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Yukio Mishima as Saint Sebastian (60s)/ Guido Reni - Saint Sebastian, 1615
“I was flipping through one of the last pages of a volume. All of a sudden, from the corner of the next page, there flashed before my eyes an image that I had to assume had lurked there for my benefit alone.
It was a reproduction of Guido Reni’s Saint Sebastian, which figures in the collection of Palazzo Rosso in Genoa.
The trunk of the tree of torment, black and slightly oblique, stood out against the Titianesque background of a gloomy forest and a serene sky, gloomy and distant. A young man of singular loveliness stood bound naked to the trunk of the tree, his arms drawn up, and the straps that clasped his crossed wrists were fastened to the tree itself. No ties of any other kind were discernible, and the only covering of the young man’s nakedness consisted of a rough white cloth that loosely wrapped around his loins.
I imagined that it was a description of a Christian martyrdom. But since it was due to a painter of the eclectic school derived from the Renaissance, even from this painting depicting the death of a Christian saint exuded a strong aroma of paganism. The young man’s body - one could even compare it to that of Antinous, Hadrian’s favorite, whose beauty was so often immortalized in sculpture - bears no trace of the hardships or exhaustion derived from missionary life, which imprint the effigy of other saints: instead, this one uniquely manifests the springtime of youth, uniquely light and pleasure and gracefulness.
That white and incomparable nudity of hers sparkles against a background of twilight. His sinewy arms, the arms of a praetorian accustomed to flex his bow and brandish his sword, are raised in a harmonious curve, and his wrists cross immediately above his head. The face is turned slightly upward and the eyes are wide open, contemplating the glory of heaven with deep tranquility. It is not suffering that hovers over the expanded chest, the taut abdomen, the barely twisted lips, but a flicker of melancholy pleasure like music. Were it not for the arrows with their points stuck in his left armpit and right hip, he would rather look like a Roman athlete relieving fatigue in a garden, leaning against a dark tree.
Arrows have plunged into the heart of the young, pulpy, fragrant flesh, and are about to consume the body from within with flames of heartbreak and supreme ecstasy. But the blood is not gushing out; the swarm of arrows seen in other paintings of St. Sebastian’s martyrdom has not yet raged. Here instead, two lone arrows send their quiet and delicate shadows over the smoothness of the skin, similar to the shadows of a branch falling on a marble staircase.
But all these interpretations and discoveries came later.
That day, the moment I glimpsed the painting, my whole being quivered with pagan joy. My blood roiled in my veins, my loins swelled almost in an emptiness of rage. The monstrous part of me that was close to exploding waited for me to use it with unprecedented ardor, rebuking my ignorance, gasping in outrage. My hands, not at all unconsciously, began a movement I had never learned. I felt something secret, something radiant, launching itself rattily to the assault from within. It erupted suddenly, bringing with it a blinding intoxication....
Some time elapsed and then, in a desolate mood, I looked around at the desk I stood in front of. Outside the window a maple tree was casting a vivid glare everywhere -- on the ink bottle, on school books and notebooks, on the dictionary, on the image of St. Sebastian. Splashes of a dim whiteness appeared here and there - on the title in gold letters of a textbook, on the margin of the inkwell, on an edge of the dictionary. Some objects dripped lazily, others glowed with a dim gleam like the eyes of a dead fish. Fortunately, a reflexive movement of my hand to protect the figure had prevented the volume from soiling.
That was my first ejaculation. And it was also the clumsy and totally unplanned beginning of my “bad habit.”
–Yukio Mishima “Confessions of a Mask”
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denaliwrites · 5 months
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Alec Hardy x Bad Girl!Reader
Summary: If "whirlwind romance" were in the dictionary, next to its definition would be an image of you and Alec.
Soundtrack: Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift
Requests: Open!
Warnings: Criminal Activity.
1995
It wasn't like Alec, going and falling in love with one of the people he was sworn to put away.
Yet as you were escorted into the station, all crimson smiles, all confidence, all sauntering hips and deep black leather, he couldn't help the way his heart skipped a beat.
(Little did he know how dangerous that would be for him if this had happened, oh, eighteen years into the future.)
And when your eyes danced across the room just to finally land on him -- tiny, scrawny little Alec Hardy -- oh, he knew he was done for. Not that he minded much... or at all.
Doing your intake was the highest honor that had, in his twenty-six years of life, been bestowed upon him.
"What'd they get a lass like you for?" he asked as he took your fingerprints, his hands surprisingly gentle with your own.
"Defacement," you replied simply with a smirk.
"Of?"
"Churchill's grave."
"Oh," he said, too stunned to move or speak for a moment. It passed quickly, and he resumed his work as if nothing had happened. "One of those counter-culture types, then."
You laughed at that, and it was the most beautiful sound he'd ever heard. He could listen to it forever.
"Something like that," you said once your laughs died down. "I'm not big on the punk scene, though."
"Really?" he asked, looking up at you before quickly looking back down. "You look like you'd fit right in with that lot."
"What can I say? They've got a good look."
He hummed in response, then the two of you fell into silence as he continued processing you.
Once he was done, he escorted you to a cell and guided you in by the waist. You said nothing, but the look you sent him and the smile on those bloodstained lips let him know that you knew -- and you liked it.
The gesture was so small, so insignificant, and yet he couldn't believe he'd done it.
Somewhere in the back of his mind, he wondered about the power dynamics, and if he was abusing what little power he had in this situation. Then he decided that any power he had -- you granted him, and could easily take away if you wanted.
This suspicion was only confirmed upon your release. He was the one to open the cell -- he made sure of it -- and as you passed you winked at him and slipped him a piece of paper. Where you'd gotten it, or a pen, he had no idea, but when he looked at it at the privacy of his desk there definitely was a phone number written on it, as well as a kiss mark from your lipstick.
Oh, how devilish of you.
He called the number that night, and honestly half expected anyone else to answer. Maybe even no one.
Instead, your heavenly voice drifted down the line. "Took you long enough," you said lightly into his ear, and it took every ounce of control he had over his body to keep breathing.
"I had work," he protested, just as lightly.
"A poor excuse. Do you normally keep girls waiting like this?"
"Only the naughty ones."
Wow, he couldn't believe he'd just said that.
"So it's a punishment?" you said with a laugh.
The note of danger in that angelic sound sent a thrill down his spine. "If it is?"
"I'd like to see you try," you said, still laughing.
He wouldn't. He couldn't imagine it, frankly. Though he could imagine you punishing him, and he, much to his surprise, rather liked the idea.
The hell were you doing to him?
"Do you have a place to stay?" he asked.
"I have a phone number, don't I?"
Oh. Right. That you did.
"Would you like to stay at mine anyway?"
You hummed thoughtfully. "Stay with a random cop I only just met yesterday?" you asked teasingly. "What could possibly go wrong?"
"I promise I won't kill ye," he said quickly, fearfully.
"I know," you said. "You couldn't even if you wanted to."
He gave you his address, anyway, and then the conversation lulled and, rather suddenly, you hung up.
"That was rather rude," he mused.
You arrived just as he set his plate down on the table.
Answering the insistent knocking upon his door, he didn't expect to see you, yet there you stood. You were gorgeous as ever, with wild hair tumbling over your shoulders, no doubt whipped to a frenzy by a car's open windows, and lips as red as they were the moment he'd first laid eyes on you.
"Oh," he said, blinking. "You... came?"
"Well, you did invite me," you said, grinning.
"That I did," he said, and stepped aside so that you could enter. He closed the door behind you and followed you as you took a few exploratory steps deeper into the flat. "Have you eaten?" he asked as he passed you to return to the kitchen.
"No," you replied simply, looking around his kitchen curiously, as if you couldn't believe he actually lived here.
"Well, help yourself." He motioned to the pot on the stove as he sat down.
You must've noticed he wasn't eating -- he noticed the look of realization, the way you hurried to fill a plate and sit down beside him.
Your eyes met, and he smiled at the hint of a blush on your cheeks.
"I hope you don't expect me to say grace," you said to break the silence that had built around the two of you.
"Oh, goodness no," he replied.
"So you're waiting for me."
"Of course." You were the one in charge here, after all. Well, to him you were, at least.
You took a bite and he followed suit, and the two of you ate in amicable silence.
The rest of the night Alec spent discovering all the ways he could make you tick.
1996
Alec had never had a roommate before, let alone one who found themselves in jail as frequently as you did.
He had had girlfriends before, but you were the first one he hesitated to introduce to his parents -- it wasn't that he didn't love you, it was that he wasn't sure his poor mum would survive meeting you. She was a bit traditional, and you were anything but.
Unfortunately, the universe didn't agree with him.
You were home alone, recovering from a hangover when his mother dropped in unannounced -- and about had a heart attack at the sight of you, with all your leather and spikes, and what a "traditional" woman might say was a scandalous amount of makeup.
"Who are you, then?" Mrs. Hardy asked, because you couldn't possibly be Alec's girlfriend.
You were sensible not to immediately correct that assumption, instead simply offering your name before wandering to the kitchen and popping some painkillers.
"And what are you doing here?" she pressed.
"Oh, I live here."
"Does my boy need help with the rent?" she asked, mostly herself -- at least, you were pretty sure she wasn't asking you. "Enough that he'd seek help from..."
"Hmm?" you prompted in amusement, leaning your hip against the counter.
"Well, someone of your profession. Of course."
"What profession would that be?"
"You know," she said conspiratorily.
"Ma'am," you said with a biting laugh, "I work at the pub down the street."
She looked like she wanted to say, no, that's not right, you couldn't possibly be anything but a prostitute. She must've thought better of it, though.
Alec, blessedly, chose that moment to walk in the door.
You could see on his face, the moment he saw his mother, that he almost considered walking right back out.
Instead, he said "Mum!" and pulled the woman into an embrace. "I see ye've met my girlfriend."
You watched as several decidedly not great emotions passed over her features, before she settled on disbelief. "But... darlin', she's..."
You and Alec both stared at her as she struggled to find a delicate way to say it.
"Isn't she a little... bold, for you?" she asked. You had to admit, that was better than you expected.
"That's why I like her," Alec answered, pulling you into a side hug and kissing your cheek. You giggled and instinctively pulled him into a proper kiss, which he happily returned.
"Well... if ye say so..."
1997
The goal had never been to tame you or cage you, and the longer your relationship lasted the more he saw how ill-fitted to domesticity you were.
He didn't want to admit it, of course. He would've been happy to spend the rest of his life with you.
But he loved you, and he could see just how miserable you were living in the same little flat, going to the same boring job every day, talking to the same boring people and having the same boring sex with the same boring partner, day after day, for years.
You'd always been a troublemaker, it was one of the things he'd first learned about you, and it was one of the first things he'd fallen in love with.
For a while, at the start of the relationship, you'd put in effort not to get into trouble. For him, mostly, but he suspected you also had a genuine desire to turn a new leaf.
But you got bored. And when you were bored, you lashed out.
It was at a point now where Alec thought you probably spent more time in a cell than in his bed.
It broke his heart, that you couldn't be happy with him. But it broke his heart more that he'd unwittingly tried to break you, when he should've released you back into the wild. Hell, he never should've captured you at all.
"I want you out," he said one night.
"... out?" you asked, stunned. Confused. Lost. Hurt.
"I can't do this anymore," he said with a sigh. "The constant stints in jail, the drugs, the drinkin'. It's too much. So you need to leave."
"But..."
"No. You need to leave. That's the end of it. You have a week to sort out another place to stay, but then ye've gotta go. Even if it means ye gotta live on the streets."
It killed him inside that he could see a tiny glimmer of relief in your eyes.
And when he got home from work the next day, you were gone.
2004
Honestly, Alec hadn't expected to run into you again. Ever.
Yet as he walked Daisy through the park, there you were, circling the playground like a lion stalking its prey. There was only one child playing there, screaming gleefully as he sped down the slide. You hovered for a moment, watching vigilantly, before continuing your path around the jungle gym.
You looked... stressed. But happy.
Daisy tore her hand out of his and ran for the boy, no doubt eager to make a friend.
He watched as you realized there was an incoming missile in the form of a little girl, your eyes on his daughter as she neared. You eased the moment you realized it was just a kid coming at your... son? Yet you kept an eye on her, easily adopting the role of guardian for her even though she was a strange child who had, by all accounts, appeared out of nowhere.
He slowly made his way over, his eyes never leaving you. He saw, in rapid succession, your expression change from casual, to realization, to deer in the headlights, to flighty panic.
Yet you were stuck -- whoever this child was, you couldn't leave without him, and he was playing with Daisy in a section it'd be near impossible for you to reach before Alec reached you.
And reach you he did.
He said your name, the first time in years, and you closed your eyes at the sound of it. No doubt willing him to vanish.
"Hey."
It was the best he could've hoped for, honestly.
"You look well," he said, before his attention shifted to the kids. "Is he...?"
"God, no," you said with a nervous laugh. "Please. Me, with a kid? That'd be a disaster. No, he's, er... my friend's kid. I'm babysitting for the day while she's visiting her mum."
"Never really took ye to be a kid person."
"There's a lot about me you never really got the chance to learn."
"That's fair," he replied, watching the kids run around the swingset in a game of tag.
"Why did you do it?" you asked after a few moments of silence. "The real why, not the one you gave me that day."
He didn't want to answer that.
"The reason I gave you that day was the real reason."
"Don't -- don't you fucking dare," you hissed, turning to him. "Why lie?"
Because he knew if he'd told you the truth, you never would've gone. Never would've saved yourself.
"I didn't. I'm not. I was so tired of it all."
"And now?"
"And now I'm married with a kid."
He saw a brief flash of hurt in your eyes -- it was a life you never could've given him. Not for any lack of ability, but you both knew that if you'd somehow miraculously allowed yourself to carry to term, you probably would've walked out eventually. The domestic life just wasn't for you. It would've driven you crazy.
He could see that, just in the brief time he'd been watching you with your friend's kid. You were watchful -- perfectly diligent, perfectly protective... but he could see you itching to do just about anything else instead.
"How have you been?" he asked, pulling himself as well as you out of the thoughts circling in your heads.
"Good," you replied simply, at first. After a moment of thought, you added, "I took up a job in a school. Pays better than the pub."
"His age?"
"Yeah. I see him, sometimes."
"D'ye ken Daisy?"
"Your daughter?"
He nodded.
"I think she's familiar, but I'm sure if she actually were a student at my school I would've run into you sooner."
"Nah, my wife does all the school stuff. Tess, her name is."
"It rings a bell, actually."
"Eh? Small world."
The conversation drifted a bit from there, hitting on a few topics before you plucked up your now exhausted six-year-old charge and carried him home for naptime.
2008
Whoever you thought you might run into at an underground rave, Alec Hardy absolutely did not make the list.
Yet, he was unmistakable.
"Hey babe," you shouted into his ear with a grin, your body moving closer to him in time with the pounding beat of the music playing overhead. "I was wondering where you'd gone!"
"What are you on about? I don't know ye--"
Realization dawned in his eyes, and your grin widened. The last thing he saw before you pulled him into a kiss was a flash of danger in your eyes.
"What the hell?" he all but shouted into your lips.
"Play along, dumbass," you said instead of answering.
He seemed to get the hint, though. He was stiff at first as his hands circled your hips, but the two of you quickly fell back into whatever chemistry you'd had thirteen years ago and he loosened up.
You continued to dance, body grinding against his.
He was still, simply holding you, and when you looked up you saw nothing but adoration in his eyes.
"What?" you asked with a confused smile.
"I wish I'd gotten to see this side of you," he said. "This is how you should've been."
"Coked out?"
"Free."
Several emotions flitted over your face, eventually landing on heartfelt appreciation. "So that's why you broke up with me."
"Yes," was all he said. It was all you needed.
"Why didn't you just say that?"
"Ye would've given up yer freedom 'cause you would've thought that's what I wanted ye to do."
He was right.
"Thank you, Alec," you said quietly, and if not for the tender kiss he placed on your forehead, you would've thought your words lost to the blaring music.
You had to admit, he played the role of "boyfriend" well.
Too well.
It was rather funny, you thought, that he was confused for a patron and arrested along with you.
"I'm never gonna live this down," he moaned into his knees.
"Shut up," you told him with a laugh. "You'll be fine. Officer!" you called, waving your non-cuffed hand to get one of the arresting officers' attention. "Officer, can I get leave from these cuffs to run to the restroom?"
"Can't you hold it?" a gruff voice asked.
"Well, I could try, but then you'll be responsible for all the blood I leave behind."
You had to bite back laughter at the disgusted face the cop made. "Fine, but he stays with you," he said, motioning to Alec.
Alec, to his benefit, didn't protest.
You happily bounced up from the floor, dragging Alec along with you, and made your way to the restroom.
Inside was empty and quiet.
"Oh, this is gonna be a problem," you said thoughtfully.
"If there's anything I can do to help, I'll do it," Alec said, and you were struck by how genuine he was. After all this time, he still loved you -- enough to help you change your tampon, even.
"Oh, that was a lie," you reassured him. "I'm not on my period."
"Then... what are we doing in here?" he asked, looking around like the answer might be written somewhere.
"Busting out, duh."
"Oh, you've gotta be kidding me -- I can't get arrested twice!"
"Yeah, that's why we won't be caught."
He dropped his face into his free hand, and you laughed. Quietly.
"C'mon, Hardy. Help me. You said you would."
"Yeah, when I thought ye needed help takin' care of yer period. I did not agree to help ye evade arrest!"
"Isn't it your career on the line, here?" you asked casually, as you eyed the bathroom window.
You heard a grunt behind you. "Ye always were tricky, weren't ye?"
"Like a fox, babe," you agreed.
He moved to stand beside you, looking at the window thoughtfully. "It should have a hatch release," he said, even though neither of you had found one.
"Could it be... subtle?" you asked. "Like a... tiny button?"
"To open a window?"
"I was hoping we wouldn't need to smash it."
"Sorry, but no such luck."
"Fuck. Okay."
You pulled him close to you, hands working quickly to undo the buttons of his shirt.
"I hardly think now's the time for sex," he gasped. "They'll come lookin' for us any moment."
"Yeah, it also won't help us break the window. You know what will, though? A fist, wrapped up in your shirt."
He really was such a dumbass, sometimes.
Once you got to the sleeve of his cuffed arm, together the two of you made quick work of making the necessary tears to get the shirt off completely.
Alec started wrapping the remains of his shirt around his balled fist, but your hands on his stilled him.
"Let me," you said.
"Now's not the time to be a hero," he replied.
"Please."
"Why?"
"If I get injured, I'm the one who broke the glass. I'm the one who gets in trouble. Your career won't be on the line."
"I'll still have let ye do it."
"Please, there's no 'letting' me do anything."
With that, he let you unravel the shirt from his hand and helped you wind it around yours. Then he double-checked it, and triple-checked it.
"When you're ready," he said after his last inspection.
Without hesitation, you punched a hole in the glass, then started knocking the remains out of the sill.
"Have ye done this before?" he asked, impressed and concerned all at once.
"I will let you believe what you want to believe. Now, c'mon!"
The two of you crawled out of the freshly broken window and ran off into the night, laughing and hand-in-hand.
You were lucky that the shop clerk didn't ask questions or call the police as you and Alec, still cuffed together, stepped up to the counter with a small haul.
Alec, ever the responsible one between you two, held a bottle of water, some painkillers, a sports drink, a protein bar, and your favorite candy.
You, ever the partier, held a bottle of beer and an energy drink.
You paid with the banknotes stashed in your bra and carried your haul out into the night.
The two of you walked a ways before finding a park. You dragged Alec over to the swings with a giggle and happily sat in one. He sighed and rolled his eyes, but sat in the swing next to you anyway.
"You're a right menace, y'ken that?" he groaned.
"It's one of my most charming features," you argued, smirking as you popped your beer open and took a sip.
"Why'd ye kiss me?" he asked, staring out over the park.
You shrugged. "The only way you'd ever end up at a rave is if you were undercover or it was some kind of sting operation -- which meant there were dangerous criminals around, and -- I'm sorry, but you do not blend in."
"So you gave me a cover."
"It was that or get stabbed. I'd like to think kissing me isn't as bad as the alternative."
"It was rather unexpected," he said, but you could see him fighting back a smile.
"Speaking of unexpected, when were you gonna tell me you have a key to these cuffs?"
"Oh, never," he said with a laugh.
"Alec Hardy," you said with a dramatic gasp. "Are you arresting me?"
"I could do," he teased, yanking his arm, with enough strength to send you reeling. Instead, though, you were able to catch yourself and swung to face him instead.
When your swing came close enough to his, his legs caught yours and kept you in place while his lips crashed into your own in a bit of a rough -- but sweet -- kiss.
"Alec Hardy," you said again, breathlessly.
He whispered your name into your lips, and you realized it had never sounded as lovely as it did coming from him.
"I love you," you whispered back, and he pulled away to stare longingly, lovingly into your eyes.
"It's not just the coke or booze talkin'?"
"Does it matter if it is? Even if I were completely sober... what could we do? Date again? Get married? You know I'd rather die than settle down."
He did. It was the whole reason he'd let you go.
"What we can do," he started, pulling you into a gentle kiss, "is get ye somewhere safe and comfortable to sober up."
"Your place?" you questioned with a grin.
"Exactly," he responded, and you felt his own smile against your lips. "And then, once yer sober, we can... talk."
With that, the two of you (reluctantly) parted, and Alec led you away into the glimmering city.
No real talking was had for the week you spent at Alec's flat. Sure, words were exchanged, like "What should we have for dinner?" or "What time should I expect you home?" But for the most part, the two of you didn't talk so much as... moan each other's names in a near-constant state of ecstasy.
And boy, did you get great use out of those cuffs.
2013
Of course you'd heard about the Sandbrook case -- even when you and Alec weren't talking, the two of you still kept tabs on each other.
He'd sent you an email when your aunt died. You'd sent him a text when his mum was diagnosed with cancer (luckily, she was fine now, and you'd sent him a text when she'd gone into remission, too).
