#this isnt a specific fic i know about

[ninjasmudge]

people really will say shit like 'the fic i found hasn't updated in a whole month so i think its been abandoned which is a shame, i wanted to read more' like where do you even get the nerve

#this definitely isnt abt my fic dw #this is me seeing other people start talking about fics in past tense if they havent updated in a little while #as if fic writers are your content creators that are writing for you and need to do it every day to keep the algorithm happy #ao3 doesnt have an algorithm and tiktok and other social media really really does rot your brain #like its a very specific level of anger that arises in me when i see people demanding shit for free constantly from random strangers #just because you liked something they made you think your entitled to tell thrm what to do? to demand more? #to tell them what to invest their time in when most of them have full jobs?? #theres not many things in life that get that deep anger from me but people like that really do #shark talks #l #for me its usually when i post a comic and some idiot is like 'part two?' in the replies immedietly its like. u didnt even reblog #or say you liked it. its a standalone comic what fuckin part 2 do you even want? #you dont even know youre just so used to demanding things like a child that you do it automatically

[tigergendermoved]

I don't like DDLC'S MC very much on a very petty level but I still wish there was more fic or meta speculation about him. I'm not interested in him as a character, though, because he's barely a character. Literally by the game's standards, he has no inherent "character file." He is the SCRIPT, if anything. All of his thoughts and actions occur within the little text bubble at the bottom of the screen, and so do the characters'. He barely appears in CGs, has no body sprite, and it is through his observations and his thoughts and his call to make choices that the game progresses.

I think that specific trait of MC is fascinating, especially given how deep reaching Monika's manipulation is. During Act 1 he is active, he is talkative, he has a definitive (and yet inconsistent, based on which girl(s) you're speaking to) personality. He has thoughts about just about everything going on. And yet in Act 2 he is reduced to dust. He stops having any kind of commentary and he almost never remarks upon the horrible occurrences around him unless prompted or unless it is something that could plausibly happen in the realm of reality, like Yuri abandoning him for 10 minutes and Natsuki collapsing on him. But even then he's still significantly muted. Yuri and Natsuki have a horrible fight and the only kind of response he tries to throw out is co-opted by Monika. He witness Yuri declare her love for him and talk about how she would love to pull his skin open and crawl inside of him and the only thing he has to say is "yes" or "no" when she asks if he likes her back. And then he physically cannot move or speak or react because the world is so far gone that Yuri's death has damaged him, the script, so much that all he hears is gibberish coming from her lifeless mouth.

And like... that's neat to me. I like that by the end of Act 2 the script is so off the rails and so far gone from reality that MC can no longer really function as a person, because the script is barely functioning. He stops reacting to anything happening around him and most of the conversations he has are just the girls talking at him. Monika has to literally rewrite the script and force Yuri and Natsuki to say things to further her agenda or keep the scene rolling. MC had a clear and very human response to Sayori's death because it was a plausible but horrible (and not forced) event that could happen naturally. Yuri's death was so jarring and away from the scope of the natural order of his world that MC (and Yuri, by extension) can only sit frozen and broken until Natsuki and Monika show up to force new progress.

Like Monika's effect on the girls has been talked to death and it is an interesting topic but I also think what she unintentionally did to the POV character of the game is also something neat. It really adds to the feeling of the world in DDLC being hollow. The MC is a half-character who can only react in incredibly predictable ways, and when the world stops being predictable, he stops being anything more than a walking camera for Monika to speak into.

