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elegyofthemoon · 4 months

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some work stuff thats been on loop in my head all week

so i think most of this week minus today, i've sorta accepted that i'm just riding a dying dream. that's mostly why everything feels very unreal these days just bc i wanted to distance myself from it i think. that at the end of this, i'll just fail again and then i'll fail out and that'll be it for me and i'll somehow magically pick up the pieces and sort my life out in some different way with the numerous backup plans i have saved for myself

but i'm still on top of stuff. i'm doing what i'm supposed to, even if it's kinda painful to do thinking that all this effort will amount to nothing in the end.

i get asked to review a new patient who came in the night prior to present to the other doctors, and i go and do that. i get to know the patient and try to figure out whats going on. i go and do my physical exam and all that, and at the end, when im trying to wrap things up, she stops me just to say "you're such a sweet and kind doctor. the other ones are so abrupt and dont listen to me"

i had to just kinda smile bittersweetly at that bc thats really all i want to be. i just want to take care of my patients and make sure they get the best help they can. i want to, but im no good medical student.

i thanked her again and left to go present the patient accordingly. the whole moment still sits with me a lot though and i just sorta play it on loop.

by character, i'm very much a caretaker. i love taking care of people and its always at the risk of overdoing myself - something i'm working on. if i could i'd do anything to keep up with this dream so that i can better help everyone. but i still find myself at a loss. i'm by no means smart. i just want to help however way i can, and if that means being in this position to do so, then i'm happy for it.

it just makes me sad because i'll meet the worst medical students - my peers - and i question and wonder and worry about the people who would fall into their care. i'm not saying i deserve their position. i understand i'm not smart enough to be where i am. heck, im even surprised i even got where i am tbh albeit i am also failing severely now lmao but it's just... it makes me sad that the smart people i meet are always so awful

at the very least, that moment with the patient was nice even if its bittersweet. it at least means that i was already where i kinda wanted to be as a person. i want to be there. and i want to take care of others because i care.

#i didnt know who to talk to #everyones offline which is fair bc its like near new years and all that so #here.#work logs #i promise after this though ill stop posting about all this nonsense #im just in a really weird state orz #i think after today though things will be happier #its mostly bc of my friend (i really have to thank both of them)#my friends are so nice and it was nice to just hang out again after so long theyre so cute when theyre being nice LMAO #both of them are very talkative which makes up for my Lack Of Talking #ill at least say this #i probably wouldnt be such an open person if it werent for the people i met at school #they say certain personalities gravitate to a certain profession and youre right!#i think all the people ive met their personalities kinda click w me and its honestly nice askdjafh #all my friends from school were the most supportive people ever and its like the first time ive actually stepped out of my little bubble #(i had some friends in undergrad but i spent majority of it alone tbh which also wasnt bad it just meant i worked on myself more)#but yeah #lets say this: even if everything just falls apart and we end everything with a bang #ill be happy with the journey anyways for the people i got to meet along the way #snow speaks

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nonbinaryaubrey · 1 year

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imagine being omori in the playing forever au. hes like in white space for AWHILE after Sunny finding the truth so he's away for awhile. then hes like "okay. problem fixed time to go see all my friends again." and then he walks out and immediately sees Mari, Basil, and Aubrey all freaking the fuck out for some reason

#^ idk if kel and hero would uh. be there yet.#also little less of a silly thing: if omori does end up knowing that theyre all spirits of their real world selves.. i think he'd probably-#view them being here as better for them.. hes like. they may be upset now but... theyll be happier here. eventually. wont they?#much much happier than they ever were in the real world. theyre better here. theyre safer. theyll be happy here..#<- idk .. i think omori would probably see it that way ..#idk .. just thoughts ^_^#playing forever au #aubrey.txt

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carcinized · 2 years

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WOOO 🎉 getting my life together hash tag BOSS !

#i SHOWERED and HAD DINNER and PLANNED for my FUTURE #nevermind all the things that r wrong and especially nevermind the living fucking beetle i found in my hair in the shower O-o #its. been a hot second since i showered 💗💗 he was just hanging out. when the episode depressives. ick that was gross #hes gone now im all clean no more bugs on me. i hope #but like woo!!! figured out my priorities for the next few months; like making moneys more important for me rn than school #& bc of my uncommon class schedule i made for myself im gonna have GREAT working hours #& not too many acedemic classes. besides chem & my funky humanities cryptid class i only have 2 academic classes?#<- i leave those 2 classes out bc theyre both things i learn about for FUN already #unless i switch out of choir for spanish which is feeling kinda likely rn for . reasons. love u choir but its gonna be different #might try and find a choir outside my school. why the fuck not. maybe i'll join a barbershop group #bc the choir in my school is. deteriorating like i'll get WAY more from a spanish class than a choir class #& spanishs not hard for me so like . why not man #SORRY THIS IS A LOT OF THOUGHTS. BUT LIKE. idk im just organizing myself. i need an aim thats why i feel like im floating #i just need smth to work on. i dont have people to ground me rn but i can work on getting myself stability for the future #and who knows maybe starting up school (and getting HOME) again will be stabilizing even if its all going to be vastly different #priorities r changin. this is good i'll be happier this way probably #anyways. yeah sorry im jsut.. thinkin. bout life. yeah #tobin talks

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hihellomy · 11 months

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How some characters would go about courting Paimons mama

VENTI:

-you would pick up on your daughter calling Barbatos,The god of freedom,the anemo archon,"tone deaf bard",made you hold in a laugh not be disrespectfull

-Venti will think that you agree with him being tone deaf and feel sadness wash over him,do you not like his songs? He'll be better at them he promises!

-god your daughter knew that she would get away with it,not just cause shes a child,but cause shes your child

-you reassure him dont worry and his happy

-but man dudes is love starved

-he clungs onto you like a new born (if you allow him to even be near you)

-Paimon isnt too thrilled about him acting like hes your kid,she is,you came down here to reunite with her

-Paimon wouldnt mind a second parent,that means more love,and you'll be happier (you did tell you wouldnt leave her again)

-but Venti? Yeah no,mans has to prove himself one way or another

-he will sing Paimon and you so many songs

-spoil you with everything he can (he admitted being Barbatos to be able to have VIP acess to you like all the other archons and important people)

-Paimon and him share a playfull tone and would absolutely mess with others,so this might actually work

-what do you say your grace? Venti is already worshiping you like never before

ZHONGLI:

-1# follower comin' throught

-hes so polite and devoted,being your slave would be such an honor to him,but being your husband? Your daughters father?

