#this is how i feel rn i’m just always tired

[boundinparchment]

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#My enrichment is going to have to include severely limiting shit again here and elsewhere #there should and is freedom in not having notifications and shit but also: the duality of no one cares #No I’m not going to nuke that’s not what I mean about ripping wallpaper #But I am so tired of always being the one creating and I feel like I exist in a vacuum because idk how to engage with people anymore #I can’t even bring myself to read other fics because where I am mentally is just going to make shit worse rn #also as I’ve said I’m really fucking picky because we all have different takes and that’s cool I know what’s not for me #Wish I could embrace the positive side of no one cares rn ✌️

[princeofyorkshire]

sigh

#i feel like being here isn’t the best for me atm cause i’m always looking for validation that I Don’t Get and i need to be a big girl and #learn how to live by myself learn how to survive on my own i am so tired of always expecting stuff from ppl when they don’t owe me shit #that’s all on me!!!!!!! it’s like i’m trying to find something in here that i won’t get cause i am a nobody in every aspect of my life #also i just hate spreading so much negativity in general and i feel like being like this on main is just not good i want my blog to be a #kind and safe space for everyone not a venting place full of negativity and self hatred #and rn that’s what i’m so i might just take a little break until i’m me again #bye xxxx #**

[nocturna1sea]

Background that I made :)

#art #drawing #my art #my drawing #draw #digital drawing #digital illustration #background #Ight cuz I just realized that the fhs event planning is in September ig I’ll post things from my gallery which ain’t much #I feel so stupid bro- #i mean it makes sense #why there wasn’t many things about it #I was so focused on the number of the day and not the month #oh well ig I’ll see y’all next month #like Im shaking my head hurts knowing this information 😭 #i mean it’s alright cuz I’m laughing rn #i mean probably it proves how tired I was back then #cuz i was at my uncle’s house and it was getting hot and I couldn’t move from the place where I was #something personal was happening (not giving details) but I felt If moved just to get water it would be disrespectful and it was 8 #again probably cause I tired and bored (like always) my Brain didn’t process the information right #and idk how to type apparently

[strangerays]

legitimately so sad that work exists and I can’t just sit in the sun for hours and stay up late writing and have the control I did when I was a kid

#girl I am finding out how awful adulthood is #I just want to have some balance so I can spend time w the people I love and still have time to write #but it’s like I always have to pick one or the other #work is so tiring #and I can’t ask for a break rn it’s just not an option #and school starts next week #I’m taking all online courses because I thought it would give me at least some sense of control and ease my anxiety about showing up #man #change just #scares the shit out of me #:( #I just feel panicky this week #writing has always been so important to me over all else my entire life really!!!! #I’m scared to lose connection w that part of myself #it genuinely scares me

[hobisexually]

x

#hello it’s your weekly scheduled trauma dump on tungle dot com! #I never knew how to explain why I don’t like the holidays right #because yes! I’m full of love and warmth and want to celebrate nice times with the people I love! absolutely #and I like the coziness and the everything #but Monday it was Sinterklaas and it used to be my favourite holiday of them all #it truly makes me feel like a kid and I used to hold on to this holiday with my tiny fists SO tightly because it was just. pure joy. #minus the racism re: piet obviously that’s a whole other can of worms I won’t get into rn #but this Monday it all exploded because of my dad and it was truly a throwback to my entire teenage years #and how it was all about appearances and pleasing anyone but me only to sit in a car and think about how fake it all is and how #that love isn’t. felt. not really. it’s always been about unspoken pain hè projects onto everyone else without respecting your boundaries #and I just can’t do it anymore and this time I set a firm hard no and his temper tantrum led to my mum choosing him over me EVEN THOUGH #THEY ARE LITERALLY DIVORCED?????????? #‘amber hes crying it’s heartbreaking you’re coming’ #yeah well I was also crying at WORK by myself where it is of the UTMOST importance to me they don’t know about any of this #but no no this whole grown man who is in a fucked situation with his family OF HIS OWN UNDOING is who we’re choosing instead of your child #I went! I put on my big girl pants and went and said hi to his family and was more than civil and celebrated with the kids #but it cost me so much. and for the first time ever I saw exactly how much it really cost me #I spent three whole days trying to set a boundary and stand up for myself only for it to be discarded because my No doesn’t matter ever #then I was so stressed i broke my own body in an attempt trying to be civil like my entire cheek is swollen from biting it I literally #haven’t been able to eat properly since Tuesday. my stomach hurts. my headache hasn’t gone. and I am so so so tired I fell asleep at 7pm #and I’ve been white as a sheet everyone at work could tell something was wrong but they didn’t know What exactly #and just. the contact with this man. I can’t keep doing it not when it does /this/ to me #I can’t even properly explain what it’s like or what happens. just that I can’t do it anymore because it’s tearing me apart and it actively #holds me back? I spent the past four years in therapy talking about and trying to fix everything he instilled in me but is holding me back #in my life. in my relationships. in my work. in the way I look at /myself/ #I can’t keep surviving I have to start living #and it’s ALWAYS worse around the holidays. the worst fights and nights of my life have been during the holidays #I am thirty years old and I was suddenly a fifteen year old this week who desperately needed help but wasn’t getting it #and I refuse to live like that ever again. I’m done. I’m done! #and it’s deeply sad and upsetting but we can’t fix this. we just can’t.

