I am obsessed with the idea of Kyojuro falling for someone completely different than him, kinda like in uninterested but in my mind they actually have arguments (nothing major obv) and at first he doesn't have any interest in pushing it to be friends. Then suddenly everything he believes in (that love is supposed to be easy, always sweet, never complicated, recognizable) is shattered as he understands that love can in fact be complicated, difficult, not perfect, and that's okay. Idk if you like the idea but I just wanted to share!
a/n: honestly opposites-attracting, but only after turmoil is such a good trope but so overlooked imo- since i dont consider it enemies-lovers (theyre clearly distinctly different asldkfjasdf). also why is it hard to write like a passive-slightly aggressive rengoku? (it shouldn't be considering when he first met tanjiro his mind was literally 'execute child' LMFAO)
also, slight warning bc sanemi and you get into a fist fight lol (very confrontational y/n)
additionally: im not very happy with the outcome of this, and on top of that it's pretty short but hNNG i couldn't just keep this in my draft so im releasing it into the wild and ruNNING away
kyojuru is a certified optimist with the skills to back up his optimism
so when you entered his life with a polar opposite attitude, he tried thinking nothing of it
but your constant need to tell him that his optimism is suffocating or stiffling or even 'unrealistic' really grinded on his gears and even he has a limit
kyojuro is a good man, but he isnt a saint
at first it started with small little jabs to try and appease you when you would start talking about whatever came out of your mouth
"you should focus on training and not speaking so much"
"your pessimism is truly deep-seated, isn't it?"
"y/n, please less talking more action"
then somehow, it escalated
you both would bicker constantly- like a rat testing it's luck against a predator owl
it got to the point the hashira ranks and even kagaya knew of your distaste for each other and even teased you both about it
you both would argue over such simple, stupid things
so imagine his inner shock when he saw you caught in a screaming match against shinazugawa one day
arguing with sanemi was already a deadend road, hes about as hardheaded as a bull and will butt heads until he's knocked on his ass or unconscious
kyojuro wondered for the briefest of moments if you both looked like you did now, up in sanemi's face yelling at him while he yelled back trying to fight for the high ground
however, arguments with sanemi never lasted long- but that didn't mean the situation was resolved. they never lasted long because he almost always start a fistfight
and he will fight you no matter who you are- feminist sanemi says 'equal rights, equal fights'. his fists are rated E-for literally everyone
the moment you swung first- taking the one thing away from him that he had (the ability to strike first) it all just snowballed
you both were scrapping around in the dirt and grass and for some reason kyojuro didn't like it
there was a small scene of familiar faces around, all sighing and shaking their heads at the fight like it was just an ordinary day
but kyojuro strangely felt compelled to act- so he did
he quickly intervened, breaking up the fight between you and sanemi. he yanked you behind him, gripping your wrist and keeping you at his back so you didn't run or try to go after the wind hashira again
while kyojuro was confident he could hold you back, he was less certain he could do that and keep sanemi at bay as well, so he quickly took off. draggin you behind him by the wrist
when you both got far enough away, kyojuro made you sit down in front of him as he inspected your face
typical fistfight injuries scattered your skin and you refused to look at him, a scowl on your face the whole time he was inspecting you
"why do you care?" you had asked him and for some reason, it irked him but also hurt him
was he not supposed to care?
sure you got on his nerves and he wouldn't say he was exactly friends with you, but-
"i do not wish to see you injured, is that so wrong?"
"you didn't care before"
"that is not true!"
he yelled at you, just like he always did when you antagonized him- but this time it was different
he wasn't arguing because you pushed him, he was arguing because you were wrong and he did care
he did and hes finally realizing it
he didn't want you to be hurt and he didn't want you to fight with others- deep down he didn't even want you fighting with him
he wanted to form a better relationship with you- a bond with you like he has with others
kyojuro wanted to try and fix this messed up way you two communicated and he knew it would suck and you'd probably fight him the entire process
then he laughed, loud and long to himself at the though of it
you fighting him on not wanting to fight anymore?
that's just like you-
and he cared about all of you, like it or not
not exactly flashy but it is pretty fast, like, 2-4 clips per second
inspiration (in music, style, theme even, accidentally, i basically copied the whole thing)
so i melted all the words in my thasmissy fic, added yazs sexual awakening and whipped it until it formed peaks, carefully folded in the doctor’s childhood trauma, added a pinch of missys whole situation with clara, poured it all into my video editor and i baked it for two weeks at whatever temperature my laptops processor gets when i run premiere. this is the result, entitled: With The Power Of The Kuleshov Effect I Can Make Thasmin Kiss
the story of this fic is that yaz and 13 travelling after revolution at some point run into missy because lo and behold one of missys doctor-catching traps actually works and she has successfully lured in a doctor. too bad it’s the wrong one.
