#this has caused much frustration

[ohello0]

SAG-AFTRA you dumb bitch

There was cross industry solidarity for actors for MONTHS only for gaming and voice acting to get thrown under the bus with ai shit. This is gonna fuck over so many people who will be underpaid to “touch up” something ai did or not paid or consulted at all

#fran drescher im on your mf head #so fucking frustrating #I’m hoping it’s the kind of ai that helped make across the spider verse #and not the kind that makes a thing that then has to be completely remade by an actual person reviewing it cause the ai is ass #I don’t have much faith it’s the former on account of how other things regarding ai have turned out #sag aftra #all my homies hate ai

[fma-03lric]

Sometimes I think about how Ed must struggle w shit that requires more fine motor skills. Like basic things that able bodied people don't think twice about. We know Ed can't write with his automail hand. Flesh is so useful for getting traction on items. There's give to flesh, so you can pinch and hold things without worrying it'll slip between your fingers.

I imagine Roy's team becomes much more aware of the difficulties of having prosthetics through littler instances. Maybe somebody in the office asks for a pen when Ed's flesh hand is preoccupied with whatever. He reaches to pick it up with the metal hand and it just kinda skitters around. So he just keeps chasing it so he can pass it over already but he can't get a grasp on it. It becomes an elongated and frustrating affair and he's committed this long to getting the damn thing so he isn't gonna switch hands despite the stares he feels.

And by the time he gets a grip he's so pissed he fucks up the pressure control, clenches too hard, and the pen breaks and ink stains his glove and the surface below it. He gets that horrible wash of embarrassment for being unable to do what most anyone else could no problem. To think about things like this, when Ed is so incredibly capable and competent, is really interesting to me.

Compiling it on top of all his insecurity and self hatred I imagine he gets sick with anger when something of that nature occurs. Especially in front of people he feels compelled to prove himself to.

#edward elric #fma fmab #fma 03 #fullmetal alchemist #i have many many thoughts abt how ed would adjust to automail and the new frustrations he'd have with a body that betrays his command #you can only have so much patience and ed has very little on a good day #can't smack the offending limb for being dumb cause bro wouldn't feel it anyway

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

#my stuff #i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks #like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy #hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month? #can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control #can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me? #and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone #so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks #im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better #i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up #cause i can see that happening #i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something #and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends. #and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you #i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once. #and that's not me. that's not who I want to be. #i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.

[holographic-mars]

mars. mars i need you to hold my hand and imagine a world where ravage survives the dotl arc and is taken to sanctuary where soundwave and cosmos help nurse her back to health and she is reunited with the other cassettes. mars i need you to see the vision w/ me. mars 🖐

GRABS YOUR HAND HOLDS YOUR HAND SO TIGHTLY OOUHHH MY FUCKIBG GODDDDDD IM LISTENING. IM LISTENING

Soundwave brood is in chaos bc holy shit everyone thought she had DIED. like Soundwave felt it happen and everyone had mourned her death but then. They get a comm from the Lost Light saying she’s okay and Soundwave immediately demands her back with him. In a I will hunt you down myself if you don’t give her back to me NOW kinda way. And the lost light is like yes ma’am sorry ma’am (when they get to the Station Megatron tries to speak to Soundwave but for his own safety he is forced to stay far far away from everything. Soundwave can’t even look at him right now it’s too much too soon).

ANYWAYS. Ravage is still very critical and not great but she’s alive! Soundwave is naturally a huge overprotective mess and during the first few weeks (months? Idk) of Ravage’s recovery she stays unconscious and Soundwave will not leave her side. When ravage eventually wakes up, she’s in pain and frustrated but waking up to see Soundwave (her soundwave! She hadn’t seen him in so long she almost thought it wasn’t real) gave her so much relief she didn’t even realize she needed. The reunion is emotional and messy and there’s a lot that needs to be said but for now it’s okay to just be held and revel in the fact that Ravage is alive.

