#think I experienced the full range of human emotions tonight & I didn't even rlly have the right to pry for info bc

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#VERY weird to have spent an evening chatting shit and watching a friend's gf try to macguiver menthol out of marlboros and menthol filters #while waiting to find out the results of somebodys mri scan to find out if they have Permanent brain damage #she's as ok as she can be given the seizures but FUCK #think I experienced the full range of human emotions tonight & I didn't even rlly have the right to pry for info bc #we haven't properly spoken in months and she owes me NOTHING but fuck if I don't want to know about the health #of someone I care about #fucking diy MENTHOLS like how unimportant!!! #but what else was I supposed to do whole I was waiting????????? but it felt so stupid and wrong #like I wanna do Something Useful but there's absolutely nothing I can do like it's not even my place to be there for moral support anymore #hey universe pls only do bad things to me I'm so fcking used to it at this point #I can't take it when they happen to other people #my thoughts