#this is also only my third reading lol

[indigo-flightly-falls]

It's a Quarter After One, I'm All Alone and I Need Someone

My gift to @staringamassivemistakeintheface for the MCYT Valentines Day Exchange :D (@mcyt-valentines)

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Characters: Ren & Skizz

Ships: renskizz (focus), poly dogwarts (background)

Summary: (Newsies AU) The night after the failed protest and subsequent beating the newsies took, Ren confronts Skizz on a fire escape and they talk about stuff.

Trigger warnings: mentioned/discussed period typical homophobia (in the context of Ren's family pressuring him into marrying a girl), brief mentions of police brutality (talking about a past event), smoking.

Ao3 link: It's a Quarter After One, I'm all Alone and I Need Someone - Stars_In_Our_Paws - 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series [Archive of Our Own]

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"Alright, Sparrow, can you move your leg?"

Ren and Racetrack were currently helping Sparrow figuring out how bad his leg had gotten hurt during the raid.

"King, I walked back to here, I think I can move my leg." Sparrow sassed, his tongue sticking out to distract himself from the pain.

"That doesn't mean you can currently move it." Ren pointed out, raising his eyebrow. "Move it now, or I'll tell Bumlets that you're making your leg worse."

"Threats aren't fair." Sparrow grumbled, but he complied. He was able to move his leg a bit, but it clearly was hurting him. "Fuck this." He hissed, leaning back into Racetrack's arms. "I'm not listening to you."

"Alright, I'm not helping you if you won't listen." Ren threw his hands up, knowing Sparrow would rather listen to Racetrack anyways.

Ren stood up, stretching by reaching his hands to the sky. The lodging house was bustling, but it was quieter then normal. The beating they'd taken had been a blow, and even worse was Crutchie being taken and Jack unable to be found.

He took a small walk towards the windows leading up to Jack's 'penthouse', which was what he called the top of the fire escape.

Ren noticed a figure on the lower fire escape, almost thinking for a second it was Racetrack due to the smoke trails, before realizing with a shock that it was Skizz. And then he felt a bit silly because he could hear Racetrack berating Sparrow for stressing his bad leg.

Skizz had never smoked before. Ren wanted to figure out what was up.

Ren climbed out the window, taking a breath of the air, tinted with smoke. Skizz had his back to Ren, staring out at the city below.

"Hey, come here much?"

Skizz turned his head towards Ren, before looking back out at the city's lights.

"King, you know the answer." Skizz answered, not smiling like he usually did. He took another drag of the cigar, probably stolen from Racetrack.

"Drop the title please, you know I'm Ren to you guys." Ren walked over to lean on the railing next to Skizz, looking at the smoke trails.

"Yeah, but you're the king of the five of us."

Ren pulled Skizz into a side hug, leaning his head onto his boyfriend's.

"I like being just Ren around you guys."

Skizz huffed a laugh, rolling his eyes. "You picked the nickname King, you dug your own grave."

Ren gently punched him in the side for that, before the two of them drifted into quiet.

It was nice, after the day they'd had. Skizz had new bruises on his face, and Ren had bloodstained bandages on his wrist. It was the price they paid.

"How's Etho?" Skizz broke the silence, looking worried for his partner. Ren just sighed.

"You know how they are. They pretend not to care, but they care deeply 'bout everybody in this lodging house. Crutchie getting taken's shattered their confidence."

"Should I go check on them?"

Ren shook his head, exhaling. "Hand and B are with them."

Skizz nodded, still looking worried. "I'm glad they're not alone. Is everybody else okay?"

Ren made a so-so motion with his hand. "We're all bruised up, Les's arm is bothering him and Sparrow's leg flared up again, but we got away pretty good considering it was the bulls."

"I suppose it's better then it could be."

"Yeah." Ren agreed.

Once again the two drifted off into a easy quiet, knowing neither of them had much to say. They just watched the city together, as Skizz periodically exhaled a bit of smoke.

Ren used the time to reflect on his choices in the day, trying to figure out if he could've stopped Crutchie from getting taken.

"You know," Skizz started suddenly, "It's kinda funny how many formerly middle class or wealthy people are here."

When Ren raised his eyebrow, Skizz continued to explain.

"Well there's you, Sparrow, Nipper, Racetrack, Etho, Martyn, and probably at least one other." Skizz counted off on his hand. Ren just chuckled in amusement, with the smallest amount of bitterness mixed in.

