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moeblob · 25 days

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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r0achezz · 6 months

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Heyyyy, I saw your post about info dumping...

*slips you a piece of paper that reads "free pass to talk about anything"*

Sooo, tell me about it?

SO MUCH . I HAVE SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT BUT RN I REALLY WANNA TALK ABOUT ANTS BECAUSE I THINK INSECTS ARE SO COOL AND I'M TRYING TO LEARN ABOUT ANTS RN.there is about 20 quadrillion ants in the world right now, which is WAY MORE than the current human population which is 7.888 billion, actually, the ant population is probably way more than that but who knows! More than 12,000 species of ants too but I don't think that's too impressive given there's a lot of them, of course there's gonna be different types! For queen ants there lifespan is 15 years while the works live for 7 or 8 if they're lucky, I heard that if left unattended with no predators whatsoever they could probably live to a few decades but i'll have to check if that's actually true so don't call me out for that lol. Actually, if i'm correct I think queen ants at first start out with wings! They keep them until they're able to mate and then fly off to make their own nest! This is how beginner ant keepers usually get a hold of their ant colonies, they just go outside, scoop of the queen and drop her in a dark tube and let her grow her colony in there! I have more information about how people go about growing or starting ant colonies! Usually when they have multiple queens they end up actually get confused and start fighting within their own colony, and/or they kill the other queens after awhile, though sometimes they make a mistake and end up killing ALL their queens and then the colony goes downhill from there. Ants are workaholics, when they don't have an assignment to do they usually sit around and do random chores or tend to the larvae. Other than those ants did you know that 40% of ants are lazy and/or slackers in the colony? I always thought all of them just kept on fighting and working and fighting and working, so when I learned that it surprised me a bit XD. Worker ants can recognize individuals via smell! Though that's just ants in their colony, I doubt they'd take the time to recognize each individual human that's brought harm to them haha. I don't have my notes with me at the time so there's way more. But that's just what I can remember at the top of my head! :]

#r0achezz asks #frys-the-cat #long post #well- kinda long #info dump #ants #ants are awesome guys #i love them #...they still creep me out so I love them from a safe distance ofc #I was gonna do bees but i was like “Hey! Im learning about ants arent i?”#“why not just put out what I know and see if people can give me more facts!”#or correct some facts heh #BUT YEAH THANK YOUUU!!!!!

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ruthlesslistener · 11 months

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Now here's an interesting sight- an opilione, just chilling on the side of my ecology building! The only time I've ever seen one was when I went on a trip to Minnesota- I've never seen one in California, despite them apparently being quite common where I grew up. I guess they were just all in the shrubbery

Fun facts! These guys aren't spiders, they're more like little land crabs, one of their kin sports the oldest fossilized penis ever found (he was trapped in amber with his dick out), and the males of many species actually make pretty great parents, which is really cool. They're also detritovores, aka nature's clean-up crew. Pretty funky little guys, these peas on stilts are!

#their legs creep me out but I love them #opiliones #arachnids #spider tw #(not a spider but still)

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archduke-enver-gortash · 4 months

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posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

