#this is where the gender identity really gets me..

[fulgurbugs]

share with us some of your silly headcanons :)

hehe i got two asks about headcanons so im gonna make yours an OT1 post and the other one an OT2 post….

Ok for OT1 here’s a random list of

Alfyn is genuinely a very good artist, he’s spent a lot of time practicing (at first just trying to emulate drawings of medicinal plants working on his ability to understand and identity them) but it ended up just becoming a hobby of his, and he’s pretty good at drawing from life, he can just sit somewhere and draw the scene in front of him or a pretty accurate portrait. this contrasts with his completely illegible handwriting. (tressa specifically finds this baffling as a neat handwriting haver and a…. decent-ish artist. she mostly just likes to doodle. she’s like how can you draw that good and write that bad. tressa they’re different brain areas alright. they don’t translate to each other)

ok. nonbinary tressa. is so real to me. i feel like she’s nonbinary in the way where she doesn’t care about the way she’s gendered, like whatever cis passing she just doesn’t give a fuck, but inwardly she’s like. gender i hardly know her. doesn’t give a fuck kind of thing (ME PROJECTING ALERT) but as she gets older she starts to just have a tendency towards more masculine ways of dressing, keeping her hair shorter, etc. light androgyny. it kind of isn’t at the forefront of her mind tho.

Therion has like, a select few party-trickish skills that he basically never pulls out because they’re objectively useless in a fight or his work or whatever. and you know. he hasn’t really had the opportunity (or outward desire) to like. ever pull out the fact he can juggle or “is this your card” some shit. this is part of the two wolves inside therion (the nobody look at me wolf) vs (the show-off wolf) so even he’s like i don’t even know why the hell i bothered to learn to do this kind of crap. (it’s because he’s got a theatrical streak.)

ok and also i was also thinking abt this a while back from the worst poker game post, but here’s a ranking of how good i think everyone is

1. Therion (cheats, but even when he doesn’t he’s really good)

2. Olberic (experienced player)

3. H’aanit (really good poker face)

4. Ophilia (often underestimated opponent, and she knows it and uses this to her advantage.)

5. Primrose (good but not great)

6. Cyrus (understands all the strategies, but cannot execute and often isn’t able to read his opponents as well)

7. Alfyn (he’s better at reading other people, but unfortunately is basically incapable of looking neutral himself)

8. Tressa (though she, like cyrus, understands the game and what she should be doing, she lacks the experience to be deceptive, is easy to cheat against, etc. but give her some time and eventually she’ll figure it out and rise in the ranks. she can be molded into a champion eventually and win all the money. just not yet.

Here a bonus doodle for this one

#octopath #me and my bestie r constantly making like. #random ass category then rank the travelers lists. so much fun i love doing that

[angelltheninth]

Alright GoneWildAuido mods really fucked up. If anyone knows any good sites for erotic audio where mods are complete spineless pieces of shit towards LGBTQIA+ people I'm all ears.

For those not in the loop someone posted an audio where a lesbian gets sa'd until she "learns to like it" and understandably the sapphic community on that sub was upset and felt unsafe. The mods over there then made a post saying that they don't support "kinkshaming" but apparently they support conversion sa.

There is audio that contains the sa category on the sub, there's a lot because it's a very common fantasy however it's always tagged and never made with the intent to actually harm someone and most of them have some kind of aftercare audio to go with it, I've never seen anyone comment how they feel unsafe or threatened by it. But posting an audio where you make a lesbian straight is nothing except blatant homophobia. That's not a kink, being a lesbian isn't a porn category, its an identity and the mods have clearly shown they don't care about the safety and comfort of the people who make content on their sub.

The post was locked quickly cause they were getting roasted in the comments but for some reason when they banned the futa tag and creators were being called transphobic slurs and being sent death threats that post stayed open for a while.

Unless the mod team takes a clear stance against the homophobia and transphobia I won't be using that sub anymore cause rn it just doesn't feel safe. It was supposed to be a sub where anyone of any sexuality or gender can safely enjoy their kinks in audio form. But as someone who is ace and non-binary I cannot recommend that sub right now.

Sorry for the vent, this really disgusted me to see.

#angell vents #tw transphobes #tw sa mention #gone wild audio

[tubadorashifts]

Hello! I’m November and I am a reality shifter!