#ddlc #this isnt even really a character analysis this is just my vague jumbled thoughts on this guy #ive always found mc interesting even if he irritates me #when i was bored and a middle schooler i used to imagine this self insert of mine in his place #what choices would she make if she knew the ddlc world was a farce? what choices would she make if she didnt? #would she be beholden to the game structure and choices written in the game's script? #could she change anything? how would she feel if she knew the girls in a context where they were her normal friends? #these scenarios were of course some random shit i thought about to make PE less awful #but it made me think of how horrible and strange it would be in mc's position #and subsequently how mc himself kind of never gets the chance to BE in his own position in a way #he is fully beholden to the whims of monika and whatever the girls around him are doing at all times in act 2 #even in act 1 his personality and motivations fluctuates constantly depending on which girl u are talking to #mc is the script and the script is mc. he never had a chance to change anything and neither did you #the only way you can do anything in that world is to be a character a .chr a person. and mc is not a person in any meaningful sense #on the topic of 'hey wouldnt it be fucked up to actually experience ddlc as a Thinking Person' #'to your eternity' (anonymous author) on ao3 specifically chapter 1 of it is a cool fic based on that thought #anyways. i know mc mostly just shuts up because it would be lame if every time yuri's eyes bug out he's like 'jeepers creepers!!!' #but i think his dwindling presence makes him an interesting non-character ❤️ #doki doki literature club

[lokh]

girl...

#i forgot this happened. Sickening #made me remember the outline of a tobari/yukimi fic that i did ages ago that ill never actually write #nabari no ou #if i were more powerful that would be the title of a playlist for them and thats the cover #or itd be the start of a tiktok edit..... #anyways this isnt actually from the volume i just got its from the one after LMAO #i have GOT to start my reread from the beginning and not the middle #no ship name for them ... i think yukikumo/kumoyuki would be cute #cos u know. kumo for cloud. yuki for snow. THEY GO TOGETHER ITS CUTE #omfg turns out ive freaked out about this specific quote in the past on this blog already lmao. #also yukikumo had also been the name id landed on

[orcelito]

Like. Ok. It's a big part of why I've separated myself from t.ristamp fandom more since finishing the manga. I just. The way a lot of the fans over there interact with the show is just so very different from what it means to me. And this is especially evident with how they treat Vash.

The "babygirl", the sweet sly sexy trans guy who is soooo innocent and small and meek and a total doormat, would never ever Ever say anything mean Ever, just total sunshine and daisies all the time (unless he's sad and then he's a pathetic wet meow meow who has to be bundled up and doted on until he's happy again, poor Baby)

I'm being dramatic here but like... also not? Some people really do characterize him like that, and it drives me up the wall.

I love Vash for his complexities. The way he contradicts himself. He's a staunch pacifist, but he gets angry enough a few times to be tempted to kill. He's goofy, yet haunted. Sweet, yet bitchy. And oh GOD he loves being an annoying little shit so much. He's jaded, yet hopeful. Resigned at the state of the world, yet still working to make it better. Plays the idiot, but is a total badass when push comes to shove. And for all his frequent childishness, he really is quite mature. That soul deep maturity that he achieved over a century and a half of struggle and strife, countered by his wish to just have Fun...

You see? These are two entirely different characters. After truly getting to know the 2nd (mainly manga vash, though 98 has some aspects of it too), the first just. Really falls flat.

And this. Is why. I need to stop reading t.ristamp fic. Bc more likely than not, I'm going to be disappointed.

#speculation nation #sorry i lied bitch mode wasnt over #& ok at the end of the day. if u really enjoy the first characterization then like. w/e. you do you i guess #it obviously appeals to plenty of people considering how widespread it is. #just. really not for me. #and i know that characterization isnt in all t.ristamp fic. i Know. some people really do him justice #but it feels like playing russian roulette lol. at Least 50% chance when clicking on a t.ristamp fic of seeing a characterization #that is so off the mark from what i love about him that it completely sucks the joy out of it. #....and 50% is me being generous. could be Even More than that. though im not exactly keeping track. #just.... sigh. at this point i really should just accept that it's not for me. #so that i dont end up coming back here every few weeks complaining Again about bad vash characterization. #but what can i say? i wanna read one shots sometimes and there r so many more t.ristamp ones around 😭 #it's not like im Looking for them specifically!!!!! 😭😭😭😭 #and so the cycle continues. and i will be continuously disappointed. alas.

