#this is just me ranting abt missing my ex best friend sorry sjdjd

[justmehernthemoon]

moving on from friendships that have ended is so weird and hard lol

#this is just me ranting abt missing my ex best friend sorry sjdjd #trying 2 decide if me wanting to reach out to my ex best friend is because like it would genuinely be a positive thing for me or if it’s bc #i miss her so much sometimes i can’t think logically… #like everything reminds me of her i HATE it!!! and at first it was really freeing not having her in my life bc when i say she was a bad #friend that is a extremely nice understatement #but like . i was talking to my friend the other day and i realized like every other thing i talked abt was a memory tied back to her and i #just miss her so much 🥺 but also like. what if it’s just as toxic and one sided for me again?? it’s been over a year and like i would like #to believe she’s changed bc every time i have spoken to her since i ended our friendship she always seems to miss me but idk if it’s just #because i am not in her life anymore so like when i am it would go back to how it was? eventually? like her being basically a bystander in #our friendship #i mean we have only spoken like… idk twice since last august but like never more than one text each lol like #on birthdays and when I found out smnth about her family #hhh it’s very difficult moving on from it when it’s someone who had been your friend from when you’re like 11 to 21 lol . #and like she was essentially never a good friend but i am like well maybe she’s different now 😭 can’t decide if that’s my mind just being #sad abt her though. wish my brain was just straightforward w me #like it’s like i was on a happy note not having that sadness and negativity in my life for months but now i’m just like i have so much to #tell you every day i see something i want to text you i miss you