#this is a wall of text but who cares

[hallwyeoo]

Ellie’s memory of the golfing scene and what it tells us about her.

🚨spoilers for tlou2🚨

I think Ellie’s flashback to Joel’s death is very telling of how she internalized the event and the meaning she applied to his death. It’s also a good demonstration of her relationship to autonomy. Let’s break down the elements that were inconsistent with the actual event:

The stairs/hallway are much longer than they were. This suggests a sense of helplessness, an inability to get there fast enough. Joel is constantly out of reach.

There is blood on the floor outside of the door. Not entirely certain on this one but my hunch is that she blames herself for not seeing more obvious signs of violence/not knowing something was wrong sooner.

The door is locked, another roadblock in her path to Joel. She can’t access him, she can’t help, he needs her and she isn’t there.

Most importantly. Joel yells “Ellie, help me” (which he didn’t in the actual scene, he just screams. He doesn’t say a word in the actual scene)

Ellie hearing Joel scream for her help, calling for her while being horribly beaten, and her being repeatedly impeded on her way to him suggests that what she took away from his death is that she wasn’t enough. They always helped each other, always had each others backs, always got up. Ellie views his death as a failure. She was too slow, too weak, not smart enough to save him. She failed him when he needed her most. She is absolutely helpless to save him, just like she was helpless to save Riley, Tess, Sam, and Jessie (and Marlene, and humanity, and and and-).

Once again, Ellie makes a decision (staying with Riley, going to the fireflies, staying with Joel, being the cure, trying to forgive Joel) and once again her autonomy and ability to find closure is ripped from her.

This is the inciting incident of tlou pt2, this is the moment where Ellie’s whole world shatters the same way Joel’s did at the start of pt1. Ellie enters into the same cycle (which I like to call the “Joel cycle” because… yeah.) that he did, and throughout pt2 she stays in the “20 years later” phase of the cycle. She is changed, she has lost her light, lost what she fought for. She lost her chance to genuinely forgive Joel and rebuild their relationship. She is stuck in a gruelling and violent world that she has no anchor in, at least not anymore. His death is so sudden and so incredibly violent that it practically gave her (and me as well, tbh) whiplash. She’s in a state of total shock.

On another devastating note, this is one of the three times in tlou that we see Ellie beg (that I remember). The first is begging Joel to get up at the university of Eastern Colorado, the second is begging him to get up and for Abby to stop, and the third is begging Abby to not kill Dina because she’s pregnant. (Two times she begs Joel to get up, one time he doesn’t. Two times she begs Abby to spare her family and one time she does. What a beautifully haunting contrast)

To wrap up, every person creates an internal narrative, a story of their life that is crafted from their context and lived experiences. The meaning we derive from those experiences doesn’t always reflect the truth, and that can sometimes bite us in the ass majorly when we experience a traumatic event. We tend to want to find someone or something to assign blame to, some reason or rationale to why it happened. We tell stories. We write them in our minds about ourselves and what happens to us and what that says about us.

But Ellie is wrong. Joel’s death happened in response to a conscious and willing choice he made. It is in no way her fault, and there was absolutely no way for her to know or to stop what was happening. I think Ellie knows that much on an intellectual level, It just doesn’t change how devastated she is over the whole event. It can’t change the fact that she FEELS as though this was all her fault, that Joel did what he did to save her, that she could have saved him. That she should have.

#this isn’t a new thought #like I’m p much just stating what happened in the game #this is not some super deep meta analysis of tlou #it’s just. #Ellie’s relationship to autonomy is so so so good #ellie the last of us #joel the last of us #ellie williams #joel miller #tlou series #tlou show #tlou1 #tlou spoilers #tlou analysis #I have SO MANY drafts that are like. walls of text #we’re talking Great Wall of China long #tlou2 #marlene the last of us #marlene tlou #basically what I said in previous posts about how ellie picked up Joel’s stoic attitude and emotional constipation. #ellie’s screams lolol. my heart breaking in real time. #joel goes golfing HD!!! #the way her voice breaks as she begs… OWIE #Neil druckmann needs to pay for my therapy fr!! #I edited this because it had some… really bad grammatical errors #syntax??? what’s that???? #anyway normally I don’t put much thought or effort into my actual wording of Tumblr posts #because like maybe 10 people will see it. who cares. #but this one is one I actually care a bit about and this whole thing could be written about in so much more depth. #so I went in and tried to clean it up a bit and added some thoughts.

