#this has been in my docs for ages

[ruby-static]

"Anyways, this here is where I was buried!" "...Remind me again why I keep agreeing to follow you?"

#Static screams into the void #Static plays FNV #Riley #Riley Haddock #Arcade Gannon #Arley #Fun date idea: bring him to hang out next to your undug grave! #(Though you gotta hand it to Riley- that hill has a sweet view.) #I actually have a more serious 'scene' in my head for this that I might draw/board sometime. It's been in my head for ages. #(Basically them goofing off a little in Goodsprings.) #I've got a lot of FNV stuff I need to draw/board in general but my motivation has just been. terrible. #But anyways- stopped by Goodsprings to get the dialogue with Doc Mitchell after you visit Vault 21. #Now Riley's off to pick up his weird uncle. (Raul)

[mellotronmkll]

cannot put into words how much finding out that women with autism being misdiagnosed with bpd is like a super common thing shook my entire understanding of everything I had experienced my whole life that was the real final nail in the coffin but it's crazy I somehow didn't know that until recently

#And like It Just So Happens #Anyway at this point...and now that my mother has started literally just sending me lists of all the traits that are obvious in hindsight a #things she missed and now is kicking herself I'm just like...well it's just like I'm documenting things and I really think once I just #have insurance you know . I've just been like What if I'm wrong for like a year now but to be honest #I think at this point after all the research I've done and discussions I've had it's like. There's no way bro #Like you have a multi page google doc of evidence #And like it's funny cos my mom will be sending me random texts out of the blue too like did I mention already the fact that you would #sit and study maps for hours as a kid and if anyone interrupted you you had a meltdown and I'm like well #But its like these texts constantly all day #And im like tbh you're going through the same realization process I went through but now you're also telling me things I forgot or didn't #even know that are just blasting any. Doubt of the water #But I think she feels guilty also that she never noticed and im just like shrug I don't know like #there's just many many many such cases so like #But its very helpful I was so scared to tell her about it for so long but apparently she'd been already wondering for ages too so like #And now she's also just like This makes so much sense it just makes everything make sense and I'm like see. That's what I'm thinking too

[darlingofdots]

I should probably not be laughing this hard

#dottie rambles #google docs grammar check has been wild #i haven't used gdocs in ages #my writing #poor emily discovers her breakfast has been replaced with a terrorist

[theygender]

The more I think about it the more I really feel like the recently coined term mesosex might fit me and it's been shared by several intersex education/advocacy blogs I follow now so I know there's support for the term but I'm still like. Scared I would be Intruding™ on intersex issues if I started using it. Like I mean. I'm an afab & (afaik) perisex person with a reproductive disorder that's likely caused by a (non-intersex) hormone imbalance which I'm now essentially having to take feminizing HRT to fix, and as a result I'm now growing tits and undergoing female-pattern fat redistribution at the age of 25 after years of having little to no secondary sex characteristics. I've always identified with intersex issues but now that I'm essentially having to undergo HRT to make my body match my asab that connection to intersex issues feels even stronger. And like that's what the term is for. But my anxiety is still like "but what if you're intruding tho" lol 🙃

#rambling #for the curious the specific disorder is endometriosis and recent research has shown that endo is most likely linked to #estrogen dominance which is where either your body makes too much estrogen OR not enough other hormones (progesterone & testosterone) #and given that the only thing that has helped me at all has been going on full progestin-only treatments #and the fact that everything ive researched about estrogen dominance and low progesterone matches up with my symptoms #it definitely seems like low/no progesterone is the issue for me #(although the docs didnt test my levels beforehand and now i cant get them tested unless i want to go off treatments 🥲) #and like. this progestin treatment has changed my fucking life. legitimately #like it didnt just stop my (pretty severe) endo it also fixed like. all of my physical health issues. stuff i didnt even know was related #dont wanna get off topic talking about my other health issues but. going on progestin has easily been the best health thing to happen to me #but it also feels so fucking weird to be going through the same type of changes that like transfems go through on hrt essentially #as an afab perisex person. its not a bad weird but like its just a strange phenomenon and it would be nice to put words to it i guess? #like im a person who has lived the last 10+ years disabled by a reproductive disorder that prevented my body from developing 'normally' #and now im going through feminizing hrt at the age of 25 to fix my reproductive disorder #thats not exactly like. the normal perisex afab experience lol. but at the same time my specific reproductive disorder and hormone imbalance #dont classify me as intersex (no hyperandrogenism just some mix of too much estrogen/not enough progesterone or testosterone #typical anatomy (afaik) aside from the uterine abnormalities resulting from endometriosis) #and its just. such a weird position to be in. i share a lot of common ground with intersex issues but im not intersex myself #and the whole purpose of mesosex was to create a word for people who arent quite either. 'people who identify with but not as intersex' #and i think that describes me. but also like.... do i count?? 😭 #tmi #request to tag

