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novelbirdfan · 2 months

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used the lyrics from somethin stupid by frank sinatra :[

happy birthday al haitham

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project-sekai-facts · 9 months

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I could totally be wrong abt this, since I haven't actually read most wxs stories, but from the ones I did read, I noticed that Tsukasa sometimes... weaponizes his insecurities and struggles? I shouldn't use the word weaponize, more like he uses them as a tool to enhance his acting? The biggest example being Pheonix at the Sky's Edge CH 7 & 8, where he feels like he'll never reach the goal he set for himself and uses it as a way to improve his role as Ryo? Or Dazzling Stage, where he turns his loneliness as a chid into a way to relate to Torpe? I think he does it all the time actually, since he's super loud and dramatic but his internal dialogue is so much quieter. He takes any emotion he feels and bass boosts it, which actually makes a lot of sense since we've seen him when he's not acting like that and Nene was actually kind of put-off that he wasn't yelling and being theatrical (wonder magical showtime CH 8).

Yeah, you're right. Tsukasa is probably best described as a method actor. He struggles with characters that he cannot relate to (emotionally), and has to find a way to connect himself with them in order to play them, such as Torpe and Rio. With Torpe, he was only able to act the character as best he could once he came to terms with his lonliness as a child/younger teen and realised that he used the piano in the exact same way Torpe looked at the stars. Same with Rio, where he tried starving himself like the character does first, only for that to not work but then forced himself to face his inferiority and hopelessness, and was able to connect that to the character. He always finds a way to relate to the character emotionally in the end, but both times it’s required him to uncover/face something unpleasant (that being his loneliness and inferior talent). So yeah, he's good at fairly flat 'hero' or otherwise mostly positive characters, but when he gets given a more emotionally complex character, he has to use his personal struggles to get into the mindset of the character.

I think that Tsukasa is the kind of person who doesn’t like to dwell on the past too much, but also he doesn’t seem to like to think about things that aren’t, y'know, mostly positive. Like, the reason he wanted to become a star, as well as his loneliness when he was younger both stem from Saki being really ill, which is not the most pleasant thing to think of. He doesn’t think about the group splitting up in future as much as the other members do, he is aware of it but doesn’t face it. Mr. Showtime and some brief scenes in Lion Dance New Year are the best look at that we get. And he has to force himself to face that he has less talent than the people around him in Phoenix at the Sky's Edge and breaks down crying (this is not healthy jeez).

There's an area conversation from a while back where Rui asks Toya if Tsukasa has always had the confident and showy personality and Toya says that Tsukasa adopted that personality as a kid because he felt he needed to be more outwardly confident for Saki, and it just stuck. (note: EN translated the first sentence a bit weird. As far as I can understand, in the original text Toya says that Tsukasa did do the persona deliberately as a child, but here it makes it sound like he didn't). I think that alone explains the difference between how he acts outwardly vs inwardly.

He projects everything big and loud because it makes him appear confident, and he had to be brave for Saki so he could make her happy. Not all of the projecting is for confidence reasons, he's generally pretty emotional when the emotions are positive, and always projects them up to 11. I'm assuming that with the length of time Saki was in hospital for, he got so used to his persona that it just naturally became his normal personality. So maybe as that happened he started to amplify how he expressed everything, not just his courage. When we get to see his inner self, I think it's more toned down because he doesn't need to project when he's alone, and I'm guessing that this is how he acted before the persona, or at least somewhat close.

#tsukasa’s psyche and mentality is definitely one of the hardest to understand out of the cast.#not helped by the fact he’s p emotionally constipated. fun to write about though #asks #mod talks #this is kinda messy #tsukasa tenma #project sekai

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trashanstuff · 1 year

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man I’m sooo original

#luigi #bowser #bowigi #bowser jr #my art #Jesus christ the brain rot #this is kinda messy #princess peach #mario #mario bros #dress shenanigans #peach is secretly a prankster

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llitchilitchi · 1 year

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Soo copacetic AU : )

Do Dream and Sam ever meet again after Dream is rescued and starts his healing arc? (Assuming he isn’t just killed by techno sjdhsj) What might that look like 👉👈

/ cw: manipulation/guilttripping and all the usual stuff related to copacetic au. neither of them are okay and neither of them looks at their situation in a healthy way. this is far enough into the healing arc that Tubbo's made significant progress with Dream's prosthetics for him to use more regularly

"You can stand again," Sam notes as Dream steps closer.

"Somewhat, yeah. Tubbo's done wonders. Phil helped," Dream replies as he takes a seat across from Sam. "It's not the same." Never will be, he wants to say, but they were given five minutes and not a second more, and he doesn't want to lose a second of that time to pointless arguments. Instead, he settles on: "I still have to use a wheelchair, most of the time."