I first started shifting in early 2020, although i’ve known about it for a lot longer, as I have been listening to subliminals since 2018. I haven’t shifted yet but I can tell i’m really close!!

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

˗ˏˋ ABOUT ME ´ˎ˗

You can call me November, Novi or Nova!

I’m born in 05 and i’m 19 years old

I am AFAB and my pronouns are she/her but I am open to others (I have a lot of drs where I am either male, female or are gender fluid because I’ve been ignoring a gender identity crisis for a couple of years now lol)

I’m bisexual, demisexual and demiromantic!

I’m really bad at remembering to post so I’ll probably be inactive a lot 😓

Also I have had a tumblr for years but I’ve only started posting so i’m still getting used to everything 😭

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

DR MASTERLIST

#shiftblr #reality shifting #shifting #shifting blog #shifting community

[marsprincess889]

Hi! I was wondering who do Saturnian nakshatras usually feel attracted to/end up with? Is there some sort of theory for this? 🤔 thanks ❤

Lol no theory but yes, based on obsevations, multiple examples in real life and art and nakshatra yoni pairings(and their positions on the wheel) saturn people are the best match for sun people.

Each saturn nakshatra is opposite a sun nakshatra and two of them are yoni consorts of sun nakshatras, with Uttara Bhadrapada and Uttara Phalguni being both opposite each other and yoni consorts (cow yonis). Krittika is the yoni match for Pushya (sheep/goat yonis), and Anuradha's yoni consort is Jyeshta(rabbit/deer yonis), while Uttara Ashadha (mongoose yoni) has no yoni consort.

All of the saturn and sun nakshatras, except Anuradha are warrior caste, so Anuradha is a bit different in nature, but tbh that does not make much of a difference.

The usual dynamic between them is often very fun to watch cause both of those planets are tough, stubborn and independent but in completely different ways. I have a post on Uttara Phalguni and Uttara Bhadrapada and how it usually plays out, with examples. Some of it is specific to cow yonis but mostly you can apply them to all and any saturn-sun nakshatra pair. With Anuradha, it's interesting that its yoni match Jyeshta is considered very solar and masculine in nature despite being a Mercury-ruled nakshatra, so it is different in Anuradha's case, but not really.

Sun is the natural self-expression of a person and represents the soul, the rational, the cerebral, the individual and the stable, masculine part. Saturn is the rules and the limitations that have to be accepted and followed perfectly that are necessary for life in the material(physical) world. The Sun is exalted in Ashwini, and debilitated in its opposite(and enemy) nakshatra Swati, where Saturn is exalted. Saturn is debilotated in another nakshatra opposite Swati_ Bharani, which comes right after Ashwini. Also, Suna nd Saturn are natural enemies. If you think of them that way, it might appear that all that tension will translate to enmity, and it does happen sometimes, but in the case of nakshatra rulerships, oftentimes Sun and Saturn people get along exeptionally well and have a unique dynamic that makes them a powerful team. One's strengths are the other's weaknesses, they balance each other out and they have a common ground where they both appreciate and respect each other and their boundaries(mostly after some time 😅). There will, almost certainly, always be tension between them but it usually grts channelled productively, and through love. If the Sun is indepedence, and Saturn is restriction and dependence, one cannot exist without the other. We define our individuality through restrictions and rules and we restrict and define(ourselves and others) based on who we are, so it's really a very iconic dynamic you asked about. 😄

Some tropes that their dynamic reminds me of:

Battle couple

Enemies to lovers

Partners in crime to lovers

Rivals to lovers

Thanks for asking! I love their dynamic. In hetero couples its kinda different(EDIT: I meant, it's different based on which planet type is which gender), but the overall vibe and the dynamic stays the same. They(sun and saturn individuals) really seem like opposite people until they actually interact and then they act like two almost identical bickering children while enjoying it 😭 they are very loyal, forgot to mention, probably the most loyal along with venus people, and very defensive. They might get offended if anyone tries to get involved in their "bickering"(flirting), it's just between them. I can confirm all of the above causse I'm a Sun girl(a venus girl, but with uttara phalguni ascendant) 😁