[separatist-apologist]

I saw you said you find it cathartic to write Gwyn and wanted to say I find it cathartic to read your depiction of her. I’ve struggled with her characterisation in some other canon compliant fics - I think some writers understandably struggle with how to explore her trauma, and limit it to difficulties with physical intimacy. But in my experience of her kind of trauma, that impotent anger and self hatred is far more consuming. Thank you for writing that. I feel so seen and so supported. Love you

I'm definitely drawing on some of my own experiences, but also the experiences I find at work, too. I'm gonna put some of my rational below a cut just so people can opt out of reading about sexual assault if they need/want to.

And I think its really common to assume that the only trouble folks have post SA is sex, but for me, I think its the opposite. I think people really struggle with the internal sense of "did I do something wrong?" "how could i have avoided it?" "why did this happen and why didn't i notice anything was off?" and my personal least favorite, "why didn't i try harder to prevent it?" Like all these retrospective questions based on hindsight, coupled with the heavy messaging I think survivors get that if they find any physical enjoyment in sex, it wasn't that bad which compounds a lot of those guilty feelings.

And it does manifest as this like, deeply burning anger directed at themselves (or the world) and that's what we're working on. The inner healing, forgiving yourself for something that was never your fault to begin with, and (and i think this is the most difficult) accepting that you'll never really know why it happened because someone made a choice ABOUT YOU/FOR YOU that they didn't consult you on. You're never going to know why, right? But that doesn't mean the blame belongs to you- the blame belongs to them and I personally find thats the hardest part of the therapeutic journey.

I just wanted to bring that into this. It was also my experience, not to be personal, and I think being able to write and reflect on it has been an added layer of healing. Kind of like when I was writing RTWYLM, it's this scrapbook of a time period I still carry with me, and the compendium of knowledge I've collected since then.

I hope other people resonate with it, and I do it justice. I felt like, if I was going to broach the subject and we were going to tackle it, there should be thought put behind it rather than like...making a mockery of TV-esque PTSD symptoms that otherwise don't mean anything and go away as soon as its no longer interesting to the plot

#is this too like...i dont know...pleased with myself? #i have spent a lot of time thinking about how im writing this story though #like there are fics where i put care into it because the topic is sensitive and i never want to hurt someone by being careless #or flippant #and ive read fics where its clear the author has specific beliefs and its hurt my feelings a little #obviously this isnt like the end all be all for everyone #every journey is different and everyone experiences trauma in a unique way #this is just one snapshot one perspective

[fiendishartist2]

web avatar jon thoughts i will probably never do anything with:

-joins with the rest of the archival staff-> is brought on (instead of martin) by elias in order to mark sasha with the web, since she didn't have the encounter with mr. spider

-sasha is the archivist now, tim and martin are still archival assistants

-no encounter with the spiral-> no one is replaced by the not-them. smth happens with the web instead (sasha's first mark alongside prentiss+the corruption) and is "resolved" by jon

-jon is antagonistic throughout the first 2 seasons and plays a role similarly to helen (friendly but should not be trusted. hes manipulating them all to do what he wants). he is not in cahoots with jonah (he quite dislikes the man, thinks he takes too much pleasure in ruining the lives of others. at least jon is a mostly neutral party) and does not help in getting sasha marked by the other fears. his involvement with introducing them all to the web is to establish more power for his fear in the archives

-in the third season, however, jon starts to turn his attitude around, esp after leitner's death. he uses his power of manipulation to keep sasha in hiding + help with the investigation. he does not stop puppeting them all in the background, but uses it more to keep them all safe, and less for his own gain

-specifically helps with preventing the unknowing, partially bc he doesnt want the spiral to take over and partitally bc he cares about his friends

-sasha goes through it like canon jon, has a similar relationship to tim as jon did to martin

-jon and martin are still involved, however their relationship prior to s3 is kind of manufactured. jon does and says exactly what they all want to hear to get in their good graces, and it works especially well on martin. s3 onwards features them getting to actually know each other as jon loosens up on messing with their personal lives and focuses on protecting the archives