Cosmos comes in full clutch as the universe’s best nursing assistant and makes sure that Ravage is healing properly and getting the medical help she needs. No amount of snide comments and grumpy remarks from Ravage can stop him from monitoring her and making sure she has the medication she needs to heal.

Ravage gets around the clock care with the help of Soundwave and Cosmos. They become Ravage’s primary caregivers and they work together to make sure she heals properly and can get back to her old self.

She needs physical therapy to get her limbs all working again. She hates it. Soundwave and Cosmos are both endlessly patient with her, though, and it’s almost embarrassing.

The reunion with the rest of the cassettes is emotional and Rumble and Frenzy actually cry really loud. THATS embarrassing. The avians perch on her gently and preen her around her collar and midsection to make sure everything looks fine.

Ravage develops a deep appreciation for cosmos. Nothing Ravage could say or do could make Cosmos give up on taking care of her. It’s strange and gives Ravage an odd sense of comfort whenever he’s around.

UHHHH ANYWAYS. MY BRAIN. MY BRAIN IS INFECTED. HELP

#RRGGHH #DROPPED EVERYTHING TO ANSSWER THIS ASK #OUHH OUHHHHH LORD #TAKE CARE OF HER…. NURSE HER BACK TO HEALTHHH #ravage seems like the kinda mech to get very frustrated and mean when she’s hurt and has to heal from something #like she feels helpless and angry and she takes it out on others cause she doesn’t like that she can’t defend herself and she needs help #cosmos is like. it’s okay I know you’re angry and Ravage is like I will bite you really hard #RGHGJNC #sickness… #holds your hand #you infect my brain so much #transformers #soundwave #ravage #coswave

[foxgloveinspace]

Ahhh. Sleep token gets so much hate cause the fandom is full of women and queers (affectionate I am said queer), I get it now.

#very much so #sleep token #when I break containment and see sleep token content on instagram it’s always men who are whiny baby’s #honestly tho it’s the age old ‘women/girls can’t like anything’ they see us enjoying sleep token and they are like ‘you can’t do that #you only like them cause they are popular now’ or ‘they are real metal’ (as if they.. claim to be just metal) or ‘ghost was here and doing #it first’ as if?? sleep token is even as popular as Ghost?? #like Ghost has Nine Million (almost 10 mil) monthly listeners. and #and Sleep Token is still climbing their way to 3 mil. #for some reason you can’t see followers on anything except apparently on like the PlayStation app cause that’s where I saw Sleep Token has #only roughly 500k followers on Spotify. idk how many ghost has #on Amazon Music it’s Sleep Token has 11k+ and Ghost has 96k+ #like. that’s a good way to judge how popular something is cause there’s not that many people using it it’s definitely the not as popular #service out of the big music streamers. #anyway. I under stand why it’s happening but that doesn’t make it not frustrating tbh #I accidentally called myself a women I meant us as in women and queers.

[dirtytransmasc]

after all the times Rhaenyra lied through teeth, she never got any better at it.

#props to #emma d'arcy #cause her acting is phenomenal when it comes to making Rhaenyra flounder whenever she lies #lukewarm feelings on Rhaenyra Targaryen #anti rhaenyra targaryen #(putting this here for my own safety and well being) #its just so frustrating to see her do literally anything to cover her lies #from murder. maiming. faking ones death. seeking to torture her own little brother. etc. etc. #yet she can't lie to anyone worth a damn #not once has anyone not seen past her lies #like girly... if you and your children's lives depend on you keeping your card house of lies standing #get better at lying #hotd #house of the dragon #rewatching hotd is hell cause every time I do so I notice more and more bones to pick #like the first time theres just so much to absorb you miss a lot of it #but the more you watch it #the more you notice #the more you want to rip your hair out

[blaithnne]

so I’m realising my intense anxiety for Hilda’s third season to come out is PROBABLY an autism thing

