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mistytown · 8 months
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❥ Has someone ever ruined an FC or character for you?
❦ Has someone been jealous of you?
❧ Have you ever been jealous of anyone?
the salty af munday meme
❥.) Many have tried and many have failed. LOL Actually though? It happens so often I've just gotten used to it. That said, not everyone will agree on the perfect FC for a character and such an expectation is unrealistic but I've seen some that are Really Out There ( like seeing some evan peters looking motherfucker facing as HUNK that one time lmao ). But yes, you get used to cringe FCs after a while. If nothing else you can even find them entertaining.
❦.) Who tf wouldnt be lbr. LOL JKJK UHHHH idk? If anyone is jealous of me I imagine they just bite their tongue a lot and smile through their teeth at me or just avoid me altogether.
❧.) No but I do admire a lot of the creativity people have in the rpc. I actually consider myself a pretty open minded person surprisingly so I love to hear people's thoughts and what they're passionate about ( unless if someones gonna sit there and try to convince me that HUNK is actually a good boy with a heart of gold cuz I'll have none of that ). But yeah, I definitely do look up to a lot of people.
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samsquatchem · 2 years
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saul.(derogatory)
and bonus jimmays
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About Valve OCs and the blog
This has been on my mind for a while.
This blog never got a satisfying end in my books, and I’m sure for other readers as well. Even though closure is a myth perpetuated by mainstream media, I will make this post to try to rectify past mistakes and general truancy of this blog. I have my own suspicions that most of my readers are dead (considering all of the porn bots are now starting to follow me), so I write this post in the darkness of the night into the void that is Tumblr. Read my cry if you care.
Firstly, this blog will never update again. There are multiple factors that have led to this blog’s extinction and I think they’re important to address
Motivation
This blog took up a large chunk of my life back when it was active. Don’t get me wrong, bad art still gets me to cringe and I find myself on occasion still pining over weird ocs and art styles on Deviantart. However, maintaining it as a blog with daily updates became a chore for me along with promising critiques of ocs and such. I’ve come to discover that I can’t do what I love as “””work”””. While bad art still remains a passion for me, I don’t see myself continuing this in blog format.
OCs have changed
The OC market has changed. Base art has definitely taken a downturn in the past few years and you’re more likely to see people hand-drawing their ocs or writing them out. Thanks with the culture of memeing about bootleg fandom ocs (This is my own original character blonic, donut steels) , it seems that people are more drawn towards creating their own worlds and characters rather than shoving their mary sue into their current fan favorite content. These are good changes in terms of originality for artists and writers in my opinion.
However, a lot of the formats for OCs have changed as well. There tends to be an emphasis on their sexuality and race in OC culture now. I don’t consider that a bad thing but I’d rather not poke that hornet’s nest of gender identity and race of fictional characters. What used to be the standard straight, bi, gay has expanded into other territories that I am unfamiliar with and now we have more ocs outside of the standard white chick but with Japanese last name because the creator really likes naruto. Again, this just seems to be the trend and I think my last few revival posts kinda show them.
Valve as a games publisher
LOL when’s half life 3???
Valve has definitely moved from being a game developer to a digital distributor.  Steam definitely seems to be their focus outside of Hat/Weapon Skin collecting and online gambling (and also their weird consoles/controllers???). Not that I would continue this blog if they released more content (They published another update to the TF2 comic, can’t wait for that to get updated in a year).
Along with this slump of their own original content, this has led to a slump in original characters for their franchises. There are not as many fan ocs and art isn’t being produced for their franchises (except maybe with comic updates for TF2 and nostalgia for old games).
This blog was created at the optimal time imo with L4D2 still being fresh, TF2 still having an active userbase, and Portal 2 giving some great content in terms of creative material.
Also I’m not interested in reviewing Dota 2 art and I don’t think there are enough Counterstrike ocs.
