#this isn't a healthy relationship this is just 2 people trying desperately to make something work that just doesn't 🤷🏼‍♀️

[dirtyvirgotarot]

PICK-A-CARD: A Fun New Career or Hobby To Look Into! Your Gifts!

Looking to see what might be a fun hobby for you?? This PAC might help you figure out what to research and dive deep into!!! :D Pick a pile and let's branch out!! ~~~~~~~~ Pile 1 (The Sketches): Pile 1, you have a magic within you that rivals most. I see you being incredible mystics, card readers, witches, what have you! This is the pile where those with incredible intuition have gathered. If you're looking at pick-a-cards regularly, drawn in by them for whatever reason, maybe try learning more about the technical side of them! Pick up a deck, watch some Youtube videos, and unlock your inner potential as a magic practitioner! I can see that this might actually be a huge revelation for you... This may lead to a bigger awakening, beyond just a hobby. More a spiritual awakening. You may find that it helps you in more ways than one, or makes you a happier person. I am getting a HUGE message about divine timing. The only warning I will give you, Pile 1, is that I can see that for some of you, there is a competitive spirit within you. That's great! However, you must keep it healthy. Do not become obsessed with creating the best pick-a-cards, or the best videos, or what have you. In that, you will fail. To think that the best place is at the TOP of the mountain is the way of the fool. It is within the mountain that you will find the riches of the earth!! :D Regardless, I see abundance and divine timing waiting for you in this hobby! You DO possess a special gift inside of you, and it wants to grow. Your intuition and synchronicity is high. You may have strange, almost prophetic-seeming dreams. This is the universe trying to tell you something! Whether you would like to listen further to the call, or ignore it, is entirely up to you. ✨ ~~~~~~~~ Pile 2 (The Blue Guitar):

Pile 2, you are healers by trade. You always know just the right thing to say. There are three specific messages coming through, so take whatever one resonates more for you! For some, I see that a good career for you might be a social counselor. A therapist, a case worker, a couples therapist, something along those lines! For others, I see that doing special events might be fulfilling for you as well! Whether that's event coordinating, planning, or playing at a wedding! It even could be charity work that you do, helping others in their desperate time of need. I can even see a mortician for a select few. No matter what the career or hobby would be, you would suit best in a job that takes the weight off of others' shoulders, that mends the cracks in someone's heart or relationships. You want to help. The two I listed are just that, two of the many, many hobbies and jobs that can help others for the better. I do see the potential to start a lifelong career out of this gift, if you so desire. You are wonderful at healing, and stopping or preventing conflict. You are a very down to earth, yet very curious person. It takes a LOT to upset you, Pile 2. That isn't a gift everyone has! Find a way to use your kindness and desire to help in the way you think best! 💗 ~~~~~~~~ Pile 3 (The Biker): Pile 3, you are my activists. You fight for what is right, whether it be for people, or to become the personal attorneys-at-law for Mother Earth herself! You don't mind the idea of your hobby/career being thankless or dirty, as long as justice is served to the masses. You are sharp-witted and quick with your tongue, you can lay down the hard-hitting facts. This could be journalism or journaling, it could be preservation, archiving, becoming a disability or accident lawyer, a conservationist or arborist. Gardening, a plant enthusiast, geology, archeology, a librarian, your soul is inclined to help preserve, to continue. You are incredibly smart and intelligent, and you tend to like to work either directly in the spotlight, or behind the scenes. You are unafraid of what others may think of what you do, say or think, and that's just how you like it, Pile 3! A strong spirit who just wants what's best. You may be bookish, and love to read. I can absolutely see you making a career out of this, in fact, if you try, you're pretty much destined to succeed, Pile 3! You are armed to the teeth with knowledge. Use it! 💅 ~~~~~~~~ Pile 4 (The Frosting): Pile 4, your hobby/career is certainly more of a behind-the-scenes deal. Something that is taken for granted often, however, you are certainly a carefree spirit! You don't mind, you just flow with the wind. You're a quiet and introverted person for the most part, but you shine bright like a firefly whenever you're around others! You have a cheerful disposition despite your quietness. Yoga is something that is being screamed into my brain!! Whether it's taking up yoga, or being a yoga instructor, it's certainly something that may help you at this time. I have a feeling that times may be rough for you, but you have more tools than you think you do. Meditation, yoga, and other mindfulness exercises are suggested to you! For others, I can also see you having a career in hospitality. Whether it's a maid, janitor, a hotel worker, or even something like a taxi/Uber driver or bus driver, you would fit that sort of work well. Something generally quiet where you can stick to yourself most of the time, with only basic contact with others. You get things done best when you're by yourself, and that's great! You also are suggested to take up a creative hobby as well! You do your best thinking at work, when you can just focus on a mindless task and zone out. Crafting, scrapbooking, or coloring is recommended! :D Keep on keepin' on, Pile 4! 🏃 ~~~~~~~~ I'd love to hear feedback in the comments about what you think about the pile you chose, and if it interests you! I can always do an individual extension for your pile if you order a personal reading from me here! -DV

#dvpac #tarot community #tarot reading #disability friendly #disabled creator #image id #lgbtqai+ friendly #pac tarot #pick a card #pick a pile #disabled #disabled reader #divination #hobbies #career #flashing #flashing lights

[liyazaki]

I have zero place commenting on today's episode (I've only seen the first 2 eps), but from what I'm seeing? Moonlight Chicken has ascended into the rarest category of BL content: showcasing nuanced, highly-complex, grown-ass-people-in-relationships issues.

no one goes into a relationship thinking it's going to end. with that heady cocktail of hormones coursing through your veins, you can't even fathom a world where you don't feel this way forever. you might even think, "when the initial high fades, I'll choose to love this person." and hopefully, you can.

but sometimes, you just can't. not because it wasn't real, or because they aren't wonderful, or because it isn't healthy. you could have the most loving, supportive relationship in the world- but things never stop changing. you will never stop changing.

the grief & guilt over outgrowing a relationship can be unspeakably devastating. it doesn't make you a horrendous human being. it doesn't make you a failure, even though it sure as hell might feel like it. it doesn't change the reality that it just doesn't fit anymore.

the hardest thing? knowing when to fold. in being able to discern between actual hope & desperately clinging to a dead or dying thing. to what isn't anymore & will likely never be again.

if we just gave ourselves a little more grace to be human, to not be infallible- we'd hurt others (& ourselves) so much less. we wouldn't overstay when we should've left, or try to twist & contort ourselves into something we aren't anymore.

endings will always hurt. how much they hurt- & who they hurt- is (at least partially) up to us.

#moonlight chicken #moonlight chicken the series #moonlight chicken meta #midnight series #i didn't have 'write meta about an ep you haven't even watched' on my 2023 bingo card & yet

[writingforatwistedworld]

Phantom bride event-Player is their last option Pt. 4

Characters: Cater Diamond, Azul Ashengrotto, Rook Hunt

Self-aware au

I do not take any responsibility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, obsession, possessiveness, imprisonment, death, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship

We know chatty Cater, always positive Cater, backstab ing-mood Cater but have you already met silent Cater?

Like, the scary kind of silent....

BUT there is one thing that is for certain

He is planning to get rid of her right now

I mean, my man is pretty obsessed and there is no way he would let some danger close to his person of obsession

It's a tough life as the overseer, I know I know.... always being the center of people who plot others demise as soon as they come too close, I know I know....

Cater wishes he could have his phone right now

Not because he wants to take a pic (ok maybe that as well...)

