#this is how Dean shows his love

[bloodfreak-boyking]

how to look at your brother in a platonic and god-honoring way

#'they're just brothers' whats all this #WHATS ALL THIS THEN #if you asked ANYONE who didn't know ab spn #who dean was looking at #approximately 0% would say his brother #and the vast majority would probably say a love interest #what is it like for non wincesties to not see how in love they are when they watch the show? #what kind of peace do they have that i will never know? #how sad must the watching experience be for them without seeing the 15 year love story of sam and dean? #emma rewatches spn #1x13 route 666 #spn #wincest #samdean

[sunforgrace]

no but the thing is the thing is orpheus turns and. you’re early. i missed you. he sacrifices his life to save his love and he still dies at 41

#(i do not subscribe to the words of actor man at con. call that a con man. So in my world 15x20 is 6 months later. #[​- read that somewhere that it was the time in the first draft/og script? - though ig that would make dean 42 if the show is meant to #vaguely follow rl timeline with the confession happening in nov? who can never be sure. anyway] #he still dies six months later.) #youre telling me dean winchester resurrection guy extraordinaire dies and spends 10 minutes monologuing about how it’s his time #dies for real forever and ever and it’s after cas (to his knowledge) went to angel demon die forever land forever because he sacrificed #himself by loving dean so much venom took him there and these two things are meant to have no connection whatsoever. #[​evie posted destiel hadestown today so im obligated to release this one from the drafts]

[wisefoxluminary]

Misha Collins autograph at Comic Con Liverpool storytime

Hi, you may remember me posting my photos of meeting Jensen and Misha this morning so here is my follow-up post about getting Misha's autograph like I promised. He was everything I hoped he would be. He was so sweet.

I went in to the booth to get this photo of Castiel signed and he was so sweet and welcoming to me. I gave him a very special gift I made for him- a song I had wrote for Jensen and Misha based on Dean and Castiel. I was inspired by the song You Are Not Alone that Jensen and Misha made up on the spot during a JIB 11 panel and I made it longer and added more lyrics to it. My dad recorded and sang it and then put it on a personalised CD for Jensen and Misha as a gift. I have two copies. I gave Misha his one today and he loved it, saying that he would show Jensen. He was really sweet about it and I got to have a lovely conversation with him. I asked him how he was loving Liverpool so far and he said he was enjoying it. He was so lovely and charming. He really is an angel 😉🥰

I'm getting an autograph with Jensen tomorrow so I'm going to give him his copy. I'm sure he's going to love it.

I'm really happy with how my autograph went and how lovely Misha was about the song. I am even considering making an album....

#misha collins #jensen ackles #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #cockles #jenmish #misha is the sweetest man I have ever met #bless him #I am really happy with how the song turned out #hopefully he likes it #i just love that his first response was to tell jensen #that was so cute #just shows how close of friends they are #you are not alone #they'll probably get deja vu when they hear it #can't wait to give it to Jensen tomorrow #autograph signing #storytime #comic con liverpool

[samsrosary]

fucked-upnatural where sam is pregnant with jack. he begs dean to get rid of it who agrees but how the fuck are you supposed to find somewhere that will give a male abortion How Do You Explain That? so he has to resort to some back alley supernatural surgeon and sam dies in the process. except. well. he doesn't. the baby persists. jack brings him back to life. when sam wakes up again he throws up and dean doesn't know what to do. sam dies again when he gives birth to jack; how else could he get it out? But he's forced back together again soon enough. dean doesn't know what to do with jack after watching sam go through the pregnancy and neither does anyone else. Lucifer is the first person to show jack unconditional kindness and its too sweet a fruit to resist.

#try caring for this monster child after your brother suffered months of misery for it #and you know how sam tries to see the best in jack and truly believes hes good in the show? #here like... he wouldn't outwardly be horrible to jack like dean sometimes is but he can't look him in the eye. jack makes him sick #NOW somebody slap on how jack feels growing up when his parents won't be anywhere near him. lets hear it for #lucifer corrupts him by being the only loving parent he's got arc! #jack kline #sam winchester #dean winchester #lucifer #dictions #supernatural #spn

[insanesonofabitch]

They really did the “seeing your lover for the first time after a long time apart” trope with Dean and Cas over and over and over again in all the different flavors and expected us to act normal about them?