#god i am trying so hard to just have fun and be myself #but when i do that i'm immediately a strange outsider creep #and since i can't really mask my version of masking is just not talking and then obviously you don’t find any joy in fandom spaces either #i will always be a shitty unlikable freak no matter how much i pretend otherwise. it was obvious from the start that getting involved in #fandom spaces was a fucking mistake. it's always a mistake because you're some laughing stock at best and a horrifying freak at worst #i don't blame people for not liking me i've realised what an awful person i am long ago #but it's always so hard witnessing something like fun social groups from the sidelines knowing you'll never be a part of it #this is why my mental state has been deteriorating so severely in the last few months. that Realisation once again nothing fucking changed #i know it's stupid to get so upset over fandom but it's only a pattern for me #i stopped trying to be friends with people when i was a teenager because it hasn't worked a single time #this attempt at integrating myself into the wotr and bg3 fandom by sharing my shit was just one mistake #gortash/zeke is so different from anybody else’s work and i wish i could find joy in something that it isn’t fucking deranged but i can’t #like yes it’s just fandom bullshit! gortash/zeke is a fucking oc x canon ship! why am i getting so upset over it!#i love writing them. i’ve never been this happy writing anything. and it’s entirely indicative of a common pattern in my life #when i earnestly share parts of myself/things i’m passionate about people get creeped out. and honestly? rightfully so #i would leave the discord servers i’m in because it’s fucking crushing me dude. this is so petty but i’m so jealous of what you people have #but in one i am server owner and i don’t want to just dump that responsibility onto someone else and then dip #and in the other two i’m not sure anyone would even notice that i’m gone but i still worry about being rude #though i’m not entirely sure i didn’t get invited to one of those just so people could laugh at me. idk probably just being paranoid but i #it’s been gnawing at me #ok no if i’m being this vulnerable on tunglr.com i can also say that part of me staying is also still having the hope that i could fit in #one day. logically i know it won’t happen but it’s nice to have hope sometimes #watching you all from through the window having fun like a creep #so yeah. i’ve always felt like this but it’s been rapidly getting worse with my failed attempt at the bg3 fandom #idk just been crying non-stop for the last few hours. went through an entire pack of tissues in an hour it’s very disgusting #they’re all lying around me as i’m typing this like a pillowfort of snot lmao #so yeah. idk. if someone could come over and lobotomise me that’d be nice. orin where are you when we need you most #i never had any friends irl so i foolishly gave this a shot. i’m sorry #also doesn’t help that i can see someone dropping me for people that are easier to be around in irl rn #it just hurts because it’s always like that. someone you are around when you have no other option at best. not even that sometimes

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draiochteve · 11 months

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I rewatched OG Hellraiser recently due to a silly fucking comment I saw from someone saying, “There’s nothing sexual about Hellraiser” (tell me you didn’t watch the movie without telling me-) And man that movie is so damn incredible and such a great way to tell the story of someone seeking hedonistic desires of the extreme at the expense of all others around and biting off more than he can chew. Cenobites said “BET. YOU WANTED THE EXTREMES OF PLEASURE AND PAIN? WELCOME TO THE ULTIMATE SADOMASOCHISM CLUB, FUCKER.”

#personal #and for the last time the cenobites are not the antagonists even the creator has stated this #they simply be doing what they do #frank went after them and he got what he asked for #also god the costuming #i love it #the hallway cenobite engineer dude still creeps me the fuck out tho #80s puppetry is always unsettling for me #hellraiser #drai watches movies

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kitttenteeth · 1 year

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lots of emotional thoughts 2day Ew

#finally got my hands on my 2 fav books as a kid nd rereading them is doing a lot of shit to my brain Rn idk #i didn’t realize how much these 2 books still stuck w me after all this time Tbh the one book is all ab doll artists nd their creations #the other is FAIRYOPOLIS lol i loved that book sosososooso much #i think kid me would think it’s rlly cool i have a butterfly collection now just like it talks ab in the book #nd rereading my doll book reminds me of why i love making art in the first place Even tho dolls kinda creep me out #it feels rlly weird having nd rereading these books now nd idrk how 2 describe it #i have convinced myself that my childhood didnt happen nd that little girl is a completely seperate person who grew up safe nd happy #nd So having these books feels rlly bittersweet nd weird like i have the book collection of a little dead girl #WEIRD idk sundays always make me sad i am sad 2day nd playing w all the trinkets in my room #i was supposed to finish a couple drawing But i am . so sad

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yuridovewing · 11 months

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“oh ha ha the theory where ashfur is dovewing and ivypools father is so cringe”