[seriousbrat]

imo it's not so hard to accept that SWM takes place after the prank. I mean it is canon so too bad but it makes complete sense to me. there's no evidence the prank was some big life-altering character development moment for any of the characters involved and that they all learnt their various lessons. in fact we see that they don't. in SWM the marauders are clearly still tormenting Sev. In Sev's conversation with Lily post-prank he's still just as obsessed with the marauders and exposing their secrets as ever, if not more. he doesn't consider what lily's saying at all because he's too focused on his hatred towards them.

my hc is that sirius (rather masterfully) used reverse psychology on sev to get him to go down the willow. Sev isn't stupid, he wouldn't have let himself willingly be led into a trap by his worst enemies. I think Sirius probably "let it slip" and then "backtracked" and acted like Snape wouldn't be brave enough to go down there anyway and that he should just forget it. I doubt Sirius directly told him to go down the willow, I think cleverly he told him not to, knowing that Sev would do so anyway (not that this makes a difference ethically bc his intent is still clear, but anyway. this isn't about who is morally better because idgaf honestly lol, I'm just trying to work through their mindsets)

the marauders received no real consequences for the prank, so why would they learn their lesson? Objectively you can't really punish someone for telling someone not to do something if they do it anyway. Not particularly fair, but still. Which brings me to Sev's responsibility in the matter (which yes, does exist imo) we're shown that he was obsessed with finding out what the marauders were up to and particularly obsessed with Remus's secret. Yes, this is understandable given how they treated him, but absolutely not healthy and he still chose to go down there, whether out of pride, greed, curiousity, vindictiveness. He obv was manipulated but there's a reason he was so easily manipulated. As I said previously, his obsession with revenge is what causes him to be blind to lily's feelings.

James rescuing him wasn't some moment of epiphany about how bullying is bad actually. It was just a fundamental part of James's character already. He would never have let him die regardless of how he felt about him.

All of this makes SWM the PEAK moment of hatred between Sev and the Marauders, which explains a lot of their responses. Sirius and James hate Sev more than ever for trying to expose Remus. Sev, justifiably, hates them more than ever for trying to kill him (and he ropes James into this, which is incorrect but understandable in his position)

James "deflating his head" probably wasn't just based on one event in particular. He just grew up and learned what was more important- being a good person, fighting against voldemort. But Sev also had growing up to do of his own during this time. As I talked about in in this post yesterday I think post-swm Sev was beginning to realise that his lack of control over his emotional responses (calling lily a mudblood out of humiliation, for example) was dangerous both to lily and to himself.

Yeah they still hated each other and attacked each other in seventh year. There's too much bad blood there to do anything else. I've talked about the dynamic between Sev and James here and how that might have developed as they grew older. I honestly find it extremely interesting, I could go on about these two for hours rip. My point is that the development of these characters into adults wasn't instant or linear, it was messy and rough. people don't usually change overnight, it happens slowly over time because they have to.

#anyway another day of me writing walls of text about severus snape #i just saw a discussion about it and people were saying it made no sense for the prank to come before swm #but it does tho #also pls i'm not interested in who is a more terrible person. i love all my children equally #(earlier that day: i don't care for remus) #im jk. kind of #severus #meta #long post #sorry! lmao this is just very present in my fic rn so i have a lot of thoughts

[iwanttorundirectlyintothesun]

okay i need to know if anyone else has been devastated by a creature having different defining features in dungeon meshi than like childhood stories

bc i adore this series (i am showing So Much restraint not reading the manga and watching it with my family as it comes out) but the kelpie my beloved

her hooves were not backwards and its killing me (kelpies were the closest i got to being a horse girl as a kid)

the seaweed is very nice and accurate (i say this as if ive seen a kelpie (not the dog) in real life) relating to the stories where the kelpie is made of seaweed or the shifter stories where it becomes a handsome young man with an unsettling amount of seaweed or sand in his hair

and the tail is a very cool nod towards it being a sea (limnistic? is that a word? relating to rivers and lakes) creature but the defining traits are that shes got backwards hooves and shes probably sticky when you pat her

like ik itd probably be hard to animate backwards hooves but aaaaa (expression of misapplied and disproportionate injustice and disappointment)

look at how fancy they are (((right picture from ben-the-hyena here on tumblr they did a whole series of drawings of mythological horses as carousels and its so pretty))) (image on the left is described as a nykur which to my knowledge is a similar icelandic water spirit )