Like yeah let’s kill Cas off he’s too gay. Wait hold on the fans didn’t like that. Okay let’s bring him back but he comes back with a WIFE. Wait hold on DEAN didn’t like that—

#the unintended consequence of them trying to kill Cas off over and over again #they couldn’t commit to it and actually do it in the finale because they know how that would’ve turned out and they’re fucking cowards #[sees Dean pick up the coat and keep it this whole time] Oh that’s not— #I hate this show. and I love it. #rewatching that episode and Dean look so HEARTBROKEN the entire fucking time these guys are absolutely unbelievable #[holding hands with Daphne] “thank you for protecting my wife” #[with his lips noticeably quivering] “your wife. right.” #supernatural #spn #spn 7x17 #the born-again identity #destiel #deancas #casdean #dean winchester #castiel #dean x castiel

[pointyearedelvishprincling]

coming up to two years and still the latam dub of 15x18 feels insane to me. trying to explain the scope of it to people on the outside was impossible and still is tbh. no other show

#i think about it all the time and it’s still a smack to #the face like !!?? dean confessed his love to cas on tv (on netflix even?!) #12 years of waiting for them to say something and in the end it just depends what language you watch in #how is anything about that show real #destiel #deancas #spanish dub #spn 15x18

[suncaptor]

Like I think it's funny people jump to "Sam doesn't know Dean" when Sam shows shock at Dean's behavior rather than "Sam is reacting to Dean showing a different side the role he generally plays which reveals a history the show is telling us of how they interact and define each other."

#also s1 specifically shows a lot of contrast as a way to show us characters #for example Sam is like. angry and bitter and not caring the way he usually does because he's grieving and traumatised #this is brought up repeatedly by Dean to contrast and give us insight into Sam and how Dean usually compares #this is done with Dean too but more regarding Deans posturing. let the contrasts show Deans depth #spn #incoherents #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #sammy #dean #i do think dean comes off better early on if you ignore the red flags and misogyny stuff because of this #because on screen Sam is like. losing his mind and angry sharp edges because hes going through something #and we see That as the contrast of him meanwhile it's more opposite with Dean. like we see sensitivities to his rough edges so to speak #unless you like it when sam is a crazy bitch which ✌️✌️ #also if you understand s1 Sams autistic swag youll love him forever...... #and if you like. want someone to be angry at john

[angelsdean]

Jack: Yeah, he-he wasn't all bad, my dad. Uh, that's what makes our parents loom so large in our heads, I think. They're… a million things to us all at once.

And even after they're long gone, we're stuck with them. Can't help it. They're inside of us. You know, my whole life, I promised myself I'd be nothing like him, but…I ended up just like him.

Kevin: No, Dad. You're way better than him.

Jack: Thank you, my son. And you're gonna be way better than me.

— 5x07, This Is Us

#this is us watch #gonna rb this in a sec to say exactly this but. scenes that could've been dean and jack. scenes that ARE dean and jack. 2 me. #the father son relationships on this show are soo good and rich and they GET the complexity of the dynamic between fathers and sons #and it's the exact same complexity dean has for john. that ability to hold both love and hate for a parent #and neither feeling cancels the other out. they both just. co-exist #and that's what jack (this is us) is getting at here. that your parents can be a million things to you all at once #that you can love them for the good times and hate them for the bad and you'll carry them with you forever #you imagine them to be one way all your life then you grow up and realize oh. they were just a flawed person like anyone else. #or you become a parent and you worry you're becoming like them. and at the same time u realize how hard it is to be a parent #how easy it is to mess up without even trying #and you'll talk to your son about it. and you'll fear you're doing everything wrong #and your son will look at you and say 'no dad. you're way better than him' #and you'll hope that your son turns out to be an even better person #because you just want the best for your kids. #and just. this is a scene dean and jack could've had. another time they go fishing and john comes up #and dean tells him how bad it was sometimes. but how it wasn't all bad. because it wasn't. #and he'll worry he isn't doing things right with jack. and jack will look at him like he's his hero #because he is. because jack loves dean so much. loves the quality time they spend together. it's their love language #and he'll tell him 'no you're way better than your dad' #and dean will do the ol' face pat. like he's done before. like bobby used to do with him. and draw him in for a hug #anyways. i feel fine abt it. #fathers and sons !!!!!!!!!!!!

