#this is okay to reblog

[ditch-lily]

to all my kimchay and jeff and barcode people

it's 3am and i gotta sleep but i just gotta get some stuff out!! this is a ramble, and a bit personal here and there so i may delete it in the morning. but i'm so happy and so excited for jeff, and sos. this move has really been building up for a while, and you can see it in all the things he's been creating. and it looks like wuju bakery is still a go, and that saturn will work closely with boc, for a least a little bit.

but the way that was announced. i really don't think jeff would have done it that way if he knew how hard it was going to hit. i'm so devastated for barcode, and when they realised that he wasn't going to stop breaking down they should have taken him off the stage

i am kind of devastated just seeing him break down again and again on stage. my heart hurts a lot.

my emotions are really really high right now, not just b/c of all that. but because i just flew overseas for jeff, and just booked another. i feel kinda crazy lmao. wow parasocialing too close to the sun!!

but i do wanna say, things will go on. jeff and barcode will still get to create together, and barcode baby. i'm so sorry it hurt so much, but you have an amazing future ahead of you, and i'm so excited to follow that journey. i fell into the kimchay and jeff crowd over here when i started writing idolistic (which I will continue writing, and i hope you all still feel like reading it lmao) and it's been so nice slowly getting to know people here.

and i just wanna say thank you! thank you for making me feel welcomed. i've had a real tough time of it in my rl the last few months, and this place has been important to me. you all leave such lovely comments on my fic, interact with my posts here, it always makes my freaking day, i've even got to make new friends in person!!! that's insane, but so treasured. ilu all, and if you're upset and hurting -- its been so tough lately. i get it, i share it. but the journey's not over. we still get to grasp joy in the future, yknow?

lmao idk if that makes sense im going to bed now. but yeah, love u all

#personal #kimchay #jeffbarcode #this is okay to reblog #i think lmao #will my morning self wake up and see this and feel highly embarrassed??? #100% yes

[elytrafemme]

you’ll have to forgive me this isn’t really articulately worded but. someday soon i think i am going to be brilliantly happy. i am going to go out with my girlfriend and get boba with her again and give her that stuffed animal we bought together because none of our other friends want to be a coparent. and i’m going to listen to my friend tell me about roman empires again and i’m going to watch my best friend for six years sing a solo in the school musical. i’m going to watch bollywood movies with my friend. and i’m going to dm my online friends for hours laughing and i’m going to talk to them about their filming and their research and their art and whatever they might be up to. and i’m going to make playlists and i’m going to call people for six hours straight into the night. and i’m going to play video games and fucking suck at them and i’m going to force my best friend to teach me how to knit again. and i’m going to see the sunlight filter through the green tree leaves like i did at the start of this year and just like i did then i’m going to think, life is beautiful and it’s worth living. the sun is going to shine on my face and i’m going to lay in the grass and i’m going to be loud with a lot of audacity and i’m going to be beautiful like the earth and i’m going to be a ball of fire and i’m going to be happy.

i think these days i’ve been so many emotions but underneath them all is fear. afraid that my old friends don’t love me anymore, afraid that everything is changing rapidly around me, afraid that i can’t recognize myself, afraid that my life will be like this forever. and some of these fears consist of battles i am not going to win, but the one thing i need to learn how to not be afraid of is happiness. because happiness is so elusive but it’s alive and it’s breathing and i can hear it’s heartbeat, i just have to be ready to race towards it. 

so, i’m going to be happy. in the sense that i might not be happy forever, but i am going to reach that day where i am more happy than i am not. where i can find ways out of my rage spirals and all my assorted episodes and step back into somewhere that feels safe. i am going to feel blindingly bright moments of happiness and then i am going to be in the dark for a while but i am always going to know that soon, i will go back there. 

it’s exhausting but it’s the exhaustion i want. not the tiredness of all my strained relationships, nor the heaviness my debilitating emotions, but the exhaustion of loving myself enough to fight for a future where hope is a present-tense concept.