Negativity
I don’t know if this blog was a source of positive or negative energy. On one hand, I was ridiculing people’s art without much hesitation and not acknowledging how much time and effort that might have been put in by the artist. But on the other hand, it provided laughs for people during its duration and gave me a creative outlet in terms of humor, arguments, and writing. I think I did my best to avoid any harassment for these artists by removing any watermarks that might lead any rude reader to them, but I’ll never know if they suffered any bullying. Obviously I’m not going to put this on my resume as work experience but I like to think that this blog help think critically about their content, regardless of what role you played on the blog be it me, a submitter, an observer, or the subject. Maybe if some supreme being questions why I started this blog in the afterlife, I can tell them I did it for the lolz.
In the end, I think I did more harm than any general good for the world and nobody will really understand that weird pain if I try to repent for it publicly. I don’t know of any key examples of this (or really remember because I haven’t done this shit in years), but I do apologize if I ruined anyone’s ambitions for writing/drawing.
I’m glad there is a stronger hugbox mentality for artists who aren’t very good and I embrace that style of encouragement. I guess my only concern is veering too far into that and just embracing everything as perfect and awesome and never improving. Criticism has its place in society.
Perhaps the real lesson is that who the hell gives a shit about what you post on the internet. Why should you give a stranger any control over how much your art is worth? However, this also gives the argument into determining if any of your art is worth anything based on your preconceived notions on your art’s merits since you are only a stranger to me. Why should you tell me that your art is valid and equal to anything else produced when it looks like you drew it with your tablet pen stuck up your ass?
Maybe we all just need to learn to stop giving invisible voices the power to ruin our emotional states and work on our self satisfaction.
Growing up????
I wrote most of this blog like a million years ago. It was a stronger part of my identity and a part of a community in a way of similar blogs in the same style. But I don’t really relate to the content as much I used to. Valve games are still near and dear to me, but they’re more nostalgic than my current flame and muse. I feel the same happened to other blogs in the same vein as mine. Perhaps also age and the changes of time led to our own focuses in our own lives than looking at the scribbles of some stranger on the internet. While it’s still one of my internet past times, it is not my main focus in life to critique bad art (unless it starts paying serious dosh). I just don’t relate to the words and passions anymore. In a way, this is my own cringe that artists produce when they’re young on Deviantart. It’s kind of funny in a weird way.
This blog will continue to remain up but I’ll probably move into another blog of some sort (I accidentally made this my primary blog and I can’t delete it). It sort of became my main lurking blog and I guess its time that I make a less weird not ghost blog (I’m probably confusing a lot of the people that I follow with my constant hearts and comments).
I guess I wanna say thanks for all of the people who followed this blog and its contents. I probably wouldn’t have continued for very long without followers so you’re all to blame for this negative impact I’ve made on the world (jkjk). I like to think we’re connected with our mutual spirit in improving how we create things and wanting to see improvement in others. I think this blog helped me see the dumbest of things and not be afraid to say it was dumb and I hope it did for you as well. I also hope it brought you laughs in the content that was displayed or the humor I attempted to convey. It did genuinely warm my heart whenever I got a heart, reply, reblog, or messages to keep up the work. It kind of makes me sad to think that I left rather abruptly, but better blogs have died quicker and quieter. Simple fact of life really. Thank god my ego keeps me in check to constantly remind people of my existence.
To any artists out there, bad art is a fact of life. You do not come out of the womb knowing how to do two point perspective and 3d shapes. You mess up doing 3d shapes each any every time until you get it and then move on to the next thing you’re not good at. There’s a common TIL leddit post about how Michaelangelo burnt all of his old works so nobody would know how bad he was when he was starting out. I don’t know how true that is, but that’s not a great mentality to have for your art. Seeing that bridge between your former self and current self is important for seeing self growth in your skills. Plus you won’t have those juicy likes and comments on instagram when you do the art redraw and show how far you come like how can you skimp on that you dingus.
