#they just want a break from this family

[nocofamilyau]

man wtf is up with him?? (15/24)

#noco family au #total drama #total drama noah #total drama noco #total drama cody #noco lore #don't worry im not dead #just needed a break from this comic #just a bit of a breather #think of it as a lil intermission #but yea ill stop putting out rough points in time where ill claim this arc will be done #ill just end up disappointing myself and probably others #don't get me wrong I want to get this arc done #really want to open up asks again #but yea wanna get this outta the way first #sorry for all the troubles

[nerdie-faerie]

I'm once again thinking about the missed opportunities to have Klaus and Kol bond more. Part of Klaus' whole motivation as a vampire is to get his werewolf part back and to finally be stronger than Mikael (sort of, I'm simplifying) both of which can be obtained by breaking his curse. But Kol? Kol is the only other original that can relate to having a fundamental part of themself ripped away from them. Klaus might not have known he was a werewolf until he killed, but he likely still had a connection he couldn't explain, as evident by him going to watch the wolves transform. And something he'd never been able to explain was now gone. He might only be able to realise the connection afterwards through its absence.

Kol though. Kol had grown up with magic, a connection to nature and the world around him in a way the rest of his siblings supposedly didn't have. And then he gets turned. And not only has his baby brother died, his father has just murdered him and the rest of his siblings after forcing them to drink human blood, which he'll later learn. Now, not only does he have to deal with the grief of Henrik's death and also his own but also the loss of his magic. A loss that's likely only worsened by Kol being a self-proclaimed child prodigy.

Kol is pretty much the only one who could understand what Klaus is going through with the binding of his wolf. We know Kol searched for ways to get his magic back/carry on practicing magic in the same way that Klaus was looking for ways to break his curse. While Klaus likely could still feel his wolf there despite being bound, Kol has no access to his magic anymore. I just think they should've been able to bond or connect over their shared loss of an intrinsic aspect of their selves at the hands of their parents

#TVD #The Mikaelsons #Kol Mikaelson #Klaus Mikaelson #briefly back on my the originals shouldve gotten to be a family goddammit and as someone from a big family im personally offended bs #i did right a lil snippet about them bonding over this that i havent posted yet for the joml verse but still think its an unexplored concep #need more witch!kol acknowledgement honestly. just need more content of my boy #anyway. klaus having a fascination with the moon and kol telling him about celestial events and how it affects his magic when theyre boys #klaus losing that connection to the moon feeling lost & extra tempermental feeling his wolf claw at its binds and vowing to break his curse #kol determined to get his magic back at any cost relating to that devasting loss and promising to help him find a loophole for his curse #kol who becomes extra reckless and determined when he learns that theres a way to break klaus' curse so maybe he can get his magic back too #that knowledge and recklessness combined with his loss of magic driving him to become the volatile vampire that we see #that leads to him being daggered repeatedly but that first time breaks something in that bond between him & klaus that never fully recovers #it makes him bitter and resentful only fueling his reckless behaviour particularly when there seems to be no leads on reclaiming his magic #that he becomes distant from his siblings in the process especially with finn still daggered but that distance only cements the idea #to his siblings that hes a danger and cant be trusted that he needs to be daggered if theyre to stay safe from mikael #the loss of his magic leading to his spiral as a vampire and him being ostracised by his family > actual tvdu kol canon #klaus being trapped in a room staring at the corpse of his little brother knowing he never repaired that relationship with him #and now he never can so he refuses to look away as penance and a reminder of his failings to his little brother #*edit: one of the reblogs on this post is the author of big bad wolf and honestly she does an amazing job at portraying the mikaelsons #as actual siblings if you havent read it its one of my favourites for characterisations but we need more 😭 i want it to be the norm

[puppyeared]

throws oc lore at u <3 (anton belongs to @poicyss )

