#this is legit so heartbreaking holy shit

[orcelito]

I finished critical role Calamity

I will never be the same

#speculation nation #my head hurts from crying so much hfkshfkdhckdh #and yes i did end up crying again #this piece of media joins Tales of Xillia 2 as being the only 2 pieces of media that have ever made me cry twice #i legit had to get a napkin to blow my nose bc i just kept Crying in that last bit #thing after thing after thing. the pieces falling together as they did. ohhhhh my goddddd #face. in my hands. i have so many thoughts and feelings. oh my godddd #i definitely made the right decision to save watching this for when i was emotionally sound enough #& prepared to deal with the heartbreak of it. 6 fuckin months. #but i watched it and im so glad i did. bc that was just. so so so so good #masterful. it was Masterful. #im genuine scared of Brennan after that hfkshkfd but also hes so fucking good at what he does. hooooly shit. #bro really went 'you want me to dm the calamity? okay!' WHAM just hitting us in all the places that hurt #i am taking some Pointers from him as a chronic angst writer let me tell you #and just. aaaghhhhhhgnndncjskc i need to go to sleep bc my.head Hurts. but this was. so so so good #i am yelling. for 5 million years. holy fucking shit.

[invisiblequeen]

Noe Bodi Gameplay: Day 36, Part 2

Here we are! Zavier St. Tompkins (@westonsims00) and Rhea Moya (@fl0pera) have arrived at the Romance Festival for a first date.

Other notable guests included:

Simeon Silversweater in an outfit that i did NOT curate for him...

Noemy Ortega (@beebeesiims) painting next to Rain Drop (@riverofjazzsims)....

And Donna Richmond (@elysiantrait) passed out on the ground, possibly from all the exciting activity she got up to back on HER first date.😑

Back to the lovebirds. They sipped Sakura Tea to get them in the mood--as if Zavier needed it; this man was on a flirty high the whole time!

The pair took to the dance floor and waltzed their way around the ground murals quite gracefully.

Look. At how. They stare at each other.

"This will be! And everlasting love!" I sang as I watched them end the dance with a perfect pose.

Only soulmates could have so much chemistry on the dance floor.

Zavier was so happy he threw her flower petals!! They were legit the only ones who were this lovey-dovey with each other, everyone else was either awkwardly dancing or standing by the tea without drinking it.

They were so lovey-dovey, in fact, that they caught the eye of the Love Guru.

When they sauntered over to him, Zavier jokingly asked about his romantic future, certain that the Guru would answer favorably.

But--

And Zavier did not like that at all.

Rhea's smile kind of froze in place as she watched Zavier engage in a back-and-forth with the Guru, as if any of this was supposed to be taken seriously. Zavier, meanwhile, gone off the sakura tea, was feeling personally attacked, and started wondering if the Love Guru was warning him that the union he had just found led to heartbreak.

And in perfect (or horrible) timing, look who also showed up to see the Love Guru! NOEMY ORTEGA (@beebeesiims)

She was given a much more hopeful prediction, which made her smile and made the couple next to her tense up.

Noemy, who had no inkling of their situation, greeted them both with a warm smile. Zavier, feeling petty, turned and congratulated her on "what a happy happy life you're gonna live! What's it like to have a non-bleak destiny? What's it like to have a destiny?"

(can you tell that this situation has brought up some things?)

Noemy, who was not blind to his undertone, kept it pushing with kindness.

Rhea, who could only focus on Zavier's "charmer" smile, did not like this interaction at all. She stomped away rather quickly.

Which left Zavier alone to be properly chastised by his new acquaintance.

"How do I get past 'Bleak' when you got to have 'Great'?"

"It's only bleak if you MAKE IT BLEAK, dummy."

"Holy shit, you're right, thanks, nice to meet you, gotta go BYE!"

Don't be too mad at him, guys, he's been burned by legit psychics before.

So he decided to make it up to Rhea by secretly lighting one of the festival fireworks she'd been waiting to see.

Considering the fireworks were supposed to be lit at the END of the festival, she picked up on the signal and awkwardly moved to where he was still standing over the fire thingy.

With nothing but sincerity, Zavier looked her straight in the eye, and apologized for freaking out at the Love Guru. He INSISTED that he wasn't flirting with Noemy.

Rhea, in turn, apologized for thinking he would actually flirt with someone in front of her like a DUMMY, even though he was being a dummy. He's just not THAT kind of dummy.

"We make our own destiny, right, Z?"

"Yeah..."

"...and I'm about to fulfill mine right now."

❤️🥹💕

They shared their first kiss at the Romance Festival, with fireworks sparkling all around them, and fireworks sparking between them.

AND THEN THE GAME CRASHED.

[previous] - [next]

#sims 4 #the sims 4 #sims4 #simblr #ts4 #other people's sims #n0bodygameplays #noe bodi gameplay #this happened a while ago now #but it still irks my soul #IDEK WHAT IT CRASHED FOR #sims 4 gameplay

[madrone33]

Right so... been going crazy trying to catch up on the explosion of stuff peeps have been doing since the EPIC: The Musical Ocean Saga release, but. Got some downtime now, and I just wanted to post my reaction to listening to the songs, 'cause it was wild bro.

Fyi, this is all taking place at around 11:30 pm 24th Dec for me, as I'm an australian, so that would make it... uh, 8:30 am 24th Dec for americans I think? Idk, timezones are weird bro. Basically, I listened to the songs and then wrote down my immediate reactions at like 1 am lol.