((also vaguely disappointed she didnt try to get the others on her back to show off her cool elongation abilities for maximum snack collection but thats not the point i was trying to focus on here))

#dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #please i wanna yell but no one i care about cares about this show the same way i do #and especially not about the kelpie #sorry also for the wall of text #but literally if you google search “backwards hooves” the first thing that pops up is how its a defining trait of kelpies #how do i get people to see this so theyll talk to me #kelpie #delicious in dungeon #<< wild who calls it that #anne the kelpie #< not a tag anyone will use but its fine we're fine #i could tag characters but that feels rude #this isnt about them #maybe senshi bc they were fishing buddies #oh well #at least the thoughts should be sufficiently out of my brain now

[unimaginativebepisenjoyer99]

the satrinyavas

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #fanart #the arcana #the arcana fanart #cat au #THERE i am done with these designs #ik some look ugly but idc its unlikely ill draw these characters again (as cats anyway?) #like i hate nasrin's but ill be dammned if i try to make sense of her hairstyle in my stupid cat style again. who cares #and i hate all of these braids they beat my ass #anywayz #i always had in my head the thought to make nadi's sisters (they're all sisters right i forgor. not that it rlly changes anything BUT) #different tabby patterns so she doesn't look so out of place #so we have classic. mackerel. broken mackerel n spotted + nafizah n nasmira who r solid (tho u could argue mira is like an abby cat) #and nadi is a smoke tabby (pictured in another post) #their dad is a sokoke and i like to think their mom has a secret pattern “underneath” her white to make all of these colors (like a tortie) #do u love my half-walls of text btw. can u imagine how much more i would ramble if there wasnt a char limit in the tags? #i could say all of this shit in the actual desc but whats the fun in that #i wanted 2 apologize 4 not posting in a week but thats content creator brainrot. happy new years anyway

[dawntheduckrb]

I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)

I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏

#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that #wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it #so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always #i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone #tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying; #'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc' #and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know #and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone #let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to #i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao) #i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself #but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice #makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude #so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol) #((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did)) #i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry #i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody #i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them #everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share #this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this #tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :) #not rb #hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime) #i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one

[camgirlkaminari]

scum villain makes me SO INSANE like it's the funniest book I've ever read and also if I think too hard about one character in particular my brain shorts out shies away from the thoughts like a slug might shy away from salt I will POSITIVELY DIE if I think too long about tlj JUST trying to understand people being betrayed by someone who he thought loved him losing everyone who was ever close to him BECAUSE of him I think too hard about yqy and how he will never get closure there will be no happiness for him zzl my little boy my big cheese my funtime guy who JUST wanted to be liked he was trying so hard to do good he's like that poem from the point of view of a cat that can't figure out what he did wrong why do his family keep leaving the house why can he never grow big like his brothers sqq never seeing his family again never acknowledging he had a family except in passing never being able to tell his husband about his first life having to keep that secret for the rest of his life to always have this weird terrible pain between them forever the sacrifices he made for luo binghe how he'll never be able to truly know og sqq's motivations how he just woke up and immediately took up the mantel of sqq despite knowing his fate WHAT was his life as shen yuan like to make him so quick to alter his whole identity WHY is he so good at acting and lying to everyone including himself just refers to himself as a listless pretty boy like he doesn't have the cleverest mind in the whole book!!!!! og sqq in the cave what must he have felt when he realized he wasn't strong enough to save lqg and knowing what people were going to say and being too proud and miserable to clear his own name binghe's "I hate! I hate myself!" scene I am SCREAMING binghe being unhealthily manipulative from DAY ONE up to the point where sqq realizes what he's done with xin mo the CAVE SEX SCENE??????????? don't get me STARTED on shang qinghua!!!!!!!! liu qingge!!!!!! BINGGE?????? it's like a wormhole in my head if I think too hard past sqq being the funniest mother fucker in two different universes and the premise of haha big demon hot for teacher mommy kink :))) I will DIE I will PERISH i am rabid I am biting and tearing and rending and howling!!!!!!

