#this one's actually pretty much done im not sure why i haven't posted it yet hlgkjdnflsdf

[hergrandplan]

Hey Nina 💜,

I was wondering about 🌀❄️🌩️ for the writer asks.

Hope you're having a beautiful day!

Hi Sophia, I hope you're having a wonderful day too!!

🌀Post the fic summary for a fic you haven't written/published yet. It can be hypothetical or something you really plan on releasing...

Simply because @bigalockwood shared her end of the deal... (like hers, I am writing summary right now, no other part of this fic exists yett but... it will. this summary is a lot less long though so i apologize if you expected more sakldgj)

If there's one thing you can be sure about when it comes to a Simon Eriksson music video, it's that Wille's going to be in it, one way or another.

Or: despite growing protests of directors and producers, Simon and Wille do everything in their power to get Wille a cameo in every. single. music video

❄️Share a snippet from a WIP of your choosing.

okay i took the longest time debating over what to share and mostly, whether im not plugging this fic that won't go up for months too much but.... have the first few passages of a fic that i'm way too excited about

“I’m going to the Oscars, of course I’m going to bring my best friend as a plus one.”

The video cut to a shot of Felice Ehrencrona, former-actress-turned-food-influencer, walking arm in arm with former Crown Prince Wilhelm, laughing at some joke the audience wasn’t privy to. Simon scrolled past it, onto the next video, the same trend but a different person. “I’m an older sibling, of course”. He closed the app, choosing to stare out the window, watching the LA skyline pass by instead.

Why the Oscars thought it a smart idea to also start inviting influencers, despite the backlash other award shows like the Grammy’s and even the MET gala had received over doing exactly that, was beyond him.

It’s not like anyone actually cared enough about them, and people would only complain about it online.

Plus, what right did they have to be there? It was an award show for actors and actresses. And sure, Felice had done some acting gigs in the beginning of her career, but that was years ago. Inviting influencers took the whole prestige out of it. And to bring the former crown prince with her on top of that? Ugh.

Simon already found it hard enough that he had to deal with actual celebrities who’d probably manage to complain about every minor detail, and now he had to deal with influencers as well? Who somehow had gotten the thought in their head that they were even better than anyone else?

And not to mention a former crown prince, who probably had everything that ever happened to him, every opportunity, just handed to him on a silver platter, and who had never been told no or what he could or couldn’t do.

Maybe Simon should also hop on the trend.

“I’m going to be working at the Oscars, of course someone is going to yell at me because I brought them a regular coke instead of a diet.”

What a glamourous life he had.

🌩️ Share something funny/cracky from your WIP.

Simon sat down on the couch next to Wille, the widest grin possible on his face and a sparkle in his eyes. “I met someone. And I’m pretty sure he’s the one.”

“You said that about the previous guy. And the guy before that. And the guy before that.”

“Yeah, but this time I’m sure of it.” Simon fell back against the couch cushions, and ran a hand through his black curls. “He’s sweet, and considerate, and incredible in bed. I mean the way he–“

“Okay, okay, I do not need to hear you go on about your sexual escapades again, please. Where did you meet him?”

Simon’s hand got stuck in his curls, and he blushed. Actually blushed, and that’s how Wille knew the answer.

“Please don’t say the club.”

Simon didn’t reply.

“Simon, we talked about this. Not every guy you fuck is the one.”

Come ask me about WIPs! (and i have too many so repeats are fine)

#i have like . 2 wips im actually working on versus a bunch of wips that are just a few paragraphs #so there are only a few things i can actually pull answers from

[utilitycaster]

@burr-ell replied to your post “Just saw someone posit that Bor’Dor is secretly a...”:

hold up i think im missing something, what's moon theory??

So: it's been long enough and we've gotten enough actual moon lore since that I no longer go full Kill Bill sirens, and I've had several dubious wine cooler freezer pop...things so let's do this.

The basic gist of the most well-known moon theory is that Fjord is from the moon. I do not recall if it specified which moon. I am not, to be honest, entirely sure if the people who put forth this theory were aware that Exandria had two moons. I think they were aware it had multiple moons but I am not positive that at the time of the theory they could name them.

Of course, there is lore. I'm not up on all of it and as mentioned, drinking, and it was like, not quite three years ago when it reached its height and I haven't rewatched the video that caused this to circulate on Tumblr since. If you want to watch the full video, which is very stupid and poorly edited, you can watch it here.

Anyway: the theory was that Fjord, a half-orc, was actually one of the space orcs from the Spelljammer setting, which are "cleverly" called Scro. (This is also the origin story on why I immediately assume that anyone super into Spelljammer has the cognitive capabilities of a grilled cheese sandwich, an assumption that has not yet failed me.) The reason why was that he was "too small" to be a half-orc (he's on the small side but, contrary to what fanartists will have you believe, well within normal bounds of half-orc sizes) and also he was too smart to be an orc. This, when you realize this video was made in August 2020, ie, many discussions about racial essentialism in general and in D&D specifically are being had, really gives you a sense of the brain trust we are working with here.

The basis of the theory beyond that is...incomprehensible. It mostly rests on panels in which Matt is like "yeah Spelljammer sure does exist" or the fact that Travis, when asked point blank if Fjord was from the moon, gave the sort of "what the FUCK" stare one might expect. Apparently the video is about other moon theories as well but I could not tell you what they were because it's mostly just a series of (poorly) edited clips in which the moon is mentioned. There is no thesis. There is no argument. It's the Moon Moon of YouTube videos. I do distinctly remember that Keyleth being a Circle of the Moon druid is mentioned for no particular reason other than the word "Moon" is there. It's essentially a compilation of times the word "moon" exists. It's so fucking stupid. It also, as I recall, and I want to note at this point that I've done a significant amount undergrad-level work in astronomy and cosmology so you can see how painful this is to me, rested heavily on not understanding that the Astral Plane and Outer Space are different locations. But it is almost an hour long, and again, it aired in August 2020 with all that entails, so it unfortunately caught on like Circle of the Moon Wildfire.