But rather because hello, can someone call some sort of protection agency??! LIKE THE MILITARY OF THE QUEENDOM???! MAYBE???!!!

Silent, brooding Cater... idk about what scares you but that is just dangerous

I mean, his dream is breaking in two right in front of his eyes and then you are also in danger

Mutates within a millisecond into Sebek 2.0 Heartslabyul version

You get why I'm so scared?

The only difference is that is that he doesnt know how to handle a sword but he also does labour by taking care of he garden so there has to be some strength in his arms

So yeah... I would recommend hiding behind Lilia because after this is over and you don't have a shield made of meat then he will 1. Pick you up, 2. Take you to his room and 3. Look you into there until he garduated

It's just for your protection! Don't you understand??!

His mood swings scare me (no, for real)

The moment you eternity full on crying the sea out of his eyes

And... why is no one entering after you??!

Are you seriously taking her on all on your own????!!!!!

Suddenly all that sadness is thrown from the ship into the sea (I know, bad comparison) and left is a angry, protective, obsessed, murderous octopus

He is screaming like Ursual when she was... uh... you know what

But oh no, not because he is also... that... but rather from rage (ok maybe a bit on the inside but that is a different kind of Sushi)

At first he is screaming profanities at the blue annoyance

And then he “sober up” and starts trying to make deals with the guards

“Make me move and you will have wonderful hair in no time” -Azul, Dorm leader of Octavinelle, desperate

Uh no... I would like to think that he knew that people won't agree to such a thing when you screamed just seconds ago...

He is just so scared that you might die!

Suddenly he has the urge to stuff that cake into his mouth...

Stress eating.....

But again, please hug the octopus afterwards! He needs it!!!

And also empty that bucket of water over there over his head... that body temperature of his can't be healthy.....

What am I supposed to say? The guy is ready to end their second stage of existence when you were just in wedding attire

Ok but let me think... uh... Panic! Yes, panic!

He was there, one of the last.... and then he got fresh-frozen

You ever wondered how a speechless Rook looked like? Now you know it

Madame over there just killed something in him

His heart rate is also way too fast to be considered healthy

Par ta perfection, tu es tellement en danger!!!

All that training, all that hpunting is for naught as soon as you face danger and he isn't able to do anything

But then again, does that mean that he is worthless? (No Rook you... and he doesn't listen....)

He is such a disappointment!

How could he ever dare to step close to you again??!

Usually I would say, run, don't turn back and start a new life after getting your face and name changed

But now... how about hugging him?

He really, really needs it

Bu after that take your distance again

We wouldn't want to find you imprisoned after all! Right, ma chère perfection?

#yandere twisted wonderland #yandere twst #yandere twisted wonderland x reader #yandere twst x reader #yandere cater #yandere cater x reader #yandere cater diamond #yandere azul #yandere azul x reader #yandere azul ashengrotto #yandere rook #yandere rook hunt #yandere rook x reader #tw: yandere #tw: obsession #tw: possessiveness #tw: imprisonment #tw: death #tw: unhealthy mindset #tw: unhealthy relationship

[princescribbler]

Hi little boy Scribbler. I'm sad. Iasked your mommy but maybe you can help too.

I'm scared I'll never find a mommy into AB/DL. It's so hard to be strong and stay brave when I wanna cry and be cared for by a mommy.

How did you find a great mommy like yours? How do I make sure she doesn't leave me or lose interest? How do i stop them from just ghosting me when they see I'm not rich, or into findom? And how do I find someone who will give me what I want not just what they want?

Sincerely,

All alone anon

Huh...I hate to jump to conclusions (and apologies if I'm judging incorrectly) but i'll admit you're setting off a few quiet alarms in my head!

I might be unfair, but when people push hard on the idea of only ever being ghosted, financially manipulated, and there being no mommies out there...It gets my guard up. Because often, very toxic or unhealthy behavior in subs or littles is sort of ignored, or accepted, and it really shouldn't be! And I'll admit, I wasn't the most healthy and mature participant in this community when I first got involved years ago, so I'm trying hard to not judge, but if you don't change your outlook and behavior, there's probably not much I can do or suggest to help!

That said: there are an astonishing number of people eager to take advantage of your needs and desperation, many who will probably ONLY have interest in your wallet and the like. The trick... isn't just in them. See, scammers and manipulators work by tricking you (or you being desperate enough) to ignore the many obvious red flags. Like, someone talking to you for 2 days, not knowing your real name, then insisting on knowing your address. Or, their entire blog is 4 days old and exclusively filled with the 10 easy to find posts tangentially related to your kinks... but they have no likes, no history, and their ability to communicate is shit.

THOSE people will immediately leave the second they no longer feel they'll have a good chance at scamming or manipulating. If something seems way too good to be true... it probably is. If a Dominant partner claims to be very well versed in BDSM, power dynamic relationships, and Ageplay... but jumps into offering you a new full time dynamic before even discussing SAFE WORDS or getting to know you? THAT SHOULD BE A SUPER CLEAR RED FLAG THAT THEY AREN'T A HEALTHY, REAL, SINCERE PERSON!!

So how did I get my momma princess and switch partner, @giggle-byte ? Well, first, don't forget that it's a two way street. Momma pursued me just as much as I pursued her. So step 1.... find someone who actually likes you. And SHOW OFF YOUR GOOD QUALITIES! Why would any domme or mommy want to care for a lazy, unkind, mean, demanding person? If you're just getting to know them and quickly start pushing for your kinks and desires to immediately be bowed to, you're probably not coming across in a good light.

Whether it's CG/L, BDSM, ABDL, ageplay, or just simple diaper fetishism, you need a partner who wants you, who sees your value, and enjoys you.. and you won't find that with random messages to 200+ online dommes in the hope that EVENTUALLY one'll fall in love with you. Instead, seek out actual meaningful connections with people, whether online or in person!

And my real best advice for avoiding toxic and fake mommies, findoms, and scammed is to focus on YOUR SAFETY AND SECURITY over getting off. If you truly can't tell if someone is a scammer... well, being honest, then online platforms to meet are a very bad idea for you. And if you need to know if someone is real or fake... recognize that a HEALTHY caregiver or dominant probably won't just jump into offering you a relationship (especially with strings attached), but a scammer or predatory findom probably will.

Good luck and I hope you find a way to get a happy and healthy dynamic, some day!

[dopaminergicaddictions]

I saw Katie on okcupid... I have strange feelings about it.

1) I don't have feelings for her and I want her to be happy but it was awkward and hurt for a different reason.

2) i reached out so many times asking for friendship and she ignores me 99% of the time. When I really need a friend. She's a good person and one of the only people who treated me kindly that I dated.

I'm hurt that she won't respond to me regularly and talk to me. I don't expect a relationship...

Bc:

1) she hates my family

2) she doesn't want to come over my house

3) she barely even looked or talked to my mother... I don't expect my partner to be best friends with her but- I mean I do expect them to talk to her and treat her like she's a person.

My feelings are sadness... sadness that she won't talk to me much. Sadness that she won't be my friend. Sadness that I lose everyone I care about.

I messaged her explaining I just wanted to be her friend. I explained I saw her on okcupid and idc that she's trying to find someone and I just want her to be happy.

I just said I wanted to know her and be close and she means a lot to me.

We'll see if she responds to that..

Either way the dating world is disappointing. I don't want Katie back cause she will never be comfortable in my house or around my family. I just want to stop being so isolated.

The last 2 days I've been surrounded by people and I hallucinated 10% of the time.. but when I'm in my room once I go to be alone it's constant.... so I'm trying hard to put myself out there but it's hard.