#im in the middle of doing an updated voice claim video and im taking a break so i made these lol #this is probably only canon to starshadow!au but if i had to guess she probably came from another planet than dimension #so.. technically an alien instead of an abnormality??? lol #making objects float comes from the star antigravity!! im sure she could make the opposite happen and pull things toward her w gravitationa #pull!! a few of her powers are inspired by mario galaxy so that was borrowed from the pull stars and other gameplay mechanics ^_^ #her meet cute is basically something that was supposed to be for mutual benefit and then it gets out of hand and they escape the facility #together or smth.. theres a reason why she doesnt exist in antons canon and thats bc the universe cant let them be best friends LMAO #BUT LIKE IT WORKS... antons indestructible and could withstand her radiation and nobody wants to talk to him anyway #and theyre both curious they could like talk for hours while anton does ''''work''''' on her (they are just chatterbugs having a good time) #i wonder what kinda stuff they would do if they escape.. maybe they explore the galaxy together who knows hehehehe #kicking my feet and giggling like an idiot #my art #myart #doodles #my oc #friend oc #anton #augusta #starshadow #sillies family #SQUEEZING THEM. DUNKING THEM IN MILK AND THROWING THEM AGAINST THE WALL #lobocorp #lobotomy corporation #sort of????????

[vethbrenatto]

This group that you used to work with, the Nobodies, do you resent them for all leaving you? Absolutely fucking not, I would have done the same. They very, very smartly took off and I very, very happily took the debt. It’s what you do for family, you fucking take care of them.

--

What happens your past trauma does not loosen their grip? I suppose my first instinct would be to break its fingers.

--

I’m out.

#critical role #bells hells #creations #ashton greymoore #cr spoilers #c3e33 #4-sided dive #c3e32 #laudna #marisha ray #okay so i'm sure this is not the most clear throughline on a gifset but i did want to make it #so i'll explain a little in the tags #ashton's life and story thus far being so determined by FEAR. #as in the caption we get this thing from very early on of their trauma with the nobodies and how they say they'd do the same #but we also hear they took the debt FOR their family. a person who would do that wouldn't just run and leave family behind would they? #and then the convo with laudna and HER fear. and his response that he'd break the fingers of his trauma. implying facing it head on. #more words in the direction that ashton would fight rather than flee alongside his barbarian nature #but even within that laudna (and marisha. and ashley. and sam.) see that he's scared. he's scared of jiana. he's scared of the past. #and then in e33 after being downed so fast by otohan they can feel it happening again #and their fear reaction drives them because my god it can't happen again he won't be the fall guy again he has to leave to get out to RUN- #we keep seeing it: the perception ashton gives off and the words they say contradict them #and it's INTERESTING

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#me when everybody is posting the maple leafs sad narratives and i am furiously generating this like HOLD ONNNN HOLD ONNNNNNN #honestly i could've been SOOOO MEAN about this because i saw this poem & alexandra got the preview on the poetry blog #where i just reblogged the first half of this poem point blank with the tags #kyle dubas #toronto maple leafs #& got yelled at aksdaksf & it literally only didn't go on this blog bc i usually write more & then it was percolating & i looked up the poe #& it was only the FIRST PART i'd reblogged i didn't know there was more & then brain immediately went brrrrr ok time for an edit. #this is a long one lol & i also have no idea if it makes sense to anybody but me but because y'all know me i will always overexplain so!! #my reasoning for the reasons obvi kyle. that's a given i hope he's doing well i hope he & his family r good but man is not coming in to wor #the second edit took me a stupid amount of time bc i am nitpicky but also i learned how to do the layers & transparency from the claude edi #that actually y'all don't know about lmao but i lost my mind when i saw how perfectly those pictures align i was scrolling getty & was like #ok december i'm gonna do a headline one (in my brain with the november/june quote about choosing to die again) w/ maple leafs playoff odds #how they say at winter break you know who's gonna be in the playoffs & who'll win & they thought they had a shot but it's mitchie overlaid #the 2003-04 team who'd last won a playoff round with the atlantic division stats from dec for 22-23 & how long it's been & dec headlines #i wanted breakup/recent/never loved to be a recent trade acquisition somebody who bounced around & somebody else so i almost had simmer #brodie & zar but then i wanted to make murray for breakup at any time &i forgot zar & him were on the pens together &it hit me like a truc #bc there's a photo of the two of them EXACTLY the same so close it's scary of this one but them as pens so they had to be it & i did always #know never loved again was mitchie. sorry. also mitchie in the penalty box the last game but i couldn't find footage of it & this one works #no i could not find a photo of tyler bertuzzi fighting a leaf for a dog looked at me yes i tried. #i almost made the bunting photo jt but instead it's 'bunting a rat etc' anyway the one i really feel unhinged about is dead pets bc at firs #i was gonna make it the handshake line & look to see if the leafs had drafted anybody on the panthers (dead pet former draft pick) #& they had & it was carter verhaeghe & i couldn't get a good pic of matthews & verhaeghe but it's fine bc i thought about the mo/luke schen #narrative (in which they are a perfect d pair long lost) & schenn was drafted by the leafs & that line fits jut trust me. also how i feel #about the kniesy luminous line that one possessed me it had to be kniesy idk why. i almost put gussy as girls are too pretty though ALSO #did u like my joke. daylight SAVINGS time on the goalie. thank u. also my photo magic on the jt (me very poorly editing in him as an isle) #OK ALSO HOLD ONNNNN there is a part two but i have to wait for the Content i want it will come out as soon as [redacted] or sooner #if i get bad at waiting &everyone will pretend like it is always the way it will be once i have the photos i want. speaking of did the leaf #simply not take a team photo this year?? it Does Not Exist for me i have tried very hard to look for it also i'm excited for part 2 #one of them is named oh you're so unhinged for this one & the finished product is you're unhinged in ways you didn't even know u were sorry #liv in the replies

