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nexi1066 · 8 months

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OK so I had an awful day. My ex best friend was at my school and just her presence is killing me.

Our friendship started good. We talked well and stuff. She used hearts and told be she loved me and stuff. However she started to change. Soon she stopped all this and she started breaking all her promises and going back on what she said. For example she said she would give me hugs and then she changed it to never and then to once she knew me and then to never again. She played with my heart and she lied a lot. For example she said she never hugs people (this was the second time she said she would never hug me) but hugged 5 different people of the 2 days. She gas lit me like she claimed I was always angry whenever I just was explaining how I feel. She would always tell me to calm down even if I just was saying something made me have a bad day. She knew I was having an awful time with things such as suicide but she went behind my back. I started to realise too late she was awful. I got rid of all my friends but her so now after 4 months I have only 1 friend irl and 3 online. My life was so badly effected because of her. She ruined everything. She use to believe everyone over me and favour everyone over me. She would always leave me out conversations and have a go at me for literally nothing and she ignored me when she was with her other friends. She was sometimes homophobic and transphobic and she is still bffs with a girl who said horrible transphobic stuff to me. I told my ex friend and she did nothing. I hate myself so much because of her.

#Depression #this is depressing #depressing shit #This is why I hate myself #self h@rm #Friends

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fluffykitteninabox · 5 months

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*puts down important thing*

*immediately forgets where I put down important thing*

WHERE THE FUCK IS [THING]??!

#this is why I hate myself

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charliethinks · 9 months

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i should’ve just shut the fuck up for one in my fucking life

#this is why people hate me #this is why I hate MYSELF #i’m an idiot

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justchillaine · 6 months

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I'm ending this right here right now. No more procrastination, no more side logs. This is goodbye.

#justchillaine ramblings #ughh why me #this is why i hate myself #this is why i hate people

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notevenanna · 2 years

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when you sing ella fitzgerald really loudly bc ur home alone and didn’t realise the window was open so the whole street probably heard you… can’t relate…

#i want to die.#this is why i hate myself #MY NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOURS GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL #im never gonna be loved #maybe this is a spiral #goodbye #a rants🪴

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mabelsguidetolife · 2 years

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i tried to open up and tell my mom how bad i’ve felt for the past few weeks and she started talking about her broken car instead of trying to help until i got up to get away from her, at which point she grabbed me really hard and started shouting…… i ran to my room before she could hurt me but then as i was crying and she was taunting me i fell right on my face and i’m scared my nose is broken because it hurts and there’s so much blood

#i’m really scared #my day rly went from bad to worse #i can taste blood in my throat #and if i tell my dad what happened he’ll get angry at my mom and then everything will be even worse #this is why i’ll never be able to open up to anyone #this is why i hate myself #it’s just so unfair…… even when she got me an ice pack she was lecturing me about expressing myself incorrectly #when she was yelling at me from the other side of my door and i was just screaming to drown her out but she wouldn’t stop #i’m really jumpy right now every noise is scaring me #haleylyfe

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pics-and-fanfics · 1 year

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I lost the card my favorite teacher gave to me and now I’m really mad about it.

We had an assignment in class today, writing down who our favorite teacher was and why, and I knew who I’d put immediately. So I’m writing, thinking.

I get home about 4, and I think, “Oh, maybe I’ll look for the card she gave me!” So I go to my room, and start looking.

For context on this, she was my 2nd grade teacher, the nicest one to me, and I absolutely loved her. She gave me a card at the end of the year, saying how she was so proud of me, loved having me, all that. None of my teachers ever did that, which makes my freak out worse.

I’m looking around, trying to think of where I put the card. I start crying, realizing A) I can’t remember where I put it last time I saw it, and B) last time I saw it was before I moved.

Naturally, I start freaking out, cause she was my favorite, and she said I was her favorite too. I look where I saw it last, not there. I look in all the boxes in my room. Not in any of them.

I even look in my memory box, which has even more stuff that made me cry, but no card.

Fast forward 5:30. My mom gets home. I tell her I can’t find the card, and she says it’s my fault bc my room is always a mess. As she says that, I’m thinking, “how does this have anything to do with that? I JUST SAID I DONT KNOW WHERE I PUT IT!”

And she keeps blaming me, saying it’s all my fault bc I just can’t keep my room clean, blah blah blah, I hate her.

So now I’m crying again, and really mad cause now my room is even messier.

