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groguspicklejar · 3 days
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tldr: due to my clinical depression and crippling anxiety, i got triggered by an optimist who didn't validate me in my moment of vulnerability.
don't read unless you want to see the ugly side of me.
i swear to god, optimistic people either scare me or annoy the fuck out of me.
and this is not coming from a place of like "oh, let me dampen this person's mood with my negative thoughts, opinions and feelings just for kicks" or "i genuinely hate this person's energy and i hope they die in a ditch" no. none of that. lemme explain.
mostly, it's coming from a place of "all of these atrocities happening around you and either choose blissful ignorance or you see them and your first thought is 'eh, it'll all work out in the end for us' is either slightly or extremely toxic in the sense of you become tone deaf to other people's negative thoughts, feelings and experiences, to the point where you might even completely disregard and invalidate them despite them being vulnerable and telling you very detailed and personal things about themselves" and i fucking hate you for it.
i think my mother is the same way but i can't exactly be sure because she's gaslighted me about certain things so many times into feeling like things weren't as bad as i made them seem when they really might have been three times as bad.
but this one guy, who's a friend of mine, really showed me that he has that exact mentality and i'm starting to hate him for it.
because how do you hear a friend of yours explain to you that their college experience wasn't as good as yours because it wasn't what they signed up for, they weren't physically, mentally, emotionally and financially prepared for it, so they had to drop out of college because they simply could not keep up with the standard required so now they don't miss any of that shit that they went through.
and your first response is "oh, give it a couple of months, you'll start to miss it😃" like—
bitch, shut up. SHUT THE FUCK UP. stop fucking talking right now before i go over there just to throw a cinderblock on your fucking face. repeatedly. until you stop fucking breathing. SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP.
i've never been more angry or just fucking done because i've been made to feel like shit every time i have to disclose the fact that i had to drop out of college because even though i explain from a to z of how it even got to that point, nobody seems to want to fucking hear me.
this guy finished college just recently, he was a year above me so he didn't go through the absurd changes in curriculum as i did so he doesn't even fucking know what i had to deal with. and i get that everyone is entitled to an opinion and you're allowed to disagree but to say "oh, you'll miss it" after i spent how many minutes of my life explaining how i got fucked over into wasting 3½ years of my life on a by a college system that wasn't completely transparent from the fucking beginning and chose to change things for the worst as time went on🚮
like at that point, just shut up. please. for the love of god. i've been bullied enough over this. i don't need to be gaslit into thinking i'll miss anything or anyone anymore. i'm so tired.
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jinxxangel13 · 2 days
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Phantom of the Night
Chapter 4
Sorry about missing the last couple updates! Work and everything has been absolutely crazy, and it's been hard for me to even edit. But I'm getting back on track and can't wait for these next few chapters to come out! Thank you for being so patient with me!
Tw: blood, gore, minor character death, guns
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Recap:
When the dust settled, she straightened herself back up, switching back to her M16.
“Thanks, L.T.” Phantom nodded to him, switching places with Soap at the opening instead. 
“We clear?” Soap kept looking out of his scope, even after Phantom gave him a nod.
Ghost huffed, reloading his gun. “For now.”
“Ghost! They’re still moving out there!” Phantom shouted at them from her prone position near the rapidly emptying ammo crates near the plane opening.
“7-6, call for fire. I want close air on that treeline.” Ghost readied his gun next to Soap and Alpha 0-2. “Dig in, lads, we aren’t done yet.”
Phantom couldn’t hear what was being said over the radio, damning the earpiece that broke in the crash.
“Roger that. Air support is 3 minutes out!”
“Copy!” Phantom’s finger waited on the trigger for the right time.
“Smoke on the treeline.” Soap was frustrated, everyone could tell.
“No visual. Not gonna be a good time.” Phantom stood up and took her previous spot at the first window, Ghost to her left.
“Incoming! Take cover!” Ghost shielded his face with his arm as the AQ soldiers started using grenade launchers.
“Shit!” 
Phantom turned for a second as she saw the injured soldier from the initial crash get hit and slumped over to the ground.
“He’s dead! Keep your gun in the fight!” Ghost shouted at Alpha 0-2, stopping him from moving his comrade much to his dismay and grief.
Phantom and Soap both turn and grab a few more frags from the crate and throw them simultaneously from the opening and into a small cluster of the enemies.
A few more minutes went by before it went silent once more.
“No movement. Soap, you clear?” Ghost turned towards Phantom and Soap.