I joined a voice hearers support group that I'm going to keep attending on zoom twice a week.. the non binary leader 100% gave me a look at the end of the session.. I was the last one there before we disconnected.. and the look was like, "I think you're hot af". I mean I'm open minded but I still love elise

I truly don't want anyone but her and when I eventually do they are going to be special... I mean I got to put myself out there dating wise . I got to put myself out there friendwise

I'd join a IOP but it scarfices my individualized attention I get with therapy. I'm desperate to be around people.

I'm so isolated. I may join a bunch of support groups but idk bc most meet once a week.... I'm hoping I can get a friend to talk to on the phone everyday.... and maybe play Xbox live with John and Fire...

Dialogue helps so much. Being social makes such a huge difference..

I feel undatable though... and I mean that. I get why elise didn't want me, I mean for one she's married.. but look at me. I'm a mess...

I don't think I can find a friend who will talk to me everyday.

My dad was trying to tell me to get hospitalized. Cause my environment isn't safe and one that will help me heal... he isn't wrong but losing the ability to chose my meds. Chose my food/calorie count which I've been a stickler about minus the last 2 days which I've been beating myself up over ... and losing the ability to chose what I do everyday will be depressing and will actually make me less healthy.

Although I somehow have to find people to talk to. I need to be social. Idk how.

I wish I could talk to elise.

I don't want anyone else but unfortunately when it comes to people no one spends a lot of time with their friends. I still won't smoke pot cause I don't want to worsen my symptoms... I'm not going to until at least 2 months after it stops...

I'm really lonely. I need someone to talk to everyday. I wish it was Elise. I wish Katie would hang out with me once every 2 weeks. I wish I had things to do surrounded by people.

I got to find queer groups. I got to do something. I hallucinate so infrequently around people it's almost normal and it's depressing that I'm stuck here.

Hospitalization will worsen my mental health ... I need the right to chose what I do... but staying here isn't the healthiest. I need to enrich my environment. I need people.

Where do you find them?? Most groups only meet once a month thankfully the voice hearers groups meets multiple times a week 5 out of 7 days. . But the times varies and only 2 days a week work with my schedule....

Idk what to do. I want to win this battle. I want to try to see if Elise will show up for me in 2 years.... I want to believe I mean something to her..

But in this environment.. idk how to survive much longer. I'm trying but I'm feeling hopeless cause idk how to fill my time with social activities.

I also can't shake the feeling that Elise is my soulmate. I mean I'm probably 99% wrong. It makes dating hard cause I truly don't want anyone but her. Yet I have to look anyways cause I need companionship.

[lunaprincipessa]

ENTRY EIGHTY-SIX

Valentine's Day is coming up. Another year celebrating this holiday single. Kinda in limbo this time around. Not feeling any particular way about it. Lots of times though, single friends will hit me up wondering what I'm doing. I tend to keep myself busy.

I think it's a part of being human to want to be with someone special on February 14th. Nothing wrong with it! But sometimes, I notice people may not know what to do with themselves if the loneliness and sadness reaches a point where it's overwhelming. Not passing judgment, "takes one to know one."

I get it. Definitely been there before! You feel there is nothing in life and you also feel there is nothing in life to look forward to. Feelings of emptiness and hopelessness linger around you like a vulture waiting to feed. You desperately cry out to the Universe for a sign that you're not forgotten, then you're met with silence and still with no sign to be seen, or heard, or felt. And so, in the midst of breaking down and feeling worthless and unwanted, you have to somehow summon up the strength to comfort yourself alone. Believe me, I get it.

That being said, I wanted to share a list of things to get into if this holiday is gonna be rough or has the potential to be.

1.) Who says you have to celebrate at all? Ignore it, or blow it off purposely doing something else or even nothing. Not a federal holiday where everything gets closed down, life can continue on as normal on this day. It will be what you make it.

2.) If you really want a Valentine, it is not limited to dates and significant others. Your kids, friends, relatives, pets, and coworkers can all serve as examples. If you feel there isn't anyone or everyone is busy, gift a random Valentine to someone you know could use some kindness. A good deed like that will make you feel fulfilled.

3.) Since we're discussing different ways to go about Valentine's, consider starting a new tradition in your household. Do whatever ya like, include whoever ya want.

4.) Hobbies! Sharpening skills! Get started on something new or restart something you've been neglecting. The sense of accomplishment will help.

5.) Shows and movies, and might I suggest two key factors: (1.) Binge, especially if it's something you love or something you need to catch up on. (2.) "Laughter is medicine for the soul," as they say. Watch comedy!

6.) Make a plan for manifestation. Just because you're currently single, doesn't mean you can't plan for the future. Lots of people decide what kind of home or outfit they want before actually getting one. Same process here. Work on getting a clear vision of the type of relationship you want to have if you feel making a plan for the future won't make you feel bad or worse.

7.) If all else fails and you can't find a Valentine, I know a place where you can look and it's always guaranteed that you'll find one there. The mirror! Last time I checked, you're a person too. Pamper yourself! Spoil yourself! I'm single and I just dropped $45 on some ginormous chocolate-covered strawberries. FTW!

8.) Music is life baby! I can't even begin to describe all the ways music has gotten me through some very hard times. Make yourself a playlist to listen to. Any kind of playlist you want! You can listen in while relaxing, cleaning, bathing, studying, etc.

9.) Dive into your spirituality or your religion. I don't care what you believe in. It will be the most comforting and most uplifting distraction from loneliness ever. You won't feel so alone anymore, promise.

10.) Cook! Blowing off the holiday, trying to celebrate it, I couldn't care less. Cooking can soothe stress and build self-esteem in many individuals. Plus, cooking a healthy meal in itself can be good for your mental health as foods like chicken, fish, and eggs have lean proteins to help with general functioning of the brain and nervous system. In addition, foods like whole grains, fruits, and vegetables can offer some mood-boosting doses of serotonin and dopamine.

11.) Exercise: the most underused and underestimated anti-depressant ever! While the exact link between exercise and depression is actually still being investigated, the physical activity will ease the symptoms and have you feeling better in no time. And I think I remember being told a while back that exercise tends to hit reward receptors in the brain. Makes sense because that's how it feels. It feels good and ya wanna keep going!

12.) Exploring areas of town that are new to you will replace the lonely feelings with curiosity and a sense of adventure. Look up the history of the property you're on and take photos!

13.) Offer to pick up a work shift or babysit for a couple that wants to go out. If you don't wanna celebrate, all well and fine, but you can still take advantage of the opportunity to make some extra cash.

14.) Utilize coping skills. Maybe it isn't just a matter of not finding a date or being single. Maybe at the heart of it all is trauma or social anxiety disorder. Life isn't always easy for those of us dealing with those types of things. Coping skills and reaching out will help tremendously.

I conclude with memes that have tips about how to release happy chemicals in the brain to give people more ideas of how to go about their Valentine's Day more positively and productively despite being single.

Best of luck to all of us out there. And may those of us who have never been loved right find happiness someday. 💗

More thoughts later.

#Valentines Day #Single on Valentines Day #Love is everywhere because it's within you

[bisexualbvck]

can't stop thinking about how after learning about Taylor's father and what she was going to do, Buck was prepared to drop everything to go with her for support but when Buck was struggling, thinking his entire family literally hated him after Chimney went after Maddie the only thing Taylor could say to him was "not everything is about you Buck."