"Yeah, and of course I'm the only one who gets badgered to come back home."

"Got another letter this morning?" Skizz questioned, evidently remember how downcast and angry Ren had been as they walked out of the lodging house.

"Yep." Ren said, stressing the 'p'. "They said they had a 'nice perfect girl' picked out for me, and if I went home and married her, they'd forget about my 'transgressions'." He growled the last word out, making fists with his hands.

"Ah, that's what got you upset?" Skizz asked, leaning against the wall.

Ren nodded, leaning onto his left hand while his right hung over the balcony.

"That sucks. They really are just pushing you to get married to a girl, aren't they?" Skizz asked, knowing exactly where Ren came from and what was at stake.

"I get caught in the Bowery once, and they all take it as a hint I'm gay." Ren held his finger up, shaking it. He then sighed.

"You are, though." Skizz said with a knowing smile.

"Yeah, but I don't want them to know that." Ren said, hanging his head.

"People are stupid." Skizz commented staring off into space.

"Yeah." Ren laughed in agreement, smiling at Skizz. "I'm glad this place is at least open-minded enough to let us be together quietly."

"I mean, nobody talks about it, but there's the five of us, Racetrack and Sparrow have something going on, same with Blink and Mush. Crutchie has eyes for Jack, both Etho and Cosmo have been accepted as, quote, 'not a girl, not a boy, but space', and Racetrack's been pretty open about being born a girl, so..." Ren continued, listing off the many queer people in the lodging house.

"I don't know how this specific group of newsies is so gay." Skizz laughed, finally putting the cigar down.

"Yeah, but I guess if I have to die because of who I am, I'm glad I'll be dyin' with youes." Ren told him with a smile, showing off his pointed teeth.

"Don't say that!" Skizz cried playfully, pushing Ren to the side. "We're gonna live for years together!"

"I know, I know!" Ren laughed, just glad he had gotten Skizz's spirit up again.

The two of them fell into the same silence they always seemed to, just enjoying the night and each other. They linked their hands, watching the stars twinkle in the sky and tried to ignore how they should've been hearing the sound of two bodies above them.

Ren looked into Skizz's eyes, finding the exact same thing he was thinking.

'I'm so glad I met you'

Ren leaned into his side, feeling Skizz press a quick kiss onto his forehead.

This was nice.

#trafficblr #3rd life #indi's writing #renskizz #dogwarts #life series #mcyt-valentines #I know you said you wanted renskizz but I'm also poly dogwarts trash so you get both :D #also while the content of the writing isn't very funny the general idea of these 5 idiots being part of the newsies family takes me out #you know Etho and Racetrack partake in gambling often (thinks back to stat poker). Skizz & bigb probably do as well #also Nope I know this is the third(?) AU where dogwarts interacts with the newsies but honestly this is just how i roll lol #it's kinda funny how for the Halloween exchange i didn't start planning my gift until the posting day. #but this exchange i had finished on the 4th and have only proof read and shit after that

[wundrousarts]

Hey, Owl House fans that are looking for other media to get into now that the show has ended: check out the Nevermoor series by Jessica Townsend!

The series is about a young girl named Morrigan Crow, who is whisked away to the magical city of Nevermoor the night she is supposed to die. Once there, she has to navigate her new home in the whimsical Hotel Deucalion, her education at the prestigious Wundrous Society, and the truth about the mysterious and powerful legacy she belongs to.

The series is categorized as middle grade/~YA, so it's similar in how it can appeal to an all-ages audience. Like The Owl House, it balances lighter moments with darker, more sinister revelations (and they're just getting started!). The author is queer herself and openly expresses her thoughts against + directly confronts bigotry and hatred while also being just an all-around wonderful person.

It contains some classic tropes such as a magical school, found family, and corrupt authority figures, all in unique and fresh ways. There is a diverse cast of characters, including a sapphic couple where one of them works at a magical library (sound familar...? 😉). There are several multi-dimensional antagonists, and they all work to challenge Morrigan and the story in their own unique ways. Also: there's a giant talking cat! Love that.

The series has an interesting magic system + worldbuilding, with tons of lore and history to dig your hands into and theorize if that's what you like. The character development is so fun and interesting as Morrigan and her friends grow up and find their place in the world. The world is so fleshed out that you can easily pick a minor side character or a location that's briefly mentioned, and extrapolate on how and where they fit into the story and themes as a whole.