Anyways, glad you asked. If you have similar questions about other nakshatras it always helps to pay attention to little details about them, like, yoni animals, which planets are friends, neutral or enemies, nakshatra caste, planet exaltations and detriments, nakshatra nature, nakshatra placements at the zodiac wheel... and a lot of this comes from observing real life and art through the years, as well as from personal experience. I think you have to filer any information through your own lens and see for yourself, maybe you'll discover something new that others did not catch. I'm basically encouraging you to observe without pressure and have fun, and to fact check what others say for yourself. 🙂

#vedic astrology #astrology #astrology observations #nakshatras #sidereal astrology #astro notes #astrology tumblr #ask #sun nakshatras #sun #saturn nakshatras #saturn #krittika #anuradha #pushya #uttara phalguni #uttara ashadha #uttara bhadrapada #enemies to lovers

[torahtot]

ok ive had enough of queering judaism. can we start judaizing queerness now. or something

#like. it feels like so much of this queering judaism shtus just layers an american/secular queer identity over judaism #which i guess is fine for certain communities. but it's only going to push you away from orthodoxy #and if as queer jews we already feel like our queerness makes us into secularized outsiders in our own communities #how does this help? is trying to get our communities to embrace an essentially secular american iteration of queer identity supposed to mak #us feel LESS like outsiders? it's not quite doing it for me #we need a queerness that comes from within judaism that is essentially jewish #ive seen a couple of articles recently from ppl talking abt how word/concept of butch doesnt exist in their language & culture #but they use it anyway #& like. i love being butch. it's important to me ill never give it up #& i am american too. but my whole identity as a butch he/him lesbian is exclusively secular american it came from the outsifr #which is definitely due in large part to the fact that my Gender Problems were really tied up w orthodox jewish gender roles #so naturally to get out of that i'd pull on something not jewish. but i wish there was another option? idk if that's possible #or how it would look #maybe that's why im obsessed w the idea of a butch w long curly payos.... 😦 #i forgot where i was going w this but yeah it's frustrating #this is a large part of why im wary of starting a queer Jewish club on campus bc the people who would wanna start it w mr #well no offense but they are insufferable about this #(incidentally they're also insufferable about chanukah. no surprises there) #nachi speaks #jew blogging #others have Actually written abt all this tho

[themthistles]

i think that while micro labels can seem useful and affirming ultimately they're isolating and kind of an obstacle to your understanding of self. that's because you can never find a word specific enough. there will never be a label or two labels or even ten, twenty of them to perfectly capture and describe all of your thoughts, feelings, experiences, preferences, needs, interests, identities, etc. because you learn more and more about yourself every day and then you change and your wants and needs change with you. having to hop between labels, fearing that you don't 'fit' into a label anymore (both in your own and others eyes), worrying how soon your current label will wear out, questioning if you'll ever fully fit a single one. all that causes a lot of uncertainty and anxiety which could be avoided by just picking a more general thing and molding it according to what it means to YOU. because words will always mean different things to different people, you will never be understood immediately and maybe never completely by anyone but yourself and that's fine

#another thing is that micro labels often feel like they fracture the community unnecessarily #idk how many times i've seen fighting over hyperspecific ace labels and what they mean and if people described in them even belong #and honestly i think this discourse wouldn't be so vile and neverending if people accepted the idea of falling under general umbrella #and accepted that you can't describe complicated weird and wonderful act of human existence with a couple of words #you don't need to explain yourself to anyone #i know in our present pronouns/sexuality/gender in bio carrd era it feels like you have to but you really don't #people aren't entitled to a short summary of your inner world and you can't speed run connection #also feel the need to say: i have nothing against people who use micro labels #if you feel like your micro label describes you perfectly? i'm really glad and happy for you #i'm just expressing my own thoughts and feelings that come from personal experience with exploring these things #at some point i started doubting if i could call myself a lesbian #i thought oh i'm not exactly what a lot of people generally think of when they hear that word #oh they'll misunderstand and i'm not being my 'true self' i'll find a word that fits me exactly if i just keep looking #and then i found out being aroace is a thing and boy did that add a lot of anxiety and confusion to the pot #i didn't feel like i fit in with both communities wasn't lesbian enough wasn't aroace enough #but at some point i just got tired of trying to justify myself to others and to myself #identities aren't houses you live in they're more like seas or rivers flowing into one another #and spaces where they intersect are vague and hard to define and they shift and change and this metaphor is getting away from me #basically #words are complicated #but they're the only direct way we humans can communicate #it is what it is #so make art #a lot of it #oh also unrelated but if you ever tell older queer folks that they're using wrong words to describe themselves i am going to jump you

