#this is your only life

[icy-moons]

turning red is such a thinly veiled metaphor for the immigrant/diaspora experience of losing touch with your heritage. it’s all those stories of immigrant parents not teaching their children their native language in the hopes that they will assimilate easier into society. it hit me in such a particular way when the aunties all started singing in cantonese, and mei asked what they were saying.

the red panda means a lot of things in turning red, and i think one interpretation is the family’s relationship with their cultural roots. it’s spelled out in the movie already: when their family moved to a ‘new world', and the blessing became a curse. as much as the red panda is a metaphor for self-expression in general, a message that’s easier to empathize with too, cultural identity still plays into it. the fact that they had to cut themselves off from it is so telling.

and! they literally tokenized themselves. ming and her family literally packaged and contained this huge part of their identity into something small and palatable for the society they want to exist in, a shallow connection to their culture that they can wear as an accessory. it’s exotic enough to be interesting but ultimately not impactful or disruptive to their current setting. i cannot stress enough how obsessed i am with this detail. they made little tokens to contain their pandas. they actually tokenized themselves.

#turning red analysis #turning red #meta #meilin lee #ming lee #there's a lot of different ways to read between the lines on this one #this metaphor doesn't even translate 1:1 with events in the movie #it's about perpetuating the myth of the model minority #and separating yourself from your culture to facilitate that #this is why mei's chinese-canadian identity is inseparable from the movie #it's not *just* about female self-expression and puberty #the depiction of chinese immigrant family dynamics is not just set dressing #it's about the suppression of self -- all parts of it #i should mention probably that i'm an asian who has lived in my home country for all my life. this doesn't really involve me #tho there was a time in my life i was only allowed to speak englishat home because 'it will make life easier in the future' #so. the claws of western society still managed to claim me #but that's still a different experience #i have cousins in north america and i see this struggle in them whenever they come here or i go to visit them #theres this separation between us because i have always been immersed and had access to our culture #meanwhile they were never even taught the language #i recognized it immediately in turning red #their cultural heritage was something seen but not felt and this holds true for many generations of immigrant children #because they were forced to adapt to western society.... losing touch with their roots #and now the newer generations want to walk back from that and reclaim the identity they were raised away from #and that's what i think Turning Red is about #maziemade

[shadeswift99]

A few months ago I realized something I couldn't un-realize about Minecraft and that is that villagers being killed by mobs is a direct result of the player's existence. Hostile mobs only spawn within a certain radius of the player. Villages are so unprotected because they straight up don't ever have to deal with monsters before I get there. They live, they work, undiscovered, and then I bring them apocalypse by walking slightly too close at night.

Knowing that, the least I can do is help villages I find to survive it, so I build them a wall and new homes and traps for the creatures of the night - but all that time, they're creatures I created. To the villagers it must seem like the world started ending, hoards of the undead pouring out of the earth, and then this hero emerged to save them from it all, but the danger and the rescue are one and the same and they will never really understand that, and THAT makes me go completely feral. The player is a thing of infinite life which death follows like a shock wave in the fabric of the Universe. We are a self fulfilling prophesy. How is this a thing we've all just gotten used to in the funky cube game

#Minecraft #shade rambles #there's some stuff that's like. intellectually i know that mob spawning can only happen within a certain radius for computing reasons #to cut down on processing power and all that #same reason why mob AI freezes outside a certain zone #but on another level it means that the player is a sphere of safety within a wider sphere of destruction that sweeps across the landscape #the world compensating for their power with a vacuum of monstrosity to preserve the natural balance #and the idea that one day you could just be vibing in your village working leather or whatever #and suddenly zombies spring from the earth and walking bones start taking down your friends and loved ones #and you run for cover while your sole protector is overwhelmed and cracked by the horde #and then this guy who never says a word materializes out of the night with a sword and starts dispatching monsters #and the creatures won't even spawn within 16 meters of him?? is the menace that afraid? #are you? #and you'll never know #you'll just never know that one of these things couldn't have happened without the other #it'll be the worst and best day of your life and you'll NEVER KNOW - #that's it you guys have humoured my thoughts about villagers for too long now you have to deal with me #(oh also i imagine they have the golems to deal with pillagers since pillager spawns aren't always player dependent) #(being tied to structures and all that) #but uh. yeah. #every time i see a village i either stay for long enough to make sure everyone is safe or leave immediately #before the curse can take hold

[seveneyesoup]

look i’m gonna be as nice about this as i can but i genuinely earnestly think the reason we have a whole generation of queer teens happily begging for table scraps from the walt disney corporation is because no one listens to welcome to night vale anymore. wtnv was a generations introduction to explicit positive queer rep, and for some people, myself included, queer rep at all. and it sets the bar at a reasonable place. from the first episode, our narrator, a man, is outright stated to be in love with another man. this is taken seriously, and treated as healthy and normal, rather than secret or shameful. once you have that, you can’t go back to crumbs. and you certainly can’t go back to pretending crumbs are a four course meal.