Anyway. The point is that some people took "if you can't blind them with brilliance, dazzle them with bullshit" very much to heart and there was a month or so in the CR fandom where everyone was like "lol Fjord is an alien from the moon haha" which very much sucked, but fortunately, and I cannot believe I'm saying this, the shipping discourse of Rumblecusp served as a fucking balm in comparison since at least it was fandom bullshit as usual rather than a no intelligent life on this planet scenario, though it was definitely being unfunnily joked about for quite some time after. I'm sure it has pockets of supporters somewhere but I think anyone watching Campaign 3 can feel confident that it's been soundly debunked.

Anyway I searched my blog and I found this from that era which, if I do say so myself, is pretty funny.

#burr-ell #cr tag

[ltleflrt]

oh lol, I finished watching HB like last week, but i haven't dipped into fandom yet so i didn't realize this comparison was something being done elsewhere as well! Mostly im rewatching the episodes. Honestly to me, the comparison is a bit superficial and has more in common with earlier/mid-season canon trope buckets and how the characters are written in AU fics, rather than how they are like in later seasons of SPN. (the DeanCas dynamic shifted a lot over 12 yrs imo!)

Most superficial thing - the Stolas-Cas owl /headtilt connection. 🦉😂 But Stolas is also a deeply lonely but repressed and dutiful member of a provileged higher class / 'better' group of beings, where he never quite fit in despite being well-placed. It was a meeting with Blitz that put his entire life into a different trajectory, where he finally started to feel things and question his previous life, and ended up forsaking that old perfect life for associating with a guy from a 'lower' class of beings, that he faces derision from his peers for. He is naive to the ways of the world, but willing to learn, even as he is often quite unintentionally derogatory about imps. (this often happened with early Cas) He also has a strong love for his child and a strong connection to the identity of being a father, even though that journey is rocky. He seems to have grown up alone and yet part of a innumerable nameless horde of siblings with a largely absent father, and it is later revealed that the fascination of Blitz and his doubts and unhappiness actually predates the supposedly "first" meeting when they started associating.

The relationship in the beginning is transactional (though in very different ways for both ships), but slowly and surely evolves beyond that. Stolas, despite being much for powerful in supernatural ways, Blitz's is often the one taking the lead and Stolas let's him. Even as Blitz secretely actually thinks Stolas is completely out-of-his-league and is just putting up with him, because he's the toxic guy who everyone leaves if they have a choice and only puts up with if they have to. Then there's the growing up in a nomadic lifestyle with a not-so-great dad, and dead mom in a fire! Right now you could consider the Barbie Wire and Blitz relationship in the Stanford-era!Sam and Dean zone, but clearly Blitz has very strong feelings about his sibling with whom he was close growing up.

lol I was in the tags 5 minutes after the last episode, looking for fanart to reblog. If you want to dip your toes in, I recommend blocking some tags, because the fandom and ship tags are full of antis who need to go watch a different show because they really hate this one and I don't understand why they're still here? Go touch grass, folks. But at least they're pretty good at tagging their hate. I've blocked "anti stolitz", "stolitz critical", "anti vivziepop", and "vivziepop critical" and that seems to have caught most of it.

Thanks for coming back with an explanation! That's way better than the posts I'd seen about it, and I think you're right about the parallels. I think my mental block on it comes from the fact that I ship them for different reasons.

Dean and Cas are reluctant allies at first who become close friends, and there are things keeping them from moving past that. They're always dealing with world ending events that take priority over their own personal drama, and they both fundamentally misunderstand each other's love languages and think things are one sided. I ship them in a star crossed lovers kinda way.

Blitz and Stolas are interesting to me specifically because it started out as a fucked up bargain where Stolas was using Blitz for kinky sex, and Blitz was Not Into It. The power imbalance and dubcon was HOT. And when I found out that Stolas was married too, I was like aw yeah, this guy's a bag of dicks, and he's shoving them into all of Blitz' holes.

Delicious toxicity mmmm.... And then...AND THEN...it's slowly revealed that they both want something more, and Stolas only made the deal because he thought that was the only way he could get Blitz to come back. And it didn't even occur to Blitz that Stolas could feel anything for him because of their class differences.

In the episode that ends with Blitz going "he can get hurt?" with shock and confusion, omg I about fell off the couch. Because on the surface he's talking about physical injuries, but in subtext he's talking about Stolas getting his feelings hurt too. *chef's kiss* ugh it's so fucking good.

Come to think of it, you could make that another Destiel parallel, since Dean doesn't think Cas is capable of feeling romantic love. Now that you've given me a few points of entry, I'm going to start connecting dots all over the place lol

#ltleramblings #reply #anonymous

[cryptidclaw]

Ooooo I love your au sm I'm pretty sure you can tell lmao

How far have you planned your story so far? (Like up to Oots or Avos) I've seen Alderbaby and Spark ik but how far have you written your au?

bro- BOTH of ur asks disappeared until I emptied my ask box and reloaded it.... Tumblr WHY???

anywayssss

I have pretty much fully planned The Prophecies Begin, every once and a while I add new things (which reminds me I need to update my summary post lol)

I pretty much have the new prophecy planned out and I have like half the summary written up, I just haven't finished it bec ADHD says no whenever I look at that doc T-T

I have a pretty good Idea for what I want to happen in Po3 and I really wish that I had the gumption to finish my TNP summary so I could start working on the Po3 one LOL

I have very little ideas for arcs after that, I have some basic thoughts on where I would want the plot to go for OotS but I haven't read past Po3 so I dont have many plans for those yet. I think I will wait until Im done planning out arcs 1-3 before I move on to other arcs!