-daisy and basira are unchanged, however daisy takes a dislike to jon as well as sasha (bloodlust in sasha's case and disgust in jon's. idk if she would want to kill jon too bc his fear manifests much more subtly than sasha's, but i think she would hate him more. maybe that would be reason enough at this point ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯) and basira is more willing to work with jon than she is of sasha. at this point, she is effectively being used by daisy and i dont think she would be able to notice the same behavior in jon

-melanie is unchanged, she still hates being there and gets marked by the slaughter

-tim hates jon even more than in canon-> thinks hes a little creep almost from the beginning and doesnt trust a word he says. finds him much too similar to the spiral and the distortion, 2 fears he has a particular hatred of

-the unknowing team is now comprised of: tim, sasha, melanie, basira and at home are: daisy, jon, and martin. jon weasles his way out of going bc he doesn't like to get directly involved in situations. staying home is much more appealing to him. also, he wants to fuck with elias just as much as martin does. daisy stays (despite wanting to go with basira) bc she wants to kill jon

-martin's confession is left out of this version bc jon is there. however, elias does get martin to stop- not with his insecurity regarding his mother, but with his insecurity regarding jon. he successfully plants a seed of doubt in martin about jon's true intentions, when he brings attention to all of his actions throughout the show (some of which, martin has witnessed and tried to ignore bc he didn't want to face them)

-sasha still goes into a coma, tim still dies (not without apologising to sasha, even if she never hears it bc the unknowing is happening), melanie gets thrown into the buried, basira returns home, daisy is stuggling with the hunt (much like melanie and the slaughter) martin retreats into the lonely, now convinced that all of his friends are dead and the rest cannot be trusted. they successfully get elias arrested and peter lukas takes over running the institute

-jon absolutely despises peter lukas bc of his isolation approach to running the institute; if everyone is seperated, there are no connections to manipulate. bc the web is manifested so strongly throughout the archives, he still has some control, but the ppl he genuinely had relationships with are gone and its much harder to handle

-daisy fights off the flesh, but it leaves her lost to the hunt (how to resolve? maybe she learns to keep it hidden from everyone until she snaps when those monster hunters come at the end of s4. maybe basira helps her through it. melanie still gets to heal, after they take out the bullet and get her out of the archives)

-when sasha comes back, jon clings to the last remaining thread in his web of the archives, becoming her new anchor after tim's death. when she goes into the coffin, he is the one who places all of the recorders on top it and wills her back home, melanie in tow

-at this point, jon has given up any malicious intent he had, as hes seen elias's plan unfurl and works to prevent it (like annabel cane, he knows smth is up). he wants to counter-manipulate everyone into not allowing the apocalypse to happen, basically

-which means he needs to get martin out of the lonely asap. martin joins peter now, not bc he does believe in the extinction, but bc there is nothing else for him in his life and he needs a way to detatch himself from jon, who he thinks has been lying to them all the whole time (finds out hes an avatar of the web some time during sasha's coma). jon manages to convince him their relationship is not entirely built on lies with sasha's help and prevents lukas from taking martin into the tunnels + to the panopticon. they leave just as the hunters arrive

-sasha still escapes into the tunnels (she Knows lukas is down there and potentially elias?) + eviserates peter lukas <3 finds elias

-daisy goes hunter mode and kills julia montauk, basira escapes into the tunnels, daisy hot on her heels after also killing trevor. she meets up with sasha and elias

-like in s5 w georgie + melanie, basira has been finding ways to get rid of the archives altogether, eventually stumbling upon whatever gas thing allows them to blow that shit up in the last episode. in her rage about daisy's decline (as well as her promise to daisy) and everything shes had to do for elias in the past season, she successfully blows up the building, trapping herself, elias, jonah (body), and daisy inside. idk whether sasha should bite the dust or not...... maybe it wouldn't be satisfying, but i think the nature of her character is to not survive and leave you mourning her lol