#this isn't a healthy relationship this is just 2 people trying desperately to make something work that just doesn't 🤷🏼‍♀️ #911 fox #911 on fox #911 spoilers

[linkspooky]

TOJI AND MAKI

The parallels between the two outcasts of the zenin clan have already been pointed out plenty of times in canon, for example they're both incredibly buff. However, I thought I would take a deeer look at both characters, as they share both a role as the abused child that destroys the system that created them, and the same fatal flaw.

1. The Child Who is Not Embraced by the Village Will Burn it Down to Feel its Warmth

"The Ones who Walk Away from Omelas" is a 1973 work of short philosophical fiction, about a summer festival in the utopian ity of OMelas, whose prosperity depends on the perpetual misery of a single child. The idea is written around the idea of the scapegoat, a reoccurring trope in stories where someone innocent is blamed, or outcast for the mistakes of other characters.

All of this to say that both Maki and Toji represent the archetype of the scapegoats of their generation. Just like the child of Omelas, all of the problems in the Zenin household are blamed on one child.

This is something Ogi does to Maki directly, and also Naoya recognizes that the other members of the clan did to Toji. They were unable to face their own inferiority, so they blamed it on a scapegoat. Ogi blames his failure to become the head of the clan on his children. The entire clan is unable to recognize Toji's strength, because it would make them question their traditionally held notions of strength, Toji requires the use of weapons and can fight without cursed techniques, which means the cursed techniques they were born with don't make them inherently better with other people.

This is also related to Gojo's criticisms of Jujutsu Society at large, of which the Zenin Household is a very toxic microcosm of. Gojo's critique is that the previous generation will sacrifice the lives of the younger generation, to maintain their power, and in the name of pointless tradition. In the Zenin family "tradition" is the idea that inherited curse technique determines a person's worth.

Their entire system is built around one, keeping cursed techniques in the clan, and two, passing down inherited curse techniques from father to child. Which would go farther to explain the treatment of women by the clan, but we're not getting into that this time. Basically, the "peace" and the "superiority" of the household are built on the idea of marking and scapegoating an outsider, that is anyone who doesn't fit in with the clan's traditions. "If you are not of the Zenin Clan you are not a sorcerer, and if you are not a sorcerer then you are not even Human". That quote alone should explain how Maki and Toji were both treated as subhuman 'monkeys' by everyone around them.

However, the story shows us by both Toji and Maki snapping how terrible these abusive power structures are. One person cannot handle all of that alone, so they snap. Of course they snap. It's not a sign of who Toji and Maki are as people, but rather how no one deserves to be treated that way. A major reocurring theme in Jujutsu Kaisen is no one person alone, can take responsibility for everything, not even Gojo who is the strongest can save everyone he wants to save or be responsible for all of society he needs allies too. Toji, and Maki without allies, they snap and lash out against the same abusive power structure that created them. They are so thoroughly othered by everyone around them, that they embrace their own inhumanity, Maki becomes a weapon bent on killing her family even murdering her own mother, and Toji outright calls himself a monkey.

This is also why Toji is referred to as the "destroyer of destinies" there are two reasons for this. One, Gege is making a thematic point here. The abusive system built on othering and excluding children among other things doesn't actually provide the stability it promises. The center does not hold. The abuse of the system perpetuates and only leads to more destruction. Toji's outcasting isn't something that just hurt Toji alone, everyone felt the consequences of it because the abusive system proliferates and only causes further destruction. The second reason is a Jungian idea on which the story is based on. Toji himself is much like a curse created by the actions of his entire family. If Mahito is created from the fear humans have for each other and acts as the shadow of humanity representing their dark side, Toji metaphorically represents the combined shadow and dark side of the zenin clan. In Watch Man, Rorsarch monologues about how the accumulated filth of all of the abuses that happen in the city will one day rise up and affect everyone.

"This city is afraid of me, I have seen it's true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will form up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout save us and I'll look down and whisper no."

This is expressing the same Jungian idea, a society that ignores these problems will only cause the muck to rise up further and further until it affects everyone. The Zenin clan was a microcosm for the abuses of Jujutsu Society as a whole, they weren't the only ones affected by their abuse because abuse perpetuates. They endured it until they snapped and then acted out that abuse. The Jungian idea put forth is that this sort of reckoning was always going to happen, as long as the Zenin clan continues to create these outcasts in order to hold themselves up as superior, another Toji will happen.

2. Love is the Worst Curse of Them All

Toji and Maki also share the same flaw as people. Their abuse revolved around the idea of outcasting them from the rest of the family, othering them, continually putting them down and also most likely not even doing the job of raising them as children or providing them with the help they needed. We don't see much of it, but in the databook apparently Toji regularly had cursed spirits sicked on him to mock him, and Maki was locked in the cursed spirit room as punishment.

This taught them not only do they need to be strong on their own, but also in order to prove themselves they both thought they needed to be stronger than anyone else in the clan. Toji left Jujutsu Society as a whole, whereas Maki just left the house, both of them with the motivation of proving themselves stronger than the people who looked down on them.

This strong sense of individualism is their greatest strength, and also their weakness, as the situation is more complicated than being stronger than a bully. Maki and Toji are made to feel alone because of their abuse, however, neither Maki nor Toji suffer their abuse alone.

Mai was abused right alongside Maki, they were both outcasts due to being twins. There's no point in arguing which one of them had it worse, because Ogi was perfectly willing to kill both daughters right alongside each other. Maki does and doesn't remember that Mai is right alongside her in her abuse, it's... a bit complicated.

I mention this because Makiaated reason why is that she would have hated herself if she stayed inside that household with Maki. She put pursuit of becoming a stronger sorcerer above her relationship with her sister.

Maki later states "I can't create a place where Mai would feel like she belongs". I don't believe that was always her intention from the start that she secretly left the household for Mai's sake, and wanted to get stronger to create a place where Mai belongs, because Maki's always been really clear she was doing it for her own sake. I think rather after the loss she suffered in Shibuya, and also the fight she had with her sister in the school met, that she came to change her mind and realized she wasn't just in this alone. She changed her mind, that she wanted to be together with Mai, but she didn't change it in time and tragedy struck.

I mention this because Maki and Toji both share the same tragic flaw. Both of them have no idea how to be close even to the people they love, so they end up pushing away the ones they love the most. Maki continually shows behavior of pushing away Mai, and in Toji's case he does everything he can to try to show himself he doesn't love his son.

Maki continually pushes away her sister Mai. Mai reacts to getting pushed away in a not-so-healthy way. Toji full on deadbeats his son. He doesn't raise him or participate in his life to the point where Megumi can't remember his face or name at all. Toji did everything he could to try to give Megumi to someone else, anyone else other than him and avoided his responsibility as a father.

It doesn't come from malice on Toji and Maki's part, but rather it's a less savory aspect of their abuse. Both Toji and Maki believe themselves to be worthless, and that they can't be accepted or loved. They've internalized the way the clan has treated them. They are so isolated that this comes out in how they treated their closest loved ones, their response is to always push them away and isolate themselves further. Toji narrates this, he chose to throw his son aside because he wanted to affirm himself and prove that he was better than Jujutsu Society. Maki says to Mai that she left the house and left Mai because staying would have meant hating herself.

They are both trying desperately to prove themselves as individually strong, to the point where loving anyone else, or even requiring that love from someone is a weakness. They prove they are strong by avoiding the vulnerability of loving someone else. Toji and Maki both try to separate themselves from their heart in order to become even more physically stronger. For Toji his heart was his son Megumi who he did everything to distance himself, forgetting his name, selling him to the Zenin clan, while at the same time paradoxically believing that he was somehow protecting Megumi and arranging for things that would have been better than Toji just stepping up as a father and taking care of him.