#also the discourse machine branding popular queer made queer content as Problematic contributes as well #convince a bunch of kids they can only get media from mainsteam sources; tell them the explicitly queer stuff is bad; and youve effectively #blindfolded a population #and like it brings to mind the old ‘ooo dean winchester referenced a gay bar 👀’ people #but at least then there was less to choose from and it was harder to find #literally welcome to night vale changed the face of narrative podcasts #i just think if we taught these people to expect more and introduced them to the idea of independent storytellers telling queer stories #vs getting it all from corps n conglomerates #that they might end up with a healthier relationship to media and be willing to demand more from these corps or else forgo them entirely #you don’t need disney to tell your story when you know you can tell your own story; you know? #you wanna feel seen and so do your peers. go out and see each other then instead of begging for attention from netflix or the mouse #anyway also wtnv being my first experience w queer characters isn’t exactly true bc jack harkness #but that’s played somewhat for jokes yk and it’s not. you know that bit of writing about how all the definitions of homosexuality and they #never mentioned love? yeah. that #maybe it’s different in torchwood i never watched it but he has a bf there i think #but yeah #disney hate blog #whole rant bc it takes a week off my life when people say a disney movie is ‘for the gays.’ they’d sell you to satan for one corn chip

[warmgreytail]

#💜 #self love #grace growth gratitude #direction of integration #i am patient with myself and with life itself #no longer at war with the world #cognitive restructuring #things don’t need to be hard #a reminder to enjoy your life #a life well lived #live your best life #you only have one life to live #how to live a good life #mine #abandon shame #on boundaries

[chocomars]

“We found him in cold storage. He’s a medic, but the way he fights…You’ve never seen anything like this. No one has. Not in this generation, I guess. And he’s so angry. And so sad. He used to have millions of brothers. Now, he’s the last. But he still hears them. They whisper to him. He’s still fighting his war. I don’t think he can ever stop.”

— Star Wars Adventures (2020), #Issue 7

#crying screaming throwing up #50 YEARS STUCK IN CRYO……. #you’re kix and you find out you’ve been in cryo stasis for fifty years #the last thing you remember was the pirates and the shooting and how you were fighting for your life because you know the truth #the chancellor is the sith lord #you were about to go back #you were about to tell jesse and rex and the general about this revelation #but the biting cold sat in your bones and the people who found you said it’s been five decades #you throw up #you’re shivering #fifty years #fifty fucking years and you know how you weren’t supposed to live this long in the first place #they’re dead you think faintly #all of them dead dead dead and you’re the only one left #the only clone who survived #the heavy weight of your brother’ dreams and hopes and love and vod vod vod wraps its collective fist around your heart #the crown molded by their bloody debts now sits on your bowed head #ALOR boomed the ghosts of your brothers #ALOR and there’s jesse and rex and hardcase and fives and echo and all of them #and all of them cry for you #you’re alor of your people #when you scream their ghostly forms waver with your piercing agony #clone trooper kix #clone medic kix #the clone wars #star wars #star wars the clone wars #swtcw #my art #marsdraws

[dittolicous]

sinnoh historians hate him: local unovan subway boss only person to successfully raise the once extinct sneasel variant to adulthood despite decades of failure by historian breeders. when approached for comments, said boss had this to say "their mom taught me how"

more at 11

#ingo #pokemon #ditto rambles #submas #can you image how MAD you would be #if you spent decades of your life trying to bring back and reintroduce an extinct pokemon varient with no success #only for this random train guy from another region to suddenly have a brood of them #and no problem with breeding or ensuring their survival #and then he uses them to battle on a train #beating up small children #catching trains fic

[mrs-gauche]

“I suppose I am just tired of fighting.”