*ahem*

OK HOLY SHIT HOLY FUCK. OK OK. They came out for australians. They CAME OUT FOR AUSTRALIA!!!!

I was on dicord, right? And then another australian says they're out, and i'm like wait what but there's still like 16 hours till midnight in est, but i look up 'luck runs out jorgre rivera-herrans' on yt (cause it's a unique name) and scroll down and FUCK IT'S THERE!! THE STANDARD AUTO TOPIC VERSION!! IT'S NOT EVEN MIDNIGHT HERE YET?? (23:24 at the time of discovery. The vid says it was uploaded 3 hrs ago already)

The piano. I heard the first notes of piano and ohhhhh shiiiit it's actually happening!!!

i opened the door and called out to mum 'cause i was still in disbelief and she was still awake and i was like "mum... i think it's out" or SOMETHIG LIKE THAT IDK THE EXACT WORDS. She said jokingly she'd thought i had an existential crisis and GIRL IT KINDA FELT LIKE IT?? I WAS NOT PREPARED! I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE ANOTHER 16 HOURS!

I tapped on the link thingy to the album in the description and then i had the album RIGHT THERE HOLY MOTHER OF JESUS. IT'S STORM. IN THE FLESH. THERE'S A FUCKING TRUMPET-

I did my civic duty and informed (read: screamed in all caps) to everyone in the discord while mum listened to the first song 'cause she said she was interested and asked and i was so excited and gave her my headphones to listen to storm and then I took em back once I was done and now it's time to go dark. I said goodnight to mum and... pressed play.

Here's the highlights:

Storm: mixing is on another level bro. The vocals, the harmonies, the chorus, and hearing all those snippets without breaks in between, actually flowing and making sense and that ending beat is AHHH-

It went so fast. It's three min long how did it go by so fast what-

Luck Runs Out: the piano is godly. They actually changed the melody of the 'you could be caught off guard' part. My first thought after ooo? Was 'damn it no longer sounds like shut up and dance w/ me' lol.

I think this one changed the most from the snippets. Jsut the way they say lines, and stray words. I love it. The harmonies-

KYFC: the intro is that one atmospheric snippet he did with the flutes!! Aeolus sounds so sassy compared to the old snippets oof hell yes! There's a small instrumental interlude between the first chorus and the crew asking about the bag which is new.

THE PENELOPE PART. OH. MY. GOD. I LEGIT TEARED UP, I WAS CRYING, I'M CRYING JUST THINKING ABOUT IT AND TYPING THIS OUT IT WAS SO FUCKING HEARTBREAKING.

Trying to hold them in his arms? Time to be that father he always wanted to be?? His eyes and heart and soul is heavy??? I'm FUCKING CRYING-

Also wow he really just stayed up for 9 days huh? Respect. Also, fuck those crewmates man. Bet they felt real stupid when it got them killed. Oh, wait, fuck it didn't Poseidon killed everyone but them oh hell nah- And Odysseus still goes to save them from Circe?? Bro. BRO. Just let them die. It ain't worth it.

And that's how Jorge introduces the land of the giants? Cool! I was wondering about that.

Poesiedon pull up! (Is it bad that i thought he sounded like ares in the pj musical there lmao-)

RUTHLESSNESS: it's here. Oh my lord it's here. Everyone stay calm. Fuck it IT'S FUCKING HERE!!

The chanting, Ody's terrified 'Poseidon...', the electric guitar on Poseidon's verse, the fucking growl in his voice is amazing, the 'Die.' is as;ihfd HELL FUCKING YES!!

I love that the 'Captain-!'s of the drowning men is more apparent here, and the silence afterwards... ooof you can hear Ody's horrified stuttered breaths and the way the lyric's changed to '43 left under your command' is soooo fucking good.

And then Ody's sudden defiance and the fucking burning in his eyes as he defies a god and escapes death- Yes. YES! It's so good-

... No wait it's over?? That's it??? WHYYYYY-

(Side note - the fact that there weren't any ads between vids is incredible and I thank the gods for this blessing.)

Ok, but all seriousness, that was incredible. I- I couldn't stop smiling. My face actually started hurting I was smiling so much. I was shaking the whole time, and I had to keep reminding myself to breathe, and- It was amazing. This was an amazing experience, and I'm so glad I could freak out to mum, and she was excited with me, and it was such a good surprise, like an actual chrismas gift from Jorge or some shit. I love it. I love this. Genuinely. It's an amazing thing he's given us and I thank him, sincerely. Thank you, Jorge, and everyone involved in creating this for people to enjoy and love. You should all be proud.

Thanks for reading me freak out, whoever made it to the end lmao. Tagging @dootznbootz because their rambles gave me the confidence to throw my own into the void. Thx :D

#epic the musical #epic the ocean saga #ocean saga release #rambles #rants #odysseus #poseidon #storm #kyfc #luck runs out #ruthlessness #immediate reaction #timezones ftw #25 december #reaction #my posts

[respiteresponse]

have you seen tommy’s new video???? dream calling him to say lock your windows and doors they’re coming for you must’ve been so fucking terrifying

i just saw the clip thats legit heartbreaking holy shit . literally no jokes thats super upsetting and im really glad dream and tommy had and have each other : (

#ask #anon

[crayonurchin]

The fact that as a nearly 27 year old woman, I can tell the anxious and depressed teenagers I work with that not only does it get better, but THEY get better, is wonderful. It doesn't fix their issues, it just gives them a view of a future where things have improved.