At the same time Maki pushes Mai away when Mai does not want that, and believes that also she can return to the clan and make it a safe place for her sister by being individually stronger than everyone else.

They both approach their loved ones this way, because they were taught that one, they are unworthy of love, and they choose to try to get stronger by throwing away anything that might make them vulnerable.

TWhich is why Maki breaks so hard, and lashes out at everyone when Mai is gone, because Maki believed that keeping Mai separate from herself and protecting her was her way of showing love.

However, Mai and Megumi are like... people. They're people entirely separate from Maki and Toji and also affected by their actions. Megumi was neglected his entire lives, whereas Mai didn't get to have a relationship with her sister and felt like she was worthless and only holding her sister back. This is the central idea of Toji and Maki's abuse narrative, that abuse is complicated, and abuse proliferates and hurts people you don't even intend for it to hurt. It has consequences. Megumi suffers the consequences of the Zenin family's abuse because it turned Toji into such an unfit and emotionally immature father. Mai was being abused alongside Maki, and even ended up dying from her abuser's hand as her father Ogi beat her half to death and locked her in a room. Now, as a consequence Maki is lashing out at everything around her. That's also why the connection between Toji and Maki is drawn, to show that as long as the abusive institution still stands, it's just going to keep creating more outcasts like Toji and Maki.

#toji zenin #maki zenin #jujutsu sorcerer #jjk meta #jujutsu kaisen meta #jujutsu kaisen theory #zenin maki #mai zenin #zenin mai #megumi fushigoro #fushigoro megumi

[kelvintimeline]

I haven’t watched Nart in ages tbh but I do follow people who have and I vaguely remember a minor discourse over sasunaru/narusasu/whocareswhosthetop being a Bad Ship™? Is it a problematique and toxique ship? I honestly can’t recall. I kinda shipped it as a teen tbh so I’m kinda shocked as I am the wokest anon on tumblr. I know you're biased and that's why I ask. Let's be biased together.

Oh, honey, that discourse was not minor. It was like a decade long war I did not engage in. Lots of people who shipped Sasusaku and Naruhina claimed that shipping SNS was a "mutually abusive" relationship and that you are morally bad for shipping it.

When I think... I think that misses the point? And the context of WHY it's being shipped.

Sasuke and Naruto's relationship is not healthy. But the point is that... it wasn't ever allowed to be. The well was fucking poisoned.

Their story is a tragedy.

It's about children who weren't taught love or communication but that problems are solved with violence and desperately, DESPERATELY hoping they can learn, together, to put feelings to words and to stop begging for each other with fists and jutsu and to finally be able to say what they have been feeling for years and years of aching.

It's about the intricate rituals that let them touch each other but only if it hurts. The entire shinobi system is built around breaking down kids so they can only ever crave pain and the fight. You watch them fight and you want them to heal instead.

Sasuke and Naruto's relationship is wanting them to better each other but being aware of all of the things standing in their way--Konoha's lies, Orochimaru's poisoning seal, the trauma... the fear.

Shipping Sasuke and Naruto is wanting better for them, always. It’s realizing their entire lives are crafted around violence and wanting them to find peace in each other.

They're different than the "abusive" ships where the "abuse" is hot or "fun to explore because “it’s dark." Their story is just... a tragedy that you hope finds a happier ending. Where the catharsis isn't death or more sadness but rather that they are able to overcome their fatal flaws instead.

So much of the "toxic" shipping people like me rail against reaffirm things like misogyny, racism, power imbalances, pedophilia, incest but Sasunaru skirts around all of that.

Sasuke and Naruto are equals, two sides of the same sad coin, who do not have power over each other to abuse. They just have all that rage and fear and hope. Their entire bond is defined by feeling so much fucking love and empathy that it scares them away (or in Sasuke's case, makes him think he has to kill Naruto... but he's never able to).

They idealize each other while also having painfully grounded understandings of the other's flaws, so you watch them think too highly of the other, then too lowly, and you want them to find that happy middle.

You don't enjoy the violence, you mourn the lost opportunity. You see them fight and ache knowing they don't have to, that they were forced to by powers far greater than their own.

Their circumstances are so, so removed from like... what people try to shame them for?

And I get why many people wouldn't be comfortable shipping them but it's just like... not what people think it is.

You're not reading Valley of the End Part 2 and enjoying the violence and thinking that's what makes them a good ship. It's not like Killing Eve or whatever where one stabs the other and that's their weird way of flirting or whatever.

Their violence is painful and terrible and it hurts you, it hurts them, it's something you want them to never do again. And it’s something you know they don't actually want to do but feel they HAVE to.

And the appeal of it is the idea that you can be profoundly fucked up by life and still have someone who wants to be with you, even when it's difficult, even when you push them away. Its just taken to an extreme because it's a story about child soldiers, so it's not as easy to do a 1:1 comparison to real life but like... that's all it is. It can't really be paralleled to real life violence. It’s just a sad story a lot of us have felt we have lived on some sad symbolic level when we’ve been afraid of being loved or felt like we didn’t deserve it.

#abuse cw #sasunaru

[dannyphantom-justiceleauge]

This may be a minor gripe but something that has kind of bothered me about discussions and depictions of Dan is how often people seem to forget that Dan isn't just an older evil Danny, he's a combination of Danny and Vlad's ghost sides. Like people always talk about him like Danny threw away his humanity and turned evil but that's not even true. Sure, we can say that Dan is the result of Danny's action but that's a little unfair. (1/2)

(2/2) Him cheating on a test, coincidentally putting his loved one's in a position where they could be killed, is absolutely not his fault. Letting Vlad take away his ghost powers with a strange contraption might not have been the smartest move, but we are talking about a grieving CHILD here, of course he isn't going to make the best decisions. If anything Vlad's the one to blame here, and even then, it's not like he could predict what happened

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you aren't wrong, my friend. it really isn't entirely danny's fault and the whole 'if you cheat on a test, you'll loose everything you love' moral is confused at best. i think as fandom we find it more interesting to look at danny's potential evil and moral struggle with himself. so simplifying it to be dan is a worse case scenario of danny makes the conflict less abstract.

particularly because when it comes to self blame danny isn't going to go easy on himself just because it was excusable mistakes.

i think another talking point should be how danny is the target of the time assassination more than vlad is, even though vlad is part of the evil whole. you could argue that danny is the catalyst of his friends death and vlad inventing the claw things. but vlad invented the claw things. maybe because his human side survived and acted relatively harmless from then on? or maybe it's because the observants based on the available evidence recognized danny as more of a threat. i think that fits actually, for all vlad tried to be an evil mastermind, his achievements outside of terrorizing a teenager and theft isn't particularly impressive. danny was the one who got shit done. all his fights he finished one way or another and i could see how that would bleed into dan defeating everyone.

the real question is how to we fix this. ideally we could shape this idea so it's less confused, though i do honestly find the dynamic of half danny, half vlad interesting. if for not other reason. than two half ghosts make a whole. actually that's something else to be said about dan. his self-loathing is what led him to killing his human half, another negative aspect coming from danny.

i wonder if we could frame it like fusion, from su. obviously dan isn't stable or healthy, or based on love. he's most comparable to malichite. but with less internal debate. dan took the best and worst of both of them. danny's determination, danny's fighting ability, danny's anger, danny's sarcasm, vlad's anger, vlads lack of morals, vlads schemes, vlad's control. heck, vlads desire to rule the world. i don't think we ever got that from danny.