“I'm good. Cap, you clear?” 
Soap turned to Phantom, who was resting against the ammo crate for a breather. 
She nodded sharply, ignoring the searing pain in her skull at the movement.
“Affirm.”
“7-2, need you up here now.” Ghost snapped through the radio, receiving a reply back that Phantom assumed was confirmation.
She could hear Ghost and soap start arguing slightly on what to do, but she tried to keep her focus back out to the treeline just in case.
“Ghost, we should fall back to the house.” Soap spoke loudly to him.
“Negative- We hold or we push forward. Hassan's still out there.
The four of them perked up at the sound of another aircraft. Phantom hoped this was a friendly; she wasn’t sure if they’d make it through that kind of artillery at this point.
“7-6, patch us through to air support.”
Phantom just now noticed that the soldier Ghost requested from his team finally made his arrival, listening as he made his way up to the radio in the cockpit.
“Rog. Stand by…”
Ghost listened over the radio as he got confirmation about positions before relaying the information back to Phantom.
“Fire is one mike out.”
She sighed in relief at the news. “Thank bloody fuck.”
“ Kilo 0-1, you're cleared hot on anything forward of our position. Danger close approved.” Ghost spoke back into his radio before pulling his gun back up.
“L.T. We’ve got incoming.” 
Phantom looked up at Ghost, signaling him to look back out, but he didn't need to look far before the sound of enemy vehicles could be heard in the distance.
“Armored vehicles. Four of ‘em.”
Phantom looked up to Ghost, who towered over her crouched form, and waited for his call. Logically, she knew she held rank over him, but she didn’t want to get in the middle of that, knowing she was only here temporarily and wouldn't want to give him a reason to hate her without cause.
“Conserve your ammo. Let them get close.”
Phantom switched her M16 for her rifle, finding it easier to be more precise should the need arise for it. She held her breath as she steadied her gun, using the window ledge as an extra support as she tracked the vehicles movements, relaying the information to the others without being asked; it was solely out of habit.
“Standby to engage!” Ghost readied his own gun, the other two mirroring his movements. “Get ready… Cut ‘em down!”
Phantom took her shot at the tire of the closest vehicle, watching it swerve to the left and hit a log, but it didn’t stop the AQ from getting out and returning fire at the downed plane.
“Air support’s on station!” Bravo 7-2 yelled at them. 
Phantom’s eyes widened in excitement as Kilo 0-1’s helicopter came into view and opened fire on the AQ soldiers who were rapidly closing in on them.
“Fuckin’ A’!” Phantom laughed as she lowered her gun, watching the vehicles become weapons against their own drivers.
“We clear?” Soap called out through his radio but also out loud.
Alpha 0-2 and Phantom both called out agreements of it hopefully being over.
“All clear!” Ghost called out.
Phantom slumped against the wall, exhaustion settling in over the draining adrenaline. She knew she would need to get up quickly, so she didn’t relax too much before standing up completely. She went back over the ammo crate, opening the backpack behind it to grab a few unbroken adrenaline shots to add them to her backpack. Before she turned back to the others, she gave herself one of the adrenaline shots in her thigh, not even batting an eye at the stinging sensation.
Ghost’s voice broke her out of her concentration.
“7-6, task a bird for casualty evac.”
Everyone could feel the solemn energy around the team, but there wasn’t anything to be done about it until they finished their objective.
Bravo 7-6 called back a short, “Rog'.”