All that to say that you knew. About the case, sure, but more importantly, about how devastated he was over it. A text wouldn't do. Hell, even a call wouldn't do.
Last you'd heard, he'd relocated to some coastal town called Broadchurch.
So you followed him there.
You hadn't been expecting a murder investigation when you pulled into town, but it was the only thing anyone was talking about, nor were you expecting to organically run into Alec mere minutes after arriving, yet in he walked as you were grabbing a coffee.
"What're you doin' 'ere?" he asked, completely baffled.
The woman beside him looked... well, equally confused. Maybe more? You and Alec just had a habit of running into each other. For her, this was new.
"I heard about Sandbrook," you said simply.
He sighed dramatically, pinching the bridge of his nose. "I don't have time for ye right now."
Ouch.
"Just -- go get set up in the hotel. I'm stayin' there, I'll... I'll see ye." With that, he waved you away. Dismissed you like a dog.
Hmph.
You did get yourself set up in the hotel, of course, but you took your sweet time getting there. There was plenty to do in the town, though the constant mistrustful stares set you a bit on edge.
It was about six when you finally went and got yourself a room, and about ten when you heard a gentle rapping at your door.
"I'm sorry about earlier," was the first thing Alec said as you swung the door open.
You looked him over, now that you had the chance -- he looked haunted, haggard. Sleepless...
"Oh, Alec," you sighed, drawing him into an embrace. He melted into you, holding you tight. "I'm sorry. I should've been there."
"Nothin' ye could've done."
You knew that, of course, and you knew your presence alone wouldn't have chased away that haunted look in his eyes, just as it wasn't doing now, but... you wished it could. You wished it were that easy.
He parted from you with a shaky breath, his eyes rimmed with unshed tears.
And then he yanked you into a desperate kiss.
You didn't protest, and in fact returned it. Neither of you parted as he pushed you back into the room and toed your door shut, nor as the back of your knees hit the bed and you nearly collapsed.
He caught you, held you impossibly close, fingered the hem of your shirt in a silent bid for consent.
You nodded, eagerly, and he made quick work of your clothes -- and you.
You weren't surprised how often Alec came to see you during the Latimer case (okay, maybe you were, a little).
You knew he was just using you for stress relief, but you didn't mind (much). You figured it was penance for being unable to help him during the Sandbrook case. You figured things would go back to normal once this new case was over.
Then the fucker went and had a heart attack or something.
So things returned to normal a bit quicker than you expected.
At least he apologized.
Things were a bit awkward at first once sex was taken off the table. Like the two of you didn't know how to do anything but fuck like rabbits. Eventually, though, you found a groove that worked.
Every night that he came "home," you had dinner, watched a movie, and talked about the bits of your lives you'd missed.
You told him where you'd gone after the breakup. He told you about meeting Tess and having Daisy. You told him about your trip to Tanzania. He told you about becoming Detective Inspector.
"Your life has been much more exciting than mine," he said one night as the two of you lay curled up together in bed.
"Maybe," you said with a shrug. "But you actually did something with yours."
"Naaaah," he growled, making you giggle. "Everyone's different... this is the path I was always gonna be on, and that's the path ye were always gonna be on."
"I guess we're lucky our paths keep crossing from time to time."
"I hope they do far into the future," Alec said with a yawn.
You giggled again. "Go to sleep, dumbass. You have a murder to solve."
"God, don't remind me."
2014
You could feel that Alec was at peace, for once.
Sure, Joe Miller had walked. But Alec knew he'd gotten the right man. And he'd solved the Sandbrook case -- finally gave that family justice and closure. Finally erased that blemish from his conscience.
The two of you celebrated in the only way you really knew how, by making love.
Leaving Broadchurch had always been the plan, for you. You'd stayed, because Alec had needed you to, but you never intended to stay anywhere permanently.
So why did it hurt so much when Alec told you he was leaving?
And why did it hurt so much when you watched his train rattle away?
2017
Alec kept the house in Broadchurch -- mostly for you. He knew you weren't a creature of habit, of settling down and growing roots, but he offered it as a sort of base of operations, with no strings attached. You'd taken the offer, simply because it felt like if you didn't, you'd never hear from him again.
Not that he contacted you anyway.
Until one day, when he'd called you to tell you he was moving back to Broadchurch and would need his house back. You were welcome to stay, he assured you, but he also made it seem like maybe you shouldn't. He was bringing his daughter with him, and she seemed to be in a difficult period of her life.
You wondered if Alec remembered how the two of you had met. Apparently not, given he thought his daughter being a troublemaker would bother you.
So you'd stayed, and they'd moved back in.
Things were tense at first, especially given his first big case upon his return, but eventually it all evened out. You even got on surprisingly well with Daisy, all things considered.
2018
You hadn't meant to stay. It had just sort of... happened. And you hadn't meant to fall back into a relationship with Alec. That had just sort of happened, too.
Yet... you were happy.
For the first time in your life, staying... wasn't so bad. You even thought you could rather do more of it. Maybe not a lot. But... some.
2019
You admired the glittering ring on your finger as reflected lights danced on the ceiling and walls of your tiny little home in Broadchurch.
Alec held you in his arms, and you had your legs draped over his lap. Some old black and white film played on the TV. It was dark and rainy. The night couldn't have been more perfect, even if he hadn't proposed to you on top of it all.
Eventually the two of you moved to your bed, and Alec held you impossibly close, his arms tight but tender around you.
"All I ask," he sighed sleepily, "is that if ye leave, ye always come home to me."
And come home to him you did.
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eletricheart · 7 months
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Hiii! I have a request for Donna. You can write about Donna and f!reader who don't speak or understand English but they were injured and lost
Wounded
(Donna Beneviento x Reader)
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Word count: 737
i did my best😭 hope u like it🫶 its all fluff i promise
ps: i didnt specify the gender, it didnt really matter in the story, i wrote a lot "you" so...idk
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You were running through the snow, desperately trying to gain distance from whatever creature was chasing you. You didn't know what it was, all you saw was blood and a howl, then you ran.
Your legs were burning and the trees were leaving multiple scratches on your face. Suddenly you were pushed to the side, your brain barely registering the pain of falling down a slide.
Your breaths were coming in hard, your lungs were hurting and there was blood dripping down from your head to your eyes. All you could see was a grave surrounded by flowers, ironic since you felt like dying.
You tried to stand but after running, falling and having an unknown pain in your side, you fell back down.
At least the place was nice, the moon's shine left the flowers sparkling slightly.
You heard shuffling and thought the creature came to finish it's job until little doll feet stood in front of your face. You noticed the doll speaking to you, unfortunately you did not speak the language so just stared at her confused.
Your eyes were starting to close when the smells of fresh paint and leaves slightly woke you up. You could feel someone lifting you, wincing when she touched your wounds.
You didn't stay awake enough to see the path, all you remember is waking up in a bed in a strange room. Your body was covered in bandages and there was a doctor doll sitting next to you.
You barely could move but managed to turn your head enough to properly look at them, a chuckle left your lips hurting your ribs a bit.
You were close to falling asleep again when the door opened gently. A woman dressed in black was holding a tray with what appeared to be tea and some fruits. She settled it on the nearby table and approached you.
She pointed at your bandage. "The tea will heal it." Her voice wasn't louder than a whisper, cracking on a few words.
You furrowed your brows, not understanding what she says. You attempted to speak in your language but three words in and the woman shook her head, held one finger up(as in one second) and left.
You couldn't move therefore waited. She didn't take long to return with a notebook and pen.
She wrote down her name and pointed at herself. You nodded and told her your name, also asking her to carry on.
Donna understood your name but the rest was messy, so she tilted her head momentarily confused, to which you picked up on and looked at the tray.
The dollmaker nodded and laid it beside you, helping you into a sitting position. You ate in silence, she would occasionally stare at you but most of the time looked at the floor. Once you were done she took the tray and set it back on the table before moving back to sit beside you.
Donna kept wondering on how to speak to you, she could find a dictionary but there weren't many options in her house and she didn't know what language you were speaking. Perhaps she could ask the name, but she also wasn't sure on how to.
After what felt like ages for the dollmaker, she picked up the notebook and wrote a sad face. She presented to you and pointed at the bandages.
You were happy she was trying to talk to you, not hiding your smile and making a more or less gesture. You still needed to thank her and the language barrier was an issue, so you pointed at your wounds, gave her a thumbs up, pointed at her and made a heart with your hands.
Donna was thankful you couldn't see her face through the veil for she was blushing furiously, she still nodded politely but was melting on the inside.
The next days were the same, she'd come in, check your wounds and you'd talk through drawings. Angie absolutely adored this, believing it was all a game, eventually she understood you couldn't understand when she talked so the doll would tease Donna and tell her secrets to you. You would always look at her with a confused but smiling face.
Donna did find out which language you spoke and arranged a dictionary, now both of your days were filled with studying and giggling when one would say something in the other language.
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onestopfanficshop · 1 year
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the rongloa family headcanons
(will be updated as i get more ideas!)
Satseypeäkx Te Rongloa Tsu'tey'itan
PRONUNCIATION: Sat-SAY-pey-ack
AGE: 16
HEIGHT: 8 ft 9 in (266.7 cm)
SIGN: Virgo
Goes by Satsey :) his full name is rarely used by you and Tsu’tey unless he’s in trouble lol
Spitting image of his dad
He was you and Tsu’tey’s first everything
Tsu’tey had gotten emotional with you before, but when Satsey was born, he openly cried in front of you
Looks just like his dad
Since he was an only child for nearly two years, you guys would never put him down. As a result, he was the fussiest baby in the world 😭 he refused to go to sleep without someone holding him
Avid fan of English curse words, which seems to have rubbed off on his younger twin sisters (much to your dismay)
Absolutely hates getting up early for any reason with a passion, just like his dad
Grew the fastest out of all of your kids; he was constantly having growth spurts and achy legs from growing so fast. He's almost as tall as his dad now and he's not even done growing!
Not afraid to get into a fight on behalf of his siblings, especially if someone is teasing one of them. Those are his babies and NO ONE is allowed to be mean to them (except him obviously)
Momma's boy through and through :,)
All of his younger siblings really do value his opinion, even though they pretend they don't lol
Ameyä Te Rongloa Tirea'asevin'ite
PRONUNCIATION: Ah-MAY-yah
AGE: 14
HEIGHT: 7 ft 5 in (226.06 cm)
SIGN: Pisces
Twins are exceptionally rare among the Na'vi, so to say your girls were special is an understatement
Her and her sister Atlìyä were the hardest birth of the four kids (I mean obviously, there was two of them), and Satsey literally will not let them live it down
In the picture dictionary, next to "daddy's girl", you will see Ameyä's picture 💀
Loves hunting, so naturally Dad is the person she gravitates to
Was actually one of the youngest people to complete her Iknimaya in the clan at twelve. Twelve! You were so proud of your girl :,)
You were initially extremely against it and were worried (justly so) that she was too young and could get hurt, but Tsu'tey reassured you that she was ready
You trusted his judgment, so you waited nervously for her to complete her trials, and when she did, proud was an understatement of how you and Tsu'tey felt. You two felt so lucky to have one of the strongest and bravest daughters in the whole clan
The more level-headed and rational twin
Affectionately called "Mey-Mey" by her siblings
Has the biggest sweet tooth; you’ll always find her snacking on some fruit
Was the baby that would pick up ANYTHING and put it straight in her mouth. Constantly was giving you and Tsu’tey mini heart attacks
Holds the worst grudges in the world. She'll (begrudgingly) forgive but you can bet your ass that she won't forget
Loves to spar with her older brother and her sister (or really anyone willing to) because she knows she'll win
Atlìyä Te Rongloa Tirea'asevin'ite
PRONUNCIATION: At-LEE-yah
AGE: 14
HEIGHT: 7 ft 5 in (226.06 cm)
SIGN: Pisces
Always has her head up in the clouds
Is super close with Kiri and considers her to be a second sister. It’s not uncommon to find them chatting away somewhere in the forest
However, Ameyä is absolutely her best friend; they're practically inseparable even now that they've grown up
Her and Ameyä are the perfect mix of you and Tsu’tey in terms of looks
Rolls her eyes (a trait she picked up from you) anytime Ameyä mentions she's the oldest
"We are two minutes apart, Ameyä! That does not make you the boss of me!"
Constantly brags about having the prettiest ikran (which, truthfully, she does)
The carefree and therefore most accident-prone twin (Ameyä is constantly having to get her out of trouble lmao)
Is the best flier out of all the kids. Will go for a flight to clear her mind or just for fun and loves to do all sorts of flips and tricks (which ALSO gave you and Tsu'tey mini heart attacks)
Loves hearing the story of how you and Tsu'tey met and gets a kick out of how you two used to hate each other's guts at first
INSTIGATOR with a capital I 😭 it literally fills her with glee to insert herself into people's conversations and arguments
"Mom, didn't Dad tell you to go back to your planet when you guys were younger? I personally would not let that slide, but that's just me."
Loves to sit with Kiri and watch old Earth movies in the base at Hell's Gate, as well as watching your old video logs that you used to make, just like Grace and Uncle Jake.
They snicker anytime you would mention Tsu'tey in your logs because even though you'd seem annoyed by him, it was very clear to the girls from watching (not so much to you at the time) that you were starting to fall for him
Za’wey Te Rongloa Tsu'tey'itan
PRONUNCIATION: Za-WAY
AGE: 8
HEIGHT: 5 ft 9 in (175.26 cm)
SIGN: Sagittarius
Baby of the family, obviously
Lookswise, he bears the most resemblance to you; I'm talking carbon copy
Very much a daddy’s boy to the point of near offense on your behalf, especially when he was first born. He would cry and cry and cry until he was placed in Tsu'tey's arms, and then he would be as quiet as a mouse.
As he neared his first birthday, his favoritism for his dad mellowed down a bit and would actually grow to prefer having you hold him
But he will always confide in his Tsu'tey; if he ever has a question about something he had seen in the forest, his dad is the first person he'd run to ask
Is constantly getting piggyback rides from his siblings, especially Satsey
Avid nap taker
Loves to cling to Tsu'tey's leg whenever possible
Absolutely loves to go on fishing trips with his brother and dad; it makes him feel like a grown up
Just like Tuk, he is not afraid to blackmail his siblings in order to be invited on their adventures 😭
Ameyä babies him the most (he pretends that he hates it but it really does make him feel protected)
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purgatory-if · 6 months
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"right- i'll get right on that! oh goodness what am i doing … one thing at a time, es. just breathe. juuuust. breathe."
HEAVEN-SENT ...
... ON the occasion they add pictures in dictionaries, then esme's face would be next to the defintion of 'nervous'. it's not intentional, but being a celestial being thrust into a world more than 6 feet under and then being buried under paperwork is a daunting task, to say the least. even if they were one of heaven's best or luckiest of soldiers, it would still be an uphill battle. when you lose the cosmic lottery and get pulled for a desk job in hell, there's not much you can do other than grin and bear it, is there?
... TO be a bit kinder to them, they do their work well. they're a healer at heart, and if that manifests as healing the truly gaping wound of the deficit in administrative staff, then so be it! after a string of incidents, they've been left to fend for themselves in this wasteland of paperwork. it's tough going. someone should check up on them to make sure they're not doing too much overtime.
APPEARANCE ...
5'1 with a lithe frame. time spent sitting at a desk job hasn't done them any favours, but esme never took well to the usual battle training. brown skin with a smattering of freckles all over their body, but mostly on their cheeks and arms. they do have a few scars here and there, but they're fairly minor.
short, messy white hair that reaches just past their chin, surrounding large heterochromatic eyes--blue and yellow. a shimmering halo floats above their head, and completing the image is a set of medium white wings, not dissimilar to those of a seagull.
tends to wear casual clothes; shirts and cardigans and flowing skirts that reach the floor.
OTHER ...
species: angel
pronouns: they/them
orientation: pansexual
birthday: august twenty-second
mbti + enneagram: isfj [defender] + 9w1 [peacemaker]
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geekygumiho · 9 months
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Can I touch your heart? Chapter 3 - Page
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warnings: SG-1 eat breakfast together so food is mentioned, also Daniel eats a power bar
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notes: lol not me saying i was gonna upload these a couple days after the last chapter and then several weeks went by HAHA WHOOPS but heyyy it's here!! :D i learned how to use procreate recently and ended up drawing the middle image for this post, so maybe expect to see more Daniel and Ji-Yu fanart from me? hehehe... i also realized that it might be helpful to put a little mini-dictionary for the Korean terms that i use so i'll def be sure to do that for future chapters as well! ^^ also also uploading this on 7/29/23 so happy crab day, fam!! :D <3
korean terms used: daenggi - the red ribbon used to tie the end of Ji-Yu's braid datong-li - the calendar system used in Joseon-era Korea hanja - the writing system used in ancient Korea before the invention of the hangul alphabet by King Sejong in the latter end of the Joseon Dynasty
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One week later, Ji-Yu is adjusting well to life on Earth and at SG Command. The princess decided to take General Hammond’s offer to stay on the base and was assigned a job as a translator and cultural consultant working by Daniel’s side. The General also gave her an order to learn English so she could communicate with the rest of the people on base.
Because the English language lessons for Korean speakers that were readily available on Earth weren't compatible with the now "outdated" way of speaking and writing Korean that was used on Songak, Daniel decided to create custom lessons for Ji-Yu specifically tailored to the way Korean was used on her home planet. Thanks to Daniel’s lessons and his help whenever she got stuck or confused, Ji-Yu has been making swift progress with speaking and comprehending the English language.
Since Ji-Yu had gotten better at English, she had been met with a warm welcome from everybody she met and found herself quickly making friends along the way. Major Carter seemed interested in connecting with Ji-Yu further once they were able to understand each other, and the two were on the path to becoming fast friends. And although Ji-Yu did not see Doctor Fraiser often (which one could consider a positive rather than a negative), she found that the two of them were connecting quite quickly as well.
Ji-Yu also noticed that Teal’c would often offer his advice about residing on Earth from one non-Tau’ri to another whenever the two of them were both involved in the same conversation. Jack was also starting to warm up to Ji-Yu, the fact that most of his skepticism chalked up to being doubtful of Daniel’s actions becoming more and more apparent each day.
As for her job as a translator, Ji-Yu had yet to start any tasks related to her new job until she had a stronger hold of English, as per the guidance of General Hammond.
Daniel and Sam approach Ji-Yu’s quarters on Thursday morning, chatting about how their projects are going until Daniel knocks on the door. Sam couldn’t help but notice the subtle shift in the archeologist’s energy as he adjusts his posture as a subtle glimmer glows behind his eyes.
“Yes?” the princess calls from inside. Daniel opens the door and sees Ji-Yu sitting on her bed, her long, dark hair hanging by the sides of her face and her red daenggi in her hands. His breath hitches in his throat when he sees her with her hair down for the first time; the light from the lamp behind her shines through her silk-like hair and reveals an almost flame red tint to her otherwise dark, carob hair. The warm glow framing her face illuminates her round face and soft features in a delicate light. Daniel’s words catch in his throat and Sam smiles to herself before stepping forward and speaking in his stead.
“We’re headed to the mess hall, you wanna come?” Sam offers with a smile.
“Oh! Yes, sure,” Ji-Yu says, her eyes curving into crescent moons as she smiles back. “I was about to do my hair, I just need one minute.” Sam nods and glances over at Daniel who has since regained his composure and he silently meets her eyes. The Major hangs her head as she suppresses a laugh, her eyes drifting towards Ji-Yu as she braids her hair over her shoulder. Tying a knot with the daenggi, she tosses her braid over her shoulder so it hangs over her back. Ji-Yu stands up with a smile, smoothing out her clothes before approaching her new friends. She’s wearing the blue BDU set today which Daniel is wearing as well, while Sam has the green set on instead. Sam and Daniel head out of her room and Ji-Yu follows, closing the door to her quarters behind her.
“So, how are your English studies going?” Sam asks as the three of them head to the mess hall.
“Good! It’s.. a little hard.. but good,” Ji-Yu says with a smile. “How is your project going?”
“Fine so far. I just have to work out some schematics for the final version of the device and then it should be all set,” Sam says with a small smile. “It’s actually really interesting stuff because-” Sam begins to explain the logistics to Ji-Yu and starts using words that she hasn’t gotten anywhere near yet in her studies. Ji-Yu smiles nonetheless, interested in hearing Sam talk so passionately about her area of expertise but Daniel speaks up, noticing the confusion and complete lack of comprehension in Ji-Yu’s eyes as Sam’s vocabulary gets more and more complex as she goes on.
“Sam, I don’t think she knows any of those words yet,” Daniel says gently. Sam stops mid sentence and shoots Ji-Yu an apologetic look.
“Sorry,” she grimaces and Ji-Yu quickly shakes her head.
“It’s okay! I like hearing what you have to say,” Ji-Yu says with a warm gummy smile. “Even if I don’t understand it.” Sam chuckles at this and looks down. The three of them arrive at the mess hall and pick out their breakfasts before sitting down at an empty table. They chat amongst themselves between bites for a few moments before Colonel O’Neill and Teal’c approach them.
“Howdy, campers,” Jack says, sitting in the empty chair next to Sam. “How are we all doing on this fine Thursday morning?” Teal’c smiles just slightly at this as he sits in the empty chair on the other side of the table. Ji-Yu, Sam, and Daniel all answer at once, each of them at varying stages of chewing, swallowing, or picking up more food with their utensils. Jack nods slightly in response before digging into his food.
Daniel’s napkin falls off of the table and both he and Ji-Yu notice this, simultaneously leaning down to pick it up off of the floor. Their hands touch and they both freeze, Ji-Yu’s cheeks flushing pink as she quickly retracts her hand. Daniel picks up his napkin and quietly thanks her before clearing his throat and taking a sip of his water.
Jack asks Sam about how her project is going and she starts to go into detail about her progress, but she quickly loses the Colonel’s interest about two words in. Ji-Yu watches Sam intently, trying to make mental notes of the words she’s saying so she can look up what they mean later on.
