who needs sleep when i have black coffee and eye cream

!huge TW!

My finals exams/last classes are next week, so I have to eat more than I want to so that my brain still works for studying lol. I can’t wait for next week to end so that I can have three months to myself. I’m so excited to be in a starved daze all day. I’m starting to love the feeling of being dizzy and lightheaded from hunger and it kinda scares me.

TW

Wrist Check

Me fasting for two days: *stomach growls for some kind of nutrition and fillment*

Me: „I‘m probably bored and not hungry“ 🤡

Is it skinny?

ughh i miss summer already :(

I binged yesterday but I didn't gain, I mean I maybe even lost youre not supposed to weigh yourself on your period because it could add weight but like I maintained the same exact weight so I mean... wouldn't mind if this is innarcurate and im less

i fucking hate period bloat

i fucking hate period bloat

i fucking hate period bloat

to look tiny in a huge jumper...

TW BODY CHECX

Ma rips and hip bones feat the pack of cigs on the table

it’s funny how my family only says rude shit abt my weight during the time of my first and ONLY meal of the day lmao

I just wanna be skinny so I can wear basic clothes and still look “fashionable” ://

TW BODY CHECX

Ribs feat my stretch marks

Collar bones

I hate how I can't focus on my lectures

I’ve stopped counting the cals on Diet Pepsi

Like I drink sm I can’t keep track and nobody cares bout those extra 5 cals 🧍🏽‍♀️

4/21/21

Total calories eaten:941

I didn’t walk as much as I would’ve liked too today but other than that I had a pretty good day:)

22/4/21

Breakfast:

DON’T-EAT-DIARIES

Day 4

- Nespresso Coffee (Hazelino Muffin) with two sugars and 1/3 cup milk: 164 cal

Lunch:

- One cup sliced carrot: 50ish cal

- One mandarin: 53 cal

Afternoon Tea:

- Caramel Latte: 72 cal

Dinner:

- 5 raspberries: 5 cal

- 2 Spinach Rolls: 300 cal

Total: 639 cal

What an oxymoron my life is. To waste away while dying to be enough.