There are three books out already, out of nine planned books. The fourth book Silverborn comes out in October, so there's plenty of time to get caught up until then! I highly recommend giving it a try.

#nevermoor #the owl house #toh #bolded key stuff for folks that might just want to skim through bc if you don't want to read it all then. fair lol #witch hat atelier is obvs the third piece of media for the trifecta but everyone and their mom recommends that already so #anyways the venn diagram of fans is a circle theres such an overlap #also i'm terrible at summarizing and pitching books but hopefully this gets across well enough. lol. #tried my best not to spoil stuff even in book 1 even tho the info is honestly easily accessible to learn online lol #my favorite nevermoor character has only said one single word so believe me when you can pinpoint a rando and make them your fave #there's just sooooo much to theorize abt that if anyones into that I promise that nevermoor has a treasure trove of stuff to go crazy about #if anyone wants to add onto this then feel free #also i should mention that a movie musical adaptation is in the works and i have. thoughts. but theres not much info abt it so.

[gracebriarwoodwrites]

My voice is a goldfish grown up in a too-small bowl, plucked from the pond and moved behind glass walls. I was told my voice was too old and too low. I bound it up in a higher pitch until it wasn't worth comment and now it has settled too small. It's beautiful--still-- but not in its trembles of pitch or its consonants that blur or the Rs that still rumble with a lost potential roar. My voice is beautiful in its golden light.

#poem #poetry #spilled ink #spilled words #voice #i've honestly thought about doing some voice training to get back to my natural voice #this poem is one of those ones that's literal but ALSO metaphorical ooo #it gets close to my natural voice when i'm tired which is why i can't make long form videos and only film any tiktoks when i'm tired lol #i COULD make long form videos i'm just a coward and also don't have anything to say that other people aren't saying better #gotta stick to my true art form i've concluded #YEARS after buying a fucking expensive camera lol #yeah anyway growing up with my voice was rough #i got teased by kids and adults would describe my voice as sultry until they were like oh shit she's nine can't be saying sultry #it was a cool voice and i miss it lol #fun fact the poem changes with my voice #maybe i'll read it for y'all lol but the sounds in the first verse bring it closest to my natural voice the second and third bring it up #to the register i like least by virtue of the sounds #the fourth really showcases the weird range #and the last one just IS #now let's see if i ever get the courage to read it to you all lol #like my voice is okay but i have to hear myself talk all my day for my job and i've gotten really self conscious of how the register change #based on situation #changes #i shall stop rambling in the tags of my own poem #i do love what i did with sound here though it's been a hot minute since i wrote a poem and i'm proud of my craft

[essektheylyss]

Since I'm slowly reading Wonderbook, and am only really on the first chapter, I keep thinking about how I kind of passively refused to read books on writing for a long time, and I do think that can be a helpful approach if you're starting as a writer and you have ideas and excitement but don't have any technical know-how or experience sitting down and slogging through it.

Don't read writing advice. Don't read about other people's processes. Read fiction or even nonfiction that makes you think about what you want to write, and then write a shit ton of stuff that makes you excited without having any expectation that you'll do anything with it. Once you figure out what works at least somewhat, or if you find that you've still got the ideas but nothing's really working to get them on paper, then you can pick up whatever writing books you want, but it is really very valuable to figure out the skeleton of your own process before you invite in ideas from anyone else's.

#like for a while i didn't read any and then after that i didn't find them interesting and now I'm starting to actually enjoy them lol #but i am also picky tbf #but novelist as a vocation slapped and wonderbook is just very fun #also my other recommendation is to find friends with similar tastes who are willing to be insane about the stories you're trying to tell. #absolutely crucial. these are my only foundational pieces of writing advice. #that's not true actually the third is 'figure out what you're trying to do and then figure out how to best make that happen' but #i think that comes after the previous two. you have to have done enough practicing to be able to figure out how to accomplish things #anyway #megs is reading #megs is writing #yeah it can go in both ig

[silenthillbunni]

📖🖊❄️

#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind #1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like #2) ​i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read #but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really #3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me. #everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored #and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing) #i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money #then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/ #ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is #im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything #4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it #everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :(( #i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it #5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them #except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/ #but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again. #i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333

[daz4i]

it may be obvious to others but i am genuinely surprised every time i go back to old writing and see that I've actually improved since. who knew practicing a craft makes you better in it. this has literally never happened to me before