#like. it’s been 2 years of it being the same #the fandoms been in the same place and the show has too #and now it’s gonna change and it is giving me so much anxiety #when the special interest is so intense that you feel physically ill at the thought of new content because it’s just so overwhelming #<- that’s not my usual exaggerated ‘I’m so unwell’ thing either like I have layed awake at night feeling #sick LMAO #bc of s3 #which is so frustrating because I’m excited! I love this show! I want more! #but because it’s so important to me. new content is going to have a big effect on me #and I don’t want it too cries #does that make sense? no? sick #it’s either an autism thing or there’s just something wrong with me either way I’d like this feeling to go away please it isn’t fun #hilda #textpost #it’s like I just want it to come out already so I can watch it and know what’s happening cause I hate not knowing what’s going on #i need to have. my information organised #and rn I don’t #and that makes me rlly anxious lolz #like I’m anxious for season 3 in a good excited way #but also in a geniunley bad way #I wish my brain was. normal lo #l #this got more venty than I meant it to sorryblads #might delete later #I’m sad hilda is ending bc it’s over and I don’t want it to be but #also it’s weirdly comforting to know that I don’t have to go through this intense anxiety again #cause I don’t get like this with other fandoms! dr who for example I’m living new content #but for Hilda I geniunkey feel unwell #it’s the same with the idea of there ever being new ducktales content #I care so much that it’s. bad for me lol??

[todayisafridaynight]

hi me again, coming off of anon because I’m unwell about the funny leg man: Aki actually says he’d kill for Kiryu in 6 though I wouldn’t be surprised if he would say that as well for him in 4 or 5. Homie would do ANYTHING for him and all he gets in return is the shit socked out of him in a nursery, see his boss intro in 6. I still believe Kiryu was full of shit for hitting him like a random ass thug like THATS YOUR FRIEND ISNT IT? Or maybe it isn’t. Aki’s not in Kiryu’s Soul Friends cinematic for Baka Darou but a bunch of random mfs he met in Hawaii are. Idk maybe Akiyama’s admiration was only ever one-sided… fucked up…. I imagine Aki’s already got problems with people leaving him but the fact that the guy he saw as his hero and his friend just up and leaves for almost a decade is just. Man. Man…

nooo youre right tho i think the quote i was thinkin of was from 6- i cant shake the feeling he says something similar in one of the previous entries too its been a while but POINT IS the problem with kiryu's relationships is that they all often do feel really one-sided: majima, akiyama, and daigo are all people that greatly look up to or admire kiryu and often express so, yet he doesn't reciprocate those sentiments in any equivocal way.

whether its cause he feels like he'll burden their lives by being more active in them I Dont Know but at this point it shouldve been clear to kiryu that his friends are letting him know all of that trouble's worth to be by his side, so i think thats what makes it particularly upsetting with the likes of akiyama who are distraught to find out kiryu doesnt reciprocate his friendship to the same degree

#snap chats #like im p sure date's the only person kiryu's actually cozy with but even then sometimes it feels like he tries to distance himself #not to make this about kiryu but i just think about him and how he handles relationships ..... #like i get why he does it and i understand his mentality 100% and i think that's what's really frustrating #cause For Me its not Why Are You Like This it's more so Im Sorry Youre Like This i guess #im sorry youve had a life that leads you to believe these things about yourself #but once other people get involved and they actively express how much they care for kiryu and he still distances himself.. #LIKE I GET THAT HE HAS TO IN REGARDS TO THE DAIDOJI AND WHATNOT but still ... #i just. im just a hamster running on a wheel

[dummerjan]

anxiety has been building up over the past couple days and it feels like it's winding itself evermore tighter around me and immobilizing me or as if i were a coil that's being stretched to its maximum capacity and about to snap i've been feeling paralyzed ever since i woke up my mind keeps circling back to things i said or did months ago but it's not just social interactions it's a general feeling of anxiety a shower hasn't helped i've tried physically shaking it off i keep making weird noises to drown out my thoughts but nothing is helping and i am this close to tears

