#this happens whenever i see something on trans ppl

[k1rishiki]

it's 2023 and i'm still bitter about how kuroshitsuji, a complex slow burn mystery manga, got absolutely massacred by its shitty semi-episodic shota/fujobait anime adaptation

#like yeah the manga could be a bit questionable in the earlier parts (cough corset scene cough comedic relief grelle + soma & agni cough) #but almost all of that got retconned once yana toboso was allowed to have more creative freedom over her work #(and her editor's interference is something we Know had a p drastic effect on the series bc it Literally Gave Us Grelle (toboso wanted to #have a female jack the ripper but her editor said that if she did then she would've had to be working w a man. so in response toboso #decided that madam red's partner in crime would be as effeminate as possible so grelle was created in the vein of buffalo bill and then #only in her next appearance a few arcs later when the book of murder arc was over and done with was she acknowledged to be a trans woman #not the best situation for girlie overall but the manga started treating her much better over time + she slayed) #but the anime was on a whole different level s1 Literally ended while teasing a kiss between a grown adult and a 12 year old #and then s2 just made up random bullshit including a brand new 14 year old to ship bait w adults #and it doesn't help that whenever the series comes up everyone in the surrounding area becomes 50x more susceptible to false info #(see: undertaker's real name being shared around on an image that's literally watermarked by a TUMBLR HEADCANONS BLOG) #so there's a p decent subset of ppl who believe it was originally meant to be a yaoi (rumor that began from the same hc blog) #or that yana toboso is a shotacon (pr.osh.ippers on twt made that one up to try and win arguments) #i want the series to get the fmab treatment w a shiny new anime made by some1 other than a-1 pictures #bc we've seen what happens when they try and adapt the arcs that came out after they committed to the random bullshit plots of s1-2 #in the form of the book of murder circus & atlantic ovas. which are excessively plain and just streamlined disconnected and heartless #renditions of the manga arcs which will make no sense to anyone who hasn't already read it. they're like ufotable's fate route ova but at #least that has higher production values and is somewhat visually interesting #romeo.txt

[ecivons]

Kiruko’s Gender Identity

Short rambles and hcs about Kiruko and their gender

Spoilers up until where the anime ends (Ibaraki Facility)

Everything below is my personal interpretation and not necessarily what the author is intending *thumbs up*

I find it interesting that no matter what lense you try to view it through, Kiruko is trans.

And before I go on, I’m gonna warn u in advance that I’ll be using he/she/they for Kiruko/Haruki no matter the interpretation because it seems like Kiruko themself doesn’t seem to care about what gender they are referred to as or outwardly seen as

For one Kiruko’s gender experience aligns w the experience of a trans man. Kiruko is a male (Haruki) stuck in a female’s (Kiriko’s) body. This interpretation is the most obvious bc Kiruko says it themself multiple times. The only reason why people might deny they’re trans is because Haruki actually gets to experience living a cis life as a boy.

And ig this is what makes it easy for ppl to accept the fact that Kiruko’s (Haruki’s) gender identity isn’t aligned with their body’s sex.

((Funniest thing about this is that I’ve seen homo/transphobic anime bros praising the brotherly bond between Kiruko and Maru whenever they have moments together that could be seen as romantic.))

My personal interpretation is that Haruki is actually a trans girl. It might be confusing to get, especially bc Kiruko tells Maru over and over again that she is a man on the inside. But to me, this seems more like something she says just because she acknowledges her original cis life and she doesn’t want to be the object of or doesn’t see herself as deserving of Maru’s affection

I interpret Kiruko as transfem because Haruki’s love and obsession with his sister could be seen as a form of gender envy, and I kinda see the feeling Haruki gets after inheriting Kiriko’s body as like,, gender euphoria even if he doesn’t realize it. ..umm ignoring the obvious implied romantic feelings Haruki has towards his sister lmfao.

It’s not an uncommon experience for trans people to want to become a person they love/admire/respect (who happens to be the opposite gender) and eventually realize that they are trans because of it.

Haruki tells Maru that he’s gotten more confused than ever about his identity. But the ending of this arc reads to me as Kiruko realizing and coming to terms with the fact that they want to let go of their past as Haruki— their old body and life, and enjoy living as they are now.. as Kiruko whether it be a girl, both or nothing at all.

#von insane ramble moment #this is just my thoughtless word vomit that I wanted to free #if anything I said seems out of touch u can lmk lol #uh yeah #ANYWAY #heavenly delusion #tengoku daimakyou #kiruko #haruki takehaya

[necrogfie]

got 1 like on my post abt it ,, so my transition plans for my different ids (that i plan to transition to) under the cut ⁓ ♪ !

first the basic easy stuff where my plan isn't long :

transweight ( to [readacted] kg ) -> lose weight

transprogrammed -> ... find someone to program me and get programmed

trans cane user -> get a cane !! and learn how to use it

others transharmed/ful ids -> try to get into a conabusive relationship to relieve my dysphoria related to those ids (can't be too descriptive)

noow the more 'complicated' stuff to transition to

trans-polish -> learn polish first obvi, learn more of polish history and culture (in a more first hand way - directly from polish ppl) and just do the general stuff u do to connect to ur lineage. and i'd like to go and experience poland for an extended period of time (when the situation get better, which will be soon i hope!)