Eventually, the five of them finish eating and return their trays before heading their separate ways. On their way out of the mess hall, Daniel offers for Ji-Yu to study in his lab while he works on some other translations which she gladly accepts. The two stop by her quarters momentarily to retrieve her notebooks before heading over to his lab where they spend most of their day together.
Sometime in the middle of the afternoon, Daniel is getting more and more frustrated with a particular section of the text he’s translating. Shoving his glasses on top of his head, he sighs and leans back in his chair. Ji-Yu glances up from her notes and immediately notices a shift in his energy. Quietly standing up, she approaches him and asks him what’s wrong.
“It’s just this section of the text,” he says, tracing over the section with his pen without transferring ink to the paper. “If my previous translations are correct, this section would completely contradict the parts I translated earlier.” Curious, Ji-Yu compares the two sections and his translation notes. Her eyes scan the translations for a moment before she points to a certain section of the text.
“I see this as meaning ‘to reveal’, not ‘to release’,” she says softly, pointing to the two different sections. Daniel’s brows furrow as he leans forward, his eyes darting between the two sections she noticed.
“You’re right,” he realizes, pulling the other notebook closer and quickly jotting it down in his notes. Ji-Yu steps back slightly with a small smile as he hastily corrects his notes. Her eyes scan over his features as his expression shifts from realization to wonder to more realizations as the translation clicks together in his mind like pieces of a puzzle. A warm feeling spreads through her chest as she watches him work with such fervor. Before she can step away, he looks up at her with a grateful smile.
“Thank you,” he says and she smiles back, setting her hand on his shoulder before returning to her studies.
The pair quickly find that most of their days when Daniel is on the base would go like this: Ji-Yu studies English which she gets better at each day; Daniel steps in to assist her when she gets stuck and she does the same for him with his own translations; and Daniel, Ji-Yu, and at least one other member of SG-1 come together for their meals and they all get to know each other more and more every time. SG-1 also goes off-world a few times and Ji-Yu would see them off every time. Daniel and Sam bring back several artifacts and pieces of alien technology to study when they would return, as well. Additionally, as Ji-Yu’s English speaking abilities expand, she finds she’s able to assist Daniel in translating languages such as Ancient and Goa’uld, something that she wasn’t able to do in the recent past.
It’s a couple of weeks later when SG-1 wander into the control room and see Ji-Yu standing behind the gate technician, pointing to something on his computer screen. He nods at something she says before she points at something else, asking an additional question. Daniel looks pleasantly surprised to see her there, Sam and Teal’c as well, while Jack just looks slightly confused.
“Ji-Yu, what are you doing here?” Daniel asks as he approaches her. She looks up at him and smiles a little before standing up straight.
“Walter is showing me how the gate system works,” she says, her sense of wonder audible in her tone. “I’ve never seen anything like it.” She presses her palms to the desk and points out something else she noticed, which Walter explains to her as well. Daniel turns back to the rest of SG-1, his surprise visible in his expression. The corners of Sam’s lips curve up as Jack shares an equally surprised expression with Daniel. The Colonel steps closer to Daniel, leaning in to quietly speak to him.
“Sounds like she’s settling in just fine,” Jack says to him, giving him a pat on the shoulder. Daniel silently looks at the Colonel as he takes in the fact that his unvoiced concerns about Ji-Yu were apparently noticeable to others, something that he thought he had kept a little more well hidden than he did (or that he didn’t even realize he was thinking at all). He doesn’t say anything as Jack heads into the General’s office just to go bother him while there’s no base emergency.
Daniel’s gaze falls on Ji-Yu as she animatedly discusses the gate program with Walter who is slowly starting to reflect her vibrant energy despite his typically reserved demeanor. He can’t help but notice how her expression lights up when she begins to understand something and how she seems to be able to make anyone smile. He gets lost watching her make Walter laugh, something he isn’t sure he’s ever seen the technician do before, at least while he’s on the base. She beams as she stands up straight, thanking Walter for his help. Walter says “You’re welcome” with a laugh before returning to his work on the gate computer. Ji-Yu approaches Daniel with a smile, shaking him out of his daze.
“Hey,” she says softly, crossing her arms and giving him a little nudge with her elbow. He smiles at this and looks down.
“You guys are going off-world pretty soon, right?” she asks, glancing over at Sam and Teal’c who are standing nearby.
“Yup, to P3C-1228,” Jack answers as he leaves General Hammond’s office, followed by the General himself.
“Hey, that’s my birthday!” Ji-Yu says with a smile. Daniel’s ears perk up hearing this, while Sam looks pleasantly surprised and Teal’c tilts his head slightly.
“I converted my birthday from the Datong-Li calendar to the Gregorian calendar and I figured out my birthday falls on December 28th,” Ji-Yu explains. Sam smiles at this and looks at the Colonel, who looks somewhat surprised.
“So, I guess that’d make you a Capricorn,” Jack offers, and Ji-Yu’s brows furrow in confusion.
“Capricorn?” she repeats, her Korean accent sounding particularly noticeable with this word. Before Jack can explain what that means, General Hammond speaks up.
“SG-1, why don’t you get ready to go off-world while you’ve got some extra time?” he suggests. Jack looks irked that he doesn’t get to explain what a Capricorn is to Ji-Yu but leaves the room once Sam and Teal’c start to head out. Daniel goes to leave with them before turning to Ji-Yu.
“Oh, um, I left you some artifacts in the lab that you can study while we’re gone. If you want to,” he says, quickly adding his concern about pressuring her to do something she doesn't want to do. She smiles at this and nods, the warmth in her features disarming his worries.
“Thank you, Daniel,” she says softly. He smiles back before remembering he has to go get ready for his mission, turning on his heel and heading out of the room. Ji-Yu smiles to herself, not noticing when Siler enters the control room and approaches her.
“Ji-Yu, the MALP is back,” he says and she snaps out of her daze.
“Oh, cool,” she says with a bright smile. Her eyes meet General Hammond’s and she smiles at him, bowing slightly before following the Sergeant into the gate room. When the MALP was being sent out to P3C-1228 to survey the area before SG-1’s mission later that day, Ji-Yu had asked Siler if he could show her how to use it and how it works when it came back, which he agreed to do so. About twenty minutes go by as Ji-Yu asks Siler questions about the MALP until SG-1 arrive in their off-world gear. Almost unconsciously, Daniel and Ji-Yu’s eyes search for each other as he enters the room and Daniel can’t help but notice the bright smile on her face as their eyes meet. She thanks Siler before approaching the team, her smile not leaving her face as she nears them.
“Hi,” she says with a bright smile, stopping in front of Daniel.
“Hey,” he says softly, a smile beginning to spread across his lips. Ji-Yu does not miss the downward flicker of his gaze towards her lips.
“How long will you guys be gone?” she asks, glancing at the rest of the team.
“It’s hard to say, it depends on what we find and if there’s any local civilization or not,” Daniel says, briefly rocking back and forth on his heels. He crosses his arms and Ji-Yu does the same, causing him to break into a smile.
“I’ll be looking forward to your return, Doctor,” she says with an affirming nod. Daniel’s cheeks turn pink but he can’t take his eyes off of her as she grins a gummy smile. The base alarms go off as the Stargate activates, lighting up the room with a pale blue glow. His eyes don’t leave her visage and she starts to look a little shy under his gaze, biting her lower lip as she looks out the corner of her eye to avoid his gaze.
“Daniel!” Colonel O’Neill shouts from the ramp in front of the gate, effectively shaking the archeologist from his trance. He looks past Ji-Yu and sees Jack looking indigent, holding his arms out in exasperation. Sam is standing next to him and has a poorly repressed smile on her face, while Teal’c raises an eyebrow and has an inquisitive look in his eyes. Daniel clears his throat and his eyes meet Ji-Yu’s once more.
“Right. I- Um..” Daniel mumbles, looking at her one last time before joining the rest of SG-1.
“Come back safely or I’ll kill you!” Ji-Yu calls as they near the gate. Daniel cracks a smile at this and looks back at her, raising his hand and giving her a wave before stepping through the gate. Ji-Yu smiles as she waves back until the four disappear through the gate. She sighs as the gate deactivates, tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear as she heads to Daniel’s lab for the time being.
It’s about four hours later when Daniel is reaching into his black vest pocket to pull out a power bar and a folded piece of paper falls out, landing in the dirt by his feet. Confused, he bends down to pick it up and his brows furrow as he unfolds it. The words ‘Hi. Just practicing writing English. Have a good day!’ are written in slightly messy handwriting with 智裕 (Ji-Yu in hanja) and a smiley face in the bottom right corner. His previously tense expression melts into a warm smile as he lets out a chuckle, turning it over to check the other side before folding it back up and sliding it back into his pocket.
“Whatcha smiling at?” Jack asks from behind him. Daniel bites his lip to hide his smile and looks down.
“Oh, nothing,” he says, using both of his hands to tear open his power bar. Jack shoots a dubious glance at him before turning on his heel and going to see what Major Carter is doing. Once Jack is gone, Daniel lets his smile return as he thinks about Ji-Yu waiting for him back on the base. Suddenly, he’s itching to go home and see her once more. He comes out of his reverie when Colonel O’Neill calls his name but his thoughts of the princess never leave his mind for the rest of the journey off-world.
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percontaion-points · 2 years
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A Four Letter Word prologue & chapter 1
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Prologue
All because my best friend, Evan, told me he loved me—on my wedding day.
Prologue summary: Our unnamed protagonist muses about the dictionary, words, and the literal definition of the word “love”. She never really believed in love... until she was literally getting married and her best friend stood up and said that he loved her.
Chapter 1
"Evan, if you come out, I promise we can go to Dave and Buster's and shoot and kill some zombies afterwards, okay?"
"And play ski-ball too?" he practically whines.
I knew I would get him with this. "Yes, we can play ski-ball too, but you have to come out and let me see your costume."
Is this supposed to be the love interest? Why is he acting like he stopped maturing at three years old?
This isn't romantic, or even remotely amusing behavior, despite what the author would have us believe.
I can’t believe I have to beg and plead with him—he’s twenty-seven for Pete’s sake.
ARE YOU SURE?! BECAUSE HE'S ACTING LIKE HE'S SEVEN.
"You really promise? You swear on your most prized possession, your autographed poster of ‘NSync?"
I knew he was up to something. My heart double beats and I clutch at it. He means business. My autographed ‘NSync poster is everything to me.
I'm literally on the 6th page. I cannot.
Why did the author even bother writing these people who are almost 30 if she was only going to write them with the emotional maturity of elementary school students? This is so embarrassing... and honestly says a lot about the author if this is how she thinks people nearing their 30s act like this.
I quickly strip down and pull the practically non-existent costume on. Once I think it's on properly, God only knows, there’s not much too it, I turn around and gaze at myself in the mirror. My mouth gapes open, and all I can do is stare at my image and the lack of costume it’s wearing. Damn Ashlee for suggesting this stupid store. I swear the next time I see my little, meddling, fashionista, best girlfriend; I am going to do some serious bodily harm. I should have known this store only stocked skimpy costumes. It should be named Slutty R’ Us, not Harry’s Costumes.
I literally don't know what she even expected.
I have a feeling it is going to be a very interesting Halloween party.
Chapter 1 summary: One year before the prologue, we enter on Evan and Zoey trying on costumes from the Slutty R' Us costume shop. Evan is being a brat about it, and Zoey bribes him to come out in his... uh... I'm not even sure how you could make Tarzan sexier. The dude literally just wears a loincloth and nothing else. This goes on for way too long, and it's tedious and physically painful to read.
Zoey is really turned on by the sight of Evan in literally a loincloth, and keeps reminding herself that she isn't his type. He usually goes for leggy blondes... Except for one girl. He was with her for a really long time before they abruptly broke up. Zoey doesn't know why, which she thinks is a little weird, considering how close she and Evan usually are.
When it's Zoey's turn, she puts on her sexy outfit. She thinks that she looks good, but then remembers that they're going to a party, and there will be a lot of eyes on her. Evan calls to her to come out, and his jaw is practically on the floor when he sees her. He says that it's a good thing that they're going together, so that he can beat the guys back from her. However, Zoey is glad that she is going with the sexy costume, so that she can maybe find a real date.  
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The Intriguing Tale of Phelibuster: A Word Born from a Forgotten Event
Twenty years ago, an event unfolded that would unknowingly give birth to a word that would enchant linguists and puzzle word aficionados for years to come. This captivating story starts with a seemingly unremarkable incident – a mundane occurrence that would go on to have a profound impact on the English language. In a quiet town nestled in the countryside, an unexpected incident occurred on that fateful day. It involved a mischievous cat and a jumble of feathers that had fluttered out of an open window. Witnesses gasped as this unusual spectacle unfolded before their eyes, unsure of what to make of it. Little did they know that this event would serve as the catalyst for the birth of Phelibuster – a word that would soon gain notoriety and intrigue thousands. Spurred by the mischievous cat's antics and the fluttering feathers, a local wordsmith seized the opportunity to coin a term that was as enigmatic as the event itself. The word 'Phelibuster' effortlessly rolled off the tongue, captivating the imagination of all who encountered it. Onlookers were eager to uncover the meaning behind this new linguistic creation. It was said to possess an air of mystery, conjuring up images of speedy felines and ethereal feathers. The definition of Phelibuster was eagerly debated, with endless speculation filling the airwaves and conversation circles. Some suggested it referred to a swift and mischievous feline, while others proposed it represented a fleeting and whimsical moment. The word, shrouded in ambiguity, intrigued language enthusiasts and scholars alike. In a stroke of serendipity, Phelibuster caught the attention of a renowned lexicographer, who found himself captivated by the word's allure and the puzzle it presented. Experts worked tirelessly to unravel its meaning, searching through dictionaries and linguistic archives, determined to solve the riddle of Phelibuster. Years passed, and the riddle remained unsolved. Phelibuster became a symbol of linguistic fascination, embodying the magic of language and the enigma of its creation. It serves as a reminder that even the most seemingly insignificant events can give birth to words that captivate our hearts and minds. So, the next time you encounter a word that seems to have a mysterious origin, remember Phelibuster. Let its story remind you of the power of language to surprise, enthrall, and connect us to the forgotten events of our past.
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fansign meme / accepting!
1. what is your goal for this year/next year?
setting goals was difficult for hyojung because she was never sure of what would happen. she usually liked to see how things would go about before setting a concrete goal because she knows she’ll end up disappointed if something doesn’t work out. it’s why new year resolutions were absolutely useless for her. she usually ended up swerving and thinking of something else by the next month anyway. “another full album from selene would be nice. our last one was two years ago. i’d also like to film another drama this year! maybe playing a role that’s different from my last ones?”
2. what song would you want to sing to or play for someone you like?
questions like these always felt like a trick question. of course, hyojung doesn’t think her fans would be setting her up or anything, but she also knows that her own fan could upload this on twitter innocently and then non-fans will try to pile up and accuse her of dating or whatever. she’s twelve years into her career, it’d be weird if she hadn’t dated before, right? yet, people seemed to expect this innocent image out of her to this date so who knows what the response would be. nevertheless, she looks up from the post-it to look at the fan staring at her with sparkling eyes and begins to sing all for you from the drama reply 1997. 
3. what’s your favorite scent?
“i like floral scents. i know some people find them too strong, but i find them to be lovely. makes me feel like i’m in a garden,” she says with a chuckle before scribbling floral on the post-it. the fan that begins to ask her if there’s a specific perfume she uses, but the fan manager is ushering her along. the album is taken from her hands as well so she looks at her fan with a pouty face instead and mouths that she’ll tell her next time.
10. what is your most used app?
hyojung wasn’t one to spend a lot of time on her phone. even if she did, she liked to read on it. novels, poetry, the news and so on. not the entertainment section though because that was usually too much. “hmm, probably naver? i feel like i end up clicking on it even if i have nothing to look up. there’s also a dictionary app because i’m trying to brush up on my japanese again.”
11. what should someone do to win your heart?
to be frank, hyojung had absolutely no clue. she got this question a lot both as a rookie and also whenever she’s at a press conference for a drama. people really seemed to be interested in her ideal type and stuff like that. “i like honest people. i’m also not a fan of people who are superficial. i’m not sure if there’s anything specifically that would win my heart over but those two are definite no-no’s.”
12. what do you want for your next birthday?
she had stopped receiving birthday gifts from her fans starting a while ago so the question takes her off guard. “i’m fine with anything they get me. it’s the thought that counts right? because they have to take time off of their day to get it, and they had to think about what i would like. there’s so much thinking that goes into a birthday gift that i’d be thankful with anything.”
13. what do you consider to be your most charming feature/trait?
“i’ve been told i have a pretty smile,” she states. as if to prove her point, she gives the fan sitting across from her a wide smile. it makes both of them burst out laughing. “also, a lot of people tell me they like my vocal tone. whether it’s on selene’s songs or in dramas so i guess that’s a charming feature as well.”
14. what is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
“oh, this is a difficult question,” she says with a hum. looking down at the post-it note the fan has handed to her, there’s a few options that she can check. she checks off the box next to vanilla and cookies and cream. “i like simple flavors. nothing too heavy.”
15. how should i ask out the person i like?
she really thinks she’s the worst person to ask for advice when it comes to relationships. pursing her lips together, she twirls her pen around before looking up at the fan in front of her. “i really have no clue,” she tells her as her brows furrow together. “a letter? do people still write letters these days? i think it’s the most genuine way of confessing your feelings though because of the thought that gets put into it.”
16. what’s the secret behind your good looks?
the question immediately makes her laugh out loud. it’s one of those cheesy lines that fans are always throwing at her. she brings her hands up to her cheeks, feeling how they’ve warmed up a bit. “my parents? it’s all dna,” she says as she waves goodbye to the fan who’s being ushered to the next member.
17. what do you think of fans of the same gender as you?
“i’m always thankful for them. after my historical dramas have done well, i’ve gained a lot of ahjumma fans as well. they’re always telling me that they’d love to have me as a daughter or daughter-in-law, but i’m sure they only say that because of the characters i’ve played. anyway, our female fans have always been such a strength, and i’m happy to see them at fansigns or concerts or performances. they mean a lot, and i hope that selene’s music can continue to empower them.”
18. what is the most recent thing that made you happy?
“my older brother got a new puppy, and she’s adorable. it’s a shiba inu, and she loves to play around. it took a while for her to warm up to me, but i think she likes me now?” the fan then asks her if she’ll ever raise her own pet. “i would love to. my family’s always raised pets since we were young but since i’m not always home, i feel it’d be irresponsible.”
19. what is your happiness level these days on a scale from 0 to 100?
“hmm,” she begins before tapping her pen against the desk. this was a difficult question. she doesn’t want to answer too low because she knows it’d worry her fans but also, ranking it too high would be a complete lie. she’s standing somewhere in the middle anyway so she writes down a 75. “i’m really happy with where i am right now, but i always want to leave space for more happiness!” 
20. can you give some inspiring words for someone going through a hard time?
perhaps it was because of her naturally sympathetic nature, but hyojung received lots of questions along these lines. “i know it’s cliche, but i want to tell everybody that it’ll pass. there were times when i was certain that i’d had the worst day in my life and how i’d never recover, but it was just another day. sometimes we have good days and sometimes we have bad days. it’s just the way life works and learning how to encourage yourself and think positively will do wonders. i hope you can continue to practice thinking in that way.”
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ASJLA HERES MY OTHER IDEA IT TOOK SO LONG TO REFINE CUZ I CHANGED THE IDEA HALF WAY THROUGH 🥴 i also have a wholesome one on my mind but it needs some work too 🤭 modern college au - roommate xiao x top student reader reader masturbating to the thought of xiao and calls out him name, doesnt know xiao came back to the dorm. he walks in on her and starts teasing her "i didnt think our top student would be such a slut". he asks her to touch herself in front of him while still teasing and degrading her "what did you imagine when you were calling out my name?". reader ends up begging for his dick 🥴
Ooooo spicy—ngl I love the college au so 👀 I may or may not have an idea for Albedo brewing as well
Anyway, enjoy just a bit over 1.2k words hehe
Tutoring Session
Summary: During a moment alone, you call out his name and he answers. Looks like there’s stuff that even you can learn still.
Contains: ((NSFW 18+)) Roomate!Xiao x afab!reader, modern au, college au, top student!reader, solo masturbation, toys, caught, light degradation kink, Xiao has a tongue piercing
You’re ashamed with how quickly you rush to your room as soon as your roommate closes the front door, but with the way your heart races and an ache makes itself known between your thighs, you find you don’t reallycare.
Xiao would be gone only for an hour—an hour and a half, tops—to help a friend move some instruments and grab lunch, so your time already was limited.
With little care, you rush into your room and close the door. It gently taps against the doorframe, still barely a crack open but you figure that you would finish with enough time to spare.
You shed your t-shirt and shorts on your way to your bed, laying down with a sigh. It really has been a bit since you’ve last relaxed. Considering the fact that finals only just finished, you finally were able to take a break until the next semester. Next semester, you’d lighten your load for sure. As smart as you were, it was a bit much to overload courses…but now wasn’t the time to think of that.
You wiggle a bit into the mattress, shifting just enough to reach your dresser.
It’s further than you remember, but you scoot yourself over to the edge to reach.
Carefully tucked away behind a dictionary a felt bag sits. It’s quickly snatched up by you and the contents revealed. You lay back onto your bed and spread your legs.
Fingers smooth up over your thighs to help warm yourself up despite wetness already apparent. You could just go for it, but the fantasy playing out in your mind urges you to at least slow down.
It’s clear, the image of your roommate, sharp eyes and messy dyed hair. He slots himself between your legs, pants low on his hips and toned chest speckled with hickies. Just like you’ve seen before, the ornate tattoo wrapping around his right bicep and forearm would nearly glow in the bright sunlight filtering into your room.
There’s no doubt that he’d lick his lips to reveal the hidden stud, and you would shiver at the idea of him pressing his tongue to your skin.