#argh but angrily hitting the keys typing this out has helped a teeny tiny bit at least #i wanted to meet up with a friend for her lunch break in an hour and that would likely do me good because she's just nice to be around #interactions with her don't cause me anxiety and she'll likely just tell me about the guy she started dating recently #and while i won't have anything insightful to say that i can just let her talk #but my hair is still wet and i haven't eating and i am starting to feel shaky and there is so much to be done around the flat #i don't feel like i'll be ready to actually go out #i just want to scream and cry out of sheer frustration #the almost crying isn't because i am sad i am just so... idk wound tight and i can't take it anymore #i feel like i am losing my mind and i don't know what to do with myself #i just don't know where it is coming from and why now #maybe a lobotomy? #meins

[junotter]

sometimes researching for avatar redesigns has you 6 layers deep into the Japan's Meiji era allies wiki

#im trying to mess with some of the stuff that feels weird about the ways the fire nation is depicted idk #like i do not feel optically it is good for like them to be so heavily based on japan's imperialist actions #while dressed in clothes that come from places japan colonized #but i dont want it to just be solely japanese though i did draw zuko and azula in hakama but its largely cause i wanted to draw hakama #and like the only place with strong japanese influence being kiyoshi island and my own frustration with the modern day samurai depiction #i think fundamentally it isnt a choice that had as much thought as i am putting in put into it but it does raise an eyebrow for me #anyway i think keeping the thai influence is fine despite the brief invasion japan had into thailand due to thailand then allying with japa #and further allying with the axis due to allying with japan #ugh and ive been told not to think this much about it because its fiction but its also fiction so so so heavily based on real places #and when you base fiction on real cultures you fall into some unintentional pitfalls #i also fucking hate the royal fire nation robes they look so meh and the most costumey out of everything in the show #they look like heavy blankets despite being a supposedly hot nation #theres ways to have heavy robes (heian era japan) but they look like i make them out of fleece and velvet blankets #back to kiyoshi island i think the really only aesthetically japanese reference in the show being an island of noble warriors is lame #plus over done #it feels like nowadays theres a lot of people who get all whiney about people saying fire nation is based off japan #but like dude the creators in the comics and korra like go even more into the japanese influence and clearly it was the original intentions #also i do think you could do some pretty interesting world building by having say there be an older cultural influence on kiyoshi island #from the fire nation especially if the place is established as a central port area then you tie in some okinawan or even hawaiian reference #and gives an explanation that makes sense to why kiyoshi stands out from the rest of the earth kingdom you have long term cultural trading #and it establishes interesting relationships even pre kiyoshi time thereby drawing back onto some real historic references #cause for awhile ryukyu china and japan used to be this trading triangle which could explain some of these various influences going on #i think you can get a really interesting harmony when you create the fire nation out of a mix of japan and thailand #i mean both have these floating buildings due to living on some pretty wet lands and theres harmony in that mix #god i did see one person go like “fire nation is more based on china because theres a lot of red and red is important in china” #my brother in christ red is also important in japan #red is important in like many many asian cultures #i mean of course a lot of that importance stems from china and cultural exchange with china but idk kinda silly to say with your whole ches #like if you want to bring china in then the dragons are the biggest thing like sure some mythos has dragons in japan #but a lot of those comes from china in some way

[soldier-poet-king]

Like yes tokenism is Bad and does not count as queer rep, having a character on some mainstream primetime tv show be 'the gay one' is not progressive, having contestants on reality tv be 'the gay one' is not progressive, but also maybe it can still do some basic good in some cases.

My mother, a 50 something white Catholic housewife, was saying yesterday at the dinner table how disappointed she was that her fave team got eliminated from this season of the amazing race canada, and she said - in front of my kid brother even! - that the team had been a pair of drag queens. (Yes she did fall into the sassy black queer person trope in explaining this, but y'know, we're taking baby steps with her). And this isn't even the first time she's said smthn mildly positive about queer ppl! The gay intern from the later seasons of grey's anatomy? One of her favourites. Hallmark is even putting out terrible bland movies with generic white gay people instead of generic white straight people, and since she's seen every hallmark movie to ever exist, she's seen those ones too.