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

reasons i cant make jokes about characters' genders: it will not be a joke for very long

#the cryptid speaks #the cryptid speaks in tongues #case in point: #lucky jumbo <3 #tbh this is about All versions of luke lucky carder inscryption but just like especially his lj variant that I control the canon to #bc yeah . 'what is luke' / 'doomed thanks for asking' Was a joke . was #i thought about it too much Ok and ive come to the conclusion that guy Does Not have time for a solid gender identity there are Horrors #which Then lead to me thinkin about lj luke and going . ok so he's like joe great thanks for telling me this Now luke #cant believe im adding a gender fic to the lj roster (believes it very much and isnt even really that surprised) #anyways . fic where litch rally the entire hc server cottons on to luke not being cis before he does . bc that's my oblivious blorbo #luke mentions smth to mumbo about it being cool how chill the hermits are with joe's pantheon of pronouns #mumbo thinks he's trying to Hint that he's the same bc he's not comfortable with saying it directly #so mumbo tells boatem and boatem tells everyone else and soon luke's getting multi-pronoun'd #he probably doesnt even notice until someone tries to talk to him about it and he's like . wha #canon luke is adab lj!luke is agahc (assigned gender at hermitcraft)

[snekdood]

Some of yall deeply underestimate how much some cis men are threatened by trans men and our masculinity. How theres so many cis dudes out there that want to rape us, thinking that will make us detransition. How many incels out there are mad at us for betraying womanhood and not sucking their dick. How much they want to force us to detransition, how much they want to kill us and force us into hiding which, to me, minus well be killing us since theyre smothering who we are for the sake of a status quo. We shake their fundamental understanding of the world. Its one thing for a GIRL to be a tomboy to them. They think its cute, like a baby pretending to be an adult. Its a whole other thing for someone percieved as a woman to try to actually be a man to them. They think thw fact we have the gal to assume we can escape their grasp, to escape the kitchen or whatever tf, means we're disrespecting them and trying to "destroy" them, rather than what it really is, us trying to be independent. We're the exact thing these types of cis men hate. Sometimes they tolerate (emphasis here bc im not saying they accept yall. Dont twist my words)trans women bc they fetishize them but they want to completely eradicate us becayse we threaten the patriarchy by virtue of deciding we dont need a man to take care of us, we want to be the man that takes care of ourselves.

#and bc ik how some of yall are on this site and how uncharitable you are let me be clear: just because they TOLERATE trans women/fems #sometimes. doesnt mean i think they actually respect you or see you as you. im not abot to say you somehow have it easier. they want to use #you and then dump your body somewhere. im well aware of that. but they *also* want to entirely entrap us and our identities and keep us #smothered with no escape. its why were seeing child marriage laws. its why were seeing anti abortion laws. its why we're seeing rights #stripped away from ppl wrongly percieved as women becayse theyre so threatened by us and how we think we can be on our own #that they have to try more extreme measures ro control us our bodies and self expression. its why candace owens goes on saying #'does women voting actually do any good for anyone??' #and no. entrapment isnt them somehow caring about us mlre than you. thats their alternative to killing us but its not an alternative bc it #fundamentally strips us of our rights and autonomy. and also. entrapping us and forcing us out of our gender. like i said. minus well be #killing us. its not likely we'll just get to run away free from these men if they get this type of power. its more likely they kill us for #even daring to betray them their values and words. #so how tf is anyone more privileged in this situation? in trans spaces? can we really fucking say someone has it worse rn. #is it really worth it to try to divide and weigh who has it worse. bc they want both os us dead for being who we are. #and its not like they dont offer yall an out to. its just their out is ALSO basically killing yourself bc they want you to conform to #cishet white manhood. #also it goes both ways. cis women are like this towards trans women. its the proximity effect. #where you get more upset with different people who are also more like you than other ppl #the difference i'd argue though is cis men- at least the ones in power- have more of an ability to remove us than cis women #like its easier for them to do.

[sequoiareachesforthesky]

Milgram fic idea: the prisoners are bored (as they always are) and they've already celebrated every holiday imaginable. So someone suggests doing a cross-dressing event for a change. Mahiru, Mikoto and Muu help everyone find the perfect fit (Mahiru sews half the clothes herself to make it look perfect).