-he doesnt care who he has to go through

-Paimon doesnt know if she wants a dad whos so bad with the literal thing he made from his hands

-Zhongli will serve you and praise you theres no tomorow,Paimon aswell

-hes telling her the best tales he knows,spending way too much on food and toys (thats more like a point for childe but-)

-his shield is on him 24/7 with either of you with him in the wild

-but like you have power over all the elements and slay so like dont know why he does this but oh well

-he is and always will be your most devoted your grace, isnt that worth something?

CHILDE:

-spoils you and Paimon

-Zhongli isnt getting that much money from him cause now hes competiton

-Paimon and Teucer deffinetly are having playdates to get to know eachother and have fun

-they might end up being family if Childe succeds after all

-Paimon didnt like the idea of you marrying a fatui harbinger,so childe is on thin ice

-but Paimon is only so young,she could be convinced easily

-he is such a family man,hes perfect to be her father and your lover

-hes killed so many in your name,and he will leave the fatui if you wish,just consider it

TRAVELER:

-this is probably the easiest and we all know why

-they were with your daughter for so long,no one knows them like you both do,its only natural

-Paimon will however go "oh come on! Not you too! Why is everyone so intrested in Paimons mom!?"

-after all you both have control over all the elements in a way,so theyre perfect

-you took them as a vessel for a reason,right?

-but abyss twin?

-alot of drama

-Paimon is gonna tell them that if they even wish to be near you,theyd have to reconcile and apologize to the traveler!

-"say less" Paimon isnt even able to finish her sentence

-but yeah things will be difficult but oh well

#genshin impact sagau #genshin impact #sagau #genshin sagau #yandere genshin x reader #genshin impact childe #genshin impact venti #genshin impact zhongli #genshin impact traveler #abyss twin #sagau childe #sagau zhongli #sagau venti #sagau traveler #genshin impact paimon #paimon #sagau paimon

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brook1yn-baby · 10 months

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all mine

main 4 dating hcs <3

characters; kyle broflovski, stan marsh, kenny mccormick, eric cartman x gender-neutral reader

warnings; just a smidge of smut :3

a/n; first actual post 😱 also theyre like 18/19 in this

kyle broflovski:

he’s absolutely lovesick.

bro wrote and performed a love song for rebecca when he was in 3rd grade

you can be damn sure he’s doing that and more for you

only in private though, not big on pda, especially when you’re around his friends

you both know how much he likes you, so he doesn’t feel the need to put on a show when you’re in public

he’ll sling a loose arm around your shoulders while he’s talking to the guys or sit next to you during lunch, little things that tell you he’s still yours

his jealousy does sometimes get the better of him though

probably a little insecure in the relationship, scared he’s gonna lose you to cartman like he did with heidi

one time the five of you were at a party and kyle started squaring up to guy who’d asked you if you were single

sorta gave you the ick but he made up for it by walking you home, giving you a tipsy goodnight kiss and a lopsided grin before stumbling over your porch steps and heading back to stan’s place, the other guys having to hold him up the whole way there

that was the first and last time you’d seen him drink

after you told him about his attempt to fight some random guy, he decided that it’d probably be better for everyone if he stuck to being the designated driver

oh and he loves how close you are with his family

the first time he invited you over for dinner, he was terrified about his parents embarrassing him

almost cancelled when his mom wouldn’t stop saying that her ‘little bubaleh’ was in love

still, you managed to charm them the whole night, asking questions about gerald’s job and helping sheila clean up after dinner, even enduring ike’s constant questioning about if you and kyle were gonna get married

that’s when he knew he’d found the right one

definitely ended the night with your guys’ first kiss <3

stan marsh:

i’m gonna be honest he’s a fucking loser

definitely not the most attentive boyfriend you’ve ever had, but probably the best you were gonna get in south park

it’s a small town and options are slim, so you often had to give stan the benefit of the doubt

absolutely terrible at replying to messages

if you two aren’t physically together, you probably don’t talk

luckily for you, he’s a whiny bitch and will most definitely complain when he’s not with you

meaning most of your free time is spent at his house, listening as he practices guitar, playing video games or just laying in his arms

you could go to his and just nap the whole time and he’d still be happier than if you weren’t with him

you know his relationship with his dad isn’t the best, so you have to be prepared for many late-night ‘can i come over’ texts

most of the time it’s because randy’s drunk or just being a dick and he can’t stand to be around him

and obviously, you’re his safe place

sometimes though, his messages are a little less innocent

he’s a teenage boy at the end of the day, and he has needs

(as do you ;))

you and stan have a pretty stable relationship in comparison to him and wendy, but there’s been times when you two had to go on a break

whether it’s because of his constant need to be around you or his drinking, sometimes you just needed space

you and shelley def complain about him together when you’re on a break

she’s a couple years older but she gets it better than anyone

her own relationship was pretty rocky too, so it was nice to just vent to eachother, probably with a bottle of wine and takeout

it was probably a little weird that you still hung out with his sister when you and him were on a break, but you honestly didn’t care

you and stan never stay broken up for long though, the both of you eventually crawling back

maybe it was a little toxic, maybe you knew it wasn’t really gonna last, but for now, you had him and he had you

that’s all that mattered <3

kenny mccormick:

good old kenny mcwhoremick.