So. Idk where I was going with this. She still wouldn't say this stuff at the dinner table if my father were there at the time. But, I'm just. Hopeful? Yes it's (imo) terrible tv for middle aged moms, and often it's mediocre tokenism, but maybe that's a starting point and maybe it can still be a good thing. (It's not like someone like my mother is going to go start watching indie arthouse films or reading weird uncomfortable novels. If this gets her to reach out of her very insular bubble, I'm happy).

#franposting #idk just been. thinking. #its also just weird. for me personally. #to have my mother who caused me so much trauma as a child and teen #who still frustrates me and causes so much discord in our house bc of my father #to have the person who damaged me so deeply thru her own hurt and trauma and unwellness #to have her be the most normal and kind hearted of my adult relatives? #its disconcerting. and tbh it hurts a bit #i feel like eleanor from the good place. where was this mother when i was a child. when I needed her? #on the other hand. i got along well with my father as a teen #and now im like. ready to kill. #like sure we still get along ish #but hes becoming more reactionary and im becoming less tolerant of his unkind thoughts #not even just politically. somtimes he just says stuff and its like. HELLO?? #i know hes suffering too tho. idk. they both are #i just get the impression that my mother has worked on herself a lot more since i was a teen than he has #perhaps thats unfair of me. idk anyones true soul or heart #thats just my impression. #but yeah tldr i almost wept thinking about it #it is not even like. the bare minimum. but im out here starved for crumbs. so if my mother likes the drag queens on tv then good for her #anyway my family life continues to get weirder and somehow more and less painful at the same time #i desperately want to move out but also. i am saving SOOOO much money #i could in theory pay off my student loans entirely in only 1 more year #everything is complicated and it hurts #but maybe i have a little..hope. too. #not that i am ever leaving my glass closet but yknow. still. general compassion #my father on the other hand. more conservative. more trad. more anti union. work bffs with an opus dei military man #just. less kind in his speech in general. judging coworkers and acquaintances (not EVen on moral religiois stuff. just IN GENERAL) #also like. the casual low grade misogyny and racism.

[clubpenguinkiller]

in hindsight i kind of opened the gates to having the notes of that post piss me off. But fucking come on man can you read? it says adhd. Not autism. how do you people even function properly without making everything you do and say about yourselves.

#p #god forbid your favorite character has another disorder than the one you like cause you think its trendy #even if it doesnt have any grounds while the other disorder has so much proof #this is coming from a chick who probably is audhd not just adhd! #its so fucking frustrating !

[wavebiders]

I think we would all get along a lot better if everyone could just accept that "queerplatonic relationships are important rep and shouldn't be diminished" and "romantic relationships between women are often written off as friendships and it's ok for wlw to not feel drawn to that interpretation" are two statements that can and should coexist

#like yeah i understand it sucks if you really want it to be queerplatonic that the fandom as a whole has very much jumped to romance #but at the same time its also nice that for once the f/f ship is this popular #and its not like there havent been any specifically romantic suggestions about it at the table either #i get that queerplatonic rep is important i get that #but i know when i see those at this point bi-weekly post urging people to consider it could be platonic i do get frustrated #cause while i know objectively that isnt whats being said it feels a whole lot like being gal palled does in straighter spaces #(also feels bad when people put all the queerplatonic focus them when cr has several special platonic m/f bonds but thats another post) #but at the same time that doesnt warrant hostility towards people that dont see it as a romance #these people are queer too and deserve rep too and regardless sending hate is never ok #just #maybe everyone stop trying to push your view on others and just wait it out #and block people whose takes upset or annoy you thats much more civil than picking a fight #critical role #cr3 #imodna

[imogenkol]

— WIP WEDNESDAY

tagged by @inafieldofdaisies and @socially-awkward-skeleton to post a wip! Thank you!!

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I’ve been slowly chiseling away at my wips through my COVID haze, so have some drama I’ve been cooking up:

Luthen waved his hand and turned on his heel. “Take a walk with me, Bix.”

“What’s going on?” she asked warily as she fell into step beside him.

“I figured you should hear it from me before word spreads around.” He took in a deep breath that straightened his spine, but refused to look at the mechanic. “The mission was successful, but Imogen won’t be coming back. She… Well, she achieved the redemption she sought. The rebellion will benefit from her sacrifice.”

