speak how to walk how to dress how to behave #i think it would be both poetic and cathartic for them to reinvent themselves by sharing both the things they couldn't do #and the things they were made to do #something something taking things that you were forced to do and finding new joy in them by sharing them with a person you love and trust #(i also want them making a new sport out of roasting aragon alive with words. i think it will fix them a little) #sam manson #princess dorathea #danny phantom

[ruporas]

hello there, angel

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash is sitting facing the viewer and holds a rose between his clasped together hands, but he’s looking to the left, upwards, at Wolfwood, with an awed expression. Wolfwood hovers over him with wings sprouting from his back. He has a cigarette lit between his lips, his arms and legs are crossed, and he looks back at Vash with a neutral expression. The both of them are covered in a blue shadow, casted by Wolfwood and his hovering form, while warm light hits the back of his wings and over Vash’s legs. Small feathers sits next to Vash. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #this is not meant to mean anything btw i just wanted to draw wolfwood as an angle #i love angel and follower depiction but i also think wolfwood is just the most angelic human being ever #he was sent to guide him... he protects him... he Saved him #i mean they both just think of each other as the most good they've seen in the world in a really long time #and in turn makes themselves coil and feel a little more disgusted with themselves. but they're also so Good to each other that they can #start to believe that they can be that good too. #they love each other so much and theyve never loved anyone else like this before so i can just imagine the heights their love can reach #endless pouring of affection in a way they can only keep to their own chest in fear they'd never be able to let go otherwise #that is to say i just feel like they'd worship each other and it's probably excessive but i feel like they both really deserve it #i did not even mean to go on that tangent but back on topic -- i just love angel wolfwood depiction in a way that's Normal...... #need more of vash saying cheesy shit like youre my light wolfwood!!!! and wolfwood beating the shit out of him like WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!!! #which is why i have a tablet in the first place. my mission in the world... #ruporas art

[sunnnfish]

“If you just do everything you’re supposed to do you’ll eventually end up where you need to be.” Infinity train book 4 you fuck me up so bad still. “You can mess up even if you stand still…” MIN-GI PARK…..

#ITS SOOOOO GOOD… #he’s fucking. just like me for real #GOD. relationships with family and friends and like. I DONT HAVE THE WORDS FOR IT RIGHT NOW #and how like personal problems and biases can effect your relationships #and how little things about someone can build up and bottle up and it’s like you love them and hate them at the same time #and about standing still versus rushing ahead #the weight of expectations. one trying to run away one just trying to do as he’s told #and they both think they knows what’s best. for themselves for each other #rymin is so much more than a ship to me. it’s about complexities and best friendship and knowing someone your whole life #and how extremely fucked up that can be #head in my hands punches the wall explodes #infinity train #book 4 #rymin #sunnfish.txt #min gi park is like if hanzawa masato was a lot less eccentric and a lot more angry. same core though #sorry also just like. what a justified anger it is #min gi has molded himself to what his parents want him to be his whole life #he tries and wants to be with Ryan. but it’s so fucking terrifying to him #that amount of change and freedom. #sorry. sorry #okay. I’m going #WAIT. also thinking about the whole. abandonment issues. aaaaauuuuu #rewatching rn and #not even at the art gallery car episode yet but I’m thinking about it. you LEFT me.

[sysig]

What if Peepers got left behind with the main duo tho (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Wander #Commander Peepers #Sylvia #Dynamics ✨ #Technically I have more to this idea but it ended up a bit meandering so y'know how it is lol #One of these days I'll learn how to draw the actual main characters but it's not today lol #That said I am very pleased with how Sylvia turned out in the first panel lol her Snoopy poses always get me bad <3 #She may not Like the cutes but she Is the cutes so there ♪ #This is basically just a character swap The Little Guy but also that episode already happened? Idk I'll figure it out as I go lol #The important parts to me were Peepers in a position with no authority and already-established dynamics with these two #Westley growing to trust them is fun and all but Peepers already knows them interpersonally - from fairly early on! The Prisoner et al #He's not in danger - at least with Wander there lol he turns his back and Sylvia rears back and he turns again and Peepers is cowering #Poor lad haha ♪ They'll go off to fight by themselves at some point #Both of them having a proper sparring partner they're not afraid to hurt tho?? This is why their dynamic works honestly lol #But just the thought of him being equal parts defensive and trying to use them for safe haven until Hater comes back to get him lol #Unlike Westley they really can't function without him so they'd make a return trip once they noticed but how long would that take ♪ #So until then he has to get cozy! (Impossible) #But really the thought of no Hater acting as his alarm clock no force to manage no paperwork no schedule - I think it would stress him out #He's a creature of habit! He's lost without his familiar-and-knowns! Waking up to birdsong and bright sunshine is alien and wrong! #Hell even sleeping to crickets and the soft and warm breathing of other bodies - it's all strange and uncomfortable ♫ #Probably gets up in the middle of the night - carefully - to lay a trap that Chekov Gun-style foils him or Hater by the end lol #Anything to settle him! It would take way longer than the Skullship returning to sway his deep-rooted habits hehe

[quietwingsinthesky]

Irks me a little bit whenever Dean torturing in Hell is positioned as his own fault, or even really his choice to do. We get given the solid number, 30 years of torture for him and 10 inflicting it on other people (which was also more torture for him because it’s Hell, the torture evolves, it doesn’t stop), and we get told that wasn’t long enough. That John held out longer. That angels were going to pull Dean out of Hell and if he’d just held on a few years more, the seal wouldn’t have been broken.

