#they're so beautiful omg

[moonsavenue]

no but imagine first years at hogwarts being terrified of sixth year sirius and remus bc sirius has this whole "disowned heir" thing going on and everyone knows about his anger issues and messy outbursts, and remus is intimidating bc he's so tall and there's the deal of his mysterious scars and he's "the quiet one" so that makes them nervous and whatever until one day someone notices how absolutely USELESS they are around eachother and how they go sooo soft and can't stop giving each other heart eyes and trying to stiffle giggles like everytime their hands brush and like this kid goes Oh that's not scary, that's a homosexual

#they're so beautiful omg #and like this is before they even acknowledge they like each other #like those months of PAINFUL pining that had everyone around them tired of their shit #i love these fools #so much #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #mauraders #marauders headcanon

[sznofthesticks]

Your trademark is being very supportive and niceee 💞 also, being a great lesbian-love-story writer!! 😽

AW THANK YOU MICHELLE

i do really love sapphics <33

(this moment makes me insane. if anyone cares.)

#if not sapphic then what!!!!! #anyways. #nancymarjan #they're so beautiful omg #im having a lesbian crisis again #asks #heartstringsduet #911 lone star #what's my trademark?

[something-something-here]

Zoë 100% gave this to Artemis ...or perhaps the other way around?

#omg the lesbians #They're so in love #wlw #the hunters of artemis #zoe nightshade #artemis #greek mythology #pjo #hoo #toa #my doomed yuri #im so normal about them #zartemis #nightemis #ttc #i can see the stars again m'lady #yes my brave one they are beautiful tonight #she said that while looking at zoe #someone hold me down #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #let the world honor you my huntress #live forever in the stars #zoe came back to life tho so they have a happy ending at least (delusional)

[thewales-family]

The Prince and Princess of Wales, Prince George of Wales, Princess Charlotte of Wales and Prince Louis of Wales pose for an official portrait to celebrate Christmas 2023, in London, England -December 9th 2023.

📷 : Josh Shinner/Kensington Palace.

#prince william #prince of wales #princess of wales #prince george #princess charlotte #prince louis #prince louis of wales #british royal family #england #2023 #december 2023 #christmas #christmas 2023 #christmas card #christmas card 2023 #official portrait #official portrait 2023 #they're so beautiful #omg #the wales #my edit

[incorrect-soc]

OMF- I CAN'T EVEN FINISH CURSING-

Them.

Absolutely not losing my mind over Freddy and Amita wearing Kanej colour coded outfits-

#they're so beautiful #omg stop #six of crows #soc #the crows #crow club #shadow and bone #sab #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #nina zenik #matthias helvar

[raycatz]

I'm not including a situation where someone might be injured because in that case I'm thinking the bed goes to them by default or they are nominated for it. anyone who wants to be chatty goes to join the living room floor gang.

What are your thoughts and headcanons? Do you have thoughts on how the boys tend to approach assigning beds in inns? Who do the chain choose to sleep near when camping and why? What are their dynamics like when settling down for the night and getting ready for the day?

In "Mirror Vs Open Closet Door: Fight!" by Gintrinsic (here) Four refers to the chain's decision on how to split up between inn rooms as the "Link-per-room ratio" which I find very funny. He, Sky, and Time also talk about their thought process behind why they do or don't want to sleep in a room with some of the others which I find fun and interesting.