trans-chinese -> now. i have no hope of learning chinese (mandarin) to the point of being fluent but i have hope to at least be able to have small casual conversation and be able to read basic stuff in chinese. again, learn more abt the history and culture (in this specific region !!), aaand very silly but doing douyin makeup (not ... asian fishing) ++ getting traditional chinese clothes

transgender -> uhrm yes this go there too so woo. get on T is the first goal and the easiest one, then get my tits chooped off (and like . no nipples graft bcuz reasons) and maybe get bottom surgery because having a dick could be fire but that more for when i will be like . 35 years old. also growing out my hair (yes this count as transition) very long, because 1. i wanna be a man w long hair 2. i'm shen and in source i am a cis man with long hair soo

trans-NPD -> ... lie. lie to get diagnosed w NPD. because realistically there is not way in hell i can transition for that, ill just have to lie thru my teeth and as they say, fake it until you make it, maybe i can't like trick my brain into thinking i have NPD

trans-HoH -> (disclaimer !! not encouraging anyone to do that, thats bad for you) learn LSF and destroy my hearing in my right ear by listening to music way too loud

trans-incomplete legs paralysis -> this one is one, i don't think i'll realistically be able to transition to, but this is a case where i'll have to do drastic stuff myself (which ill probably never do bcuz im a pussy) or see a professional for my BIID and try to get arrangement and like get allowed to get my legs chopped off (because i don't know how it's possible to just have incomplete paralysis be ... happening on my legs ? thru surgery ? maybe it's possible but i will have to see) but for this one i just try to ignore that my legs are working (whenever it's possible) and as i said before see a professional for my BIID and see if something can be done to transition.

#rambles 🧸 #some of those are so silly im crying TT theyr rlly simple too #++ there is a few others ids i wanna transition too but its just like ... ill act as if im this and woo (for my transsev ids)

[ftmtftm]

Hey ty for combatting that one post saying tranandrophobia isn't real. I came to tumblr on the recommendation that this was a space transmasculine ppl can actually find each other but it STILL seems swarming with radfem rhetoric on like every app I try to use. I'm so scared bc next week I have to get a pap test done at this WOMANS clinic (I have a full beard) and every time I go something happens. Nurses get scared of me and have sabatoged my papers. Gestured me to go somewhere else for genital care. Every time I go to pick up my T I have to be so careful bc my papers have been shredded to keep me from getting it. Transmasculinity is so lonely sometimes. I've been sexually harrassed by a chaser, who is a woman. I feel unsafe whenever I go outside.

So for people like us to come to websites like these to have fun and escape reality and STILL see people including trans ppl who SHOULD be understanding us completely ignoring our experiences and talking like they have spoken to any of us, seeing bad faith takes constantly about how we're all attention seeking liars (while simultaneously being invisible bc that makes sense somehow) and MRA preachers bc we want ppl to stop ignoring when trans men get hurt and talk about their pain and how we don't actually get magical privilege and how secretly everything we complain about HAS to be about a trans woman somehow to shut us down-

It makes me feel crazy. Bc I know it's real. Lots of us do. But they still keep getting so many notes from radfems and queer ppl who want to look good. It feels so hopeless sometimes. I wish everyone who reblogged that had read your addition instead. Sorry if that was long

No worries anon! Like, seriously never be worried about leaving a long ask in my inbox.

Tumblr is a really complex place when it comes to the safety of any trans person really, because Tumblr is pretty dependent on the way the user curates their dashboard (though with the app trying to force new users onto the algorithmic dash that is becoming less of a feature - which blows bc user curation part of the whole appeal of the site!) But I digress - It's absolutely really frustrating the way even the most well meaning queer people regurgitate Radfem rhetoric because they don't actually know what Radical Feminism is because the Radfem propaganda machine unfortunately works and it has had decades of time to work well.

It's also especially frustrating because it is extremely emotionally labor intensive to try and discuss these topics and so you end up with a lot of extremely burnt out, frustrated trans mascs who want to give words to their experiences but are constantly told their experiences don't matter both on and offline. Which then ends with people expressing themselves in ways that are infinitely easy to take out of context or twist in unfavorable ways. Like, there's a reason why when I'm upset about something on here - I try to talk to my girlfriend or my best friend first to gather my thoughts. It's something I know I fail at sometimes to some degrees, but ultimately I don't want to fall victim to something like that. It's why I try to talk about my experiences clinically sometimes. Show too much vulnerability online and it can and will be weaponized against you.

There is also something to be said about how the absolutely atrocious damage actual MRAs have done to feminist discussions on manhood under Patriarchy is deeply upsetting. Like I said in that post, it is actually absolutely not anti-feminist to attempt to understand the ways in which Patriarchy reinforces harmful gendered stereotypes and roles onto men, especially marginalized men. Actual MRA's have taken that discussion and twisted it into something misogynistic, but the ways in which people shut down general feminist conversations on the subject quite literally stem from Radical Feminist thought - not general feminist belief - and it's deeply upsetting that that isn't more widely recognized.

I think, ultimately, hurt people hurt people and Tumblr is an environment full of hurting people who don't know how to cope well with their own lives. Marginalized people are canaries in the coal mine of capitalistic failure and we're all suffering in some way or another. That combined with the fact that Tumblr culture rewards feeling bigger or morally superior to others creates an awful cesspool of an environment for having real discussions on marginalization.