#dragon age #solas #dai gifs #my gifs #sometimes I struggle to decide what footage to use because I managed to capture so many amazing shots <33 #imagine being some 8000 years old and having spent your entire life fighting for your people... #..only to end up losing them all because of your actions #look solas is o l d #and most of his life has been one battle after another #and now he will do it all over again #he's tired #I love this one line in the last chapter of tevinter nights before you get to the reveal #''The man in the dragon mask. He sounded tired.'' #that's actually the point where you just know it's him #then you have his tone of voice in trespasser #even the way he visibly sighs in the latest teaser trailer #it's made very clear

[xiaq]

y’all better be respecting trans folks or your pronouns are going to be was/were

#friendly reminder that if you're transphobic on any of my posts you will be blocked and cursed #may you step on a lego every day of your life #may your socks be inexplicably damp #may your refrigerator door not quite close before you leave the house in the morning and you return to spoiled everything #may you hit every red light on your commute #may your jacket zipper only work on alternate thursdays #trans rights are human rights #lgbtq

[hedgehog-moss]

is the new baby llama gonna get a name starting with P too? (also why the Ps? is it for pasture/pré?)

I've received several messages like "why all the P names" and I'm afraid the answer is because I'm French... I remember replying to someone two years ago with a simple “It was a P year when I got my animals!” and that person was still confused, and I realised that the “mandatory letter of the year” concept is apparently a French thing...? We are a bureaucratic country that really likes making random things mandatory.

I got most of my animals in 2019 and purebred animals born that year had to have a name that starts with P (I think it applies to dogs, cats, horses, donkeys, cows, and sheep, though the practice started to be abandoned for the latter two as farms got larger and used numbers instead.) It doesn't apply to llamas (though I didn't know it at the time) and not all my animals were born in 2019, but it's just convenient to use the letter of the year when you get an animal since lots of lists of name ideas starting with that letter will be circulating. There’s one at my vet’s office, and like agricultural news outlets or just about every website that has to do with animals will offer a list. It makes it easy to keep track of animals' age (you meet a cow named Octavie in 2022 and you know she's four years-old) and I think in the pre-computer era it just made things tidier for the keeping of national pedigree registers / herdbooks.

#ask #the practice is only enforced as far as identity papers—you won't be able to register your animal and have papers that attest #that they're purebred (and that their progeny will be) unless you give them a letter of the year name #but obviously you can then call them a different name in everyday life if you want #my cats aren't even a little bit purebred so they don't have P names. chickens aren't beholden to any human naming mandates #and this year's letter is T but it wasn't very inspired by the T names so i decided all my pasture dwellers would be Ps #as by now i have discovered that llamas aren't regulated by french law. with regards to names at any rate #let's say P stands for pasture / pré :) and of course pandolf is a honourary pasture dweller

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

we’ve all heard of polio, a disabling and life-threatening disease caused by poliovirus, that ran rampant through the world before it was eradicated (in the west) with the introduction of a vaccine in the 1950s. enough time has passed that most of us, and most of our parents, have grown up without knowing people who survived polio.

what I bet you didn't know about is something called Post-Polio Syndrome. it occurs in more than half of people who survive poliovirus, and it occurs decades later. year after people have lived through polio, years after they have “recovered,” they begin to struggle. they begin to decline. they experience pain and weakness and loss of function. they develop new disabilities, and see old disabilities worsen. and there is no cure, only management. 

That’s what happens post poliovirus. It happens bc poliovirus causes lifelong damage, the extent of which is only revealed decades later. We are among the first generations to grow up not knowing people who live with the longterm consequences of poliovirus.

We will be among the first to find out what Post-Corona Syndrome looks like.

#not a shitpost #serious post #coronavirus tw #covid tw #ask to tag #very serious post #i want to be VERY clear: #over the next few decades we are going to see a HUGE rise in disabilities #for the next 40-80 years a huge portion of our population will be living with the longterm effects of coronavirus #right now we are only beginning to discover the potential longterm effects #(which include pain & weakness & fatigue & difficulty thinking & HEARTH DAMAGE) #there is no telling how long these things will last. but it is not unlikely they will reoccur and worse decades down the line #and there will be plenty more that we don't know about yet. simply bc this virus is NEW #so we will be the first people to experience its aftermath #all this to say: we will need some INCREDIBLY MAJOR CHANGES to our healthcare & social & disability support systems #and also if you haven't gotten covid yet--please please PLEASE do EVERYTHING you realistically can to lower your risks #yes unless you have pre-existing health issues you will *probably* survive #BUT SURVIVAL DOES NOT MEAN RECOVERY #i repeat: SURVIVAL DOES NOT MEAN A FULL RECOVERY #You could easily have health issues for the rest of your life because of covid #that's something you *can* live with but it will cost you time and money and pain. i recommend avoid it if you can

[sectumsirius]

“the only one who ever set me free was you” my brother in christ, you have no fucking idea what you’ve sashayed your way into

#dark rise #cs pacat #will kempen #captive prince #james really devoted his life to a man who did the bare minimum #i bet the necklace was ugly too #the only thing james wants around his neck is will’s hands ok?? #will really wasn’t going to snitch on himself #you really do be your own worst enemy #james st clair

[abd-illustrates]

"Gay disaster"? Lmao, you're literally just white and straight.