So! If you have thoughts and want to share them! *gestures to the post!*

#linked universe #linkeduniverse #alrighty! now for my answers- #for the ranch question I think it varies which is why I'm asking in a poll. What do you think happens most often though? #each answer is a fun scenario so it's difficult to choose #but I think they'd try to act politely around Malon and Time for the first couple visits with straws or rock paper scissors #or showing generosity by offering the bed to someone else. (I bet Malon saying they're charming is quite the incentive #for more possible compliments. The chain as a whole would want to prove her right xD ) #Once they're more comfortable in the house though I can totally see Wind and Legend making a mad dash for it while Wars yells after them xD #Wind probably ends up sharing with Four a lot since they're the littles #or Wind snuggles in with Wars Legend Wild etc #Wild and Twi/Wolfie have claimed the spot on the floor by the fireplace. #For inn rooms / castle rooms / camping - I tend to group them by how they're grouped a lot already #but a lil mixed up #Time - Sky - Wars are the good rest trio. they want a good night's rest please let them get their beauty sleep. often joined by Four #Wars goes between this group and wherever Legend is depending on how chatty he is that night. #Twi - Wild - Hyrule are snuggle/proximity buddies #Legend is attached to Hyrule's hip or sets up near Warriors to gossip and gripe. I can also see him setting up near Wild #in the eye of the storm as it were or just an interesting place to be. Wild and Hyrule can get to chatting about everything and anything #so if Legend wants background noise (Hyrule and Wild podcast omg)- #or a conversation he can be half a part of and jump in and out of while getting ready for the night or in the mornings- #this is a good place to be. add Wind and things get a bit more chaotic. #Wind gravitates to Wars and Legend too when curious and chatty. He gravitates towards Time when he wants something calmer. #Four tends to be near Sky or Twi or to Legend's group for the same reasons #I can see Four and Twi having a little book club going during downtimes where they talk about what they're reading. Sky likes to listen. <3 #Wind thinks they're nerds but so is he and he can't resist a good story so he orbits and sometimes settles in and peppers questions. #it's funny that Time Sky and Wars want to sleep the most but Legend follows Wars to chat (and ends up bringing people with him xD ) #there could be some conflict there oooo #Twi is by Time #it's almost a circle but with clusters of sleeping bags near on top of each other and filling the gaps

[lucalicatteart]

Finally finished my weird hanging painting thing (originally a secondhand partially-done 'paint by numbers' kit that I found at a thrift store and kept to repurpose lol)! Imagery somewhat based in my own worldbuilding projects, and text written in my constructed language for one of my fantasy species, but also vaguely inspired by old tapestries and illuminated manuscripts and etc. I've never been great at neat clean patterning or text, but it looks cool from afar, and I always enjoy making "props" or things that are somewhat like real objects that might could exist in my world. :0

(additional pictures/info under the readmore)

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Here's what it was originally! I probably didn't have to actually have a river running down the middle because it further makes the composition of the whole thing weird (various connected yet separate locations and things happening, instead of one unified event being portrayed), but I wasn't sure if I'd be able to fully cover up the already existing paint that was there.. and I can also kind of justify it by going with a more "all the imagery is just symbolic so it doesn't have to make exact sense" approach lol.. How is one half of the grass green and the other is suddenly snowy? shhhh.. it's not literal.. shhh...

Made a vague sketch, then painted over it, and then added more distinct lines in black pen. Center image first and border second.

The very last thing was the text, which actually took forever to translate because my conlang is still only like.. partially done, and some of the grammar is not worked out exactly how I would like it to be, so a few sentences I had to think about for a long time before just going "eh, this is probably not how I would do it if I considered it more, but I'll go with it for now" lol . I also am not entirely satisfied with all of the characters for the writing system, but again, it's good enough for a quick project, it doesn't have to be 100% accurate and perfect because it's a fake language that nobody knows anyway lol.

I thought about breaking down the text and translation here like I have for some of the tidbits of Avirrekava (the language) in things I've posted in the past, but I think it would take too long and is not interesting to anyone but me ghghj, so for the sake of getting the post out quickly, I shall not spend an hour typing All That lol.

The general jist of the writing though is that it's just about the Avirre'thel being cast out from the other elves, after abandoning their magic for immortality as a means to truly attain perfection (an important concept in elven culture), the usual, blah blah blah, but how it's Actually A Good Thing, because the gods are wrong and immortality is Cool actually and they like the shitty frozen lands they were sent to, so it's fine that everyone else is being a Hater about it lol

Lastly, here's a few photos outside in the sun to TRY and show the gold detailing actually shimmering or showing up! It really doesn't come through in photos, but there's plenty of little golden spots to highlight light or Importance.

Mostly the fire, the pink sparkle that represents magic, the red drop that represents blood, the light behind Inaashi's hands and head (common symbol for the elven religion/one of their main gods, shout out to anyone who read the ancient elven religion post and recognized that lol), the sun, and the symbol for the Avirre'thel/country of Navyete at the very top. I did a few other gold bits, but they're not highlighted because they're Significant, more just that it looked more symmetrical to have some gold on the border too lol.