#I'm talking abt lyric writing btw #stories are..... a different case (somehow i only get worse with time) #also everyone pls cheer and clap for my positive attitude here. #that rather than going ''my old writing is shit i should've been killed for that alone'' i say ''i improved :)''. #that also never happened before 🧐 I've got a master's degree in self loathing so it's hard to break the habit. #the last thing i wrote tho i started in august 2022 and got stuck with it until literally 2 days ago #so you can actually see the difference between the first few lines and the rest of the song lol #they're fine. like. there's a reason i didn't delete them. #but reading the third verse and looking at the structure my younger self wouldn't have gone for. they're good i think #i need to record a draft of it hmmmm maybe some other time 😩

[dreamerlynx]

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#sigh. puts up the barricades please I do not want to see d.nf on my dash #and again I do have it super filtered #I’m just soooo tired every little thing being HARD LAUNCH HARD LAUNCH until the next thing bc of course that didn’t happen #and life went on as usual #look I get it I’m the minority I’m aroace and easily exhausted by shipping esp real ppl shipping #but it’s times like this I miss the lore fandom bc man the complete focus on platonic dynamics and relationships was so nice #look if they ever actually say they’re dating I guess I’ll eat my words but so far I am not getting the sense that that will ever happen #and so it is extremely annoying to want to follow drm fans and get 90% of One Single Ship #and no sap except as third wheel for said ship #sorry I’m the only one who seems to not care abt George 😭😭 not in a bad way just. he’s fine and funny sometimes I guess but #I Just Don’t Care. and also another thing I need to get off my chest #why do ppl act like George is really shady and passive aggressive and ‘oh he should interact w X person who wronged drm he’d ROAST THEM!’ #like huh #George is one of the most Don’t talk about anything be vague be private ppl ever #I’m not saying he hasn’t had his moments of public support for drm but I just don’t get it #(it’s probably because he’s so vague and noncommittal that fans can just project their own feelings onto him) #sigh anyway I’m done that makes me feel better a bit #no tags just venting #<- it’s funny that became my venting tag now that I only vent in tags #bc some things such as this I am afraid to even put under read more lol

[madsraa]

Some sketches from the past week!

#my art #sketches #ghost in the shell #chroma #idk if anyone remembers the nurses (?) from the first volume that are building the cyborg #but yeah #and of course chroma lol #I read all 3 volumes and loved them way more than I thought I would #I mean the third one was...yeah LOL #BUT!! the cgi?? I cannot stop thinking about it #that was the only good part imo #also the second to last sketch is kiiiiinda toriko from flower sun and rain but I won't tag it lol that's a stretch

[saline-coelacanth]

Sonic Prime actually made me cry man ow my heart

#sonic prime #sonic prime spoilers #spoilers in the tags #so don't read the tags if you don't want to see spoilers #putting an extra buffer tag to try and hide the spoilers lol #second buffer just to be safe #ok i checked and now i need to add a third buffer #just... man the hug got to me #i love nine a lot and the hug got to me #i will say that i was getting a little bored during the middle #as there was just basically one long continuous fight scene for multiple episodes #but man that final episode was so good #overall sonic prime isn't perfect it definitely has some flaws #but it's still probably my favorite sonic show #at least out of the ones ive seen #and too be fair it's also the only one ive seen in its entirety

[hellonoblesky]

My math teacher vs the monotone that my voice goes into whenever I have to talk to someone I don't like but am trying very hard to be nice to

#I don't wawnt to go to school tmmr bro I am NOT looking forwards to seeing her #turtledove yells into the abyss #Also every time she gets mad at me for my tone I'm literally like 'girl that is how I talk' and she's like #'no it's NOT I've seen you talk to [friend I have in that class] and you don't sound like that!!' #Said friend is someone I've known since THIRD GRADE. THIRD FUCKING GRADE. #Also one time I was sitting down in a chair when we were supposed to be standing and she got mad at me so like #I told her I was sitting down bc my knees hurt and that they aren't the best knees (they aren't) #and she SCOFFED AT ME??? AND TURNED AWAY SO HAUTILY??????? #WHAT DID MY KNEES DO!!!!!!!!!!! #turtledove is not vibing #sorry sould have probably tagged that sooner I just realized this is getting into vent territory LOL #fr tho the only reason I survive her class is bc of my friend. I don't think she has tumblr but T if you read this. thank you for being the #actualyl wait Django might read this Django if you read this you can show her #Bc I'm like. really bad at saying it upfront ok Django if you read this let her know she keeps me sane and I appreciate her more than #she might know