Anon i know this is some kind of swing-and-a-miss attempt at being transphobic but with all due respect this is a top contender for one of the funniest asks I've ever fuckin' received

#the notification i got for this ask was cropped so it just said #you cant be gay you're white #but somehow the full thing is even more dumbfounding lmao #please get a life my dude #like you had to take the time to think of this and navigate to my tumblr inbox and type it out and turn anon on and send it #thats a multistep process that only occurred here on tumblr so that you could use the anon feature #and not have this dumb take attached to your actual username #i hope you can really think on that and consider whether theres any fuckin thing else that you could be doing with your time on this earth #daily dork

[argiopi]

it’s about the little joys amidst the grind for survival

#my art #hornet #hollow knight #*crawls out of a gutter covered in wet leaves* sup. #i've been slowly poking at asks but it gets frustrating to have so little time to draw so i wanted to make something really quick..! #my life lately has been about the grind for survival /_\ #onset of cold season means i won't be warm again for several months and i'll be usually tired and hungry #isn't it fascinating how the body responds to seasons? idk if it's from less sun or higher caloric demands from heating the body #POV you are biking to work in a downpour. it's before sunrise and cars' headlights are reflecting off the rain on your glasses #you cannot fucking see and there are branches all over the sidewalk from the wind which is strong enough to shove you around #only reason I never fell is because i've been cautious after a recent bad crash. #well now i have a raincoat and learned the lesson to bring spare pants when it's raining and i can move my knee again. luxury! #how does everyone else just keep going when it gets dark and cold all the time. i feel like a bear that should be hibernating. #can't wait to go apeass crazy during the thaw. sprint until i collapse the moment i feel a warm breeze. makes winter worth it #real self-care is using what little energy you have at the end of the day to make a meal big enough to provide several days of leftovers #*throws eggs into the rice* please you need protein for tomorrow i love you. eat well and be strong! #been falling into the habit of skipping meals because i'm too tired to cook and eat. thank you me of yesterday for not being selfish :] #I have a hot tip! if you boil a vegetable; retain the water and freeze it. #last month's accidental yam stock was this week's risotto base #don't you dare discard nutrients and flavors. you need those. they are so scarce and precious. #anyway. don't get lost in the struggle. squeeze in some art and get that creative juice out of your system. #personally i am excited for hornet to explore the arts :] #oh at least autumn is beautiful. but I moved to a place with less nature.. #didn't realize how important it is to me to have large stretches of woodland. I miss my free ranging territory! suffocating in the suburbs! #well now i go to get not enough sleep. nighty night. #(huh? it's almost halloween? since when??)

[theoldkyokodied]

another weird dream

#shuake #akeshu #akira kurusu #goro akechi #goro x akira #joker persona 5 #joker p5 #joker x akechi #this is about goros dreams past game btw #in the rare cases that he actually sleeps (gives him insomnia) and isn't too exhausted to actually dream #there are a lot of people in his dreams and not a single one seems to pay attention to him and he cannot recognize anybody #except one person who keeps clinging onto him #following him everywhere and he can't shake him #the worst part is that it doesn't feel like a nightmare #he distanced himself from akira on purpose so he really doesn't know how to feel about this dreams. he prefers the insomnia #oh do you want someone to care?? someone to love you enough to follow you? you did ask him if he would abandon his friends to join you #are you gonna waste all your life (the third one) wishing and wanting? do you think you would only pull him down? #or would seeing him being so effortlessly perfect and much more liked than you drive you up the wall? why are you avoiding him at all cost? #he thinks you're dead and sometimes you believe it too. don't you goro #enough rambling... i looooove putting elaborate headcanons and stuff in my art that only i know the full extend off

[buckttommy]

Buck looking at Eddie and saying "it got me thinking... about the day you got shot" and Eddie immediately looking away. Fucking undone. Just. That one little detail... Eddie, why can't you look at HIM when he's talking about something that happened to YOU? If not because he remembers that the shooting is something that happened to the both of them. If not because he remembers everything.

#It's not a matter of vulnerability; it's not a matter of not wanting Buck to see how effected he still is by the shooting because Buck #has already seen him at his very lowest in just the LAST EPISODE. So why look away? #Why can't you look at him when he talks about it? Is it because you reached for him? #It is because when your life was ending he was the only fucking thing you wanted? #Is it because you too still see his blood-spattered face every time you close your eyes? #I'm literally going to throw up #jack.txt #tv: 911 #911 spoilers