Other things of note: The animals are not actually significant to Avirre'thel culture really, I just wanted to put a cat and a bird because I like them lol. (I also wanted to have a few funny looking creatures, as I was slightly trying to go with the 'in some old medieval painting the anatomy and perspective is very weird' vibe, though I think some of the other parts of it look too Normal to pull it off entirely). Same with the four leaf clover, which means nothing in their culture - but these are the only areas where stuff was just added self-indulgently .

Bligabata (giant cabbage that grows along rivers in Navyete) making an appearance! The architecture of the building IS based on actual concepts for ancient elven/older Avirre'thel architecture and metalwork. The Avirre'thel who's turning away from Inaashi/elves/magic and collecting blood, is doing so in a Special Bowl, as is part of their culture (collecting it in the hands, or just in a normal vessel would be disrespectful, they have Specific Bowls which is the only thing blood can be kept in, etc.).

The figure that represents Jhevona (and thus, a closer connection to magic, celestial imagery, etc.) is in weird ugly teal, which is not necessarily a color or design associated with them, as I don't have much common culture (like clothing) worked out for Northern Jhevona (who the avirre'thel would have come into contact with) yet, BUT everyone else is in more Typical colors (a northern elf in green, Inaashi in lavender + white + blue, an Avirre'thel in darker purples and reds).

Some things, like the four figures in the corners, and the two people + fish in the stream, do not currently have a meaning, but in-world they would.. Like, I could make up lore for how they're culturally significant and it would be true because I am god of the world, but I don't have anything currently. But just know.. they DO mean something, I just haven't decided it yet, maybe kind of fill in as I go, come up with a meaning later lol. Probably along the lines of an old myth from the ancient elven religion, a story, etc.

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I don't know, probably other stuff, but that's my Trying To Keep It Short rambling for now lol. I'm just glad I finally finished this! For how vaguely sloppy it is up close (everything being completely freehanded, only used rulers once when doing the initial sketch and lining where the border should be + my hands are shaky + the canvas is bumpy + my handwriting is scratchy and terrible + etc. etc.) it still took a REALLY long time, even when not trying to make it all perfect. Especially if including the text translation + writing, which took like 3+ hours itself.

Maybe all the asymmetry/lack of things being centered is NOT because I was too lazy to measure anything, but is actually because in-universe, it's a practice illustration made by some young apprentice who has to work on little canvases for years before he can be trusted will a full sized mural or tapestry. It's his first week on the job! of course he's uncoordinated! don't laugh at him!!! lol

#worldbuilding #elves #I AM WORKING ON A NEW PAVENTURE POST also !!!! I know I keep being like 'oh I'm going to get back to that! I'll stick to it this time!!' #and then another whole month goes by without me posting a new poll adventure - however - this time I DID fully intend to so #*do another one soon but my beloved beautiful perfect cat unfortunately passed away AND there was a heat #wave ANd I felt sick for a while for unrelated reasons so I just genuinely was not focused on posting online at all #I am trying to get back to it though along with other things hopefully so. #ANYWAY #avirre'thel #irithoas #maybe???? not super relevant to elves but I'll keep it intheir tag anyway also. Just since their lore is so closely tied with avirre'thel s #stuff and they're mentioned in the post. Or the gods are. Inaashi is. #OIGUGUGUGUHH I should have done a tapestry with the FCJhjkING triplets!!!!! Sehalanora Semoniyare and the other one whatever the hell #his name is. ... sehalanora my beloved .. (I'm referencing the ancient elven gods - for those who dont know) #It's funny that I rarely watch tv shows and when I do I rarely if EVER care about characters at all in any capacity #with maybe like a handful of even then extremely minor exceptions so I cannot relate to the concept of like 'having a blorbo' or whatever #but then for my extremely niche worldbuilding content #.. it's like OMG MY FAVORITE character!!! my favorite obscure god from a religion #that I entirely made up myself for a cultural group that I also made up that literally only I and maybe like two other #people who are able to sit through my novel long dry and wordy worldbuilding posts care about!! you all know them DUH!! #even WITHIN modern elven culture in the world at the moment in current day most people do not give a shit about them hghj #BUT .. I should have made a painting of the siblings actually!!! I stand by that!! #I mean I like Inaashi and Nisateyu and everything too. Actually all of them are fine except for Ea'ivuyera I guess. whoever the #like War and Order bootlicker god is basically. and the Evil dumbass one. but all the others are fine. I'm suprised I'm even able to rememb #that many ancient elven goofily long names ghgh.. But I could have maybe made it about the elven gods #The thing is just that.. i Don't have ancient elvish worked out as a language and I knew I wanted to put text on it #so it kind of HAD to be something written/drawn by the Avirre'thel #Knwoledge of the ancient elven gods is still a thing in their culture. But usually more as a joke or just a common fairytale knowledge #sort of thing. not really something to make a painting of. Inaashi is here less because of Inaashi The God being genuinely significant and #and more just she's there to Symbolize the elven religion as a whole. just like all the other figures are mere symbols of things. etc.