despite the rumours of his promiscuous lifestyle, his body count was actually significantly lower than you expected

not that you cared; you were actually quite happy that he was so experienced- not many boys your age knew how to pleasure both themselves and their partner

he wasn’t just great in bed, either

he’s quick to fall for you, infatuated with you after just a few meetings

immediately takes on a sort of caring role in the relationship, definitely protective, similarly to how he looks after karen

it was nice to have someone so doting, though you had to remind him a few times that you could take care of yourself

he simply shakes his head, stubborn as ever

speaking of karen, you adored her

anytime kenny invited you to his house, you spent most of your time playing dolls with her or letting her do your hair

he loved how motherly you acted towards her

probably got him thinking about starting a family with you tbh

he absolutely loves showing you off, be it with pda, on social media, whatever

you were his and he wanted everyone to know

definitely has a highlight on insta dedicated to photos of you, and a playlist of songs that remind him of you

(also of songs that he’d thought about fucking you to)

though you do spend lots of time at his house now, he was really against the idea when you first started dating

you’d suggest watching a movie at his place and he’d come up with some excuse to do it at yours instead

it wasn’t that he didn’t want to spend time with you, he was just embarrassed of where he lived after years of teasing from the other boys

one day you decided to show up out of the blue, wanting to surprise him for his birthday with presents

he’s gobsmacked when he opens the door, quickly trying to divert your attention away from the mess in his living room, his parents passed out on the couch

you reassure him that you don’t mind, asking if he wanted you to go; you really wanted to stay and see his reactions to your gifts, but you weren’t going to push him if he was uncomfortable

he was relieved when you said you didn’t mind, finally inviting you in

it was the first time he’d let a partner into his house which was terrifying in itself, but he calmed down when he saw how relaxed you seemed, getting comfy on his bed and waiting for him to open his presents

you obviously didn’t care how messy his home was, or how his parents weren’t the best at looking after their kids

you only cared about him <3

eric cartman:

listen, as much as i love the enemies to lovers trope with cartman, i love the fake dating trope even more

(and i love combining the two the most teehee)

cartman had recently received some pretty embarrassing information about you, and decided to make the most of it while he’s coming up with his newest scheme

you had had a crush on one of the other boys in your class for a few months and, even though you’d only told your closest friends, somehow he’d found out

so, in order to make heidi jealous, he’d forced you to be his pretend partner in exchange for not telling your crush you liked him

it was humiliating- having to hold his hand as he walked you to class, sitting with him at lunch, enduring his sickly-sweet pet names..

..only at first, though

after a few weeks, you’d come to enjoy the routine the fake relationship provided

you also found that you actually liked spending time with eric, and he could be pretty funny when it was just you two

you did your best to shove your feelings down, slightly ashamed and pissed off that you liked him, of all people

still, it couldn’t be helped- you had stopped staring longingly at your crush during class, eyes fixed on cartman across the room

it didn’t help that heidi didn’t seem too jealous either, causing him to ramp up the ‘pretend’ affection

when you were around him, he acted like he couldn’t get enough of you; playing with your hair, caressing your face, all the while keeping a strong arm around your shoulders, like he wanted to keep you close to him

as much as you liked the attention he was giving you, it was infuriating knowing he was only like this to get heidi back

it all came to a head when he tried to kiss you as she walked past you both in the hallway

you pushed him back, all of the feelings you’d been forcing down suddenly overflowing, choking on tears as you walked away

you knew when he didn’t bother following you that this relationship really was just pretend to him

it wasn’t until later that night when he showed up on your doorstep, hands in his pockets, sighing, that you realised maybe you were wrong

he obviously wasn’t big on apologising but tried his best, looking slightly annoyed as he admitted that he’d only blackmailed you into being his fake partner because he knew you’d say no if he actually asked you out

his logic was completely insane to you, but from eric’s point of view, he genuinely saw it as his only option to call you his partner

your heart melted as you thought about how he went through all that just because he had a crush on you

you don’t say anything in response, shocking him a little as you walk towards him, wrapping your arms around him and laying your head on his chest

sure, you’d hugged before, but it was awkward and emotionless, just pretend

this was different- his arms enveloped you, pulling you close as you felt him laugh

he was most definitely gonna tease you later for being ‘obsessed’ with him, but you could deal with it

after all, you were really, actually his <3

#brook1yn-baby #south park #kyle brovlofski #kyle broflovski x reader #stan marsh #stan marsh x reader #kenny mccormick #kenny mcormick x reader #eric cartman #eric cartman x reader #headcanon #fanfic

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frostedcanadians · 5 months

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(SPOILERS!!!!) Things i think ballad of songbirds and snakes did well and did poorly on (SPOILERS!!!)

Pros:

•i think they did a really great job with their visuals on panem. I think both the districts and the capitol are better translated on screen in this one than in the original three.

•i think the costume design is also better than the original three

•they do a great job at expressing Snow's intentions and thoughts without having the inner monolog as a story telling device. I wasnt sure how well that would translate but it was fantastic

•I like the few little nods they gave to the original movies, while cutting the super cheesey ones.

•the acting is superb. Genuinely no notes.

Cons:

• biggest complaint: holy fuck its rushed. Its so rushed. Most of my complaints are honestly just because its rushed

•so many characters cut out or half assed. Clemensia, SEJANUS, lil, spruce, pluribus, so many

•some pretty big plot points missed, WHY DIDNT THEY TALK MORE ABOUT THE GODDAMN BIRDS. Reaper!!! All the other tributes, the funerals! I understand to keep it pg13 they probably had to cut parading the bodies around but good god give us something! Ma!!!!!

•the entire third act shouldve been twice as long if not three times as long. Its not enough time to explain anything at all. Theyre just moving through each plot point as quickly as possible. No time to understand, no explaining, no suspense. Soooo rushed.

• they missed some pretty big, important quotes.

• maybe unpopular but I hate the ending. Both Lucy Grey's ending and the movie ending. For too many reasons to explain.

In conclusion, I think its beautiful cinematically and acting wise. I think all the actors, costume designers, CGI, art directors, etc did a fucking fabulous job. In those ways it's honestly 10/10. But plot wise, writing wise, I was disappointed. I feel like the plot points they half assed were worse than the ones they cut out entirely. If you didn't read the book I think some aspects will leave you confused or wondering why they were included at all, and if you read the book you'll leave frustrated. I honestly wish they wouldve cut more so they could focus, if they couldn't stick to the plot points they wanted. I think I would've been happier with a looser adaptation going in its own direction than being forced to half ass things that are otherwise impactful but left seeming hollow.