As the image continues, you slip your hand between your legs, toy placed aside while you imagine the vivid scenario. If only the fingers slipping past your folds were his larger, calloused ones. Maybe then you’d feel a bit more fulfilled—
“Mmm…”
They start a slow pace, pumping in and dragging along your walls, pressing the spots you know make your toes curl, and you continue your daydream.
Xiao would nip and lick at your neck while he preps you. Maybe you would even share a passionate kiss…and he would relieve himself of his clothing to stroke himself. The thought of him jerking himself off with flushed cheeks while his other hand is fingering you sent a rush of desire flooding your senses and you pull your fingers out of you.
They grab the silicone toy beside you, wiping your slick on it.
Taking a breath, you spread your legs more, pressing the tip of it to your entrance and sliding it in. It fills you quickly and you gasp as you imagine Xiao instead, pressing his forehead to yours while his hips lay flush to hips.
“You feel so good,” he’d rasp, having difficulty not moving his hips. But he’d be patient and let you adjust to him, ever the gentleman.
And so you start to move the toy, pressing it as far as it’ll go, mewling at the delicious pressure of it, before pulling it back out with a sigh. For a moment, you let yourself wonder if it’s as big as him. The thought that he might be bigger crosses your mind and you will it away in favor of imagining his lips on you.
“Xiao…”
With each thrust of your toy, you feel yourself slip closer and closer, thighs trembling and threatening to close with the intensity of it.
“Xiao-“
In your mind, your roommate cages you in between his arms while thrusting his hips harder, deeper. He’s panting your name and one hand lifts off the bed to pull your hips closer to his.
Would he praise you? Or even whisper in your ear what he wants to do? You slow your movements, leisurely pumping the toy in and out. Maybe he’d tease you, make you beg for him. Another gasp of his name leaves your lips, and you’re too preoccupied with your thoughts to register the call of your name.
Xiao reenters your shared apartment much earlier than either of you anticipated. It turns out his friend was busy and asked for him to help another time, thus, he decided to just have lunch back at home instead of out.
When he hears you call out his name, he assumes it’s because you’re needing him for something.
Only, standing at the door, he sees your arching body tangled up in your sheets, calling out his name and fucking yourself on a dildo. Xiao’s heart jumps into his throat.
If only you knew how good you look moaning and begging for more using his name.
His sweet roommate. His sweet, incredibly intelligent, talented, attractive roommate. Fucking themselves in the privacy of their room with their toy and entirely unaware that the very person who name they’re moaning is barely ten feet away.
In this moment, he decides.
You’re still lost in the fantasy of being taken, getting so close to your orgasm and feeling the familiar spread of warmth through your body when you hear the door creak.
Immediately, you stop and scramble to cover yourself up, shame spreading on your cheeks.
“I didn’t think our top student would be such a slut.”
Your mouth suddenly feels dry.
Xiao shrugs off his leather jacket, running a hand up through his hair and makes his way to your bed. A brief flash of your fantasies flitters through your mind and you stutter out his name when he climbs over you.
Tilting your chin up, he presses his lips to yours.
“Thinking of me?”
You hardly can bring yourself to speak.
“Tell me…” He mutters, tongue slipping past your lips, metallic stud teasing yours into tasting him as well, “What did you think of while you were busy fucking yourself? Hm?”
An accidental shift of your leg makes you brush up against the painful hardness in his pants and you gasp into his mouth. Lips curling into a knowing smirk, Xiao slides his hand from your hip to your thigh and keeps it spread open.
“Whatever it was got you soaked.”
The kiss deepens and leaves you dazed.
He pulls away and you follow him as you’re lost in the feel of his lips and sound of his voice, but he pushes you to lay back down while he undresses.
When he’s finally bare, you can’t help but stare. Just like your daydream, he’s toned and undoubtedly strong—and his body easily covers yours as he hovers over you. A glimpse between you leaves you shy. It’s difficult to not compare your toy to him.
Pushing his lips back to yours, you feel the way his chest and thighs brush against you and leave you weak. It’s strange to think what you were just fantasizing about was now reality.
“You don’t know what you do to me, seeing you in those shorts you wear around the apartment.” Teeth tug at your lip.
“Knowing you touch yourself like this thinking about me when I’m away…you must be desperate.”
His hips sit flat against yours and you gasp feeling the way his cock presses into you.
“So beg.”
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taestefully-in-luv · 3 years
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Always You | JJK (Two)
Summary: you and Jungkook have been best friends since freshmen year of college, there’s a lot of unsaid feelings and tension but neither make a move. what happens when his friend Taehyung (also your crush) needs a fake girlfriend?
Pairing: Jungkook x Female reader, slight Taehyung x Reader
Genre: friends to lovers, idiots to lovers, roommate au, college au, SMUT (starting ch2), fluff, angst (in later chapters) slight crack, lots of drama
Word Count: 9.3k
Warnings: Swearing, alcohol consumption, oc is a bad friend:(, sexual tension (?), body image issues, oc is feeling a lil insecure, mentions of sex, sounds of sex, crying, male masturbation, fantasy includes: spanking and vaginal intercourse.
Notes: thanks for the love for the first part…heres part 2! I hope everyone enjoys:) get ready for drama to come hahaha. If you wanted to be added to the taglist just send me an ask or whatevs, and feel free to send one if you want to discuss the story!
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Gentleman: “A civilized, educated, sensitive, or well-mannered man.” Is how the dictionary defines the word but if you were to look up the term in your own dictionary it would just be a picture of Taehyung’s handsome as hell face.
Opening the car door, pulling your chair out, holding your hand, softly gripping your waist, making you feel like the only one in the room—Taehyung is doing everything right. Your mind should be overwhelmed with the thought of Taehyung. He should be filling your every sense, he should be the only thing you can understand. He should be. But every time his perfect lips land on the skin of your cheek, your mind somehow finds Jungkook. That son of a bitch.
There’s a string of warm lights dangling on the restaurants brick walls, and it’s almost picture perfect but one of the bulbs is out and it’s making the scene less ideal. Your eyes keep going back to the one bulb that refuses to shine. You just want everything to be perfect.
“I know I already told you…” Taehyung is sitting across from you, his gentle smile making your heart flutter, “But you look so pretty tonight.”
You know you should be gazing into his chocolate eyes but you can’t keep your eyes from shifting towards that stupid ass bulb. All the other bulbs are lit up just fucking fine but this bulb wants to be difficult. It just hasto go against everyone else. Your eyes narrow at the string of lights and you scoff. This stupid bulb reminds you of someone.
Taehyung brought you to a decently fancy restaurant, the food is alright but he says the main attraction is the monster baked cookie with ice cream melting over the top. He is excited like a child at the mention of his favorite dessert, you can’t help but smile fondly towards him.
“So…” Taehyung slides the dessert closer to you, “I never asked but how did Jungkook take the whole not really talking in public thing?”
Your eyes shoot up to the stupid bulb and you blink at it a few times. “I…” Your gaze drifts back to him. “I didn’t tell him.”
Taehyung drops his napkin at the news, his eyes slightly widening as he processes your words.
“We just aren’t talking right now.”
You wince as the words leave your mouth, but it’s true. You are a coward who is just ignoring her best friend because you don’t have the balls to face him. You don’t have the balls to forgive him and you definitely don’t have the balls to inform him that he’s out of the picture for a month. Because you don’t have the balls to admit to yourself you chose a boy over your friend. Basically you’re just a bitch with no balls!
“Yeah, he isn’t really talking to me either.” Taehyung chuckles bitterly, “He’s really against this…I mean, I knew he was protective over you but—”
“Protective my ass.” You lean back in your chair, “He’s just being stupid.”
Taehyung looks at you and frowns. It makes you want to kiss his pouting lips.
“But thank you.”
Taehyung’s quizzical expression makes you snort,
“For the compliment. Thank you. You look really handsome as well.” You smile, your hand sliding across the table to hold his. You gently squeeze and pull back, letting go. Taehyung smiles at you but something strange settles in his eyes. He’s struck with an awkward expression as he forces another smile, his lips pulled together tightly.
“Thanks y/n” He opens his mouth then closes then opens, “For doing this. Seriously, thank you.”
“Well, you’re kind of supplying me with free coffee.” You laugh into your hand.
“Regardless,” Taehyung leans back in his chair, “You’re a good friend.”
Right. Friend... But you feel optimistic you will flee this place! The god forsaken friend zone! You smile at Taehyung, grabbing your fork and cutting into the cookie with it. You stare into Taehyung’s dark eyes as you bring the fork to your lips—okay yes, you are most definitely trying to make this sexy—you open your mouth wide and wrap you lips around the piece of cookie, you never break contact with Taehyung. You chew slowly and roll your eyes to the back of your head, like the dramatic ass bitch you are. You open an eye to see his reaction, you see him gulp and a small smile begins forming on his lips.
“mmm” you moan again.
“RIGHT?!”
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“We got some pretty insta worthy photos!” Taehyung chuckles into your hair as he pulls back from the hug. “I would say tonight was a success!”
Right. A success. Because this is all for show. To get this Anna girl off his back. Not because he likes you or anything. You can’t help but feel disappointed in his words.
“That’s good Tae.” Your hands linger on his back, not wanting to let go completely. “I’ll see you tomorrow right?”
“And the next day and the next day,” he teases, “And don’t forget this weekend is the pool party at my friend Jin’s house.” Then Taehyung nibbles on his lips, “Jungkook is going…so you should probably talk to him.”
You probably should of figured Jungkook is going to go…but that doesn’t stop you from feeling shocked. You should tell him he needs to lay low in public for a month but you guys aren’t talking already so do you really have to have that discussion with him?
“We’ll see.”
Taehyung steps forward and grabs your hand, “y/n…I know I said no Jungkook but I really just meant that you two aren’t all over each other in public…you don’t have to ignore him at home too…I’m sure he isn’t feeling great about it. And honestly, it makes me feel guilty too.” He admits softly, his hand feels sweaty in yours.
“He’s an asshole.” You let go of his hand, you feel your chest tighten and you hate yourself.
“Why?”
“It doesn’t matter. I should get inside now.”
“Okay…” Taehyung leans in for another quick hug and places a kiss on your forehead. You wish you could enjoy it but on the other side of this forehead are thoughts of Jungkook. Once again, that son of a bitch.
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The next few days pass quickly, you and Taehyung have gone on two more dates.
The second date felt like a movie—it was classic and dreamy. Taehyung picked you up and drove you over to the next town that was having a carnival. You walked around holding hands, eating cotton candy and laughing at his jokes. The night ended with the ferris wheel, where you two got some insta worthy pictures—one shot including his lips on yours.
It felt so surreal. He posted it on Instagram that night with the caption ‘Her’ with purple hearts and within a couple hours there were at least 50 comments congratulating the two of you.
Third date you two went to a drive in theater. You fed each other popcorn, talked over the radio’s audio and took snaps to prove your date to the world.
This week has been nothing short of amazing. Taehyung is absolutely perfect. You feel like the only girl in the world with him. Like you don’t have to compete with anyone. Unfortunately, the week may have felt amazing on the outside, on the inside it’s been…weird.
The weird part of this week is the lack of Jungkook. Your usual cereal at noon on Tuesdays didn’t happen, your usual weekly episode of My Hero didn’t happen, your usual chit chat and banter didn’t occur. Just silence and awkward passes.
It’s all your doing though…Jungkook has tried. He still sat at the breakfast table munching on Apple Jacks while you passed him by, walking out your front door to meet Taehyung. He saved this week’s episode to your list so you could watch it. He has sent you multiple texts saying he’s sorry and he misses you but you ignored them. You have purposely started putting a distance between the two of you and it makes you uncomfortable.
You remind yourself that, besides doing this because Taehyung requested it, it is also for the best.
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You sit at the edge of your bed staring at the bouquet of flowers Taehyung had sent you this morning. You eye the flowers, taking in their gorgeous appearance. They’re open and full and colorful. But why do you look at them and feel disappointed?
They seem to be begging for water, so you stand to your feet and grab the bouquet. You head for the kitchen to find your mothers crystal vase so you can place the beautiful flowers in it.
Jungkook is sitting at the breakfast table, slurping on some noodles and playing on his phone. You completely ignore him as you walk into the kitchen.
You stand on your tip toes to try to reach the vase in the cupboard but it’s too high for you. God damn it, you think. There’s no way in hell you’re asking Jungkook for help, no way in hell!
*about 10 pathetic seconds later*
“Jungkook, will you help me?”
You don’t even turn around to face him, you just raise your voice so hears you. Yeah, you’re a coward. You hear the screech of the chair against the tiled floor and you shiver. Jungkook doesn’t say anything as he walks up behind you, his chest coming flush against your back and you swear if he tried to pay attention he could probably feel your heartbeat through the contact. You stay frozen as he reaches his arms above you and grabs the vase. He must of just done laundry because his detergent fills your nostrils, its clean and refreshing. He sets the vase down on the counter and he continues to stand closely behind you, his scent now overwhelming your senses.
“These flowers are pretty.” He leans down to say in your ear. His hand coming down to hold on to your waist. “But you only like tulips.”
You can’t help but roll your eyes, “These are fine too.”
“Yeah, they are.” He admits. “But they’re not what you want.” He squeezes your waist, then he’s backing away from your body and a chill is left behind as he gets further away. It’s like the further he walks away from you the colder you become. As if Jungkook is the source of your warmth.
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It’s Saturday afternoon and you are finally done getting ready. Taehyung is taking you out to a pool party today, hosted by one of his close friends—Jim? No, Jin. You know you’ve heard Jungkook talk about him before but haven’t gotten the chance to meet him since he’s a bit older and already graduated.
You look in the mirror as you tug your oversized shirt over your shorts. Underneath is a plain black bikini but unfortunately today is not a good day—you’re bloated as hell and it shows. At least you think it does. You continue to rate yourself in the mirror when Jungkook walks past your room.
“Didn’t know you were so self obsessed.” He pops in to say.
You turn to face him and as soon as he sees your frustrated expression he knows you’re on the verge of waterworks.
“Woah woah, whats wrong?” Jungkook is quick to rush to your side. You’ve been ignoring him for a week yet he still rushes to you when you need him. You’re a god damn bitch.
“I feel fat but I have a pool party to attend to and—”
“You’re going to that too…?” Jungkook eyes the ground under his feet. He sounds disappointed.
You try to steady your breathing but you feel a breakdown coming and Jungkook can sense it too.
“You’re not fat.” He states plainly.
“You wouldn’t know with these clothes I’m wearing.” You try to reason.
“Then take them off and show me.” He’s obviously aware of the bathing suit underneath but still, his words do something strange to you.
“No, I’m ugly.” Is all you respond with.
“y/n I don’t have time for this, either show me or like, don’t go.”
“Fine!”
You begin unbuttoning your shorts, painfully slow. He watches as you fumble with the zipper as you slide it down. You drag the shorts down your legs one by one and then you reach for the hem of your shirt pulling it over your head. This leaves you half naked and feeling incredibly vulnerable.
Jungkook eyes you up and down quite shamelessly. His tongue darts out to lick his lip and he muffles a groan,
“You look fine.” He says so nonchalantly it makes you want to pull his hair out.
“Just fine?”
“You look good y/n” he says, his eyes sliding to the left. You don’t feel quite satisfied with his answer so you step towards him, getting so close he is forced to step back until his back is against the wall.
“How good?” you say, your voice dipping lower than usual, “So good you would—"
Bbbrrrr bbbrrrr bbrrrrr bbrrrr
Your phone.
“Hello? ….Hey Tae. No need, I’ll just meet you at your car. Okay, bye.” You click the phone off and throw it on your bed. You gather your clothes and put them back on as Jungkook stands there awkwardly. Once you have your things you turn to face Jungkook.
“Well Tae is here…” you motion towards the door. “Look, if you’re going to be at the party can you try to…respect my fake relationship? We wanna make it as real as poss—”
“I get it.” Jungkook snaps before walking out your bedroom. Fantastic.
~~~
“And this is y/n.” Taehyung pushes you forward by the shoulders as you stumble in front of all these new faces.
“Hi everyone.” You squeak out.
Everyone gives you a warm welcome, many handshakes and hugs later you feel well acquainted. You notice a familiar face. He’s laughing with Jin over some beers and you smile in their direction. Namjoon, a friend you met freshmen year. He notices you look in his direction and he waves you over. So you walk towards him and Jin, Namjoon handing you a drink as you get closer.
“Long time no see y/n!” his dimples light up the entire backyard. He glances between you and Taehyung, who is chatting with some others.
“You and our Taehyungie, huh?” He grins at you, “honestly, I thought you would end up with Jungkook.” You can’t help but blush at that. A real deep blush. Namjoon chuckles but his eyes hold pity.
“no no not Jungkook.” You laugh awkwardly.
“Well, Jungkook has always spoken really highly of you so I am sure Taehyung is a lucky guy.” Jin chimes in.
For some reason you feel sick at that. Jungkook speaks highly of you? Yet here you are ignoring him for another guy. You are avoiding your own best friend because of a boy. Fuck, you are the worst.
“thanks guys…well, I’m gonna go see Tae.”
You walk over to Taehyung, and when he spots you he absolutely lights up. His boxy grin taking over his entire face.
“There’s my girl,” he pulls you in for a hug and places a kiss to your head. You want to melt, you want to feel the lava of love drown you but instead you feel anxious as you notice Jungkook from across the yard. He’s got a beer to his lips and his eyes on you.
“Thanks for doing this y/n.” Taehyung also catches the pair of eyes watching the two of you. He meets Jungkook’s hard gaze and automatically Taehyung is filled with anxiety as well. Jungkook just shakes his head towards his friend and takes a generous sip of his drink.
“Everything okay?” you ask, squeezing his hand in yours.
“Everything is fine.” He says with a tight lip smile. “Just glad you’re here.” He says honestly.
A few hours pass, and the whole gang is crowded in the pool. Mostly everyone is drunk, but you are pretty sober. Not wanting a repeat of last weekend. Yikes, amirite ladies? Taehyung has his hands all over you, which you don’t really mind. The thought of him touching you was once something that might make you faint but you’ve grown comfortable. Your eyes scan the pool when you notice Jungkook is nowhere to be found. Did he go home already? Maybe he was feeling so down because you’ve been ignoring him…god, you hate yourself. You just need to talk to him. You’re a shitty friend, for sure.
“I’m gonna be right back,” you whisper to Taehyung. He only nods his head and continues chatting with his friends.
Jin’s house is beyond nice, and also huge. You are trying to find the bathroom but feel like you are opening every door but the one you’re looking for. There’s only one door left at the end of the main hall and you bet your entire ass it’s the bathroom. You reach for the door knob when you hear something muffled on the other side. Oh, it’s taken.
“Thanks for this.” It’s a woman’s voice.
“No problem.” Its Jungkook. You feel your stomach drop. What makes you feel worse is how detached Jungkook sounds. He sounds far away and broken. The doorknob begins to rattle and you try to make a run for it in time but are too late. The door is swinging open and one of Jin’s friends is walking out and in the background you see Jungkook zipping up his pants. His eyes meet yours and you want to run the fuck away.
“y/n?” Jungkook’s eyes expand twice their size as he spots you.
“I was…I was just looking for the bathroom.”
Jungkook’s face hardens, “Well, you found it.” He makes his way to pass you but you grab on to his arm to stop him.
“Wait,” you breathe in and out, trying to give yourself time to think of what you want to say.
“What is it?” his voice is somehow softer than he probably intended.
“I want to talk to you…explain to you why I’ve been ignoring you.”
“Yeah, you’re still pissed at me, I fucking get it.” He spits out bitterly.
“It’s…it’s more than that.”
“More than that? Did I do something more? What did I do? y/n just tell me…” He rocks back and forth on his heels, his eyes glued to the ground.
“You’re going to be so mad at me, maybe even hate me—”
“You know I could never hate you.” He whispers, sounding so sincere it crushes you.
You glance around your surroundings, making sure no one is around and drag him back into the bathroom for some privacy. You shut the door behind you, trying so hard to ignore the smell of sex.
“Tae thought—” you begin but Jungkook is already rolling his eyes to the back of his head.
“Of course Tae thought.” His tone almost scares you. “Let me guess? Taehyung doesn’t want me around while you guys are fake dating. That’s not fucking weird to you?” He grits between his teeth. He balls up his fists at his side, you see his knuckles turn white and it makes you feel uneasy.
“He made some good points…”
“Oh really?” Jungkook laughs bitterly, “Like what?”
You looked into Jungkook’s doe eyes and feel a sense of guilt, like you somehow made the wrong choice.
“He thinks we’re too close. And he’s right. It would be weird if I’m super closer to another guy while dating him.” you reason, but your face falls when you see Jungkook’s scrunched up expression.
“You think we’re too close?” he whispers.
Well, yes. But also, no. Of course not, but also yes. How do you tell Jungkook all of that?
“People always think we’re dating or fucking or—”
“Oh? And all the sudden we care what people think?” his voice wavers from the rollercoaster of emotions he is feeling.
“Jungkook wait, I’m wording this all wrong. It’s just for a month okay?”
“You wanna date him that badly? That you would throw me away?” he grits out.
“Hey! That’s not fucking fair.”
“So what? Say your little fantasy comes true and he decides he wants to date you for real? Am I still out of the picture?”
“No no, of course not…” you shake your head and reach for his hands but he pulls away.
“So then what’s the difference now?”
Jungkook has a good point but you’re at a loss for words. Too choked up to speak.
“And you know what y/n? Fuck you for choosing him over me in the first place.” And with that Jungkook breezes past you, swings open the bathroom door and is out of your view.
Jungkook has never spoken to you like that before, you stand there with your mouth hung open and tears forming in your eyes.
He’s right. You fucked up. You did a fucked up thing. You chose a boy who may not even actually like you over the one guy who has always had your back.
“y/n?” you snap your head in the direction of the door to see Taehyung standing there. A look of disappointment decorating his face.
“I was told you and Jungkook were in the bathroom…” he spits out.