I drew Spark and Alder bec I really like them and also bec I wanted to draw all of Crowfeather and Squirrelflight's children. But beyond them being CrowSquirrel kits I have no clue how I would change their plots heh

OH also I should note: Im not planning on writing an actual rewrite for the series, Im just throwing out my ideas, writing summaries and making designs and such! I dont have enough time to write a full fic or anything... plus Im not a very good writer :P

MAYBE one day I will actually write something... but that day is far far away from now and may never happen lol

#cryptid answers #cryptidclaw's warriors au #rise of change

[dreamsicle262]

alrr here we go

1.) what’s your favorite fic that you’ve written and why?

2) who’s your favorite character to write? are they the easiest to write and/or your favorite outside of writing or not?

3) uhh im bad at questions i noticed 2 of your fics are aus (sheep to the slaughter looks FANTASTIC just from the tags i am so excited to read it), do you just like writing aus more or are they easier to write or do the ideas just come to you? this is more from a writer standpoint since i’ve always liked aus but dont know how to write them 😭

sorry if these turned ask gamey shdhdjs

alright choosing a fav fic of mine was kinda hard because two of them are really good contenders, but i'd say that i like the 'like sheep to the slaughter' one because i've been working on it for a longer amount of time, it has vampires in it, and the entire fic is technically dedicated to chuuya due to it being posted on his birthday. i had been working on it for months beforehand and specifically waited until his bday to actually post it, and i've been trying to update it pretty regularly for about 4-ish months now.

My favorite character to write has to be mmmmaybe dazai (chuuya could also apply because i have a pretty good grasp on his behavior! im also pretty sure i could write really well for other bsd characters but i haven't really done that yet). i don't know. there's just something about how contradictory he can be that makes me want to explore his character more. It's pretty easy for me to write pretty much any character though because i have a habit of putting myself in their shoes and try to see things from their perspective. i can't really choose a fav outside of writing though lol

both aus and the canon timeline are easy for me to write! the ideas i have all come to me randomly and i sometimes have way too many to write immediately but i write them and their general plot outline somewhere for later. i could write something for the canon timeline, like a 'what if' situation, but i do tend to invest more of my time in my aus instead

#dream answers🖋️

[sagemoderocklee]

3, 17, 23, 25, 27, 28 (sorry if it’s too much!)

This is absolutely the opposite of too much. this is perfect, thank you anon!

3. What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?

I wouldn't call anything I do 'cursed' or 'feral' (referencing one of the previous questions i answered), but as far as my ritual goes: i gotta have my tea, sometimes also a snack; i pull out all the notebooks and books im gonna need and set up both my laptops--my busted ass writing laptop and my main laptop which i use for everything else, and thus my research laptop--and i set it all up in my living room to get to work. i also open at least ten different documents before i actually do any writing because i can never decide what to work on

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

this i will answer in a separate post because it's gonna be.... stupid long and im gonna read more that. will link it on this post once it's done, too.

23. Describe the physical environment in which you write. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me what’s around you as you work. Paint me a picture.

My living room tends to be the main place I write. The walls are a soft, seafoam or mint green (depending on who you talk to), but for visualization it's the same color as Gaara's eyes, though I picked it because it's very mermaidy and it's very soothing, not to mention bright. the room is very small, so it's on a little on the cramped side but cozy. there's a futon, a side table with a purple lamp, a coffee table, a tv on a small table, a couple short shelves of DVDs, a door-less closet overflowing with fabric i haven't been able to use yet, a desk, and a large bookshelf with notebooks, fabric, and plants.

the futon is covered with pillows of all kinds. sometimes the cat will saunter into the room, sometimes he decides to curl on the futon next to me. it's usually chilly in the room because of the window that's right where the futon is and again it's a tiny room, so i usually have my space heater on and the hum is just a nice gentle background noise to pair with the clacking of keys.

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

i feel like this is referencing OCs for original writing, so like im not sure the best way to answer this but i'll try. it's kinda... hard to say cause i think some of my hyper-specific hcs do end up becoming relevant in stories, just not relevant in every story, ya feel me?

okay struggling to think here because i feel like a lot of my like hyper-specific hcs are honestly in use rn, but one of them that's not is that Kankuro definitely has a few bastard kids out there in the world because he gets around. he's made a point of never having any flings with anyone in suna or any kunoichi, but he's def gone on missions outside of Wind (and even within Wind) where he's met a pretty lady and, despite all precautions, gotten someone knocked up. which isn't to say kankuro is a deadbeat absentee father, because if he knew about the kids he would 10000% be showin up for them. he just straight up doesn't know about em.

27. Who is the most stressful character you’ve ever written? Why?

Hands down, Hinata. She's basically a piece of cardboard with boobs as far as the canon goes, so writing her in a way that gives her any depth of personality is hard largely because I cannot stand her or what she represents--male fantasy, used to prop up the hero, only goal is Naruto, etc. I want to like writing her and making her an individual, but she is absolutely the most unappealing and uninteresting character in all of Naruto. tragically, her presence is not always one i can ignore in fics that focus on larger things, such as The Allied Nations Saga and TAoL. thankfully, it's not too often I'm forced to write her, and due to a random joke that actually had appeal, shipping her with Kankuro makes her more interesting funnily enough, which is why I actually enjoyed including her in Kado.

28. Who is the most delightful character you’ve ever written? Why?

Probably Kankuro. He is so funny and crass, but in such a charming way. I have such a soft spot for him and think he's just very intriguing, and allows for good comedic relief. Plus, because he tends to err on the side of comedic relief, when he's serious it's a great way of highlighting just how bad a situation is, and i do love when he gets to be serious too. he's just a very versatile character, and i think it's fun to write him.