All of that said, I really hope your appointment goes well anon. Hopefully it all goes smoothly and without complications. 💛

#asks #anon

[booksandpaperss]

some ramble-y thoughts on men's social isolation and women's safety bc this has been on my mind for a bit

I do think it's really sad how men end up feeling so isolated bc of various social expectations as well as people being cruel, but as a fem presenting person I have to say that you can't just expect women and anyone who is fem presenting to just "start being nicer". ive seen a few posts on Tumblr essentially stating that but I have to reiterate it is about safety. I literally cannot afford to stop looking at men with caution and assumed violence until I get to know them really well bc if I stop that could genuinely cost me me life. its true that most men I see probably are not predators and im sure it hurts to be perceived that way, but I have no way of being able to tell who is and isn't going to harm me. I have to assume the worst because it is the only way I can stay safe.

it sucks, it really does, for all parties involved. I have so much sympathy for the men who are genuinely kind and would never hurt me that feel isolated, it isn't fair, and I myself certainly don't enjoy the *necessary* fear that the random guy im passing on the street could see me and decide to hurt me, but this is the reality of the world. there is no easy solution, but what certainly isn't a solution is expecting women to start being kinder to men they dont know because once again: that could genuinely cost someone their life.

The best solution right now I think is to continue to try to deconstruct misogyny and gender roles, and that takes time, patience, and understanding.

I have also seen the notion on here that men feeling isolated socially is misandry, but the reality is that misandry is simply not real on a systemic scale. men feeling isolated is a direct result of the patriarchy and a side affect of misogyny. a lot of things on this website that are perceived as misandry are either not real problems or they are but they're just the impacts of misogyny and the gender roles that come with it.

But it is very surreal to be walking alone at night, clutching my pepper spray and glaring whenever a man I don't know is near me, making sure to stay next to the street and make it obvious I know exactly where I'm going and still feeling the fear that it might not be enough and something horrible could happen to me anyway, only come back to Tumblr and see people saying misandry is just as prevalent as misogyny and women need to start considering how it feels for men to be looked at like they're predators. Touch grass seems like an applicable statement here.

oh and obligatory piss on the poor tumblr disclaimer: I know I am using binary terms so before any of you get on your high horse about it, I myself am non binary. I am not actually a woman, but I certainly look like one and therefore deal with misogyny. I fully understand that trans men and genderqueers of all kinds as well as even feminine cis men also fear for their life on the street so dont even think abt getting on my ass about that. oh and if any of you try to call this a terf post consider yourself blocked with a recommendation to get a refresh on what terf actually means instead of just throwing around the term when you see any post trying to talk about misogyny :D

final disclaimer bc I wanna cover all my bases due to Tumblr reading comprehension: im aware topics like this are very nuanced with lots of layers, please dont act like im obligated to cover all that in a random Tumblr post of all things, I cannot possibly cover everything nor am I obligated to. I simply wanted to remind ppl that actual lives are at risk and fem presenting people constantly and regularly fear for their life bc I feel like that gets left out a lot in conversations like this on here. <3

#elli's random thoughts #women's safety #mens mental health #feminism #no idea what else to tag this so im just gonna throw it into the void #plus I do not want this to end up getting around to actual terf blogs ugh

[ghostfoolish]

People LOVE misinterpreting Black folk. I have a friend who's been the victim of a years long harassment campaign that has devolved into the craziest shit ever because she posted a take that was immediately misinterpreted by all the YT folk around her. Black trans woman btw, and the harassment campaign has got people convinced she's a TERF, lying about her age, secretly pretending to be trans, a kiwi farmer. Like you name it, they've said it about her. The most outlandish shit, all for being Black and daring to make a tweet. Like she literally got outed to her mother and doxxed over that stuff. The absolute abysmal treatment of Black folk on the internet is so depressing.

Oh my god I’m so sorry that happened to your friend! And yeah it is very easy for people to misrepresent what we’re saying for their own gain and clout so they can feel like they can get their chance to scold us.

For tvc fandom, I feel like a lot of them aren’t used to being in a fandom with a lot of black people in it and so they’re unfamiliar with the way black ppl in fandom approach texts. The black ppl in this fandom are very analytical and they love meta especially because we’re watching a show about racism and vampirism and how the two interact with each other. We are able to speak more on this and we are able to pull from our experience and pull from our history whenever we discuss this show and some of the white/nonblack book part of fandom do not get that some of the things they say are just flat out wrong or missing the point of what show Louis is trying to convey and the black fans have more of an understanding and more nuance with things that that book side may be confused about because this is our lived experience. They aren’t used to black people telling them to shut up when they say something racist and they’re view on what is racist is very skewed. They don’t see how saying things like “show Louis is inferior to book Louis” and then putting that in the tag for show fans to see is racist. They don’t get how annoying it is to go out into the world as a black person and then coming online only to see that. It’s frustrating and our frustration is always seen as an attack and never as an invitation to self reflect.

I’m tired so I may not be putting this in the best way but yeah 💀

#moth ask

[multifandombullshitbabes]

TOP GUN HEADCANONS: Bob Floyd edition (he's my blorbo)

Gotta honor my icon for my first post here. I love bobby, hes my bby, my son, my silly rabbit.