#do NOT get me started on how sqq is likely the most powerful man on the planet like YEAH hes not as magically strong as lqg and yqy #but hes insanely capable he took over for 6 HUNDRED WIVES like yeah my man is a battery pack i dont CARE how powerful the mushroom body was #this is how i sleep at night: i imagine that shen qingqiu is genuinely the au version of shen yuan #like sqh modeled him on this mean ass commenter #and i like to think this IF ONLY for the sake of sqq's sect brothers & sisters #hes BASICALLY the same guy with all the same quirks and annoying behaviors except without all the fucking trauma #hes still nitpicky and nasty in his way and he still thinks hes managing to hide his emotions but actually he NEVER could fully #what a relief for them!!! #and in the same vein that shen yuan. who MUST be an INSANELY clever guy in his life #had he endured the same torment as og sqq he would be just as bad!!! #do you think sy was lacking in enrichment in his enclosure & thats why he took to sqq so well. hes so clever and good at absorbing new info #like actually becoming sqq was good for his brain like a tiger born in captivity being released into the wild #svsss #svsss spoilers #wall of text #SORRY!!!! I NEEDED TO GET IT OUT!!!! #the good thing about svsss: all the women have way better endings than in pidw. the bad thing: all the trauma catching up w repressed men. #ugh

[meidui]

peach got me to start watching house md and this man is literally just a big softie 😭

#gregory house i know what you are #you're just another dark haired man who's too good at what he does and bad at pretending not to care #YOU JUST DON'T WANT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU TO HAPPEN TO ANYONE ELSE #AND YOU'RE RAISING SOME REALLY GOOD DOCTORS #i'm punching the floor and the wall and the ceiling #also wilson is his favourite person in the world by 3000 miles #house md #* #text

[ballisterboldheart]

couldn't stand the thought of missing out on the rest of our life together.

#why r u mad bc jarmen clowns keep winning ? #cobrakaiedit #cobra kai #carmen diaz #johnny lawrence #s.gif #changed my mind jarmen isnt underdeveloped you're all just haters #because okay listen <- things said before writing a wall of text #johnny's arc w carmen is ALL abt him taking responsibility. he's a man who has run away from literally Everything in the past 30 years. #he's run away from ck/his past w kreese he's run away from his son he's literally on the outskirts of society. #he doesn't. he doesn't CARE enough abt anything to stick w it when it gets hard. #and everyone lets him. no one makes him accountable. #but. for the first time. w miguel. he doesn't want to run away from something. #and i think its so important the carmen and johnny's first Real interaction is when johnny is carrying miguel #home after he got his ass beat. #he's taking that responsibility/that punishment for having failed. #and yeah. he spirals afterwards. self flagellates. and then drags his ass back and promises to be Better. #and he is! he does NOT give up he does not run away ever again #hs fight happens carmen says she never wants to see him again but johnny doesnt take that as a sign to Go Away #instead he helps out however he can while still respecting that boundary #and just ughhhhhhhh that fucking. ''i'll do whatever it takes / i know you would'' exchanges is like. the best way to sum it up #it takes a While for johnny to earn that trust. but he does. #anyways. normal. #long post

[corset]