A bunch of gender crisis ensue.

#milgram #milgram project #milgram fanfic #yuno cuts her hair short “just for the bit” and doesn't grow them back for “some reason” #haruka has a mental breakdown thinking about how his mom wanted a girl and if only he could've been her #fuuta doesn't seem to care that much about presenting feminine. rightfully so. he's rocking this plaid skirt after all #same with muu. she doesn't seem all that changed. after all she knows for a fact she's the most handsome guy at the party #she still feels a bit melancholic for some reason. she wonders if she could go out with girls with this look #shidou has already worn dresses/skirts before. when he was a student he went to themed parties where couples would exchange outfits #he finds it funny. he's quite secure in his masculinity so he's just having a fun time #mahiru takes the role of the prince charming she dreams of. she speaks with a funny voice because she tries to lower her pitch #she's not very successful at it but it just makes her laugh. she's also the one who made sure that everyone felt comfortable in their outfit #kazui is having an existential crisis. he doesn't know what mask to wear anymore. “is this even allowed for me to do that?” #after a while he just has fun with everyone. he doesn't feel the need to drink that much alcohol during the party. he feels young again #amane isn't really interested in all this. she accepted to wear the outfit given to her by mahiru and let her style her hair #but she feels like all of these futile festivities are childish. yet she looks into the mirror every now and then and ponders about all this #Mikoto is in his element for some reason. he likes these kinds of carefree moments #by exploring his gender and presentation he feels like he's getting closer to himself. his identity feels blurry to him sometimes #but this kind of exploration is helping somehow #kotoko doesn't care about all of this. she doesn't really get the appeal of “cross-dressing”. it's just a piece of clothe after all. #the others do find her quite handsome in her tuxedo though #es got woken up by the ruckus. saw what was going on. went back to sleep.

[magentagalaxies]

having a moment about my gender rn and i'm just like ugggggh @ my brain do we have to. like can we just not

#i need to go to bed soon bc i have a 10am class tomorrow but shoutout to the identity crisis i've been having since at least feb 6th #idk if identity crisis is even the right word. bc like one thing about me is that i have a very solid sense of self #like i know who i am and what i want and how i move through the world and what it feels like to be me #but in terms of how i label and explain that to others? that's where the identity crisis comes in #but no one else gets to experience me in first person POV so the descriptors i use and they ways i present myself are reality to them #and tbh? as i think about how some of the descriptors i use for myself don't accurately describe me some people are getting mad??? #which is so fucking bizarre bc like. what the fuck it's my gender why are YOU being offended??? #but it's also making me low key be like ''wait am i a bad person now????'' #even tho i don't believe morality works like that. idk it's just been an exhausting month and a half #if anyone wants to hear more in depth thoughts on all this i would love to vent about it #(but not rn bc i will be going to bed as soon as i get this all out) #but like what i will say now is even tho this past month and a half has been ROUGH (for several reasons especially gender) #and people might expect that me spending so much time with scott in february made it more exhausting #which is understandable we love scott but touring in general is tiring and also i am the most opinionated person i've ever met but so is he #and also like. if you've heard scott talk about gender it's very obvious we disagree on a lot of things and he doesn't shy away from that #but the thing is. i'd actually say spending so much time with scott (even when we talk about gender. even when we *argue* about gender) #was actually such a good thing for me throughout all of this bc even when we disagree on semantics of labels #scott actually sees me beyond that rather than reducing my identity to what i call myself #which is how a lot of well-meaning allys tend to treat me. like i'm just one thing. #so when i'm with scott i never really have to think about my gender #bc he doesn't treat me like i'm (insert whatever gender people treat me like). he just treats me like i'm jessamine #and i'm tired of having to explain myself into smaller pieces so people can pretend to get it #but i feel like there's no way not to do that in our society rn especially at my ''progressive'' liberal arts college

[words-be-upon-ye]

There are a couple tropes I really love in the space of Miraculous Ladybug fan works, but quite possibly my favorite is when the miraculous holders just get creature from using their powers.

Like yeah, I would say that hosting the power of an abstract concept given sentience, that got shoved into the shape of an animal and bound to a piece of jewelry, would kinda mess with your body a bit.

The little bit of this we get in canon is basically that Adrien loves being a cat and the whole Tikki munches incident.