when 13 realises this is missy circa s9, pre-vault times, she gets it into her pretty little traumatised head that if she reforms this missy, then the doctor falls doesnt happen, the master doesnt happen, gallifrey doesnt happen, she can get her friend back and undo the destruction of gallifrey, and maybe even unknow the things shes learnt about the timeless child
obviously this is 1) incredible ‘your control freakiness is making you disrespect your friends’ autonomies and also is gonna get you all hurt’ behaviour, and 2) a very bad idea because rewriting not just your own personal timeline but also the master’s and also yaz’s (and bill’s and nardole’s, like a ‘how many of your friends can you hurt at once’ bingo and shes winning) is gonna result in some very unsustainable and very painful paradoxes. which she cant tell yaz or missy about because they’d get rightfully mad for starters and also because neither of them know Anything about s10. so 13 is like ‘im gonna quietly suffer as i try to rewrite the last century and a half of my life’ in some clara-like mindset of “i am owed”
she doesnt deserve it but she is owed. she wants these people in her life. and shes sick of losing. so shes just gonna take what she wants.
so vault times 2.0, which is actually 1.0 for missy and shes not actually in a vault shes just hanging out with them in the tardis, basically skipping the first 70 years of the vault times bc she proves herself in the first chapter by stepping in front of yaz as shes about to get shot (was this on purpose? nobody’s sure). the doctor is still as distant as they were during the vault times. for reasons of traumatised and also it hurts to rewrite your timeline so shes Not Feeling Great and ALSO because cant accidentally let missy know what shes doing if they touch and she reads her mind.
thats whats happening, but thats not actually what the fic is about. because we’re in yaz’s pov. she has no idea about all of the doctor’s great life choices until the end when it explodes in all their faces. so what the fic is actually about is yaz having realised shes in love with the doctor but not knowing what that means, and by lack of any help from the doctor to figure out what it means, she turns to the only other person available, who is also in love with the doctor so thats great, but it’s the worst love you can imagine so thats less great. nothing good comes of any of this.
im not sure i will finish this fic but since making this video i got less stuck on it so i have hope. needs a lot of editing though so we’ll see. in the meantime have the film adaptation.
it’s about the stuff that gets stuck in our body that we cant touch, it’s about the intermingling of pleasure and pain, desire and disgust, it’s about the crossed wires and situations where youre not sure you can leave but also not sure you want to and whats the chicken and whats the egg there. it’s about unravelling ourselves like timelines unravel, with lots of blood and guts and ghosts, not pretty and not painless and not knowing what we’ll be at the end of it. it’s about all the things we havent told ourselves.
there are two versions, one with dialogue one without, because i think i managed to convey the story with just images very well, i did it with dialogue too, as well as with them combined. and i think you can see different things when the dialogue is off. like really appreciate the kuleshov in certain moments you know? i just like both versions so you get them both. bon appétit
editor’s commentary 1: intro
editor’s commentary 2: shame
editor’s commentary 3: the gay part
4.1 repeated clips: stake & snake
May I ask your opinion on the Rise of Skywalker? Also, Rogue One and The Mandalorian are the shit, fuck yeah!
rogue one and the mandalorian are a BREATH of fresh air! i love the skywalkers and that saga will always hold a incredibly huge, special place in my heart but i’m really excited to see where disney will go beyond that. they have tons and tons of material to sift though, so, it’ll be super interesting to see where they’ll take us since i really can’t see them stopping SW content any time soon.
as for the tros… i’ve seen it (5) times, pretty much went and saw it every single day after it released last thursday night, so, it’s pretty obvious that i loved every single minute of it despite the glaring issues it had both with characterization and script. and it’s because i (personally) got what i wanted out of the film; i got ben solo the way i had always pictured him to be for five minutes, i got the new trio truly interacting together, i got to see leia one final time, i got the raw, intense saber fight between kylo ren and rey that i had been waiting for, i got nostalgia, i cried until i had snot coming out of my nose. it was everything ( I ) could have possibly wanted in a film ending a saga that defined my childhood.
but, that doesn’t make it a great film, in fact it’s probably the weakest in the whole saga (probably a little above aotc and rotj…don’t @ me i just hated those two when i was a kid, it’s like i have a vendetta against them at this point) and i think that has to do with a multitude of factors; messy production, last minute changes, fans having too much of a say in what should happen (which i think diminishes the director / writers / studios creative integrity GREATLY, and that’s a damn shame). there were a lot of loose ends that weren’t tied up and a lot of decisions that were made that just didn’t quite hit the mark, but, i’m willing to look past some of them as i’m noticing new things about the film every time I watch it.
it’s not a movie for all fans, that’s incredibly clear to me. i think after the backlash with tlj, disney wanted to cater to EVERYONE and in turn, they shot themselves in the foot. you either hate it, love it, or find that middle ground where you realize it could have been done much better, but, choose to find parts of it that mattered the most to you.