[bunny11903]

re-watching supernatural and I'm on s3 ep10 and what kills me is the dream that Dean has, Lisa says 'I love you' because thats the one thing Dean wants most in this world is to be loved he DREAMS about it and that makes me go crazy is when he gets that love it get taken away and he's left behind

#supernatural #destiel #dean winchester #i've been obsessed with this show #i swear to god #im going insane #i love and hate this #the other thing about that ep is how dean hates what hes become and what he will become which contrasts lisa saying #i love you in the beginning of his dream

[quietwingsinthesky]

Irks me a little bit whenever Dean torturing in Hell is positioned as his own fault, or even really his choice to do. We get given the solid number, 30 years of torture for him and 10 inflicting it on other people (which was also more torture for him because it’s Hell, the torture evolves, it doesn’t stop), and we get told that wasn’t long enough. That John held out longer. That angels were going to pull Dean out of Hell and if he’d just held on a few years more, the seal wouldn’t have been broken.

But that isn’t true, right? We know Heaven wanted the seal broken, ergo Dean wasn’t getting saved until it was. Until it, and he, we’re thoroughly broken and usable by Heaven to achieve their own ends (ie to make him into a good (obedient) Michael sword.) So, it wouldn’t have mattered how long he held out in Apocalyptic terms because the game (that he didn’t know he was playing) was rigged against him.

But more importantly for Dean, the amount of time he managed not to break literally does not matter. Because it was never going to be long enough. Thirty years, forty, a hundred, a thousand, it does not matter how long he held out because the breaking itself is the unforgivable part to him and the breaking was always inevitable.

Anyway. There’s my Dean meta for the year. Eat up, I guess.

#despite this being brought out by that prev post I’m not like. actually annoyed or anything. #we’re all free to interpret the show however. I just think this way brings out the tragedy of it best is all. #you know it’s like. did Dean & Sam technically both have choices in s4? did they technically make the wrong ones? yes. #but at the same time. there was never a choice. there was never an option to avoid the apocalypse. especially with how little they knew #of what was actually going on over their heads. like. it really is insane to go rewatch s4 and realize how much they don’t understand about #what’s happening around and to them. and that’s the part I like best! it was unavoidable! they will still blame themselves forever! #what’s the thing called where you like both brothers. bibro? that’s me. #samgirl with bibro tendencies. #if you ever see me speak negatively about dean know that it’s because I love those things about him actually. #I like when he’s possessive and self-destructive and terrible. I just think. in this particular instance. this was not him embodying #a character flaw. so much as it was him being forced into his role in the story in a very like. visceral literal sense. #I could go into the Michael-Dean ‘what does it mean that of the two vessels it’s not Lucifer’s sent to hell but Michael’s’ thing but #maybe save that for another day. I have thoughts I’m just tired. #spn #dean winchester

[ardentpoop]

the s4 parallels are putting my heart through the wringer :)

sam extends levels of compassion and patience to the vulnerable people in his life that he was never offered when he needed it most

#like he consistently has these scenes with struggling young people in particular where he's telling them what he needed to hear #you know he had to do all this work on his own to feel okay about himself bc DEAN sure as shit hasn't changed! #im going to fucking explode lmfao my angel..... never thought i'd get a whole arc like this so late in the show it's a good kind of hurt #spn #liveblog tag #13.03 #also remember cas asking him ''weren't YOU all alone when you went off to college at claire's age'' and sam saying ''that's different'' #''how sam?'' #HOW. part of him still sees himself as undeserving of all the love and care he gives to other people #and can you blame him? historically he's gotten so little in return

[bloodfreak-boyking]

"you wanna take another swing, go ahead, if it'll make you feel better." -> "dean you only touch me when we're dying or fighting so please dear god punch me if it means i get to feel your hands on me again"

#sam winchester is touch starved and i believe this with my whole chest #he just wants dean to touch him #and dean is so afraid to touch him bc what if he does and he can't keep himself in check? can't keep his feeling buried this time? #they're both so afraid to show how much they love the other and i personally find it delicious #emma rewatches spn #2x4 children shouldn't play with dead things #spn #wincest #samdean

[sunforgrace]

rowena gave them couples counseling

#do you guys remember this. how they were just. treated like a couple on the show #like oh yeah sam has his love interest eileen and dean has. his cas. and cas has his dean #do not worry it is not nuanced it’s not complexes. it’s actually very simple. Destiel who said that

[spnintheyearofourlord]

Okay Dean “You know I am not much for prayin’ ‘cause in my book it’s the same as beggin’” and “I prayed to you, Cas, every night” Winchester, I see you.