[satorhime]

scrapped her 🫶🏾

#don’t ask i’m tired of this #TIREDDD OF CONSTANT BLOCK !! #there’s millions of other fics being posted rn and i’m just not feeling it #this is why i try not to announce fics bc i don’t want ppl to get excited when i struggle to write #it’s frustrating knowing what you want to write but not knowing how to execute it #anyways we move on as always #whatever gets posted. gets posted. i’m not a content creator i’m just a silly little lady doing this for fun !!!

[tezerenotameiki]

#venting in tags bc i cant figure out how to read more on mobile #god i feel so stupid for crying over this cause this always happens 75% of my appointments cant canceled or noshowed last minute #but i just feel so overwhelmed! with my own medical appointments and then dad has stage 2/3 cancer and might be ok but might not #and im scared but mom thinks he’s lying (which he probably could be!) and then he’s gone right back to manipulative shit! #stomping all over whatever boundaries/ground rules i tried to set when we fought ~2 months ago and he told me to go fuck myself and #blew up my phone and told me he was never speaking to me again! #and how tf do i enforce boundaries when he’s talking about chemo and shit??????? #and now i know i need to start over with a brand new therapist bc my current one is totally unreliable #but it’s like the past two years of opening up is all down the drain #and i dont even know what to do anymore. bro i’m so tired and my head hurts so much lol #sorry for dumping this. i am floundering rn

[spacesuitsforemergency]

I’m just gonna head to bed early tonight, I just don’t have much energy or motivation right now and it’s finals week and then the last week of school next week, and then I’m flying by myself to Alaska to visit family after that so I’m just tired so might take a break this week so I can focus on school

#and Dolly I know you’re sensitive about the Mercers #but I DO like them and it’s tiring trying to prove it sometimes cause I feel more pressure to tag with their posts but my brain just goes #blank #and everytime I seem to show little interest in them you always have to bring up that I didn’t like them at first #which as I said was just because I didn’t know anything about Captain Boomerang himself and wasn’t interested in him #and I try to show I still like them through ships because that’s how I* convey interest and love #but I just get stressed out about trying to think of tags for them that I end up blanking #like I’m sorry I come across as not liking them I just #idk I TRY but for some reason I just don’t understand Kylers character very well but again I love Ashton and Boomer and I try to show that #as much as I can #I’m sorry for the rant I’m just tired and stressed and anxious rn

[show-stoppin-enby]

testosterone, moving out of my parents house and an autism diagnosis would fix me I think

#currently in the middle of a breakdown #and drama coursework that’s due tomorrow #still have at least another 800 words. my current pace is about 50 an hour #I’m just so sick of my mum assuming im lazy and not trying. I work so fucking hard. all the time #I told her that im struggling and im bad at coursework #(didn’t tell her just how far behind I am. im not stupid and still have some self preservation instinct) #and do you know what she said?? #‘maybe you shouldn’t go to uni’ ‘it’s always someone else’s fault isn’t it’ #BITCH WHEN AT ANY POINT DID I SAY THAT IT WAS SOMEONE ELSES FAULT #I FUCKED UP BY PROCRASTINATING THIS MUCH. I KNOW THAT #I NEVER SAID THAT IT WAS ANYONE ELSE’S GAULT BUT MY OWN #BUT FEELING BAD ABOUT IT WONT HELP. YELLING AT ME WONT HELP. #sorry to rant. just v stressed and tired and overworked rn #6th form is hell