What is the point of "family" by the way. I don't really get it

#I mean good for everyone who does but #Like even after developing a pretty okay relationship with my mother I kind of don't..... #I don't know how to put this without sounding really abrasive #I /like/ her for sure as like. An entity right. Who takes care of me? And she's Fine overall I guess but I just don't think I'm feeling the #right way about what is supposed to be my 'mother'. Right. Like I think other people are doing that differently and feel a way I'm not #capable of feeling. Like I just don't have the capacity to emotionally understand a familial bond in that context?? #I think it's just my dissociative disorder to be honest. I don't really have a childhood or a consecutive life experience of any kind and #I've definitely felt Familial Bond about fictional characters my brain has decided to get into an uncomfortable position relative to on an #emotional level. Iykyk. [Stares off into the middle distance] #But like on a real level I don't really care I guess about a lot of the people around me and I don't understand how to. I had to actively #decide or puzzle out how to 'properly' engage with a lot of things including emotions on a 'human' level. #Like I had to sit there and make the Choice actively to care about people and humanity which I think most people don't have to do #And not in like a 'humanity has disappointed me and I have to get over a misanthropic phase' I mean like. A sort of detached emptiness #overall #Like we definitely had a misanthropic-adjacent phase at some point but #Whatever nobody's going to read this it's a huge wall of rambly text #Little present for anyone who does: 𓃠

[bylertruther]

bad boy mike fics are always good fun yeah but have you all ever considered writing something where will is the mischievous little rascal from the wrong side of the tracks that listens to loud music and always has little rogue paint splatters on his hand-me-downs or charcoal smudges on his cheek n says the most out of pocket shit under his breath that no one ever hears except for eleven and mike and yet no one believes him when he repeats what will said bc will jus looks so sweet tht obviously he would never say tht mike and mike is the more strait-laced kid that lives in a three story house at the end of the cul-de-sac with his purposely and perfectly disheveled and brand new get-up that gets flustered whenever will suggests they do something they maybe shouldn't but ultimately agrees without question because hello in what world could he ever look into those big hazel eyes of will's and somehow say no? it's literally impossible and he never regrets it even if they do get home late which of course makes hop chew him out when he catches them even though it was will's idea to begin with but again no one ever believes him n it's not like he'd rat him out anyway and coming from such different backgrounds they really shouldn't fit but they do and they're inseparable and even if it's messy cozy and all too lived-in mike feels more at home at the byers-hopper house than he ever does in his castle filled with ghosts and honestly probably for the first time ever actually and obviously they'd make their own adventures for when life gets to be too much bc will feels like he's drowning and mike feels like he's invisible and it's just will with his sketchbook and mike with his leather journal and they talk about anything and everything and share things they've never ever said to anyone else before and ofc when they talk about the future it's always about where they'll go to college together and how they're obviously going to dorm together and get an apartment afterward bc they're undoubtedly going to escape this shitty little town one day and they're clearly Something but also maybe too scared to Be something and . and. is anyone gonna write this or am i gonna have to be a big boy and do it myself 🙄

#fucking huge n scary wall of text with no punctuation at all bt idc im not rereading or editing . read my rambles or Else #every day that goes by without people using these canon tropes is another day i Die inside #rich x poor n punk x pop princess especiallyyyyy like 😭 #will plays his tape in mike's car and mike jus goes 😳 n when mike plays smth will is jus like 🤢😔 babe i have GOT to put u on #can't believe i have 2 do it myself. smth cute where instead of it being tht hopper doesn't approve it's ted doesn't like how joyce raised #him or WHERE she raised him n it's got like . forbidden love vibes u kno. but they beat the odds bc mike is a kind person beneath the #bitchiness and he doesn't see will how everyone else does he sees him as someone strong and brave and creative and loving and kind etc #and he doesn't CARE about where he lives or how much money he doesn't have or how they all share a closet or what ppl #like troy or his dad say bc when he looks at will he sees a reflection of himself. someone who goes by unseen someone that's alone #someone that just wants some company and the room to be himself #like. are u guys feeling my vibes rn. #ideas

[strixhaven]

discord servers love having a thousand channels both vague enough to be incredibly confusing in what you’re allowed to post where and hyper-specific enough that you’ll get yelled at for posting the “wrong” thing in place where any reasonable person would think it belongs