[crownedinmarigolds]

Going to CRY what gorgeous Malkavians!!!!!!!!!! Omg. Omg. Tomorrow (the 13th) is the last day to draw your Malk!!!

#vtm #malkavian #vampire the masquerade #omg they're stunning i cannot believe so many joined in! #it'll be a beautiful asylum!! #valentine's day

[mintjeru]

if you ever think you'll just "check the members' names and profiles" for a kpop group don't listen to that thought. that's the devil speaking and you Will fall into that fandom face-first

open for better quality | no reposts

#plave #bamby #kpop #fanart #myart #doodle #i got into this group in about an hour?? which is probably record time for me #i was scrolling through the profile of an artist i like and they had plave fanart for a member's recent birthday #and i was like hmmm i've heard of plave but i don't rly know what they're about.. let me check it out #saw all their songs and listened to their cover of d.ay6's 'you were beautiful' and it was immediately Over for me #wdym they can all sing and harmonize that well?? and hit all the high notes?? #leave some skill and talent for the rest of us omg #and i already have a bias as you can see ^^^^^^^^^^^ his little flowers thing is so incredibly cute to me #i'm noticing recently that i have a huge soft spot for gap moe #and so. i was compelled to draw him instead of things i Need to be drawing (again) hehe #watch me catch up on all their videos by the end of the day i'm not even joking i've got it bad here #edit: hours later and i am def a y.ejun stan too #they're all so 💕💕💕

[rings-of-power-realm]

ROPWeek2023

Favourite Scenery

"The Land of the Star.

The westernmost of all mortal realms.

The Island Kingdom of Númenor."

#the rings of power #ropweek2023 #numenor #practising ps so this week is a great excuse to continue doing so #I absolutely am enthralled by every location in this show they're all beautiful and evocative #but numenor really makes me yell OMG every single time its simply stunning #and I love the history and aesthetic #rop edit #rings of power edit

[ejunkiet]

i need to get into book binding >:3

#look I love crafts #and I already collect and typeset my fic #the method I use to print is imperfect #which would be fixed by learning how to do it myself..... #a future project >:3 #yes I was reading a book binding tumblr omg they're so BEAUTIFUL

[arklay]

i recently had the opportunity to commission the amazing @666chevy on twitter for a spread of diana (and wesker, of course) !! this came out perfect and i haven’t stopped staring at it since ♡ chevy is so kind and easy to work with, and he did diana so much justice, so i just cannot recommend him enough if you’d like to get a commission done ! 

#commissions. #oc: diana #pair: ewskers #i just can't get over this it's so beautiful and chevy captured diana's vibes so well !! she just looks amazing and i'm holding this so #gently in my hands like augh this is so precious to me !!! honestly best birthday ever to get surprise art from my beloved bestie and then #to receive this comm a couple days later !! thank you again so so much chevy if you see this cause i'm not sure how active you are on here #but i am still so in awe by this and the different lighting/filter options you sent as well like just thank you so much !! 💖💖 #please go support him if you're able guys like even just check out their other artworks !!! they're all so amazing and i was instantly blown #away by his art style and was like omg i need to commission...i need to !!! i'm just so in love with diana's vibes in this !! truly got the #unsettling and arrogant but also hi hello ma'am one chance please vibes across so so well like augh she looks so beautiful !!!

[yeonban]

HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM ROMANIA !!!