[scopophobia-polaris]

Honestly could we throw out the idea that totk's story issue is that it isn't consistent with the lore of the older games but instead drops intresting world building from botw because it might have gotten actually dark

#seriously eveeyone keeps up bring up the triforce not being the same like the older games instead of HEY why DOES the royal family just..... #have it #like all of it #and was the sheikah tech from the last game that functions the same was as light arrows/the biden blast was uh #how do i put this #how did they weaponize lightmagic in robots and does this all tie in with the “banishment” thing #or idk dropped point from botw zelda's fucking chracter arc #i know it ended with LOOOK!!!! YOU FUCKED UP BY DOING WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS RIGHT #But damn they could of just not done that shit in totk making her just the #what was jt #idk man they just keep taking away her agency #man and it sucks cuz the dragon is so cool but mf shes forced to do it what she gonna do stay in the past and DIE? #idk man it just all feels hasty. makes me sad #and it sucks cuz a lot of shit shit is really cool and intresting but man idk i may become a botw zelda deserved a better weiter for her #becuase girl she needs a break. not saying chracters cant go through hardship #but there is something so nasty about the framing of youll never be anything but eveey past princess zelda trope and nothing more #instead of a crystal she turns into a dragon like guys this is the same as skyward sword but idk man is it werd to say #when Hylia does it aginst a thing that wants to steal the god triangles and is also a god its like yeah you had no other choice #how the fuck did one fuckass stone make ganondorf into a god like being you would think that like #mannwhy are the stones THAT powerful and why werent the other bitches able to take them down what because #did #did rauru give sonia the equivalent of the one ring at their wedding hey wait a fuck #sorry for all my spelling mistakes but what the fuck man

[lunarharp]

we're back..scrappy times..elf/rpg doodles based on halloween art shirahama did

#witch hat tag #orufrey #Yes i am drawing again but when will my Actually Good era begin. but colours arent coming from me. #i feel so weeeirrrdddddd . loses my marbles. i guess i will. take a break #senshi.. i don't want to read/watch dunmeshi . but i read the artbooks recently cause i do like kui's style/worldbuilding #i guess i like chilchuck izutsumi and senshi best. congrats on yuri #but this is just an rpg that atelier family are playing at home. I want to play a ttrpg. So. Badly. surely it would save me #actually i managed to convince a friend to try out ttrpgs with me (!!!) but i need to find a good 2 player one =____=

[bumblingbabooshka]

Something about this interaction between Harry & Janeway - specifically Janeway but it's notable that Harry's the one listening because I think, say, Chakotay or B'Elanna might push back against the idolization of this 'it was different back in those days' way of thinking.