#nightmare.personal #this is okay to reblog #just. i tink i needed this today

[in-a-slanted-outhouse]

So

I am making another post because people are actually starting to disagree with me

Okay right

In regards to Aidan Gallagher and sexualisation

I doubt that the target audience will actually bother to read any of this but I'm putting my opinion out there anyway because there’s a chance they will. Once again, I would appreciate that you read the whole post before commenting

TW// Sexualisation of a Minor, Mentions of CSAM

I’m putting this under read more because I have a lot to say and this got long

There is a difference between older adults sexualising him and people around his age sexualising him. I know that. I’ve already talked about how wrong it is for those creepy adults to sexualise him and I am tired of doing that. If you haven’t read that post yet, read that first because I am not going over that again. This post is a lot less angrily written than that one. You can find it here

This time I am going to do a general overview of the whole situation and also talk about minors and younger people sexualising him as well

And just to specify, when I talk about Five I’m talking specifically about Five in the show, not Five in the comics

So anywho

I am an teenager. I am sex favourable. That is not information you are entitled to have but I am giving it to you for context

I get why people who are that way inclined have sexual fantasies or have crushes on people. I get it. Having a crush on a celebrity is a safe way for teenagers and young adults to explore their sexuality because they’re in most cases never going to actually meet that person let alone have sex with them (99% of the time). I believe that self-exploration is important both sexually and non-sexually. And a lot of people who do experience sexual and/or romantic attraction will start having those feelings during puberty and that is completely natural. Having sexual fantasies and reading or writing fan fiction is a way to explore those feelings both safely and healthily and having a crush or even sexual feelings for someone who is a similar age to you is perfectly normal

I’m not demonising anyone around Aidan’s age for being attracted to him either romantically or sexually. The thing is that with anything like that there’s gotta be consent. Consent is important. We all know consent is important. But a lot of people seem to be forgetting that consent doesn’t just apply to when you are actually fucking someone

Aidan cannot control what people are thinking about him. He cannot control what people are doing in their own homes. Nobody can control that and to try to do so would be absurd. But when you are sharing things online whether it be smut fan fiction or nsfw art or making comments about how you want to have sex with someone, etc. that’s when you start actively involving another person in your fantasy and that’s where consent must be obtained

And there are a lot of people out there who are adults above the age of consent who are okay with people posting those kinds of things about them. Aidan is not one of those people. Doesn’t matter whether he’s above the age of consent or not, he has previously told people that he doesn’t appreciate being sexualised

So posting sexually explicit content involving him whether it be drawn or writing is still violating his consent

And it’s not okay

Some of you keep waving around the fact the that Aidan is an adult and therefore can legally consent whilst somehow simultaneously disregarding what the age of consent means. So I’m going to explain something really simple

I’m going to go back a couple years now

If you under the age of consent, then you cannot legally give consent. Aidan has been sexualised online at least since he was 14 and as a citizen of the United States of America, means he was under the legal age of consent in every state during that time of his life. Most of this sexualisation was through, and still is through, fan fiction and fan art. Writing or making a piece of artwork depicting a minor engaging in sexual activity is counted as CSAM and I really hope that I don’t have to explain to any of you why CSAM is illegal

So people saying that it’s okay now because he’s a legal adult irl, where were you when it wasn’t? Because it was never okay and it still isn’t

Him being an adult now, doesn’t excuse anything that happened previously

And I don’t care about that “loophole” of Five being mentally fifty eight because it doesn’t matter. If the person involved in sexual activity appears be a minor then it is still counted as child pornography even under Tumblr’s Community Guidelines

“Don't post or solicit content that features the abuse of a minor, that includes suggestive or sexual content involving a minor or anyone that appears to be a minor, or that facilitates or promotes child sexual abuse. "Content" may include photos of real individuals, illustrations, animation, or text.”

There is no loophole. It doesn’t exist. It was made up. Five being mentally fifty eight doesn’t matter. Sexualising him has always been wrong

So now we are here. Aidan Gallagher is an adult and is above the age of consent. Now what does that mean? It means that he can consent to sexual activity. But here’s the important thing, he doesn’t have to. That’s what consent is, it’s the ability to make that choice

And what people appear to be ignoring is the fact that Aidan has chosen not to give his consent

And that’s his right. He has the right to not give consent

It is that simple. If somebody doesn’t give consent then you do not have the right to sexualise them

Boundaries do not evaporate just because someone is famous. That’s still a human person. That’s still a human being with thoughts and feelings

Just a quick hypothetical scenario to really hammer into everyone’s heads. Imagine there’s a kid who’s just graduated high school. Just a regular non-famous kid. Someone who a lot of people from that kid’s school fancy. There’s nothing wrong with that. There’s nothing wrong with those kids fancying another kid. But if one of them, someone from that high school that the kid didn’t even know, decided to write a story about them graphically fucking that kid and then posted it on social media for the world to see, that would be wrong, right? If someone decided to draw a picture depicting that kid in a suggestive scenario, even if they were the same age, that would also be wrong, right? It would be understandable for that kid to feel upset or distressed or threatened by that

This situation isn’t that much different. If you are sexualising Five, then you are sexualising Aidan. Five isn’t a real human being, but Aidan is and it’s his body that’s being inserted into these scenarios