#* ooc. / posts. #I've been watching fireworks for the past 10 mins and they're STILLL going. People must've Really wanted 2023 to be done and over with LMAO #They were all so!!! SO!!! beautiful too omg!!! Prettier than in most years in my humble opinion!

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 712: To the next step!!

Pag 3

4: Was it hard?

Did you run with everything you had?

5: In this year's first years' race, the second and third place were

Pag 4

1: Hinoki Keisuke

2: and Amigoe Kyoutarou

Pag 5

1: You guys

2: We....chased him.... at full throttle, but....

3: As expecte.... we couldn't catch up!!

4: From the moment we started going around the dam.... I saw him for a moment ahead of us, but..... ngh!

5: Kyoutarou said he had a cramp in his lag

Wha!! After that you were saying “I can't do it anymore” too, Kei-chan!!

6: Imaizumi-san

Well.... anyway....

Pag 6

1: “Losing” really is frustrating

Pag 7

1: Yeah....!!

2: Amigoe, Hinoki, I have towels and water for you!!

Waaaa!! Thanks!!

Thanks!!

Eh, uhm... sorry

I'm a second year, Danchiku

Danchiku-san!!

3: On their first time riding a road-bike, they were Rokudai's assists

In their first race

4: They place second and third, with a 2 minutes difference with Kinaka

Wateer....

Fourth and fifth place are coming, I see two people

5: ….. huh

It's Murakami and Furuya!

Pag 8

2: Hahaha, it was so much fun... thoday's race!!

I'm very satisfied!! You did a good job!!

3: Kinaka!! Where is Kinaka!? I wanna congratulate him too!!

4: I did it, I did it!!

Sohoku!! The first years' race!! Damn!! I still can't believe it!!

5: Who told me two years ago... that “it's no use going to Sohoku”!!

I did it, I took it, I got results in Sohoku!!

Hahaha!! Are you seeing my strength now!?

6: Yoo, Kinaka, today's race was good!

Yes!!

Pag 9

3: Ex- excuse me.... teh

Thank you very much.... teh

4: Kei-chan.....

Kyou-chan.....

8: I.... I'm all worn out, but

Pag 10

1: I fullfilled my promise!!

Yeah!

Pag 11

1: You're incredible

Roku-chan!!

4: Yeah....!!

5: We'll join the club too

Until we make sure!!

6: Thank you, teh

For... for making sure I did it

Pag 12

1: Don't worry about it anymore

3: Yeah

Pag 13

6: You're right!!

Pag 14

1: The next day, Kei-chan Kyou-chan officially quitted the bicycle racing club

Thank you for your help

Pag 15

5: Are you sure?

6: Yes

Sorry for causing you trouble!!

Pag 16

1: Ah, it's okay, if you want to try again, you can always rejoin the club

They're not ready for that

2: I was surprised and shocked too

In case they decide to rejoin, they'll undergo a severe test

Ehhh!?

3: We'll rejoin the basket club

Excuse us

Even though I knew it

4: To advance or to stop, you're the one who decide

5: That's what bicycles are

6: If this is the path you chose for yourself, then follow it and move forward!!

7: Yes!!

'lright!!

Pag 17

2 Seeing them going away made me feel unsettled

3: The ground felt like marshmallows, and my heart shaked and wavered

5: So

Pag 18

1: I stood firm with all my strength, and with all my strength I waved my hand

Kei-chan, Kyou-chan, thank you!!

Pag 19

1: Rokudai-ku.....

Is he okay?

2: He's okay

Proably

3: Thank you

4: Separations make people stronger

Pag 20

2: Rokudaiii, I told you

We step on when we're halfway through the curve

You're too late, so you'll fall behind

I- got it, teh

I'll be careful teh

3: Ohoh!! Not bad, the NakaRoku combination!!

NakaRoku....!? That's a unique abbreviation

But still not as good as us!!

Pag 21

1: The team's name we e were once part of, the “SS team”, stands for “speed shot” which means to shoot through your opponents quickly

2: But we're different now!!

Our “team SS” stands for...

3: Special strong!!

Which means “special strong”*!!

(NdT.: the forst time he says it in english already, so then he repeats the meaning in Japanese)

Wha!?