#Get the Tranq she's 'Good Old Boys'-ing! #never beating the Starfleet stooge accusations #which I think should have been brought up more between her and Chakotay #instead of just making Chakotay like Starfleet again so they can be together #the Tuvok/Chakotay/Janeway command trio should have been like #Janeway: I love Starfleet in an uncomplicated way and though it's painful sometimes I believe following code is the only way to proceed #Tuvok: I agree with the captain and this makes her believe in her decisions more - though I would attempt to obey her commands even if they #weren't regulation. #<- Janeway doesn't want to examine this #Chakotay: I hate Starfleet because of very valid reasons and I don't think following orders and codes from superiors is the best thing #in every situation. I want everyone here to examine their biases which cannot necessarily be done if biases are written into the #codes. We aren't in Starfleet space. We might have to adapt. #but it's nowhere near that nuanced bc you know. Starfleet Good. Starfleet Good. Starfleet Good. Maquis Bad. Maquis Bad. Maquis Bad. #Or you know: 'Maquis doing this the WROOONG way...violence isn't the answer :(' maybe violence is the answer sometimes. #when it's the only language the people in power understand. #maybe 'let's talk about this' is an insidious military tactic sometimes actually #Also Harry immediately going from 'They falsified logs?' to 'I always wondered it'd be like back then...~' #He and Janeway................Him and Janeway are!!! AGH #People think Harry's way too timid. They think this because he's asian and an ensign so they make him timid & obedient #But he's very willing to break or bend the rules - he's willing to fight he likes action and adventure and he's very similar to Janeway #where they'll both die and go to hell and come back just to save their crew - their friends - their family

[marathedemonoverlord]

So I think I'm over my Obey Me Phase or like at least over Nightbringer because it's Season was shit but just you know food for thought...

Aint it funny how MC is now completely isolated from other humans/their friends/family/pets?

Like my friend and I were talking about it and like imagine MC has HUMAN/MORTAL family and friends that they talk to every time they were separated from the brothers. Like whenever the Immortals really tries them or pushes them they can go to their human friends for like a palate cleanser and a clear head/remind themselves and ground them to the reality of their situation/support from NOT blind lemmings. Like sort of remind them that they're still human and not on the same playing field as immortal Demons/Angels/Sorcerers

But now in Nightbringer that's literally stripped from them; MC has NO ONE outside of the Brothers/Immortals they're literally FORCED to bond with their circle of dysfunctionals and its like now you are stuck in that toxic friend circle because literally your circle of support hasn't been born/exist yet. That's fucking horrific.

No wonder MC is far more clingy and annoying in Nightbringer than they are in OG; Every lesson is a chip away at their original personality and sanity to replace it to the codependent creep MC is now lol.

#obey me nightbringer #obey me #obey me MC #obey me nightbringer MC #MC is so fucking annoying this is the only headcanon i can work with #No but like its so creepy because i always imagined MC balanced their human life and their Devildom life to stay rational but now #Well now with no circle of human/mortal supporters like their friends and family theyre literally forced to cling to the brothers #Its so terrifying about Nightbringer thats why Im still so upset we're stuck in the Past #Its shit like this that makes me unable to enjoy Time Travel Shit like I want to go for Boba with my friends but I cant do that #No i cant do that because I got a toxic friend group to babysit #No but like MC seems more stupid and clingy so my guess is theyre mentally unraveling to the point they just dont want to be alone #Like begging for validation and attention from anyone especially the immortals #Pray for MC theyre going into their codependent phase now #Don't worry; just like with real friends theyre not gonna break out of this for years until they get the courage #Which we all know MC doesnt have the balls to drop the brothers/Immortals like bad habits lol #Ima play with this headcanon until MC stops sucking or we go back to the future. #I miss MC's family and friends who have to live with the fact the immortals took them from them again

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[phil-lesterfan]

all those anti-batjokes “you shouldn’t ship it and here’s why” posts don’t work on me bc half the reasons i ship it are due to their status as enemies and being hero/villain. “but death in the family! the killing joke!” people cry — i call that seasoning, adds a little spice to the dish.

#oc #honestly i love how far the joker pushes bruce i love him being forced to weight the family on one hand and joker on the other #*weigh #i need joker to bend him and make me think he’ll break only for bruce to never do that #i need bruce to want to tear the joker apart but also be devastated when he comes close to acfually doing it #*actually #babygirl i need them so psychologically fucked its funny they start physicallly fucking too #i love lego batjokes and telltale juce and them being silly goofy dont get me wrong #but i also need them to be so fucked up. dracze’s scenes from retirement is so real. sure theres fluff but they just cant resist the chase #or saremina’s love&abuse series. she gets it

[thepavementsings]

There’s something about that photoset of Pierre tugging Lorenzo’s ridiculous company hat off of Charles’ head as if they’re 12 and 13 again like there is no old or new you there is just every part of you and I have witnessed each layer and loved all of them the same. 