As a nearly 27 year old woman who's going through her first 'real' heartbreak and breakup, still lives at home, is terrified to try dating or exploration of sexualities and being more open, does not have a full time job or the ability to move out without moving so far away I'd have to quiet my part time entertainment job, has no clue if she'll ever fall in love again or get married or adopt kids and is still struggling with PTSD from stuff that happened in school, work, life and my own untreated for years mental state... Yeah I want the 37 year old me to reach out and show that it'll all get better and I will get better.

But 37 year old me isn't here yet, nor is 27 year old me. 26 year old me, at least, is trying to make better changes.

Yes, I have lost someone I thought I'd marry. It's sad. I miss her. I miss us. I am so happy she's moved on to bigger and better things and I am so sad it didn't go the way I so badly wanted. But one day, I think I'll be with someone who I love and who loves me back, in that intimate way I loved her. We'll geek over special interests, crave each others company without NEEDING it, help each other to keep being our best selves and live our own lives whist living a life together. She will hold me close and I'll feel at home. And I'll look on this experience as a sad but, as something that at least showed me that I can feel love. And that love I did feel was amazing.

Yes I am not in a career and I'm afraid of GETTING that career and not liking it. But I'm also lucky that I like my current weekend entertain work a lot, and it's shown me WAY more skills that I didn't know I even had! I wrote a god damn book. I'm still looking for a publisher but holy shit I wrote an entire book. And I want to write more! I might have freelance coming up and in April I'll be recording my audio drama, which will help me apply to voice based things. YES, it's not a career yet, but I'm so much more qualified than I used to be!

Yes I still live at home. Because fucking hell I have had a ROUGH 20s. I was so mentally unstable for so long and had no idea. I was genuinely ready to kill myself several times. And that's hard to admit. I'm autistic and have ADHD! I need legit help with things others don't! I look high functioning because of my socialising abilities but I can't keep my space clean. I can't do paperwork. I can't remember to talk to people without alarm set reminders. My OCD still rules so much of my life, my PTSD age regressed me. I'm only just learning to experience anger and jealousy without beating myself up.

Yes. It's hard to believe anyone likes me. I feel so unlikable and boring and annoying. And I know that's almost certainly not true. I have friends. I have new friends. I have a... sort of crush, maybe. I have family that love me. I have people asking to hang out.

I worry all the time I'm a selfish and evil and cruel and fake person. I want to become a better person and work on my flaws, but also the level of bad I feel is probably because of my OCD.

17 year old me thought she was a murderer. Spoiler. I wasn't. I was mentally unwell and suffering with OCD that gave me intrusive thoughts.

I know some of my changes are good. I've started feeling that autistic euphoria from a special interest again. Today I drove home from a gig, and the sky kept producing the most 'shaped' clouds. My heart went glowy. I have missed feeling glowy.

One day 37 year old me will be very happy 26 going on 27 year old me tried her best.

#vent #but like #positive vent? #I mention some dark stuff but it's ultimately looking on the bright side of things

[sparkles-and-trash]

Holy shit I feel so fucking betrayed and just fucking wtf wtf wtf

I’m legit too shocked to be sad, I’m just a mix of empty and fuming, this is literally so fucking heartbreaking and insane and wow what a way to start of the year, truly a promising start wow

#sorry for venting but I need to do it somewhere certian irl’s can’t see because #Imm NOT ready to talk about it #I’m so angry and sad I could EXPLODE #holy fucking SHIT #like thank GOD i branched out friend wise #my irl’s that I actually see/ that lives around here are too good tbh #love tjem sm #but STILL #17 years of friendship for this shit? #GROSS #vent #venting #friendship breakups #personal #irl tag

[miutonium]

Omg guys I really need to talk briefly about the PPG Movie. I actually never watched it as a kid because this movie didn't get release in my country and I actually didn't know they even have a movie until recently last year. I remember when I was a kid they kinda promoted the movie on CN by showing clips of the girls being interviewed seperately on a red couch and lmao my 6 yro brain thought it was cool and I didn't understand a thing at the same time because girly doesnt understand English so I actually didn't know it was for their movie.

Anyway, holy fuck this movie is everything to me because who would've thought a cute series about 3 little girls with superpowers has the saddest backstory ever???? I'm not going to talk about the plot in details, I rarher you guys watch it and understand the grief and pain I went through.

I honestly bawled my fucking eyes out after it ends because bITTCHHHH HOW DARE THE WHOLE TOWN TREATS MY LITTLE GIRLS LIKE THAT?????? 😭😭😭😭

I like how they build the girl's character here, when they were uh...born, all three of them look like a doll, you can't really tell their personality early on until the Professor assigned them their names. And I find it funny that Buttercup won't be as grumpy and tough as she is in the show if Utonium gives more thought into naming her lol. Also i won't shut the fuck up ever about this but I just love how Utonium just made them because he wants kids, he wants to be a parent and just raise them to be good kids. And him being new to the parenting thing (like legit he just thought of wow I want to be a dad because this town fuckin sucks and hours later procured a triplets in his lab) and he being very extremely freshly new to the parenting thing was like "oh shit it's their birthday I should get gifts!" When it clicked on him that it was their birthday and just ran out of the house to get them a car load of gifts while talking to gimself about how excited he is to be a dad (and also reminding himself not to leave the kids home alone anymore so after the incident he only leaves the kids with babysitters at home if he needs to go out at night)