And I try so hard not look at these kids of things because it’s really uncomfortable. I’ve scrolled through the tua tag and seen fan fiction promoted with all different kinds of kinks. I’ve scrolled through Instagram over just the past three days and found two suggestive drawings of Five and one suggestive photo edit of Aidan. It just goes on and on and has being going on and on for years

And you know what? Aidan could turn around tomorrow and decide that he’s fine with it all. He has the right to do that as well and at that point, consent would have been given. But right now, as I’m writing this, that has not happened, nor does it look like it’s going to happen

So stop doing it

And I fucking mean it

I don’t want to hear any excuses

Stop sexualising Aidan Gallagher

Stop sexualising Aidan Gallagher

Stop sexualising Aidan Gallagher

#kicking the wasps nest today #i spent all day writing this #this is okay to reblog #tua #the umbrella academy #aidan gallagher #number five #number five hargreeves #five hargreeves #louie says shit

[mothpurr]

a useful guide for shutins (her appointment is tomorrow)

#:(( its tomorrow #this is okay to reblog #but tag it better than me #dark art #traumacore #guro #menhera #shutin #neet #hikikomori #its sized to set as your phone background #if i want to later

[ernmark]

I'm having a good day today.

Which I'm saying here because I think it's important to make note of good days when they happen-- to recognize them and mark them and fix them in your memory, so they can help sustain you on days that aren't.

Recognizing the good when it happens is a skill, and it takes effort to develop it, and practice to keep it strong. And eventually you get better at it, and you learn to hold out for the next one when it happens, and you find that the good days seem to happen a little bit more often.

#depression things #this is okay to reblog

[slasherscream]

Hi, may I ask a question regarding rebloging. I really don't like posting content of any kind on any of my social medias as I hate attracting to myself(I'm still anxious about the few times I've left comments or requests). But after learning how important rebloging is on tumblr, I've been feeling guilty, I do follow and ❤ as I assume those keep me anonymouse, but not reblog. I don't want content creators to feel unappreciated, but I'm nervouse about having a viewable blog. I'd love your opinion.

hello! i completely understand social anxiety. i have really bad anxiety myself. even with other writers! i get writer to writer intimidation. i think some blogs are way too cool to interact with me and i have to hype myself up before i so much as like their post.

you know what i do?? what you're doing right now. if you read something you enjoy on someone's blog, just leave them an anonymous message saying you enjoyed it.

they get to know someone read what they wrote! you don't have to have any direct attention on you. the writer, knowing people are actually reading what they post, writes more!

writers want engagement.

when we do it for free, like in fandom, that's the only type of reward we experience.

if you enjoy high quality fic/imagines/drabbles/headcanons it really is a case of finding a comfortable way to engage with the people to make fandom fun, or watch fandom die out.

especially as capitalism pushes more and more of us to monetize our hobbies. here's the thought process that will eventually happen for a lot of writers: why bother writing on tumblr? no one even reads what i make. i never get any sort of engagement besides likes. i might as well go try and get paid for it, at least.

and that's how you lose the more experienced writers. and, in one tragic swoop, discourage new ones from taking their place. if that amazing writer didn't get any engagement i really won't because i'm just starting out!! the cycle is vicious.

fandom is dying out because we don't interact with one another the way we used to. anon asks used to be way more prevalent. you don't have to bring attention to yourself or make yourself uncomfortable to make a writer's day. even a couple of heart emojis and a "love how you write" might stop someone from quitting.

#bee talks #this is a long response but the problem is getting worse and worse #this is okay to reblog #it might seem stupid but i am NOT a writer who writes for themselves #very few of us truly are i feel #fandom #yandere #and im speaking up for the ones rn who think they're being attention whores to ask for more from our fellow fans #you're not being greedy you're not being passive aggressive and your writing is incredible no matter who you are bc YOU wrote it

[igayorhm]

You know I’m going to say it. A lot of you need to stop believing the people of colour can’t be racist to each other. You need to stop thinking that it’s just a “white people thing”. Cause it lets a lot of people get away with racist shit. 

I cringe every time I see someone say “Well he/she can’t be racist because he/she is a person of colour too!” Cause they sound straight up dumb when they say it. 

#racism #my dad once told me that every language had a racist term for black people #and i think about that alot #this is okay to reblog #but if you add a stupid take i will block

[deitydeer]

I can’t emphasize enough how much this behavior, seeking out someone who is curating their own space and checking their likes, posts, replies, if they blocked you or not, is blatant cyberstalking. It isn’t a “gotcha” if you’re blocked by somebody. If you’re blocked by somebody, ask why they felt the need to block you. Ask why you felt the need to go seek out their page in the first place. It means you’re unsafe. It means you’re cyberstalking.