All of the great content creators right now love showing off the shitty art they did as kids because it gives them a sense of progress in their work and their accomplishments and continues to drive them in their own works. (unless you’re rebecca sugar and drew ed edd and eddy shipping porn lol). Heck, some of them even take the stuff that was once cliche characters and expanded on them in their own Original Universe Donut Steel. And thanks to their own Original Universe Donut Steel, now tens of thousands of impressionable young artists can look at it and say “that’s awesome, but it would be way better if there was my own character...”.
OCs are weirdly one of the ultimate ways of fan expression where you enjoy the content so much you wish you were part of it. Even though it’s very disjointed and out of place, it’s usually done in a place of love for the franchise or the characters. So for those of you that are doing that still, keep at it I guess.
Fan art is sorta in the same way where you enjoy something so much that you want to replicate the style/themes/characters in your own or the content’s style. While not as extreme, it’s still in the same place of love and people generally like that more than original shit anyways so continue to make it so I can buy your posters at anime conventions without supporting the original creator lol. 
If you want to harass me further for my sins against budding artists, I guess I’ll link my personal blog if anyone actually asks me. I also wrote this at 3 am so it is extremely unedited and awful but it’s the most “pure” for my usual diatribe. Consider it my first OC for the blog.
Good night, good life, and farewell.
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hello! current time check is 1:20AM.
yesterday was billy’s birthday so we decided to throw him a surprise mini party today at wcp. okay to be frank, i was a little against the location. mainly because by the time we’re doing the surprise it was gonna be really late and it was kinda inconvenient to get there as well but dayah said that he won’t want to meet unless it’s at wcp so we ended up doing the surprise at wcp anyway.
the best part was my boyfriend joined us! HAHAHAHA okok that probably isn’t the best part for everyone else but han joining us was the highlight of the day, or should i say night, for me la at least. i mean, we’re actually about 2 days away from seeing each other again but huhu i’ve missed him.
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so the night before, i planned things with dayah and bavani was supposed to join us but apparently she decided to bail cus she didn’t wanna travel and waste money and shit lmao okay i’m sorry if you see this but honestly that isn’t even a good enough reason especially if you really see someone as your friend? wouldn’t you want to see them happy? joined in the celebration and stuff. like okay, i don’t know about you but if it’s within my means, i’d like to see my friends happy. maybe it sounds like i’m crazy defending billy or something but honestly, this is just my own opinion in general la, i hope no one takes it to heart or whatever. hashtag jangankecamsaya hahahahha! ok da cukup, so after that i told dayah it’s okay just go ahead with the same plan - which was to tell dayah that she has to go back to her aunt house at clementi and then ask billy to go home and change into comfortable clothes instead of their uniforms and then meeting billy at wcp after we set up everything. and instead of going to her aunt house, she met me of course and then we went to get the food for the mini celebration.
it was such a mess in between cus we thought there was pizza hut at clementi but apparently not? think they’ve changed it to another shop or something and at first i thought there’s no twelve cupcakes and i was about to get a cake at chateraise but fortunately, i told dayah to let’s walk around a bit more and i saw twelve cupcakes! so i decided to get the box of 3 all of which the same flavors - red velvet which is their signature flavor la haha also because the edible heart shape thingy is super cute huhu. and then from there we went back to chateraise and i ended up getting their mint ice cream, for me and dayah and also their thousand layer mille crepe called white zebra. afterwards, i did some googling and found out that there’s pizza hut at clementi ave 3 or something i can’t remember but after we walked there, we couldn’t see any pizza hut around so dayah asked this passerby and wtf ok lol the pizza hut closed down like 3 years ago or something lololol and then the man was like, “how long have you not been here already huh?” and we were like “we don’t stay here haha” and then we said our thanks and walked away. dayah was so ready to order delivery for the pizza hut thing but i googled again this time on the pizza hut website and found out that there’s one at 501 west coast or something. just nice the bus stop was right in front of us so we took the bus and head to that west coast place to get the pizza.