But that isn’t true, right? We know Heaven wanted the seal broken, ergo Dean wasn’t getting saved until it was. Until it, and he, we’re thoroughly broken and usable by Heaven to achieve their own ends (ie to make him into a good (obedient) Michael sword.) So, it wouldn’t have mattered how long he held out in Apocalyptic terms because the game (that he didn’t know he was playing) was rigged against him.

But more importantly for Dean, the amount of time he managed not to break literally does not matter. Because it was never going to be long enough. Thirty years, forty, a hundred, a thousand, it does not matter how long he held out because the breaking itself is the unforgivable part to him and the breaking was always inevitable.

Anyway. There’s my Dean meta for the year. Eat up, I guess.

#despite this being brought out by that prev post I’m not like. actually annoyed or anything. #we’re all free to interpret the show however. I just think this way brings out the tragedy of it best is all. #you know it’s like. did Dean & Sam technically both have choices in s4? did they technically make the wrong ones? yes. #but at the same time. there was never a choice. there was never an option to avoid the apocalypse. especially with how little they knew #of what was actually going on over their heads. like. it really is insane to go rewatch s4 and realize how much they don’t understand about #what’s happening around and to them. and that’s the part I like best! it was unavoidable! they will still blame themselves forever! #what’s the thing called where you like both brothers. bibro? that’s me. #samgirl with bibro tendencies. #if you ever see me speak negatively about dean know that it’s because I love those things about him actually. #I like when he’s possessive and self-destructive and terrible. I just think. in this particular instance. this was not him embodying #a character flaw. so much as it was him being forced into his role in the story in a very like. visceral literal sense. #I could go into the Michael-Dean ‘what does it mean that of the two vessels it’s not Lucifer’s sent to hell but Michael’s’ thing but #maybe save that for another day. I have thoughts I’m just tired. #spn #dean winchester

[notmoreflippingelves]

Shi Long Lang insisting all of his agents identify themselves as "1" during team countoffs, and Manfred von Karma setting his bank PIN to #1 have the same and yet opposite energies.

#shi long lang #manfred von karma #ace attorney #ace attorney investigations #mvk thinking he is the BEST and every little thing about him must reflect that vs. #lang thinking all his coworkers are the best and wanting them to see it in themselves #both of them setting personal security; practicality and common sense by the wayside in the process #they're both just silly little guys burdened by glorious competency in most respects #and yet an utter lack in others #shame we never got to see them interact but then again miles would've had such whiplash from it #they both expect better from him and he expects better from them #i also feel like lang might be a bit nicer to miles after encountering mvk #like he'd meet him and be like "oh so THAT's where Pretty Boy gets it from' and have the most apt lang zi proverb to summarize things

[sovonight]

surviving on drawing/writing the barest scaffolding and filling in the rest of the blanks in my mind

#sovo art #xan x radri #torn on whether xan's marriage vows would be his classic 5 page essay or if he'd go 'you already know everything i'd say here so #let's just make this official. it's already been 3 years bc you kept accepting quests please this day was so hard to plan' #meanwhile radri only has one paragraph and she fumbles it. xan is still moved to tears however #anyway ive also been roughly altering scenes to fit radri better & feeling just slightly guilty abt it bc the way she flinches emotionally #sometimes means that xan changes to be a little gentler which may come off as ooc--but i did design her for them to go together that way... #she Is meant to change him somewhat... #her setup is perfect for jaheira not thinking that xan's the best match for her though loL #like yeah xan who defaults to silent treatment when there's an issue & radri who defaults to avoiding confrontation when there's an issue #it would appear that those issues would never get ironed out #but it's not abt having someone who complements those bad habits--it's having them pull themselves out of that habit #prompted by each other's actions--reactions--love #and they are both so scared and so brave

[5eyed]

another yayo just for fun :)

#yayo #i think i may make her an american student to match all the rest of the cast... :) #++ my explanation for why i write them little dialogues in english so far is theyre all immigrants or expats for whom french is a second or #third language so english ended up being their shared language #(klein speaks german english and french - xeres speaks tamazight arabic french and english - soona speaks arabic english and french) #in that order so both soona and klein spoke english before they did french and would have been more comfortable w it #at least when they first all met lol. so thats why they dont speak french among themselves! #i think kleins french is v good for professional reasons but he still prefers english #and possibly selected xeres as a roommate bc she was comfortable speaking english to him lol #maybe for yayo ill make it so that she has 1 french parent and was raised bilingual #so she moved to france for studying bc its cheaper #thatd make sense.. so theres my thoughts on my ocs today :)