#but…. my melodrama….#real talk i like the theory but dislike whiteash. im not a believer bc i ship them im a believer bc its interesting to me #i see it as like. ashfur had a bruised ego and whitewing had had a crush on him since she was young #and he basically just. used her to restore his ego. bc hes a creep. he went to her not out of love not even as a second choice #but to go ‘’see? SOMEONE loves me so why cant that bitch love me? shes missing out on me #but he ofc wants squilf as a mate. so hes not official with whitewing he wont let her tell anyone #bc he wants her to come back to him and she cant do that if hes not available #so yeah means to an end situation. and when whitewing gets pregnant ashfur ditches her bc he wants REAL kits with squirrelflight #and whitewing is pretty sick of him but she still doesnt want to say who the dad is bc shes grossed out by him now #bc cant imagine he was exactly nice to her #and birchfall decides to be their adoptive dad bc he and whitewing are besties #and hes also in love w one of the shadowclan cats he traveled with so like lol works for him #and its not bc i want to put whitewing through that or something its bc i think the repercussions would be interesting #lionblaze and jayfeather try to be kind to dovepaw. but they look at her and see their murderer in their sisters place #dove and ivy being abandoned by their dad and only existing out of spite really. how that connects to the prophecy #and when it comes out that ashfur was an attempted murderer and they suspect hes their dad it just gets worse #and then in tbc two of the protags would be ashfurs grandchildren… they exist bc of him #and he uses both of them for his plans. may as well use his bastards for something in his eye #‘’oh but whitewing is cloudtails daughter and hes ashfurs foster brother-‘’ ashfur is already a creep lol #hes closer in age to squilf’s dad than he is to her so would u really put it past him #like the point isnt ‘’awww this ship would be cute’’ its ‘’ashfur is a sleazy asshole lets play with that’’

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somelazyassartist · 1 year

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What do I have to do to never see graphic novel Taako ever again (/nbh)

#THAT FUCKER MAKES ME SO GODDAMN UNCOMFORTABLE I CAN'T STAND HIS FACE #I HAVE SO MANY TAGS BLOCKED TO TRY TO AVOID HIM BUT I STILL SEE HIM CONSTANTLY #NOT THE FAULT OF ANYONE HERE AND I GUESS IT'S UNAVOIDABLE WITHOUT LEAVING THE FANBASE ALTOGETHER #BUT HE MAKES MY FUCKING SKIN CRAWL I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT HIM #ESPECIALLY AFTER GETTING 'THE ADVENTURE ZINE' AND HOW CAREY USED TO DRAW TAAKO #LIKE. THEIR OLD DESIGN FOR TAAKO WAS BORING BUT THE GN VERSION IS SO MUCH WORSE NOW #BECAUSE SHE LIKE. ACTIVELY CHOSE TO GIVE HIM VISUAL TRAITS THAT ARE VERY SIMILAR TO CERTAIN ANTISEMITIC CARICATURES #(WHETHER SHE KNEW THEY WERE TRAITS OF THOSE CARICATURES OR NOT DOESN'T REALLY CHANGE THE FINAL PRODUCT)#ESPECIALLY SEEING THAT SHE USED TO DRAW TAAKO IN A COMPLETELY NORMAL WAY #AND THE LOOKS PAIRED WITH HOW THEY CHANGED HIM TO BE SO MUCH CRUELLER AND GREEDIER IN THE GRAPHIC NOVEL....#LIKE. CAN YOU UNDERSTAND WHY HE GIVES ME THE FUCKING CREEPS #I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT HIM I ONLY EVER ACTIVELY LOOK AT HIM WHEN DIRECTLY TALKING ABOUT HIM #I DON'T EVEN DISPLAY MY COPIES OF THE BOOKS. I ACTIVELY COVER THEM UP BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT HIM #OUGHGHGGGHHHHH AGAIN THIS ISN'T DIRECTED AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR #HE JUST MAKES ME FEEL SICK TO LOOK AT AND I SEE HIM CONSTANTLY DESPITE HAVING EVERY TAG I CAN THINK OF BLOCKED #(EXCLUDING TAGS THAT INVOLVE THE ORIGINAL SERIES. IT'S SPECIFICALLY THE GN THAT BOTHERS ME)#(I DON'T WANT TO BE LEFT OUT OF THE PODCAST'S FANDOM BECAUSE I LOVE THE ORIGINAL)#(BUT THE GRAPHIC NOVELS OFTEN DON'T GET TAGGED WITH SEPARATE TAGS SO IT'S HARD TO FILTER OUT JUST THE COMICS)#(AGAIN LIKE. THIS MIGHT BE JUST ME AND I'M NOT TRYING TO VAGUE ANYONE BUT JUST. UGHGHHGHHGHHHHH HE MAKES ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE)#vent