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #supernatural #just thinking my little thoughts #don’t look at me I’m having a moment #something something no greater devotion than that to his brother who he’s praying for in the former yet this implies #the same love and desperation fueling that must apply to Cas too #do y'all see what I'm saying? does the connection make sense? #especially s8 going forward Dean often takes the cake for toxicity I’m sorry it’s just true. HOWEVER. we need to talk about the softness #that man shows to Cas in this season specifically. #for ex: after Cas sternly shuts him down in 8x08 he doesn't get defensive and snap back like Dean often does #he goes over and sits on the bed across from cas and softly says 'talk to me.' like i'm sorry? has dean ever said that?? #not that i recall. usually it's smthg like 'are you ok? no? that's rough buddy. shove it down.' bc that's what he was taught #and mid-end of the prior season though his ‘don’t tell Cas the truth’ plan was not great it was pretty clear imo how deeply happy he was #just to have cas back. broken or not he’d rather have him. . #I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say that's why we're in the tags but it's just something about how Cas deeply betrayed them and we #know how intensely Dean can hold a grudge yet when they get Cas back Dean's softer with him than he ever was before. #and then searches monster land high and low for him even after Cas abandons him #and connecting the former and latter quotes up there it's pretty clear how deep that devotion runs #(platonically or romantically. to each their own reading. and not always healthily.) #because he's as well as admitted he begged for Cas in purgatory. every. night. #Dean 'I don't pray bc i don't beg and I'm not weak' #Dean 'I would do anything for sam so i'll beg for help' #Dean 'I prayed to you. I killed my way to you. did you hear my prayers?' #it's just really somethin'. #I have to wonder if Cas knows how big that is. He must right? #(for my own tags) #dean #spn s8

[bisexual-birdy]

i’m sure this has been mentioned but we need to take a second to appreciate the character growth dean has from season 1 to 4. he used to be the attacker, the shoot first ask questions later, don’t question orders and follow dads lead kind of guy. he was raised that way, raised a soldier. but his interactions with early, god’s soldier cas really shows that he grew out of that mindset. its almost like a mirror of who dean used to be before he realized that john actually wasn’t a perfect man and fucked up a lot. him saying that you always have a choice??? think he learned that the hard way when he disobeyed his dad by saving sam and selling his soul. i think dean regaining control over his own free will because of his dedication to protecting sam, and it being made really fucking clear through cas, is going to be the end of me

#not sure how coherent this is #its 4 am and i’m on s4 ep7 #the way cas is acting is so funny to me because like #in 1.5 seasons he’ll literally be leading a civil war against heaven #and it’s also really fucking sad because his wings aren’t broken #and he still has all his grace #s4 cas makes me have severe urges to protect the shit out of him #also misha collins is so pretty???????? #young cas is *chefs kiss* #dean winchester #deans love for his brother pushed him to grow as a person #and i am so here for it #watching this as a much more mature person and i honestly still find this show incredible #supernatural #sam winchester #castiel #like seasons 1-5 are actually so good????? #i always ignored them bc of the homoeroticism #of season 7-9 #but man i was missing out #anyway my bad for the late night post

[tiktaalic]

#I think this is the reverse where deans really normal but everyone else is abnormal about him #dean would be pal-ing around with s1 Sam like haha Remember When we did this you crazy kid. #and a pre s4 cas is just a cas he rolls his eyes at more. but also makes thinly veiled We Should Fuck statements at more. #sam Could be normal about s1 dean but could also be like. Man. this (dean I live with) sucks. #and he would not enjoy Greetings Bloodfreak the second one. anywhere from annoyed to like. having a real crisis about it #if it was JUST cas and s1 dean. it would be a tragic gay drama from the aughts. #but if it’s not in a vacuum and s15 dean is also there this changes how s1 dean AND s15 cas act. #possibility to wig cas out by virtue of Girl we are in love with a man who is Turbo Closeted he’s gotten WORSE just look at him #and ofc any sort of reaction to s1 dean would make s15 dean bristle and start fights with cas #s15 cas to Sam. that’s literally just some guy to him. got a new roommate ama. cas when s1 Sam shows up #etxt #spnwatch