His vocabulary....!!

4: Hahaha, what do you think, it suits us, right? Danchiku!!

Uh.... uhm!? Oh... yeah, it's... simple

Hahaha

5: You spent time.... to think about it...?

You know me well!! I searched in a dictionary!!

Is that so... well, in that case, it can't be helped

6: Danchiku

Pag 22

1: This year, let's go to the Inter High together

3: That's what I want

Pag 23

1: Special strong means that “the two of us are special and we become the strongest when we're together”

2: Issa …..!!

3: Well, Onoda-san said that the members will be announced at the training camp again

But don't worry, you even won on Minegayama last autumn

4: You'll become a member for sure, Danchiku!! Hahaha

5: “For.... sure””

Pag 24

1: Issa..... there's something I still can't tell you

2: After that fierce race on Minegayama last autumn

All the time

3: My body's joints are so tight, and they hurt so much that I can't run like I used to

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal maga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal translations #yowamushi pedal spoilers #ride 712 #me reading literally the whole chap except the last page: 'omg i love this chapter so much!! they're so cute!! #roku-chan and his friends have such a beautiful friendship i love them so much! and issa is as dumb as always - my dumb child literally no d #*no one can beat him in dumbness asdfdgdfhfgh i love him' #then #me reading the last page: *ready to fly to jaoan and knock on watanabe's door bc I NEED ANSWERS' #WHATHEHELL WHAT WHAT WAHT #I swear i reread that page so many times bc i thought i was getting it wrong ;A;A;A #why tho whyyyyyyy #no okay lets not lose hope maybe its not as bad as it looks #danchikuuuuuuu ;A; #no wonder he didnt tell issa tho...... i wonder how hed react..... #guess we'll find out o<-< #merry christmas i guess ;A;

[chewysgummies]

GUYS OMG YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHO I GOT RIGHT NOW!!!

🌴🥥WELCOME HOME STARFY!!!🐸🌺🫧🌈

#chewys notes #build a bear #Early birthday gift #omg omg omg #yeah chance of plan #i had to get them right now #They're sorta limited and wasn't even supposed to be here since they're summer themed #but yeah #I had to get them right now before they're gone #they're so beautiful #Anyway #Say hello to Starfy! #She go by She/they/it! #I love her #she's my best friend #I'm actually gonna use her as my therapeutic plushie too #I have her with me to feel okay! #im hugging her right now btw #starfy

[meirimerens]

hi, i know you headcanon some pathologic characters to be homosexual, like Daniil, Artemy, Yulia, Stakh... what do you think their relationship with their sexuality were throughout their lives? also, i remember in one of your older answers you mentioned Daniil coming out to his mother... how exactly did that happen in your vision?

hello darling this reply has made tumblr give me that "there was an error processing your post" over 15 times now for no good reason. it's like it was too big at first but this is the same length and if you read this it means it sent. anyways.

i had posted something kiiinda similar here (below the cut) including bi characters (eva + the twins) but i had forgor to include stakh + by god i can repeat myself/elaborate (i love. repeating myself <3 for real honestly especially on this) so ooh baby here we