Let's start:

HE'S TRANS. hes a transman, but he still likes to explore his gender identity trough clothes n shit. basically, I wanna see him in a dress

hes done top surgery, 2 horizontal scars below his pecs and his nipples are heart shaped. cuz i think thats cute

hes not particularly interested in bottom surgery, but he DOES have a glorious t-dick. my son is packin ;)

i also hc him as gay, or just HEAVILY men leaning. I get the pan and bi hcs, but for some reason i see him as a man lover only

he has an insomnia disorder and autism, possibly adhd. at this point, bob will just deal with his shit raw

he has a hyper fixation on the ocean. throughout his years in the navy, he was also doing a marine investigator course, very surface (hah) level of course, but he wanted it official

bob has a scuba diving certification (he ALMOST went full ocean instead of the navy. almost)

bob's family is not his biological one. they are his childhood next door neighbors, who stepped in when his family was um. having issues. I'll make another post for that I think

im just gonna say that bob's mom sucked ASS and his dad wasnt there as much because of divorce when he was 4. he also worked for the USA government, secret service, so their time was limited

he's an only child, but Sirah, the child of his neighbor family, was always a big sister to him. She figured out bob's gender identity since very young, and always helped him make small but meaningful steps to learn n accept it himself

bob is a great cook, but he does prefer when someone else cooks for him. he thinks its very sweet

bob is a supernatural skeptic. he believes more in cryptics and aliens than ghosts n demons

bob's fav animals are cats, sharks and jellyfish

bob is also very interested in space, but more because his dad was, and they would trade facts of each others hyper fixations whenever they could

his aim is IMMACULATE, scarily so. never anger bob if theres throwable or shootable objects nearby. you will be hit

the reason bob doesnt drink with the other daggers is because he has this irrational fear that somehow theyre gonna be called for a mission, theyre all gonna be drunk including him, and for some reason he'll be needed to pilot, even tho thats not his position, n then he'll crash n die somewhere. so he never drinks to ensure hes at least sober if something happens. he knows its irrational, the fear is still there tho

bob is like a disney princess, and will charm any animals that come in contact with him. even that bear that one time. and that shark while he was drunk. he will fight spiders however, verbally

he knows how to play the guitar, but he also wants to learn the drums

bob was on puberty blockers when he was around 14 and started testosterone when he turned 17. His top surgery was his 21st birthday present

everybody growing up always said he looked like his mother, which he hates considering she sucks. it wasnt until he met his grandmother from his father side when he turned 20, when she saw him for the first time since his dads funeral at 14, that she says what shes always thought: that he was the copy paste of his dad. he cried a lot that day

bobs father is actually missing. he went on a mission he knew could be dangerous, a long awaited one, so there were a few years to prepare for that. something about radiation and handling dangerous substances. bob knows this, and they spent as much time together as they can

bob actually named himself after his dad. they are both Robert Floyd. ppl normally think its either spongebob, or the minion, or bob the builder for some reason. one person said robert pattinson from twilight specifically. bob didnt know how to feel (hes team jacob)

That will do for now. cuz its getting long. I'll add of bobs backstory cuz BOY. ITS DARK. IM SORRY IN ADVANCE

#bob floyd #robert floyd #top gun bob #top gun maverick #come get yall headcanons #top gun headcanons #robert bob floyd #hey look i posted a thing

[chaseprice]

Wrote a whole ramble to myself earlier then my app crashed and didn’t save it so im not even gonna attempt to re-write this in a comprehensible way. But I’ve been seeing posts like “im glad to see the fall of the union in my lifetime” and…. Well. it isn’t my intention to be a WellActually or contrarian leftist criticising well-meaning people on the same team all like “oh yeah??go do something then” …but i really am so pessimistic about this being the main takeaway from what’s happening

The fact that the uk government is using the never-before-used “fuck you” constitutional order to reverse Scottish bills and desires is just. simply, finally, the most physical and legal manifestation of what the uk has been treating scotland like for decades. it’s being employed because making trans peoples lives easier fundamentally conflicts with their fascist regime. abhorrent, and we knew this. and we are angry and we are assuming this finally must mean something. it must mean change will come ?? But them doing this, solidifying how they view trans ppl and their intentions for trans policy in the country, and them going mask off wrt the facade of democratised devolution by using section 35 despite how obviously repressive and dictatorially batshit that is, does not mean that everyone is as outraged as we are. and even if they were, the uk does not give a fuck. even with the decent amount of backlash we are seeing in Scotland, it will always be the uk’s mission to ignore and suppress scottish desires and needs. they will not allow this to become of international importance. they will continue to lie about the cross party support for independence and trans rights through the paternalistic propaganda they’re expertly trained in. they will continue to platform and allow the spread of the most basic transphobic rhetoric you can think of in the media and sociopolitical sphere and they will roadblock any progress in parliament. that is what they do and they won’t change that, that tory government has no desire to and that spineless labour leader has no plans to. we can’t just assume that an extreme anti-Democratic act will be the last nail in the coffin for the union, bc the truth is there is not nearly enough understanding or support for trans rights in the general public of scotland for it to mobilise in the swathes we need for change. it would be so easy for this to fade out of the british media cycle without action, becoming yet another thing we just have to accept from the uk gov, the fact they can overturn any of our laws whenever they want to.

It sucks so fuckin much. N imo proves that It’s literally imperative for the future of scotland and trans people’s well-being that we don’t shut up about this. Like we have to take this opportunity to organise for independence more than ever more. protesting, disobeying, and publicly backing indyref2. having uncomfortable conversations with friends and family, with liberal and lefty unionists. researching & supporting trans ally pro indy MSPs. without getting involved in a tangible way it’s gonna be 10x less likely and there’s just no time left for ppl to be sitting on the fence

#which ofc makes me feel even worse bc I deliberately don’t live in the UK anymore .