Don’t mind me, tagging people bc I want them to know that’s why chapter 9 will be slightly more delayed.

@vbecker10 @silverfire475 @huntress-artemiss @vickie5446 @sheris532 @lokixryss

#help #i’m crying #sad #mad #i’m so fucking upset #please send help #this is why I hate myself

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marsdontbesade · 6 months

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special sos moment here but, does anyone know how to embed a compact spotify link? everytime i add an embed spotify code on desktop (even copy-pasting on mobile), it doesn't show the thing but instead shows a 'SPOTIFY EMBED' thing that leads to a separate page. and when i copy-paste the actual link, it's massive, even when added on mobile. i've been literally on the verge of tears for 4 hours trying to embed a bloody link for god knows what, but idk man, idk- if any of y'all know, lemme know bc im about to kms.

thanks.

#god im so fucking stupid....#stupid stupid brain #uggh why is not fucking working-#spotify embed #spotify #small brain moment #this is why i hate myself #almost cried bc my dumb neanderthal brain cannot do shit right for once..#god can someone just please help a dork out???#please????

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peachesofteal · 5 months

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Light On

Simon Riley masterlist

Anthology complete - 2/2/24

Simon has a new neighbor. His new neighbor has a baby.

Simon Riley/female reader Single mom, neighbors fic. Fics are listed in chronological order

Simon discovers something unexpected Simon realizes where you live Simon gives you a hand Simon comes over for dinner Simon eavesdrops Simon spends time in the garden Johnny learns his LT's secret Simon helps you out last minute Simon gets a phone call Simon accompanies you to the park Simon steps in Simon answers the phone in the middle of the night Simon learns something about you You miss your neighbor Simon's choice has consequences Simon tries to make amends Simon has you over for dinner 🎄Simon helps you and Emmaline pick out a tree Simon shares his space Simon shares his bed Simon takes you on a proper date Simon thinks he could die here You tell Simon about your grief 🎄Simon takes his family to a holiday party 🎄Simon has himself a merry little christmas Simon discovers one of your fears Simon comes home from work Simon takes his girls to the aquarium

#masterlist #light on #simon riley #simon riley x reader #please I hate myself #why do I do this #light on by Maggie rogers

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lightbulb-warning · 8 months

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saimatsu week day 3 not on day 3: reunion

they do be sobbing

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ilovethebittertaste · 2 months

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cowardlycowboys · 6 months

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I could never do no nut november because unfortunately I love fucking myself too much

#omg kiera no one cares #tmi #also i already have like a WEEK where i can't and i hate it like why would i do a month be serious where is the fun in that #did it today and it was great why deny myself lifes few great treats

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iamyourdensityy · 2 years

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Why the fuck do I always find new rabbit holes to go down at ungodly hours of the night

#its 3:45 am #and im currently going down a mike and holly wheeler rabbit hole #goddammit #this is why i hate myself #stranger things #me and my fucked up sleep schedule

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justchillaine · 10 months

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Goin back to my (fictional) bois after a week of heartache be like

#im sorry my loves #ill never leave you again #this is why i hate myself #and yes not men #myself #never again?#idk #justchillaine ramblings #damn feelings #if only #if you somehow see this #yes YOU #im talking to YOU #just know that im sorry #i shouldn't have accepted you #i should've lied #i shouldn't have feelings for you in the first place

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crabsnpersimmons · 2 months

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"Hair dyes or perms or just a quick snip, you can always count on your ol' pal Clip!"

it's about time i officially shared my design for Clip from my hairdresser au! here's the silly boi himself!

a.k.a. the most complicated character i've ever designed...

close ups and additional comments under the cut!

that's my boi, despite his crazy design, i love him. his silly top knot hat, the horn-like points around his faceplate, his speckled colours, his four arms, and his funky pants. he's just soooooo fun.

Clip likes to play games and knit! he even made the patchwork pants he wears (he made Sun and Moon a pair too, but they're too precious for them to wear... also a little gaudy to wear in public—doesn't stop Clip tho!). He actually makes everything the boys wear, since there's not a lot of things in their size/shape.

instead of resting at night, he can be found in their living room, playing Kirby 64 for the nth time and/or knitting something. he's just too restless to stay still, he's always gotta be doing something and if it isn't gaming, knitting, or hairdressing, then he's up to No GoodTM.