It's so heartbreaking to see the whole town turning their backs on these innocent girls. They totally didn't know how the world works, they're literally 1 day old and poor Professor totally didn't know how to take care of them. They don't understand why people hate them and flew out and cry on meteors trying to process why everyone hates them. Idk seeing all three of them up there had me fuckin bawling like a dumb baby I am. I think I saw people say the Professor is bad at this time too because he didn't believe them and abandoned them and like honestly, no???? I don't accept Utonium slander in this house. He didn't hate them at all, it was just too much for him to handle in one day and he looks more like he is disappointed than he hates them and wants to get rid of them. If you ever notice, at the near end of the movie he ran back to the town with Antidote X and frantically looked for the girls to tell them he has ways to defeat Mojo. He didn't give up on them at all, he immediately ran home and quickly whipped out the Antidote from his lab and drove back downtown just to save the city instead of leaving it in chaos despite how much the people terrorised him and painted him as a villain. He still loves his native town very much and even though he is human, he wanted to give a helping hand to stop the rampaging monkey from destroying the city more. I wont shut the fuck up about Utonium in this movie ever ughhh 😩😩😩💕💕

I don't hate this movie at all despite the ill treatment on them in the middle of the movie. I really appreciate how their backstory has more meaning and also I don't blame on Townsville at all, I would be freaked out by them too. They have rampaging crimes and monsters visiting them by weekly. That's already a threat to them and then suddenly 3 little girls are rampaging the city while playing tag and this time they know who made them and you can arrest that person? I would be knocking on Utonium's door with picket fence and sporks and screams angrily at him too lol.

Anyway, 10/10 will terrorize my moots to watch this and made them cry too 🤧

#asuka speaks #also saw a few cut scenes of the movie and one of if was Utonium getting his ass literally beaten #and it fucking breaks me apart holy fuck- #ppg #ppg headcanons

[cwarscars]

*taps mic* hi hello good night! I'm here to talk about Magnar Valerio Heidegger because of course that is his canon name and I don't care what SE has to say about it. :) No, but really - I know I've said this in the past but Heid is an emotional muse for me and I'll do this again.

I don't think I was prepared for how much you made me care for him - it's fair that the remake made him more than a lil pixel in a green coat and thick beard, but I had no feelings or thoughts for Heid until I met you. I remember being a weird choice of a muse - Reeve and Scarlet (even Hojo with the yucky factor) were such popular directors, why would someone pick Heidegger?

All I can say is that I'm glad you did it because HOLY FUCK. I remember reading through this incredibly long and detailed bio and just... Fully seeing Heidegger as a fully-fleshed character. The abuse at the hands of the father he failed to recognize as such; the intense pressure to succeed and to please him nonetheless; the marriage that ended in heartbreak with two daughters he didn't spend nearly enough time with; the worship of Shinra Sr.; his views on world politics and how he so clearly sees himself as a man with the guts to do what needs to be done to achieve results.

With your writing, I just went from someone who largely ignored him to someone who frankly adores the character. There is just so MUCH room for growth, complicated themes to work with and you just turned him into this layered, complex asshole I love? That Melissa would definitely marry no matter the verse? I just cannot get enough of how much history you've given him, how plausible it all sounds and the fact that you write a villain we can relate/understand his reasoning without ever woobifying him.

You are THE Heidegger writer to me and I'm forever amazed and wowed by your headcanons and super well detailed posts. It all tracks to the OG or the remake in some way and it's just so good I forget it's not canon. Or fuck that - you're better than canon. PLUS Heidegger gave me you and 3 years later (3 years??? omg) we're here and having fun and I will never not love the husbando for it.

You're amazing and your Heidegger is a work of art. *mic drop*

hey…how’s my portrayal? ♡

(( MARI. WHAT THE FUCK ----

i legit saw the start of this and thought 'ooohhhh, a nice tasty lil ask for heidegger & mel to have sexy times in' AND THEN I KEPT READING AND I WAS LIKE 'WAIT A SECOND'. you know something, i'm not much of an emotional bear - i think we both know this because i have n e r v e s of s t e e l but...this got my eyes damp? like, what the hell???

i feel emotional reading this, it's like how i mentioned to light; it feels good to have been given the platform and supported by you guys in writing heid. like, i feel as though these headcanons and storylines and stuff come out because of you guys. i sometimes feel so embarrassed by my love of this guy because he isn't cloud or sephiroth or even one of the lesser but still popular characters (ala rufus or tseng). like, who the hell would like heidegger? haha. well, me apparently :P

but it feels great because i get this support and this validation by people like yourself. you just DIVEBOMB into my inbox with this absolute love letter of goodness and it honestly has me feeling so warm and fuzzy. ive been so down these last few weeks just due to various bits and pieces and you know, when you reach a stage where you can't even cry* because you feel so shit? well, now i'm sat here with lil happy tears beading in the corners of my eyes - like, bruh- you did that, i love you for it.

of course - i can't just fawn on how much i love you and how sweet you are, mari. because our friendship is special and i'm so forever grateful to have started to write with you that one day and i'm so glad that everything from there has happened and we've always stayed in touch but like -

melissa. you KNOW i wouldn't have half the characterisation of heid if it wasn't for her. that initial meeting - the INITIAL plots we had with the blackmail and stuff before these two coconuts fell in love. their son and retirement to costa del sol. remember the bitchy neighbour that mel HATED? edlyn and dwayna befriending mel and mel restoring their relationship with their father? all of the smut and all of the wonderful things we've written together? mari, you're such a special writing partner to have. you're one in a million. your girl is the best and i (and my lil collection of men) will forever love her. i don't even need to tell you how much i adore your writing because you know i could read a novel of your works. please write mel into a book, i NEED

my final thing i wanna say is just -

suns out, guns out - i love them and i love you ♡♡♡♡

#(answered) #myfave art right there <3 #(ooc) #(foreversave) #im just so blown away by this #you're an angel yknow #i JUST KEEP RE-READING IT