[vbee-miya]

helloo!!! could i get a matchup for bnha?? :0 (this is the first time im requesting something sorry if i say anything wrong msfnsnnd) im 18 (i turned 18 only some days ago lol), i use he/they pronouns (im a trans boy:]) and im gay mdmfms im an isfp and a hufflepuff if that matters!!! im v introverted and shy at first and im not someone who likes to go out because i have trouble with loud noises n too much people, but whenever i go out im the kind of person who talks too much (when im w friends) and is a literal clown, although i still cant talk with people outside my circle so other people have to often speak up for me (esp when i want to buy stuff mssmfmsmdlmao), as for my traits, ig im kind of pessimist when it comes to myself? but super optimistic when it comes to others, im also v anxious, protective towards ppl i like and very, very blunt, because i speak without thinking,,, i also daydream a lot and get distracted even more, i have a lot of energy too but i just dont show it so thats that!! as for hobbies im a writer and an artist! (daydreaming helps a lot for some reason), i like playing videogames and that stuff, and i also love researching things such as bugs (i love them but if you put a bug Infront of me i'd cry) and human behavior:], ii also have a lisp so how i speak in every single Language sounds funny,, im basically what would happen if you combined a nerd, anxiety, a clown and too much coffee (i cant even drink coffee bc of my adhd tho since it makes me very sleepy) hehebw i hope that information is good!! sorry for rambling too much again aa

༺❀༻ matchup ༺❀༻

i don't see why not, here ya go.

hop in on the adventures of tintin. 

he doesn’t mind going out to places that are quiet, or places that have little to no interaction with people. so probably like hanging around his dormitory or if given the chance when the school is on break he’d invite you to his place or if you ever offer, then you guys could hang around at your place. 

mirio to me is the type of guy who can easily warm up to people and usually knows what to say and do. i mean after all, what do you expect from someone in the big three? so even hanging out that random silence of awkwardness would cease to exist. the more you both start getting to know each other and start creating that good rapport he’d be able to talk about anything and everything. and let's say there’s a topic you love talking about that isn’t within his knowledge, then no worries he’d be more than willing to learn and listen about it. 

when you guys are outside, potentially to go out eating and or to buy things, mirio is your man, your buddy. you bet he’d be the one doing all the talking. i mean you can’t really shut him up. anyways when you guys go out to buy stuff he’d actually buy anything you’d want and that’s a fact. he’s generous. 

pessimism is natural, anyone can feel those doubts and it’s so easy seeing things negatively. especially about oneself. but as optimistic as mirio can be he’d understand where you’re coming from and rather than saying haphazardly things like “don’t think like that” “don’t say that'' he'd be more than willing to hear you out and encourage the hell out of you. because no one deserves to be thought about like that especially from us. 

your bluntness in my headcanon is something that catches him off guard sometimes, though he’d appreciate the bluntness. he’s most definitely the type to accept critical criticism or just anything about him. in terms of self-improvement. 

every time you have that burst of energy mirio would think that it’s cute. and sometimes if not most times would be highly fascinated with your daydreams and would actually give great writing ideas to write about as they’re not too complex and can be worked around rather quickly. 

there’s a funny little headcanon i have where he doesn’t mean to put a bug at your face, he just thought the stick bug was really cool and knew to some degree you’d research about them potentially. 

he’d wouldn’t even notice your lisp and would actually say that he doesn’t hear it. but till one day he really notices it and his world opened anew.

#matchup *.·:·.✧ #bnha matchup #mha headcanons #mirio x reader #mirio imagine #mirio headcanons #mirio togata #my hero academia matchup

[possessionisamyth]

Every time I see the occasional floating SU post talking about how no one understood The Point, I both get it and immediately recognize that, due to the complex hate vortex created on tumblr during its run, people have selective memory for what legitimate and illegitimate criticisms were being made for the show. Heres a short list, do not add to it:

-the racism from outside and inside the house (human zoo full of brown people, entire bismuth plotline, white people saying garnet isn't black "shes an alien" which also happened for all of her fusions, blatant silencing of black teens written of as "the discourse" whenever they made decent talking points about anything, etc)

-people crucifying rebecca sugar for drawing illicit material as a minor (something a lot of ppl who do art or likes art makes or consumes when they get really into drawing or shipping)

-people shouting "rebecca sugar is jewish! she knows what she's doing" to any criticism at all to silence other people just engaging with the show and stating things they didn't like about certain episodes

-the reveal of rose quartz, the beautiful fat character we spent all this time learning bits and pieces about, being a skinny tall girl(pink diamond) in essentially a fat suit

-homophobic and transphobic people capitalizing on the discourse tags to shout louder and louder about small things that'd go under the radar of any other show further poisoning the cesspool (dumb shit like peridot being child coded)

-how the SU crew handled advertising when they really shouldn't have been doing any marketing ( the concrete reveal and immediate backtracking) and I do blame CN for not doing more actual marketing and trying to bank on social media clout with animators who are not equiped for this

-people asking for lowered stakes when it comes to the diamonds whole schtick because of the implications, and they could predict what the showrunners would do based on previous plotlines

-people upset because during a time where we were getting a fascism free sample(drump), the imaginary fascists get a handshake and a "okay, restorative justice time" moment

-severe lack of understanding that the show was cut short due to the ruby/sapphire wedding, and the movie and sequel series was an attempt to make up for it, and i can't say whether or not this was done well because I dropped out of SU before the movie dropped

In summary, I do think Steven Universe was important. It did do a lot of things well, and it helped open more doors for other creators to do more fun gay and trans stuff in their shows including handling difficult topics. Whether those other shows handle ALL those topics well isn't something I'm going to waste my breath on. If the writing captivates me then it captivates me, and now whether or not it's good is always second to whether or not I find it fun.