“I had to talk to him, that’s all.”
“Yeah, but how does this look for me?” Taehyung speaks sternly. You did NOT need this right now.
“Tae—”
“You couldn’t even last more than a week y/n.” he scoffs.
“Listen could we just talk about this later?” you ask with pleading eyes.
“I’ll call an uber.” He motions towards the hallway, “we can talk tomorrow.”
You slump your shoulders and nod your head, tomorrow sounds like it’s for the best.
3 days have passed and neither Jungkook nor Taehyung have talked to you.
You hear Jungkook come in and out of the apartment but you’re too shy to make a move outside of your bedroom. He’s either coming from classes, the gym, Jimins, or some girls house and you’re dying to know which.
You have been hibernating in your room, taking comfort in your bed when you get a notification from Instagram.
@V tagged you in a post.
You scramble to unlock your phone so you can view the post. Once you are on the app you click on you notifs and click on the post.
It’s a picture of you eating cotton candy from when he took you to the fair on your date. With the caption:
“Missing my girl tonight”
And a bunch of heart emojis. Your own heart sinks. He misses you? You close the app and instead open your messages.
y/n 9:08pm
You miss me for the show or is there some truth behind that?
Taehyung 9:20pm
Maybe it’s both?
Taehyung 9:22pm
I am sorry for how I left things…I was just kinda embarrassed that my supposed girl was with another guy,,,in a bathroom.
y/n 9:24pm
trust me I know how it looks and im sorry…
y/n 9:26pm
If it makes you feel any better Jungkook isn’t talking to me either.
Taehyung 9:26pm
Of course that doesn’t make me feel better, he is your best friend…
y/n 9:28pm
tae, I hope we can continue this…I still want to help you…
Taehyung 9:34pm
Ill pick you up at 6 for a date tmrw: )
y/n 9:34pm
I cant wait: ) : )
You click your phone off and toss it on the other side of the bed, you squeal in excitement as the realization hits that Taehyung still wants to do this with you.
You hear Jungkook on the other side of the wall, yelling into what you assume is his headset. He’s gaming. You miss him so god damn much. He has no idea what his silence is doing to you. You try to focus your attention on tomorrows date with Taehyung but you can’t help the feeling in the pit of your stomach. Guilt. You were an awful friend and now thinking about it you are continuing to be an awful friend. If he even counts you as friends anymore.
“fuck you”
Those words ring loud and clear in your ears. You didn’t even know Jungkook was capable of speaking to you like that. It fucking hurts.
Jungkook is in his room pacing back and forth. He saw it. The insta post. And he feels like he’s losing you. Neither of you have made a move to speak to the other. He’s just too hurt and you continue to see Taehyung? You obviously don’t feel too bad about the whole ordeal. And 3 days is just too long. A week was too long, but somehow these 3 days are worse.
Jungkook grabs his phone and opens up tinder. He messages one of the girls that’s been teasing him lately. He figures now is the time to make more of a move.
Jungkook 10:00pm
Hey ;) what are you doing tonight?
Leslie 10:10pm
Gonna be thinking about you probably;)
Jungkook 10:12pm
Instead of thinking about me, come see me.
And that was it, that’s all it took. She was quick to agree and he is already sending her the address.
It’s after 11pm when you hear the front door open, you quietly get out of bed, curiosity getting the best of you. Was Jungkook leaving? But then you hear a girls voice and you immediately frown. Oh. She sounds pretty. Is that even a thing? Well, she does. And it has you feeling weird. You thought you were over this.
You hear the patter of their footsteps walking towards Jungkook’s room, the sound of his door opening and closing just like that.
You walk back to your bed feeling ashamed for spying, but now you know you won’t be getting any sleep tonight. Fanfuckingtastic.
“aaahhh…” the random girl whines out causing you to shift uncomfortably in your bed.
“More?” you can hear Jungkook’s muffled voice, he sounds strained. Probably because he’s fucking some girl a few feet away from you.
You reach over to your nightstand for your headphones when you hear Jungkook grunting as the beds headboard bangs against your wall, he groans and moans and you feel yourself getting hotter.
You try not to imagine Jungkook in these scenarios but he sounds…no, you won’t have those thoughts…you don’t want to remember. Your hand is still midair when you retreat it back to your bed.
“Fuck yeah baby.” You hear him gripe. And you squeeze your thighs together. No, this cannot be happening.
“Jungkook! Jungkook!” Fuck, she sounds so fucked out.
“Feels so good, feels so good” he pants over and over and you feel the back of your eyes burn.
“gonna come” he groans out and your chest is heaving now, your breathing becoming a chore. You can’t cry, not over this. He hates you and he’s buried in some other girl. And you want to fucking crying about it. You hear him moaning on the other side of the wall and then—
“Fuuuuuuccckk” his orgasm is fucking apparent. He’s obviously coming and you’re lying in your bed all fucking pathetic with tears staining your cheeks.
Jungkook lays in bed totally fucked out of his mind. This girl is sleeping next to him, trying to her best to cuddle but he resists. He wishes he had time to himself to think properly. He just fucked another girl and thought of you the entire time. He is 100% fucked up. Wait, wait. He needs to explain himself…it’s not like he thought of you like, sexually. It’s just you’re all that’s on his mind. Even during fucking sex. And he hates himself for it.
He decides to sneak out of bed to have a shower. He creaks open his door for any sign of life and when there is none he tip toes to the bathroom. Jungkook stands in the shower letting the warm water cascade over his skin, he just stands there lifeless.
Images of you cross his mind and he sinks to his knees, pulling them into his chest and he quietly curses under his breath. He misses you so much and things have gotten so messed up he just doesn’t even know how to fix it.
He scrubs himself clean, ridding the scent of the random girl he brought over. He sniffles under the raining water hating himself.
Jungkook dries himself off with your towel, and puts on his shorts. His chest left bare.
He exits the bathroom when he notices a light coming from the kitchen and sees you sitting at the table with a glass of water.
“oh.” Jungkook slips up.
“oh?” you wonder.
“I thought you were fast asleep.” He says, rubbing the back of his neck with a sheepish grin.
“Just woke up.” You lie through your teeth with a strained smile. “Couldn’t sleep…”
“I know the feeling…” he admits, walking closer to you.
Jungkook makes his way to the table before pulling out a chair and sitting down next to you.
“Listen—”
“Jungkook—”
You both begin talking at the same time. Jungkook ushers you to go first.
“I…I’m still fake dating Tae.”
“I know.”
“But…” your eyes gloss over, getting choked up trying to continue. “But I am so sorry.” A few tears spill from your eyes.
“I know y/n.” he reaches his hand to squeeze your knee. You feel so much better with him touching you. “I’m sorry too…I was really harsh. And it pains me every day that I haven’t talked to you.”
“Trust me, I get it. I wanted to like, kill myself not talking to you.” Your eyes slam shut as more tears threaten to fall.
Jungkook’s face morphs into a deep frown, “You know I don’t like when you say that…”
“Right…sorry.”
“Honestly y/n…I don’t know when I will be okay with this, but I’ll respect your wishes for the month.”
“Jungkook…” Your hand flies down to his and you squeeze it but he’s quick to let it go.
“I’m mad at you right now.” He admits softly, his breathing is slow and steady. “So just give me some space.”
~~~
Like magical clockwork you hear light knocking on your front door. You scramble to find your phone and your purse to make it to the door in good time but you hear it being creaked open and the voices of two men. Shit, Jungkook got to the door first.
Ever since you started fake dating Taehyung it seems Jungkook has been keeping a distance from him. You aren’t sure why but they’ve been weird. So you want to avoid as much awkwardness as possible. You grab all your belongings and rush to the living room and find the two men sitting on the sofa quietly chatting.
“Can you keep your voice down dude?” Taehyung peers over his shoulder, looking in the direction of your room. “Would if she hears?”
“I wish she would fucking hear,” Jungkook grits through his teeth, his eyes rolling to the back of his head, “Why don’t you just tell her?” he leans back on the back of the sofa, “She might be understanding, hm? Do it before it’s too late or I swear to god Taehyung I will tell her myself.”
“You swore you wouldn’t say shit. Just like how I swore not to say any—”
“Okay.”
“I’ll tell her dude. Just give me some time to—"
Jungkook’s eyes shoot up when he hears the light creak of your bedroom door open, he waits expectantly for you to walk through.
“Hey guys,” you announce your presence and both boys look up at you and smile. Taehyung with his boxy grin and Jungkook with a tightlipped smile.
“Hey y/n, you look nice,” Taehyung stands to his feet and walks towards you, “I mean, you always do.” He stops just in front of you and hands you a bag.
“What’s this?” you take the bag and jingle it around a bit.
“just something for our date.” He grins. “You can open it later.” Taehyung glances over at Jungkook, “Anyway, let’s get going. See you later man.” He nods toward the boy and faces you again. “shall we?”
You smile up at Taehyung and take his hand in your yours and lead him towards the front door but before you leave you and Jungkook make eye contact and he frowns.
Taehyung being the gentlemen he is runs to the car before you and opens your car door.
“Feet inside?” he asks and you’re nodding yes when he shuts the door for you. He runs around the other side and enters the car himself. Taehyung settles on an old 50’s station with the volume just right. He’s humming along with a dopey grin on his face, feeling satisfied with his choice.
“Where are we going?” you ask.
“Let’s get some dinner first then we can do our date activity I have planned” he chuckles to himself, tapping his fingers on the steering wheel.
You drive around in comfortable silence when you decide to take your phone out and shoot Jungkook a text.
y/n 6:14pm
You okay?
Jungkook 6:16pm
Don’t worry about me while you’re out with another guy
“Everything okay?” Taehyung asks, pulling you out of your thoughts.
“hm? Oh, yeah. Just thinking.” You reply quite honestly.
“About Jungkook?”
“What?? Why would you assume that?” your voice rises in panic.
“Well, we were all just together and I know you and him are fighting…I thought it was a safe assumption.” He laughs awkwardly.
“Oh…right. Actually, me and Jungkook sorted things out kind of but we’re still barely talking.”
“oh? Really?” Taehyungs grip on the steering wheel tightens.
“He said he will steer clear for the month, ya know, in public.”
“He—he agreed?” Taehyung coughs a few times, his head pushed back in disbelief.
“Something like that.” You don’t really know what to say, this is an awkward thing to be talking about and you wish the subject would change.
“Anyway,” you begin, “How did things with Anna escalate?”
Taehyung freezes. The color draining from his face as his knuckles turn white from gripping the steering wheel so hard.
“Um.” Taehyung feels sweat beading on his forehead as he tries to come up with an answer.
“You know how it is,” his mouth feels dry as he tries to speak, “She just won’t leave me alone and I want to show her that I am taken so she will get the hint.” Then a sly smile spreads across his face “and I think it’s working.”
“You think so?” you raise a brow in question.
“Well, you are such a convincing girlfriend after all.” His right arm extends towards your knee and he squeezes it. “Thanks again y/n…” he almost sounds…guilty. But you push that thought away and smile at him. Your sweet smile making him feel even guiltier.
~~~
“Dinner was sooo good.” You raise your arms above your head, stretching your body, a satisfied moan leaving you as you lower your arms again.
“I knew you’d like it! Best pizza in town!” Taehyung sets his credit card in the bill holder on the table. “Ready for what I have planned next?”
“hmmm, yes.”
The two of you wait for the server to return so you can finish paying so you can leave. Once all finished up at the restaurant the two of you head back to the parking lot and get inside his car to go to your next destination.
“Your apartment?” you ask as you notice his building coming into view.
“Yes. But you’ll see.” He turns his head quickly to flash you his pearly whites.
The two of you walk to his front door as he unlocks the door. Taehyung has a two bedroom apartment but lives alone. You’ve only ever seen his kitchen and living room and you’re wondering if you’re lucky enough you’ll see his bedroom. Hehe but that’s wishful thinking.
“You have that bag?” Taehyung asks,
“yup,” you say lifting it up and showing him the precious goods.
“Great go put it on!”
You tilt your head in confusion but you see how excited he is so you walk to his bathroom and shut the door behind you. Would if it was lingerie? You giggle to yourself at the ridiculous idea.
You open the bag to find some type of clothing. First, you pull out a large white t shirt and next was an…apron? The apron was a light pink color with a pocket in the front with your initials embroidered on it. You gasp once you realize it, your heart beating out of your chest as you melt into a puddle on the floor. He got your initials on an apron? You hurry to change into the white t shirt and put the apron on.
“Cute.” You murmur to yourself in the mirror before you’re out the door and back into the living room.
“How do you like it?” Taehyung asks from behind you, surprising you with a glass of water. You take the water gratefully and gulp down a few sips before answering.
“love it, but what’s it for?”
Taehyung beams, grabbing your arm and leading you into one of the bedrooms. He stands in front of the door and bounces on his heels.
“Ready?”
“Yes?”
“Never showed anyone this room but I feel like you’re special” Taehyung giggles, “Plus I thought it was a cute date idea.”
“hmm, okay. I’m ready.” You are such a fool for this boy, his cuteness doing a million things to you.
Taehyung begins to slowly open the door revealing a room with tarp covering the ground and easels taking up space. There are buckets of paint, a variety of colors spread all across. And many, many art pieces.
“You…” you begin to say in awe, “You’re an artist, Tae?”
“Aspiring.” He chuckles a bit bitterly. “How would you like to paint together?”
“You feel comfortable enough with me?” you ask, surprised.
“Something about you….” He starts but leaves it hanging. “Let’s paint!”
You dip your paint brush in purple paint and stroke it across the canvas, the color joining a mess of other colors. That’s art, right? Fuck, you are not good at this. You sneak a glance over at Taehyung to see him painting a scenic art piece. There’s mountains and flowers but somehow in an abstract kind of way, you tilt your head to the side trying to eye it more carefully.
“Hey, no peeking!” his bottom lip jutting out in the cutest way. You just want to kiss it.
You stand from your stool and walk over to his, your eyes never leaving his art work.
“I’m trying to figure out what I am looking at. Don’t get me wrong, its super cool. But like there’s this beautiful tree with flowers but also shapes??”
“Its abstract, y/n.” his tone is light and makes you flutter. “I like it this way.” He says softly.
“me too.” You look at him, his eyes meeting yours. His gaze shifts to your lips.
“heh really?” Taehyung’s cheeks turn a wonderful shade of pink, like the flowers on his canvas.
“You really are amazing, aren’t you?”
“Me? Let’s see what you got!” He stands from his stool and begins walking over to your art work.
“No!” you stand in his way, your arms flailing above your head. “It’s not good!” You laugh and push his chest back with your hands, Taehyung wobbles in place as he laughs at your dramatics.
“It can’t be that bad.”
You finally let him walk past you, he stands in front of your canvas with his finger on his chin,
“Okay, it can be that bad.”
Taehyung bubbles with laughter and you hit his shoulder but end up laughing with him.
“I told you.” You pout. Taehyung stares at you, his eyes once again shifting towards your lips and you aren’t going to play dumb, of course you’ve noticed.
“What?” you jut your lip out even more, walking just a bit closer to him.
“Nothing, you’re just cute.” Taehyung admits. His long fingers brush against your cheek as he pushes a piece of hair behind your ear.
“Like, really cute.”
Well, holy shit. Your heart and also your vagina cannot take this.
“How cute?” you breathe out.
“So cute I could kiss you.” Taehyung walks closer, his foot bumping into yours. “But…” He looks down at the ground, guilt beginning to surface, “y/n I have to tell—”
You tilt your head up and meet his lips for a peck on the lips taking him by surprise. Taehyung knits his brows together and is about to say something when he sighs out instead. One of his hands travel to cup the back of your head to bring you closer to him and he kisses you again. He deepens the kiss. Its slow and there’s no tongue, just lips moving tenderly against one another. You feel so light and airy like you could just float away until he abruptly pulls back.
“What’s wrong?” you panic, worry filling your eyes.
“We—we shouldn’t do that.” He finally says after a moment. Why? It was just some kissing between two people who possibly like each other? It’s not like you were delusional right? It’s not like you were making this up in your head. The flowers, the apron, the dinners, the car door, the ‘missing my girl’, the way he treats you can’t just be because of some fake dating bullshit. You know he is known for his kindness but to this extent?
“Why?” you finally say.
“Because,” Taehyung drags a hand across his face, “No one’s around. Let’s just take our pictures—”
BBrrrrrr bbbrrrr brrrrrr bbbrrrr
Taehyung’s phone is sitting on the table next to where the two of you are, it’s going off and you naturally glance over.
Incoming call: Anna
Taehyung races to turn it off, his face flushing and his hands have become sweaty.
“She…she just doesn’t give up.” He chuckles awkwardly, his phone in his grasp as you hear the buzzing of incoming messages.
“Is that her too?” you ask, feeling sorry for him.
“Uh, yeah…probably.” He says, his eyes looking all over the room but never on you.
“Well, let’s see what she’s saying.” You say nonchalantly, reaching for his phone but he yanks his hand back and barks a loud ‘No’. Startled, you step away from him.
“Sorry, I just…” he rubs his neck.
“No no, it’s okay, I shouldn’t have reached for your phone like that…” Something is off, You can feel it. But you want to push that feeling away.
“Let’s just take the pictures, I need to get home soon.”
“Yeah, okay.” Taehyung forces a smile.
~~~
Something is off with Taehyung. The way he wanted to kiss you but then pulled back. The way he got super weird after Anna called. Has she traumatized him that much? Is she like a real, legit stalker who is totally and completely obsessed with him? You feel bad for the guy, he seems like he probably has trust issues or something. Maybe he thinks you might turn out to be like her and he’s scared of that so that’s why he is pushing you away.
That’s gotta be it. You roll around in your bed about to finally get some sleep when you hear music blaring through the wall. Jungkook. You roll your eyes at his choice of timing. The clock reads after midnight, why the hell is he blasting music at this time?
You rise from your bed and storm into his room. Jungkook looks surprised to see you as he is in the middle of doing pushups—shirtless.
His muscles ripple with every movement and it has you practically drooling.
“Uh, can I help you?” Jungkook doesn’t look very annoyed, mostly amused.
“It’s late, Jungkook. Can you turn this shit down?”
“Can’t. Didn’t get a work out in today…so here I am.” He rises to his feet, shrugging.
The music is some horrible rock back that you can’t stand and Jungkook knows this. He fucking knows this. Wow, he really is mad at you still.
“Listen dude,” you put your hands on your hips, “I’ve had a weird day and I just want to relax.”
“Oh baby, I can think of a way for you to relax.” He winks. You want to puke, why is Jungkook so gross.
“Ew.”
“So…how was it?” Jungkook’s eyes fall to the ground.
“What?”
“How—how was your date with Taehyung?” he doesn’t raise his eyes, they stay glued to the floor.
“It was…” you get flashbacks to the awkward date, “fine.” You finish, not wanting to give Jungkook any more reason to dislike you and Taehyung together. “Yeah, it was fine” you force a smile.
“You know I know better than anyone when you’re lying.” He says, finally looking at you again.
Fuck. He’s right, if anyone knows you and your lying habits its Jungkook. He can read you like his favorite book. And it’s like, a picture book. Super fucking easy.
“It was fine Jungkook.” You lie again.
“What happened?” his tone eases into something softer, something more comforting and it almost makes you break and tell him the truth. Almost. But not quite.
“Nothing happened. Keep the music down, I’m going to bed.”
Jungkook watches as you spin on your heels to exit his bedroom, his eyes caving and watching your ass the entire time. He has a love-hate relationship with your house shorts, they’re sexy as hell and that’s the problem.
Jungkook turns the volume down on his speakers and sits on the edge of his bed. His head falls into his hands as he thinks about your date with Taehyung. Something must have happened. He knows it. He feels it. But he can’t force you to tell him.
He lays back on his bed and his face hardens as he thinks more about your fake relationship. He wants to beat Taehyungs ass. He wish he could tell you but it’s not his place and he just wishes Taehyung will do the right thing.
While staying loyal to Taehyung is he betraying you?
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Best friend: “A person you value over other friends in your life, someone you have fun with, someone you trust and someone in whom you confide.” That’s how the dictionary would describe the word but in Jungkook’s dictionary it would just be your cute face. Everything about you is cute to him, the way you walk, talk, dress, sneeze, just everything.
Even when you look gross as hell in the mornings dealing with a nasty hangover he still viewed you as…cute.
When Jungkook first noticed you was in his Literature class that took place on Tuesdays and Thursdays. He knew you always sat in the back and took your notes without really paying him any attention. And not to sound like a cocky bastard but…why not? He obviously thought you were pretty and there was something about you…
The second time he noticed you was at some frat party where he caught you staring at him and he thought he finally might have a chance at talking to you. Or get in your pants at least. He could one and done this situation and move on with his life but much to his surprise you weren’t interested in getting dicked down by him. No, you were interested in just…hanging out. Which he wasn’t use to. Most girls just wanted to say the got with the Jeon Jungkook and don’t pay him any mind for something serious. Because apparently he isn’t the type of guy you could be “serious” with. It’s not like he doesn’t hear the rumors. He hated this honestly…but he guesses it’s his own fault.
He even playfully offered to take you upstairs that night but you refused him. Much too shy. So he got a better idea: the 24 hour diner down the road.
You ended up talking until 9 am the next morning, laughing and snorting, telling tons of stories that cracked the two of you up. He even shared deeply personal information with you that shocked the both of you. But it just felt right—talking to you. He felt like he could open his heart to you, like he was making a real friend.
Jungkook doesn’t have much of a dating history…he mostly just sleeps around and is okay with that—because he has to be. Like what was said earlier, Jungkook isn’t a guy you get “serious” with and all the girls knew that. It just started with one girl spreading the fact he isn’t the type to ‘do’ relationships. He thought this would cause girls to try harder and try to change him or whatever. But none cared enough. He guesses…he just isn’t worth it. Does Jungkook yearn for something more? You wouldn’t know because he has never voiced it. Even though he isn’t lucky in love, he did get super lucky in a friend. That’s you. He cherishes your friendship more than anything in the world and wouldn’t do anything to risk ruining it.