[frutaetae]

Hey author, I missed you! It took an hour for me to find you😭, good thing I remembered the name of this one particular fic which is the NTTD that payed a great help in finding you. I don't know but NTTD just came lingering on my thought out of the blue and I couldn't help but wonder how the fic ended. And that I remembered this fic was a horror, HAHA😭. But I couldn't find you at first😭. Then hours came by and I was on facebook scrolling then Stephanie Soo came, the story teller where in I watch as she talked about the heartbreaking case of Lindsay Hawker. AND I COULDN'T HELP BUT THINK THAT THIS IS EXACTLY LIKE THE FIC NO TIME TO DIE LIKE—💀 SO YEAH I DILIGENTLY LOOKED FOR YOU, THINKING THE FIC'S CORRECT ACRONYM, DIGGING MY MEMORIES, AND REMEMBERING HARD FOR YOUR NAME AND THE RIGHT NAME OF THE FIC. I TOLD MYSELF THAT I AIN'T RESTING UNTIL I FIGURED OUT IF YOUR FIC IS BASED ON A TRUE STORY LIKE I'M CRYING FOR Y/N😭, FOR THE GIR—💀 PLEASEE TAG MEEE, NOT THAT I'M DEMANDING BUT—💳💰

Omgzzzz the fact that u legit searched for my account is so sweet bub 🥹💞 also holy shit detective pikachu!! I'm quite astonished like you connected the dots very well. I enjoy watching all these horror and gore crime series about crazy psychopaths, like their brain really fascinates me a lot (one of the reasons I enjoy yandere stuffs XD). So like you a also came across Stephanie Soo's that video btw I'm a her regular viewer (for people who are interested in crime and psychopath related stuffs I highly recommend her youtube channel). Ya so I saw this Lindsay Hawker video and couldn't help but sympathies for her and that's when it hit me what would have happened if this story can get an alternate ending, in which she escapes. That's when I decided to write NTTD but unfortunately due to some issues I had to delete it an year ago. But NTTD will always stay close to my heart as it was my first ff, also I don't have any regrets everything happens for good. But damn! I was quite shocked as you are the first one who noticed that this ff was inspired from a true incident, you got some skills girl.

Thank you for investing your time in finding my story, I'm really so happy. Also your detective skills deserves a shoutout XD

#fxlattee #detective pikachu #no time to die #nttd

[chronic-ghost]

alright I can’t wait because this

The white bathroom door.

This is the moment he realizes that blank door will haunt his nightmares for years to come. What he could have found on the other side. What he nearly does. 

FUCJING DESTROYED ME 😭😭😭😭

Like holy crap this chapter was so so amazing and I think despite the absolute heartbreak, it’s my favourite so far! Just like the emotions??? The intimacy at the beginning and then then everything turning into a war zone.

And then my heart literally sank when Oliver was there and saying all that shit. Oh my god.

Firstly tho, god damn you Chloe. Like, I don’t believe her! If she is pregnant then it’s probably not Dieters… (I hope lmao) or she’s lying because she knows he’s going to leave her otherwise. But girl, you’re not having his baby!! 😂 I can’t wait to see what is actually true and to hate Chloe even more lmao!

But their fight 😭😭😭 so much emotion and aggressions and sadness and hurt. All the freaking hurt in that room in that moment 🥺🥺 my poor little heart!! Poor Natalies heart too because I’m sure you could probably actually hear it break.

But I’m so glad Dieter could call Heidi and she came and helped him 😭😭 and he’s gonna go to rehab for himself and get better for himself and be happy for himself 🥺 and he was nominated for an Oscar!!! 😭 I’m sure it will be such a tough and hard road but I’m glad he has someone there for him!

And Natalie.. 😭😭 I had a feeling something like this was eventually going to happen and while I hate to say it.. maybe it had to. For her to also realise that this isn’t the life she wants to have. That she deserves a better one, a happier one! I’m just so glad she made it through because you could’ve absolutely shredded our hearts right there lmao!

But the way you wrote that, the way Dieter found her. It really was like I could feel his desperation and fear, got my hands all sweaty! It was written so so beautifully and so sad and I legit wanted to cry a bit.

Fuck Oliver obviously, hope you rot in jail 💕

(btw I’m watching the new season only murders in the building and for some reason I always picture that Oliver and it’s absolutely fucking hilarious 😂)

Just.. Aaaaaaah!!! Like this was such a sad and heart breaking chapter but I also feel weirdly hopeful? Like shit went down. Absolute rock bottom and it sucks! But now the only way left is up again, working on rebuilding the rubble and maybe it’s gonna be so so much better then.

Also Natalie finally said she loves him 🥺 I know they’re gonna find their way back to each other eventually and hopefully have their issues and problems worked out so they can finally get to know who the other person really is and love each other even more and better than before 🥺

AND RECOVERY ROAD GOT AN OSCAR! 🎉

Man this was just an amazing chapter and I am so soft for these 2 characters and I just.. sigh

You’re such a brilliant freaking writer! Thank you for sharing 🥺 (also I wasn’t sure where to send this ask so I hope here is okay but if not then the next one will be to your Pedro blog!!! :))))

im having kind of a rough day and this . . . ooof, this got me real good.

aldjfalkadsf i would never do anything to actually hurt Natalie forever, she's come too far. fanfiction is supposed to be fun and i am too much of a wimp to really kill a character forever -- or do something that prevents the blorbos from being happy in the end. this is the lowest the fic will ever get, so you're right! the only way forward is up!