#i dont love aus honestly #either too similar to canon or too ooc for me #but idk smth about web jon is v interesting to me #i want to know what an annabel cane type would be like in jon's position #also i want to see more of sasha but thats bc i love her lol #im not sure if the ending is satisfying. i think s5 is v specific to jon and martin's canon situations so putting it in an au isnt for me #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #sasha james #timothy stoker #daisy tonner #basira hussain #melanie king #elias bouchard #the web tma #? #my au #my fic #sort of #lol #tma spoilers

[dullahandyke]

>see person with irish mythology url

>'oh sweet i'll check them out'

>pinned post is collage au fic of the ulster cycle

>'We Are Fundamentally Different People'

#absolutely not slagging off this person. godspeed god bless #however as someone who spiritually believes in a lot of irish myth and old religion (not the catholicism) #i am So Incredibly Fucking Cautious abt like. the way ppl treat pantheons and myths as like. fandoms #and like thats not to say u cant make adaptions of myth! ppl do that all the time! #but u have to be cautious not to be disrespectful yknow? #like keep in mind that these are things that genuine people did and do believe in #and if u like. reduce them to incorrect quotes n stuff without being careful its easy to minimise that #esp w minority religions like jesus x judas stuff is probs weird for the christians but i dont care as much abt them #like i feel so so sorry for like. believers in norse greek and roman myth specifically #because theyve become like. pop culture mythology almost #like if i talked abt my faith and people went 'oh like from marvel/percy jackson' i think id fucking bite them #anyway long story short i wont judge u for writing fic n that for myth bcos u could have been careful writing it #but like fuck if im gonna risk reading it to find that out for myself #practically the only 'modernised' gaelic myth i seek out is stuff regarding the dullahan #and thats bcos most of it either conflates it with the headless horseman as in ichabod crane and bram bones #or treats 'dullahan' as a species and isnt specifically about Gan Ceann himself which is where id have potential problems #am i making sense? #fuck knows

[dariadraws]

well it took a few days longer than intended, but as promised, Hot Karkat Summer is upon us. @callmearcturus please accept this humble offering, and thank you as usual for the inspiration. in the words of one Dave Strider, “ Paramilitary Wet Dream Chic never went out of style, apparently.”

#homestuck #karkat vantas #hot karkat summer #you get both shirted and shirtless versions bc i drew the shirt first and got attached #even tho i think it looks better w/o it #anyways YEESH this took me back. last (and only other) time i drew karkat i was still in highschool #can you believe it? wild how time flies #anyways there isnt any like. specific fic/scene this is from i just wanted to draw hot buff karkat w his sickles but needed some kind of bg #so no. i dont know why hes posing in front of a dimly lit brick wall. dont worry about it. the wall is metaphorical or smthg. idk #also i havent decided if his sickles are like. laser or just glowy or what i just thought it looked cool #and kept them visible bc otherwise they kinda just disappear into the bg #ANYWAYS once again thank you archie for your excellent taste and ideas #hot karkat summer is a great ideaand everyone should participate #daria draws #fakdhfgkdjf tumblr i am going to Bite You stop breaking the pings in my gd posts! #if yall saw me post this like 5 miutes ago no you didnt. i didnt just remake this entire post to ensure the tagging worked properly. #if this one doesnt work im gonna start biting for real

[n7punk]

okay weird comment etiquette question for other fic authors only, does anyone else feel weird about comments where people mention other fics by name or link to them?

like for me personally, if someone comments on my celebrity au saying "oh, i just read '[title of another celebrity au for the pairing]' and its so interesting reading such different takes!" that comment isn't insulting to either fic, but especially if i haven't read the other fic or have and found it to have problems (out of character, etc), i don't like it because it almost feels like im endorsing that fic by leaving the link attached to my own work.

i have less of an issue with someone saying "i read a fic where [x] happens and...." (rest of comment, etc) if they dont give the information to find the fic or the author. it can be weird depending on the context, but usually that's fine to me, even if someone else who read that fic might be able to identify it from the comment. Mostly i think that's because there's nothing directly being endorsed/linked for a casual viewer to then go find.