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tenpixelsusie · 6 months
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cut the cameras. we're not doing this shit again
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briarhips · 8 months
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Having a silent meltdown bc I rlly want to sleep but I don’t want to have to smother my curls in water and product before during and after my obligatory morning shower just to help them heal from the abuse of being laid upon for the length of (1) uneasy night’s rest and to look decent for the public so I’ll be treated normal and feel good abt myself. I have actual things I need to do before I go out most days and between insomnia and hair “care” I genuinely have no time for anything anymore and it’s killing me sm
#like legit I want to kms I hate how no product I find that works works unless I use it every single day so I need to buy it 70 times a year#like the buildup only has negative effects not positive ones#and like. curly hair gets ‘bored’ of miracle products and stops allowing them to work or some demented shit idk#I just want to look decent as easily as others do plz omfg#I can put my hair in a tight braid on a shitty hair day but it still looks fucking horrific and I hate having it tied in any way for more#than a few hours. I sleep uncomfortably just to accommodate the uncomfortable braids and buns I sleep in bc sleeping w hair like this undone#is a death sentence. I don’t get it what am I doing wrong that requires me to keep over washing#I don’t have days I can just stay home and let it look bad and breathe from constant washing. dry products are jokes. decent products#require moisture. research on hair bands and pillowcases for my specific kind of hair (whatever is even is… I can’t tell bc it’s such a#fucking mess all the time) is fruitless and I don’t feel like gambling my money away on multiple solutions I already do so w product#every other curly person I know is doing fine but mine r so weird and I had such a golden few last years and they just completely stopped#cooperating and all my childhood frustration and self hate from my hair is resurfacing I’m so so upset this is more than a full time job#cant even cut it bc it puffs out hideously. do I need to serially straighten it. semi permanently maybe.#at a stage rn where I’m so tired of my thankless fidelity to modesty and natural hair. cant find decent clothes can’t find ways to look#decent w the hair god gave me. when smth simple as an appearance causes this much grief. I want to give up so bad. I wish I could 😭#mine#I’ve been scouring the Internet I don’t know what to do :(#I ask fellow curly ppl for advice but they’re so useless? like they just. don’t even respond.#but lately it feels like nobody hears the perfectly clear words that come out of my fucking mouth no matter if it’s damn I’m tired of having#to short term fix my hair w a shower to the point of harm every morning to I will be absent x y z days to my dad fucking died give me space
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angeltism · 4 months
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absolutely tragic it isn't socially acceptable for me to randomly go on long rants about how much I love others
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waywardsalt · 3 months
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Have you ever thought about how Linebeck describes Jolene as "crazier than a rabid squid"- only to then be possessed by a literal rabid squid later in the game?
Cause I sure have- especially after seeing a lot of your BellumxLinebeck stuff
mmmmghmm im gonna be honest i haven't thought about it much at all
linking it to my bellum x linebeck thoughts, im not too sure what to make of it in context with my other linebeck notes and w/e
there's also my idea that linebeck has a special interested in shellfish and by extension squids, and the idea of him having a weird thing for bellum, and just... enjoying sealife, and it's kinda of...
he compares her to a rabid squid to link in order to i think... offer a shorthand explanation of what she's like, and i think it (with some other stuff) is kinda just another little peek into how he might feel abt her?
i mean he also compares link to a dog in that one letter? i'm not sure where im going with that one. i dont think linebeck particularly likes dogs
i'm not sure abt the link between that and him getting possessed, jolene is kind of just... there a lot of the time and doesn't really do anything except 1) show that linebeck has enemies and 2) show that people know about link's quest by the end, linebeck generally references sea creatures a few times in ph
relating to bellum x linebeck, i dont see him comparing jolene to a squid an indicator of anything in relation to that, with linebeck having a thing for bellum its more of like. there's a lot of complicated ideas i have with what goes on between them during bellumbeck and bellum being a squid thing is more linebeck having a bit of a monsterfucker streak and having a bit of a thing for like. being tied up. as for literal squids he kinda just likes them as food and to dissect and learn about
like i think 'rabid squid' is more like linebeck just tossing out some derogatory shorthand to explain how he thinks of jolene as some fucking. violent annoyance he has to deal with that he doesn't fully understand
tbh i see the comparison but imo it comes down to a difference in characters and interactions and histories, there is the rabid squid thing (and i think in the manga too theres a vague parallel drawn ig) but im not. sure. what there is there just beyond. linebeck talks about sea creatures and wants to get the fuck away from jolene
i'm not entirely certain what you've been thinking about with that comparison, but i haven't been thinking much about it and it's kinda. eh ig???? its something
#asks#musicncomics#like im gonna be real jolene is a character i do everything i can to avoid half of the time#im not too sure what your thoughts on this are but i can tell you like jolene leagues more than i do so like. idk#idk i have a hard time talking abt jolene bc i Do Not like her so im not really sure beyond this stuff its just. idk#bellum also isnt a literal squid like looking at actual squids the most comparisons are surface level and dont work too deeply#he kinda just looks like one at first glance but 1) doesnt line up well enough and 2) we dont have enough info on him anyways#hes more a reference to a squid than an actual squid bc there is the reference to sperm whales and giant squids fucking hating each other#but while oshus is literal whale bellum is like. some thing in the shape of a squid#im not sure what parallels oyu can draw between the jolene thing and bellum thing. if anything theyre opposites?#w/ jolene its like things got so bad (or w/e) that he just robbed her n fucked off and she decided that was enough to warrant murder#while with bellum things get so good (w/ link and co) that he risks his life for em and is turned against them for it?#tbh this kinda comes down to me having a pretty negative bias against jolene and. that ship. so yeah sorry#im not gonna give this any main tags or anything this is way too far off the beaten path and kinda negative#idk i hc linebeck as gay and a lot of other linebeck hcs just kinda. suggest that he kinda had a really shit time w/ jolene#i dont like her im trying to figure that shit out so i can be like. fair at least in how i write her but i dont like her#salty talks#sorry that i keep tearing away from the rabid squid thing but its like a minefield when i try to talk abt anything w/ jolene#theres not a ton of parallels or like shared themes or w/e and its just too dissimilar in little ways that its just. a thing#ill add this in a few hours later idk if youll see jt but like. i can go in depth and discuss stuff#in dms like im fine with that its just weird in posts bc like tagging and my thoughts are a mess#like if you wanna elaborate on your thoughts thats fine
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godblooded · 9 months
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so my aunt’s having the treatment and then we have to drive thirty minutes to the er to get platelets for an hour. are you fucking kidding me. are you seriously fucking kidding me.