#the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #thg #bosas #spoiler #bosas spoilers

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mullettaegi · 2 months

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incoming: another fucking voltron rant because i watched a langst edit and now i wanna cry😭😭

they did not take time. they did not slow that show down for a little bit. especially for lance. cause he did not getting a fucking moment to find himself again after he FUCKING DIED. we saw him homesick, we saw him missing his family, we saw him insecure about his position on the team, we saw him insecure about himself, but we never actually saw him go anywhere else but being sad. he really did get barely any character development.

and tbh i feel like in a way just all the characters didnt have a moment to slow down. and i know, i know, its a kids show, its about fucking robots for fucks sake, theyre in the middle of a war. which, yeah. youre right. but there couldve been so much more, for him, for all of them. what about them? as people, with feelings. where are there emotions. why is it only sadness and happiness and not the enitre confusing spectrum of emotion between. does pidge not feel lost after she finds her brother? yeah, hes back, but i bet she didnt imagine she would be fighting an intergalactic war, and now matt is too. she imagined family dinner, brother barging into her room, dad making corny jokes, house happier and full of life.

hunks family was put in a fucking work camp. he had seen this across the galaxy, zarkons army imprisoning people, making them work, killing them. did he imagine that for earth ? did he imagine that for his family? how the fuck did he cope fighting a war, anxious as he is? how did he cope at all?

shiro isnt even in his fucking original body. thats fucking weird. im not saying that in a rude way bc like yeah, organ transplants are a thing irl, and a major life saving thing they are ! but like, how odd it must be to have someone elses kidney or heart in your body. nevermind to have your entire soul and conciousness put into another body, you but not really you.

keiths life,,, dude probably just doesnt even give anything a second fucking thought anymore. but like, could they not have shown him showing some more emotion. fair enough if he doesnt always cry in the moment but rather late on, but you'd think seeing allura die, they wouldve at least put some tears in his eyes. he had fucking no one before he had voltron. only shiro, and even then he was alone for so long when shiro had been on his mission. you cant tell me he didnt want to think of voltron as his family. they bonded :(

and lance, gosh lance. i feel like, if we looks at this as it is, lance would be the character that people think back on and go "oh yeah, he helped me accept my emotions, he helped me become the best version of me and gain confidence in who i am". in the fandom hes seen as someone with big emotions that he wears on his sleeve, but also someone who will put everyone else and their needs before himself.

he's a story of self-sacrifice, quite literally. he's the story of sincere love, of casual admiration. he's the story of the most wonderful friend, of loyalty, of no, I'll step down because there's a cause bigger than me, and im not the one for the job when there's people like my friends and you on the team.

and no one wanted to explore that? no one wanted to see him do more than just, what? flirt and literally die and fall in love and barely find his place on team voltron? that was it for him. it shouldn't have been, but it was.

#just... im no professional qriter but like #there couldve been more humanity to it yknow #to all of their emotions but most importantly lance who was brushed off time and time again #he was destined for greatness #hes so much more than what he shows people but the people just cant be bothered to look past the mask #:(#vld lance #lance mcclain #voltron #vld #mullettaegi #long post #i may be talking no sense but yall will be seeing it cause i cant be keeping this shit in my brain itll eat me up #i care about this show far too much and am not gonna hide anymore it means so much to me :(#and theres so so much more that im forgetting bc its been a while since i watched the show #so alls i can say is lance deserved better he deserved more he couldve been such a character!!#but ik there is so much more to it and i have more to say about his death but i just dont have the words

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carsontumbleweed · 3 months

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Spoilers yeah duh

I liked alot more than just the bleacher creatures I honestly loved the first episodes it was bliss. I don't view s1 characters as the same anymore so its kinda an au in a way to me??

But man I loved the bleacher creatures they were fun and terrible and I loved them. God I wish they had shown how they got together cause oh my gosh??? THE ROLL CALL THING WAS SPECIFICALLY FOR ME OH MY GOD OH MY GODDDD. Topher looks alot happier this season I don't know before I saw him as a loser who brought people down with him. Who didn't have friends. But I don't know? They're actually really cute(and terrible mwahaha I'd hate them irl) and I wasn't expecting topher to get along with them. Just the way he looks at them and they love schemeing just as much as he does. Im just so used to topher frowning and stuff but his eyes were dilated alot this season not just for being bitten by snakes. I don't know I'm just surprised he has friends.(he obviously didn't have them before he mentions he only had limited social interactions I think they all got together during that summer or whatever?? Maybe over text??)

Theyre all terrible and I love that love the weird evil friend group. perfect parody thing of those kinds of friend groups. Snorkeling episode was my favorite I just love how they made fridas art more obscure!!!! I love that! Was worried with this episode

I love jackée holy shit more of her!! And lizzie!!and ivan! That one scene where they're so stupid is fun to me silly. And later topher wasn't even worried he was going to die he just looked happy looking at his friends after they wrre waiting to get on the submarine what the fuckkkk.

I think he likes being the leader the voting thing was probably fun for him. He's into that sort of stuff I suppose.

Okay enough about them I really enjoyed that this season was more fun than the last. At least for the most part? I enjoyed it when it let itself be wacky and I found it enjoyable. Still not the original but it's not going to be clone high reboot is its own show with lets face it completely different characters.

The only ones I didn't enjoy was 8-10 I guess didn't have too much time to watch it ill habe to rewatch again they weren't bad though.

Joan confucius Harriet should polycule sick of this shit. Its funny in a parody aspect their drama and Harriet sent her hearts! Hearts!