i have no problem with people making rec lists that im on along with others, of course, but having it specifically on my fics/my page feels weird (the context of rec lists is also very different from the context of a comment section). i was wondering how other authors felt about it, though i dont know how common this scenario is. i almost always delete these comments just because they make me uncomfortable and thats reason enough to curate your online experience, but i was curious

#not rebloggable because i dont think that would introduce anything except increased chance of bad faith opinions #but i would love replies/messages from those that post fics on ao3 #and elsewhere too i guess #mylife #i think the only time ive ever left such a comment up is when it was specifically about my friend's fic so like. #i knew it was all good and we were both chill with it and i liked the fic XD #i dont know if i would be comfortable with it in literally any other context lol #also ive had this happen (in both ways ive described above) a few times so dont worry about it if it was you #this isnt a specific callout it just came up again recently and i was like this Bothers me #i also just paraphrased how i remember these types of comments going #again not supposed to be a callout for anyone in particular

[kennys-parka-jacket]

The way some people in this fandom write about sex work is so funny oh my god

#This isnt about anyone specific; i just read some fics by several different authors and all of them made me laugh #My favorite sp fic trope ever is 'kenny commits a federal crime for one (1) meal' #Not money to buy a meal either. Usually it's not even good food. Risking jail time for a big mac #I know he's cheap and desperate but damn lol

[wander-wren]

ugh i hate when my prose isn’t working. if it’s just my dialogue than fine, i’m good at that but i expect a few “he would not fucking say that”s in every fic so i’m not mad about fixing that.

but my descriptions and everything? it bothers me soo fucking much. i know what my writing feels like and this aint it so?? excuse??

#bird noises #fanfiction #on writing #writer problems #if you think you know what fic this is about #well it is about one specifically but i’m blocked on five wips at the moment so none are really working #also this isnt a midnight panic thought bc i was thinking it at 5pm #so THERE #i legitimately think i’m going to have to rewrite a oneshot. like fully. and its not even done. and im mad about it #again i’ve been thinking this for two days #i’ll give it a little longer tho. see if the block resolves itself and i hate everything less

[netscapenavigaytor]

if i had a nickel for every time while headcanoning character dynamics that don't exist much in canon, i ended up making the fan-favorite yaoi pairing instead a worryingly toxic friendship that's only hanging on by a thread, i would have two nickels but it's weird that it happened twice

#error 0 #i have a migraine right now. i am not sure why having migraines makes me more likely to muse on tumblr abt random shit #anyway for the curious this post is about magolor x marx kirby #but also abt beat x yoyo jet set radio #and while i say ''its weird that it happened twice'' its. probably happened more tjan that and i just forget lmao #i imagine to some extent its just me being petty and contrarian cuz im not particularly shippy #and also tend to be a Hater at certain ships for very particular and nonsensical reasons #but... this specific result of that feels. very Bizarre and i dont know why its happened twice #in this similar a form (even if uhh one of these friendships is SIGNIFICANTLY more toxic than the other) #(finiteverse marx and magolor should stop interacting. for everyone's sake but esp their own.) #i dont have a conclusion here though. #maybe this is just because im obsessed with making emotionally inept deranged weirdguys #and so like 70% of character dynamics that creates are at least a little bit unhealthy JDJAKDJSJDJ #(maybe it is for the better that i don't care much for shipping.) #(alternate timeline ----- shipfic author: only writes fics that make you think ''oh god please break up IMMEDIATELY'') #HELP ACTUALLY WHILE TYPING THIS I JUST REMEMBERED #THE ONR TIME I CAN THINK OF THAT I WROTE A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP (WAS A CHARACTER STUDY NOT SHIPPING) #WAS LIKE HYPER TOXIC AND AWFUL AND WAS EXPLICITLY THE CAUSE OF EVERY BAD THING IN THE STORYLINE #(this isnt counting stuff thats like ''there was a relationship in the past but its over now'' or ''there COULD have been one but wasnt'') #(i am only talking specifically me writing the point in time that the relationship was HAPPENING) #welcome to netscapenavigaytor where love loses forever #i shpuld stop rambling in these tags. this is silly #can you tell im bored and suffering from brain pain soup. #and also perpetually want to talk about characters SO badly but never know how to start a convo or who to start it with #oh well