3 years ago
“What about you?” you smile at him with all your teeth, “What are your parents like?”
You didn’t know at the time but this question made Jungkook feel the very dread he avoids feeling.
He looked into your wide eyes and couldn’t help the sigh that escapes his lips.
“Dad cheated the whole time and moms not around anymore.” Jungkook picks at his cuticles.
You felt a pang of guilt for bringing it up…but you were too curious to stop.
“Where did she go?” you can’t seem to stop yourself from asking.
Jungkook pauses his bad habit, his fingers coming to a halt.
“Can we change the subject?” he finally says, a small smile spreading across his lips, “It’s like, uh…a touchy subject. Ya know?” he almost looks as if he feels bad that he can’t confide in you.
“I promise I will tell you about it someday.” He swears with his pinky joining your pinky. You felt content with his answer but somehow you knew he probably never would.
Jungkook lays in his bed with his head dangling off the edge. Its 10 at night and you’re still not back. You had another date with Taehyung today—he knows because he follows the both of you on Instagram and you posted a photo of Taehyung in front of a mural that’s located just downtown. He grabs his phone to check your location and unfortunately you are still in the same spot—Taehyungs apartment. He hates this. Why does he hate this? Because Taehyung doesn’t deserve you and what he’s doing is not right. But he can’t tell you that because none of this is his business. Instead all he does is piss you off and he hates himself for it.
He truly thinks the world of you, he truly wants nothing but the best for you and he truly loves you. You’re his best friend.
Jungkook starts to doze off when he hears the front door being unlocked. It’s you.
Quickly, Jungkook jumps to his feet and scurries to his bedroom door and places his ear over the wood. He hears you talking…then another voice. You’re not alone. Its muffled but he makes out what you’re saying.
“It was amazing T,” oh, you’re with Trina. “He got me flowers, took pictures of me and got all my best angles.” He hears you giggling then another voice joins you in your laughter.
“I told you! This was a great idea!” Trina says, Jungkook rolls his eyes.
“He was such a gentlemen the whole time and it…I know it’s not real but I don’t know man…it feels real sometimes.”
“Girl, he would be stupid not to have a thing for you.” For once, Trina and Jungkook agree on something.
“I would actually kill myself if he did!” you giggle.
Jungkook goes rigid at your words, his jaw clenching so hard it ticks. He hates when you say shit like that, it creates a suffocating bubble around him that’s too hard to pop.
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Jungkook decides he’s eavesdropped enough and settles back on his bed. He lays back, his arms folded behind him. He feels beyond frustrated and doesn’t know what could cure this. Well, maybe sex? Maybe he should call up some girl…maybe that could make him feel better. But somehow that didn’t appeal to him so much in this moment when his brain is occupied of you. So he settles for himself. It’s been a while since Jungkook gave himself a handy but he’s not opposed of going for it.
The lights are off and Jungkook is deciding if he wants to watch porn or settle for his imagination. A girl he use to hook up with enters his mind and he decides to roll with it, he dips his hands underneath his boxers to feel up his hardening length. He reaches for his nightstand to squirt some lube in his hand, his cock is only half hard by the time he’s gently stroking himself. The skin on his cock is smooth with few veins decorating the length, he’s already leaking precum while his imagination starts up.
He thinks of this girl and her lips, how she looks with them wrapped around his greedy cock and he becomes even harder. Fuck, he can’t remember her name—a piece of shit move but he doesn’t care at this point. He’s stroking himself faster, gathering the precum at his tip and smearing it around. A light moan escapes his lips as he tugs on the head of his cock harder. His other hand drags his boxers down his legs as his continues to stroke himself and then reaches to fondle his balls. He groans at the sensation.
He then thinks of the girls ass in the air, her wiggling it around and begging him to fuck her. Her ass is round and plump, it jiggles slightly as she squirms below him. His hand moves quickly as his thoughts get dirtier. He doesn’t see her face just her ass and her voice sounds a lot like…yours. Fuck, he can’t be thinking of you right now. He’s pissed at you, his thoughts growing angry yet somehow his hand doesn’t stop. He’s so close it fucking hurts.
“Fuck…y/n..” he whimpers into his shoulder. He now sees your face, underneath him, your hair all splayed out. Your lips are swollen and you whine for him, begging for him to fuck into you faster. Jungkook squeezes his eyes shut at that image, his hand stroking him impossibly fast as he is beginning to lose all composure. He shouldn’t be thinking of you right now, or ever—not like this. But he hears you beg for him, he imagines flipping you over, demanding you to raise your ass in the air. You beg to be punished, you beg for him to spank you, and he does. He pulls his hand back and slaps your needy ass and you whimper. He does it again and again.
He sees himself insert his cock into your pussy and he’s thrusting in and out like his life depends on it. Jungkook’s hand squeezes desperately around his throbbing member, he cries out quietly as he fucks you in his mind.
He imagines you reaching your own high, your moans and screams ringing in his ears and that’s what sets him over the edge. His cum spurts out of his swollen cock, spraying all over his hand as he begins to come to a stop on himself.
“fuck fuck fuck fuck” Jungkook is out of breath, his fantasy too much for him to handle. “What the fuck did I just….”
He sits in complete silence as his breathing comes down. Did he just? He is not supposed to do that.
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0risha · 3 years
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borderline | gojo x fem!reader
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summary. one summer ends with a fall from glory but another begins with mending a long lost thread of childhood love.
word count. 3k+
tags. a little bit of angst, fluff, mentions of the solstice, modern au, gojo is a basketball player, rich au?? (reader is rich too...at one point) childhood friends to enemies?? to lovers. a curse word or two.
note. I wrote this for @jjkmag 's summer event! I haven't written in like... weeks but I hope you like it!!! reblogs are highly appreciated (◠‿◕) I'll put the taglist in the replies!
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Gojo first proposes to you at the fearless age of eight. He's cooler than any eight-year old you'd ever seen; white hair akin to yarn straight from a spindle, paired with blue eyes that upheld every pull of mischief.
Even his words were cool, crafted and meticulous. Seven-year old you had drawn a silly image of him digesting a dictionary—puffy cheeks and all—before the age of one could grasp him in it's hold.
His small hands aren't shaky and his spine is rigid with an odd amount of righteousness. The sun is high, out of reach, but it still beats down on your back. The swing you're seated on slows down with small, huffed-out creaks. Almost as if it understands the sincerity of this very moment.
He wants to marry you. Your eyes widen and your mouth gapes because he actually wants to marry you.
"Will you be my wife?" Icy eyes look up towards your own. His face is usually formally set, etched with every degree of seriousness. But now, there's a smile pulling at the edge of his lips.
You blink, you're not supposed to be the nervous one, he is. But you can't stop from worrying your lip between your teeth nor pulling at the ends of your yellow-dotted sundress.
The only thing you can do is nod and slip the silver band on your middle finger. With a low chuckle, he flicks your forehead and slides the ring in it's correct place. His hands brushed past your own and you swear (heart crossed and hope to die) that little electric bits fizzled up and away to the clear sky.
The electric buzz follows you home. When you waltz back into your house, an erasable smile plastered on your face, your mother fastens a hand to her hip and asks, "why'd you accept his proposal?" Her voice is witty, a familiar mirth shining in her eyes that matched yours.
You think for a second, eyes focused on a glass of lemonade. "You wouldn't understand." You reason, galloping to snatch the sugary drink and swallow it down.
All the same, your gaze never leaves the ring on your finger. It's plain; mainly the color of silver with a flower that sprouted long vines melted into the band.
But it's the prettiest thing you've ever seen.
Though you're not sure if it's because of your clouded vision of adoration or it really is the prettiest thing you've ever seen.
Your mother turns away with a small sigh. Something about kids and love slips past her lips and paints the huge walls of your house with renaissance; an unveiled you and a teary-eyed Gojo. Something only you could see.
Adult brains are different from young ones, you decide. Of course she wouldn't understand.
She wouldn't understand why you were so madly in love with Gojo Satoru, the boy who lived next door.
Gojo divorces you a month later. He doesn't take the ring away and you're not sure if it hurts more or less. He gives a new ring to who everyone proclaims as the prettiest girl in grade three.
For the three weeks, two days and one hour (yes, you counted) that they're together, your best friend Rukia conveys every channel of gossip towards you. You're the first person to know of their marriage and the last person to know of their divorce.
"Honey! Satoru's here.” At first, you shoot straight up from your bed, mind racing with happiness. It'd been weeks since you've seen or talked to satoru. Albeit, when realization hits you square in the chest, you let out a scoff.
"Tell him to go back home!" But before you can finish your last exhale, he's barging in.
"I'm sorry."
Your heart seizes in your throat when you cast your eyes on his heaving figure.
"Did you run all the way here?" With a faltering smile he nods as he collapses on your blue fluffy carpet.
"Satoru, you have asthma."
"It was worth it." He confesses, intense blues gleaming with truth. (Looking back, a harbor of suspicion arises whenever you’re reminded how smooth the eight-year old was)
Self betrayal ensues; the words you’ve been dying to say to him slinks away to take refuge in the crevices of your room.
"Did you bring your inhaler?" You toss your covers away and grab his arm, leading him downstairs where dinner is laid.
“Yeah.”
“What are you thinking about?” Rukia questions. Without looking up, you can already see her signature pout. “We’re supposed to be talking. We haven’t done that in forever.”
It’d been three days total but one thing you’ve learned over the years was that Rukia’s words —no matter how implausible— were forever set in stone.
“Yeah, I know.” Distractingly, you agree, putting a fifth layer of lacquer on her nails.
“He came in second place at the nationals.” At her unexpected words, you suck in a confused breath. A few strewn puzzle pieces labeled with question marks wander through your mind. Your face must’ve shown it because she’s saying a name.
“I mean... Gojo.”
You chew at your lip. Not entirely sure how to react. But concretely, he was a subject of the past.
And his well-being didn’t matter to you.
“Good...for him?” You blink as a subtle frown settles on your lips.
Sensing your sour mood, Rukia tries to diffuse it. “Are you excited about the festival tomorrow?”
“I guess.”
It’s been years since you’ve actually gone.
The memories were laugh-worthy and filled your heart with nostalgia but going back didn’t seem as appealing.
“Come on, where’s that bright smile?” You can only give her a small one.
“It’s the Solstice festival. You were so obsessed with it as a child!” Rukia pressed on, forehead creased in frustration until it rests with realization.
“Is it because we always went with him?”
“Don’t know what you’re talking about.” You quickly dismiss.
Rukia reaches over and grabs you by the shoulders and plants her face in front of yours. Words of indignation for her now ruined nails die down in your throat.
“Why are you letting him steal your happiness? It’s been four years [......], he’s probably forgotten all about you, you know.”
You wince at her words. Not because they were far-fetched but because it really was the cold, hard truth.
It starts there, the parasitic thoughts of one whom you've decided to forget. There's a possibility that it started before, but timelines are always meshed when you can't come to terms with events.
You don't eat dinner that night, the house is empty and mocking when Rukia leaves. Meals never tasted good alone. Your mother's working; a diner some hours away from home. The hours are grueling and not really fit for a woman of her age.
And if you could, you would take her place but whenever you propose the idea of shouldering some amount of her burden, she's shooing you away with a flick of her wrist.
She treats you like a child. Though it's not like you aren't but you're a breath away from the opposite of it.
And it hurts (an unbearable ache pinpointed somewhere in your chest) when you see her sprawled on the couch, too exhausted to move an inch.
Pathetically, the only thing you can do is curse your father (who ran off with some women when his own debt became too much for his poor soul) and the creators of fate.
"Honey?" Your mother's gruff but familiar voice cuts cleanly through your thoughts.
"Mom?" Your eyebrows furrow. "You're home early."
She shuffles towards you, her work shoes still on her feet. "I was let out early today." She plops down on your bed and throws you a small smile. Your gut clenches when you see her sunken eyes. "You're going to the festival tomorrow?"
"Yeah."
"Aw man." She sighs, and you can hear the impending layer of a story to come. "I remember when I used to take you three every year. You'd never eat any of the food but you always complained that you were hungry on the way home.”
You both chuckle, the light atmosphere making you dizzy with happiness.
“And Satoru would give you all his food..." She trails off, wistfulness woven in her tone. You purse your lips at the mention of him.
"You never did tell me what happened with you and Satoru." Your knuckles ache with how tight you’re clutching your covers.
"He uh...stopped talking to me when we um–" When you and your mother fell into debt, lost the big, bright house of your childhood and couldn’t afford living in Aoyama any longer.
"Oh." She breathes in, understanding already flooding through her expression. “Well things aren’t always meant to be, my dear.” She turns to you fully and places a palm over your cheek. Her warmth spreads through your veins and coats you in love. “You understand that, right?”
You nod.
“I love youuu.” She drawls, parting her hands from your cheek to display her jazz hands. “Bedtime story, anyone?”
“Mooomm.” You whine. “I’m almost eighteen, I don’t need bedtime stories anymore.”
"If you say so." She smiles wide. Her contagious air surrounds you and even though nowadays, seeing her so happy is unfamiliar, you smile too.
"Goodnight [......], have a great day at the festival." She reaches over to place a peck on your forehead. She smells of french fries and pie.
"I will, I love you mom."
She stands with a sigh, arms high to stretch. "I love you more." She leaves with a smile, cutting off your lights. You turn your head and snuggle further into your covers.
Unconsciously, your hand reaches for the object you've always kept beneath your pillow.
Skin touches cold metal. With still thoughts, you trace the engraved flower on the silver band till sleep takes you hostage.
You're not having a great time, is the only thing that repeats in your mind, strawberry kakigori in hand.
Rukia is late, your feet ache and it's too hot.
In the midst of your frustrations, your eyes catch a stand; 'balloon and dart' and you almost laugh at the nostalgia of it all.
"Brings back memories, right?"
"Yeah, it do–" Your words fall short, the voice strangely familiar.
"Satoru?" You question, voice high in disbelief. A few passerbys turn to give you an inquisitive stare.
You look up again, just for second measure. He looks almost exactly like he did when he was fourteen, just a few (way more than a few) inches taller.
He towers over you and even though he's got a simple shirt and jeans, you can see that he's no longer the scrawny boy he used to be. Corded muscle replaced just-there skin; basketball truly did him a favor.
A pair of dark sunglasses covered his eyes but you could still catch a faint hue of blue beneath them. They were too bright to miss.
"Satoru?" You repeat, an unfamiliar feeling washing over you.
He nods, a smile stretching over his face. "What? Can't believe it's me?" He's more bold now it seems. He's always been outspoken but now he has a different air. You want to know why but you stop yourself from staring at him for too long.
You both weren't friends anymore. Strangers. You both were strangers.
As if hearing your thoughts, he cocks his head to the side."You're so timid now. Way different from back then." You stop yourself from scoffing. He's way different from back then.
You can't tell if it's the heat or new-found anger but something wells up in your chest and it's nearly suffocating.
"It was nice seeing you Gojo but I have to go. Rukia's waiting for me." You point at a random location, the lie feels bitter on your tongue.
"Gojo...what happened to Satoru?" It's later than normal but you notice how deep and grounded his voice has gotten. In the past, his words always had a crack or two.
With an internal shake of your head, you dismiss your thoughts. He's not even alarmed by the mention of Rukia, his former arch enemy.
"Um…." You try to grasp at any plausible answers.
"[......]." He places a hand on your shoulder. You have the urge to shake it off. "I know we haven't talked in a long time but did I do something?" You blink, once, twice.
"Something to upset you?" The only thing you can do is stare. You hated confrontation, hated any situation that could lead to conflict but moments like these were unavoidable.
"Are you serious?" You shuffle closer to him but before you can jab your finger in his chest and let out years upon years of words you've been yearning to convey, a strike of thunder flits through the sky.
Then rain begins to pour.
"Oh." You tilt your head down in shame. "So you didn't stop talking to me because I..."
Satoru shakes his head with vigor. "No, of course not. I will admit that I lost your contact information but I would never stop talking to you just because you had money problems."
It's silent for a while. The sound of rain is low and distant in the empty food truck you both are in. The smell of yakitori is apparent.
"That's good." You nod, a shaky smile on your lips. You let out a shaky exhale and try to ignore the track of tears on your cheeks. "Sorry...for assuming."
Satoru turns to you, alarmed. "Woah. I didn't mean to make you cry." His glasses are long gone and you can see the concern in his artic eyes. "W-why are you crying?" His nose scrunches up in frustration. Something he does when he's not too sure how to solve a problem.
"I'm just happy." This time, your smile is wide. "Just happy." He places a palm on your cheek to wipe your tears away. His hand is big and warm; your heart lulls dangerously.
"[......]?" His gaze is still on you. In some way, it makes you nervous. "Remember what I asked you when we were kids?"
"You asked me a lot of things when we were kids…. I think the weirdest one was when you asked to compare nippl–"
"Okay." He deadpans. You can only let out a laugh. When he hears it, his eyes soften and he's back to asking.
"With the ring?" The puzzle pieces conjoin.
"When you asked to marry me?" Your eyes widen.
He nods.
"We just reunited, we're not getting married."
A furious blush spreads across his cheeks. "You've always been a sarcastic little shit, huh?"
"Likewise."
"I was going to ask —very smoothly may I add, if you wanted to start at the first stage?"
"First stage as in…."
He pinches at your cheeks and groans. "Be my girlfriend."
"Okay."
"That quick?"
"I mean—take me on a date first…." He rolls his eyes. "But yeah, I'd like to be your girlfriend."
Satoru doesn't say anything for a second or so and you're convinced that you've said something wrong.
"Since you're like– my future girlfriend, can I kiss you?" This time it's your turn to be flustered. Sensing your state, he raises a pale eyebrow. Your ears feel like they've been lit aflame.
Not trusting yourself to be coherent, you shrug.
With that, he's cupping your jaw and pulling in. Your eyes flutter shut, skin buzzing with excitement. In due time, his nose brushes past your own.
He smells like rain and pine, a contrast of younger him always smelling like candy. Now, his lips are a hairsbreadth away from touching yours. A part of you wished to have put on a layer of chapstick earlier or maybe a stick of gum or—
"Out!" A voice rings, accompanied by a thud. Both of your heads whip to the side. A man, who you guessed to be the owner of the food truck stands in front of the open window.
"Out of my truck. Go smooch in front of the fireworks or something."
Gojo grabs your hand, an apology leaving his lips, lips you were supposed to kiss. "Sorry sir. Bye sir." The man's glare follows you two as you leap from the truck door. Thankfully, there's no more rain.
You snicker lowly at Gojo's speed. "What's funny? That was not funny."
"It was kind of funny." Your eyes trail down and lock on to your hands that were in his own. Your heart beats at a crazy pace and your veins are injected with the fever of giddiness.
It's still hot and stuffy, the humidity practically clogging your lungs but it's cleared with every laugh that escapes your lips.
You let out a dozen sorry's and excuse me's when your shoulder bumps into someone else's. The sound of crackling getting closer.
"Okay, here." You both skid to a stop. Gojo places his hands on his knees and breathes in and out at an alarming rate.
"Woah." Your eyes look up in wonder, not bothered by Gojo's heaving figure. You shuffle closer and drape your arms around the railing separating you from water.
There's a plethora of colors in the sky, all reflecting on the lake. A hiss echoes and another color explodes in the air. This time it's orange, nearly fiery with the way it contrasts with the neutral sky.
"Alright, attention away from the fireworks. Put your attention on me, please. I almost died from an asthma attack."
He doesn't wait for your snarky reply, his face already centimeters from your own. Orange clashes with blue and for a second, you feel caught in a standstill. Your breath too, it's caught in your throat and you ground yourself by holding on to his arms.
Satoru's beautiful and you can't believe that he's yours.
"I can kiss you?"
"Yes, I already said yo–" Eager lips slot against your own, impending words stolen away. His lips are as soft as they look. He tastes like melon syrup; the kind used for kakigori.
Gojo's a good kisser but honestly you didn't expect any less. When the kiss deepens and cold, sweet soaked tongues meet, he's pulling you impossibly closer. The loud buzz of fireworks is lost and the bubble Satoru shrouds you in can't be touched.
"Nice." Is the first thing you say when your lips part.
He raised an eyebrow. "Just nice?" His breath tickles your cheeks.
"More than nice." You redirect your gaze to the blazing sky. "That's all you're gonna get."
He hums. It's silent for a while but it's the comfortable kind. You're still close to his hard chest. Your body has no choice but to feel warm and serene.
"Shit." An uproar of realization hits you square in the chest.
"What?"
"Rukia. I forgot all about Rukia."
"Oh, I didn't tell you?"
"Tell me what?"
"She planned all of this..."
"What?" You look up bewildered.
He laughs at your stricken expression. "I figured it out when she told me to come to the festival and she didn't show up."
You purse your lips. "She's so sneaky." But you can't find it in you to actually be mad at your best friend. So, you send her a little prayer of thanks.
"Satoru?"
"Mhm."
"The night is still young, let's kiss some more."
"And here I thought you were shy." He shakes his head but doesn't decline. Again, like you wanted, Gojo graces your lips with his own.
Tonight, the sun will reach its maximum declination. Entangled souls are to let go of the past and make changes from within.
And in the midst of it all, a long lost flame will be rekindled.
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tu-sugar-mami · 3 years
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You're an exchange student part 2:
You can read the first part here
You sit awkwardly on a gigantic chair while holding a lukewarm, barely touched cup of tea with both of your hands. Your back is straight and your shoulders are tense. You're starting to feel a bit sore after being still for a long time but you can't bring yourself to move.
After the incident with the first cultist —or what you still think is a cultist, the redhead girl— the tall lady took away your bug repelent and lighter along with your backpack, putting them on the top row of a nearby shelf where she was sure your little hands wouldn't reach.