But I love it when people give them ears and wings and tails, give them eyes that aren't quite human anymore. Fuck with their gender and their sense of body. Sometimes it's body horror, sometimes it's just aesthetic. Love it either way.

I just think it's so fun, a lot of the time it's combined with the like "when a holder and the kawami really respect and bond with each other there's nothing that can be done except having magic bleed into the holder" I think that's fun, but also just making the animal of the kwami a bigger deal is fun. Like if you're going to make it a ladybug you might as well give her wings and antenna and mirrored eyes.

#yes I do like ml #there's just so many characters I like to mess with in my head #also sue me I'm trans and have a certain respect for body horror. for the forced change of your physical self especially when you chose it #anyway I alwasys ramble in the tags #I set up this side blog to hide random writing thoughts I had and oh boy do I have a lot and none of them are on here #and recenetly (and by recently I mean like the past year) I've been hit with so many ml thoughts) #they're all gay #and some of them are cohesive #actually a lot of them revolve around chloe and au's where she gets a meaningful improvement arc #give that gay girl intresting stuff #miraculous ladybug #ml #although one of my ideas is also my very fun very gender take of ml where to conceal their identities ladybug and chat start pretending #to be different people under the masks like they don't need to like explicitly say. they just #switch costumes a lot and they like slyly hint at maybe theres dozens of people who pass around the miraculous to make sure that their #Identities are always safe #and to support the act they also start changing the genders they present as as holders. everyone is like “it's clearly multiple people” #and during this process marinette and Adrien are both like slowly having personal gender revelations #and gabe is like tearing his hair out over having to fight this secret group of superheros that he can never find or catch #but he's still just getting his ass kicked by two kids who're doing the world's most successful costumes change bits #it's like those “fake dating” tropes where they're like “oh but we really do love each other” but with gender #“oh I've got a great idea lets pretend to be different genders sometimes” #cut to “hmh ok so I think I'm not pretending anymore” #oh I do always ramble in the tags

[impossible-rat-babies]

caveat here of how none of this really matters and it’s my opinion, but I’m kinda just. :standing-man: about how divorced m!viera are from masculinity in fandom spaces. like how they’re always referred to as “cute” and “adorable” and even the term bunboy kinda just makes me feel ick. there’s always this stereotypical box of feminine/gay man that they get shoved into—cutesy and demure and pretty. like express gender and such in your own way and find freedom in that—I’m not gonna be upset about that. it’s the overall opinion that these characters—and by extension their players—are only part of this stereotype

#it bothers me playing eyrie who is queer—they are non-binary #but they are still very much connected to being masculine #best way to say it is that They are a Man #using they in a very gender neutral way but calling them a man in a very defining their gender way #it bothers me too as a queer person where my own identity relates a lot in part to eyrie #i get part of it is how they are designed and some of the faces #what I’m getting at is that the stereotype drives me bonkers as a player of this character #it’s the root of the frustrations that fem roe or fem viera players deal with #of their character being shoved into a stereotype #this instance of it w male viera just bothers me a lot as a queer person #this is gonna sound really rude here for a sec #but I can only see so many viera in little dresses with the poses with the ass and chest out #talking about how much they bottom for their much larger and taller SO #before I’m just closing the tab #owen plays ffxiv #like if you’re into that then please by all means continue rocking all of that #im just Some Guy on the Internet in my own lil space here

[moe-broey]

Something something about how Moe is both and neither due to its failure to perform or achieve "either" set of gendered expectations, regardless of its own personal feelings of gender identity (which is complex in and of itself), which results in it ultimately fitting in nowhere.

#moe tag #like moe's identity is exclusively masculine but its 'doing it wrong' on purpose. fag style. #and in this performance it still doesn't quite fit with the men. it's ultimately something else. #and ofc there is the failure to adhere to cis feminity/expectations. it's doing it wrong bc it was never capable of doing that correctly #even if it 'seemed' like it was. it wasn't. #i think this is why moe has become such a fascinating way for me to express and explore my own gender identity #where there are significant differences. moe is literally just more well-written LMFAOOOO #like what do you mean you're a feminine trans man. that you're exclusively a man when you look Like That. #moe just cuts to the chase by being genderqueer and therefore 'other' by default. #and the way that it is does very much feel like the way i experience my gender despite my own view of myself #even though i'm a man. i'll never be 'a man' in the same way the average joe is. hell i bet there are other transmen #who 'achieve' manhood in a way i cannot. which isn't really a judgement or an insecurity for me like more power to them #it's just me expressing objectively that no matter how easy it is for me to view myself the way i do #i'm always going to be subjected to the perception of others. some will get it. some won't. #and that's sort of what i mean about being 'othered' despite my own view of myself/ #despite moe's own view of itself. again it's just so much more easy and concise to explain w moe bc its identity #exists outside of the binary. while a huge core of mine is that it DOES exist in the binary. i'm just a faggot about it LMFAO

