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quinnylouhughesx43 · 18 hours

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Peter

based off of Taylor Swift’s song from The Tortured Poets Department

warning: a bit sad, longing for ex-lover, use of y/n

Ethan Edwards x fem!Reader

summary: Ethan and reader childhood friends —> lovers —> break up —> reader heartbreakingly waiting for his return.

author’s note: the photos are intended to tell the story them growing up. the last last picture are two quotes from the book “better than the movies” by Lynn Painter. (can be found on Amazon, books a million, barnes & noble, etc. links were too long to post)

Ethan and (y/n)’s older childhood friends always joked the two would fall in love one day. It was always a big laugh between the two of you because what business do 8 year olds have thinking about love?

In a blink of an eye you’re dancing at your end of the year eighth grade formal together, your heart has never reacted the way it was at that specific moment. Confused and a bit scared you kept your head staring at the floor while your hands were firmly placed on Ethan’s shoulders. His hands placed awkwardly on your waist. He cleared throat and paused both of your movements. “Hey (y/n)? Can I do something and you promise you not get mad if you don’t like it? We can just forget about it after if it’s weird.” His words were rushed and hands shaking. Your eyes connected with his, a slight nod yes to confirm you were okay with whatever it was he was asking for. As if the world moved in slow motion and no one else was in the school’s lobby, where the formal was happening but the two of you, Ethan ducked his head down just the few inches he needed to in order to give a quick kiss.

The first kiss for both of you.

Awkward, yet not weird for either of you. The beginning of what turned into a long beautiful journey. Until it wasn’t beautiful.

꧁꧂

“(Y/N) I am so tired of this repetitive argument. It happens over and over. I got accepted to Michigan and I got a scholarship for hockey. Their program is notorious for building up their athletes and getting them drafted. Drafted! You’ve known since we were kids that the NHL is what I wanted for myself.” Ethan tried to keep himself composed until he couldn’t. His desire, compassion, and dedication to chasing his dream often overshadowed his love and dedication to you. His childish mannerisms peaking through. “I just want to know where I fit into this plan? This future of yours.” You tried to keep your voice strong and unwavering but just like each time before the lump in your throat prevented you from even being able to breathe properly.

He sat down on the edge of your bed. Quiet minutes passed before he finally spoke again. “Maybe there isn’t an us in the future..” His words are so quiet you aren’t sure if you heard him correctly. “E?” You whimpered. Tears streaming one after the other. He didn’t look at you right away. Knowing if he did his resolve would shatter.

Taking a deep breath, starting over. Looking at you after a couple minutes had passed by and leaning over to wipe your cheeks dry. “I know this is going to be hard to hear. It’s killing me to even say it. It killed me to even think about it recently. I’m going to be gone for a long time for school. I won’t be returning home. My parents will be coming there over the holidays. It will be easier with training. I can’t ask you to sit here while you’re going to school yourself and be tied to me. Especially when we will never see each other. Neither of us have the money for traveling to and from. I’ve been so physically sick thinking about leaving you. We’ve only argued since I decided but honey this is what’s best for me and my dreams. I’m sorry I’m being so selfish but I can’t pass this up. If I stay here I take a chance at never having an opportunity at the NHL at least I know I’ll have an opportunity there.” Your tears stopped at some point. Sadness turned to numbness. Lost to the words he was saying.

“(Y/N/N). I can go and grow up while I’m gone. Get drafted. Or not. Then I’ll come find you if you’re still single. . We can live our dreams then. I just can’t ask you to sit here and be miserably alone.” Pressing a quick kiss to your forehead he left your house. That was the last thing he said to you in person. You didn’t see him again before he left. He tried but you declined. Not wanting to hurt anymore than you already were.

꧁꧂

You just watched Ethan’s NHL debut with the New Jersey Devil two weeks ago. Pride swelled in your heart for him but heartbreak also overtook you. He never came back for you. You’re both 24 now, he could’ve come back after college since he was drafted pre-degree but he never did. Since ‘goodbye for now’ turned into ‘goodbye’ you sat down at your desk and started writing him a letter. You were going to mail it to his mom’s house. She can mail it to him.

Dear Ethan,

I hoped you'd return with your feet on the ground, tell me all that you'd learned because love is never lost when perspective is earned and you said you would come and get me, but we were only 17. My shelf life on the fantasies has expired. Please forgive me, Ethan, I really tried to hold on to the days you were mine. But the young girl turned into a woman who sits by her window has turned out the light.

You said you were going to grow up and you were going to come find me. Promises that were oceans deep, but never to keep.