it wasn’t easy cus the place was super ulu and it was getting dark but thankfully dayah knows her way around so we got to the place super quick and made our order for their super variety box or something and because she was afraid it wasn’t gonna be enough, she ordered one of their personal pan pizza also. and then she forgot there’s aglio olio pasta inside and bought mee goreng from the indian shop at the coffee shop. i was also so tempted to get their combo set for their mutton chop but i decided not to cus we pretty much got a lot of food already. so i went to fairprice and bought some snacks and drinks. but because i couldn’t find any milk tea, i decided to get a cup at the coffee shop instead. it was goooood but too sweet for my liking. i still drank it anyway lmao.
and then after that, han texted me saying that he was already at the bus stop and i guess he was kinda disappointed cus he expected to see me there greeting him but we got so caught up buying the stuff that we lost track of time. we planned to reach there at 730 but ended up going over the stated time. i was still glad to see him anyway :) hehe i’m gonna greet him with a kiss everytime from now on. it’s been so long since i last see him wearing black that i almost forgot how good he looks in them. fucking panas i love it. ok stop it ahahahaha then, we walked towards wcp and it was so fucking crazy la hahaha so jauh gila but good small cardio walking workout since we’re gonna be eating fastfood.
billy was already on the way so dayah went to meet him and then bring him over. i wanted to set up the place and open the pizza box and shit but wtf la got this one bodoh spider thing crawl inside the plastic and then i got so scared i asked han to help me kill it HAHAHAHAHA oh and he said it’s a cricket not a spider?? whatever it is, i hate bugs :( oh and han stripped for awhile cus he was feeling really hot HAAHHAHAAH i love it pls feel hot more jkjk :p and i tried to take a photo cus he was like posing for me liddat but he FOUND OUTTTTT so i couldn’t get like a nice shot, unfortunately. and then we kissed a little hehe i loveeeeeeee :3 ok this part probably sounds really creepy or something to other people but i sat on han’s lap HAAHHA or thighs idk. but like it’s been so long since i last sat on his lap???? like seriously that was ages ago when we were still lepaking at the bawah block and during the earlier months of our relationship when han was at his peak of sweetness and romanticism hahahahahahaahah.
and then around 830 billy came!! we went to the jetty thing to hide before lighting up the one candle we got at the chateraise hehe. also yesssss i stole han’s lighter woohoo. technically i didn’t steal it la cus i made it clear to him that i’m gonna keep it hahahahahaha so like *shrugs* :p
the surprise was a success, and we ate and talked, cracked some lame jokes and pickup lines and shit ahahhahahahaahha. i guess everyone was super hungry at that point so we literally inhaled everything in like idk less than 20 minutes? i’m surprised han likes the aglio olio pasta but i think he was just super hungry so anything taste good to him. 
I ALSO DID THE ABC PICK UP LINE ON HAN HAHAHAHAHAHA bodo la his reaction but it was funny hehehe i love it. i’m gonna go find more so i can make him cringe hhahahahahaha.
and then dayah’s mom called. so we decided to head back, besides it was getting so late already. and while we were walking, billy saw a cab so he flagged for it and han boarded the cab with billy since they were gonna head back the same way anyway whereas me and dayah had to walk a little bit further down to take the bus back. but it was okay, the ride back home was long but it was nice with someone for company.
oh and then i asked dayah if she wanted to stop at the bus stop in front of ubi and she was like okay! so we stopped there and walked back. we were walking towards home until i asked her if i should go get something from macs hahahah but i decided against it and went to giant to get some groceries for my brunch tomorrow. there was a good deal for the bbq steak which was going for 9.90 for 2 so i got that, a canned of tuna mayo and some ham. my dad already got bread and cheese earlier on today so tomorrow’s brunch is gonna be litttttt. i’ll either have a slab of steak or have a tuna and ham with cheese sandwich tomorrow. so excited hehe
did i also mention that han, for the first time in a long time actually has a place he wanna go to this coming sat???? so exciting!!! :D oh and i sent han a little slutty pic of headless me lol. ok it’s not a little slutty. i think it’s VERY cus i literally stepped out of my comfort zone to take pics like that hahahahah i actually have a few more but i deleted them all cus it’s crazy racy lmao.
ok goodnight world!
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