My little brother and I watched SU together like we did Gravity Falls and Adventure Time, and I was able to use the metaphor of Stevonnie to explain my nonbinary status to him without any issue. However, at some point for me, I stopped finding the show fun, and I know for a lot of people sucked into the tumblr hate vortex that meant they had to equate the show as Bad.

I don't know if I'll sit myself down and watch the movie or follow up series, but this isn't because I think they're bad. I simply have gotten back into actual adult fiction books and comics, so a lot of YA or kids content haven't been hitting those same brain spots with me like they used to when I was a minor or a young 20 something trying to figure out how to be a person.

There's more I could say about how lgbt+ writing and art is held under a tighter microscope than the most milquetoast cishet content, but there's already dozens of posts floating around that explain it better than I feel like doing at this hour.

What I will say though, is if you loved SU at first and you started to hate it, like genuinely hate it, maybe take the time to figure out when the hate started, what caused that hatred, and why you hated it, especially now that you don't have every other post on your feed talking about how SU sucks yelling in your ear.

#steven universe #aris advents #oh boy i sure hope this goes under the radar so no one gets weird in the replies

[honeybeekao]

i think the entirety of niigo would be really interesting in a model au. mafuyu's whole. Deal translates really well into being a model. she's spent her entire life becoming this beautiful ideal model type that everyone around her expects her to be, only to find out that beneath the pretty face she doesn't know who she is. her mother in this au would still be the same but also like an izumi mom type. you know how izumi's parents see him as an object and show him off so that people might think they care about him but really they only care about the model side of him and not the person. yeah.

and i think mafuyu and ena can veryyy much relate to each other in that sense, but while ena has a creative outlet and a genuine passion for modeling, mafuyu has nothing.

and mizuki.. well their situation is a lot more complicated. i like to think theyre a newer model. started independent, just modeling their own clothes, but eventually got picked up by a smaller agency or something of the sort that allows people to have more creative freedom. or maybe they're really just an instagram influencer who models for small clothing companies i don't know. either way they're not out as trans obviously, which makes the stakes even higher for people finding out their secret, since it means not only losing their friends, but also their job

wake upp it's niigo hoursssss

"where ena has passion mafuyu has nothing" Ouch. she didn't want or choose to be there but she is and it's neverending . did i ever tell you i share mafuyu's birthday, so legally i have to think abt her (Also i saw trandmasc mafuyu once is that common?)

i'd assume she's seen as very professional and perfect, but what if that's because it's easy to be professional when it's all you know. doesnt ever express a "wrong emotion"

ena. Ena. i waaaanna talk about her it's such a downward spiral. maybe disguised as "improvement" and whenever she hits follower and achievement milestones they all feel like hitting rock bottom. that could be said about regular ena too but you know she'd have a modeling insta too

ghgfghgg mizuki's situation makes me waaa

the fact they can't do anything they want to without fear of people finding out their identity is just. so real yknow. in a way it's like crafting a facade of "you know exactly who i am" Just so the 'finding out' never happens. if ppl are confident they know who mizuki is—but not Enough (they run away before that happens)—then it's safe, they're secure.

hold on i need to look up kanade

shes so pretty i'd love to draw her

oh my god?? i'd never read her lore before (you didnt tell me.....uueueue) girllll it's not your faaauuult Awh.

i think maybe if her mom had been a model, maybe she took up that role as well after seeing old photos.

#project sekai #lav 🎨 #25 ji nightcord de

[brownfrogs]

i leave for a day or two and come home to the most chaos, like the tag of u begging ppl not to send u asks about piss really sums everything up here

the imagery of satya spraying cole with febreeze like hes a cat is quite fun however

buttttttt- i am here to combat the chaos with some wholesomeness

so post recall- i like to think the heroes who do return end up developing different rituals with each other

like i always adore the idea of hana investing her time in the older heroes to try and learn as much as she can. like doing target training with hanzo and respectively talking in their own native tongues. she still teases him for whatever social mess he has gotten himself into that week of course, she is mischievous by nature but holds a huge deal of respect for him too!!! she would invest a lot of time earning his respect and company and i think she would be very interested in the dragons themselves!!

i could imagine her comparing the dragons to her meka, (because she would carry that level fondness and admiration for it!!!) shes like oh theyre just like tokki!! and hanzo just deadpans like respectfully your technological contraption is not way comparable to the divinity and history held by the dragons

whilst the dragons themselves i think they would simply be amused, like hanzo desperately trying to defend their honour and they r like no no, technically she has a point, they would totally have a soft spot for her

i also think hanzo would eventually carry a similar fondness for her too!!! like the different perspective that hana can give! he knows the life they live can be tough and unforgiving and yet she still takes the next day in her stride. some part of it probably worries him as it’s an uncomfortable reminder to how playful kiriko and genji were when they were all younger and how he couldnt of stopped what had happened to them but he never /ever/ would doubt her capability. he’s not that kinda person!

it would totally help loosen him up too, like i could see him only taking part in like self enjoyment very briefly thinking it’s frivolous and time could be spent elsewhere but one night when they had originally scheduled training but maybe something comes up (honestly with all the trans headcannons the idea of hana dealing with menstrual stuff and hanzo being like oh shit yeah lets change plans is a big slay actually.)

so they sneak off of base, this is how hana learns how sneaky he can truly be and he teaches her a thing or too, and head into more central gibratlar and they go find a late night food place/arcade (hana would obviously know the best spots) and they eat the like best worst takeaway food and play games in a quiet arcade and its our favourite causal intimacy (who cheered!!! and all platonic ofc if that was not clear)

but it’s a very fond memory and hanzo is like okay maybe sometimes he does need enrichment outside of his enclosure u know haha

anyways !! short rambles but theyre so <333

- sabs !