#harrassment #social issues #stalking #This is okay to reblog

[aemondtragaryen-archived]

also fellow Americans you have got to remember how big corporations and companies use surveillance on us through phone messaging and search engines like Google. Signal private messaging app, proton mail, and Firefox do not track and surveillance everything like the messaging app on your phone, Google browser and most emails will. Even if we might not need it today you do NOT know what tomorrow is going to hold. Stay safe

#this might sound dramatic to someone who doesn’t live in the US but you don’t get what it’s like here #this is okay to reblog #lanie.txt

[royjamierot]

loving the arts and being in high school is like. I can't stand all of my required classes this is burning me out except for my chosen arts those are all i care about i love learning when i care about these things this is what i want to do for the rest of my life but I can't because it'll be nearly impossible to make a living with that career maybe i could be a teacher maybe i can settle for fucks sake what am i going to do for the rest of my life how can i survive without creation

#ive been going through something for the past few weeks lol #this is okay to reblog #mine

[brainholes-wurmholes]

“i’m sorry, i’m trying so hard, but lately…. my brain feelss like it’s melting out of my eyes”

#vent #vent art #varai vard #mine #this is okay to reblog

[khizuo]

fun outfit for today (that i took off immediately after these photos lol)

[IDs: 1. A photo of Len sitting on the floor in front of a staircase, with one leg tucked in and one leg extending out in front. They are a thin light-skinned East Asian poc with shoulder-length black hair. Ze has on black eyeshadow and black eyeliner streaked across zir cheeks. Ze is wearing a white dress with a black lacy shirt over it, several beaded necklaces, fishnet stockings, and black boots.

2. A photo of Len standing by a staircase. Ze is leaning against the stairway railing, with zir right leg propped up on the stair behind zir. They are a thin light-skinned East Asian poc with shoulder-length black hair. Ze has on black eyeshadow and black eyeliner streaked across zir cheeks. Ze is wearing a white dress with a black lacy shirt over it, several beaded necklaces, a white pearl bracelet, fishnet stockings, and black boots.

3. A mirror selfie of Len in a wooden oval stand mirror. They are a thin light-skinned East Asian poc with shoulder-length black hair. Ze has on black eyeshadow and black eyeliner streaked across zir cheeks. Ze is wearing a white dress with a black lacy shirt over it, several beaded necklaces, fishnet stockings, and black boots. They have one white pearl bracelet on their right wrist and a spiky black bracelet on their left wrist. They are standing in a bedroom.]

#khizuo_irl #alt fashion #my text #this is okay to reblog

[skaianbruja]

People are so convinced that people with personality disorders (and particularly cluster b disorders) are inherently abusive that the idea that we could be victims of abuse is incomprehensible to them

#this is okay to reblog

[la-li-lu-le-lol]

Sadpost incoming.

MGS4 has a lot of layers of themes going on in its story. Sometimes I think about the way Snake was written in it, which works brilliantly as a commentary on the psychological aspects of aging, or on chronic + deteriorating illness and how difficult it is to live with something like that. How it makes your mental health and sense of yourself completely derail and go into really dark places as you still try to live like you did before, etc. In particular his dynamic and interactions with Otacon feel like an extremely realistic depiction of how this acute suffering affects or even strains your relationship with the person you love, etc. Whether that interpretation is intended or not, it all still feels very real and like it was written from a place of personal experience.

When I was younger I used to call Mgs4 torture p*rn and always got really irritated at how self-indulgently sad it was, like it was just Kojima airing out his grievances about his creative frustrations with Konami and unfairly taking it out on his characters. I didn't think it was enjoyable and I felt cheated.

But - and this is about to get very personal - I have been through a lot in the past few years. I'm a little older now, I've gone through progressive and irreversible vision loss and the seething, all-consuming frustration and depression that comes with reduced bodily ability (and my fiancé has dealt with me dealing with it). I'm beginning to go through my 63-year-old father developing Alzheimer's disease, which has already begun to deteriorate his mind and will end his life within the next 10 years at best, far earlier than I or my family could ever expect. The passage of time and trauma and life experience has completely restructured how I view Mgs4. I now much more deeply understand and appreciate many things in the plot that I was repelled by before.

Because, yeah, it really does feel like that.

#this is okay to reblog #i am also doing okay. getting on with life just like everyone else. #mgs4

[miquellaslily]

I LOVE learning new words, in my first language or a new it's just so fun adding to my lexicon like I love learning

#this is okay to reblog #im utterly in love with learning new words