If you're honest, you're not sure how you ended up sitting in the chair in front of the gigantic fireplace with many heavy comforters on you providing much needed warmth, feeling like an unexpected but not unwelcomed guest instead of the next sacrifice, but truly you're not complaining. This is thousand times better than to die outside from the cold.
As you sit there innocently waiting for the next important thing to happen, you can see that the two young women who arrived after you are exchanging a few words with Miss Tall Lady while taking off their coats to reveal several layers of winter clothes underneath. It's strange to you, but you pay it no mind. Every person takes different to the cold, after all.
The tall lady starts pacing back and forth in front of you heatedly talking, glancing at you once or twicce, and it's not hard for you to notice the strain and exasperation in her tone. Whatever she's saying sounds serious, but you can only make out a few words like 'offering' 'wrong' and 'mistake'.
Not knowing what to respond your find yourself distracted by the decor. Your eyes roaming every detail of the chiseled fireplace, taking in the most fine of the details. Then, is the stairwell that catches you attention and you can't help but to think it would be a great place to slide on a cardboard box.
"Are you listening to me?" A commanding voice and a snap of fingers brings your wandering mind down from the clouds and your neck snaps to face the woman. Her eyes are a beautiful golden, and you can't believe you didn't notice before.
"Your eyes are mesemerizing..." You say in your language, breathless, the words slipping past your lips almost as in a trance. Your gaze goes a bit down and your fingers twitch with a sudden desire to run them over those blood-red lips and feel for yourself if they are as soft as they look.
Miss Tall Lady looks thrown off by the foreign accent in your voice. It's definitely one she hadn't have the pleasure of hearing before and somehow makes her pause. Her mind might be playing tricks on her but why did whatever you said felt like some kind of compliment?
"Mother?" One of the young women from before asks tentatively. You don't know if you're right but you think the girls are the woman's daughters.
"Take this one to the library. I will follow shortly." Miss Tall Lady says before hurriedly walking away, though without losing her lady-like grace. Your eyes follow an hypnothic sway of hips going up the stairs before you sense a hand being extended towards you, expecting.
"Teacup, please." A blonde, very polite-looking young lady says. You jump a bit in your seat and inevitably blush, thinking for a moment you were caught in your respecful percieving, but to your relief the woman in front of you didn't seem to notice that.
"Uh..." You're not sure what Miss Blonde wants, but judging by the look she's giving you, you suppose she wants to greet you formally, so you do what any other civilized person would do. "Hi, it's a pleasure to meet you, miss." You say as you properly position the teacup in your left hand and with your right you shake hers. She's taken aback, but after a second of hesitation a smile breaks and graces her face.
A pair of loud laughs sound from behind the blonde. The young woman with the dark hair approaches you both from the side with an amused grin. "I like this one, Bels."
"An odd one indeed." Miss Blonde replies.
The last one of the unusual trio approaches on the other side of the blonde, the redhead you knocked out earlier. She looks at you intently. "Just so you know, no one besides mother sends me to sleep without consecuenses, little one." and punctuates her statement with a boop to your nose.
"Yes, yes, you'll get your revenge later, Daniela. Let's not keep Mother waiting." You're hoisted up by the hand. The warm comforters falling off your back and piling on the big chair, instantly making you shiver with the lack of heat. The three women walk away and you have no other option than to follow them.
The door is opened and inside you find yourelf gaping at the amount of books stacked on the big shelves. You can count with one hand the times you've been in a house that has its own library, but this one by far takes the cake. "Can i grab a book?" You ask to Miss Dark Hair, pointing to one of the nearestt bookshelves while giving your trademark Puppy Eyes.
"What? You want to read?"
"Book." You say, pointing again insistently to the bottom row of antique books.
"Sure, go have your fun while Mother arrives." Miss Blonde nods and you waste no time to grab the fattest, heaviest book of them all and sit on the floor with your legs crossed, only to sigh in dissapointment as the book is in a language you yet again can't understand. But as you flip the pages you can see that it has very depicting images of old eras that you find fascinating.
You don't notice the time passing as you 'read' undisturbingly, until a big hand is placed on your shoulder and you almost jump out of yor skin, closing the book with a snap, effectively losing the page where the images told you the process to make soap.
"Someone's been studying, i see." The Tall Lady from before stands before you in all her height and you cand help but to rake your gaze all over that goddess until you reach her eyes, not without your flushed face at the end. "So, i brought you here for a reason." She says while her hand motions you to stand. "Here at the Dimitrescu Castle we are in possesion of many doors to knowledge, which does include many books that offer some insight about other countries along with their tongues." You're nodding along whatever she's saying, not a single word ringing a bell in your understanding but to you it would be impolite to leave her hanging. Tall Lady stops in her tracks, in front of a very dusty bookshelf with even older books. Her hand goes from side to side selecting several books which she then hands to you.
You eye the books curiously and you notice that they're a vast collections of translating dictionaries, all varying in length and language. You kneel and start looking through them, being mindful of the most antique and delicate ones. You spot a thin one but with a very familiar dialect and you look up to give Tall Lady a toothy smile. "This one is! Uh... Wait, let's see." You open the book and look through the content searching for words. You stand and motion the lady to lean a bit and start pointing words.
'Student.'
'Cold.'
'Lost'
'Thankful."
As you keep making sense with the few words you're provided, the expression on the lady's face changes to a one of understanding and pity. She pulls out a very fancy-looking pair of glasses out from who knows where and takes the book from your hands, flipping through it's pages, looking for words of her own.
'Stay.'
'Dinner.'
'Sleep.'
'Rest.'
She points word by word and you get the hint. You nod eagerly and smile. Tall Lady smiles back at you and for a second there you feel your heart paralize. You could have sworn you saw a pair of unusually long canines on that pearly white smile. But surely you're just tired, right?
"Daniela, please take our guest to one of the spare rooms." The lady says gesturing to the red-haired young woman.
"Yes, Mother." And the next thing you know your being lead by the arm out of the room.
Once you're gone the tall lady's whole demeanor changes to one of anger and she let's out a frustrated sigh. "The nerve of those villagers. To send a foreigner as the monthly offering! No wonder why the man-thing you brought was insisting it was a mistake."
"They're not respecting the deal, Mother. Should i make them understand who they're dealing with?"
The Tall Lady's pointer finger rests on her lips as she thinks. "No. I'd like to have a word with the leader." She put the book on a the nearrest table with a bit too much force, snapping the poor table in half. "Bela, bring him to me."
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Part two is up. Less comedy, more plot. This isn't planned to be long so maybe this will only have one or two more chapters.
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— how you met nct dream.
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you had been watching that cute boy on the badminton court playing with his friends ever since you had started working in the gym and you couldn't help but become more and more interested in him with each passing day. the noises he made when he hit the shuttlecock, the whimpers that came from his pink fluffy lips when he missed the expected shot and the way he frowned and puckered his mouth when his partner missed were some of your favourite things about going to work. yet you had never been able to strike up a conversation. never until this day, when his friends decided to take a break and go watch the football match, while he preferred to stay and practice a bit more.
"you're good," you complimented him once you approached him and threw him a bottle of water, which he managed to catch on the fly. "thank you," he replied flashing you a shy smile, causing his cheekbones to bulge. "where did you learn all that?" you asked sitting down on the bench at the side of the court. he turned to look at you nervously, setting the bottle down once he had taken a sip. "my father... well... he taught me, i guess," he replied, averting his gaze to anywhere on the court except your eyes. "and what do you like best about it?" you questioned him, watching the feather he was playing with bounce on the ground. "ahhh, i... i like badminton, i mean... i like it a lot, like... the... the... the rackets are really nice," he replied trying to find the right words, looking even more tender than ever and causing a smile to form on your lips. but just then his friends arrived, so you stood up and approached him. "nice to meet you, mark," you bowed your head and he copied you, failing to hide the blush on his cheeks.
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you snorted once more when the card of the hotel you were staying at wouldn't open the door. you had just taken a dip in the pool and were starting to get cold from wearing only a t-shirt over your swimsuit. you had already used every curse word the dictionary had and still the door wouldn't open. until suddenly you heard a click and it did, so you hurriedly tried to enter. however, something a little softer than the door blocked your way, making you bump into it or, rather, into someone.
“can i help you with something?” the boy smiled kindly as two others a little taller than him appeared from behind. you frowned, looking at the number painted on the door and then looking at the number written on your card. it was then that you realised your mistake, “shit! sorry, sorry. i've got the wrong room,” you apologised, trying to hide your embarrassment and nervousness. “is your room next door?” he asked leaning the side of his body against the door frame, to which you nodded, “i hope to see you again then,” he spoke, as the other two boys who hadn't moved yet tried to hide their laughter. you smiled still a little self-consciously and turned around with the intention of getting out of there. “nice outfit, by the way.”
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you were taking the dog for a walk in the park as you usually did, but this day was a bit different. you let the dog loose, trusting him completely, although you regretted it after a second when you saw how he ran away from you, starting to chase a boy riding his bike. you ran after him, calling his name and wishing you were born with more stamina, because your lungs weren’t strong enough for that. the boy slowed down when he noticed the animal running after him, who didn't think twice before jumping on top of him and knocking him off his bike, licking his face while getting petted. when you managed to get to where they were, you apologised repeatedly, getting several "don't worry" from the boy, smiling with amusement at your furry friend.
“i hope your dog doesn't attack me again,” he laughed softly, hopping on his bike and riding off, reassuring you that there would definitely be a next time.
₊˚✧┆𝗛𝗔𝗘𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗡
in the summer you worked in a flower shop, you didn't get paid much but it was enough to pay for your studies. that day, your boss sent you to the most famous dance company in your city to deliver a bouquet with yellow sunflowers, something strange you had to admit.
leaving the lift you bumped into a handsome guy who apologized for not having noticed and almost destroying those beautiful flowers. as an apology he offered to guide you to your destination and you, a bit shy, accepted shyly. you could notice the look of confusion when you pointed out where you should deliver the sunflowers and, when you entered the room, he didn't hesitate to speak.
“so the flowers are for me, you’re the one sending them?” he approached them to smell their soft, fresh scent and then looked at you with a twinkle in his eye. you shook your head slightly, watching an amused pout form on his handsome face, “how bad, i would’ve wished to receive such a gift from someone so pretty.”
₊˚✧┆𝗝𝗔𝗘𝗠𝗜𝗡
Songpa Naru Park was perhaps your favourite place to spend the afternoon when you didn't have too much to do. coming here, watching the almond blossoms swaying in the wind, listening to the swallows singing and watching families having a good time were your favourite images. you couldn't miss the photographs, you were nobody without your camera and your snapshots.
at that moment, watching the black and white ducks arguing over which part of the lake belonged to each of them, you felt a flash in your right profile, which made you startle and your camera, which was in your lap, rush to the ground. however, a big hand prevented that horrible disaster.
“forgive me,” the stranger apologised, “i didn't mean to,” he showed you his perfect white teeth as he returned the camera to your lap. “did you take a picture of me?” you asked looking in his direction, remembering that bright light. he looked at you with regret and put his hand to the back of his neck, scratching it nervously, “sorry about that too.” you gave him a tight-lipped smile and lifted your shoulders, “don't worry, it's all right,” you replied turning your gaze back to the lake, “it’s beautiful, isn't it?” you asked, watching him out of the corner of your eye. “yes, very pretty,” he replied, looking at your picture on his camera, which brought another smile to your face, a bigger one this time.
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you were definitely lost. maybe if you hadn't listened to your brother, you would now be at the restaurant where your parents were waiting for you. but obviously, he didn't want to use the gps as he had "memorised the way". and this is when he forced you to roll down the car window and ask some stranger for help.
“excuse me, could you tell me where Las Torres restaurant is?” you asked a handsome guy, wearing a loose summer brown shirt. he smiled at you and asked for your phone so he could write it down for you, which you readily agreed to. “here you go. i’ve drawn you the official route, but also a small detour that will get you there faster,” he explained, handing you back the phone through the window. after thanking him and saying goodbye, he gave you a smile with a wink, which caused a slight blush to appear on your cheeks. you soon learned the reason for this gesture. he hadn't asked for your mobile phone just to guide you, but to write down his number as well.
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you were having dinner with a friend at one of your favourite restaurants, celebrating the end of the school year and another year of your friendship. however, you weren't paying full attention to your friend, as you were busier watching the boy who hadn't stopped looking at you all night and who, when you looked back at him, looked away, blushing slightly. halfway through dinner you could notice his friend saying something in his ear, looking in your direction, and how the boy's eyes widened while he began to shake his head. but suddenly, the other boy stood up and, ignoring his friend's prayers, approached you with a mischievous smile on his face.
“good evening,” he greeted, interrupting your conversation and resting his hands on the table, “you've caught my friend's eye, but he's too shy and cowardly to come and ask for your number himself, so i’m here to make his dreams come true,” he addressed you with confidence and amusement, pointing to the sweet boy who was now covering his face with the tablecloth. you finally decided to write down your number on the napkin and your heart skipped a beat as the boy smiled shyly at you after receiving the piece of paper with your number written on it.
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Tempered Glass: Chapter 5
Pairing: Din Djarin x Female Reader Rating: M (will become explicit) Word Count: 6.4k Warnings: canon rewrite, slow burn, canon-typical violence, sexual harassment/unwanted sexual advances, cursing, sexy thoughts, pining Summary: When you’re caught in a firefight with a bounty hunter and the Crest is damaged, you and Mando stop on Tatooine to find a job. A shadow of your past catches up with you. Notes: Sorry not sorry for making Toro even worse than he already is. Taglist: @bbdoyouloveme @beskarhearts @dincrypt @dunderr @honey-hi​ @just-me-and-my-obsessions00 @mbpokemonrulez @red-leaders @speakerforthedead0 @theflightytemptressadventure @zoemariefit
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Image from The Art of Star Wars: The Mandalorian
After leaving Sorgan, you and Mando chose a second “backwater skughole” several systems away as your next destination. Mando set the nav, and the automated voice of the computer informed you that the trip would take almost five days. The thought of spending five days confined to the Crest was not appealing, but you knew it was important to keep your stops as remote as possible.
Time was a functionally meaningless concept in space anyways, hours and days bleeding together. Without the usual environmental cues to govern your circadian rhythm, you had to rely on a schedule to maintain some semblance of normalcy, keeping alarms on your chrono to remind you when to sleep. Mando, on the other hand, seemed so completely accustomed to this slippery sense of time that he needed no reminders; this was natural for him.
If you hadn’t already seen some of his skin, you might actually think he was a droid. Aside from his hard metal exterior, the most compelling piece of evidence to support this theory was the fact that he didn’t seem to need much sleep. He disappeared into his bunk for maybe four or five hours a day, plus twenty minutes here or there to eat. You suspected he settled into a half-asleep, half-awake hibernation mode when he sat in the pilot’s seat for hours at a time without moving. Once, he jolted so violently when the child sneezed that he had to catch him by his collar before he slid off his knee.
His relationship with the kid, though, was achingly, heartwarmingly, vulnerably human.
You lived for the glimpses of their bond—the way Mando would remove a single pauldron so he could rest the child’s head on his shoulder to lull him to sleep, whispering to him as he swayed gently. When the kid was restless and energetic from being cooped up, Mando would roll the little silver sphere from a control in the cockpit along the floor of the hull for him to chase. For a generally impatient man, his patience for the child seemed almost inexhaustible; he would hold him and pat his back endlessly while he wailed his way through particularly bad tantrums.
You collected these precious moments and held them close to your heart, unwittingly creating a catalog of comfort that you’d return to later. They weren’t necessarily your moments to claim, as a visitor in their world, but you treasured them nonetheless.
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You were out of colored contacts. You could only wear each pair continuously for a month, and your current pair was due to be switched out any day. The morning you threw them away, Mando stopped you as you passed him in the hull with a light hand on your shoulder. The kid was tucked in his other arm.
He stepped in front of you, just inches away from your chest, tilting his helmet down to look at you. You looked up to meet his gaze, puzzled. He cocked his head, a silent question.
Not for the first time, you wondered about the color of his eyes.
You held your breath, unsure of what he was going to do.
He said nothing but brought his gloved hand up to your face, running this thumb along the crest of your cheek—so lightly, the leather was barely touching you. The tender gesture brought goose bumps to your arms, and your heart stuttered in your chest.
The kid reached up a tiny hand toward your other cheek, mirroring Mando’s movement. He babbled quietly, breaking the tense silence. You flicked your eyes down to watch him but remained still, not wanting to disrupt the spell of the moment. The baby wiggled his fingers and whined when he realized he couldn’t reach you. You smiled.
You looked back up into Mando’s visor. You wanted so badly to reach out and touch him back, to pull him closer, but you let fear keep you rooted to the spot.
To your astonishment, he dipped his helmet, as if he was going to lean his forehead against yours. He was inches from your face—you could see your surprise reflected in his visor and hear his steady breathing through the modulator. But Mando seemed to change his mind mid-gesture, and the moment was over before you knew it. He straightened, dropped his hand, nodded stiffly, and stepped past you. The child let out a frustrated cry in protest.
Without the kid’s lingering whines, you might have thought you imagined the whole thing.
Little by little, you were revealing your real self to the Mandalorian, placing your safety in his hands. This would have been harder to stomach if you weren’t getting pieces of him in return. Spending this much time in such close quarters with someone—even someone as closed off as Mando—was enough to get to know them fairly well.
For instance, you weren’t quite fluent, but you were getting really good at reading his body language. He relied on his armor to mask his intentions with strangers, and he wasn’t accustomed to people spending extended amounts of time with him—time to learn his patterns and tells. Over time, it became apparent just how many minute things there were to unpack: subtle tensions in his back and shoulders, clenching of his fists, tapping of his fingers, the lean in his hips, audible inhales or exhales, the tilt of his helmet. Plus, there were nuanced flavors of each movement: a sassy head tilt, an angry head tilt, a confused head tilt. Soon enough, you’d be able to create a dictionary of the Mandalorian’s body language. 
It was strange to think that you’d only been with him for a few weeks, and you might be the only person in the galaxy who could read him so well.
Something else you’d come to learn about Mando was that he was very particular about where his things were kept. This made sense—he’d clearly been living alone for years, if not decades. Of course someone with such a nomadic, unsettled lifestyle would want to carefully control what little in his environment that he could, but his compulsive organization was next level.
You came to this conclusion after you scooted his toothbrush and toothpaste over just slightly in the med cabinet to make a space for yours. The next morning, you opened the cabinet to find his things exactly where they had been before you’d moved them. You looked down to see that yours were sitting precariously on the edge of the sink, waiting to fall to the floor at the first sign of turbulence. Seriously?
That inspired you to devise a fun game—well, it was fun for you. You were pretty sure Mando hated it, though to his credit, he didn’t say anything about it for several days. Every day, you’d move one of his items just slightly to see if he’d notice and move it back. So far, he’d caught every tiny adjustment. He even reoriented his bar of soap when you moved it so it sat slightly off-kilter in its dish in the shower. He hadn’t even showered yet that day.
After three days, he finally cracked.
He was digging through a storage compartment, huffing dramatically though his modulator as he searched for something.
“I can’t imagine you’ve lost something,” you said, from where you were sitting on a crate sharing a ration pack with the kid, who was perched on your lap. “Not with how terrifyingly organized you are.”
“Yeah, well, that was only true before you started moving my stuff around.” 
You grinned. “I was wondering when you were going to say something.”
“I was wondering when you were going to stop,” he huffed, but you detected the lightest trace of amusement in his tone.
“I haven’t actually moved anything,” you laughed. “Just... adjusted.”
He harrumphed, still digging around in the box.
The kid chittered and reached toward your hand for more food. You gave him another piece.
“If you let me leave my toothbrush and toothpaste in the med cabinet, I’ll stop.”
He looked up. “That’s it?”
“I’m a reasonable woman.”
“Deal.”
When you went to brush your teeth that night, one of the three shelves in the med cabinet had been completely cleared for you.
As you slowly began to insinuate yourself into Mando and the kid’s life, the guilt of not telling him about the bounty on your head started to weigh heavier on your mind. He deserved to know, but you couldn’t imagine him letting you stay if he found out. Why would he assume any extra risk? I’ll tell him soon. We probably won’t be together much longer anyways.
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“I can bring you in warm, or I can bring you in cold.”
The unfamiliar voice of the bounty hunter echoed over the com in the cockpit. A ship was hot on your tail, landing several shots that rattled the Crest violently. The child, who was strapped into the seat beside you, seemed to enjoy the excitement of the chase, arms raised and giggling. Mando maneuvered the Crest quickly and deftly, so the pursuer was suddenly directly in front of the viewport.
“That’s my line,” he said dramatically, as he pulled the trigger and obliterated the ship in his sights.
Despite the fact that your heart was pounding in your chest, you couldn’t help but let out an exasperated laugh at that. 
The chase had been short-lived, but the hunter had managed to inflict some serious damage. Alarms beeped and warning lights flashed along the console.
“Losing fuel,” said Mando. He was working hastily, his hands flying from one control to the next. He was trying to address several warning alarms at once.
“You work on that. I got this,” you said, unbuckling.
You stood next to him, attending to the controls in front of you.
“What are—Don’t do that,” he said, “Stop. I need to—”
He didn’t finish his sentence when he realized you were doing exactly what needed to be done to stabilize the ship.
“I thought you said you worked in programming.”
“I did. Mostly avionics.”
The second thruster sputtered and died. The cockpit went dark. All of the usual mechanical sounds that the ship made whirred to a halt. Mando turned in surprise, looking around. He clicked a few buttons. Nothing happened.
The child giggled from his seat.
“I’ll get it.” You walked to the back of the cockpit and wrenched open a panel to do a manual reset of the controls. Some of the lights came back on. Mando flicked several switches, and the displays came alive.
Together, you got the ship in good enough shape to limp to a nearby planet. Luckily, you were already close to Tatooine. The Razor Crest rattled alarmingly as it cleared the atmosphere, and Mando landed the ship with an unceremonious clunk in a bay in Mos Eisley.
Mando left the now sleeping baby in his bunk, despite your objections. That never works. He walked down the ramp to haggle with the mechanic.
