#this is me at night with all my pillows

[originalartblog]

Good morning~

#chuuya just scooted over to Dazai's side during the night. stole his pillow and everything #vee (@videogamelover) started sending me pictures of orange and black cats and saying they were skk (and co) #and of course there was a picture of two cats cuddling and it's been proven that it's the easiest way to make me draw cuddles #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fanart #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd nakahara chuuya #bsd dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #nawy's art #me drawing chuuya's legs: harukawa this is 4 u #featuring my (correct) opinions on what chuuya's living space would have in it #which are mostly music-related and some trinkets/pictures to remember people by #that guy is 22 and didn't have his own space + the will to make it his own until he was like 16-17 i will not accept 'fancy' designer looks #it's 2 sound systems some collector edition guitar mounted on the wall a vinyls collection and general punk/rock vibes all around #no he can't actually play any of the instruments in his home

[silliemop]

GIRLSS NIGHTTT!! 

#man i wanna have a sleepover with these sillies and just goof around playing splatoon and talking a bunch during the night while moon #is threatening to knock me out with a pillow so i can sleep and stop blabbing #and then we'd all watch barbie life in the dream house at 4 am #my art #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf dca #fnaf daycare attendant #sundrop #moondrop #fnaf sb

[bogkeep]

clocks have a beating heart , ergo they are creature

#pendulums. quartz. and the most heart like at all: the balance assembly #every day i go to school and perform clock surgery #hey do u wanna hear an anecdote about baby haiz. of course u do #when i was a small child i saw an anatomical poster at a doctor's office and my mom had to explain what a heart was #at that time however. i believed doctors only had posters depicting illnesses and stuff on their walls #so when i later heard my own heart beat through my pillow late at night i panicked and woke up my mom about it #who reassured me this is normal and in fact necessary to keep me alive #so to answer the question yes ive always been this neurotic and anxious about my own mortality

[connorjesup]

AYAN & AKK in THE ECLIPSE EP7

What did you do to my jacket? What? I washed it. What are you doing? They smell just the same. Are you out of your mind? Of course, they do. They were washed together. But I like it... Your scent.

#the eclipse #lgbtedit #theeclipseedit #the eclipse the series #khaotung thanawat #first kanaphan #ayan x akk #show: the eclipse #the eclipse spoilers #my gif #allte #no cause this look like a stolen gifset i am screaming sqlmdkfhsqmdlfkh #the coloring on each gifs is different im crying sqmdklfhqsfdkh #obvi took me longer cause i had to fuck around and had to make color gifs like #this is not that type of gifset and yet here we are slkdfhsqdlkh that beach gif sqdlkfhqsmdlfkhdqs SIGH leave me be #so their first kiss eh........... i see #also we all know akk gonna burry his whole face in that pillow ayan used that night to smell it #so don't worry bb akk likes your scent too

[madeleinelovescolours]

Weighted blankets are amazing until you have to mash your sheets and then you have to remove all your pillows and blankets and plushies from your bed and you regret all your life choices.

#but also I slept amazing last night with my fresh and clean bedding and all my neatly arranged pillows #I take my bed seriously #when I couldn’t find a fluffy mattress topper I bought a $20 comforter from the kids section and layered that below my sheets #and ordered a king sized bed-gap filler to go along the side of my bed that touch the wall. that way stuff doesn’t fall down the side #when I escaped dv one of the forst thing I want to do was reclaim my sleep #because sleep had been taken from me #I wasn’t allowed to sleep before her #which meant I didn’t sleep until after 2 and I work in the mornings #I would also get yelled at for sleeping wrong #sleeping wrong mean sleeeping with my arms in from of me

[cosmic-kaden]

My f/o making a soft comfy spot for me on the floor in the living room for me to pass out onto is self care.

Imagining my f/o coming with me to the bathroom so I can squeeze their hand when I'm in pain and then reassuring me and not being grossed out is self care.

My f/o reminding me to drink a lot of water so it flushes out those nasty little bacterias is self care.

My f/o helping and reminding me to take my antibiotics in the morning and before bed is self care.

My f/o comforting and reassuring me when I'm having a break down because I'm so sick of this constant state of my body shutting down or having something wrong with it is self care...