[jimmyjrsmusoems]

making this its own post just in case anyone else wants some recs (and because i'm mentally 87 years old and figured this would be the easiest way to link them lol hopefully it works😭) @thestarstho thank you for asking i am so glad that you are also thinking about these two in 2023 💖

anyway ….. my favorite sesskag fics ✨

most (okay, all) of these were recommended to me by my mother! (the ultimate sesskag shipper….she introduced me to inuyasha when i was 4? 5? small baby age. she has been shipping it since i was a literal infant) i haven’t read most of these since high school but from what i remember they are all incredible. (and all by the same author lol) 🥰

1. unspoiled by forthright

summary : “Something goes awry during a trip through the Well, and Kagome is stranded in the distant past where she encounters a familiar face. When a very young Sesshoumaru decides to keep her, the consequences ripple through time.”

LISTENNNNNN this might be my favorite fanfiction of all time, from any fandom. i think about it almost daily. i just finished rereading it for the third or fourth time and even knowing what happens i was still so invested. this story also has so many amazing original characters that are so well-rounded that sometimes i forget they aren’t canon. 100 chapters!!! i could talk about this fic foreverrrrr 😭

2. lord charming by forthright

summary : "More than Sesshoumaru's pride took a blow when he lost his arm. He's in a delicate position... and desperate enough to seek the advice of a self-proclaimed expert. A clumsy romantic adventure told in 100-word snippets."

i just started rereading this one today and i love ittttttt. it is 800 chapters but they are all capped at 100 words so it isn't as daunting as it seems. i will admit that i don't remember a lot of the plot to this one, but my seventeen year old brain did retain some spicy scenes so i feel like it's worth recommending lol

3. impeccable by forthright

summary : "Kagome is stunned to learn that she has inherited a sizable fortune, a Japanese estate, and an indentured youkai. She's the unlikely heiress, and Sesshoumaru is the perfect butler."

there are lines in this fic that still pop into my brain every once in a while, even though i haven't read it in like 6 years. an AU!! also 100 chapters, but if i remember correctly they are all 100 words each.

4. clutter by forthright

summary : "Mrs. Higurashi decides to help her daughter put her life together; enter Sesshoumaru, professional organizer extraordinaire. A romantic comedy told in 100 word snippets."

another AU!! i remember very little of this one but i saved it to my favorites so i must have loved it. 200 chapters!

i haven't explored any of the sesskag on ao3, but there seems to be a lot and i'm excited to look into it. if you read any of these plzzzz let me know!!! 👀

#sorry for talking about inuyasha on main so much this week #inuyasha is probably my most long-standing obsession #also #i am not an anime girlie i have ONLY watched inuyasha and like half of ranma 1/2 #and i haven't read any of the manga #but i've seen all of inuyasha in its entirety probably 5-6 times #wait i’ve also watched a lot of lupin the third #basically i have only watched it if my mom grew up on it and introduced it to me lol #anyway!!!!! #i love talking about inuyasha if you couldn’t tell #fic stuff #not bob’s burgers

[samwisefamgee]

god wants me to kill myself sooooo fucking bad lately lol nice try bitch im queer

#you dont even fuxking know #the number of. literally impossible coincidences that have taken place to make my life just so much shittier lately #i have been sooo strong ive written like two dozen text posts just bitching and bitching about the sheer fuxking insanity of it and i only #posted like one of them im doing so good being so strong #that said i want to fucking die today lol this shit is melting my brain #it just never ends #the past two weeks have just been... so bad lol #i havent been able to see my bank balance in weeks i just know im so in the fucking hole it doesnt even matter #i havent had a working phone in a month #my family just vacationed in hawaii and im living in a moldy trailer #and the physical and mental health just go and go and go #and the mold grows and groes and grows #my friend offered me a top of the line pc for free and it felt like offering a homeless guy who loves music a grand piano #like yeah lemme just keep that under the bridge downtown where i stay lol #itll be fine #its like all the nice things id love to experience are dangled just out of reach of my fuckin cell bars lol #might fuck around and get addicted to a third substance in light of hope being a fool's errand in a truly random universe #life isnt guarunteed to get better no matter how long you wait or how hard you try actually and that is a hard fucking truth for everyone #alcohol is free and can keep your mind off how much mold & dust you breathe daily & breathed in the past 2 years & thats also a hard truth #also reading this i need to clarify in case anyone else reads this shitsheet. i do not want to vacation in hawaii. colonizer shit #what i wouldnt fucking do for just a week up by priest lake tho :(

[vargaslovinghours]

You wouldn’t cast away a piece of yourself just because it hurt you, would you?