#especially for someone like charles where he lives in this world where everyone wants and loves a different version of him everywhere hegoes #i think of the video of him going through monaco and seeing his old elementary school teacher. and him with the tifosi and prince albert and #il predestinato. the prince of monaco. #and pierre will come to this big flashy event with his family and WEAR the stupid family business hat at poke and prod at him from behind #the feeling of being around people you used to know vs people you know now vs people youve always known #anyways just saw my school bestie while im home on break and we found a bunch of photos of us from 7th grade #completely unrelated ofc #pierre/charles

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

parental relationship moment💀

#gonna drop random thoughts in the hashtags #moretti who takes every carlo's fuck up personally #“u spin me all around and then you ask me not to spin” late carlo&moretti to me. funny thing that this is also late eddie&carlo to me #i believe that carlo learned many of the ways of pressure and manipulation from moretti #anyway every moretti's accusation breaks carlo's heart+pride so his gratitude and loyalty is replaced by hatred n anger in the end #“all this anger was once love” “the word father rotted in my mouth” what if i start screaming. what then #“i guess im just a terrible mother” lisa to eddie & not in manipulative or victim way but the most sincere n regretful way imaginable #eddie who still feels endless guilt before her. but things couldn't be different (it is what it is fr) #happy fucking house #i wanted to write more but my head is empty rn😞 #carlo falcone #tomaso moretti #eddie scarpa #lisa rubini #mafia 2 #avart #falcone family

[goldenstarprincesses]

ok ok I like and prefer older brother America

But i love and am obsessed with older sister America

#It makes me have so many feelings #like a relatively young??America being left alone to protect and fend for her feral little French brother all while facing the world as a #young looking immortal female nation?? whos' people have already chased her down and killed her at least once #how she had to grow up so much faster then even Alfred did #how all she wanted to do as a young colony/girl was protect her little brother from feeling anymore sadness and from seeing the pain she #is experiencing due to being a young woman/girl #parentification being a direct result of Arthurs sexism and the gender norms of the time #she grows to resent her role as her brothers caregiver but LOVES him so much since he really is her only family #it breaks her heart to finally put herself and her people first #she hides so much of her experience from him just so she can protect him but like it ends up causing problems cus he is big time confused #uggg many thoughts #nyo america #hws canada

[introspectivememories]

touch-starved bernard dowd is sooo canon to me

#hs!bear who had a reputation for sleeping around not bc he particularly enjoyed sex #but bc at least during sex sm1 would touch him #and he'd give anything to be touched like someone wanted him and not bc they were obligated to #college!bear who was initially interested in the pain cult at first but became hooked after they patched him up gently #hs!bear who would drape himself all over his friends and hope this time they wouldn't push him off #bernard dowd who goes his whole life being told by his family that he's too touchy and it makes people uncomfortable #bernard dowd at a young age creating rules for himself after being told time and time again that he makes people uncomfortable #and being unable to follow them bc he loves these people and he knows no other way to show it #bear watching his family shy away bc they don't enjoy and he knows that but why does it feel like they just don't want his touch? #bear breaking all of his rules and hating himself for it. loathing himself bc don't you see bear? you're too needy too touchy. you make #people uncomfortable. and the thing about children who grow up loathing themselves is that they rationalize any affection they recieve #someone from his family hugs him and he thinks to himself: they're only touching me bc they have to. they're uncomfortable doing this. #they're only doing this bc everyone knows how much you like hugs. look dowd you've made someone uncomfortable again. #so he categorizes every touch as Fake or Real but bc he grew up like this every touch is Fake. bc no one really wants to touch him. they're #only doing it bc they have to. bc they're obligated to. #bear who walks around feeling like a stranger in his own skin bc no one will touch him and if they do touch him he can't recognize weather #it's Real or Fake and so the cycle continues. #bernard dowd #dc

[sibelin]

Me when I need emotional support but can't message anyone saying "Hey I need emotional support" because everyone around me have a better life than me and can't imagine the struggles I go through :

#emotional tiredeness maybe. The fact that i'll never own anything in my life. That my pay is low. That my rent is half my paycheck. #that i need desperately a break from work but won't cause i need to be paid #That I have to plan everything 3 months in advance. That I choose between seeing family and going on holidays cause both would cost too muc #that I only have one parent left to support me. That I want to have security but can never have it #that i am the one who pays for food when i go see my old schoolmates while they earn twice my salary #i just need to lie down for a second i think