Sam hums and nods. "So you came to show off?"

Dream bites his tongue, takes a deep breath. He counts to ten, tries to at least, but stops at seven. "Kind of. If you want to call it that way."

"I could help," Sam offers, turning the conversation back to himself. "The prosthetic," he specifies. "Could make it better."

"Thanks." Dream clings to civility despite the pang of guilt, the small voice in the back of his head telling him to let Sammy handle things. "I'll leave it to Tubbo, though."

They sit in silence, then, neither sure what to say, now that they've been stripped of their roles. It's Sam who speaks first.

"I'm glad to see you doing well," he admits, and Dream wants to believe that it is sincere.

"You're the reason I was not well in the first place."

Neither of them knows when it began. Neither knows whether they mean Dream's legs or the lack of baby fat on his cheeks, where the hurt truly begins and ends and how much of the blame is for Sam to take. All of it, George would say. Most, if it was Sapnap speaking. Dream can only blame him for so much without knowing he pushed him there.

(He knows a push does not necessitate falling head first into this mess, and Sam did little to regain his balance.)

"I did not want to do it," Sam mutters, his voice grating against his throat with pain and regret.

"You hurt me."

"I know."

"And you're not sorry, either."

"I swear I never lied to you when I told you that I wouldn't have hurt you if you'd done what I told you. But you didn't. I had to."

"I know."

If you'd behaved, Sam thinks, there would be no need to deny you food. If you'd given us the book, there would be no need for the torture. If you'd stayed, there would be no need to clip your wings.

I hated hurting you.

They fall silent, and the next time Sam speaks, it's Dream's name with an echo of a second voice from the outside. Dream forces himself to stand, gripping the chair to keep himself steady as he regains his balance, and then turns towards the door.

"Wait," Sam calls, and Dream stops before he can think about disobeying the order. "Will you come back?"

Dream remains still until the door opens, with Bad waiting on the other side, and he walks out of the room.

He stumbles.

Sam smiles.

#asks #hiding-in-the-vault #copacetic au #c!awesamdream #dreblr #this is kinda messy

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britinbliss · 2 years

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“all i need is him to be my loverboy”

#LOVERBOY IS A BOP #this is kinda messy #britin #brian kinney #justin taylor #queer as folk #queerasfolk #qaf #queer as folk us #qaf us #qafedit #brian/justin #brian x justin #3x09 #tw flashing

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phospolipid-bilayer · 4 months

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Ok I think I'm going to go with the route of the Voices becoming more and more like their princesses. Makes coming up with powers for them a lot easier. Except for Smitten and Skeptic. I guess they could have fire and water power respectively? Sounds a bit cheap though. Hero could have TLQ's powers, whatever they are. And I have no idea for Contrarian. Or Hunted. Okay wait I'm having a thought.

So each Voice has three powers. Something innate to them, something similar to their princess, and something unique to them that's not the first two. It'd go something like :

Cold - Suppressed emotions and pain, Temporarily become intangible/mist-like, Ice power?????

I'll have to. Think on it more.

#This is kinda messy #Just putting thoughts out there really #I really should take notes or something #I HEAR THE MAD VOICES OF PEOPLE #I OPEN THE DOOR #Have to be really careful to not think hard about power scaling #I'm not about that life

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lonelystarlet · 4 months

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after all these years of being in this cold room

and reading the love letters again and again

the realization came in the dead of night

staring at these broken and bruised limbs

i don’t think i’ve ever healed from anything at all

i’m always chasing you in my peaceful dreams

and writing about it with your pen in my hand

it’s like this every single day and nothing changes

so ignorant as to why i torture myself

but with the new year comes reflection

now i know that i’d still do anything for you

too dumb and scared to be alone any longer

so desperate that my heart forever beats for you

the battle scars you gave me don’t mean shit

when in secret i kinda fucking liked the pain

i’m hurting myself because you can’t anymore

time hasn’t healed a single wound

- written by me

#starlet’s poetry #my poem #my writing #poetry #sad poem #this is kinda messy #i don’t even know if i like this #i have never gotten over anything ever

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maroon-poet · 2 months

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you know what, i love tumblr. i really do. but i'm just so tired of those fucking pornbots, and the fact that recently someone asked me to be their sugarbaby and of the fact that i still have that anon hate in my asks because i annoyed a tumblr celebritiy once and im just so tired because if i ever say that i dont like that tumblr celebrity i will become tumblr's biggest enemy but im just so tired and i want to shittalk people

#this is kinda messy #deal with it #remie's posts

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bellwethers · 1 month

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