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Ladyverse #Crossover #Magic Knight Rayearth #Oh we're digging into the way way wayyy back psyche now #It's honestly kind of a shock to me that I didn't add Nova and Hikaru to my list the first time around #Especially since Alone Together's original~ish concept was meant to be a collection of different unseen duos #And Nova and Hikaru were the spearhead (I think Scriabin and Edgar were second or third in fact lol) #The only thing I can figure is that it was a boy's club - other than Chell and GLaDOS but their relationship is kinda different too lol #They're not in each other's heads hehe #Ladyverse just finally unlocked all the appropriate puzzle pieces lol #Also almost certainly why I gave Edgar those ridiculously huge baubles in the Hellfire set lol #Knew that had to have come from somewhere #This takes my brain all the way around in a circle haha ♪ MKR was The Thing that got me into tragedies and loving crying #Little baby me holing up reading the omnibus for the first time and sobbing at the ending hehe ♥ I come by it honest #And then S2 came out guns a'blazing with a protag who cast away a part of herself that grew an infatuation and regularly hits on her #Oh yeah that doesn't speak to my current interests at allllll~♪ Haha #Man Nova was done so dirty I wish S2 was literally any good other than her lol #Anyway #I reread S1 for references for Hikaru's outfit for Edgar (don't mind the glove it literally switches /in the manga/ lol) #Fuu even has a mirror scene where her doppelganger hurts her! It's still really good honestly #And the round glasses lol ♪ All my tastes come back to CLAMP how dare they haha ♫

[kwamihitman]

((Are you afraid of the dark?))

click bc tumblr is murdering the quality as always.

#art #digital art #artists on tumblr #illustration #my art #GOD i’ve been working on this FOREVER #they are so cute im crying #daughters fr #might do rainbow high fanart next… we will see #ALSO i LOVE primary colours #i love a good group photo #etc etc #just gorgeous all around i <3 you three #no names or anything but still divas #ok bye #very new to digital art so go easy on me. i think this is only my third piece? and i started in april-ish? i’m such a fake artist lol #have NOT been consistent #ok bye fr now lol #if you’ve read all this i <3 u 2!

[yongseungkim]

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#ive also been experiencing jealousy part 2 #the good thing abt part 2 is i recognize the patterns #the bad thing is like the emotions LOL #jealousy part 1 ended but only bc i think my emotions like transferred to another person which sucks #its just alwyas whoever she spends the most amt of time with that isnt me #and like whoever my brain percevies she talks more to #or is talking to all the time #which with jealousy part 2 is kinda not completley false theyre like always stuck to each other #but i have to keep reminding myself they were always like this like even when i joined to some degree #the only thing thats maybe changed in the past couple of months is my perception of their relationship #and esp now that jealousy part 1 is over and i can see that relationship dynamic not tinged w romance its also like mroe of an idnicatory #that all of this is just perspective #but perspective is powerful and makes me feel like im third wheeling their relationship dynamic #yeah bc they see each other so much i was like duh its obvious theyre close i think that is also what kind of #lent to the disappointment of sharing a living space w her nad having nOTHIGN change like #it was a sign to me of oh nothing will really change how she feels #which is OKAY !! ITS OKAY! #im like so happy and thanful to have someone like her in my life as a friend #i just need to emtoinally believe that sighhhhhhhh #cuz shes gonna start dating eventually right i wonder if it'll be less painful when i KNOW shes into someone romantically #rather than now when im just making up the ppl shes into without any real evidence just hypothetical readings of her behavior

[ricoka]

genuinely not sure if I should bite the bullet and buy a new, cheaper phone or if I want to wait for a sale for the one I want even though it's quite expensive. it's becoming more and more of a hassle

#the battery is the worst part #i can do basically nothing and go nowhere without a charger #i leave home with 93% and arrive at work with 73% #i didn't even mess around with my phone #i read a physical book and listened to music for like 15 minutes on it #but it also has this switch to switch between no sound - vibrating only #and sound on #and it usually only reacts to it being slid down after the second or third try #and I can't get it to go to no sounds at all #it's 4+ years old at this point #but i also hate throwing it out when most things still technically work #what I mentioned is just the tip of the iceberg lol