Sincerely,

(Y/N)

Little did you know he was back in town at his parents’ house and received the letter himself. He was there to see you. He was back for you now that he was settled and could care for you both properly. But he was too late. You had shut the door on him. You stopped supporting him quietly. Stopped following the scores of the games and watching. . Ethan played the rest of the season terribly, not having his number fan, supporter there. It didn’t matter if he knew or not that she was always cheering him on. It just solidified for him, he no longer had his rock. His reason for being. That he fucked up all those years ago. That he no longer had a reason for what he thought was his dream. His dream was really your dreams. He wanted the future you wanted with him and now he will never have it all because of his selfishness back at 17.

#ethan edwards #umich hockey #umich fic #umich imagine #y/n #ethan edwards x reader #ethan edwards x y/n #Ethan Edwards fic #Ethan Edwards blurb #hockey fic #hockey blurb #cay writes #cays masterlist #nhl #new writers on tumblr #new jersey devils #nj devils #nj devils fic #hockey

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darkmacademia · 1 year

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even more things that help me survive being alive part 3! (pt. 1/2)

eat directly out of the cooking pot or after putting food directly into tupperware after cooking so you don't have to wash more dishes. and if you have leftovers you can just put the tupperware in the fridge

putting several plastic bags at the bottom of your trash can/waste bin so you can just take out a new one when the trash gets full. this helps me a lot in my bedroom and bathroom where the plastic bag hoard™ is too far away

keeping one of those transparent cold drink takeaway cups from a cafe and using that to drink my homemade coffee out of, just to make it feel like I've been somewhere

having a daily calendar that allows me to visually block out time for different tasks as my time-estimation is awful, and I think showering will take two hours

keeping a magnetic whiteboard on my fridge door that I write new grocery food items on so I know what I have to eat. no more rotting food bc you forgot it existed

a stock of passable quality readymade frozen meals, or frozen dumplings etc for when you want to eat but there are too many steps for even basic cooking

a personal one that I just kinda like - having a daily diary but not for complete sentences or fancy writing just very drily outlining what I did during the day. this creates smash hits such as "went to the store today. cried. watched encanto. cried again"

having a list of everything I could feasibly do on a day/hour off. includes all my hobbies, exercises or outdoor activities, language learning, friends (yes a list of your friends to remind u they exist), stuff I haven't had time for, to-read/to-watch lists. otherwise I forget what's out there!

#adhd #adhd tips #mental health #self care #life tips #t #darkmacademia #wow this one has been sitting in my drafts since like two years ago #sorry guys it turns out the brain problems these tips were meant to help made posting this impossible

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anggeese · 5 months

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but please don't bite

#xiaoven #xiao #venti #genshin impact #genshin xiao #genshin venti #tw: suggestive #this has been in my drafts for a really long time lol #like a year or two ago #anyway live laugh love xvn #art tag

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freensrcha · 2 years

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angry pat appreciation

#akaksjksjkdh i've had this in my drafts for over a month now #by the time i'm actually posting this it's been two months i think #idek why i never posted this #pat napat #ohm pawat #bad buddy #usernuria #userbillkin #ninisdarlings #111gif #really feels like the brainrot has hit an all time high these days #is it cause the 1 year anniversary is near by #thanqueue

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unohanadaydreams · 2 months

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Notes: Draft excavation is going well, if you can't tell. Hope you enjoy being a shiny new bunch of pixels for some blorbos.

WOULD THEY PULL FOR YOU IN A GACHA GAME:

Izuru Kira:

Yes. Absolutely. He’s been waiting for you to join the pool since the moment your model leaked. He joined the fanfiction contest to win your merch (and loses). The rush of joy from hearing your voice line when he pulls you brings tears to his eyes and he absolutely ignores how concerning that is.

Akon:

He will and he’ll shamelessy whale. He’s too busy to farm currency and it’s not like he’s strapped for cash. 100% he’s working on a VR model of you as soon as you’re announced. You’re always on the team no matter how useless you are on a given mission or level because he loves a challenge.

Shuhei Hisagi:

He blames the fuck out of Izuru and Akon for getting him addicted to the game—and worse, excited about a bunch of pixels. But he is, so excited. He joins the fanfiction contest for you (and wins). And he sacrifices half a week of lunches to pull you. Your phone charm is proudly displayed. He is wrangled into even more debt to Urahara for the merch conversion.

Rangiku Matsumoto:

She saw Shuhei’s phone charm, thought it was really cute, and loves the idea of a phone game to pass the time during all the time passing she does on the clock. She gets you on her first pull and shows Shuhei. “Look, it’s just like your cute little phone charm!” Her rng luck is so insane that both Shuhei and Izuru have her pull for them (it doesn’t rub off).