Joan and Confucius are cute. I hate to say I hate joanabe this season its fine if you like them I suppose I've never really liked them that much cause its a parody and abe literally thought of her like a sister before? Its a parody so I don't really care what anyone ships (edit: I realize I gotta clarify for this, not proshipping obviously I hate that shit)

Speaking of which jfk and abe qpr literally canon

#clone high

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milkyvast · 4 months

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**Undertale Yellow spoilers allert!!**

okay am gonna go crazy on this but hear me out,

I think ive realised that At this point Ceroba ,Chuujin and starlo and heck axis are in a repeated relationships to the point its not healthy for either of them

Why? Here’s explains (this is just stupid rambling dont take seriously)

You know those tumblr posts there’s always gonna thay one person be someone over analysis, warning undertale yellow spoilers, So please read with cautious

But i think Axis Wouldve the results because i think theyre unable to give something axis doesn’t have Love, Or at least abandoned

Its been clearly explain that Axis And starlo they're both have unique In a way part with ceroba and chuujin story

Axis is what Choujin wanted to make in hopes That it can benefits the king, But what it lacks whats the show of affections

Like How Starlo wouldve wanted to keep up with hsi Sherif act for years beause he wanted ceroba to forget the case and pain of chujin

Like, The narrative story explained works because it was like, They're exentallt repeating the same thing, And they're, Okay maybe it won’t make sense but

Like, Starlo clearly would do anything for his best friend so does ceroba but both are to blinded what each other wanted, they’ve hardly even talked nor discussed about it

Like why can’t ceroba talked out with clover instead of starlo? Didn’t she at least thought of how He wouldve thought of his imput, i think it wouldve the result lack of communciations of theyre hiding something from each other, And its also the fact ceroba lured clover into lab well

and there's this pattern

Chuujin was blinded being out cast by the king

Ceroba was blinded by chuujin and Kanako’s loss that shes wiling to sacrifice clover to try attempted her goal, but even then she hesisted

Starlo was blinded in wanted to make ceroba happy to the point he's willing to chanfe his name to north star question why he hadn’t pulled trigger on clover (which mean would he be okay with ceroba doing monster hard hint hint like cerabo with Chuujin)

Axis was blinded being shutdown, Ad probably result him being killer robot or abandoned down there

Heck Ceroba wouldn’t mind even starlo played sherif acts along for years, because she thought he seemed happier, But i don’t think it wouldve healthy for both of them

Okay okay sorry gettin ahead but am serious, Is like there’s a repeat pattern that theyre all just

The narrative of the undertale yellow of these charas were are insanely good hrghhhh

By picture below, you can prob tell she's been people pleaser by trying to do in chujin ways, They're not perfect but it doesn't mean theyre trying hard either

is similar to starlo maybe moving onto, But it doesn't mean they can't stop being friends either

you know how Ceroba notice how Chuujin been actin different and maybe she's doing the best she could, to the point its been eatimg her up

Seemed like patterns repeat itself on how he's gettin mighty with caught human, hoping it'll solve problem

#undertale yellow #ut yellow #uty clover #uty #uty spoilers #flowey #flowey uty #undertale #comic #fanart #justice soul #undertale yellow spoilers #someone please helped me at least expalined or get what am gettin at there #here #😭😭#THE NARRATIVE WAS RIGHG THERE PEOPLE #milkpost #but i don't think ceroba and starlo wouldn't be to good for each others btw #like #He's going all “I can fix her mindset”#Ceroba wouldn't and can't be fix until clover does #BUT she did ackoledge her mistake in the end #Like wouldn't be weird that someone trying attempted murder on a kid and like the blue bird was the one actualy rightfully note how messed #its just prob not for me #i think i prefer trhem more as friends tbh #i know people think but #it didn't clicked with me sorry #would wrote out more but that's probably buut there's kinda more to uncover this lore ut maybe

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shinobufied · 1 year

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Male gamers gotta be the weakest, whiniest, most annoying people of all time.

They see that Ghost suddenly gets a giant burst of interest after mw2′s release (mostly from girls) which also automatically causes the sales of the game to skyrocket and instead of using that opportunity to talk about the lore and complexity of the character that they supposedly love so much they start crying because “nooooOooooO ghost is a cold emotionless badass killer he doesn’t smile >:(” (because apparently thats how humans work in their eyes?). They complain about the girls not gEtTing hIm because they think he’s hot and therefore not get his writing when THEYRE the ones projecting their weird toxic masculinity views onto him, completey ignoring his writing and also lacking the emotional intelligence and literary analysis skills to properly analyse any character whatsoever.

They whine about the 2 recent God of War games because they miss the old, brutal Kratos that went around slaughtering people with no second thought. They complain because the “wokefied” him and apparently “weakened” him when they completely ignore the beautiful writing behind the 2 games. When you listen to them the recent games ruined his character and contains horrible writing while in reality the two recent games created such an amazingly written character arc for him. They didn’t ruin him, they fleshed him out even more, made him a proper character with proper inside conflicts who faces the consequences of his actions, learns to heal properly and how to deal with his conflicts in a proper healthy manner.

That’s how you write a decent character, it’s so well executed and they’re still not happy.

Because “nooooOOoooo Kratos just slaughters everyone and is bloody, he doesn’t care u ruined him and made him soft. >:(” Which, again, is just their weird projection of toxic masculinity onto a character and I could probably go into detail, theorizing that that’s probably their way of coping with the toxic expectations for them in society but that would blow this post out of proportion.

All I have to say is:

No, it’s not the stupid girls on the internet creating silly fanart of your favourite character or leftism that ruins your favourite media. They don’t ruin writing and make it unenjoyable. It’s you that has unresolved issues and should sit down and ask yourself why you’re so mad that your favourite “sigma” is showing emotions and dealing with them. It’s you that should question why your favourite character being associated with femininity is making you so upset.

Maybe you should pause to actually read and learn about the characters you supposedly love so much, I promise you’ll find yourself happier and much more at peace.

#simon ghost riley #ghost mw2 #annies brainjuice #call of duty #kratos #god of war #gaming #rant #this is so funny to me in some way because they get explained why their views are harmful to them via kratos story arc alone #and instead of going hmmmm that seems familiar they just shut their brain off completely #wait is this fucking play about us

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queenie-blackthorn · 6 months

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a sign of sa3at alWiama / the end of times is supposedly ‘a man looking at another’s grave and wishing he was the latter’ (as if being suicidal hadn’t existed forever) and also the guilt about that because suicide is a sin (that has not helped anyone struggling with being suicidal and only makes things worse, especially adding onto that how many families deny suicides and say their kids just died naturally. (i’ve experienced this first hand. my friend in ninth grade. his mom lied to my face when i asked what had happened) Which is why the suicide rate in muslim countries is so low, it’s not because of good mental health at all, also the people themselves will often go out of their way to make the suicide look like an accident.