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salsflore · 8 months
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#cw negative#its not that bad i just need 2 rant for a bit#because like why does my mother say such ridiculous shit sometimes#i went to go wash my dish and she said ah youre finally doing the dishes .. LIKE i try to but what do i do when my brother insists on doing#it everytime ! and takes it from my hands and blocks the sink and he’ll make a big fuss if i don’t let him do it !#like literally scold me and tell me to put it down or else he’ll get irritated#i lightheartedly told her that and then she was like well yeah you're still a woman then went on about how its the womans job to [ . . . ]#its really the small things like that i think. she has such outdated beliefs. i hear her saying things like its the womans job to take care#of the house and her man and etc and i'm like ok i Know i literally won't win if i try to do so much as nudge her#but then she also talks about other things that just irk the shit out of me !!! the rapture abortion etc#the one time she told me to my face if she couldve aborted me she would have. making comments on my body and just#i don't hate her. overall we have a good relationship. but its just these small things and her gross outdated beliefs and how gullible she#can be and stuff like that. she tells me i have such an easy life but i can't bear to tell her i was ever suicidal or ever self harmed#because i KNOW she'd tell me i'd go to hell if i ever tried to kill myself#i know this wholeee thing might be really intense and sad and stuff but i'm totally okay /gen i'm just! awfully irritated#thinking back on all those dumbass things she's said and done like. agh;;#its not her fault i think ive noticed a lot of filipina women (or at least the ones around me) tend to hold those beliefs so she was prolly#taught these as a child but . come on!! im so tired of the misogynistic shit she says and . ugh#cw self harm mention#cw suicide mention
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yuribalisms · 10 months
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I hope rats chew away at the electrical wires in all the management’s houses and cause electrical fires and they all explode
#first we have homophobe Mctransphobe who has been walking around threatening to write up anyone out/visibly queer for random shit that no#one else gets written up for#not to mention we are severely understaffed and are getting in WAY more product in then we are supposed to so we can’t keep up#and we have no SPACE for new product because a couple weeks ago the management made us put out???? all our backstock????#(and we TOLD them that would result in us not having space for new products when we got them but they didn’t FUCKING listen)#and when we told them we needed more space they said they would give us more space and then :))))))#they FUCKING TOOK AWAY SPACE INSTEAD#and tonight FUCKING TONIGHT#we finally had enough staff to MAYBE start getting caught up#(at least to get to the point where there were not random carts and pallets filled with product all over the place)#and management came up to us and told us we ‘were working too close together and needed to separate’#and when we attempted to explain we were working on putting out product that management demanded we put up#they said that didn’t matter we couldn’t work that close to each other because we would ‘waste time talking’#except because of that half our staff is WASTING WHOLE HOURS OF A SHIFT ON SHIT THAT DOESNT NEED DONE BECAUSE THEY GOT MOVED SOMEWHERE ELSE#and I KNOW tomorrow when I come in they’re gonna yell at me for leaving product out in carts and on pallets 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#I hope you die I hope you explode I hope you never know happiness#I hope you stupid fucking homophobic transphobic racist ASSHOLES with CONTROL ISSUES and IQS IN THE NEGATIVES goddamn DIE#I cannot EXPRESS how much I FUCKING hate the management here#(they also ONLY put the visibly queer folks in my department and then mismanage us like this and threaten to write us up/fire us)#(it has officially become a pattern and I am going to LOSE my mind)#I hate this fucking job I hate this fucking company#(the general manager also told me during a meeting recently that staff wouldn’t be allowed to evacuate if there was a CO2 leak because the#building was big enough it should be ‘safe’)#I literally feel like I am going fucking insane#there is so much shit here that could honestly probably win lawsuits but no one who works here has the energy to genuinely fight back#because they overwork us to hell and back#I want to quit so bad but I know no where else is gonna pay me this much#(and that insane pay divide between here and anywhere else in town is the only way they ARE keeping staff)#UGH#kaz rambles
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hanatiny · 1 year
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sorry for Ranting On Main™️, I just need to get this out of my system, feel free to ignore
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low-key considering not making any more Leverage posts because reading what y’all say about Nate in the notes is always the absolute worst lmao. after each post that mentions him I’m torn between making a long-ass Nate defense/clarification post and taking a long walk to remind myself that the internet is not a real place and Nate is not a real person
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i am on my knees, begging you all to acknowledge your anti-fat bias before you write Guillermo de la Cruz
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hpdgirlfriend · 2 years