#i do not understand why so many servers are so rigidly structured. this is needlessly difficult to moderate #and if the amount of people “accidentally” posting the same similar kind of wrong stuff in specific channels is any indication #is clearly confusing and ill-designed for any regular members. #i wish i could reorganize so many servers y’all NEED to cut down on and combine at least half the channels #rewrite the channel description and also my god you do not need twenty pages of rules #nobody i mean Nobody is reading all that and that is 100% why people are consistently baffled and confused when you tell them they’re #violating a much more niche rule. because nobody is remembering every single facet of that wall of text #brother i don’t think YOU are either. #this bugs me so much. i’m not a neurotic control freak (<— liar) i’m just a regular guy who knows that this is #obviously inefficient poorly-designed and difficult to actually follow even when people are trying to act in good faith #and abide by the server rules and structure. this is to say nothing of anyone that wants to be malicious about it #because it being this confusing and ill-constructed means there’s a lot of opportunity for abuse and things to fly under mods’ radars #like you have to have a huge staff to be able to moderate all these channels and remember actually harmful rule violations #it’s completely infeasible unless you have a Massive admin structure and lots of mods with lots of time and care #rant over i am simply annoyed at any server i enter that’s like this and is only a few hundred members large at most.

[merevide]

just found out my mom does not care about the pride and joy of new jersey (bruce springsteen museum). heartbroken

#i was like. why doesn’t nj get tourists like cali or new york. (answer is nj kinda got nothing going on) #and she said what’s there to do in nj and i said bruce springsteen museum. #and she said who cares about that. like wowww #(insert gif of man talking to brick wall) #my text

[raen1]

this insane unhealthy urge to do everything on my own is making me want to scream my lungs out

#ive this habit of noting things down on my hand and when it smudges i lose my shit it feels like i have failed to do that task bcs #independently i feel my brain isnt capable of absorbing info and i need to note everything down on a. paper its tiring #it feels like my head will explode god pls i cannot do this i cannot keep track of things i am so .so tired #i have written down exam dates of my friends #friends who are v v dumb and wont even think about me until i text its prolly bcs i care too much but it hurts and #i wish to move on w my life w everything w people just get over it i am sure ppl around me doesn't know loneliness like i do #nd when i see them complaining abt their shit i feel like cutting their intestines in little pieces no I'M NOT BELITTLING THEIR STRUGGLES #but they need to really calm down . #i have noted down my shit my ma'am shit my siblings shit my dog shit and stuck it on a wall and my head hurts when i look at it #sticks and stones may break my bones but words can also hurt me how will i forget the mean things i have heard over the yrs #rant #chaotic academia #desi academia #dark academia #older sibling #oldest sibling #eh idk

[ziracona]

What do you think of the Observer from Dead by Daylight? I like the idea of being able to destroy the Entity, but that honor should belong to the Survivors. They deserve to find some power to fight back against their enemy.

I think he’s written really poorly, because he’s so removed from the experience of constant suffering, and the way he sifts through even traumatic memories with casual interest, he comes off as extremely callous and frivolous in comparison with the survivors, and careless and unfeeling towards them. Also super privileged, and not doing much shit, even just feeling pity, about him being a human who can lounge in a library drinking wine, sifting through their personal trauma for entertainment, while they’re repeatedly are tortured and killed. I don’t think that’s how he’s /meant/ to be read, but 400% it’s how he comes off. I’m not a fan of him or their execution of the idea. I wouldn’t like the idea regardless, because I think how they do multiverse and their like, cult entity stuff very very goofy most of the time and immersion breaking for the genre, but it could certainly have been done better. Originally, they had Benedict Baker, and to a lesser degree, Vigo, fulfilling that role, and it worked phenomenally. Benedict recording the survivors with his very intuitive outsiders’ perspective was amazing, and I am so upset they’ve mostly removed his original stuff now. It was a much more immersive and compelling and interesting storytelling idea to have lore from other survivors taking notes, or records left by them, and it made a built story that felt complete because even if they got out largely based on information collected from other survivors, that’s still a win from all the tortured victims if they killed the Entity or escaped, just, including the dead ones, not some dumb outsider observer. I do not care for him even a little. I greatly miss Benedict. You have no idea.

But yeah circling back, if anyone deserves to win it’s the survivors. Having some weirdly privileged in ability and knowledge outsider do it would be the boringest deus ex machina way possible to end it, but I wouldn’t put that past their very bad writers.