I've been writing fic for years and the scene in the hospital is the only time i've actually made myself tear up. i think it's easy to forget that natalie is 13 years younger than dieter and just by the nature of time itself, has more life experience than her. she's still young herself and trying to figure it all out. my heart just broke for her :(

I LOVE only murders in the building and that oliver would be horrified and disgusted by this oliver! Martin Short is absolutely hilarious in that role -- i need to catch up on the next season!

thank you so much for all your words and support. it really truly honestly means the world to me! i was really, really hoping you'd like this chapter and i can't wait to hear what you think of the next one.

You make all of this very worthwhile!

#recovery road #recovery road asks #dieter bravo #nice things people say

[tradedsymmetry]

I just watched the first episode of season 5 of Good Trouble..... holy fucking shit. [[spoilers ahead, but only for up to S5E1 ]] actually I re-watched the last episode of S4 just before that. that S4 ending has already gone down in my history books as one of the most breathtaking last moments of a season finale of my life, like WOW. I seriously was holding my breath. I've thought about it so many times since I watched it... idk how long ago. Maybe about a year? it wasn't the same on the rewatch of course but it was still just as good as a second watch can be. and I knew it. I FUCKING KNEW who was on the other end of that cliff hanger and I am not happy about it 😭😭😭 I am however happy about the IDIOTS who are finally in love, and think no one else knows lol and I hope this dance class guy is legit and that Luca's aunt didn't even know about him and is so sad but happy and wants to take care of him and can help get his info, and I hope Malika catches on to the fact that this councilwoman just wants her OUT of activism BECAUSE she's a good activist!!?! that's what I'm leaning towards anyway. and fuckin' gael...... I'm so exhausted with Isabella, I just... I can't. they better find that fucking baby, give her a better name, and make jazmines dreams come true or so help me!!!!!! and I guess her graham cracker man of a husband too, he seems fine. and do whatever emancipation or something they need to to just... keep her away lol I was honestly surprised that there actually was a baby. they HAD to do an on screen birth in order to convince me that it was really hers lol also, back to 501, the person who showed up at the very end of the episode...... thank fucking FUCK.!! from a story perspective, from a Mariana Adams-Foster Doesn't Fucking Deserve This perspective: thank fuck someone's there to take care of her, my god. I was losing my mind thinking she was going to go back to the hospital without taking a shower lol and that shot where she walks away from the kitchen table and EVERYONE is crowded around the other side.... my god. powerful. heartbreaking. no one hugged her in that time when they first get home and they're all in the kitchen, not on camera anyway. I noticed that and I'm not totally sure what to make of it. I guess possibly to make the hug at the end of the episode more powerful. but also.... it would've broken up the mood. I think there was a harsh cut from when Mariana, Joaquin, and Jenna first walk in the kitchen, to everyone sitting at the table and they clearly just told everyone what happened, and even if there were hugs ~off screen between those two shots, not showing them is like... Mariana doesn't remember them either. they didn't put a dent in anything emotionally for her, so they don't get to provide any relief for the audience either...

this episode really fucking broke my heart, and that's a huge compliment. i don't really actually know anything about tv making or what's technically "good" or "done well" but I just really really love this show and I think it's so good and done so well!!!! lolol anyway, it's the being so well-done that allows it to break my heart. that's what I'm getting at.

also please no S5 spoilers if anyone sees this!!! I'm a slow watcher and I love the suspense and reveals lol

#good trouble #watching tv

[magicalqueerenergy]

THE SHOW MY BELOVED

after-listening ari again, I LOVED IT. Heartbreak weather was my fave album of his before w/mirrors being my top top song but nope its changed Must Be Love is the new fave and this is legit my fave album of his, damn. Like flicker is so delicate and gorgeous and heartbreak weather is more poppy and sweet this is like a beautiful mix and i just love it so damn much. i love niall hotdamn

okay!!! I admit I skipped heaven and meltdown cause ive heard them but like they are ADORED BY ME FUUUCKK

IF YOU LEAVE ME?!! The echoes??? ADORE IT I LOVE IT HEARTSTOPPING SO STRONG FUCK

NEVER GROW UP OKAY HERE WE GO, AWWW FRIENDS IN ANOTHER LIFE OKAY SHIT HIS VOICE IS GORGEOUS FUCK. heard this was about his gfs parents cause theyre still happily married not sure if true AWWWWW THIS IS ABT A LONGTERM RELATIONSHIP AND THE SOFTNESSS OF HIS VOICE I LOVE IT 😭😭😭 THIS SONG IS SO SOFT FUUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I AM NOT PREPARED IM CRYING CAN I HAVE THIS WHEN IM OLDER??? THE END IS SO GOOD FUCK

…okay shit the show here we go. fuck already its so melancholic, OOOH THE ECHO WHEN IT GOES INTO THE CHORUS oh my fuck this is so 1d coded and i wanna fucking sob. they were just babies. his voice is wrecking me i am legit crying, and the lyrics are so gorgeous fuck im crying like legitimately, like the point between how good they had it and the way they were so throughly fucked over goddammit, fuck his voice is so pretty and this song just wrecked me shit

alright, you could start a cult, FUCK OH MY GOD HIS VOICE?? DAAAARLLLIIING SHIT FUCK OHMYJRJE, awwwwwwww, fuck this is so sweet already shit. THIS SOFT HOLY SHIT NOOO IM ALREADY EMOTIONALLY UNPREPARED. his voice is so delicate and lovely i wanna die fuck me THE HARMONICA??? I LOVE IT SHIT THE END NOOOOOO THE FADEOUT FUCUK ME GODDAMIT IT NIALL