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hmm

this is a really interesting take. ive never heard of anyone claiming this, but i cant deny that it is highly possible. perhaps the suicide rates are low because theyre unreported, yes (and may i say this is gonna sound shallow but im sorry about your friends death)

before elaborating id like to mention that i am in no way a scholar of islam, and my knowledge of religion stems purely from my islamic education in school, my very religious parents, and the occasional tutor, and my knowledge in psychology is only from half a year im the gcse course, an innumerable amount of informational videos on youtube, and my personal mental health issues

now, im gonna assume you live in a muslim country as i do and are, obviously, therefore surrounded by muslims. youd know that a surprising amount of people call themselves muslims but are in fact (by definition) apostates

okay, so in my experience: people who are very practicing in religion, be it islam or christianity or whatever, tend to be happier w their lives. the more religious they are, the more they believe that its a part of gods plan and if you just bear it youll be rewarded. this obviously doesnt mean that they dont suffer w mental health issues, but they do tend to have happier outlooks on life and have more satisfaction w their lives, and this is backed up by numerous studies

and i think it takes common sense to know that the happier you are w your life, the less willing you are to end it

this however does only apply to people who are actually religious, not people who dont practice as much. i think youre right when you say that the fact that suicide being a sin may add on to the guilt, but also adding on to that would be if an individual is not practicing in religion—they may feel an onset of guilt and thoughts like "im going to hell because im not religious" which may just feed into the suicidal thoughts until the guilt snowballs and potentially leads to suicide

what im trying to say in a nutshell is that youre probably right—suicide rates in muslim countries may only be lower due to the straight up denial of suicides, but also since muslim countries will, guaranteed, have religious people, the number of people unsatisfied w their lives may genuinely be at a much smaller scale compared to countries w a larger number of atheists/agnostics

im not entirely sure how to tie in that a sign of the end of times is when a man looks at the grave and wishes he was the latter, although i will say this. i dont think its the presence of suicial people that makes it a sign, but when it becomes widespread, thats when it becomes a sign of يوم القيامة / the day of judgement approaching.

for example, literacy. literacy has obviously been present. but when its widespread, then its considered a sign of the end of times. so i think its not suicidal thoughts alone that are a sign of the day of judgement, but when they become as widespread as they are now, thats when it means the day of judgement approaches

#hope this helps #ty for the ask!#queenie doesnt shut up #islam #discussion #feel free to discuss #day of judgement

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(long ask heads up srry) damn so im a donnie kinnie AND a raph kinnie. fuck! /lh

i just wanna give them both a hot chocolate and tell them theyre both wonderful lil guys :( /pos

and poor mikey who i feel like for SURE gets lost in the chaos, even after they all move away and start recovering & repairing their relationships w/ each other. between Donnie's sexual trauma/inferiority complex(?), Raph feeling like a failed protector, and Leo's whole. Situation. i feel like Mikey probably gets the short end of the stick vis-a-vis brotherly comfort bc comparatively, his own trauma could be seen as not so severe (even though it totally is!) -stitch

SOBB NOT YOU DIAGNOSING DONNIE WITH AN INFERIORITY COMPLEX!! this is what happens when i put too much of myself into a character (i am constantly battling an inferiority complex lmao. it is RUINOUS to my mental health. you'd think all these compliments would have given me an ego by now but at most it's given me permission to ACT like I think I'm cool and awesome)

you're right that Mikey gets kind of left behind though, which isn't ENTIRELY everyone else's fault to be fair. Mikey kind of leaves himself behind too. he spent so much time angry at their situation that now that things have changed he kind of just expects himself to be happier/better automatically. and he goes a bit crazy with the freedom for a while which makes it hard to talk to him about his emotions, because he SEEMS to be really happy all the time! That's good, right?

I think he's also a little emotionally illiterate when it comes to himself. he can sniff out other people's emotions just fine but when he looks at himself its a bit harder for him to tell. unless the answer is obvious (like being mad because splinter yelled at him or something).

so yea Mikey kinda just doesn't know what to do with himself. which is funny cause that's the same boat all his brothers are in, in one way or another. and they could probably really easily relate to each other if they'd just!! talk about it!!

his life mission was to convince his brothers that their dad sucks ass, and now they all agree with him! and they've all moved out together! so why are things still hard??? maybe he should do some underage drinking about it or something.

#nnstuff #ask #asks are sweethearts #tmnt donnie #tmnt mikey #teenage mutant neglected turtles

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saturnrss · 2 years

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proud of you !!

summary: you broke up with your boyfriend, and you made a song about it, and obviously, tom is there to be the first fan of it.

warnings: just me making some mistakes cause english it’s not my first language. None of this songs are mine obviously. Happier than ever by Billie Eilish, Moral of the story by Ashe, Enough for you by Olivia Rodrigo, What a time by Julia Michaels and Thay way by Tate McRae.

faceclaim: hailee steinfeld.

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yourinstagram yourinstagram “happier than ever” coming at midnight !!

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y/nfan2 im just saying that this song it’s gonna be my favorite

multifandom this song has to be for her ex bc her ex.

tomholland2013 so proud of you darling ! ❤️

yourinstagram thank you so much tommy 🤍

y/ntomfan if they are not dating then i’m gonna cry

fan2781 y/n’s dog >>

yourinstagram agree

lovetommy232 are we gonna talk about how probably half of her album it’s gonna be really sad?? like, there are songs named “enough for you” “what a time” “i’ll be okay”

y/nupdatess

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y/nupdatess there’s a rumor that y/n’s new album is about tom and her ex. And there are also a lot of rumors that tom and her are dating since a few months ago.