[willowfey]

genuine question does anyone have any tips on how to manage prolonged constant extreme anxiety? like the kind where u have to always stay distracted bc any second alone with ur thoughts will send u into a nauseous pit. the kind that makes it so u never get a restful sleep and u never have an appetite and ur hands are always shaking and ur muscles are painfully tense. anyone know uh…… what i can do about that

(i don’t have insurance atm and my medical anxiety is far too high to get anything prescribed atm so i need things that i can do on my own other than breathing and i’m sick of reading articles)

#it feels like it did when my mom was sick and i couldn’t think about anything else for months #except my mom ISN’T sick anymore. so there’s no one reason i can point to #it’s just always there. my stomach hurts my jaw hurts my body hurts #i can do things to stay distracted but when the night rolls back around i feel like i’m trapped in a haunted house #i’m just so tired i wanna cry about it. i want to relax so bad. i want to feel okay and safe and rested SO FUCKING BAD #i didn’t used to be like this i hatehatehate it i don’t wanna be like this or feel like this anymore #not to mention my sister has such high anxiety rn too that even if i’m distracting my own brain she can pull me back into it with hers #how do i exist without being endlessly terrified of everything that could happen to anyone at any time? #without the constant painful awareness of every tick of every second passing by? #im like this close to a meltdown at all times. i’d rather be apathetic than this it’s breaking my bones #i’m physically safe in that i want to remind anyone reading this that i have never been yk. suicidal or anything it’s not like that at all. #i want to be here i’m just SCARED sgajshsnd i’m just shaky and tired and tense and aaaaaaaaa #i need help. idek what that means i just need someone else to tell me it’s gonna be okay #(@ the friends that DO tell me that every day. i love u so much i appreciate u so much. i wish my body would remember it) #i put my feet in grass today and touched a tree and made tea and cleaned the house and it helped a little. it did. #but i just feel like everything takes this constant conscious effort and it’s soooo tiringgggggg i just want to rest #i want to let someone else control my brain for a while #sigh #okay i’m done i just needed to scream about it for a moment #there are places to go and things to paint and songs to listen to #i will keep going. even scared. i just wish i were less scared.

[motheyes]

help me i’m having achy heart :(

#i’m rlly like feeling good rn #just have this deep loneliness inside me #this true hollowness #it seems so stupid when i think about it #because that sounds so dramatic #but i rlly do feel so separated from everything #i think. i think i spend a lot of time just trying to be ok with things #i don’t think i realize how disconnected i am from everything #like things just happen and i think i’ve learned to just . let myself be disconnected #it’s hard to explain. things always feel like i’m remembering a dream #it feels like im in a foggy old movie #and i’ve just kinda learned to live with it. it doesn’t bother me so much #but it’s still …. i cant think of the word #i’m rlly fucking tired it’s bed time

[formulafics]

❀ MAKE IT REAL | OP81

Scenario: basically ‘the winner takes all’, but oscar edition…or, the one where despite yn being the closest to oscar, no one suspects the two to be dating. that is, until a video of the pair at a valley concert comes out. (inspired by the song ‘Cure’ by Valley (bless @renarots for this one))

Pairing: oscar piastri x fem!reader

A/N: squadron, it is an oscar day. it took me entirely too long to get to this request, but i’ve finally made it. i hope you guys like this fic as much as i liked making it 🫶🏻

MASTERLIST

ynln on instagram

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ynln happy halloween 🎃😚

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landonorris why is oscar standing like that

⤷ ynln he’s just a boy leave him alone

papayabull MY BABIES THEYRE SO CUTE

dreamyalbon this friendship is everything to me

⤷ formulaferrari not a single thing about yn and oscars relationship is giving “friends” but okay

⤷ dreamyalbon there’s no way they’re anything more than friends though 😭

rizzciardo the way yn’s whole feed is becoming oscar is so funny

formulaverstappen who’s gonna tell them that daphne and fred had a romantic relationship

⤷ ln4nation to be fair, it’s pretty common for friends to go as romantic duos, platonically.

ynln on instagram

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ynln the best mornings ☀️ (also i made oscar the bracelet he’s wearing in the third slide i feel so proud of myself)

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oscarpiastri ❤️

riabish second slide 🥹

⤷ norrisnation ria and yn’s friendship is my favorite thing ever

dreamyalbon yn making oscar a bracelet is so cute </3

formulaferrari another day, another oscar post from yn. i love it here

landosbeachball THE ONLY BESTIES EVER 🫶🏻 the slide of them holding hands omg

f1wagsdaily on Instagram

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f1wagsdaily do you think yn ln is dating anyone on the grid? if so, who? 👀

