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the-cutie-kitsune · 7 years

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Story time: Mun’s Origin Story

So I’ve noticed a few people I follow sharing their stories of abuse and neglect and I thought I’d go more into detail about mine. Normally, because it tends to be very long, I only give the bare minimum of what happened to me. I know there are many who just see me as some horrible bitch on the internet and I could honestly care less, I’ve dealt with scarier shit then some loser internet bullies.

So to start, for those who have seen my little space blog you may have read that my little age is 7-8. There is in fact a reason for that. Those were my last years of peace before shit hit the fan. When I was old enough for middle school I went to a place I call “Hell school”. The kids there were probably some of the worst I’ve ever met to date. I was 95lbs all through middle school and kids still called me “fat” and things like “Big nose” “apocalypse” they'd run from me like I was a disease screaming that I was gonna kill everyone. Now if that wasn’t bad enough there was an anime group I associated with for a while. This was probably the biggest group of elitist cunt’s I’d ever met and to this day the few I’ve seen fairly recently are still total bitches. The “Leader” of said group would beat me up and hit me with her text books. Like every single one of them were trash and still are in my books.

My mother died in 2006, 7th grade. Guess what? Kids bullied me for that too! Because even the death of a parent was not off limits for this scum pool of worthless idiots. Some of them, admittedly, did get better with age and ended up apologizing to me later in life. But the main starter of it all got pregnant freshman year and dropped out of high school. Karma is a bitch ain’t it? Dad remarried to my step mother who was great! At first anyway.

High school was better for the first few years. I met a few cool people in the anime club. Until he graduated and left me with more anime elitist bitches. Remember those girls who pathetically stalk me like they have no life and bully me all the time? I affectionately call them Trasha and Crabitha? Yeah, that's when they came in. Their whole group was super cliquey and I apparently didn’t fit in so they booted me out. High school is also where I met the people I consider my real family. My brother Eko, my sister Dis, and my other sibling Marco. They are, to this day, the closest people to me.

After my dad died in 2009, the summer leading into my junior year, my now legally adoptive mother kinda lost all her sanity. She started drinking a bottle a wine a night, lashing out at me every two steps I made. Constantly threatening to throw me out at every little turn. Like this bitch to this day still thinks she’s done nothing wrong and this is after 11 years of mental abuse. She’d call me a whore for just wearing eyeliner and tell me I should work the corner for wearing even a half inch heel. In the summer when I would wear shorts and a tank top she’d tell me I was gonna get rapped and that she wouldn't be surprised. You tell me, would you say those things to a kid? Because she’d say I was a mentally sick child who shouldn't have a job yet she’d say those things to what is in her mind, a child. Oh but if there was paperwork I needed to do suddenly I was an adult and needed to figure it out. My doctors told me that with the problems I do have I needed to do XYZ(Not gonna go into it) and when I told her she basically said “Those doctors are idiots don't do XYZ it's not normal” so basically she cared more about looking normal then my health. She threatened to kick me out for getting a job, and forced me to ride my bike to work. When I tried to go to collage she made me ride my bike 30 mins to the bus stop and if I had a class at night after the buses stopped running she’d say “I’m not gonna help you get home but if you aren’t here by 10 ‘Im fucking throwing you out”

One time, after the hoe got remarried to a guy for his money, the guy nearly hits me, grabs my head and rips the wig off my head saying “Get the fuck out!” and when I came in crying to her about it she said “You were being a bitch” no remorse. No worry, just a cold bitch who doesn’t care about anyone or anything. She wouldn’t feed me, and said I wasn’t allowed to eat without her permission, I had to either sneak out at night or eat from the trash. And yes, I’VE EATEN FROM THE FUCKING TRASH. I became severely underweight. I literally have almost died or tried to kill myself more times then I can count.

Finally, about 8 months ago now, I got some friends (now ex friends) to move me out and get me out of this situation. Only to have those people be mentally abusive idiots as well and me needing to leave, again. My girlfriend and good friend Xaxa got me out that time. I stayed in a hotel for a small but while me and my Girlfriend got shit together. My payee at the time (because I get disability) turned out to be a fraud and a scam and left me on the street with no money and no lifeline so I changed my payee to my girlfriend and the former Payee refused to give her my funds and basically ran off with 25,000$ of my saved funds. For PSA purposes this pay is is Edwina Donaldson from DnL representative payee services, she's a liar and a thief and I’m not her first victim DO NOT TRUST HER.

After all that BULLLLSHIT I ended up moving in with Xaxa and his wife and now I rent a room from them and help them with their newborn son.

So when you people try to bitch at me and fuck with me, just read this, and realize what a loser you are compared to the real shit I’ve been through. Forget coping with my parents deaths I’ve barely had time to think about more than surviving.

This has been my life from 7 to now. Not including my step mother's, mother who constantly told me I was going to hell and that I was a whore because I’m a Polyamorous, Pagan, practicing witch. And then I get shit from other stupid people for being ddlg because for some reason someone who is clg or cglre who happens to be in a romantic relationship with her caregiver even though they are two consenting adults is apparently pedo and abuse. Why yes, the people who say this ARE Fucking idiots with no education and have probably never left their room because they don’t have lives outside being SJW who don’t actually do anything besides bully people online. Yes, they ARE pathetic. And yes, even I get angry and the fucking idiots of the world from time to time.

This ended up sounding a lot more angry than I meant it to be but at this point, all my fucks have flown. Behold my field and lo’ it is barren of fucks. All the fucks that I give have died.

But, now at least I’ve gotten it out.

#personal #fight me bitches

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