[mantisgodsdomain]

Apparently there's a fic reading challenge thing this year, but after doing a quick skim of the goals... we don't think we'll be touching it with a ten-foot stick. Some of these goals put a VERY bad taste in our mouth. The idea of a "diversity checklist" isn't supposed to be... literal, we don't think? No? We're remembering that one quote about "listening to people of color being like eating your vegetables for white activists" and we're feeling like it may actually have been understating whatever the hell is going on here.

#we speak #also really funny to be seeing shit like “read fic from a fandom with under 250 works”. buddy we're WRITING for one of those #but also like. “read a fic where the main character is BIPOC”. “read a fic where the main character is neurodivergent" #“read a fic that passes the bechdel test”. #like we get the INTENT we guess but we're not in the target audience AT ALL #and a whole fuckin lot of the goals here are very romance focused up against us a guy who deliberately filters out ships #we're also really concerned that “passes the bechdel test” is a bar for fic but also we know The Scene here #and “passing the mako mori test”. is indeed a difficult one to find in a lot of fandoms #as someone who tends to like female characters we notice this. A Fucking Lot #we are so insanely picky with fic bc even with ao3's tagging system we need to slog through dozens of fics to find one good one #and a lot of the time we. REALLY don't have the patience for fic that doesn't have decent depictions for the gals #you have no clue how much zel da fic especially we drop for being Really Fucking Weird About Gender (in a bad way) #sometimes we forget that people exist in bigger fandoms that actually have fic reading habits like this #we feel like we're in another dimension. what do you mean you guys live like this #also what. does “deals heavily (and healthily) with a mental illness” mean. you guys arent just reading this to eat ur vegetables right? #...right??? #anyways reading through things like “read fics with all the major LGBTQIA2 identities” is giving us hives #if you read our fic then we beg of you read it because it sounds like it has a nice plot not just like. because Some Guy is ace or intersex #please. gender identity should NOT be that much of a priority. read through and flag on the weird gender shit and go “oh thats queer!” #or “oh thats like me” or “oh (whatever)” but please. there are so many things here more relevant than shit like sexuality. #we need to go read through our fics and make sure we dont have any overly modern lingo in there #if you want to know about a characters sexuality or gender identity figure it out yourself from. fuck we dont know. psychic beams. #though we rationally know the reason that things in modern queer spaces are so often Like This its still poison to our brain #and we want nothing to do with it #negative chatter

[goatsandgangsters]

I've reached the Going Insane portion of visiting home

#which I feel guilty about #but my mom like #Needs To Spend Time With Me Constantly and I don't get alone time to decompress #and then I start getting snippy #and then I feel bad about getting snippy #I also have to wake up early the whole time I'm on vacation bc my mom thinks getting up at 9 am is sleeping in ridiculously late #layer also The Inherent Gender Dysphoria of being around your parents #who at least finally remember your pronouns but it's still something they have to 'remember' bc they can't internalize your actual identity #it'll pass but I always hit this wall a couple days into the visit where the lack of autonomy WHEN I AM 29 really chafes

[perksofbeingasunflowerblog]

Why do people and especially the op that got ghat anon, care if Louis really said that? The op hates Louis. 🙃 also, it’s not like all these people reblogging the post really care because they all dislike louis already.

ok? what do i do about it? why do you care anyways

#you really don't get it do u? #for people like me who barely got any exposure to queerness in media #what a huge fucking thing this was? #as weird as it sounds it took yeaaarssss of unlearning and self loathing to get to a point #where i have not only accepted but also embraced my sexuality #and not to make a big deal but harry and louis and larries were the reason why #the only place in my entire fucking life where people were cool with whatever someone's sexuality gender identity whatever was #and none of this would've been possible without them being harry and louis #so yeah i have no issue with people who hate that he maaaayyybe said it's weird