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cherry-shipping · 8 months

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BTW during my nightly nap i had a dream abt horrortale sans...... it was sorta all over the place cause i fell asleep watching youtube so it affected the course of my dream a lot but i think it was something along the lines of him working someplace on the surface and saw me from afar semi-regularly and was like. really weirdly fixated on me. but he was totally nuts about it too like hed follow me around with the sole intention of trying to figure out WHY he was fixated on me and what id done to make it that way. like. obviously there was something mega suspicious about me since he couldnt get me out of his head and also he thought i was the one stalking HIM because i kept showing up in places he went to. like i remember he had some special quiet place near his work where hed go to watch a nearby lake and calm down (super cute) and it was way behind some bushes and shit so it was like a secret for him. but then he went there one day and i was there napping in the grass and he was like ok what the fuck. anyway all in all it was a good dream and i think thats sort of what hed be like, even just regular sans is like that too. also my appearance in this dream was that of my self insert which was neat and also there was a part where he was watching me in secret and i was stressed out and he saw me take my eyepatch off and stab myself in the fucking eye over and over again and he was like. woah Thats just like when i pick my broken eyesocket....... and it was like a whole thing. lmfao

#cherry chats #bf (bone friend)#long and jumbled ass post but whatever it was a dream so it was pretty messy already #another fun thing was that at times hed see me pass by his workplace and he would be dead set on following me #so hed just up and leave. not even on break or anything like he just Left #and if any of his human coworkers tried to stop him he would literally grab them and break their arms #like. they reach out a hand he grabs it and just fucking crushes it #like that scene in from dawn til dusk. if anyone remembers that.#and that was like a regular thing. dunno how he didnt get fired but it was funny as hell #in fact i think he even regularly crushed peoples fucking skulls with his huge hands too #he would leave to follow me around like a huge weird creep and if anyone tried to get him to stay he grabbed their head and crushed it #like. completely silent and nonchalant and still on his way out.enriuhgeruihgwg9prodgboirdhfg #anyway. it was cool i fucknig love that freak #and i also love my self insert a whole bunch. theyre also fucking weird #i wonder if i should make that eye stabbing when stressed thing an actual habit of theirs.....?#itd be cool and a fun parallel between sans' eye picking habit #but also the eyepatch is based off of my eyesight being garbage on my right eye #and at one point the eye doctor said i might have to get an eyepatch on my LEFT eye (the good one) so the bad one could get better #so if im realistic then my s/i would have one functioning eye thats covered by their eyepatch and then one shitty eye #but the eyepatch is also bloody. maybe i should just let myself be edgy and say the doctors removed their eye or something LOL #aaarghhh. i love horrortale so much. fuck

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creamecream · 9 months

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"Oh my goodness! that's so cute on you!"

Brimstone belongs to @abyssnighthawk

#one more this time phoebe and brimstone they're very good I love them #phoebe plopped her hat on brim's head and they're like 'ah...um...' *blush blush*#phoebe just gonna poke to see it jiggle around because it's very jelly #poor brim has probably already been wordlessly stared at by phoebe's 'dad' help them #I don't know why that's funny to me just brim freaking out #because 'oh god if I hurt her he'll kill me' while the night watchman is staring at him #but the night watchman frankly does not give a damn he was just looking because phoebe told him to #he just stood still and stared like the creep he is #hazbin hotel #fan characters #brimstone #phoebe

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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years

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I feel like there's an obsession in me waiting to burst out, but so many horrible things have happened due to that, it's rotting in there. I'm worried.