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y/nfan878 pretty sure that “that way” is about tom and nobody can change my mind.

tomfannnn facts

y/nlover11 i just hope she’s fine <3

tomandy/n fr, i need them to be together bc they’re so amazing

ynnnn i’m pretty sure they’re dating cuz i saw them a few days ago together in a park with tessa, and they were holding their hands and the way they were looking at each other’s just make me cry, I want something like what they have.

y/nupdatess i want to be u so badly

tomholland2013

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tomholland2013 proud of being with you and everything your making <3

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y/nupdatess IS THIS TOM TELLING THAT THEYRE TOGETHER??????

tchalamet me rn. Im so lost

zendaya same here

madelyncline if they don’t say anything i’m just gonna go to kill them

tom1774 i love them endlessly

y/ntomlovers MY PARENTS ARE TOGETHER????

tomfan1721 this just made my year happier

yourinstagram i love you so much <3

yourinstagram thank you for being here since the first day

tomholland2013 and i would do it over and over

tchalamet what a simp

florencepugh fr!

#tom holland imagine #tom holland instagram au #tom holland fanfiction #tom holland x fem!reader #tom holland x famous!reader #tom holland gifs #tom holland #hailee steinfeld #hailee steinfeld icons #peter parker imagine #peter parker #imagine #one shot #instagram au #social media au #actress imagine #instagram #fake instagram

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xumoonhao · 9 months

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you know. the thing i find strangest about tumblr is how they so rarely listen to us, the people who use their app & site daily. like we all - for the vast majority imo - want the same, or at the very least similar, things. and this cant be something the staff is blind to - there are SO many posts with tens of thousands of notes saying this, and there are countless replies and reblogs to their DIRECT blog posts saying this, too.

we dont want live anymore, not that we ever wanted it in the first place. we dont wants nazis. we dont want terfs. we dont want porn bots. we dont want an algorithim or a 'for you' page or for you to give us posts 'based on our likes!' or any other way for you to show us posts other than posted by the blogs we follow. but you know what do we want??? for the search and tagging functions to work properly. to keep our custom blogs -- most of which have been crafted by users for themselves or others. to keep reblog chains. for trans people to not be flagged JUST because theyre trans. for poc to not have their blogs deleted for no reason. like…theres more, but these are the main ones i can remember off the top of my head. and its so fucking FRUSTRATING because i KNOW tumblr wants to make money - they literally have to. and they could. if they listened to US and what we want and what we dont want i just KNOW they could make so much money. if they made their site better they would get new users, bring back old users, and overall make the existing users much, much happier. they are literally holding themselves back by trying to craft themselves into every other social media site (a horrible plan just on surface alone; a personal blogging site is simply not the same as most social media, nor would it ever be. they are different in use alone.) and in doing so theyre going to lose users and, probably, run themselves into the ground in the end because theyre going to turn away the only people who really care to use the site right now. and its just…like i Want this site to succeed - not for any kind of allegiance to tumblr or anything, but just because this site is still a unique corner of the internet. like theres so many friends ive made on here, so many wonderful creators, and such a community on here thats not really present wideform on other sites. and like…idk. i just wish staff would stop trying to turn this site into something its not by bloating it with features literally NOBODY wants when theres things they could do that everyone wants. you know what i mean??

#ok to rb if u want btw but i know it’s a long post #anyways hi heres my rant. please image me giving a stern talk to tumblr staff abt this please and thank u.#i really held myself back in this and tried to take my anger out of this bc i really would just have been cursing and name calling #but i used grace to keep myself calm . truly i was a vision of serenity #🎆.txt

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i dunno if you write poly stuff, but can u do some steddie x ftm!reader, angst to fluff where reader is like rlly heartbroken about having a crush on both of them bc reader thinks its weird/confusing plus theyre trans so kinda double homocide 💀 anyway steddie accepts readers confession and comforts them happy ending woohoo

I write any kind of stuff really if that makes sense and I actually really like this idea

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'So it's not weird?' Steddie x ftm!reader

Summary: after a good talk with yourself you finally gather up the courage to tell Steve and eddie what you've wanted to say for a while,

Cw: reader being real upset, angst to fluff

I leaned against my locker, zoned out as Dustin basically yelled into my ear how exited he was about hell fire tonight. It was pretty exiting. But wasn't so excited tho. The thing is Eddie finally managed to get Steve to tag along which made Dustin even happier which isn't the bad part.

The bad part was that i was panicking. I have had a huge crush on Steve and eddie and i hated myself for it. I thought it wasn't normal and that something was wrong with me.

I wished i could just pick one to fanboy over but i simply couldn't. I loved eddie and his mass amount of energy. I loved the way he could light up a room in seconds.

And steve i loved how laid back he was but he could also get serious really quickly. Also how protective he was of the group. Both of those men just made me lose my damn mind.

But confessing would be like asking for a death sentence, especially to both of them. But even if they did somehow say yes and where okay with it what if they found out i was trans. Then it would all be over before it started.

But even them accepting my confession is very, very slim. If i confessed it would probably ruin our friendship forever.

I was suddenly shaken from my thoughts when i felt dustin literally shaking me. He looked really concerned. "Are you okay?" "Ya I'm fine" i quickly answerd trying to hide the fact that i was on the brink of tears. I bit my bottom lip trying not to cry.

My eyes darted around the hall before they landed on a clock. "Oh look at the time, I better go to my last period.. see ya at hell fire Dustin" i said slowly walking away before speeding of in the direction on my class. Dustin stood there confused for a moment before shrugging it off and heading of to his last period.

I rushed into my classroom just as the bell was about to ring. I took a seat in the back and put my head down. I was trying so damn hard not to cry but it was getting harder and harder the more thoughts popped into my head.

Why the hell did I have to have a crush on two damn guys. Why do I have to be so confusing. God I don't even know what this would be called.

God look at me, trans and I have a crush on two guys. Thats double homicide if anything. For now I just have to get through these last hours and I can go home and cry into my pillow and try to forget how weird I am.

Time skip

The Bell rang making me jump slightly as I was half way asleep. I looked around and quickly realised people where packing up and leaving. I cussed under my breath and jumped up. Basically running out the classroom.

I took a deep breath when suddenly I was being picked up. I looked down only to see eddie. He had that usual happy grin on his face. I blushed as he pulled me into a tight hug.