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[lesbiradshaw]

you think you’re fine and then BOOM suddenly you’re 30k deep into writing a saltburn prequel about felix catton’s First homoerotic friendship that no one asked for

#actually me and suzy discussed the premise in depth so it is FOR THEM! but also for me because i enjoy living in his head #writing other stuff too but 30k in less than a month is a Lot for me after starting my job #top gun ​christmas fic is still sitting at around 17k… my google docs has not been this full in ages #carolcore

[spaceless-vacuum]

imagining a story where you save one of the yandere!triforce members. You think nothing about it at the time, it was just something to be done for a traveler in need. Very quickly they learn that you had no idea how they were and the way you brush off the interaction is odd. You rush in, defeat the monsters, and then ask for nothing in return. Just going back to your day. They try to figure out what happened in your perspective or if there's anything more you were trying to convey.

Nope! Just the reader doing their good deed for the day and then moving on with their life.

However the one you saved has different ideas.

(this is especially more interesting with a hylian!reader who saved Ganon. You spend some time with him not knowing who he is for whatever reason. Maybe you genuinely start to think of him as nice only to be hit by the realization of who he is and what's going on once he reveals he plans on kidnapping you.)

#eye ramble #ill write for this later #i swear #i know i always say this but this idea has been in my head for ages #just sitting in my google docs staring at me in the eyes #yandere link x reader #yandere zelda x reader #yandere ganon x reader #yandere legend of zelda

[gaylittleguys]

hey actually what was up with the artemis fowl series suddenly pivoting to make the grown adult woman a love interest for the teenage boy. like I’ve blocked everything after the first 4 books from my mind bc I hate them for many reasons but like. genuinely what the fuck.

#made worse I think by the new movie making Holly a child as well I think #(I don’t know I didn’t watch it and I’ll never watch it out of spite) #artemis fowl was one of The most influential book series for me personally I loved them dearly #(again. only the first 4 tho) #I HATED 5. it’s the only one I do not own. bc I disliked it that much. #but seriously pivoting the relationship between a literal child and a grown adult woman to be even kind of romantic is weird right #i knowwwww in the book where they kissed she’d been time bullshitty aged back down to a teenager too but like. my god #sorry I’ve had these grievances for nearly a decade now #anyway. I doubt anybody cares about this series lmao #also I must say I’m a niche butch Holly/transfem Trouble t4t lesbian truther it needs to be said #(i am the only correct person about artemis fowl thanks) #.doc #actually I must continue. I loved holly that was a real blow to her character. also no adaption has ever done her right. #theyve always made her too feminine. she’s got SHORT SHORT hair and brown skin and a hooked nose and literally nobody ever depicts her as s

[returnsandreturns]

“I’m trying not to ask you about your sex life,” May says, staring at Foggy intently over her glass of wine, “but your boyfriend’s a whole fucking deal and it’s difficult.”

Sometimes, when Matt and Peter are both involved in some highkey worrying crime fighting shenanigans, they'll hang out and drink and watch whatever version of The Bachelor is currently happening. She's beautiful and sane and wise and one of Foggy's favorite people.

"What do you want to know?" Foggy asks, laughing.

May takes a significant drink before putting her wine on the coffee table before turning to sit cross-legged and facing him on the couch, staring at him for another long moment before she asks, "Are the horns involved?"

"No," Foggy says, shaking his head. "There's nothing less sexy to me than the horns."