maybe if vlad was more involved in the fight with dan it could have been used as an opportunity to compare and contrast their characters. to go we're not so different you and i. danny gets to recognize that he has that dark potential. vlad gets to be humbled by the fact that what he wants isn't good for anyone, especially himself. and to be fair, we do see some of that humbling with future vlad, but none of that character growth is given to present vlad, so, really it's just another vehicle for danny angst. it also depends on what you want to do with vlad though. he's a fascinating character and could be given redemption under the right circumstances or be a character who has the opportunity for redemption but chooses not to be redeemed every time.

that fits him and makes him both a more pathetic and despicable villain. it's hard to pity someone who ignores the opportunities to heal and grow.

as for danny, he becomes far more aware of the consequences his actions, especially his selfish and cruel ones can have. because that potential was always there. he has a history of abusing his powers. perhaps for this specific incident him abusing his powers can be something less understandable than almost cheating on a test that he couldn't study for through no fault of his own. (maybe i just have flexible morals?). maybe it could be something more character relevant, like he did something particularly vlad like, maybe he set up a prank at the nasty burger to get dash but it set off the explosion that killed his family. or maybe he did something particularly cruel and manipulative. there are better catalysts than a test. either way he recognized that he should never go that far again and strive to avoid being actively cruel.

he also has the opportunity to recognize that vlad does have a human half, even the one he's fighting everyday. he can face some conflict in it's not entirely clear what trait belongs to vlad and what trait belongs to him. he can empathize with vlad and he can recognize that situations aren't always in black in white. those who fly the highest, fall the hardest, after all.

it can be a growing experience. and while making it solely a danny goes bad and learns not to do evil kind of story. maybe we could cut vlad from the equation and just have danny face himself, full evil refection. i think exploring both vlad and danny through this fusion is far more interesting. especially because we can build on what's revealed about vlad in these episodes, in later ones. danny sees a future where vlad chills and that maybe his vlad could get their. later he see vlads past and what he lost to become who he is.

and then there's vlads turning point episodes. i don't know when motherly instinct took place but maddie fully recognizing he's a bastard and rejection him, was a turning point for his sanity, and danny helped it along. then we have danny rejecting him repeatedly, then we the clone episode, which we can all agree was a desperate move on his part, that danny once again thwarted. and we can all agree that this was the cannon turning point for his character where he stopped fighting for a family and started trying to be danny's villain. in that episode, i think danny could potentially pity vlad enough to try and reach out. he's not going to justify what vlad did and he's not going to apologize for stopping him. he went too far. he hurt danny and dani, he crossed a moral line that can't be justified even with his desperation. but if he changes...

he lost this time but if he changes, maybe they'll reach the point where they're ready to accept him.

i think the same thing could be said about his relationship with jack and maddie. if he changes, if he reaches out. if acts like less of a crazy fruitloop, his friends would be there for him. jack is still trying to be there for him, even if he's being oblivious about vlad's faults. vlads the one driving wedges into his relationships and pushing everyone away.

and that's so freaking human and understandable.it would be such a cool thing to explore with his character.

i could also see a potential arc where after valerie finds out vlad and masters are the same person she tries to get close to him, both to sus out how evil he is and to understand him as a halfa. afterall danny got her to acknowledge dani as human enough, the same would apply to vlad/plasmius, right? only he's a bad person and the more she uncovers about vlad masters the man, the more she realizes it's not the ghost half that's evil. but this is a double edged sword because, vlad is getting attached to her and encouraging her to be more evil. he's encouraging her to go darker and darker in her fight against ghosts and her fight specifically against phantom. to the point where she finally draws the line and says, i'm not doing that! boom exploring the moral ambiguity of her character and getting her to take a hard stance on her morals, because there's a line too far for her.

and boom a further breakdown of vlads character because he finally had someone outside the fentons to redeem him. she could have helped pull him out of the hole he'd been digging himself into. she wanted to help him. he got attached to her, but he and his bad decisions decided to dig himself deeper instead. so once again he's 'abandoned and betrayed'.

from that point, i think it'd be time for him to finally face jack head on. not through manipulative schemes. not through veiled threats and insults. but the full confrontation of 'i always hated you. you ruined my life. you're the reason i lost everything'. which is really just his own self loathing speaking. and jack... empathetic jack can see that vlad desperately wants help. and jack would offer it to him. jack would try to hug it out and apologize and give vlad the love and friendship vlad's been fighting to steal this whole time.

and vlad would reject it.

he'd probably lash out a jack and go into a full breakdown/world destroying attack. could finally put the stolen crown to use and try declaring himself king and embracing his megalomaniac thing and actually be a threat this time. and THAT would be our series finally. everyone teaming up to fight 'king vlad'. danny probably finding out that he's technically king because he beat pariah dark but the matter being a bit confused because he had help. val and danny trying to find the ring of rage or at least find someone who can make one. secrets are out. i imagine vlad, upon revealing himself to jack would out danny to make danny as sad and alone as him. except nope, his family still loves him and val has had the character development to come around to him. (she's still gonna punch danny for lying for so long.) the ghosts will come and help because no one wants another tyrannical kind and vlads obviously off his rocker.

ah, the could have beens

anyway, i didn't mean for this to become a full vlad character analysis and rewrite when we were supposed to be talking about dan, but hey, i'm a simple creature. i like good writing, and i have to rewrite things myself, so be it. - Hestia

#dpjl #hestiawrites #danny phantom #vlad masters

[crimeronan]

hello. i followed you for correct leverage opinions, and have continued to do so because the vibes. impeccable. that being said, please tell me about the trc and cdth and the nightmare trauma pals and the other group

omg. okay i'll do my best

the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater is the first series, you'll find a lot of quick and simple summaries of the plot with a google search. there's a girl who can't kiss anyone because she'll kill her true love with a kiss, a boy searching for a dead welsh king in virginia to give his life meaning, a lot of romping around in the woods, etc

but the heart of the story is that it's about these six teens from wildly different backgrounds (though one of them doesn't enter the scene until book 3) falling in love and being Horribly messy about it. the external plot is centered on magic but the internal arcs are all about isolation, mental illness, classism, identity, growing up, growing apart, love as a choice. most of the main cast is desperately trying to save a doomed boy who just wants to make sure all of his loved ones will be okay when he's gone

the ot6 polycule is made up of

the girl who's already grieving the doomed boy because she's seen his future ghost, trying so hard not to let anyone else in on her secret, taking on more trauma and fear by the day as the series progresses

the doomed boy himself, an achingly lonely and extremely privileged kid who wants to do the right thing but always seems to fuck up; he feels he loves everyone more than they'll ever love him

the classic scholarship kid present in any book involving a boarding school, poor with a rough home life, desperately in love with the doomed boy without believing that love actually exists, & sick with terror bc of it

the shouty fighty walking disaster who's just starting to recover from a suicide attempt; found his father's dead body and it's been all downhill from there. nasty and caustic but prone to consistent quiet kindness

the actual ghost who's dependent on magic and the love of his friends to stay corporeal, exhausted, tired of decaying and trapped in a traumatic feedback loop that he can't pull himself out of

the social chameleon who's up to his ears in double identities and the criminal underground and trauma of his own, trying to suss out whether any of the other 5 are trustworthy and whether he can use them to his own ends

all of the interpersonal relationships are STUNNING and dynamic, characters can go from enemies to friends to enemies to lovers over the course of a few books, it's all just. really good

call down the hawk is a sequel to this series, the first book in a trilogy

it's about magic as chronic illness, magic as community, magic as something that wants to kill you but could also save you; you can view all of the character arcs through different lenses of disability, & the main conflict in book 2 boils down to accommodation versus independence for chronically ill people