#ask game answers #naruto

[musashi]

hi! its the anon who sent you the message yesterday about being a poc and therefore understanding how much this situation sucks. (mentioned how you wrote my favorite fic too)

i think whats most baffling is a lot of people are taking this criticism of jojo as a personal attack almost. i dont know much about what she's done, since im very new here, but the fact that theres a pattern of not acknowledging what shes done wrong and sweeping stuff under the rug doesnt speak well of her as a person.

criticism is how people learn and grow, something that jojo seems to unfortunately not want to do. when you are creating something and you share it with other people, you ALWAYS have to try to be conscious about what you say and do, and how that will affect them. this applies to everyone from famous artists to fanfiction authors.

people have the right to be angry. people have the right to not want to accept her apology. everyone whos saying people are overreacting and they should log off don't realize that they themselves can also just log off and not see what people are saying.

jojo can also just log off, dissappear for a while, and post the next update like nothing happened because there will always be people who support her. jojo still has the support of people who are saying that people, systems, are dogpilling jojo and being dramatic. people will still continue to consume canon content and talk about LU.

sorry for the long ask again, just needed to get this off my chest. you don't have to answer it!

yeah. i know a lot of the ppl in the LU fandom are probably young and haven't yet learned about how horrible it is to attune yourself to a creator you look up to, and i'm trying to just stay in my corner and not engage with those people. but at the same time i think a lot of these folks are just grown adults who havent grown out of the toxic positivity mindset or the inability to look at what they like critically

and yeah, this weird line of logic where "well, she doesn't HAVE to share her art with us! we're not entitled to it!" is a very weird deflection. of course no one is entitled to content, but when you as an artist put that content out in the world you are opening it up to discussion. when you have an audience like jojo you have to consider the impact you are making as well. you can make whatever art you like, but you need to also consider what messages you're sending with it and how people will receive it. the ideal when you're making art is to make the world a better place, regardless of what kind of story you're telling.

it is REALLY strange how many people i have in my inbox right now acting like i am sitting here at my keyboard, shaking from anger and obsessing over the movements of some stranger who draws a zelda comic. i'm getting leveled all these accusations of leading some online army or attacking/harassing people and encouraging my followers do the same, its fucking bizarre. im literally just sitting here at my retail job eating a sandwich. when im done with the sandwich im gonna go stock product and think about franziska von karma kissing maya fey. like, this is. this is just a blog i run. i'm just a person speaking my mind. why would i interact with people who think i'm less than human? im blocking people silently and i'm answering asks from people seeking community and support.

but jojo's stans are sure fucking attacking me! i counted, i woke up this morning to almost twenty rude messages from people telling me to leave the LU fandom and calling me all manner of horrible things. i did not publish all of them because some of them were pretty vile but there's a small taste of the kind of people defending her rn.

you're absolutely right. jojo will quite literally always have people defending her, because at the end of the day some people care about their blorbos more than actual human people. she's seen her following, she knows that, and that's why she keeps sending out these nonapologies. and i'm gonna keep calling them what they are--absolute bullshit--until i've made enough noise that either she shapes up, or people in this community exhibit some more compassion for all the people she's hurt. that might look like obsession to her stans--probably them projecting--but right now it is 9 am and i am eating a sandwich at my retail job, and my break is over now so i'm gonna go daydream some franmaya.

[ptergwen]

hi val! i was wondering if you could write a blurb of tom x reader? where maybe both of them are best friends but drifted apart and haven't talked in weeks, but suddenly tom appears in the reader's doorstep, soaking wet from the heavy rain, asking her if he could stay for awhile because it's not safe to go anywhere when it's pouring? and then they make up in the end and confess?? im so sorry if this is too long

hi you’re fine love!!

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you haven’t seen tom in weeks. not in person, not over facetime, you haven’t even been liking his posts. he’s not sure what happened to make you so distant. you’re not either. you were cuddling on his couch one night, and the thought that you want this to be a forever thing crept into your mind. it didn’t feel right. it scared you. you’re not supposed to feel that way about your best friend.

so, you decided you’d spend some time away from him. maybe it was just an in the moment thing. you’d get over it soon. only, that hasn’t happened. you imagine his goofy smile and fingers poking you and that’s it. you don’t want to ruin your friendship over a stupid crush. you’re not seeing him until you get over it.

it’s been storming the past few days. you usually like to have tom over or go to his place with weather like this. he’ll tease you for being scared of some rain at first, then he’ll actually comfort you. he makes tea and hugs you close. you miss that right now. you’re also worried about how he’s doing. his area floods pretty easily. you start typing out a text, but end up deleting it. it’s not time yet.

as if he’s in your head, you hear loud knocking at your door. you don’t answer at first. it shocks you, and you’re not sure who it is. you try to peer behind your curtains. it’s too foggy to tell. there are five more knocks before you get to the door. eyebrows furrowed, you unlock the door. you hear him before you see him. “y/n/n?”

your breath hitches. there’s no point in making an excuse to not let him in. you’ve already come this far. plus, it’s pouring. you can’t leave him like that. you swallow your spit and pull the door open suddenly. you would’ve never done it if you thought about it too much.

tom is drenched. his hair is all wet, stray pieces falling on his forehead. there are spots of water all over his hoodie, and his shoes must be squishy. he lets out a breath and squints at you.

“oh my god, come in,” you tell him without hesitating, taking a step back. his damp hoodie sleeve brushes your dry one. you push the door closed behind him, fighting off the wind. he runs a hand through his hair to try and get it back in place. “thanks. i know we’re not really talking right now.” all you offer is a sad smile. “it’s just that it was getting really bad, and i didn’t want to be alone,” he explains quietly.

“i... me neither,” you admit, biting down hard on your lip. “do you want a towel?” tom nods and meets your eyes for the first time in almost a month. you’d forgotten how easy it was to get lost in his. how calming, reassuring his gaze could be. “that would be nice, yeah.”

you’re at the kitchen table with mugs of hot chocolate not too much later. you gave him one of his old hoodies he’d let you have a while ago. there’s a blanket wrapped tightly around you, tom holding his mug with both hands. you give him a small smile over the brim of yours.