It took a moment for Bix to fully understand. Her steps faltered as her heart plummeted, her blood running so abruptly cold that everything around her swayed for a terrifying moment. “How do you know she’s…?” 

Luthen halted as well, it seemed his gaze shifted to anywhere other than Bix. “Her ship was shot down before it breached the atmosphere.”

“And you sent someone to search the wreckage?”

A steely, unreadable expression landed on Bix and stayed there for what felt like eternity, locking her in place and forcing her to hear his next words. Luthen shook his head resolutely and said “No need. I saw it myself, no one could have survived that explosion.”

Bix narrowed her eyes. Luthen’s tone sounded far too tense with an edge sharp enough to cut the air between them. She realized a warning lay buried beneath his facade. He did not want her to pry any further. Just like that, all of the pieces fell into place and she saw right through him. “I know what this is.” 

“And what is this?”

“It was you,” Bix accused, heat flaring up her neck as her fists clenched. “You’ve been waiting for a reason to cut Imogen loose and she gave it to you when she killed Gorst. I didn’t think you were stupid enough to waste an asset like her, but I guess that makes me a fool, too.”

Luthen remained still, much like Imogen did whenever Bix to put her on the spot. “Don’t presume to think you understand anything.”

The mechanic advanced aggressively. A huge part of her wanted nothing more than to take a swing at him. To grab him by the shoulders and shake him and make him regret what he took from her. But Bix still struggled to make sense of this loss. She didn’t want to believe it. She couldn’t. “She can help us win this war.”

“She would have helped us lose it!” he shouted. Suddenly it felt like Luthen grew a foot taller, bearing down on Bix as if she were a child. “Someone with her kind of power and her darkness can never be controlled. It can be channeled, yes, but only briefly. That couldn’t have been done without you, but it was just a matter of time before we were all swept up in her destructive wake as well. I did you a favor, Bix. She would have grown bored of this life. She would have grown bored of you.”

Bix leaned in close. Her eyes burned and her voice shook as much as the rest of her, but she didn’t care. “You have no idea how wrong you are. I’m going to find her. If she’s alive, I won’t stop whatever retribution she has planned for you. And if she really is dead…” her chest seized painfully at the prospect, but she did not waver. “Then you’ll have me to deal with.”

#my writing #oc insp: imogen kol #ship insp: if i had a heart #been obsessed with Luthen/Imogen lately #cause I think they are very similar and very different and would conspire against each other because of it lmao #and also obsessed with Bix insisting there’s so much more to Imogen because she’s SEEN it but no one else has #she would be so frustrated cause she also sees the effort that Imogen makes and how difficult it is for her #but she’s TRYING and not many people care to give her a chance

[orbees]

We all fall into our own traps

#virtual memories #this has been my recurring thought for the past two months #the ways we sabotage ourselves the way as much as the world fucks us we fuck ourselves #and by we i mean me. cause i do this so hard and its so frustrating #theres sm i can do i just have to DO ITTTT #its so hard though. its scary. but still we must. while also being patient with the parts of that are scared #BUT STILL WE MUSTTTTT AAAAGBFHFBG

[myownpainintheass]

I love little miau miaus as much as the next person, but damnnnnn these emotionally constipated men need to put on some pants

#like bro #make an effort #i love them a lot but there is always a moment they start reminding me of my granfather #and it reminds me that every unhappy/resented/violent man started out as a little miau miau #(read: a person full of frustration pain and resentment that is going through shit and has no tools to cope/a victim of Things in any way) #sometimes getting better and improving one's life/situation is an act of love more for those who surround us (present and future) #than ourselves #AND ourselves of course #I will fight to be satisfied with my life and enjoy it as much as i can so that i will never become bitter and resentful #go to therapy guys #and be grateful for what you have #(why was this originally about kaz brekker lmao) #it is a gamechanger to notice you are not a victim #cause victims have no control #and we do #even if its just over our actions and perspectives