OKAY EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER GO IG??? I LOVE THE BEAT ALREADY. OOH I LOVE IT HOLY SHIT YOUUU MIGHT SAVE MY LIFE IVE BEEN DYEIIIING FOR YOU DARLIN YES BABY GET IT OOOOH I LOVE THIS DAMN

OKAY a bit slower already OOOH HIS VOICE LOVE IT SHIT. THE BEAT DROP??? SIR???? Illegal!!! OON AAA NIIIIGHT LIKE TONIIIIGHT MY BABY I LOVE YOU NIALL MY BELOVED I HAVE MY FAVORITE SONG I DO YES PRESSED ON MIIINE PRESSED ON MIIINE

OKAY SCIENCE HERE WE GO OOOOOH HIS VOICE AGAIN SHIT I LOVE IT IN THIS ONE TOO(and all the other ones lmao) AAAAAAW IT’s so soft 😭 THE SOARING VOCALS OOOH SHIT FUCK ME GODDAMIT I LOVE YOU NIALL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I LIED THIS IS MY FAVORITE HANDS DOWN GODDAMMIT FUCK

HOW IS IT ALREADY FUCK OHMYGOD I LOVE THE VIBES IMMEDIATELY YES BABY give us everything’s hell yes!!! OOOH AS THIS BOTTLE OF WINE FUCK YES I LIED AGAIN NEW FAVE YES BABY MOVE ASIDE MIRRORS I GOT MY NEW FAVE OH I LOVE IT HOLY SHIT

#after listening #Niall horan #the show #one direction #larry stylinson #for the right audience #must be love #late night listening #new music #stream the show also!!! #THE SHOW IS GODLY HOLY CRAP

[officiallyashley]

BNHA HEADCANONS— what the bakusquad’s first impression of ash was and what made them like her

NOTES: just an idea I had at four in the morning lol 😂 Enjoy!

WARNINGS: very minor angst in Katsuki and Kirishima’s section, but that’s it. 

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KATSUKI:

Looking back to when he first met her when they were in preschool, Katsuki could tell that she was very happy as child before all of her trauma took place 

When he was little, he always looked up to Ashley’s optimism and he loved her smile full of sunshine 

But when he was reunited with her in middle school, all he saw was a calloused and hardened version of the friend he grew up with 

It honestly took him aback by a long shot 

He wasn’t expecting to see his childhood friend again 

Let alone see her demeanor have such a drastic change 

As they grew closer and closer, Katsuki discovered how much Ash truly went through and his respect for Ash went through the roof omg 

Katsuki saw how much pain, agony, and heartbreak that Ash experienced at too young of an age

And the ash blonde realized that Ash was one of the strongest people he had ever met in his entire life

Katsuki admires Ashley for having the immense inner strength that he wishes that he had sometimes 

KAMINARI:

He was a little bit intimidated by the brunette 

But nonetheless intrigued 

He wanted to get to know her better

And when Kaminari did get to know her better, he had a ‘holy shit I actually really like this girl omg what do I do’ moment

When he realized that he really liked Ash, they were talking about a conspiracy theory that they were split on (it was one of their first ‘conspiracy theory’ talks)

Ash didn’t believe the theory fully, but Kami was leaning more so in the ‘yeah it’s totally real’ direction 

After Kami said his evidence, Ash presented her argument and evidence 

And holy smokes 

Kami felt something special right then and there because he thought this woman was soooo intelligent 

And DAYYYYYM SHE'S A GOOD ARGUER OMG 

For Kaminari, the aspect of Ash that really sold it to him was her intelligence, open-mindedness, and how thoughtful she was 

Yeah his heart definitely went doki doki in that moment

SERO:

At the very beginning, Sero didn’t really pay attention to Ash 

But as the Bakusquad began to form

And he got to know Ash

Sero could tell that even though she has a cold exterior, Ash’s interior is anything but ice cold

And he found that Ash is a great listener 

Also

Another part of Ash’s personality that Sero likes is her wittiness

The wittiness that Ash has had him feeling the sparks that ignite a deeper relationship 

Sero really likes how clever, witty, and funny Ashley is 

Her sense of humor immediately won him over, and Ash’s cleverness and smarts made Sero’s bond with her even better 

That’s something that he ADORES about Ash

She always knows how to make him laugh 

As well as appreciate the little things in life 

MINA:

When Mina saw Ash walk into Class 1-A for the first time, she thought Ash was so interesting 

Ash holds this aura of mysteriousness with her, and that makes Mina all the more enticed to befriend Ashley

Legit Mina’s first thought of Ash was ‘omg she is soooo cool! I’m gonna make her my friend 😁’

And let me tell you that worked easier than Mina expected lol 😝 

Mina didn’t want to hang out with Ash because of the fact that she’s the daughter of two very famous pro-heroes

But because Mina truly saw how intriguing Ash is

Ash is just an extremely interesting person— a quiet, but interesting person to hang out with 

JIRO:

Jiro thought that Ash was a really chill person 

She could see that Ash could be standoffish at times, as well as sense that the brunette doesn’t open up to others as much as she should 