Nanao Ise:

Although she very much did not appreciate Rangiku downloading a game on her phone, she did give it a chance. In secret. Facing away from any windows. She doesn’t care much for the gacha aspect, but finds the game play passable. She diligently does her dailies & events and that’s it. It’s alright stress relief. You go unpulled.

Shunsui Kyoraku:

Shunsui easily finds his way into Nanao’s phone and discovers your game sitting right next to a shogi app. He downloads it and is delighted by all the characters! He doesn’t understand how to play but skids through the tutorial. He pulls for you, fails, and doesn’t understand how to pay for currency. He does take a screenshot of you and ask Nanao ‘Let me borrow them from you!’ He barely escapes alive.

Harribel Tier:

Shunsui flaunts your game around in their monthly Peace meeting and she demands an upgraded soul phone. Much like Shunsui, she doesn’t understand the game. But she wants to pull for you. Her three adjuchas bicker endlessly over small print until they figure out how to pull and the most effective way to pull in consideration to chance percentages. She treats you like a tamagotchi (that needs no care and doesn’t die).

#this has been sitting in the drafts for two years and idk why like its just a silly little hc post #*softly touches post* im sorry i left you to rot be released into the wild and inflict cringe upon the bleach fandom masses my child #I think Harribel wins in terms of 'who is using the game in the most fun way'#makes her adjuchas do all the game aspects and just looks at pixels like 'ah. my little pet is doing well today.' and then is done lmao

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xiiiwayfinders · 4 months

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Organization XIII as Christmas songs

Xemnas- The First Noel

Xigbar- You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch

Xaldin- Last Christmas

Vexen- White Christmas

Lexaeus- Carol Of The Bells just playing on repeat for like 5 hours

Zexion- Do You Hear What I Hear

Saix- Yule Shoot Your Eye Out (by Fall Out Boy)

Axel- Blue Christmas

Demyx- Jingle Bell Rock

Luxord- Holly Jolly Christmas

Marluxia- I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus

Larxene- Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer

Roxas- Underneath the Tree

Xion- I'll Be Home For Christmas

#idk what this is #i originally had marluxia as grown up Christmas list. but that was more lauriam #some of these i had no idea lmao #this has been in my drafts for like years #like actually almost two years 💀#kingdom hearts #christmas #organization xiii #i don't feel like tagging them all

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wormy-worm · 18 days

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ok u know what maybe if the world isn't ready for sunrazer post that means that the world IS ready for Amoveous siblings post. This is Milo and Enho and theyre my DARLINGS and i love them SO MUCH. i have. SOOOOOOOO many thoughts abt them but after the previous post massacre i do not really feel like typing all of that xoxo love <3

#THESE DRAWINGS HAVE BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LOL #meart #original character #robot oc #ily enho ily milo my darlings my angels my loves my funny robot guys.#ive posted abt Andromeda on here b4 if u remember her Enho is her best friend !!!!!#Enhos a battle robot who doesnt want 2 fight people..#hes the oldest sibling and theres a lot resting on their shoulders!#shes supposed to be this big metal protector but U.U she just wants to hide in his room.. and make music for the internet..#him and andy have this whole arc abt like. autonomy and identity and junk #being as andy is a government experiment who was raised to be a superhero who. has not yet realized that she HATES being a superhero lol #Enho inspires her!#milo um. does his own thing. he was the second amoveous bot and he is lucky to have been built without the responsibility of a battle bot #which means hes a LOT weaker. doesnt have a million weapons and lasers and such like enho does. no one expects much of him. he HATES IT!!!!#he wants to be POWERFUL! he wants to HURT PEOPLE!! he wants to be USEFUL!!! hes ANGRY ALL THE TIME #its EXSAUSTING.#yk that tinkerbell thing thats like. cuz shes so small she can only feel one emotion at once. and its so big it consumes her entirely?#hes that. he lives entirely in extremes. everything is 100% for him #he jumps to conclusions so quick and so violently.. hes incredibly impulsive and it gets him into a lot of trouble.#hes also a total NERD!!! GOOB!!! says mlady unironically. likes bad computer games. wears a stupid tie everyday. cartoonishly schemes 24/7 #enho for the record is also a pretty angry person. they just dont rlly express it. they dont express much of anything lol.#shes semiverbal on a talkative day. he can be REALLY REALLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE THO. THAT MF CAN BE SO PETTY. GOOFY ASS #but shes TERRIFIED she'll lose control of her emotions and her body and that shell hurt someone someday. absolutely terrified.#enho is as afraid of his strength as milo is of his weakness. theyre both two ends of the same extremes in a lot of ways.#polar opposites and yet exactly the same. they resent each other a lot. they need to learn to meet each other in the middle.#anyway ''i dont feel like typing all that'' and then i ramble in the tags for ten million years lol ToT I LOVE THESE GUYS #theyre my oldest ocs in this universe and i have so many thoughts if you have any questions feel free to ask me lol