(left to right) yn and lando, yn and daniel, yn and charles

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norrisnation im so convinced that if it’s anyone it’s danny ric 😭 how do you go to music festivals and football games together so often and NOT date

⤷ charlesrrari yes but also they don’t hang out NEARLY as much anymore? also to be fair, yn’s closest friend - oscar aside - is lando, so it’s kind of natural that she would be in the mclaren garage more, so it just SEEMS like it’s daniel? idk im not convinced that it’s him

formula44 idk i feel like lando is the only one that makes sense

⤷ papayabull what about oscar?

⤷ formula44 idk i just can’t see them together

xf1x oscar piastri (solely based on how much they’re togwther)

⤷ papayanorris lore drop: yn rejected oscar in f3 because he was too busy so id imagine it’s the same now 🤷🏻‍♀️

⤷ xf1x to me that makes it seem more likely since that means they were obviously interested in each other?

⤷ papayanorris good point but maybe theyve moved on? 👀

⤷ pastrypiastri okay but imagine dating oscar and he’s THAT close with another girl, and same with yn being that close with another guy? idk this thread might have put me on the ynoscar agenda 🤭

shumirrari wild guess: jenson button (if you know you know)

⤷ chilisainz what am i missing?

⤷ shumirrari basically lando and jenson button are sort of friends so lando introduced yn to jenson at a race, and lando took pictures of them together. i’m pretty sure yn posted them a while back? idk but it was just a silly guess (her and jenson would be cute though, but i highly doubt it’s them LMAO)

formulaferrari i am TIRED why does no one have faith in the oscyn agenda

⤷ formulaferrari also does no one notice that oscar always is kind of shy around yn or am i actually delusional on this one

⤷ charlesrrari wait lowkey you’re onto something rn 👀

grandprixsandgossip on Instagram

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grandprixsandgossip Oscar Piastri and Yn Ln, a known friend of many drivers on the grid, seen kissing outside of a concert arena last night.

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norrisnation girl there’s three pixels on my screen that could be anyone

papayabull oscar jack piastri what are you DOING

piastrisgirl never, and i mean NEVER, did i expect that out of all the f1 drivers, oscar would be the one where we find out about his girlfriend like this

ln4world this cannot be real

formulaferrari SCREAMING IM INSANE THIS IS EVERHTINH TO ME

stardustf1 okay but wasn’t oscar wearing a hoodie in the other picture that the one guy posted?

⤷ rizzciardo yes, but i’m assuming oscar took the hoodie off and gave it to yn, because not only can you see her wearing a hoodie in this picture (even though it’s blurry, it looks like the same one oscar was wearing), AND ria posted a story of her and yn goofing off after the concert where yn was wearing a black hoodie so 👀

chilisainz were not gonna mention yn in the likes?

⤷ norrisnation she’s having her pierre moment 🤷🏻‍♀️

ynln on Instagram

🎶 Cure - Valley

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ynln concerts are my heaven, but they’re paradise when i’m with him 🫶🏻 @/oscarpiastri is my concert buddy for life whether he wants it or not

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landonorris but are you dating or?

⤷ ynln i’m gonna need you to be so fr rn lando

oscarpiastri fortunately for us, i’m more than happy to be your concert buddy. ❤️

⤷ ynln music to my ears 😚

riabish literally the cutest couple i know *liked by ynln*

princepiastri THE CAPTION, OSCARS COMMENT, THE PICTURES?? THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE

formula44 yn im sorry for not believing in you and oscar

dreamyalbon AND WHOS GOING TO MENTION THE SONG??

⤷ yukit22enthusiast AS A VALLEY LOVER I AM RIGJT THERE WITH YOU

formulaferrari THE FACT THAT THESE SRE ALL DIFFERENT CONCERTS OH MYGOD

formulaferrari i can finally call them my parents and not get flamed

papayabull and so whatever you do don’t listen to the song because i’m so upset

⤷ stardustf1 someone harassed(/j) the guy who took the picture of them at the concert into telling them what song was playing when he took that picture and it was cure 🫠💔

⤷ papayabull NOOOOO it’s officially their song, i don’t make the rules

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[cal-flakes]

hi lover!! can we see dealer!rafe teaching innocent!reader how to do a bump pretty please 😋😋 my fav trope!!!

yes yes yes yes you fuckin’ can my love. (not proofread i apologise i am a sleepy girl rn)

‧₊🫧꒷꒦‧₊˚⋆

— “you lost or somethin’?” a smug voice appeared behind you, causing you to flinch in fright, lost in your own mind. you peered up at him, all glossy lipped and doe eyed, just like he expected. “oh— rafe! sorry, i was jus’ seeing if i left my charger in here” you explained, a sweet smile gracing your face. his brows furrowed, yet his shoulders relaxed, simply unable to keep up the intimidating act while you beamed up at him the way you did.