#I’ll never understand why OG dbd had some of the /best/ cosmic horror lore ever & well done charcater info even if it only way a handful of #sentences. then decided to retcon their own lore to make it worse and goofier and now we get 3 page walls of text for new survivors that #somehow tell us LESS about who they are as people than the micro OG descriptions did for people. ((excluding Darkness Among Us which got the #long ass descriptions but was fly as hell - Darkness Among Us before it’s fucking stupid 80% retcon my beloved)) #ask #rayshell22licejournalcom #I just couldn’t keep caring eventually. : / I saw it go from so interesting to irritating and boring mostly and sometimes deeply enraging a& #it was just too much to care : / God I miss old dbd though #dead by daylight

[oatbugs]

lightning fried our satellite dish and now we are alone

#old geometry on old walls + her hand flowing along the river delta. sudden stop pulls on stitches #you are not allowed to laugh unrestrained for the next two months. in the next world #i look at the shape of the sun and i the tangerine you offered to your brother. do you feel #artificial ? do you feel man-made? what is more natural than man ? what is more natural than the creation of a natural thing? #do you feel like an organic automaton? will you love me if i change? will i love you if you change? if i prophesise about #not loving you it wont change the fact that i wont stop loving you. you are going to draw again because in a few weeks #you have to paint something sacred along the length of my spine. my friend asks me if im okay #and in my head i want to scream at her IM JUST HAPPY YOU'RE ALIVE. im sorry we were both in pain. im sorry you have to think about #endings. i will think about your beginnings. the air here feels like spring and i think of you every day. #my boy texts me on the train station about the snow and how he waited 4 hours in the underground. he said his hands were shaking #and i thought of how much i missed holding his hands. you were freezing on the train i was burning in the sky. #of course your password is phi. just like her. i miss you all. 10 friends teaching each other how to slow dance #in the kitchen. 10 friends cook a feast together and say goodbye. the last thing i told the boy who was once #in love with me was that i wont say goodbye because no one would care to hear it. the last thing he said was fair enough. #im glad you kissed me when i was drunk. i am visiting my town by the sea for the first time in a decade and i hope to #peel it open and bite again. my love، how do i make you feel? pomegranate cracked open. you saw the blood inside #and you dug your hands inwards. messed up through all the red، you still bit in. #i will make you feel safe enough so you can lose your mind again. you can create again #im sorry i didnt realise how much you had missed me. im sorry i didnt realise thats a part of why you stopped creating #i am not sorry that it matters so much. it matters because i love you. ill be back soon. keep cracking me open. ill keep cracking you open. #world of chroma blue and crimson. a girl asks a policeman for direction without a headscarf on. this was an act of war. i reveal my own #hair in the wind and think of how much i love you. i stare at the policeman through the eyes of the slaughtered. #my lovely economist drinks up the ocean and i think of her beautiful hair with its bloody ends in the wind #chase your dreams. dont say goodbye. politics is an act of love. i look at the killer with the eyes of those he killed and i think of #kissing you over the river kissing you in your bed kissing you before you left kissing you until we were late kissing you goodbye #for five consecutive days kissing you in the train station kissing you in the rolling fields kissing you by the cityscape kissing your neck #until it bled. i love you. i will kiss you until you can create again. #i miss my love i miss my starlights and i miss the sky. one day ill make you tomato soup again. #and now it is time to replace a very old very young self.

[mothocean]

Btw i am saying that with every ounce of love i have for diluc. That man is a forest fire machine and i wouldn't have it any other way

#this is abt his playstyle setting every single piece of grass around him on fire btw #like idk i don't think i could ever get behind characters that lose hp as part of their abilites (like xiao/hu tao) #but with diluc it's pretty manageable with some substat compromises a decent healer and 2pc tenacity at worst #and he can still crit regularly with the right weapon/artifacts #like building him isn't effortless but it's not even that bad unless you're really aiming for perfection #plus he's fun to use at least to me. i love smacking enemies around with his silly little phoenix #also the environmental dmg can be controlled with characters like beidou/kaeya whose skills take out fires #like. he's not perfect but i hate how everyone feels the need to say it. 'he's not the best pyro main' yeah but why does it matter #literally who cares if hes perfect. if hes the best pyro main. yoimiya is considered the best and most ppl dont like her playstyle anyway #fuck meta like genuinely who cares #roseflower.txt #genshin impact #sorry abt this absolute tag text wall i will do it again