I just want to be better.. :c

#I didn't sleep well last night. the urgency to pee thanks to this stupid UTI kept me up almost all night. #I am t i r e d and I don't own a bed so the next best thing is to sprawl out on the floor with my squishmallows and blankets/pillows #💤 very tired 😴 #I just want to sleeeeeeep but its hard to do rn :c #Want my f/o to tell me its just another bump in the road and I'll be okay soon... This has been the sickest ive ever been in my entire life #in terms of things ohysically going wrong with my body. cold/extreme salmonella poisoning/covid/and now this damn UTI. #im frustrated. im trying whatever i can to be healthier... i cut back drinking a lot and ive quit smoking #I make sure to shower when i can even tho its hard. I try to do exercises in the mornins now..... #im just so tired of my body not being well #vent.tw

[hailsatanacab]

man i made so many memes this time wow

anyways here u go >:')

holyshitholyshitholyshit

these are all perfect!!

for chapter 4 of cetbwa

#close enough to be whole again #cetbwa #dp x dc #danny phantom #dpdc #i gotta stop checking my phone as soon as i wake up because holy shit hooolllyyy shit #the magnificence that is this collection of memes will keep me awake for hours now #i need sleep! ........ but i love these way more #ive been trying to think how to properly express my gratitiude and laughter #but all ive been doing is rolling around on my bed and laughing into the pillows haha #holy shit i asked for memes and you did not disappoint!!! #thank you so much! im so glad you liked the new chapter!! #my favourite one is the onion but only because i was so close to cutting that line last night before posting #so im glad you enjoyed it ☺️ 😊 #i woke up way too early and now im so wired im so pumped i feel like i just drank a pint of coffee #thank you so so so much!! #the jeremy clarkson car one is perfection #also i dont think ive ever seen the knight one before isnt that amazing?? #being introduced to a meme because of my own fic #im losing my fucking mindddd #holy shit #thank you so much again im signing off now to reply to your other ask because they are also top tier quality memes

[boyswanna-be-her]

I'm home and baby mimi is all that matters forever 🥹

#she slept on my pillow spooning the back of my head for half the night #the other half she spent walking all over me and inspecting me #tickling my face to make sure I was still alive etc

[jamie-dinow]

Zzzzzzz mimimimimi

#tired #no thoughts head empty #I wanna do stuff #but no brain power #*sighs* #they should let me make commas in the tags #I love commas #gn who ever sees this #may you have a lovely no wakey cold pillow nigjt #maybe you’ll see me later hehehhe #(I forgot to take my sleep meds but I’m hoping it’ll be fine) #for sure I won’t just wake up in the middle of the night right??? that’d be crazyyyyyy #also (ignoring that nobody will have gone this deep into my tags) I removed all of the nd stuff in my bio because I didn’t show signs when - #was little #I’m getting trauma therapy though #I’m curious how much of my brain rn is trauma and how much is actually me/ my genetics /gen #very interesting #I’m hoping it will make all of/most of my mental health problems go away #but that would probably be too good to be true #‘s kinda funny when you think about it #my body has been in fight/ flight mode aka traumatized for 6? years now? #man that’s a long time #wow #I didn’t realize it was that long #anyway #vent post #tag because it might’ve accidentally turned into one #good night :D #mimimimimim

[corset]

I've said it before I'll say it again I would legitimately trick out a coffin to sleep in

#And I mean I could. As long as it had enough width for me to turn side to side I stay in one spot when I sleep all through the night lol #I don't starfish or travel around the bed or kick or anything #I just move from my back to my side to my back to the other side and so on #I would also need room for like a pillow to hug when I'm on my side otherwise my hips start hurting

[munamania]

also. this trip has been making me fully realize how much my hypermobility affects my life lmao and like. i guess just how connected my issues are it’s almost like my body is a whole interconnected unit