the nightmare trauma pals are ronan and hennessy. both of them can bring their dreams to life. both have had nightmares try to kill them for years, thanks to their unrelenting ptsd and other illness. they're intensely platonic (ronan is gay) and have all the dynamic messiness of the trc relationships, turned up to eleven

they become best friends almost instantly because of their combined ability to laugh and to call the other on their shit; they're messy because they're awful codependent freaks who are both FAR too sick to truly help the other; ronan is trying to be someone healthy for hennessy despite having no idea what that looks like, so he's making it up as he goes along; hennessy doesn't understand why everything feels awful and ronan isn't helping like he promised and also why he doesn't seem to care that their codependency hurts her

but that's just one of many complex relationships in the series -- another extremely compelling one is between hennessy and jordan, a girl who's "not real" because hennessy dreamed her, but Very Fucking Real insofar as she has interiority and her own motivations and desires and a desperate want to be free. and how hennessy keeps dragging her back because she's so afraid of having to exist without jordan taking care of her

dreamer trilogy is SIGNIFICANTLY darker and more fucked up than the raven cycle, which is why i love it the most. but if you prefer lighter media you might like trc better! also this overview barely touches on, like, anything i have to say about either series. as evidenced by.... the thousands of posts on my blog. but these are the main highlights that i'm In It for!

#replies #trc #cdth #long post #suicide m

[anemoiasim]

Where I've Been/What's Next

Warning: the following post is very long and if you don't want to read it, I don't blame you. But for the best understanding of what's been going on and those who really want to know I suggest reading. If not, tldr is included below.

tl;dr: I've grown as a person, my content should reflect that. I'm deleting stuff eventually, so not goodbye but I'll see you all around! 💕

So if it hasn't been painfully obvious, I've not actually done anything here in a long time. I've been wanting to write or say something about it for a while now but was too afraid to say anything until now.

I genuinely don't want to post here anymore. It's a combination of a lot of things honestly. Ranging from the community itself, lack of inspiration, my own perfectionism, interest straying, etc. I could talk for hours about all those things but what it really boils down to is something I knew all that time ago when I first started typing this post months ago that I was too afraid to admit to myself then. I've outgrown this chapter of my life. It's not to say I think I'm too old for Sims or Tumblr or anything like that, I'll certainly still be here. But I have outgrown what this phase of my life represented.

When I first joined Tumblr, and then later simblr, I was only 14. I had a hard time making friends, had a tumultuous home life, and was severely depressed. I desperately needed a place to express myself and this place was it. And this space did just that for many years. I meet some amazing people, created stories I still cherish, Sims I cringe and laugh at, and grew as a person. But for the past year or so, I haven't been able to do that here anymore. Part of that is the community changing itself but what I've realized is most of my issue is that I've changed to.

I'm now 21, I'm confident in who I am more so than ever (still working on it), navigating my first healthy relationships both platonically and romantically, about to graduate college, and learning to be my authentic self. For more context, I was diagnosed with bipolar type 2 at the beginning of 2020 and ever since then learned more and more about myself and my true identity. From realizing my own pansexuality and suppressed trauma to trusting myself and learning what I truly want, I'm a very different person from that 14 year old girl who started here. And that's a good thing that I should celebrate and embrace, not push away in fear. Within this journey, I've learned to be more open and honest not only so I can love those around me properly, but also myself. And part of that is being honest here too by saying, my heart just isn't in this anymore, at least not the way it was. The way I desire to tell stories, the stories I want to tell, the characters I want to portray, everything is different because I'm different.

So what does that mean for anemoiasim? Well, right now nothing. I still have my final semester to finish and don't have a lot of time to spare right now to do much else other than studying and try and keep up. But during this time and afterwards I plan on deleting everything that I no longer resonate with including my legacy and any story before novelty. Novelty is a story I still enjoy but I want to review it and see if this is truly the best home for it. It's incredibly long in terms of telling it here so I'm not sure if I'm up to that task if I'm being completely honest and even so I think I might need to do some tweaking. Then, I want to delve into making the spin off from Novelty. It's a bit of a passion project at this point that I honestly have more pinned down after about 2 years of planning in my mind, Pinterest, and writing. It's shorter, more accurate to my current self, and tackles subjects that are close to my heart.

All in all, this isn't a goodbye like I had feared a couple months ago, but a new era. A new, happier, healthier, me that I can't wait to share with you all who've watched me grow the most and I hope continue too.

Love you all,

Savannah 💕

[bestbonnist]

Chapter 141.2

Izumi backstory! IZUMI BACKSTORY!!

OK before I begin analyzing the actual content in this chapter, I'd like to discuss why Fushi is so lenient with Izumi in particular despite having talked to her only once for two seconds. This could be explained by Fushi's tendency to view all humans as fundamentally good, or their wish that Mizuha has a happy life surrounded by supportive people, but I think an exchange from Chapter 125.2 leans towards a different interpretation. After Mizuha shares how Izumi lied about where she got the new hairband, Fushi says this:

Mizuha quickly shuts them down, but when they take Izumi's side it implies that they relate more to her than they do to Mizuha. They later prove that they personally believe this is a reasonable decision when they hide the fact that the world isn't peaceful from their friends later in the manga.

I thought Satoru left in the previous chapter, but no, he's really been dragged to a fast food place at 12:00 A.M. Sumika must be having a fit. He hasn't really done much since he appeared in the previous chapter, but before they disperse for the night he'll probably have something to say.

Yuuki is really, really pushing to do what Hirotoshi did. It suits his optimistic personality but "making Mizuha want to live again" isn't possible. I've said this before, I'll say it again: Mimori was put in a position where she was forced to say she wanted to live, or else someone would die. That's not a choice, and it's not the "living for herself" that Hirotoshi said he wanted her to do. Mizuha and Mimori both lived for the sake of their mothers instead of themselves, and it didn't turn out well. Replacing one botched relationship with another won't change a thing, as Fushi has successfully proven. The relationship between Mimori and Miyabi never developed at all, we were given context and then Mimori was stuffed back into her old life with no elaboration.

The flashback of Fushi's talk with the Left Hand from Izumi's perspective is intriguing, because I think it's from the moment when Fushi was talking with Mizuha, when she asked them to love her and for a hug. Izumi saw that and realized that (1) her daughter has a desperate need for comfort and affection and (2) said need comes from the absence of those things from her family. That's when she had her big revelation, processed it quietly, and then continued to follow Mizuha until the confrontation in the rain where she decided that Mizuha was too far gone to bother saving.

And so we get Izumi's backstory. Fucking FINALLY. So first thing is that she's talented but unable to connect with others just like Mizuha is, but while Mizuha never stops trying to make friends, Izumi doesn't bother being cordial with her classmates. They're both very aware of their pride and look to others to accept it. Izumi's latched onto Mizuha as the only one who can affirm her, and Mizuha's done the same with Fushi.

A little bit of lore surrounding the knockers and Hayase's descendants is sprinkled into the story: "everyone says they were mankind's enemy" means that most people believe that the knockers, at one point, existed, unlike Fushi who's considered a legend or maybe an exaggeration of a real person. The Left Hand has been elevated to a position of power within the Defense Corps. too. Instead of something kept around to serve Hayase's descendants it's now considered holy. Interestingly, the focus of the Defense Corps. also seems to have shifted from Fushi to Hayase. Kahaku has not been completely erased from the narrative like I thought he was, but the way Izumi's dad describes things it sounds like the Left Hand was the one defending Renryrr side by side with Fushi with Kahaku tagging along, when in reality the Left Hand was an impediment. His phrasing also implies that the Left Hand going to Paradise was a chosen ascension to a higher plane of existence instead of Kahaku's effort to destroy it for good that it desperately tried to avoid.