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castielsupernatural · 1 year

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bonesnatural girlies let's talk sometime about how

dean and booth both have the most insane perception of masculinity and overreact about it in the fucking funniest ways

#i’m just so obsessed with their gender performances…… they’re both so WEIRD about it #this has been in my drafts for like close to two years #pulling out this fine vintage in response to brooke’s post <3

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katherineplumbers · 9 months

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julia's favorite lyrics: carousel

you'll still hear me say that the best dream i know is you.

#carousel #broadwayedit #musicaltheatreedit #carouseledit #jessie mueller #joshua henry #broadwaydaily #this has been in my drafts for like two years lol #thought i might as well post it #carousel is my problematic fave but you cannot deny the score is full of bangers #tumblr ruined the quality but we just push through #musicallyricsedit #my edit

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weskerfied · 7 months

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Ada and Annette’s interaction is so underrated. I love them. They sound like two high school mean girls from rival friendship groups, or whatever the equivalent is in the resident evil universe.

#this has been sitting in my drafts FOR OVER TWO YEARS #I need to play re2r again soon #it’s probably my fave of all the remakes #I don’t include 1 because that’s more a remaster #although I still have to finish my professional playthrough on 4r and separate ways first #fuck it maybe I’ll take a break from that #anyways #weskerfied try not to ramble in the tags challenge #annette birkin #ada wong #resident evil 2 remake #resident evil 2 #Annette has the biggest mean girl vibes #“I’m warning you doctor” “oh yeah?” *proceeds to light a body on fire #she’s like come on Ada why don’t you fuck around and find out #they both just rile each other up and I love it #even if it’s a tiny segment of the game and they converse like 3 times #I just love their interaction UGH #I genuinely can’t think of a better comparison than two popular girls who hate each other lmao #and Leon is just the kid who seems to be involved in all the drama unwillingly #william is the weird kid who does questionable shit and everyone is lowkey scared of him #tag yourself I’m Will #hmmm thinking about a high school au now

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idkwhatimdoingbutslay · 1 year

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Club dancing scenes in caitvi fics are so interesting to me because what do you mean CAITLYN KIRAMMAN and VI (KIRAMMAN) are white girl dancing and grinding on each other 😭😭😭😭

I actually refuse to believe that either of these two have any sense of rhythm

#Vi Fortnite dancing tho does kind of prove me wrong #this has been in my drafts since last year September and I still agree #stole this picture from DBLUE on YouTube 🤧#arcane #caitvi #vi arcane #vi #caitlyn kiramman #caitlyn arcane #caitlyn #violyn #piltover’s finest #piltover's gayest #they can pull a mean two step tho don’t get me wrong #and Cait for sure suffered through slow dance classes and can definitely twirl a girl around #they just don’t seem like ‘just feel the music’ kinda people ykwim ?

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vicompte-de-latarteaucoing · 6 months

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Some of my favourite villains from ''Les aventures de Blake et Mortimer'' ...but a handful of years younger 😅 because why not ?

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killemwithkawaii · 12 days

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Why didn't anybody tell me that, upon the stroke of midnight on my 30th birthday, I would suddenly be struck with the irresistible compulsion to completely refurnish my bedroom???

#k.e.w.k. overshares #*turns 30* ...MY FURNATURE CAN NO LONGER BE PLASTIC #I CRAVE THE FEEL OF WOOD AND STEEL #(and also scented candles... SO MANY fucking scented candles...)#so yeah if anybody has been wondering where I've been for the last week and a half (?) the answer is:#obsessively refreshing the 'free stuff' page of craigslist #scouring thrift stores and garage sales #and prowling the streets of local neighborhoods in hopes of snatching up spring cleaning freebies #PSA: It is the time of year that rich people yeet perfectly good shit on the street #keep them peepers peeled and GO GET YOU SOME SCRATCH N DENT TREASURES FAM YOU (AND ME) DESERVE IT 👀✨#I already got a book shelf some little knicknack shelves to go on top of the book shelf two cube shelf things and some shoe racks #for like $25 + cost of gas ✌ UwU 🏆#and now im off to hunt down a dresser because I am an Adulty Adult Man possessed 🤷‍♂️#Edit to my own unpublished draft: DRESSER AQUIRED (SHES DIRTY AND COVERED IN STICKERS BUT SHES MINE AND SHES BEAUTIFUL QWQ ✨)

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raiiny-bay · 2 months

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