"Ready for hell fire n/n?" He asked. He looked so damn exited and I simply nodded in response. He smiled and led me to the club room. But not even half way there steve joined us, and now it was time to start panicking. I couldn't get a single word out. I was embarrassed as hell.

Why was it so damn akward? Was it me? I breathed heavily as we finally reached the club room.

Eddie paused and turned to me right as he was about to open the door. "Hey n/n you okay, you look out of it?" Eddie asked concerned "Ya you okay m/n?".

Great now both eddie and steve where asking if I was okay. Internally I was fucking screaming. "Ya ya I'm fine just nervous for... hell fire is all". I gave a weak smile to both of the guys. They exchanged glances before eddie finally opened the door.

The room was full of the normal people you'd see in hell fire. Expect lucas was out. Again. So Erica was taking his place, which she was more than happy to do. I took my place next to mike as I normally do and steve stood next to me, using Eddie's "throne" for support.

There was no need for me to be this nervous but something in me was just going crazy. Plus I still couldn't calm down from what happened just seconds ago. I just tried to concentrate on the game and nothing else. But oh god was it so damn difficult.

Yes another time skip

Another successful hour of playing dnd with my friends was over and i actually managed to keep it together. Kinda. Everyone was happily cheering and getting their stuff together.

I was about to get up and join the others when eddie stopped me by grabbing my hand. I turned to him with a slight tint of red on my face.

"Heeey n/n, me and steve are going back to mine to hang out, your coming with" he said with a devilish grin. I gulped and my head ran wild. I quickly responded "sorry eddie I'm busy" i gave him a soft smile before trying to get my hand back.

Suddenly steve grabbed my other hand and a smirk spread across his face. "He wasn't asking" they laughed as they watched my face turn into a look of horror. They pulled me along all the way holding my hands in their's, with eddie slightly ahead of us.

I walked out into the empty parking lot where Steve dragged me and Eddie to his car. Eddie happily jumped into the front seat when Steve unlocked the car. And I got into the back quietly.

Steve pulled out of the parking lot and onto the rode. Eddie gave him a look. "You remember where I live harrington?" "How could I not" Steve answered not taking his eyes of the rode.

I smiled slightly trying to sink into my seat. 'Just smile and sit quietly m/n, maybe they'll forget your here and you can run home and cry at how pathetic you are' at this point I was mentally scolding myself from not being able to resist these two and just give into them.

I looked up and saw eddie looking straight at me. "Okay l/n spill your guts, you've been weird the whole day. Even hell fire and I know how much you love hell fire. I mean come on Even Dustin mentioned how weird you where acting. So come on spill it" eddie said turning from a more cheery tone to a serious one.

I froze. I was darn speechless. I didn't know what to fucking say and the worst part it when I looked over to Steve who was giving me occasional glances. I knew he had concern on his face too.

I put my head down and stayed quiet. Eddie asked me acoulpe more times and so did Steve but I didn't say I word. Now the car ride was silent.

'Great m/n you ruined it you idiot' I mentally scolded myself. I could feel how much I wanted to cry but I couldn't, not here, not now. I bit my tounge trying to stop myself crying.

God why did I have to be weird and ruin one of the best friendships I've ever had. Why did I have to be the weird friend who likes his friends. I bit my tounge and played with my hands. Truing so desperately to calm myself down. But I'm pretty sure both of the guys could see that I was practically shaking.

The car ride was painfull but I didn't want it to end cause I knew as soon as we got to Eddie's they would bonbrad me with questions. I didn't want that. I was so damn on edge I would definitely spill my gut and that would be a disaster.

But that car ride couldn't last forever and soon i felt the car stop and eddie get out. Steve got out and opened the door for me. I nodded a thank and walked with Steve to eddie. Eddie unlocked his door and fell on the couch looking at me and steve.

Steve led me to the couch and sat me between him and eddie. Just fucking great. My breathing quickened when I felt eddie and steve give me a side hug at the same time. They didn't speak but I knew they where burning to know what was bothering me so much.

Steve broke the silence first. "Hey n/n we don't know what's bothering you so much but we hope that we can help in some way" he gave me a soft smile patting me on the back as eddie gave me a tight hug.

I didn't even notice that I started crying. I guess everything I've built up just over flowed. I could feel steve join the hug as well. "Hey if you don't feel comfortable talking about it it's okay but we won't judge you" I could feel eddie smile and tighten the hug.

Now it really all over flowed and I just spilled out my gut. "Goddamit, what's bothering me is you two. I love both of you so damb much but its so fucking weird, I know and maybe I could be normal and confess without all these tear but it would be really much easier if I was born a damn guy just like the both of you!"

I curled up in a ball, sobbing, with both of the guys pulling back to look at me. They looked at eachother before going back to hugging me. I was slightly stunned at this. I more or less stopped sobbing so much but I was the furthest thing from calm.

This time eddie spoke up first. "Jesus I wouldn't be surprised if you told us you could read minds too" he laughed slightly and hid his face in the crook of my neck.

"It was kinda obvious that you had a crush on one of us man, but we didn't really know which one off us" "we didn't expect it too be both" eddie spoke up right after Steve.

I wiped away the tears and looked up at them both. "But what about me be-" I was cut off when Steve picked me up and hugged me lifting me of my feet. Eddie joined in and hugged me from the back.

I didn't know what to say but I was finally happy that they knew, and they didn't think this was weird. "So n/n, Steve are we like in a couple but there are three people?" eddie asked shooting glances at both of us.

"Yes eddie that's how it works" I said as Steve finally put me down. "Nice, but now that your okay, you are okay right?" "Yes I'm fine" I said looking at eddie "good! Now who wants to have some fun?! If you know what i mean" "Seriously eddie?" Steve looked at him, slightly disappointed

"Ehhh fine Steve but I'm taking m/n with me then" eddie smirked as he dragged me off to his room. "Oh no you dont" I heard Steve yell behind us. I smiled. Okay maybe I wasn't so weird after all.

#stranger things #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #gay #x male reader #queer #eddie munson x male!reader #eddie munson x you #steve harrington #Steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x male reader #steve harrington x you #steve x reader x eddie #steddie

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