"Huh, okay," she says, softly. "But, like--there's a level of kink there, right? The leather? The religious imagery? It feels kinky and you're so seemingly normal--I mean, not that kinkiness is, like, inherently abnormal, I've been there, I've got handcuffs, but--like the level of kinkiness that might lead one to being the kind of person that Matt is does not mesh with my impression of you, my friend."

". . .you know, you can just ask which of us is dominant," Foggy says, warmly.

"I know it's more complex than that," she says, nodding firmly, "but I'll take it."

"Just between us?"

"Obviously," May says. "The only person we have in common is my nephew who literally jumped out of a window when I tried to have a sex talk with him--before the spider shit."

"Okay, I'll just say that Matt. . .needs a little. . .discipline," Foggy says. "Due to being--what did you call him?"

"A whole fucking deal," May says, gravely.

"Right," Foggy says. "It's therapeutic, really."

"For both of you?"

"Being able to tie the man I love to a bed, when that man has a tendency to run off into imminent danger, is. . .pretty solid, yeah," he says, smiling. "Did that satisfy your curiosity?"

"Not remotely," she says, smiling back, "but we've still got half a bottle of wine so let's see where the night goes, kid."

#mattfoggy #my fic #daredevil #that first sentence has been sitting in a google doc for ages

[crewofthegoldrush]

but could we meet by the first of july

Rating: T / PG-13

Campaign Setting: Eberron / Around Khovaire in Fifty Days

Summary:

'It's not as bad as it looks.'

'Really, cause it looks pretty bad.' Monty was a bit surprised she had even answered. Her soulmate had been quiet for quite some time now. 'My MOM even stopped me to ask if you were okay.'

A few beats go by. 'And did she also notice the hickeys all over your neck the other day?'

[lord I've been prayin', for somebody I've never seen]

-

[content warning for various injury related scars]

i told myself I would never write a soulmate au, like i just never wanted to go there y’know, but the tried and true "you share the same markings on your skin as your soulmate" works perfectly with aberrant marks and I couldn't put it down. We've never exactly dwelled on how our aberrant character feels about being so, so I wanted to take a shot at it going in the angsty route. Eberron created a really complex yet so very marginalized group of people, and I wanted to dig a bit into how unfair the world is for them.

not as many pc & npc cameos in this one, I tried a different style that's more serious & vague than usual - but apparently I've decided demetrius is my comic relief

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #eberron #d&d #dnd fics #soulmate au #changeling #dragonborn #why yes i did i need to write the closet scene so that what everyone thought would happen did #idk who'll notice but if youre sharp eyed you might notice Gentry and Rascal's ages dont match up #with when i said they met Monty as kids #yeaaa thats bc i already wrote Gentry's little cameo *before* i #finalized their ages. which gives you an idea of how long this has been in my docs lmao #so…I almost never address ages bc I don't actually know how old Aubrey is #she was noted as 'mid thirties' so i inch along with the assumption that shes about 35 or 36 #since dragonborn come of age at 15 [to a humans 18] #I basically headcanon that Monty being 3 years younger than Aubrey puts them at the same age 'in human years' bc dragonborn age faster #basically theyre both at the same point for their lifespan and that's all that really matters #fun fact Monty was originally like 25ish in session 0&1 #so is this the part where i admit this is the clean version or #montbrey

[stobinesque]

I would like sentences from S4 Fix-it: Lucas POV

Lucas s4 fix-it! In which the thing we are fixing is the Duffers' oblique racism! (and some other things, don't worry). Thank you for the ask!

Lucas jogs over to the Beemer, grinning at Steve as he runs up to it. It's been a couple weeks since he's seen him. Steve tries to show up for all of their home games—mostly for Robin, probably—but he can't always make it if he winds up with a closing shift.  "What's up, Steve?"  "You looking forward to the game tonight?" "Yeah, yeah, it's going to be really exciting watching everyone else play for an hour and a half." A part of him would rather be at Hellfire tonight. Not because he doesn't like being on the basketball team, or that he thinks being at the championship isn't important. It's just…at least with the Party he knows he has a place there, and he knows he can be helpful to his team. All sitting on the bench does is show his loyalty to the team. But he'll still get all of that another night, and for today he just needs to show the Tigers that he knows how to sit pretty and cheer them on. "Hey, you never know when you're going to be called in as a Hail Mary." "I think if it hasn't happened once all season it's pretty safe to say it won't happen tonight." "Well I'll be cheering you on whether you come off the bench or not." "Thanks, Steve."