“how’ve you been? busy?” you ask, taking a sip of hot chocolate while he answers. “no, actually. finished reading a script last week. that’s about it.” he taps his fingers on the side of the mug. you nod along. “was it any good?” you’re asking filler questions to avoid talking about what you both know you have to. tom can tell. he sighs your name. “y/n, we can’t keep ignoring this.”

“ignoring what?” you ask, trying your best to sound genuine. he doesn’t believe it. “the conversation about why you’ve been ignoring me,” he says plainly, eyes fixed on you again. your heart drops. you were planning to just pick things up and pretend none of that happened. that’s not an option when he’s in your house, sat only feet apart from you with warm arms you can fall into.

you have him right where you want him, but you’re not ready to do anything about it.

“i didn’t want to... you were...” you trail off, hoping he’ll interrupt. he doesn’t. he’s patiently waiting for you to get your words out. “tom, i can’t tell you. i just can’t.” he doesn’t do anything for a moment, then he shakes his head. “that doesn’t give me anything. how can i fix this if you won’t tell me what’s wrong?” you put your mug down, clenching your hand into a fist.

“there’s nothing wrong. well, there is, but it’s too embarrassing.” tom puts his mug down next to yours and rests his now free hand on your knee. your tense body relaxes. “you don’t have to be embarrassed in front of me,” he reminds you, squeezing your knee under the blanket. you know he’s right. he’ll let you down easy, if the feelings are one sided.

“i like you. you know, in the crush way. i didn’t want to change things between us, so i thought spending some time on my own would make my feelings go away.” you let out a breathy laugh, staring down at his hand still on you. “it didn’t.” he chuckles and pulls your chair closer to his with his other hand. a smile pulls at your lips. “i’ve always liked you, y/n.” your smile becomes a curious one as you lean forward.

“since when? how was i supposed to know?” he raises both eyebrows. “um, because i’m touchy with you and all that. only save that for the people i crush on.” you huff, tangling a hand in his curls that haven’t completely dried yet. your fingers tug playfully. he crinkles his nose. “i thought that was just a tom thing.” he peeks an eye open. “it’s a tom thing for y/n.”

#tom holland fluff #tom holland imagine #peter parker fluff

[gracefulweather]

i finally found some time to answer u properly !! 😅 why does it always take me like 5 days alfjalfhwl

omg !! did ur album arrive alr? :O mine shipped but all it says is: arriving by december 10 so my guess is it'll get here then :")

oohhh 😳😳😳 my new smau is like .. its ... it has fake dating... and its a uni au..and i am incapable of writing summaries bc i always want to spoil everything lmao 😅

im always thankful that you're so supportive of my works, truly 🥺 esp the ateez smau ! i'll prob b posting more when im done w finals

THE WORLD TOUR AHHHHH i can't believe they're having it !! i'm so excited to see what they perform ! also ateez comeback soon?!?! it was so sudden i thought i was seeing something wrong 😭 but omg u had tickets from 2020??? (but i agree :( i see so many artists having concerts but crowds... and covid...🥲)

PLEASE 😭 i loved ur fic sm i think abt it constantly 😊

i haven't seen hellbound ! i've heard some things abt it, but im not sure if i wanna watch 🤔 did u watch it then?

oof i actually have no idea which tbz series are where 💀 but i have seen that it keeps getting taken down :( wish we could just have the content

yes omg i love the maverick series so much ! it was so fun to watch :D did u watch both eps?

akfhaldskjf thats a v good question 😬 for me, i usually only write for my ult groups so like (atz, tbz, txt, skz) and i find it easier to write for my biases or bias wreckers which is kinda unfair when i only have fics/series for specific members but it just feels more natural (?) to write about them? idk man

wbu??? how do u decide which members to write abt? & is there a group you haven't written abt that u want to?

oohh !! i saw that too ! i think it was kev? but now im so excited to see what they end up performing ! DRINK IT SUPREMACY I LOVE THAT SONG 😍 also saw that hyunjae said he'll do a vlive w sunwoo after the fancon 👀

i think it would b so cool if they did like a movie version where it was just story 👀

i always feel like tbz's promo periods are way shorter than other groups :( maybe they are idk but i also really really want them to rest

wbu? do u like the shorter promo periods?

(also i do love the sea of hyunjae on ur blog 😍)

hope ur taking care of yourself !! sending u lots of love ❤❤❤

OK OK SO U PULLED SUNWOO BUT who else!!! i got jacob id card and poster, eric qr code thingy, then for pcs: sangyeon <3333, kevin, and the bbangnyu for the unit one!! vaguely surprised there's no jumil in any form but my luck has never been great :') wbu!!!

ooOOH fake dating?? 😍 but omg the way you said anyone could be endgame.... are u gonna pull a massive plot twist on us hmmm 👀 OK BUT when y/n said "a whole hour before your wakeup time" to kyu I FELT THAT 🤡🤡🤡 y/n working at a museum tho that's so interesting :O ok u know what i'll just save the feedback for ur inbox instead LMAO

omg both the ateez comeback and world tour dates are rushed HAHA what is kq doing.... i'm still on the fence about going to the concert tho ugH 😭 but thoughts on turbulence?!?? such a pretty but sad mv tho :')

i watched hellbound bc the concept was intriguing, like people are being summoned to hell via these supernatural beings? i expected the characters to investigate everything that was going on but there was a focus on violence without actually solving anything 😭 maybe bc netflix wants to drag it out into s2 tho idkk

ohh for tbz shows i've been using this spreadsheet!! omg bless those admins 🥺 not sure if dnd is still up bc they were saying it was taken down but timeout works!! and YEAHH loved the maverick series it was so much fun, i wish it was longer LOL

oooh i agree it's definitely easier and more natural to write about ur biases or bias wreckers!! although i barely have anything for sangyeon yet oops i sometimes come up with a plot first then figure out which member fits the role best but other times i start with the member then build the plot. hmm as for groups i wanna write for, i was thinking maybe golcha or skz!! maybe when my tbz obsession dies down a little HAHA

OH YEAH the fancon!! hyunjae and younghoon's new hair colours 😍 did u see all the fancams and stuff?! they're so cute i'm glad they got to see fans again ♥ no drink it but we got kingdom come omggg 😭😭😭 actually feel like there's a good chance they'll do kingdom come for year end award shows 👀

hmm i think it's just become a trend to do really short promo periods now? deffs see it in other groups too at least compared to second gen, but i feel like tbz has a short teaser period too LOL. i do think it's a little too short but they're always so busy with other stuff so :')

(we don't speak of the hyunjae there is too much hyunjae on here how did this even happen omg)

but yeahh hope ur doing well!! esp if exam season is coming up for u 😭 stay healthy, don't stress too much <33

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[blackaquokat]

Prompt: I haven't slept in four days... Details, sort of: After WKM and in the van videos universe or timeline? Pairing: Acting Attorney Pleaassseee? You're the best!