As we see how Mizuha was initially raised, it looks like there was a healthy separation between her and Izumi unlike what they had before she died. Mizuha enjoyed trying lots of different things but it doesn't look like she was particularly skilled at any of them, she was putting her all into it and Izumi was proud of that.

I've been wondering why Izumi ended up marrying a white guy. Visually, it adds contrast to a character who hasn't really done anything other than exist in the background. At first I thought it was to add to the distance between Mizuha and her peers: most of them are of the same ethnicity while she is not. But as I began inferring more about Izumi I also thought she chose to marry someone as far removed from the Defense Corps.—a cult that hasn't garnered enough influence to spread outside Yanome—as she thought possible, which was apparently not far enough. Either this man was raised in Yanome but lied about it, or is a foreigner who moved to Japan, meaning the Defense Corps. got him hooked really quickly, or they do reach outside of Yanome and Izumi never knew.

Although Izumi's husband insists he didn't marry her solely on her dad's orders, his first move after she finds out is to take advantage of Mizuha's distress to get Izumi to back down. Maybe he really does love them, but preserving his position in their family matters more to him than their happiness.

So now we understand a lot more about who Izumi is as a person, and even if the next chapter doesn't finish this flashback we can still infer what happens next. Izumi and Mizuha were quite similar when they were younger. But the key difference, and what caused Izumi to raise Mizuha in the way she did, was her stubbornness. She needs Mizuha to be the proof that she's in the right, which she thinks will give her hope to live, by having Mizuha follow in her footsteps and succeed where she failed. Anything else would be akin to admitting defeat, and Izumi will not. If Mizuha's running into a brick wall, she shouldn't change direction: she just needs to push harder.

The final panel where Izumi's clinging on to Mizuha mirrors the one where her father grabbed onto her in their cluttered house on an earlier page. I think that says enough on its own.

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(2) It hurts alot right now on my chest and there's an ache in my soul, because I've never felt such way for someone before. I want to hope that he'll come back but after yesterday idk anymore. I waited months hoping to reconnect, but he never reached out, hence why I reached out yesterday but I was prepared for the negative outcome regardless. A part of me hopes he realizes that he's making a mistake, that love isn't bad and that we could grow to be something beautiful.

Hey Moni! So I wanted to update you that things didn't turn out as I expected, he still said he didn't want anything serious right now and that he didn't want to lead me on. He apologized and stated that the right person will be lucky to have me, but all I felt was hollowness. I thanked him for being sweet to me and for the beautiful moments and he thanked me in return. After that I left him on read, because dragging further would be desperation. At least I can say that I tried.

(2) It hurts alot right now on my chest and there's an ache in my soul, because I've never felt such way for someone before. I want to hope that he'll come back but after yesterday idk anymore. I waited months hoping to reconnect, but he never reached out, hence why I reached out yesterday but I was prepared for the negative outcome regardless. A part of me hopes he realizes that he's making a mistake, that love isn't bad and that we could grow to be something beautiful.

(3) I hope a lot when there's no hope. But this has all messed up with me mentally and emotionally and I hate it. I hate how I can't at least hate him, because my love is stronger and the warmth I feel still lingers. And it's funny, because after yesterday I had a dream where I saw him and we were fighting and he said "This is another excuse. This isn't over. We need to talk." Moni, I want him a lot but I don't know what to do and I'm lost. All I can do is surrender and try to move on.

Hello, my angel! First of all, I want to send you all my love to you and tell you that everything is gonna be okay. You don’t have to worry, honey, just flow with things and have patience. I kind of understand his behaviour, because in your reading he seems to have feelings for you, but he wasn’t in love with you. Also, I feel he’s having an “isolation phase” right now and he needs to think everything about your connection.

I decided to see with my cards some things to clear up my mind and share with you a good and healthy advice to help you as you need. I wish my words give you light and love, my love. Don’t be sad, please, because you’re an angel and you have a beautiful heart. When you said you can’t hate him because you love him... I almost cried, baby. You’re absolutely gorgeous and I wish I could give you a warm hug right now. I’m sending you all my love, honey.

I don't see Ale predisposed to make decisions today. As I told you in your reading, Ale needs a time separate from everything and living other experiences in these moments. In your connection there are many topics that create a certain anxiety for both Ale and you and he is not prepared to face them. In addition, there are certain aspects that are still hidden and the instability between the two is not helping you to take the same path. The anxiety of ignorance creates insecurity and mental anxiety, since you can see problems where they do not exist and end up distressed by anything. If there is the possibility of continuing to stay or see Ale as a friend or a person to spend good times with, my cards recommend it to you, but everything should be done following your comfort and not forcing anything.

I think I mentioned something about new beginnings or new stages in your relationship in your reading. This message reappears when I want to advise you. Your relationship with him may need a profound change to direct you to a new stage. It's true that to advance to a new stage you need to end the previous one. I cannot tell you that your relationship has ended, since my cards don't see it that way. You do see a little "break" between you, but the start of a merely emotional project appears after that "break" and I can't let it go and not tell you. I don't want to give you hope, but I can't tell you that your relationship with Ale has already ended, but that conversations or meetings on the Internet (through apps or chats) are present.

On the other hand, can this break have something to do with a woman? A woman appears to you external to you who could have sparked interest in Ale. If he is not interested in anyone, a woman's opinion may have helped him make certain decisions regarding his love life. However, the only thing I can understand about the situation is that the chemistry you need to be together is non-existent. There are feelings and there is an interest in being with the other (you both feel things), but the chemistry necessary to have a love relationship is not present. Chemistry is essential in love relationships and Ale may have been feeling that the chemistry he felt at the beginning has gradually disappeared over time. The fact of not speaking to you for a while has made that chemistry that he felt in the past disappear and that, in addition, Ale may have thought that you have lost interest in wanting to be with him.

What I can advise you is to take time for yourself and think about everything that happened without hurting yourself. Things happen because they should, but you should not be martyred or blamed for situations that don’t have a specific culprit. Analyze everything you have lived through these months and think about what you need right now. Remember that you must first heal and take care of yourself before making any decisions. If you aren’t completely well, others will not be able to treat you as you deserve. The reactions, attitudes and words that others have towards us are only a reflection of how we treat ourselves. If you reflect insecurity and rejection of yourself, the people around you will treat you the same and will avoid being honest with you and telling you what you want to hear, but this will not make you happy.

I don’t know how the conversation between you ended or if you have decided to break any type of contact. The dream you are talking about is honestly a reflection of what my cards say and what is said in your previous reading. My cards don’t see your relationship ended, but speak of a reconciliation in the future and a loving relationship that thrives. If you have the strength to try to have a friendship with him and gradually let the proper foundations be built to achieve a love relationship with him... it would be perfect. However, and wanting to give it a lot of importance, you must do this if you see yourself mentally and emotionally prepared to do it. The most important thing is your health and your general well-being. Pick yourself up for a while and pamper yourself, let your friends and family take care of you, too, and seek advice from people you trust, but don't lock yourself up and forget the outside world, as it won't help.

If you need any advice or talk about anything: open up to me and I will have no problem listening to you and giving you my support, darling. It’s painful to get a disappointment in love, since disappointment is a very difficult feeling to digest, but everything will return to its correct path. Everything is a learning, my love.

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