[stinkrascal]

Most accurate take on Clint. Weird how everyone has such a distorted view that ignores the actual canon entirely.

yessss its just so weird how people characterize him when theres no contextual evidence for any of what theyre saying

#jade answers #anonymous #tbh i dont care that much about sticking to canon on most things #like i cant care less about sticking to ea lore. i always ignore it in preference of my own headcanons lol #but this specific thing annoys me so much #like at least on simblr you can have a hc that isnt canon to ea but then you can explore that hc thoroughly in a story/gameplay #so its like even if it isnt canon theres still contextual evidence in your own story that the hc is relevant to the character #meanwhile the ppl who make these headcanons about clint arent doing it for storytelling purposes you know lol #they just have that hc about clint because someone on reddit said it first and theyre not capable of analyzing the media they consume #lol like if someone wrote an intricate sdv fic about clint being an incel id be like yeah thats fine. bc at least theres context #but if you just say hes an incel and your 'context' is the game itself which gives NO context to that hc then i rage

[semercury]

I'm having many thoughts about fictional characters. No I'm not going to share them.

#stuff sarah says #(its bc theyre incoherent thoughts shhhh) #rotating some new blorbos... drawing some stars and question marks around their faces... #also i want to write fic for this series?? but idk how?? #i wouldnt know what to do #i just want to point at certain characters and be like look at him. hes fucking pathetic. i love him #and look at him!!! hes Just Some Guy!!!! and thats what makes him great!!!! you go you funky ball of positivity!!! #and look at her!!!!! shes so cool!!!! and smart!!!! im not smart enough to write her!!! #look at this guy!! he feels like shit! isnt he relatable??? #look at this other guy! he also feels like shit but is somehow even more pathetic about it than the last guy!! #look at this bitch! shes fucking crazy!!! i relate to her!! but in a different way than i relate to the first fucker who stole my symptoms #look at this girl!!!! she is so sweet and cute and i think she deserves the world!!! #and like. thats it. i have no plots. just pointing #mega bonus points of you can tell me which characters are which fhfjdjdh #bc yes im thinking of v specific characters for each tag ghjdjd

[bananonbinary]

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#fan wank / #just tried to read a fic that had a whole long scene #about how nandor is just a White Guy and he doesnt know ANYTHING about racism what an asshole #i mean. he IS an asshole but he's LITERALLY iranian???? #you think someone from iran SPECIFICALLY has never dealt with racism in america????? #like id accept 'doesnt know about racism because he's an oblivious ass who doesnt notice what the people around him think' #but you cant just declare him white when its very much a part of his character that he isnt

[femme-malewife]

How do I let someone know that their fic has actually helped me feel like I can probably come to term with my religious trauma without actually trauma dumping them?

Asking for a friend.

#i know im till trying to face it but #whenever i read/reread it #that fic specifically #i feel like its possible for me to face the religious trauma ive been through #even if its only a bit #for those who dont know... #which is pretty much everyone except like 3 people #and im only saying this here because i dont think anyone reads my tags #but #i was born and raised in a cult #it took over 20 years to realize this #im trying to unteach myself all of the indoctrination #its not easy #but im doing my best #i still get severe anxiety attacks when i think abt what i am #sometimes it can dissolve into a full scale panic attack #there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about it #some ships remind me too much of the cult. its why i cant stand the Mischief Guy x Innocent Girl trope #im not gonna dive too much into detail but lets just leave that at that okay? #its a big reason i dont like hetlip ships #it genuinely reminds me of darker times. more isolated times. times where i felt as though im nothing more than a puppet #for the damn congregation to string along #where i have no control of my life #so while i do respect people who ship those tropes. i make sure the words are hidden. #anyway thats not what this is about. at all. i got off topic. #idk im not feeling all that great rn mentally. might reread that fic again to try to help