#but not by my shitty connective tissues ba dum tss! anyway. #this has actually been several months in the making. and then years if you really think about it. but mostly this year ive been really #sitting with it. like yeah this causes chronic pain for me. it affects me day to day like every moment. trying to figure out how to #reduce pain my body has been compensating for so long i have to reteach it how to function. u know #and also i really would love to get some mobility aids for myself for rougher days at least but lol. money #maybe i will at some point or ill try to diy #ive been using a tip from tiktok it said to use a scarf and tie it at night. dont have a scarf so ive been using pants #and it helps sooo much with keeping my shoulders in place it's so nice #abby talks #and then i have to specifically try to position pillows to support my knees. what i really need is one of the like #big triangle pillow things. my mom has one and i would use it at pt. gave my knees and hips such a break ugh #i will say this is an instance where tiktok is really helpful bc having people who also have these conditions and #relating it to neurodivergence and talking abt the way it all interacts and genuine ways to help yourself #is so nice. bc you know a google search is just gonna be like You might have loose joints if your joints are loose. like ok i’ll go fuck #myself i guess

[orcelito]

Finally put my sheets back on my bed (I slept on the bottom bunk the past 2 days, whoops...) & everything is so soft and warm and clean. And I am happy and sleepy in a soft cloud bed.

Truly nothing like Bed ❤️

#speculation nation #Bed with a capital B to represent the same kind of concept as Home #this is Bed. aka My bed. it is the place i return to. it is warm and soft and made of fluffy blankets. #it has multiple mattress pads and 5 blankets and the best pillow for my neck #and sometimes 2 cats who will walk all over me and on my head (as just happened just now) #i use the bottom bunk as a couch but it is also a bed and there have been times of my life where it's been my main bed #but the top bunk bed truly is comfier. and so i continue to use it as Bed. #bottom bunk is kept in couch position near permanently but i sometimes still sleep on it when i nap #or times like the prior few days where for whatever reason im not sleeping on top bunk #(i slept on the bottom when i was very sick too bc i didnt want to deal with climbing the ladder while in so much pain) #bottom bunk only goes to bed position when my girlfriend is over & spending the night #and i'll join her down there too :] #otherwise tho top bunk is Bed for me. and boy is it comfy. #nothing like sleeping outside of Primary Bed for a few days to remind myself of how much i Love My Bed

[irgendwiepoetisch]

why is there so little going on in my life that a simple crush on a person i barely know takes up so much space in my brain...why

#i'm sitting here making up little daydream scenarios FOR TWO WHOLE DAYS NOW what is wrong with me why is my life not more interesting #i WISH i was a mysterious person with lots going on but in reality i'm just at home giggling into a pillow being silly #i mean granted i am on my period rn BUT STILL WTF #i wish i could tell the romantic part of my brain to just SHUT UP IT'S NOT THAT SERIOUS WE BARELY KNOW THEM STOP IT #but apparently it doesn't work that way....sigh #i don't even know if they're single??? can we at least make that clear before jumping to the daydreams??? PLEASE!!??? #feels like i'm losing my mind #i used to think that in my late twenties i'd have all this stuff figured out.....HAH #but hey at least i'm still capable of having silly crushes after this long stretch of time of not being interested in anyone! #i just hope i'll find out soon that they're not single or sth so i can move past it #bc there's no way a sweet person like that could like me #...even if my brain wants them to #anyway #even in my late twenties i still don't know how to handle having a crush and what does that say about me? #ok enough ranting good night

[mimiri22-6]

I was going down the old yt rabit hole, just watching 9 almost 10 year old videos nbd, and I came across the age old argument/explination/confusion/huh/what/¯\_(ツ)_/¯ of Mangle of Five Nights at Freddy's FUCK'N TWO's gender. Along the lines of; his pronouns are Loudly he/him in-game, but the fandom would not shut up about, but it's a girl, look at her, girl foxy. Period done shut up about it-BUT THEY'RE CALLED HE/HIM!!! Fuck it, they go by they/them now, fuck you, fuck me, fuck Mangle and it's gender. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is ALL those fandom fights ending in fire and tears and bloodshed came back full force and I went

"FUCK IT, BIGENDER MANGLE!" As like a knee-jerk reaction because GOD it's been a fight in the trenches for literally almost a decade. AND THEN I went "oh fuck, bigender Mangle. It all makes sense now." And then holy choir rang out and god in her holy he/her glory bestowed upon me some mediocre cheesecake of which I ate all of it in one sitting...Where was I? Ah yea, amazing how fast that war could have ended if being bigender was more widely known back then, but hey, we can finally put down the pitchforks now right?

...Right?

"There are still only 2 genders, no one can be both at once!"