Peli was a gruff woman, sassy and straightforward. You liked her right away. Mando deserved the sass Peli dished out, considering he had begun their interaction by shooting at her pit droids when they tried to approach the Crest.
He really hates droids.
You and Mando headed to the cantina to inquire about work. As soon as the ship went dead, you’d both known you’d need to pull a job to pay to fix the damage because there was no way the Crest was making it to your destination in its current state.
You trailed a few steps behind him, watching the intimidating way he stalked down the sandy street, his cape billowing behind him. He seemed less scary now that you knew he secretly had a sense of humor and an occasional flair for the dramatic. And that he once let you sleep on his shoulder. And tied your shoe for you.
When you entered the cantina, you shivered from the abrupt change in temperature. Outside the twin suns beat down; inside the dark cantina, it was cool.
Mando strode up to the bar. You followed him, taking in your surroundings.
“Hey, droid. I’m a hunter. I’m looking for some work.”
“Unfortunately, the Bounty Guild no longer operates from Tatooine,” replied the droid in a stilted voice.
“It doesn’t have to be Guild work,” you clarified.
“I am afraid that does not improve your situation, at least by my calculation,” said the droid, continuing to wipe down the surface of the bar with a rag.
“Think again, tin can,” interrupted a smug voice behind you. You and Mando turned.
A young man, his legs propped brazenly on the table in front of him, continued, “If you’re looking for work, have a seat, my friends.” He gestured to the seats across from him.
“Name’s Toro, Toro Calican. Come on, relax.” He beckoned for you to join him again.
You and Mando exchanged a look and walked over to where he was seated.
Toro swung his legs off the table and slapped a bounty puck down in front of him as you slid into the booth and Mando followed.
“Picked up this bounty punk before I left the Mid Rim,” Toro explained. The hazy image of a woman with dark hair hovered over the puck. “Fennec Shand, an Assassin. Heard she’s been on the run ever since the New Republic put all her employers in lockdown.”
Toro had thick brown hair and dark eyes, a boyish face despite the scruff of five-o’clock shadow on his jaw. He couldn’t be older than 25.
“I’ve heard the name,” said Mando.
You nodded beside him. Fennec Shand was a legend. Having been chased by enough hunters, you were familiar with the big players.
“Yeah, well, I followed this tracking fob here. Now the positional data suggests she’s headed out beyond the Dune Sea. Should be an easy job.” He shrugged.
This kid clearly has no idea what he’s doing.
“Well, good luck with that,” said Mando, standing up. You stayed where you were, relaxed against the back of the booth.
“Wait, wait, wait, hey. I thought you needed work?” Toro looked from Mando to you, confused.
“How long you been with the Guild?” asked Mando.
“Long enough,” Toro spat unconvincingly.
“Clearly not. Fennec Shand is an elite mercenary. She made her name killing for all the top crime syndicates, including the Hutts. If you go after her, you won’t make it past sunrise.”
Mando looked at you and jerked his head to signal that it was time to go. He started to walk away. You stayed seated, saying nothing.
Toro looked at you, pleading. You nodded toward Mando: “You’ll have to convince him.”
Toro scrambled after him. Mando turned to face him, and Toro had to look up to meet his visor.
“This is my first job,” he admitted in a strained voice. “You guys can keep the money, all of it. I just need this job to get into the Guild. I can’t do it alone.”
Mando looked to you. You smiled knowingly, and he let out a sigh and nodded.
The man cannot say no to someone who needs help.
Toro was visibly relieved.
“Meet us at hangar three-five in half an hour. Bring three speeder bikes and give me the tracking fob,” instructed Mando, holding out a hand.
Toro’s shoulders pulled together. Someone doesn’t want to let go of the fob.
Without any warning, he smashed the fob on the wall. It sparked.
Mando gave Toro his angry head tilt.
“Don’t worry, got it all memorized,” assured Toro, tapping a finger on his temple.
“Half an hour,” growled Mando.
“Looks like you’re stuck with me now, guys,” Toro said triumphantly, turning to look at you.
Mando pushed past Toro and walked back to the booth, leaning down toward you. “I am not that predictable,” he muttered in a low, irritated voice.
“You really are,” you smiled up at him. “I’ll meet you at the hangar in 20. I want real food.”
He nodded and left.
Toro looked very pleased with himself, grinning at you.
“You better go track down those bikes,” you reminded him, gesturing for a droid to come take your order.
Toro ignored your advice. Instead, he looked you up and down in a way that made your skin crawl and slid back into the booth across from you.
“You know what? I have an even better idea. Me and you can take Fennec ourselves. You look like a girl who can handle herself. Let’s ditch that rusty bucket right now and do this together. Fewer people to split the reward.” His eyes sparkled.
Is he fucking serious?
You already weren’t a huge fan of Toro and his cocky attitude, but the minute he called you “girl” like that, your regard for him plummeted. What little patience you had for this kid was wearing thin.
“Not interested.”
The droid came over, and you placed your order.
Toro, still looking at you expectantly, scooted around the table to sit next to you, and you moved in the opposite direction to maintain the distance between you.
“Mando is old, you know? I don’t know if you can tell, but I can. That’s an old man under that shiny armor. You look like you need someone younger to keep up with you.” He winked conspiratorially, as if the two of you were sharing a mutual joke.
You watched him through narrowed eyes, a sour feeling settling in your stomach.
He was clearly terrible at reading people because he responded to your disgusted look by reaching over to run a heavy hand along the inside of your thigh. He barely made it an inch past your knee when you ripped his hand off your leg, tightening your fingers around his wrist until your nails dug into his skin.
“Touch me again and lose a hand,” you spat at him, releasing him and pushing up from the table. You wrapped your fingers around the hilt of the blade at your hip.
“Whoa, whoa! I was just being friendly, sweetheart,” he said loudly, holding his hands up in mock surrender. He looked around at the other patrons as if seeking outside confirmation that you were the one who was being unreasonable in this situation.
“You should leave.”
“I was obviously kidding about ditching Mando,” said Toro, shaking his head. “You really need to lighten up.” He didn’t even have the decency to look abashed.
You spared him a biting response, fixing him with a glare instead.
“I’ll go find those bikes.” He stood to leave, purposefully brushing past your shoulder as he went.
***
After finishing your meal, you stalked out of the cantina and back to the terminal to find Mando.
He was sitting at the top of the ramp of the Crest fiddling with an open control panel in the wall. He looked up to nod at you when he heard you approach.
“I don’t like that kid, Mando. I don’t trust him. I don’t think we should do this.” You stopped in front of him and put your hands on your hips.
“I know. He’s inexperienced, but he’s harmless.”
“No, that’s what I’m saying—he’s not harmless.”
“What did he say to you?” Mando continued working on the open control panel, only vaguely listening to you.
“He tried to talk me into ditching you and teaming up with him, so we didn’t have to split the reward three ways... He also hit on me.” You added the last part as an afterthought and grimaced at the memory of his gross hand on your thigh.
His head snapped up to look at you. “He—what?”
You looked at him, waiting for him to verbalize a more coherent question. You weren’t sure which part of what you’d shared horrified him the most.
“I—what—uh, yeah, I know... I don’t trust him either,” he continued, “but there are two of us and only one of him. We need the credits—and we’ll get the full reward, like he agreed, whether he likes it or not. We’re not going to find many other jobs here, and I don’t think he’s smart enough to pull anything.”
“I guess,” you shrugged. Toro doesn’t seem capable of critical thinking, let alone concocting and carrying out an elaborate scheme. The bounty was too high and other jobs too scarce to resist.
“We’ll keep a close eye on him. Let’s just finish this job quickly, and then you, me, and the kid can move on.”
“Okay,” you agreed, reluctantly. The way he emphasized the fact that you and him and the kid were a team was an obvious attempt to quell your worries. And it did. Mostly. It was a little startling how well he knew you already.
“Where’s the baby?” you asked, suddenly realizing the door to his bunk was open, and it was empty.
“He left the ship, and Peli found him. She agreed to take care of him while we do this job.”
Again, here he is, trusting a complete stranger.
“I told you he never stays put,” you scowled.
“Don’t worry, Peli already gave me an earful about how much I don’t know about kids.” He sounded defeated, so you decided not to pile on.
“You’re doing a good job, you know. The kid really loves you.”
He seemed surprised by your sincerity, his shoulders pulling back slightly. “I’m not, but thanks.”
It hurt your heart a little to hear him say that. 
***
When you left the terminal fifteen minutes later, Toro was outside, leaning against one of two speeder bikes with a cocky smile on his face.
Peli, who was holding the kid and arguing with Mando about payment, stood in the doorway to see you off. You caught the curious look that Toro gave the baby in Peli’s arms.
“Hey, what do you think? Not too shabby, huh? I could only track down two. You guys will have to share,” Toro said.
You and Mando looked at each other. Mando started to inspect the bike closest to you. Before he could beat you to it, you threw a leg over the speeder bike and sat down at the front of the seat.
“What are you doing?” Mando asked you.
“Driving,” you said, shrugging and reaching into your bag. You pulled on a pair of googles and wrapped a scarf around your nose and mouth. You secured your bag on the back of the bike.
When you noticed that Mando had made no move to join you, you looked at him and tipped your head back toward the seat behind you. “Let’s go.”
You could tell by the resigned drop in his shoulders that he knew it would be more work to try to convince you to scoot back than was worth it. He climbed on the speeder behind you, crowding you forward and reaching his long arms around you to grab the controls.
“Nope. Nice try,” you said, slapping his gloved hands away and grasping the controls yourself.
He sighed and wrapped his arms around your middle. You hoped he didn’t notice the goose bumps that appeared on your neck when he touched you. It was way too warm out under the two blazing suns to explain them away.
You jerked your wrists down and leaned forward to take off across the open sand, not waiting for Toro to mount his speeder.
“What the hell??” he yelled after you.
He caught up after a few moments.
After awhile, you let yourself relax back against Mando’s chest, and you smiled to yourself when he tightened his arms around you. 
The suns slipped lower in the sky as you coasted over the shifting surface of the Dune Sea.
***
You and Toro slowed your bikes to a halt when Mando released your waist to hold up a fist.
“What’s going on?” asked Toro.
“Look. Up ahead,” The rasp of Mando’s modulator in your ear and the concurrent rumble in his chest made you shiver, so you hastily hopped off the bike.
Mando stayed seated while you and Toro each pulled out a set of binocs to scan the landscape. Neither of you had the heightened vision that Mando’s helmet afforded him.
Through your binocs, you spotted two Tusken raiders standing beside two very hairy Banthas a short distance ahead. You lowered your binocs and scanned the immediate area.
“Tusken raiders. I heard the locals talking about this filth,” spat Toro, who was still watching them through his binocs.
You stepped back toward the bike as two Tuskens crested the hill you were on. Mando reached out a hand to grab your wrist, squeezing gently. You looked at him, and he nodded reassuringly.
“Tuskens think they’re the locals,” Mando said coolly, turning back to Toro. “Everyone else is just trespassing.”
“Well, whatever they call themselves, they best keep their distance,” Toro remarked.
“Yeah? Why don’t you tell them yourself?” asked Mando.
You grinned. There’s that flair for the dramatic.
Toro turned, and the two Tuskens screeched at him. You laughed at the way Toro positively jumped. Mando stood, raising a calming hand toward Toro, and told him to relax. You followed him as he approached the Tuskens and started gesturing to them, clearly proficient in their sign-based language.
Mando’s hands moved smoothly though deft, controlled movements. You looked down and bit your lip, trying to focus on twisting the toe of your boot back and forth in the sand to prevent your mind from wandering somewhere less appropriate.
“What are you doing?” Toro asked Mando.
“Negotiating.”
The Tuskens signed back to Mando.
“What’s going on?” asked Toro.
“We need passage across their land.”
“What did you think he meant by “negotiating”?” you said, raising your eyebrows at Toro.
“Let me see your binocs,” said Mando, holding out a hand to Toro.
“Why?”
Mando said nothing but kept his hand out, waiting. The two suns, now low in the sky, reflected brightly off his helmet. Toro handed them over begrudgingly, and Mando tossed them to the Tuskens. The Tuskens looked satisfied with their payment.
“He—hey! What? Those were brand new!” stuttered Toro in surprise.
“Yeah? They were.” Mando stalked away and remounted the speeder bike. You followed him.
And there’s that sense of humor. It’s sassy.
“You couldn’t have taken hers instead?” Toro asked, nodding at you.
“Nope,” said Mando.
You smiled sweetly at Toro as Mando scooted back in the seat and let you climb on in front of him.
***
The next time you stopped more abruptly. Mando raised his fist and barked, “Get down!”
You and Mando sprang off your bike in unison and crouched down. Toro, struggling to keep up with what was happening, fumbled with his goggles before following suit.
The three of you made your way to the edge of the dune in front of you, staying low. You set yourselves up on your stomachs at the top of the rise. Not far below, a dewback trudged forward slowly with what looked like a dead rider trailing after it, a rein wrapped around the figure’s limp ankle.
“Is that her? Is that the target?” asked Toro.
“I don’t know... I’ll go.” He looked at you to say, “You two cover me.”
You nodded.
He looked at Toro to emphasize, “Stay down.”
You and Toro pulled out your blasters. Mando ran hurriedly down the dune, his own blaster drawn. He approached the dewback slowly with a reassuring, “Whoa, whoa.”
Mando flipped over the prone body.
“So, is it her? Is she dead?” yelled Toro.
Mando turned, “It’s another bounty hunter.”
Toro turned to look at you. “He’s not planning to keep all that stuff for himself, right? I at least want that blaster.”
You rolled your eyes at him. “Can you shut up for one second?”
He gave you a disbelieving look. You ignored him and focused your attention back on Mando.
Mando started to rise, turning suddenly to yell, “GET DOWN!” as blaster fire hit his pauldron, knocking him to the ground.
“Mando!” you yelled.
He scrambled back to his feet and broke into a run. He crested the hill as a second shot screamed after him. Again, it hit him in the beskar, sound reverberating off the metal. He threw himself down with a grunt, rolling towards you in a shower of sand.
“Are you okay? You didn’t get hit, right?” You reached out towards him.
“Yeah, it hit me in the beskar. And at that range, the beskar held up.” He sounded winded.
“What happened?” asked Toro, as Mando set himself back up on the crest of the hill, lying between you and Toro.
“Sniper bolt. Only an MK-modified rifle could make that shot.”
“Fennec,” you said. Mando nodded.
“Did you see where the shot came from?” he asked you.
“Yeah, from that ridge.” You pointed.
“Okay, we’re gonna wait until dark.”
“Well, what if she escapes?” asked Toro from where he was resting on his elbows on the other side of Mando.
“She’s got a good position,” you said. “She’s not moving.”
“Exactly,” agreed Mando. “She’ll wait for us to make the first move.”
Mando rolled over and stood only part of the way up, offering a hand down to you. You grasped it and got to your feet. You both hunched low to keep yourselves behind the protective swell of the dune.
“We’re gonna rest. You take the first watch. Stay low,” Mando said to Toro.
You followed Mando back to the bikes.
“Be extra careful. I don’t like you being out here with no beskar,” he said to you, more quietly.
“I will.” 
Your stomach clenched at the way Mando’s voice warmed when he was talking only to you. He spoke to Toro in a clipped tone, like he was scolding an unruly kid. He spoke to you like an equal, a partner. You couldn’t pinpoint when he’d started talking to you this way, but it had shifted recently. It was a tone you’d heard him use with the kid and with Omera. Something that felt a lot like hope sparked in your chest at this realization.
He slumped down against your speeder bike and reached up to pull you down next to him. You leaned back against the bike next to him, your body flush with his, and let your cheek fall against his shoulder.
After a few moments, you could hear a light snore rasping through his modulator. Apparently this man can fall asleep anywhere.
Eventually, you fell into a light sleep, not trusting Toro enough to sleep deeply.
***
You woke to Toro saying, “Time to ride, guys.”
“Come on, wake up!”
You opened your eyes and lifted your head. It was dark out; the last lavender traces of the sunset were disappearing along the horizon. Mando was still beside you, his chest rising and falling rhythmically.
“Look at him, asleep on the job. I told you he was an old man,” leered Toro.
You felt the cadence of Mando’s breathing shift beside you.
“You’re right. He’s ancient—basically dead already,” you quipped, patting Mando on the knee to signal that you knew he was awake.
Toro couldn’t tell if you were mocking him or joking with him, so he just looked at you, slack-jawed, trying to parse it out.
“Not quite,” Mando said, jabbing you in the ribs lightly with his elbow. Toro started at Mando’s words.
You stood, this time extending a hand down to help Mando up. It was more of a symbolic gesture than anything else—he weighed way more with that armor on than you could ever lift. Nonetheless, he took your hand as he hauled himself to his feet.
“We’re going to ride as fast as we can towards those rocks,” explained Mando, pointing to where Fennec was presumably perched.
“That’s your plan?” scoffed Toro. “She’ll snipe us right off the bikes.”
“I’m sorry, I can’t seem remember the amazing plan that you came up with?” you sniped, raising your hands in disbelief.
Mando snickered, a short rasp through the modulator, and in answer to Toro’s question, he tossed a small item his way then handed something to you.
“They’re flash charges. You two will alternate shots. It’ll blind any scope temporarily. Combine that with our speed, and we got a chance.”
You looked down at the charge in your hand, noting the button that would set it off.
“A chance?!” blurted Toro.
You bit back a scathing retort, turning back to your bike.
“Hey, you wanted this. Get ready,” replied Mando, tipping his helmet at Toro.
Mando stepped close to you, lowering his voice. “Let me sit in front this time. In case she manages to make any shots.”
You nodded in agreement, appreciating his protective nature.
You mounted the bike behind him and wrapped your arms around his middle, the charge grasped tightly in your right hand. Mando wrenched his wrists down, and your speeder bike took off, with Toro in your wake.
Mando pushed the bike as fast as it could possibly go, launching it over the swells of sand. You gripped him tighter, and the wind whipped the edges of his cape against your legs.
Apparently Fennec spotted you easily from her vantage point on the cliff because she started her assault immediately, firing at Toro’s speeder first.
Mando reached one hand down for a moment to squeeze your arm, and you understood. Holding his waist tightly with your left arm, you reached your right one up into the air to set off the charge. It went off with a screech. Even through your closed eyelids, you registered the blinding flash of light.
Fennec recovered fairly quickly. She resumed firing only moments after the light dissipated. Mando weaved the bike in a serpentine pattern to avoid the shots.
He turned to Toro and yelled, “NOW!”
Toro let off a charge. Another searing light rippled across the landscape.
After a moment, Fennec fired again, her aim becoming more precise as you drew closer to the cliff. This time, she didn’t miss. A direct shot screamed across the sand and hit the front of your speeder bike. You let go of Mando in the jolt of the impact, and you both flew over the top of the bike and landed in the sand.
Ouch.
Toro zoomed past, looking back for only a second. You didn’t like how easily he left you both behind, but logically, you knew that someone needed to get to Fennec as soon as possible.
You stayed prone on the sand, lifting just your head to see where Mando had fallen a few feet ahead of you. You were relieved when he sprang to his feet and ran back towards you. Without any warning, he lowered himself down over you to protect you from any more incoming fire. He braced himself on his elbows and knees so his body was pressed against yours, but he wasn’t crushing you with the combined weight of his body and armor.
“You okay?” he asked, his voice right behind your ear.
“Yeah.” Your face was pressed against the warm sand. “You?”
“Good. You got the charge?”
You handed it up to him. Luckily, you’d managed to hold onto it during the impact. Mando fumbled for a moment, then lifted an arm to set it off.
After the searing light faded and the dark blanket of night returned, another blaster shot landed in the sand a few feet from your head. Mando edged forward and rested his helmet on the sand above your head. You were completely shielded.
“Thanks,” you muttered up to him, slightly self-conscious that this purely protective position was affecting you so much, a slow heat coiling tight in your stomach. His whole body was flush with yours, his breath heavy and fast in your ear, and you could feel the steady rise and fall of his armored chest against your back. The places where he wasn’t covered by beskar pressed warmly against you. Think about anything else.
A shot pinged off his back. Mando tensed and grunted at the impact. You gritted your teeth and focused on burying your fingers in the sand, definitely not thinking about what other things might draw similar sounds from him.
“Alright, I think Toro got to her. Let’s go, but stay behind me,” Mando rasped in your ear, squeezing your shoulder with a gloved hand.
You nodded beneath him, stifling the shiver that was threatening to run up your spine. Think about anything else.
He rolled off you, and you both got to your feet. You breathed a sigh of relief and positioned yourself at his back, both of you drawing your blasters. In the dark, you could see red streaks of blaster fire on the cliff where Fennec had been perched.
“We gotta run,” you yelled, pushing him forward. “Toro wont be able to take her alone, Mando!”
You stayed close behind him, a hand on his lower back, so he knew you were with him.
When you reached the foot of the cliff, you could hear Toro’s groans and Fennec’s grunts, but you couldn’t see them. You and Mando scrambled up the sandy incline that was littered with boulders and crested the cliff right as Fennec wrestled Toro to the ground.
“Nice distraction,” said Mando, training his blaster on Fennec. She reluctantly released Toro from her hold and put her hands up in defeat. You waited, partially concealed behind Mando until you knew she was restrained.
Toro grunted in pain as he stood up slowly.
“Cuff yourself,” Mando ordered Fennec, tossing the cuffs in front of her.
“A Mandalorian. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen one of your kind.” She stood. “Ever been to Nevarro? I hear things didn’t go so well there, but it looks like you got off easy.”
Fuck, just how much has she heard about what went down on Nevarro?
Fennec smiled even wider when you stepped out from behind Mando. There was no avoiding her now. Sure enough, recognition flickered in her eyes.
Uh oh.
“Well, well, well... if it isn’t my favorite bounty,” she drawled, and before you could react, your name—your real name—fell from her lips. “You lead me all over the damn galaxy, sweetheart.”
***
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