Absolutely! Thank you, dearie! I’ve beeneager to write more post-WKM Acting Attorney! Speaking of, I’d like to addresssomething: I write the DA as a self-insert, but I want you all to keep in mind,the DA is not based on me. Like, at all. And this is not the real Markiplier,this is Actor!Mark. As a result, Amyplier will not be addressed in this series,primarily because I love those two and would rather just leave them out of myworks out of respect. I feel awkward enough writing about Mark in general, evenas Actor!Mark. No one has mentioned it to me yet, but I wanted to address itanyway. Okay, on with the prompt!

P.S. This may end up canon to my unnamed Acting Attorney series as of yet, and this prompt I answered earlier thatyou can read here could be considered the prequel to this.

132: “ I haven’t sleptin four days… ”

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It takes some time for Mark to get the former DistrictAttorney acclimated to living in an actual home.

As soon as they arrived at his home, his friendasked to use the shower. The hope in their voice was so fragile at the time. Ittook an hour-long shower, a bottle of body wash, three bars of soap, and halfa shampoo bottle before they decided they were presentable.  (“I had trouble figuring out the hot and coldsettings, but I…I’m not sure why…”) Considering how small they were, Mark hadto call a few friends, Amy and Ethan for example, inquiring for oldclothes they didn’t mind lending out.

Once his old friend was bathed and adorned in clean, if notfresh, clothes, they began to resemble an everyday modern citizen, a ratherunsettling sight for Mark. Not just because they’re still emaciated andhaggard, but more because he still expects to see them in 1940s regalia.

Mark offers them the spare room in his home and from there,he’s not entirely sure what he shoulddo. So he posts an update about taking the week off from making videos in orderto offer his friend full attention. This includes making sure they eat, takingthem to shop for non-hand-me-down clothes, and answering most of their questions.

That last one is the most revealing in regard to just howdeep the former DA’s amnesia runs. Not only do they have no recollection oftheir life before the manor, they also carry little to no knowledge aboutmodern technology. The first time the microwave alarmed, they yelped and felloff the kitchen stool.

This opens up even more questions:

What happened to them in the manor?

How long have they been alive? (Are they alive, though?Their skin is cold to the touch, and Mark’s not always sure he feels a pulsewhen he holds their hand to lead them down through the city.)

Why don’t theyremember anything since then?

About half a week in, Mark discovers yet another problem his oldfriend is facing.

Mark has always had trouble sleeping, especially since theManor.  He doesn’t know if it’s just theafter-effect of interacting with the Dark Entity for so long, or if it’s justfurther evidence of how deep his guilt goes, but there it is.

Now that the former DA is back in his life, he’s morerestless than ever at night. On this particular evening, he gives up ratherquickly on sleep and decides to go binge-watch One-Punch Man or something.

Upon arriving in the living room, he sees the DA lying onthe floor in front of the couch, staring up at the ceiling without a focuspoint in their gaze. Couple that withthe strange paleness of their dark skin, and the hands folded on their stomach,and they’re far too resembling of a corpse.

Mark has only a moment to be embarrassed about wearingpajamas with his brand (why should that embarrass him now? It never botheredhim before.) before he announces his presence with a question: “Are you okay?”

They startle out of their position, eyes wide and breathquick. Mark is a little relieved to see them move.

“Oh, hi, Mark. I, um…” They clear their throat and shuffleto their feet. “Sorry, I’ll go back to the room—”

“No, stop that,” Mark stresses. “You’re out here for a reason.What’s the matter?”

“Um…well…” They shrug, a helpless gesture. “I can’t sleep.”Seeing the question in his gaze, they continue, “The bed is really soft, I feel like I’m going tofall through to the ground, then I keep turning the light back on becausesomething about the dark makes me feel trapped, and…” Their hands run throughtheir shorn curls. “And…I saw my reflection in the window, earlier, and had thisawful urge to throw a chair through it, so I decided to come out here instead.Property damage is a pretty awful show of gratitude, you know.”

They avoid his gaze as they confess this.

“How long has it been since you slept?” Mark should havenoticed the exhaustion in their shadowed eyes, but he’s been a little moreconcerned with how visible their ribs have been through the tighter shirts they’veworn.

“I don’t know, one…maybe four days…”

“Wha—four days?” Markpinches the bridge of his nose.

“I’m sorry, I don’t want to cause a problem,” they apologize.“I didn’t mean to wake you up—”

“You didn’t,” Mark interrupts. “I have trouble sleeping too.”He looks at the TV, then back at them. “May as well stay up together. What doyou say to some tea and maybe a show or two?”

They sigh, probably relieved he didn’t try to make them goback to bed. Tyler’s tried that once or twice with Mark, to no avail, so heknows better.

“Sounds good.”

It takes time for Mark to decide what to put on for them,after making the tea. His first instinct is maybe an Agatha Christie adaptation,but then he rapidly discards that as too much of a risk.But anything too modern might not work either…

He’s still scrolling through titles on Netflix when hisfriend perks up. “Was that Poirot?”

“I…yes, yes it was.” So much for no Agatha Christie. “Sothis is your vote?”