See, thats the thing bout this blog. You’ll never know what you’re gonna get. And I think that’s kinda beautiful 🥹

BUT YEAHHH!!!! I wholly agree and enjoy the idea of all the characters interacting on day to day basis. Makes me happy. They all do their part and take turns with the grocery runs, kitchen duty, and tending to the community garden. One big misfit family :>

Hana does contribute when she’s not in her room streaming. As for the older heroes, she definitively respects a certain few like Ana and Rein haha.

With Hanzo, I think their relationship was actually pretty rocky at the start. They def butted heads a lot bc both are such leader types. Hana thought he was way too old-fashioned and overbearing while he thought she was too naive and reckless. I do love the voiceline of her putting Hanzo in his place the most.

But over time, seeing the other sides of the other helped their assumptions change. Hana begins to appreciate Hanzo’s tactical plans because it always gives her an easy escape route whenever she gets overwhelmed by enemies. He admires her vital spirit and always willing to sacrifice her mech for the team. Eventually it turns into Hanzo giving her shooting tips at the training range and Hana challenging him to spicy noodle eating competitions. I hc Hanzo is a polygot and knows Korean and Mandarin (learned it for business). Hanzo whips it out whenever he wants to motivate her or when she’s feeling homesick and can’t call her dad. Hana on the other hand can sense when he is about to ruminate and drags him to one of her streams. He backseats game the whole time, but he is just so deadpan funny, the chat adores him so she lets it slide. She even has a Hanzo unimpressed emote.

Oh yes, Hana absolutely is interested in the dragons. While she thinks the kitsune is Cute, the dragons are just way Cooler. Imagine Hanzo trying to explain all the grueling hours of training he did in order to harness the dragon’s power and control them at will, while they are just nuzzling up to a giggly Hana. He sighs. I can definitely see the dragons sunbathing on top of Tokki on a nice day 😂😂😂

Once there is that mutual respect, Hanzo wouldn’t dare to think she is in incapable at anything. Like you said, he would often be reminded of Genji’s and Kiriko’s youthfulness, so the Older Brother comes out occasionally. But she is different to them because she is so headstrong and knows who she is fighting for. And Hana always comes to him when she wants a serious, no bullshit answer because others tend to walk on eggshells with her due to her celebrity status. She counts on him to be the realist to her idealism.

YEAHHHHH, Hanzo knows what’s up and they sneak off on a hovercycle that he hotwires. Hana comments saying she didn’t know he knew how to ride one of these. While Hanzo just smirks, he has many secrets that only few are worthy of being privy to.

They eat and play at the arcade, casual platonic friendship at it’s best!!! Hana beats his ass at all the games, but he is a worthy opponent. Hanzo def is an expert at those crane games tho, and gets her the pinkest plush they have. Hana gets him those tacky orange sunglasses. It’s a warm pleasant memory for the both of them.

Also I 100% know this was one of their interactions:

Hana: are you homophobic

Hanzo: im gay…????

Hana: HES DODGING THE QUESTION

#i love them and their friendship #hana and her gay uncle #also him bringing her fancy chocolate whenever shes cramping is GOOD #mel answers asks #sabs #hana song #hanzo shimada #overwatch #trans headcanons #also hana bringing the gamer out of hanzo its just hes a completionist type #he likes to deny he didnt waste his uni weekends meticulously breeding perfect iv pokemon but he absolutely did

[driderwife]

Recently I kind of unofficially stopped talking to my therapist of like , 5 years and I’m feeling like weird and bad about it rn. The thing that happened was like, idk I just got so frustrated and didn’t wanna talk anymore. She’s a really nice person and We have a rapport bc of how long I’ve been seeing her, but at the same time there have been several things that have just been compounding over time and I couldn’t rlly take it anymore:

Last year when I brought up to her that I think I’m autistic, her response was that I couldn’t be because I have an excessive amount of a empathy. And I did explain to her that lack of empathy is not an autistic trait & that it’s a classic ableist mischaracterization, which she SEEMED to be open-minded about at the time. But consistently whenever my BF comes up in convo (he’s diagnosed with autism) she makes it a point to remind me that because he’s autistic he lacks empathy. That’s one thing that really REALLY started to grate on my nerves. It wasn’t relevant and it was factually incorrect. And I guess it hammered in that I will never be able to discuss with her the possibility of me experiencing undiagnosed autism.

Another problem is that still to this day, despite NEVER knowing me when I identified as a girl, she continues to accidentally misgender me or call me “ma’am” instead of sir. She corrects herself but like, idk why I let it go for so long? I’m VERY bad about correcting people IRL so I just let it go time and time again. I was never going by she/her pronouns when we started talking. Clearly she’s just another cis person who hears my “girl” voice and decides internally that I’m a girl.

And on a less serious note I just didn’t feel like I’ve improved at all in the 5+ years we’ve been seeing each other. It wasn’t a waste of time; I’ve learned valuable coping skills and made some important life decisions with her help. But like, I have a litany of mental illnesses that feel untreated at their core and I never feel comfortable enough to open up about them to her on a deeper level. I don’t feel like we’re dealing with anything except little IRL problems I encounter, and my general anxiety. I feel like I’m far worse off mentally than I was years ago and it makes me really unbelievably sad.