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the urge to straight up ask. "is [parasite] more important to you than i am" but that's kind of bad innit
#i don't want to lose my plausible deniability as well#i hope he gaslights himself over it since he can't just admit to me directly that he's jealous of anyone i like that's not him#im not even that insecure and hes the one who could leave me at any moment and be fine#the parasite is triggering because he clearly replaced me but i also HATE HIM AS A PERSON UNRELATED TO THAT#hes literally. biphobic. and an asshole. who talks shit about people(even his mutuals??? like they can see that??) publicly#and he talks shit about orbit admittedly out of pure jealousy#which is dumb as fuck because i checked the reason he was jealous and they get the same shit. like what r u talking about#thistle told me that though and hes not a trustworthy source but i think it checks out. it fits the parasite's character#what was i talking about. right#he genuinely sent suicide bait to someone as well and stalks them or something its freaky. like hes a bad person#but ofc no ones going to believe that i can genuinely dislike someone as a person when they're friends w my fp#obviously im just being a silly crazy borderline and he doesnt affect thistle negatively at all!!#like hes scared of him :/ he mirrors him and bends to his will because hes HOW I JUST EXPLAINED idk idk why ppl like him#whatever. he can go through another fucked relationship experience idc. i cant wait until they crash and burn#hes literally like ur ex. but whatever. u hate listening to me so go fuck off and find out then#if i say ANYTHING abt it its going to come off manipulative because of my vendetta against the parasite but GENUINELY#i think hes bad for thistle#whatever though.
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dimiclaudeblaigan · 1 year
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im doing one for shinon too bc he deserves it
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shinon radiant dawn vc: my mom never hugged me
shinon path of radiance and radiant dawn vc: -treats greil like a respectable father and never mentions his own father literally ever-
shinon radiant dawn death quote: (smiling portrait) “Ugh... This is...such a crock... What a... boring way to die... Co... Commander... Greil... I... I... I'm...” (is he implying “I’m coming to see you again”, based on the quote and smiling portrait?)
#DCB Comments#shinon is one of those characters where the fandom focuses on one single negative trait#and they blow it up completely and pretend it's the only trait he ever has had and ever will have#meanwhile there's a gold mine of information you can figure out just by reading his lines and thinking about why he acts like that#like the whole want for money to live well when they're clearly not super well off mercenaries#or when he takes weapons from dead enemies and gets scolded for it but like can they even afford new weapons regularly?#the way he acts implies he grew up poor and has always been poor and STILL IS but he's there bc he cares about greil#and eventually came to care about everyone else and cares a lot about kids which they had rolf who rly respected shinon#he does what he can to help them raise money when they need it but fact is they always need it#in his quote versus oscar in chapter 18 oscar asks him if promotion is so important and he says it's everything#he clearly has no ill will toward oscar but for shinon getting promoted and getting money in that promotion will help him live well#he's tired of being fucking poor. he doesn't see an issue with wanting to live like you know a normal person should#but ofc everyone sees that he argued with janaff in two supports (which btw janaff egged on HARD and talked shit abt greil#and he also used racist rhetoric back at shinon so like... that whole argument was a two way street#but the fandom ignores that and just calls shinon racist even tho in their A support shinon specifically catches himself#from using a racist term and changes the term he uses so he's not being rude bc he learned he was wrong abt laguz through janaff#and janaff learned he was wrong about beorc through shinon. it was a very development heavy support chain for both of them#the fandom hates on shinon for ''being racist'' even tho he's one of the few non-main characters to actually get full development#and has a complete story from beginning to end between both games and comes out better for it)#i mean that's only a couple examples of things that aren't even hard to read into but ppl like to reduce him to one trait#and one trait that actually gets better and develops through both games. oh no a flawed character who has to have a development journey AAAA#guess what he's perfect specifically bc he's not a boring already perfect and flawless character#he has to get angry and get annoyed and learn from others despite being a grown adult. he has to have negative interactions to grow#he doesn't get to cling to the ADORED main character and get a gay paired ending and be loved for it#which no offense to soren that's not his fault that's the fandom's fault for treating them both the way they do for stupid reasons#i.e. would soren rly be so loved by the fandom if he wasn't tunnel visioned at ike#yes i will take forever to write this out slowly with my injured arm JUST TO GET THIS POINT ACROSS!#HE IS A FANTASTIC CHARACTER EVEN WITHIN THE TELLIUS CAST AND I WILL FIGHT FOR HIM11!!111!!!1!#also i wrote this earlier between those asks no im not that speedy lel. much less with a bandaged arm l e l
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binnie · 1 year
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i!!! hate!!!!!!! being borderline!!!!!!!!!!