Their enthusiastic nod is enough for him to queue the firstepisode. He’s never been much for period dramas (considering he lived throughsome himself), but mysteries aren’t so bad. And with their tea in hand, both ofthem sitting on opposite ends of the couch, Mark almost feels…normal again. In a way he hasn’t sincethe last time he and his friend spent time together so long ago.

A few minutes in, Mark risks a glance at the DA. They lookrather…lost in thought. “Are you bored?” he asks. “I can change it, if youwant.”

“No, no don’t! It’s just…” They shake their head. “This…thisfeels awfully familiar.” Their hands tighten on the steaming mug of tea. “But Ican’t place why…”

Mark keeps still, waiting for…he’s not sure. A spark ofrecognition? Hatred?

He won’t lie to himself. As soon as the realization of theliving DA sunk in, Mark feels like he’s been given a second chance to right thewrongs he’s done to his friend, from both before and during the events of theManor. Part of him desperately wants them to see him, know who they had been to each other…

But the smarter, more self-aware part of himself realizesthat, given his past actions and their history as a whole, their reaction tohis identity would definitely be less-than-flattering.

So he waits to see which option he’ll have to deal with.

Luckily (?), their gaze clears a moment later. “Sorry, thatsounds crazy.” They take a deep breath, and let it out. “Thanks for the tea,”they say as they turn their gaze back to the screen.

The tension leaves his shoulders, but the guilt seeps in toreplace it.

One day, he’ll tell them. When he’s brave enough to face the disgust they’ll undoubtedly treat him with.

Half an hour later, Mark and the DA fall utterly asleep ontheir respective sides of the couch, while the show plays on before them.

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[i-just-really-like-ladies]

Hey op, I saw your post about discovering you were autistic. Something similar is happening to me except I haven't gone for a diagnosis yet. Would it be okay for you to talk about how you knew?

For me there are things that...fit really well, that hit very close to home, but others not so, so Im not sure if whatever it is that I've got (because clearly, something is there.) I'm not very sure if the autistic spectrum can be so wide as for me to be included in it.

Any tips?

Of course, happy to help.

For me there were three kind of bigger indicators.

First, and after discussing this one with my therapist, it seems to be very consistent across autistic people: I've always felt different. Like I knew that I was at the very least slightly off in comparison to other people. (Please excuse the phrasing, I couldn't think of another way to put it properly).

Second, linked with the first: I have always experienced this thing I like to describe as 'not feeling like a real person'. All that really means is that I see the way other people are out laughing boldly with friends or joking or just straight up experiencing the world, and I think "man, I wish I could be a real person." And it always made me sad because I was consciously realising that I cannot and do not experience the world in the same way most neurotypical people do. It was just this huge feeling of otherness. (My therapist indicated that this is very common)

Third: masking. Now, this one made me feel bad for a really long time because I had no clue what was going on until my ex-girlfriend was like "oh, yeah, that's masking." For me, one of the biggest ways I mask is to copy mannerisms and speech patterns of people I'm around. I do it the most when I really like someone (friend like or romantically) or when a person makes me so extremely uncomfortable that I guess my brain is like "you need to mimic them for safety reasons." The reason this one bothered me so much is that I always felt like I just couldn't have my own personality, why was I always copying other people, surely they've all noticed and think I'm a fucking weirdo. It was very upsetting until I learned it was masking. Finding that out has helped me to accept it when I do it, even though I am trying to mask less.

So, those are the big three. There are lots of other minor things. I have ocd, which very commonly goes hand in hand with Autism. I got that need for rigid schedule and following the same patterns almost daily (slight variations are okay, but people planning stuff and not telling me when I've already set up my personal schedule for the day in my head, big no no). I eat the same foods on repeat and have an extremely difficult time changing it up. When I like food or dislike it, the primary reason is texture. (My fiance actually pointed this one out. Apparently I talk about the texture of food a ton).

I'm sure you've probably come across information about the emotionality of Autistic people. The common trope is that we are very emotionless. However, thats not accurate at all. There are two main big categories of where we can fall: tending to not feel emotions very strongly (the trope), and feeling emotions very intensely, more intensely than neurotypical society says is appropriate 🙄. I fall into this category, and I hate it because I have spent so much time trying to just not feel my emotions because they are so intense and my expression of them is 'inappropriate' that it has caused a great many mental health issues for me. So the eye roll face is because I think that the appropriate expression of emotion dictated by most of society is stupid. Along with this one, I have a hard time verbalizing and verbally identifying how I am feeling. As a result, I tend to just tell people I am upset. My therapist says this is somewhat common amongst Autistic individuals. I cannot recall the reasoning she gave for it being common, but I am including it because it was brought up in the process of discussing all this.

I also have this huge tendency to overexplain my reasons for things I've done or said because I do not want to be misunderstood/I have experienced misunderstanding so many times that I learned to do this at some point (I consider this to be part of my masking). This one seems to be pretty common, at least from tiktok. I've seen a lot of Autistic people on tiktok mention it.

Side note in relation to this but still relevant to the post imo, I hate that society tends to think you are lying the more detail you provide. I have a tendency to find all details absolutely vital. So when telling someone about what happened in a situation, I relay as much information as I can. Apparently, that means you are lying. It frustrates me a lot.

In that same vein, another thing my therapist said is fairly common: many Autistic people like to ask why continuously. Not as in just repeating "why," but rather that someone will say "I don't know" or provide an answer, but we often are still seeking a further reason. I've done this my entire life, and booooy does it aggravate people. For me it is just that I want to know the reasoning behind things. I want to know as much information as possible about the topic, and, as mentioned above, I tend to find every single detail absolutely important. That just leads to continuously asking why.