“and why would it be in here?” he questioned further, eyes narrowing slightly while a smirk tugged at his lips. “oh no— i mean, i didn’t leave it in here, but sarah said she might’ve let you borrow it or something?” your grin faltered slightly, picking up on the undertone of annoyance in his voice.

it wasn’t that rafe was scary— well, he was, but he made an effort not to scare you. how could he? his sister friend who always showed up in sweet little dresses, neatly styled hair, perfected makeup. the last thing he wanted was to scare you, if anything he wanted to know more. unbeknownst to rafe, you were just as intrigued— ogling him over the kitchen island when he came back to tannyhill late at night, interrupting your and sarah’s girly nights in. always offering to help whenever he seemed stressed.

taking a step back, he reached into his bedside drawer with ease, pulling out a familiar bedazzled iphone charger. “m’messin’ with you kid, y’mean this charger?” he chuckled, watching carefully as you let out a quiet, shaky breath before quickly regaining your smile. “that’s the one! thanks rafe!” you giggled, taking the item from his hands before heading for the door. “y’know, why don’t you stay for a bit? spend some time w’me? she’s got you all to herself all the time”

your hand retracted from the door immediately as the words left his mouth, though mentally scolding yourself for seeming so eager. “well— i’m sure she wouldn’t mind, just for little while”

— before you knew it, hours had passed, the only noise in the house being the movie rafe had picked as well as your giggles. you’d found yourself laying down on his bed, head resting on his knee as he lay against the headboard.

“y’look tired doll, y’okay?” he hummed, resting a lazy hand on your cheek as you released a surprised yawn, not wanting him to think you were getting bored. “jus’ a little, s’okay though, i can stay up a bit longer..” you spoke softly, turning over to face him now.

“i’ve got somethin’ that can help” he stated nonchalantly, reaching again into his bedside drawer, this time pulling out a not-so bedazzled baggy. your brows knitted together. “whas’at?”

“you trust me?” he tested, cocking an eyebrow as he sat up slightly. “course’ i do rafe” you smiled naively, watching as he opened the bag, tapping it gently as he poured out a small pile onto the back of his thumb. “this, is everything you need”

his other hand beckoned you forward till you were within his reach, carefully pulling you into his lap, legs slotted beside his as you tugged at the hem of your dress, doing your best to cover up. “now, your gonna close your other nostril, and sniff up— hard, m’kay? you listenin’ baby?” he instructed, tapping your jaw slightly as if you bring you back into the room, noticing the vacant look in your eyes as they stared at him in awe. “mhm”

swiftly, rafe pressed his hand to the back of your head as his other came up to your nose, guiding you through it as the grainy powder made its way up your nose, an unfamiliar feeling that only made your eyes water. “s’okay doll, it’ll hit you in a second alright?” he cooed, using the same hand to wipe away the pools building in the corners of your eyes before pulling you further into him.

“not just sarah’s little friend after all, huh kid?” he smirked, allowing you to nuzzle into his chest for a moment as you both waited for the high.

#ʚ♡ɞ ☁: elle’s dreams #dealer!rafe #dealer!rafecameron #bfb!rafecameron #bfb!rafe #outer banks rafe #outer banks #rafe cameron x fem!reader #rafe cameron x reader #rafe cameron #outerbanks rafe #obx #rafecameron #rafe obx #dom!rafe #soft!rafe cameron

[oatmilkandvellichor]

slowly remembering so many of the reasons why i avoid being wordy online like the plague