#mine #yandere #yandere vent #im not even sure if i WANT to be obsessed. its all clouded up in my head nothing makes sense #like my immediate obsessions have migrated from all of them being romance to all of them being plain admiration #which is way way way way WAY better because then no one will think its as creepy. im not a creep. for the love of god #he was such a fucking liar. made me feel safe and then ripped everything out from under me.#OK ANYWAYS thats not the point of this post . i literally cannot tell what my feelings for anyone are anymore. i cant differentiate them #im just waiting for someone to ask me if i Like Him because ive been acting so attached to him but i couldnt give a straight answer.#i dont even know ! yes this vent is caused by a minor inconvenience. ok well its technically bc i wouldnt be able to hang out w him #i dont fucking want to be dependent on him i dont want him to influence my emotions this shit has happened so often it has to be over #still thinking abt the 'you think hes in love with you?? he doesnt even like you' post 💀#i dont know what my feelings ARE but i know theyre bad ausuaufjfjf i dont wanna be overbearing #im 'less annoying' in the sense i try to barely message him at all. like he doesnt care lol. he probably values me as a friend ig #not sure why im so torn up over this. i doubt we are compatible in the first place but i have the horrible obsession again #i dont feel a particularly strong emotional connection to him ig. like he is nice he is fine but im not insane yandere abt it #more just distressed dere about it –_– i mainly just want him to talk to me and tell me about stuff like thats IT #just respond to my annoying questions. its so sad that im desperate for the bare minimum :/#genuinely dont know if its a romantic attachment? i feel wrong if i imagine stuff like that. i dont want to be thought of as a freak again #i just want everyone to feel sorry for me!? but no one is gonna wanna hang out with me if im begging for sympathy all the time !!!#i just like his voice and his vocabulary etc a funny guy . but hes my friend so i feel fuckin dirty imagining even mildly romantic things #last time i did that i got called a creep <3 im physically unable to think of that anymore! it feels so disgusting!#im happy because i wont have delusional one sided romances anymore but also upset at the fact i cant imagine situations to make me happy #thats what regular teenagers do. they daydream abt crushes they have. but i cant do that. it feels so horrible #i wanna be like 'omg i love him<3' but i dont know if i do. i really dont know. i cant distinguish love #all my 'crushes' feel like broken watered down messes. they dont make any sense. i want clarity. i want to be healthy for once #i dont know if any of my feelings are real or long lasting ^_^ and if they were they have a 0.0000001 chance of being reciprocated #im not going to lose my mind over this strange feeling again. its happened so many times w so many different people #i ought to be used to it by now! i dont know if i will ever be able to truly be IN LOVE again. im not sure i ever was #💿

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aesoka · 1 year

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also, i know im not saying anything new here but while I did enjoy seeing hayden & ewan again [ honestly, I'm just happy hayden knows how much his performance as anakin means to ppl ] I'm just disappointed in MYSELF that I didn't see disney using that sense of nostalgia prequel fans have/had as a marketing tool. like UHG. don't get me wrong, there were bits on the series I enjoyed, however, it didn't nearly rip me apart as much as it could have, and they abandoned the more grueling [ but satisfying work ] of tearing obi wan apart inwardly in favor for a more action based, outward plot.

#like im sorry space jesus turned space satan would most def. sense his spawns [ of satan sorry lol I cant not make a joke ] running around #ON THE FRINGES OF HIS OPERATIONS???? this man even incapacitated in a walking iron lung is still #terrifyingly powerful he'd recognize them almost immediately IMO.#ik he was told theyre dead but the force is fucking insane and I firmly stand by the notion hed be on them #like the sad bloodhound he is.#anyways loved seeing kenobi run around like he's in the clone wars again but make it painful #and i like putting suitless anakin just standing out in the dunes #huddled and watching that fucked with me #however hayden deserved more than a spar flashback [ which he looked good in ]#but as i UNFORTUNATELY return to star wars I cant help the bitterness that creeps in #when my gaze turns to disney star wars #/n #i want something as visceral and raw as a husborth fic but I realize disney will never have the balls to pull that off so ig ill stick to #the fics #the thowing obi wan in a fire bit was funny tho very petty very ani

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inkykeiji · 2 years

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okay someone please come to canada’s wonderland with me ｡：ﾟ(｡ﾉω＼｡)ﾟ･｡