Clip... likes popping balloons. he says "Goodnight!" with each popped balloon and once he's done, he tosses up the scraps like confetti all while giggling joyfully.

needless to say, he is not fun at parties. Sun and Moon don't let him near balloons for this reason.

and yes, he has sewing needles on hand at all times. for fashion emergencies... and for unsuspecting balloons.

Clip's not allowed to have a phone (just imagine all the in-app purchases Sun and Moon would have to deal with), but he likes to keep up with his customers and their games, even if he doesn't get their fixation over bluenets he'll never openly admit it but he prefers curly-haired blond hunks that look sweet in soft pastels but could also squash him like the spider he is

also, he's great at microbraiding! though i imagine if Sun and Moon are free, they'd come help to shorten the wait but also to compete and see who braids the most (Clip always wins of course—make anything into a game, and he's winning)

aaaaand there's this! i wanted to make sure Clip would be able to freely rotate his waist so his arms could have their full range of motion, and this was the solution i came up with: a crop top on top and a wrap around his waist. and Clip here is being a sneaky little scamp about it.

#fnaf eclipse #fnaf dca #dca fandom #fnaf oc #Clip New Do Same You AU #New Do Same You AU #“but crabs YOU designed him you could have made him easier for you to draw”#but everything is just SO FUN and/or lore-relevant!#like the points around his faceplate give me oni vibes i love it #i hate drawing so many hands but man he's just so silly and he needs every last one #and HIS PANTS #LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME THE DCA WOULDN'T WEAR PATCHWORK PANTS IF THEY COULD #legit the pants were a major breakthrough in his design #he's just a silly guy #honestly i have been on a bit of an artblock lately #and maybe drawing Clip wasn't the best way to ease myself out of it #but it worked i think?#i dunno just been overthinking things a lot lately #that's kinda why i've been quiet again on tumblr #i just need to let loose and just let myself have fun yknow?#like this sketch page has a lot of mistakes in it #but i tried not to dwell on those and kept moving forward #it doesn't need to be perfect it just needs to be #bright colours #cw bright colours #crab art #traditional art

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watermelonsloth · 2 months

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I think the reason why Naruto fans get so passionate and upset about the series is because of how real it can be. Naruto isn’t about paragon heroes outdoing dastardly villains. It’s about human beings fighting tooth and nail to survive in a world surrounded by death. It’s about broken systems made and perpetuated by broken people.

The Hyuga clan isn’t just antagonistic or pretentious, they practice slavery.

The Uchiha clan weren’t just killed by some raging psychopath, they were systematically massacred.

Itachi isn’t just cruel to Sasuke because he’s a bad brother, he’s cruel because he’d been told time and time again that you can only survive by being cruel and he wants nothing more than for Sasuke to survive.

Nagato isn’t trying to take over the world just for the sake of power, he’s trying to take over the world because it beat him down to the point of believing that the only chance at peace there is is the world being forced into compliance through fear.

Iruka isn’t hard on Naruto just because he’s a strict teacher, he’s hard on Naruto because he knows from experience how unforgiving the world is towards orphans.

Kakashi isn’t just some silly and slightly lazy teacher, he’s a contract killer still grieving his loved ones and struggling to do better without knowing how he’s supposed to.

Sakura isn’t just a fangirl, she’s a normal girl in a very dangerous and abnormal world constantly being made to choose between what she’s supposed to do and what she feels.

Sasuke isn’t just some edgelord, he’s a survivor who lost everything then gets repeatedly told that he has to choose between keeping what he’s gained and doing better than his brother.

Naruto isn’t just trying to be the best Hokage there ever was, he’s trying to prove his worth to a society that abandoned him just for existing and, in a way, confirm his worth to himself.

The Naruto story is about humans trying to force themselves into the role of weapons because that’s what they were told they had to be. It’s a story where everyone is a perpetrator but no one is trying to do wrong. It’s a story where everyone is a victim but no one is a perfect victim.

The world and the characters aren’t simple and trying to simplify them only takes away from them. So of course we get passionate about showing off all the reasons why they shouldn’t be simplified and all of the ways they’re complicated. Of course we get upset when we see others simplifying them or selling certain aspects of their characters short. Of course we get upset when the series itself simplifies them. Of course we get upset when the series chooses to abandon them. Because it not only feels like the characters are giving up, it feels like the series is betraying anyone who chose to get invested in its complexities.

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