Dankovsky (longest because i'm writing about him so the thoughts are many) knew at a young age (like 11-12) he didn't like girls and instead did boys so he had to come to terms with it in some way Pretty Quickly. to me he was raised christian eastern orthodox, which like all christian denominations comes with its fair share of religious-specific homophobia, he wasn't particularly like. Thrilled per se. + the familial/ancestral culture comes with its own set of expectations around masculinity which homosexuality inherently challenges and the fact that he was already more into cello than like war as a kid made his father raise an eyebrow on him right. so from ages like 11-16, dankovsky was like Well i'm going to have to pretend i don't see it and hope the sky doesn't fall on my head. at around 17 it became evident that was IT really that truly what he was and there was nothing he could possibly do to not make it be this way. it came with a sort of like. acceptance that it just was going to be how it was, but he was already starting to think how he could push the Acting on It part long enough for him to maybe become busy with something else. i think as he grew up he shed the concept of "sin" as he actualized himself atheist so no "hate the sin love the sinner" for him, but you can't really pull the religious guilt out of a man raised religious ykwim. eventually as he accepted that He Was, and that by god it wasn't even a bad thing to be/started Embracing it as one more of his Transgressions (when it. not really is, a transgression comes with a degree of consciousness and will to violate a law or code, the fact that he's gay is just. how it is. that's him forever and that'd be him regardless of context etc), he started assimilating gay codes for himself (the red tie…) to be like. Yes. ykwim. he still had not met a gay person in his life so it truly felt like Him Against the World, but he started being more comfortable with the fact that he was gay. however, it still didn't stop him from started a whole… "i'm not in a relationship rn bc i'm focusing on my studies" mindset. at uni, he truly like. came into his own internally while still trying to maintain a certain ambiguousness outwardly. andrei saw right through that and, even if he's like not gay but bi, he was the first dude daniil met who was also (Loudly) into dudes. dankovsky owes andrei the first like. actual coming out to Someone else than his mommy when andrei would bait him into hanging out with other gay and bi men, dankovsky would sit in a corner not fuckin wit anyone just Soaking In The Homosexuality In The Air, and when andrei went "u got a problem with that? you homophobic?🤨" dankovsky had to go like "i don't have a problem with it at all… when it's other people" [implied: i might deal with it not too well when it's me myself]. and from that point on he was like ah fuck me [not literally] why do i bother being insecure about it. from ages 20+ he was still very much in his Married To My Work Era + as he founded Thanatica he tried to lay low to not get investigated and being very loudly homosexual was not the best way to "not make waves" so even as he settled in himself with the fact that Well he's gay and he's gonna be gay forever so he better live with it, he still stayed closeted for his safety. i think from ages 18 to current game-day 28, not getting laid pardon the frankness led to him developing like an internally Fucking Crazy relationship with love and eroticism and he might have kept himself from entering relationships because he needed someone who Understood He'd Want To Eat Him. (love wins!)

re:coming out to his momma i think she had had her Doubts for a while yknow has had her Doubts. his dad too, but from his dad's perspective it felt deeply Painful (bc when the son is gay it is the father's masculinity that is threatened.. i've spoken about it on the post i've linked in the beginning) whereas his mom didn't have that My Masculinity Threatened. dankovsky knew he was gay since age like 11-12 but only came out at around 14-15, when it became obvious for him and hard to ignore, especially as people begin to have little boyfriends and girlfriends at this age. he told his mom first because he was closest to her and she was like.

she believed him from the beginning because she had had her Doubts. for a while she didn't quite know what to do with this information as it all dawned on her that it likely meant no grandkids, no daughter-in-law to whom she could give her pretty jewelry and so on… but also i think she like. could relate her son's homosexuality to like. fucking Tchaikovsky. who attempted suicide because his marriage to a woman made him so miserable. so she was like… well. that's just how it is isn't it. she's just gonna have to make peace with it whether she likes it or not. i think eventually she came to the conclusion that she spent 9 months building him from her blood and bones and a full day putting him out in the world so it would be stupid to be mad at him for that. + that's god's doing isn't it. she can't be mad at god. and if god's mad at her son he can take it to himself. etc .

Burakh for the longest time um. Didn't know. i think he realized that about himself genuinely age 26 in the 12 days. he's going through an entire coming-of-age/coming-into-place story and i think that includes a realization story lol. i think for the longest time he just thought he didn't love anyone period. up until 20 methinks he was like "well i'm just a late bloomer". then he went to war as a medic and was like "well i'm just so fucked up in the head my mind's full of corpses that's why there's no place for love". then he went home and… lord almighty. for years he thought was just not made for love because he truly. hadn't looked the other way (he's just like me fr fr). he went from not knowing what a closet was to realizing he was in it and the door was ajar to being out and in a man's arm in the span of 12 days. he didn't really have the time to brood about what it meant for his future/himself/his relationship to his people for him to be homosexual because love slapped him across the face and he fell on his ass. as his whole story is about finding his own path and learning to cope with doing things that might not be approved of him and living with choices that are of love regardless it's truly just like. learn to cope FAST. you have way more problems. + as i think the herb brides Know i think he's not given too much grief by his community and doesn't have the religious trauma background of dankovsky. also since his parents are. well dead. he doesn't have to respond to them + his dad textually is like You're gonna have to do something boy. (and that something might displease him but that's out of his hands. and into burakh's).