So another one for me, of which I am unsure the commonality: I have a very difficult time maintaining friendships unless I see someone most days of the week. I would say about 5 out of the 7 makes it the easiest for me, but it has worked out on less than that, rarely. The reason for this is that I forget to talk to people when I cannot physically see them. I mean, I just don't think about it for weeks on end. Then I will for a second, but won't message them because I'm doing something, and then forget about it again for ages. Part of this is that I prefer in person communication because I can try to read people's body language and facial expressions. The other part is tone of voice is more clear in person than via text. Now, this one bothered me when I was trying to figure out if I was autistic because it is common for Autistic people to not recognise facial cues and body language the same way as neurotypical people. Turns out, according to my testing results paperwork, i just have a higher ability to recognise facial expressions than most people diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder. So, I just vary a bit from the average.

Within this same vein is the commonly known 'eye contact issue'. The stereotype is that we cannot and do not make eye contact. This is so false. Many Autistic people do not make eye contact well, yes, but not all. For example, I do. I told one of my brothers I was getting tested for Autism and his response was, and I quote literally here, "I don't think you're Autistic because you make eye contact." What he didn't know is the reason why I make eye contact. I do it because I was taught repeatedly that it is how you show people you are listening. So, basically, I'm masking when I make eye contact because I'm solely doing it to show someone I am listening to them. In fact, 😆 I commonly am sitting there telling myself to make eye contact in order to indicate that I am present and interested in what the other person is saying. I also have a harder time masking this way when attempting to talk about things that are important and emotionally relevant to me. In therapy, I rarely make eye contact with my therapist because it is so difficult to talk about things in general that I cannot also make eye contact. Lastly, for this one, the more comfortable I am with someone, the less I make eye contact with them. My fiance, for example, not very common at all that I do it.

There is also the very common special interests phenomenon. The media tends to show this as a math or science thing, but it really isn't. I follow one tiktoker whose special interest is bugs and, I believe, art. I highly recommend her. Her handle is: soundoftheforest. For me, it's language/linguistics and ancient egypt, Greece and Rome. Really, I'd say ancient anywhere history, but those are the big three. Egypt has been my longest interest, besides language. I actually remember the moment I was like "this is it for life." I was 7 and had finished my library books but was bored at daycare. So I went to the book shelf and picked up a book about King Tut. It was the page I read about the day Howard Carter found the tomb. And I just knew me and Ancient Egypt were meant to be forever. As for language, I've literally always been fascinated by it. I started speaking very early and with more complex words than is usual. And I just continued to love language from there. I ended up studying ancient Greek and Latin in college. Also, I info dump about these all the time, almost anytime I possibly can because they're so fucking cool. 😁

Another side note, it is common for Autistic individuals to have delays in speaking, I just did not. It is not something required for the diagnosis. It is just very common.

This one is a little bit weird, and might just be a me thing, but I've discussed it with my therapist. She indicated that it very much aligns with Autism. I cannot, or can but with extreme apprehension and knowledge that I will leave depressed; I simply cannot go into buildings of certain lighting, age, and design. It seems to be buildings that look and/or feel like they were built in the 1960s or 1970s. We haven't really figured out why that is a thing, but it is. I once didn't bother to finish applying for a job to teach Latin that I'd basically been guaranteed so long as I sent in the app because when I went for the interview I saw the building and knew I could not teach there, even part time, because the building would depress me constantly. It's a weird one, but if you have anything at all where you just cannot do it because you know it will affect you like this, I'd bring it up in discussing potentially being Autistic.

I nearly forgot to mention this one, but you've probably heard about the sensory issues that many Autistic people deal with. I have some with touching things, but it is less common an issue for me than my sound sensitivity issues. I am very sensitive to sound. If I had to give a 4th big reason, this would be it because I get overstimulated and overwhelmed by sound multiple times a day. Its rough. If you also have this issue, I cannot recommend enough noise cancelling headphones and chew stim toys when you don't have your headphones. It's really helpful.

This last one I'm going to mention is something that I think I do just to help prevent burnout from masking, but is also part of me specifically. I am an introvert. So that plays a role in this. I spend the vast majority of my time completely by myself. I do mean even when at home with my fiance. We are often in different rooms. I have no problem with it. It doesn't feel like it is bad for our relationship, thankfully. I just prefer to be alone most of the time. The more time I spend around people, the more time afterwards I need alone. That is partially my introvertedness but also me needing to because I am socially exhausted from masking and trying to read all the social cues and not make weird errors when in social settings 😳, which I do a lot. I think I just default to spending time by myself when I am not required to engage with people in order to ensure that I can later. Plus, in discussing this one with my therapist, we concluded that I do this at least in part to prevent burnout and overstimulation.

As for the testing itself. I discussed this with my therapist for a while when waiting to get tested, and by the time I did get tested, I had a nice long list of stuff to bring up. I would definitely recommend compiling a list of the symptoms/signs you feel are indicative for yourself. It was very quick after I first brought it up in therapy that I decided I needed the official diagnosis for myself. So my therapist gave me recommendations of who to see. I also looked myself because the recommended people were so booked they couldn't even schedule further out. Once I got it scheduled, I had to wait like 3 months for the appointments. So, if you are seeking the official diagnosis, don't give up because it's a long wait. From what I've seen others saying, it's pretty common to have to wait a bit to be seen.

There were 3 appointments, an intake, a testing, and a feedback appointment. The intake appointment involved me talking to the doctor about my experiences and why I thought I might be autistic. She asked me a few questions about the more commonly known signs of autism if I did not mention them. The testing appointment took about 4 hours and involved a self report personality assessment, several verbal and memory activities, a teaching activity, two story telling/creating activities, and (the part I thought was most difficult) an activity in which I had to identify the emotion being expressed by just the eye and eyebrow area of black and white photos of people. I also had a take home assessment for someone who knew me really well. It was related to executive functioning abilities and emotional regulation abilities. I cannot speak on the feedback appointment because of technical issues resulting in not actually having that appointment. I have rescheduled it and will be doing that later this month.

If you have anything more specific you want to ask me about, please do. I am happy to answer.

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