#i love how the everything just bubbles to the surface in me #the ways my brain weaves through things in nonsensical patterns that show in how i communicate #the way i my brain is always trying to use words that don’t exist to explain concepts that language fails me on #the ways that my brain soaks up shards of languages i am culturally immersed in to try and fill those gaps in how i’m able to express things #i feel so strange sometimes with how i genuinely talk and type #the more time i let myself be as i am the more blatant it all becomes #and with that i feel more and more like i stick out awkwardly #my sentences are full of made up english - mvskokean - yiddish - yinglish - hebrew - arabic #and i feel like in some ways it’s ‘worse’ in writing. more comes when i lose the ability to stumble so awkwardly over my phonetics & rhythm #it’s still v prevalent verbally - my brain usually fills in the gaps with nonsensical words or an excess of words that barely scratch it #and it all grows more and more over time #i swear i blinked and the next thing i knew i was using hebrew and english filler words in near equal volume #all of my interjections became yiddish or arabic #and i stopped retyping written laughter in english #despite not even knowing when i stopped automatically laughing in english #and the more i actually ‘speak’ online the more i fucking see it #i suppose i’m notoriously bad at processing half of what i say out loud - #so it would make sense that all that awareness would crop up once i started typing more frequently #dai.. for real i’m a complete balagan rn. i need to sleep. i’m so tired. i’ve been gmurah for days and the party tonight did me in. #i’m going to be for real now y’all - yalla bye ♥️♥️♥️

[katsumiiii]

hobie x fem! reader

thinking of hobie brown rn…!

hobie who knows you love the height difference between you two and uses it to his advantage. is constantly angling his head upwards, which causes him to purposely peer down at you through his thick eyelashes. you always get flustered each time he narrows his eyes and tilts his chin, and him being the ever so perceptive spider he is, takes notice of your heated cheeks and continues to do so.

whenever he’s near a doorway or a thick frame he lovesss to lay a palm on the top of it, trapping your body beneath his as you ramble on about whatever it is you’re rambling about. he makes sure to nod along while effectively moving a hand towards your plush waist, bringing your figure flush against his own. he plays with the seam of your shirt, and urges you to keep going when you stutter from the sudden change in position.

hobie who loves to annoy you with his British slang. it’s not necessarily because he uses it often that irks you, it’s the fact that you have no idea what he’s saying and he never makes an effort to help you understand. (he actually finds it amusing each time you attempt to guess what he means and is completely off base every single time).

“babe, I’d love ta get ya that shirt you’ve been beggin’ for, but I’m skint right now. try me next week, yeah?” he hummed, kicking his feet up on the railing next to your bed.

“skint? I feel like you’ve used that one before..” you muttered, huffing in irritation by the smug look on hobie’s face, his lips quirked in amusement.

“told ya what it meant last week. thought ya said you could ‘se context clues?”

“whatever bee, maybe you should speak english.”

“‘aint that what ‘m doin’?”

hobie who always has a blunt neatly rolled on his dresser, his ash tray placed gently to the left of it. he often smoked before running off to whatever it is he did when he wasn’t home (he was very unpredictable as he switched it up weekly to “fuck up consistency” whatever the hell that meant).

hobie inhaled gingerly before tilting his head towards his peeling painted ceiling, his fingers lingered tightly on the wood before lifting it to your lips, “want a go?”

you shook your head, nuzzling further into his shoulder, “mhm no, too tired.” hobie chuckled before greedily puffing the joint, shuttering at the burning feeling it left.

“suit yourself love, more for me.”

hobie who you introduce differently to your friends each time you bring him up. one day he’s your boyfriend, the next he’s your significant other, and the next he’s your ‘close friend’. they always question the constant switch ups, but you don’t ever seem to mind. you know where you stand with the man, and to him that’s all that matters.

“so what’s up with you and��..” your friend trailed off, stirring the ice in her drink.

“hobie?” you questioned.

“yeah him, so is he your boyfriend or what?”

“it’s complicated, he hates labels, makes him feel confined.” you replied, shrugging your shoulders as you lay your head on your palm.

“that doesn’t bother you? is he like scared of commitment or something?”

you scoff, lightly shaking your head, “no, he just doesn’t want to contribute to the system.” you answered bluntly, taking another sip of your lemonade.

“the system?” your friend asked, eyebrow raised at the quip.

“nevermind, don’t worry about it.”

hobie who subtly brags about you to his people. loves to show you off, and has no problem admitting he does.

“yeah bruv, my girl jus’ got into her dream fuckin’ college. been workin’ hard for that shit all year, man.” hobie boasted, pushing his hands out in order to bounce off the wall next to him.

“oh my goodness how wonderful! when do we get to meet this companion of yours?” pavitr questioned, flinging his body upwards to keep up with the male to his right.

“eh, don’t know yet, when I feel like it, yeah?”

all in all hobie is so cute and I literally am in love with him!!

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