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Yulia knew early too like 12-13. she always was a tomboy as a kid and almost just like… naturally blossomed into a masc lesbian. i think from early on she was like. ok well we're coping with that. she already was going against social conventions by being an educated woman a woman in ""typically"" male professions a masculine-dressed woman so at this point the fact that she liked women that was like. well if you don't like it tough luck buddy. she always had a relatively distant (if loving) relationship with her parents so she didn't feel the need to justify herself to them + won't lie they saw it coming. they had it comin… she was not in any relationships for a while because she's kinda like Dry of a person/passionate about things most people just don't see/don't fuck with so while she is charismatic and handsome and knew she could be desired she didn't have any long-term relationship before eva because you truly need a girl who's a lil bit crazy to handle her. and vice versa. so love wins. i think that while she might not have frequented lesbian spaces like bars because her ass does not do well with crowds i think she never felt like she was So Alone like Only Lesbian on Earth. i think she did feel a sense of loneliness about it but it was also mixed with a deep sense of Well I'm Here and I'm One So Someone Like Me Exists.

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Stakh for a little while was also that "well i'm kinda too fucked up for love" and he was also fighting for his life to be seen as a good student a good protégé a good foster son so romantic love was Far from his mind. i think he realized he was gay around age like 15-16 when it all starts to Dawn on you y'know everything Dawns on you. he was very quickly like. well that's how the cookie crumbles. i think there was a sort of immediate acceptance about the Being Gay factor but more of a restraint about acting on it because he too was like Married to The Student Behavior and didn't want to risk losing his place by isidor's side, especially since he didn't know how isidor would react to him being gay (i know what isidor did to that old man so i know he wouldn't have cared but rubin is not a mind-reader). it was truly like. well i am and i can't do much about it but i'm soo focused rn. as 18-20 came around the corner and his relationship with isidor truly felt like he was fighting for his life trying to be seen as a good student he was like I'm either going to war or becoming a monk. he was fully willing to commit to lifelong monkish celibacy because he's always been. kinda dry. kinda with issues. + i think subconsciously he was trying to not let Desire creep up on him because it would distract him from the menkhu way (nice dichotomy idiot what lies outside of it etc). he went to war [p1 lore which i abide by] and. well when you put a bunch of fit young men together away from the women of course something like this would happen. anyways he comes home having acted on his homosexuality which he is fine with + feels kinda like a weight being lifted off his shoulders but he stil hasn't tasted Desire ykwim. Want. Hunger in the lover sense. but he's like. shrugs. whatever. monk it is. he doesn't become a monk. he clings to being isidor's foster son until his knuckles go white. it ends up being for nothing. grief and anger scythe him right. and in what follows he bonds with someone who's Fucked up and who Knows Hunger and Desire and omg flushed emoji etc. (+ my belief when dankovsky comes to peter's loft to talk about god-knows-what they kinda realize pretty fast He's Just Like Me Fr and dankovsky appreciates his + peter's company kinda like he appreciated Just Sitting There surrounded by gay and bi men even if they barely talk. just knowing you're like. Not Alone. etc)

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bit long. sorrey.

#dankovsky lore #burakh lore #yulia lore #rubin lore #there are others i see as homosexuals. because it's a beautiful world out there #some of the older kids mostly because they're literally just at the age i came out to my parence... #i don't have like Deep Thoughts about most of them because is just how it is innit. they have other problems rn #the two i could add are notkin and khan mostly because 1) funny to me. mostly. 2) drawing capella Knowing currently so #notkin knew quite young (like 11) he Didn't Like Girls but didn't know how he felt about boys until 15 (spoilers: oooooh sonny) #he doesn't have parents to answer to so he's just like. well it is how it is. who care. #when he gets teased by others like ''u think girls have cooties??'' he's like motherfucker it's not about cooties #[then the kids realize and they're like. omg i so sorry... i didn't mean to be homophobic i just thought you were weird] #khan knew quite young he liked boys (also like 11-12) but didn't know how he felt about girls until 15 (spoilers: it's a no from him dawg #& when he realizes what that means for the kains' future he's both like. oh the agonies. and also it's not my problem i'm going to college