#negativity incoming heads up#dude every little thing that happens gets me on edge and sends me down a spiral I absolutely fucking hate ths#the context is that my favourite person cancelled plans for us to hang out to go have dinner#(I didn't ask with whom because I know that either way I wasn't going to like the answer)#you see she's had a boyfriend for over a year and a half I think#and we get along! we've been buds since high school and he's a cool dude (except when he's not because men)#I know this is not true. I know it's my mind playing evil tricks on me. I know this is the voice talking.#but I constantly feel like she's slowly but surely replacing me#not that i'm the only friend she's allowed to have or anything I just..#can't help but to think that there'll come a day where she's going to have to pick between him or me and she'll always pick him#she's always talking about how much she loves and how they're already making plans to live together and get married and shit#and i'm happy for her I genuinely am#but I feel.... i don't even know for sure#I feel like everyone's moving forward while I sit in the same place. I feel like I'm being left behind#truth is I feel very alone#I keep pushing my friends away because I'm a shit person and now would you look at that: i'm completely alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i'm isolated from everyone else and it's all my fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I have no one to blame for my misery but myself#I feel like I'm being consumed from the inside out#there's this awful evil tension inside me that I can't shoulder#i'm used to The Empty#I'm used to being hollow#but this emptiness.. it hurts#ive grown used to it#that's the worst part#if you're reading and you've made it this far I want to say thank you and also that I'm doing fine I'm just rambling#and wallowing in my grievances#ANYWAY#I have a lot of work to do because I neglected my academic responsabilities for months and now I must suffer the consequences lmao#this semester has been hell. ive humiliated myself a hundred times over in many different ways. i've disappointed a lot of people
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sandsofdteam-moved · 2 years
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I did not just read what I think I did
#discourse#tag rant#I've been in class and like doing college shit and I come back to this???#are you kidding me fucking purp is involved now#I put my whole weight behind him like I knew that he wasn't exactly aligned with Dream but goddamn that's just so#like I don't care that he disagrees with Dream but god#like kid look at your top videos there's a common denominator there#I've been watching purp for a while now and longer than the dteam but this was just an asshole move#plus I know that this is only going to make it worse because if he backtracks it'll be a narrative of dream strongarmed him into agreeing#and if he doesn't people are going to be like#purpled you're so based for speaking out against this guy#like. I still think he's a good kid but this is the kind of behavior that would get dream straight up murdered on social media but no#it's fine when his friends openly go against and backstab him and he's not allowed to say shit#it's just so frustrating because looking at this from a perspective with literally any empathy for dream would make ppl reconsider#but it's like this thing with celebrity culture where they become commodities in our heads like dolls rather than actual people#and cc's especially those of dream's size and status are subjected to the same horrible shit people say about those a-listers#without the buffer of an entire community and network of support and pr teams regardless of how it goes down#and Dream is the epitome of the negatives of celebrity culture bleeding into how we see cc's that are closer to their audiences#I'm just v frustrated right now because normally I can see where Purp is coming from but this was unwarranted and horrible#I hate discourse posting but this one specifically annoyed me because like#we have seen nothing but support from Dream's side and this is the thanks he gets like ok#anyways#naptime I have class in an hour#snork mimi
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