Help me write!

#wip wednesday #read writes #lucas my beloved #lucas sinclair #this one has basically been in cold storage for ages #opening that doc was like returning to a battlefield #semiotics 'verse

[firestormmaidenanddragon]

I should probably make a bio page for Edward at some point if I do intend to fully revive him for RWBY.

#he'd be the first character to get a bio page in ages #partly with how WoA/mythril has been my focus #and how bios for characters there have been on the google doc for it

[becca-alexa]

i understand the technological gap between generations but at what point does that gap just turn into incompetence

#becca.txt #i don't mind fixing presentations and documents and PDFs for my coworkers i really don't it's not what they hired me for but i do not mind #but it's another thing entirely for you to give me the ugliest piece of shit i've ever seen and just expect me to make it presentable #especially when making this shit is YOUR job which you were HIRED for and which you were doing BEFORE i got here #how is any of this acceptable #and why are you hinging YOUR job security on whether you can get ME to fix your shit #your incompetence is not my problem #in this day and age if you've been working (at my job) for X years and you can't align a fucking PPT deck i'm sorry that's on you #my coworker had to be walked through changing fucking FONT COLOR on a word doc #and this is her JOB #i'm sorry i am just getting fed up with it #and she comes to me about how the manager is picking on her for her shoddy work and one of these days i'm going to snap #and just tell her yeah our manager's right this looks like shit you've been doing this for ten years and this is just not it #there is no reason for someone who's been here as long as you have to be producing this quality of work #and i don't want to be rude but it's just what it is #and she keeps trying to blame her executive dysfunction and how she has adhd and whatever else #like bitch so do i but you don't see me trying to pass off garbage and hoping nobody says anything #everybody at the company has been coddling this woman because she is a literal sugar cube of a lady and they all love her #and at the core of it it she isn't half bad at what she was hired for - which is GIVING training presentations #but lady the other half of that job description is MAKING the goddamn presentations #but our manager's new and he's having none of it and it's upsetting her so she's coming to me #and i don't know what to say about it anymore i am sick of it #pls ignore i am upset

[ocean-in-my-rebel-soul]

Personal musings (positive) in the tags

Cw: reflection on past suicide attempt, but in a good way; super privilege

#things are better in your 30s! #I'm looking back on the last couple years and seeing some definite changes in myself #pondering it all bc of the aging post () i shared recently #last july - two months before my 30th - i tried to forcefully exorcise by hand my ghosts that had been haunting me #but then i got help #i was admitted to the mental health ward for a week until i was no longer in/a danger #i got set up with a couselor and a psychiatrist to do meds and therapy #i had doctors who diagnosed a couple underlying conditions that affected my mental health in big ways #i has a team of docs who could come together and share notes and document my hurts and pains and turn that into something they could do #i was so very privileged to have that experience #i was so privileged to have insurance that covered things so I didn’t have to worry so much about the cost #(which i was fully braced for because I'm not/wasn't used to insurance being worthwhile #) #but it did and i could get help and after I got my head straight i was able to grow #therapy and meds weren't always perfect but i was lucky enough to have a team that listened to me #and that saved my life #i turned thirty still worried that I hadnt done anything meaningful with my life #and same when i turned 31 #but #but. #i survived. in a very real way. i made it through that year #and it didn't kill me #i will make it through the new year if it kills me too

[castiel-kline]

(^‿^)_/🌹

(me handing you the flower)

thank you!! here’s a piece of the cas&kelly late-s12-adventures fic I will post eventually. maybe. hopefully.

“I can lift far more than even the strongest of humans. I could lift this whole house if I had to,” Cas grumbled, and if Kelly didn’t know better she’d think he was whining.

“I’m sure,” she said dryly. “But for today let’s just focus on not getting lost in IKEA, okay?”

#thanks for asking! #this fic has been in my google docs for ages and I still haven’t finished it… oops?