Overall, Jiro really vibes with Ash ever since the beginning of their friendship

As Jiro got to know her, she saw how incredibly creative Ash was, and she could see that there was a lot of things stored in Ash’s mind that Ash doesn’t speak up about 

Tries to convince Ash to speak up more often because she has great ideas

KIRISHIMA:

Ngl 

Like Kaminari

Ash kind of intimidated Kirishima a bit 

It was nothing that Ash did or said specifically 

And there wasn’t anything mean or malicious about her 

but mainly because of how stoic she is and how challenging it is to read her feelings 

Over time as their friendship grew into something more, Kiri realized how much of a ray of light Ash is to him 

She made him so much happier, she gave him confidence when he really needed it, and Ash provided reassurance to Kirishima when he desperately needed it 

Overall, how comforting and empathetic Ash is was what made Kiri’s heart skip a beat for her

And in that moment when his insecurities broke through his facade in front of Ash, she didn’t shun him away. She simply embraced him tightly, quietly let him get everything out, and whispered: “Your insecurities aren’t what make you you. You’re much stronger than you could ever imagine. I know things get rough and you feel like the whole world is against you, but it won’t be like that forever.”

Kiri will never forget what her tone was like. It was soft and confident. 

Kirishima could tell what Ash was saying came from a place of familiarity, her feelings synonymous with his 

At that moment for Kirishima, everything clicked.

𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 © 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚��𝐥𝐲𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐞𝐲 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚. 𝐢 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐞𝐭𝐜. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥.

#bnha #mha #bnha headcanons #mha headcanons #bakusquad headcanons #bakugou katsuki #ashido mina #sero hanta #kuriyama ashley #kirishima eijirou #jirou kyouka #kaminari denki #bakusquad polyamorous relationship #bakusquad polyamorous headcanons #officiallyashley #ashwrites

[unexpected-nightview]

Soooo. RoTT? As the finale for the Tales of Arcadia series? Not disappointing. Just. Insulting.

#this is legit so heartbreaking holy shit #can't believe I wasted my time and my memories of ToA with this movie #it's like they made literally everyone DUMB af just so the plot could happen #the whole ending is ????? #like... #don't get me wrong I always thought that Toby deserved way more than he had going #but jfc that wasn't it🤦🏽‍♀️ #he should have shined in his own instead of being shoved into Jim's role just bc?? #also pretty shitty of Jim to be all BEING A HERO IS ABOUT THE BURDENS and knwoing first hand how hard it was to be the trollhunter #to just shove that into Toby just like that #and do not even get me started about the mpref bit #nope nope nope #I genuinely do not know what happened but none of the characters deserved that #and what happened to archie and charlemagne???? #oh for fuck' sake #WHY DIDN'T HE RETURN AT THE BEGINNING OF WIZARDS holy fuck I'm mad #I want to cry #ToA started so well and had so many great things and themes and now BLAH #tales of arcadia #rise of the titans #added bonus #the whole chinese trolls bit just felt...yikes #idk how to put it but how they were represented #specially their leader #just felt wrong

[snowshinobi]

y'know what's never once served me ill? being an emotional coward. cutting my romantic/platonic losses. smelling smoke and getting the hell outta there before seeing a lick of fire. I'm only 23 so take this with a grain of salt but I've felt pretty mentally fucked up over relationships I ended with people who are good, just not good for me. Yeah, the best-case scenario still hurt like hell. I can and do torture myself with what-ifs but I am grateful, I am grateful that I leave when I do.

just because you can repair connections does not mean you have to. you always have permission to leave. you always have permission to leave.

#snowswords #i hope this post grabs every teenager by the shoulders and looks deep into their eyes #important disclaimer: it is never ever your fault if someone abuses you. that is on them. you trusted them and they betrayed that trust. #what I'm saying is you can leave at the first red flag. at the 18th red flag. before you've seen any red flags at all. #you can leave to spare yourself heartbreak later on. that is a perfectly legit reason to end a romantic/platonic/familial relationship. #it's your life and it's your time and you should spend it on the things and people who are worth it #someone doesn't have to be awful for you to realize spending time with them makes you nervous/uncomfy/sad/etc #I'm fine btw i was just having thoughts about the 10min version of 'all too well' by TS. I'm sympathetic to ppl who go through it like that #bc holy shit that's rough dude. i literally cannot imagine feeling heartbroken over a shitty partner #so like. idk man pls take my advice and end things if and whenever you want to. #you are under no obligation to stick around with someone who drains the life out of you #hell you're not obligated to stay around anyone whether they're abusive or not #you. are. always. allowed. to. leave.

[subskywalker]

Sometimes you just read a fic that hurts you deep in your soul but you love it anyway.:’)

#cas.txt #gushing over fics #which fic is it? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #like holy shit y’all this fic is so so beautifully written #and it’s so haunting and heartbreaking and is such a wonderful imteosepction into these two character’s relationship #and how that relationship changes through the years #and the pov it’s written in is just??? so????? good and perfect in a way that i think that if it had been written in any other way it #wouldn’t have done this fic justice #amd its heartbreaking because god one of the characters has been through so much that he just wants peace #that he just wants to be happy more than anything but its like fate has it out for him #and i love love love the way that the fic portrays this #also!!! also!!! i’m so shook at the way the feelings somewhat creep up #also??? i legit couldn’t stop crying theough this fic like i cried al the way to the end #bc it wasn’t fair but it was just so gorgeous and i lobe their voices in this #and the soft gentleness at the end between them was what got me #this fic was literally just a straight kick in the feels #i’m doing a crying right now y’all :’)