TIL about post-glacial rebound, and how southeast England is tilting into the ocean at a rate of 5cm a century...
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March 1, I wake up post noon on a day that is neither hot nor cold. My underwear is blood stained and my mouth is dry and I think about why you spoke to me the way you did last night. I should order food, I should get to work, I should take a shower, I should do the dishes. I don’t remember if it is a Tuesday or a Thursday but of course if happens to be a Wednesday. Lately it seems like either I am complaining about how busy I am and have time for nothing or crying about irrelevant things when I do have the time but don’t know what to do with it. I used to want to do things. I used to want to learn more, love more. I used to want to feel the changing seasons, I used to want to cook. Now, it’s not like I do not want to do anything. Maybe it’s just that I want to do different things. I want to camp in your house. I want to paint with water colours in a park. I want to get iced coffee to go. I want to read about mythology that isn’t Greek or Hindu. I want to meet people who make me want to continue being me instead of turning into a numb, unfeeling, thoughtless human because others have convinced me that’s the only way to survive in this world. It’s March 1. What are we going to do about this heart that wants to stop?
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Overall I kind of won the menstrual lottery in terms of length and regularity and relative level of discomfort. But like once a year PMS hits me like a semi going downhill on the freeway with dead brakes. It's always kind of a relief when it sinks in that that's what's up, because I've been otherwise really confused about why I've been in absolute pit of intense depression and anxiety and irritability and brain fog all week. Uuuuugh.
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Seeing you be such a big masochist on main... does make me want to bully you a bit.
I gotta be honest, like. while i am a complete sub, and theres a good half of it at least thats tied to sexual feelings.
most of my masochism isnt sexual at all, i just like the pain and adore seeing my body get damaged and hurt and want to experience someone else doing that to me, like. not in a sexual way at all, i just want the intimacy of getting beaten by someone until i cant get up and then have some aftercare or something, i fawn over my bruises and scars and would like someone else to do that while i fawn over them instead or something. (tangent but when im feeling more self-hating id want similar treatment but with no aftercare, ive kinda had that before tho and it genuinely does feel awful which ig is the point but :u tangent over)
Kind of fucked up ig so its not like id ever expect that to become a reality or seek that out, especially not anytime soon. i cannot handle intimate relationships rn and i know that for a fact, i can barely handle friendships where ppl are nice to me, i just feel guilty and like i need to do something to make up for it. what is "it" when i say "make up for it" ? i do not know.
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personal under the cut
Taking a break from writing erotic fanfiction to have a graham cracker like John Harvey Kellogg would have wanted
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It’s been pretty confusing and a lot to wrap my head around, and it’s something I’ve debated with myself for years on and off but I think I’m ready to accept that I may very likely be asexual
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up next perhaps a poll that asks, when you see a poll, do you look at it, like the post, answer and reblog, answer honestly, answer dishonestly, or reblog without answering
good idea! except for the fact that the poll got voted possibly more than three times the times it got reblogged (at one point it had 9k notes and 30k votes, you do the numbers) so we already know most people answer dishonestly or to better word it, cause i dont think its a dishonesth issue, we know that they answer with their best intentions/what they know is the best answer rather than with what they actually do, probably for normal lack of self awareness.
we all think we do better than we do in terms of ethics and it's fine
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today was so great I got: an email from our property manager saying our rent is increasing, a form rejection on a query I waited five months for a reply to AND, after working an 8.5 hour shift, I went to my favourite ice-cream place for a treat and they were out of my favourite flavour !! :’)
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me: yay, im binge watching the owl house!
also me: oh no, im binge watching the owl house….
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I'd like to write an essay titled "Memento YOLO" about my near constant awareness of my own mortality (but of course, that requires me to focus on writing long enough to get out a rough draft & I have a lot of thoughts on this.)
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“Why am I so ungodly yiffy?” I ask myself, knowing full well I’m in the middle of Heat Week.
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categorically opposed to scat fetish on the basis of "i have read way too many papers about the ways in which people get horribly (and sometimes fatally) sick due to improper fecal waste disposal", but also on the basis of personal disgust bc that's just gross and not at all sexy to me.
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yall i've been awake for 25+ hours lets see if i can do some account stuff before i succumb to feral
will edit post if i succeed
edit: I've done the bare minimum!
Hello!
After much deliberation i've come to realize i associate myself with the name meavitamin so much that my attempts to go under a different handle just couldn't click! so here i am editing my accounts under the haze of an unintentional all-nighter (but with much thought beforehand) with a very simple run down.
@meavitamin is now my official art account! finished works only, no ramblings of a mired human in a society, no really rough sketches, etc.! Just! Art! Original and Fanart! and clean tags!
@meavitamin-notes (this one!) is the exact opposite! messy with sketches, rambling thoughts, processes--the only time you'll ever see finished art is when i reblog with notes for myself (and for you if you're interested!) with critiques on how to improve the piece and what i need to work on. I'd like to think it would be a nice view into a mind of an artist that could be helpful if you're a budding artist yourself. you can think of this as a very public art journal :D
Last but not least, if you're interested, feel free to follow me on my insta @/meavitamin !!! who knew i would go back but here i am! it'll be a mix of fanart, sketches, and original art, but probably a little more curated to hide my personality!
that about wraps it up! thanks a lot everybody!
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Ohhhhhh my god I've got that cold my roommates gave me and I got to the sinus congestion stage, bad enough it made my jaw hurt and my brain all swimmy yknow. And I used that trick where you use a massage wand along your sinuses and fuuuck I feel ten pounds lighter and my brain works again! I hate getting sick but that relief of getting mildly better is somethin
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I can't believe I can't find any information on how to do this thing that not many people need to do. smh
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