Motherfu-

#fnaf #mangle fnaf #mangle the fox #huh. never used that tag before. #five nights at freddys #fnaf 2 #shit this franchise is getting Old. maybe even OLD #just 1:30am thoughts no worry about me guys...im mentally stable...well more mentally stable than I was 42 hours ago. and the past...week? #2 weeks? o_o you know it's bad when you don't know when your last solid memory was. #OH MY GOSH. ON A VERY UNRELATED NOTE I FOUND OLD PHOTOS OF MY DAD'S PLACE ON THE INTERNET /WHEN HE WAS STILL LIVING THERE!!!/ #HE STILL HAS A DISH ON THE BACK OF THE SINK! HE STILL SITS ON THE RECLINER TO THE RIGHT! I COULD SEE HIS COFFEE MUG ON THE ENDTABLE! #MY OLD PILLOW! HIS /PAINTING!/ MY FUCKING ROCKS IN THE PLAY AREA IN THE HALLWAY TO THE KITCHEN! #THEY EVEN HAVE PICTURES OF THE UPSTAIRS! OF WHICH I HAVEN'T SEEN SINCE HE MOVED /DOWNSTAIRS!/ #THE PICTURES WERE TAKEN 11 FUC-FUCKING YEARS AGO! HE STILL LIVES THERE! ON THIS WEBSITE /HE STILL LIVES THERE!!/ #GAH-IM GONNA CRY AGAIN JUST THINKING ABOUT IT! #yes. yes I cried about it Big time when I got downstairs in the gallery. I was expecting it to all be gutted from looking at the upstairs. #but the first photo. the first fucking photo that was downstairs was.....his. fucking. room. the layout was a bit different to the last tim #he changed it. but...fuck man. fuck. yeah. I started sobbing...the picture that got me full crying though was the hallway going into the #livingroom. I could see the tv. the shelf above his bedroom door. the door to the outside halway. the carpet the speaker the doors to the #basement and bathroom. the bathroom door crakced upen Just Right so the cats have a harder time getting in there... #the hallway I used most to walk into the living room because we used the back door to drop me off...I could feel the couch I slept on for #too many years for my developing bones...all those painted walls and the matching coffee table that got moved and moved throughout #fuck #fuck. #none of it is there. and i still don't know what happened to the cats. or his painting or his movies or his games or the mug i got him #shit. ignore these tags. i just needed someone to know. I think most of my family is tired of me being sad about this...I can't help it tho #I don't think I'm ever getting closure...and I just need someone to know whenever... I'm gonna eat cheesecake now... #....god i miss that livingroom. I fucking miss him.... #this post was just supposed to be about mangle im sorry guys...though...i can see why mangle led me back to mac... #I'll never know about that too...never even got to drink with him...we missed so many years because of my mom's shitty ex...

[strixhaven]

i remember why i only sleep with one pillow now

#thought “maybe sleeping in a different position would help me get to sleep faster” last night and added a pillow #nope. shoulders feel completely fucked and awful. didn’t sleep faster or better at all #regret my life is never-ending regret #literally just a single pillow man. why’s my body gotta meltdown over this

[geroya]

how do yall write confessions without simply just saying 'I LIKE YOU' :)

#☼.txt #last night when i was doing the dishes i was thinking about this too bc #i really am not the sort who is good with words of affirmation #giving them or receiving them #like yeah i like being TOLD im good give me praise all you want i DO have a big ego sometimes but #not like i dont need it as a form of connection? if thats the right way to explain it idk. #this has been a point of conflict in past relationships #& now when im trying to like. WRITE UP A CUTE NOTE TO THE PERSON I LIKE ! IN A FRIENDLY MANNER ! IM LIKE #I FEEL LIKE. IM KNOCKING ON MY BRAIN. HELLOOOO IS ANYONE IN THERE HELLOOOO #WHILE IM ALSO SITTING AT THE DESK IN MY BRAIN WEATHERED AND WITHERING AND TEARING MY FUCKING HAIR OUT <3 #simply put this is a post complaining about my lack of ability to be uh.... poetic on purpose in relationships <3 #annoyed and embarrassed and shoving my face into my pillow. im a fool <3 #but EYE dont need it as my form of connection/affection ** goodness. sorry im not wearing my glasses which makes it hard to focus on words