I guess all this is to say that I know I NEED a new therapist but Im terrified of the process I have to go through to get one, and get to know them. And I feel like I lost a friend in my old therapist and I’m having trouble not seeing myself as a failure for that.

The only thing I KNOW is what I need, but I have no idea where to find it: I need remote therapy available because I travel across the country several times a year and it’s just a much easier format for me because when I deal with people in person I get way too focused on masking my awkwardness and social anxiety. I also need a queer / LGBTQIA therapist because I’m genuinely tired of babystepping around cis ppls surface-level understanding of my trans experience. Having an ally as a therapist is truly not enough, I don’t want to have to explain the intricate details of what it’s like to be queer.

Sorry for rambling, I don’t wanna put too much of my private life online but it’s something I’ve been wrestling with for a couple months and I needed to write down what I was feeling. If you have any advice, a similar experience, etc, it’s very much appreciated.

#diary shit #tw therapy talk #personal

[awek-s-archived]

we keep seeing like lgbt ppl telling their stories on ro tv and my mom keeps reacting to it in real time and being real ‘supportive’ and stuff and the entire time i keep thinking about like all the times she would bite back to me about her ex bfs girlfriend being a lesbian whenever she did something she didnt agree with just in general life (being a lesbian was totally unrelated to it) or repeatedly misgendering me still 6 years after me coming out and fully living as a male (literally the only step i haven’t taken is the surgery. the ONLY step). including like. people talking about going to other countries or to islands on holiday where being lgbt is more free and celebrated (like mykonos apparently) bc they feel better even for a little time and my moms all like talking about it and reacting to it like an expert and the entire time i wanna scream and shout about it because if i bring up real time issues that are happening she’ll be like ‘that’s not true! they can’t do that!’ (about the uk making being trans more difficult) and how she didn’t react a single time to any of my suicide attempts even tho the majority of them were prompted by the fact that i know im never gonna be accepted or appreciated even within my own community. idk like it hurts me bc i know she’s trying but it’s also just 80% performative and i feel like a lot of the work ‘allies’ do is just on their own terms and their own comfort levels and at the end of the day we are just left to fend for ourselves regardless of how many people claim to be there for us and support us.

#sorry ik this is sudden but there was a drag queen on tv talking abt working on an island where a lot of #gay ppl come to be free and my mom was like 'ofc they do it feels good to be free' #and im like what would u know about that mom?????? u literally thought i wanted to be trans bc i dont like periods #like thats literally the reason cmon now.. #aweks.txt

[methcheese]

some questions after watching thor 4 tho

1. do we think that eternity has something to do with king? or he who remains? cause maybe it was just me but i really feel like that’s connected somehow and

2. korgs parents?? he mentioned in ragnarok that he had a mom and his mom had a bf but in this one he said he had two dads? logically ik it’s probably just a continuity error but i’m choosing to believe one of his dads was trans and the relationship didn’t work out

also some non-questions i forgot to add in my first post

-idk abt you guys but i’m feeling like sif/valkyrie is going to be happening whenever we see them next i think there’s potential there and also

-i’ve seen a lot of ppl say astrid is just a girls name so axl is actually trans and i love that honestly, don’t love that thor reacted the way he did but i’d like to think it was bc axl (axel??) isn’t an asgardiqn name and not bc he’s transphobic. i truly could not take it if he was bc i’ve literally got a thor related tattoo lmao

#i’m rambling again #tlat spoilers #thor spoilers #love and thunder spoilers #thor 4

[pumpkinsy0]

genderfluid curly hcs for pride month perhaps?

anon i could platonically kiss u on the forehead rn for this ask

BUT YEA LETS DO IT

•u cant rlly see it on their face cause their face is like nonchalant all the time, but it makes them happy when ppl around them use pronouns other than he/him

•mostly bc they thought they would see her differently a bad way but nope :)

•tim wouldve kicked them out of the gang if they did that anyways LMAOO

•also bc they know they said they prefer he/him but like yknow, they would like for the others to b used as well

•actually she hasnt actually come out about it to a lot of ppl, only some ppl know 1) bc of safety but also bc 2) she doesnt rlly feel like doing it?????like if they find out they find out she doesnt rlly care if anyone finds out on their own, she doesnt rlly feel like its a big thing i hope that makes sense

•he rummages through angelas closet and angela could go MONTHS without seeing her shit then put comes curly wearing it and now tim has to deal w screaming at 8am

•OHOH ik i said if u want him to b demifluid the other half of his identity is non binary but ignore that its agender now, ignore lil ole me one that one<33

•them and pony go on lil shopping dates sometimes and pony helps them pick out dresses n skirts n stuff to pick out

•pony thinks hes rlly pretty n skirts especially dresses, ESPECIALLY when he dresses up for a date or something, from start to finish hes staring at curly intensely and curly thinks its cute but also teases him about it

•bc tim wants to b a lil fucking jokester whenever they get into a small argument tim goes “keep talking back and this gonna b u” and then proceeds to whip out a pan, put water in it, turn the stove on and make curly watch the liquid evaporate, and see as curlys face is just in absolute shock, astonishment, amusement, and a lil anger that that just happened bc damn that was a good joke

•as payback when tim goes in the kitchen and get a pan to cook curly goes “try not to make love w ur partner there yea???” (i hc tim to b pansexual)

•tim has never felt so shocked in his life.

anyways happy pride month, curly has a trans flag in the mail rn cry to ya mama about it🤭

#curly shepard #ponyboy curtis #purly #angela shepard #tim shepard #the shepards #the shepard gang #the outsiders headcanons #the outsiders hcs